20k!!! Right around the corner!!!
Super scary!
So far, everything still feels pretty surreal. It's gotten tricky here and there trying to convince myself that I've been doing the right thing just uploading my videos, but I've come to the conclusion that I think it's good, and I'm gonna keep going.
People sometimes accuse me of making up my videos or "queerbaiting" (real term, apparently), and it's been hard trying to not let it get to me. This channel is a coping mechanism for me because tons of crap has happened to me, and it helps me make sense of it. This ain't meant for anyone in particular; it's meant for whoever comes across it. Not queer people, not straight people, not anybody specific.
If you think my videos are helping you make sense of your personal queer experiences, cool. If not, that's also cool. I just want to help myself and anyone else who needs it, even if it's just by entertaining them with a ridiculous story. I'm gonna try to not let the hate throw me off my groove because I know that I'm in the right. I'm not mad at people for thinking I'm out of my mind; petty hatred leads nowhere.
Thanks to everybody who's stuck around. Seriously, this channel has been a wonderful blessing, and I'm glad that I'm able to share my experiences with others in a meaningful way.
If I had to give out one message to y'all, I'd say to just be lenient with yourself and others. Some people just aren't gonna understand your experiences, and that's okay. Their "hatred" for your experiences is rooted in general ignorance (not in a bad way). Don't feel the need to return the favor with more hatred; the last thing we need is double the amount of hateful people in this world. Just know you're loved, and also try to love others, even if they don't love you back.
Again, big thanks to everybody! That's all for now.
Also, take a look at this beautiful drawing by zepphy!!!
