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I did this with colored pencils when I was living at the “psychedelic church” in NYC. which I left upon realizing that they’re misguided and insane.
I salvaged some of my artwork, this is one of a few. should I finish this? the paper is old and damaged at the corners.. but it feels like I should
I had a conversation with McKenna that actually straightened me out about the church he also bequeathed me some of his DMT stash, which of course helped) — I could write a book about this all..
There’s so much to discuss regarding “religion”, what happens when a human decides to start one, how much is “check out what I found!” and how much is a misery-loves-company kind of byproduct of one’s catharsis, I even got this from Pink Floyd, actually, like “LSD wasn’t easy for us so we’re not going to make it easy for you.. “ lol
when are we going to know exactly what endogenous DMT wants us to know about this agonizingly slow process of discovering what it is? I’ve spent most of my life trying to fully wrap my mind around the idea that the human species can make its own inner consciousness illegal, and what a massive tectonic shift it will be when we finally recognize it as the thing we’ve been trying to call a “communion wafer” and ..make gluten illegal 😬😁
Where do I find your book? Was the Psychadelic Church the hangout of the Merry Pranksters?
I haven’t nearly started… Hamilton Morris wants to do a documentary on my experiences with the psychedelic church but he still hasn’t gotten the funding
the Church was a bunch of people in New York City who, at first to us young teenagers, seemed like a benevolent wholesome psychedelic community
until they wanted you to donate all of your money, become part of their commune and you were the …only one working a full-time job and supporting them,
I was kind of their liaison between their funky repressed church and the real world, I was a teenager who played sheedding guitar and they were all repressed nerds lol when I left they basically went ballistic telling all my friends I was “Judas” and I had committed “Deadly Sin” lol and by turning away from…well..some guy named Alan Birnbaum who they thought was Jesus, I was now literally the worst person in the world lol
they used to have peyote, and a lot of members, but then they got busted, all their members left except for four or five, and they began making legal analogues to DMT (MET, DPT, DIPT..) so as to not get in trouble with the law
but the guy became an extremely bitter, vindictive control freak because he lost his many members
and his court case suing for bona-fide status
he lost because he was indiscriminately selling controlled substances to kids as young as 12…
in the completely disingenuous guise, we later learned, of being a bona fide branch of the Native American Church, which it was not, and had no legal exemption for peyote.. which a lot of young teenagers thought they did, told their parents all about it etc. and it got super weird
it’s an extremely long story but basically some loser couldn’t make a song or write a poem or do anything to get somebody’s attention despite all the beautiful psychedelics he had done that have helped him so much… so he… had to start a cult and threaten people to stay there or else they would be guilty of sin
at first he didn’t spring it on us that he thought he was Jesus, it was after the free rice and beans and starting to donate our money that the plot thickened lol
it’s a truly incredibly fucking story and they’re still around and have maybe four of their five members left or something
how sick is this? adopted a cat, and because it was meowing at the parakeet they let fly around the room, they tied its neck to a door knob and were wiping pure tryptamine crystal on its nose as a punishment.
I should’ve had him arrested back then for animal cruelty.
i’ve learned a real lot about how to treat people from my experience at this place (regardless of how scathing I am on Reddit regarding post-1977 Pink Floyd lol) I’m extremely good to younger people, empowering, the opposite of how these people treated their subservients. build trust, never even leave room for someone to think you have any other agenda but to help see them through their transition to adulthood in a wholesome way (I’m a mentor and English tutor to some young people who have since become deeply close friends)
their name is “the temple of the true inner light” (which I of course am only placing here in case someone searches the term and wants to read about what they really like because I can’t be bothered to edit they’re completely full of shit Wikipedia page ha)
which is of course exactly as disingenuous as “make America great again“ or “the truth social net work” and for the exact same reason
Hey I guess I should’ve expected somebody to ask but I wasn’t trying to get into all the drama
powerful lessons tho.. they translate to every other kind of relationship — what kind of people get off on subjugating other people?
Could you elaborate a bit more about the church if you don't mind? I've heard of it but not the side you mentioned.
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Ridiculous piece, in the best way possible. I'm awestruck. Thank you for doing your part in this becoming of the aesthetic cosmic agenda. Psychs really are powerful catalysts for art.
huge thanks
Beautiful
thanks. I have a strange relationship with Reddit, I sometimes fail to come back and follow up..apologies to all for that
I’m trying to find myself less argumentative, I get into conflict with people who think they understand Pink Floyd
am trying to Learn Self Discipline 😁
this is fucking dope
Looks like you got some work to get done, partner. Love what you have here!
yeah man… and like 25 songs in ProTools I’m still working on finishing because Pink Floyd died in 1977 and did the disco shuffle.. it’s a long fucking to-do list 😂
I actually know there’s going to be a day where I run out and buy a set of Berol prisma color pencils (if that’s still a thing) and actually finish this
this work of art is a masterpiece, in its unfinished form it has even more character, its like being pulled out of the universe before it has a chance to fully manifest. please leave it unfinished it seems to hold a truth that why, something unique to your own life. you Although it would be very cool to see an overlay with a different feel to it,, like that plastic o. h. p. the paper over the top so it is layers. anyway very beautiful work and an interesting life story to accompany it too.
hey thanks a lot for this and I feel like I’m saying this in every comment I leave now but apologies for the delay in responding I’m trying to improve my relationship with Reddit so as not to cringe expecting arguments about Pink Floyd where people tell me I “should get out more” because they need to get in more 😂
I thought of using an overlay to actually trace the entire thing and start over, it’s like 30 years old and the paper is damaged lol
huge thanks
Amazing, I can see the entities all around bouncing with joy
It looks great incomplete…Almost reminds me of a butterfly shape!
very very hot
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lol poor teeny Alan Birnbaum, who is exactly like Donald Trump in so many ways, is still butt hurt that I.. left 40 years ago?
think about what that says about you people!
ways in which Donald Trump is the reincarnation of Alan Birnbaum:
1, Alan is also a pedophile, openly admitting to fucking a 13-year-old girl named "love sprout", her real name was Lauren, I knew her — when Alan was 36 years. I'm still friends with people who were witness to this, and I am perfectly comfortable putting this in writing..with family members who are in law enforcement 🤗
2, overwhelmingly similar — the desperate, transparent projecting, gaslighting AND the juvenile slang names you make for people when they leave, because your followers are so spineless that simply employing the threat of ridicule is enough to secure them??
hehe but WAIT.. pause and think about this.. "demonic" is an adjective. have I actually done anything immoral? ever?? nope. that's why you use adjectives
I'm not using adjectives or slang names, I'm making very specific, factual accusations of criminal behavior — none of which you have ever denied, but you just try to deflect by throwing feces like a monkey
3, SADISM. you adopted a cat, and you had a bird that you let out of the cage, and you would PUNISH the cat for meowing at the bird.
😡😡😡 to anybody reading this, I'll sign an affidavit under oath: they literally tied a rope around the cat's neck and fastened it to a door knob to punish it for… being a fucking cat and meowing at the bird that they deliberately teased it with by letting it fly around the house — AND — think about how severely deranged this is — 👉 they wiped crystal DPT on their cat's NOSE, which is of course excruciatingly painful, to "punish it" further for meowing. at the bird.
I left in 1985 after this moron falsely accuse me of "stealing" papers that I had actually copied myself from a library and brought there.. in the most incredibly Trump-like way, he refused to consider the possibility that he actually made a mistake and misplaced them, and when he found them, insisted that I, "sneaky took them and put them back without anybody noticing"
lol I had been there for four years, and because of how STARKLY wrong (and embarrassingly idiotic) this person Alan was — who laughably, literally had everybody calling him "the Lord", because he was indeed the reincarnation of Jesus Christ lol — he WAS LYING and falsely accusing me to ..cover his ass? for a simple mistake??
as unthinkable as it would have been the day before, I literally packed up my clothes and the five dollars I had to my name and left that night!!!
unlike Alan Jesus Birnbaum, I had friends ..who welcomed me with open arms, I had wholesome places to stay
look at what that tiny mistake cost him! lol is anybody here old enough to remember the Happy Days episode where the Fonz can't say he was wrong? hehe
Alan. or whoever his little mouthpiece is here: you LOST. Joe is still my best friend, we still dose and play music together, Jeff K and I are great friends and see each other all the time, same with Sven.. remember my girlfriend Merry? Who I was in love with at age 16? I'm still in touch with her AND her brother, who visited the other day
see, here's the problem and why you're so miserably rattled with jealousy of me, and why you're so blinded by this jealousy that you don't even see how transparently you've made me your "Obama":
I had a lot of friends before I came there and I still have the same friends now.
I was deeply close with L before I came there and I'm still deeply close with L now 😳📣💧
I was more talented than you, Alan, you were a fucking nerd who went to Julliard to study classical music — I was a shredding guitar player when I was 13 and into Hendrix and Floyd — you were miserably desperate for attention that you weren't getting with your talent, so you started a cult. this is a VERY old playbook.
(at a McKenna lecture I went to in 1993, he uttered the phrase, "churches are for nerds who can't get laid" 😂😂😂)
oh but the elephant in the room is that I'm much smarter than you are, and you couldn't possibly handle that and..verrrrrry specifically here:
I TOLD YOU to stop selling DPT if you wanted to win your court case, that they would accuse you of dealing and use that against you (they did)
but you were a stubborn, egomaniacal ass and didn't listen to me simply because you didn't want to be "listening to Dave"
and so you went fugitive because you were too much of a spineless rodent to show up for your sentencing, and so you... rationalized, "but this is what Jesus did!!!"
and from then on, you needed to tell yourself that the "crucifixion of Christ" was actually his "being sentenced to prison and going into hiding" lol
allllll because you...had a dream about John Belushi (I swear to God to anybody reading this I'm not making any of this up)
you might want to consult a lawyer before printing what you are alleging people's real names are on a public forum, which is a violation of the rules, and if you were to actually accuse me of anything (which is probably why you haven't lol), that would in fact be a violation of federal law, as this forum cross state lines — you are using electronic communication to harass and slander, which is in fact a federal crime
lol in a few days it will be 40 years since I left, I have incredible health, a wonderful life, and a cat named Pistachio that loves to sit on my window and meow at the birds 😻😻😻, who I love more than anything else in the world
this thing you're trying to do, you've been trying to do it for 40 years and it doesn't work, which is the definition of idiocy, is it not?
think about how teeny and pathetic you sound saying that I'm "behaving demonically".. lol by telling people what you've and done? like when Trump calls reporters "obnoxious" lol
Obama has never, ever been rattled by Trump. he just laughs at what a miserable idiot he is,
spending his whole life with his panties in a bunch because people know he's less intelligent ..and even less likable
I suppose you don't know what it's like to actually feel secure, confident, respected, and loved by people you've grown up with who know you since you're a child.
but I do. and it's fucking wonderful, the result of listening to psychedelics instead of using them as a net to ensnare people and make them feel guilty if they don't give you all their money ..ya parasitic little mosquito 😻
I was always a kind person that liked to help people, empower other people, make people feel strong and better about themselves. even my friends' parents love me 🤗
I am the polar opposite of you. and all you can do is hate that 🤭😁🔥
came back here to fix some typos but it won't let me edit.
what an amazing social study this all has been. the era of gaslighting and projection, all brought to a seething head in Donald Trump. but only because Alan Bernbaum couldn't make himself anything but super unknown lollll
"the temple of the true inner light"
"make america great again"
i'm not sure how many people listen closely enough, but I'm pretty sure this line in Pink Floyd, "Echoes", despite the printed lyrics, is:
"and something stirs and something tries and starts to climb toward the lie"
😎
hehe also.. if you saw the "artwork" Alan Birnbaum used to do, color puzzles like a six-year-old does and colors in, but of course they were "super psychedelic" because he did them after he smoked DPT woohoo... you'll understand how perfectly rattled this guy was by me.
this is what miserable, competitive losers do, they project the same competitiveness and "bitterness" on the other person
It's good you didn't call me a "low-IQ individual" like Trump calls the people who know how stupid he is, because then I would be forced to reveal my IQ, a thing I would prefer not to do 🤓
but Alan knows I went to Hunter College HS, and he knows that I was doing peak psychedelics with my student teacher/big sister when I was 13..
the reason I put so much energy into mentoring and helping other people is because I was supremely fortunate to have known good people who took me under their wing when I was a kid and taught me the ropes
before that student teacher I had identical twin Dutch babysitters named Yvonne and Yvette who were always listening to 70s Floyd.. and I'm actually still in touch with them as well!!!
I've never been drunk, I've never done speed or narcotics, I didn't need these nanny-state-pseudo-"Christian" parasites to "rein in my mortal habits" lollll
when I was first doing L, I would've given anything in the world to think that I could be 60 and still dosing with the same best friend, and have the health I have now
one thing that is much better now than when I was 13, despite the domestic terrorism now ravaging our country, is.. not just that cannabis is legal but extremely pure cannabinoids of all different kinds, with massive health benefits, are available, i've helped completely changed peoples lives with H4CBD, CBG, CBN, and recently found a reputable source for THCA, which has been the holy Grail (no connection to the bottom of this post lol)
if I liked to argue with people, I would spend a lot more time here.. I posted recently about a brainstorm I had about the I Ching.. I avoid arguments and stress, but I Love Serious Discussion 🤗
there are two kinds of people in this world.
1, those who feel bigger when they make other people feel bigger
2, those who feel bigger when they make other people feel smaller
I've compromised a lot of opportunities for success because I don't like to "tower over", or lead, or instruct other people, even as a musician I can't be a band leader and make other people play my music, it has to be an organic, mutually derived process
I like to surround myself with people who I can learn from, who keep me from getting stuck, who force me to break my habits of thought, who enrich my knowledge base and invigorate my critical thinking specifically by poking holes in it whenever possible
I learned at a very early age that showing humility earns respect, not being a hardheaded dick and doubling down when you're wrong lol
I can't imagine living with myself if I were some person who has "followers" or sycophants, it seems nauseating
HELP OTHER PEOPLE LIVE BETTER.
NOT because you're miserably insecure and think you can trick people into submission and subjugation by disingenuously projecting charity,
but because it feels fucking powerful to move people FORWARD, not under your diseased little thumb that's desperately trying to look like a bigger thumb lol
it pays off, trust me.
I've worked extremely hard at pretty much only one thing my entire life: staying me
no.. two. two things: staying me, and keeping friends
no no.. THREE, three things: staying me, keeping friends, and making subtle references to Monty Python skits nobody expects at the end of Reddit inquisitions 😜
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ha! why do you say that? i’m extremely curious. I know psilocybin was legal in Japan until 2006, and when I discovered this I was shocked, and it made me rethink everything in the anime world…
but honestly I’m not the slightest bit connected to anything in Japanese culture (probably to my loss)
Please explain