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Pluribus is About a Life as a Closeted Queer Person

Cishets kinda feel like hive mind sometimes.

3 min readNov 18, 2025

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Like, honestly, this is usually the part where I say the show is trans-ish to game the algorithm or some shit but it isnโ€™t.

The main character, Carol, IS a lesbian though.

And sheโ€™s closeted.

Sheโ€™s a romance author and her manager, Helen, is her secret girlfriend. She doesnโ€™t tell the fans of her book that sheโ€™s a lesbian though and the main character of her romance series is a man, but was originally supposed to be a woman.

In the first episode of the series, its like thereโ€™s these two problems for Helen, she has to pretend to be a straight woman in a job thatโ€™s consistently about writing straight romance and quasi-erotica. Like, sheโ€™s LITERALLY a lesbian writing steamy romance novels for straight women.

But thereโ€™s also this feeling that she feels she could do more or have more.

I kinda get that.

Iโ€™m a closeted trans woman. Iโ€™m a lesbian but canโ€™t even say it because Iโ€™m not out as a trans woman.

I also writeโ€ฆbut Iโ€™m not all that good at it really so I feel like a failure all the time.

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ElizaBeth

Written by ElizaBeth

Just another closeted, pre-everything transgirl.

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I also writeโ€ฆbut Iโ€™m not all that good at it really so I feel like a failure all the time.

On the contrary, this & much of what you write is great

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For me, Iโ€™ve never been uber-feminine or anything, I can look like a straight guy or whatever so people leave me alone.

I don't know if this helps some of the pain and despair you have obviously been feeling more deeply recently but I was jarred by this description of you because I absolutely forget time and again that you are not out in your personal life, you speakโ€ฆ

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