My Answers:
1. My biological father is a controlling religious fundie and also a lazy deadbeat. My mom divorced him when I was still just a kid. I haven't spoken to him in years. My dad insists that autism isn't real and that "big pharma" made it up but my Mom thinks that my Dad is autistic. The thought of this horrifies me to no end because I don't want to become as crazy as him and I don't want to end up as a bad father or fuck up a marriage like he did. My mother is also controlling and angry all the time. My stepfather mostly just agrees with my mother like the white knight he is.
2. My stepbrother and biological sister used to torment me over my autism. My stepsister is my only good sibling.
3. In the last thread, I already mentioned Ramattra, Kirby, Wario, Luigi and the Mario princesses but I also want to add Amelia Bedelia. She's probably autistic since she is literal-minded but she always makes a nice pie in the end. I wish a nice autistic GF would make me a pie.
4. I hate those sites. Too much overt misandry and general bullshit.
5. I have never put on a fursuit or gone to a furry convention but I do jack off to furry porm constantly. My favorite types of animal characters tend to be dogs, cows and mice. Dogs are loving and loyal. Cows make milk and exist purely to be used. Mice are cute and, if you catch one by the tail, it is totally at your mercy and you decide whether it lives or dies.

6. I lost my virginity when I was 22 to a fatass monster fucker lady. It didn't feel very good, probably because of how fat she was.
7. I think about that constantly. Once I learned about those statistics, it all transformed me mentally.
8. Yes I was bullied. I still don't like to talk about, but it felt like Hell.
9. I bite my nails a lot. It's hard to stop.
10. Suicide has been on my mind several times throughout my life. I call it "the seduction of Hades". I resist it because 1. Living as a freak of nature with the brain of a monster is scary, but the eternal nothingness beyond life is even scarier. 2. I still have hope that I will find the perfect autistic lover one of these days. (I don't care if this lover is male or female) and then he/she will understand me and make me happy.

i bite my nails as well

>>24214862
I know how that feels brother. Some of my nails look fucking deformed because of the shit I've done to them in the past. Holy shit I'm such a freak.

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No more posts?
Come on guys. Life is rough and I'd like more brotherly love.

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i am too tired to answer the questions but i wanted to say ASPIE PRIDE WORLD WIDE yeah baby!

>>24215758
That's the spirit!

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Come on guys. Isn't ANYONE going to answer my questions? Life as an autistic man is rough. I feel like a disgusting freak all the time and I made this thread so that maybe I can connect with those who have suffered just as I have.
Talk with me fellow monster boys.

>>24214845 (OP)
1-2: My family life is mediocre, but could be much worse. I was never directly abused, at least
3. Over the years I'd say Megumin (Konosuba) and Guts (Berserk) have stood out. More recently, the character Jax (TADC), despite the cringe of the show's writing, has showcased some of my own emotional plights and makes me feel good to see fleshed out (both in the show and in fanart).
4. I lurk on r*dd*t and found some of them interesting in some ways but also very disagreeable in others. The more focused on the specifics of ASD they are, the better. The subs/posts which branch out into other topics are always disappointing (probably due to my different worldviews/opinions).
5. I've jacked off to a lotta things, so technically yeah. The actual fursona stuff never stuck with me though, it's just not for me.
6. Virgin, but I'm just a failed normie. It took me years after the fact to realize that a lot of women were hitting on me and open to relationships. I feel so fucking stupid, but oh well. Maybe once I can get on my own feet (a good income and my own place) I'll move on from it all.
7. I only hope they (law enforcement and prisoners) take pity on me for being visibly nervous. If I were ever in prison, I'd hope I could self isolate in solitary confinement, but I think most prisons have legal limits on how long you can stay in solitary confinement, even if a prisoner chooses it.

I've also tried to memorize the locations of some homeless shelters in my city, so hopefully I can bounce back if I ever need to. I've never been violent or had any substance use issues so I assume all of them should be ok with me. Lord willing, may I never have to suffer in those ways.

8. Absolutely. I didn't understand, until I was 17, that bullying wasn't just the stereotypical physical assault that it's portrayed as in media. Despite it ending when I was a teenager, I've had emotional problems even into my mid 20s now because of it.
(1/2)

>>24214845 (OP)
>>24218271
9. I sometimes physically twitch/jerk my head when remembering previous social blunders. I used to also scrunch my face when remembering them, but I've gotten a bit better and can almost ignore them nowadays. Other than those, I've always swayed or bounced my legs since I was a kid. Movement feels comfy. When I was little, I'd struggle to get myself to stop sweeping my legs in bed (to feel the comfortable texture of the sheets) so that I could sleep. If I stopped, I'd be agitated, but if I kept feeling the texture, it was super relaxing.

10. I focus on the things that I want to get around to doing. I want to go skydiving and I want to have emotionally fulfilling sex one day.
Another fantasy I've held since I was younger was the idea of being a father. Nothing more in life would fulfill me than taking care of a child. I felt a tinge of this when interacting with the kid of a neighbor for an hour one time, and it instantly made me 100% certain that I wish I could be a dad. Fwiw, no amount of tiredness/irritability/annoyance can put me off, even when I am near a child screaming/crying in public I have never minded it. I literally get a feeling of love/compassion washing over me when I hear them being loud, because it reminds me instantly, no matter how irritating their noise, that they exist. I assume this feeling would be amplified even more if they were my own child.

Then again, the odds an autist like myself can achieve having a family is rather low, but I'll try.

7. I only hope they (law enforcement and prisoners) take pity on me for being visibly nervous. If I were ever in prison, I'd hope I could self isolate in solitary confinement, but I think most prisons have legal limits on how long you can stay in solitary confinement, even if a prisoner chooses it.

I've also tried to memorize the locations of some homeless shelters in my city, so hopefully I can bounce back if I ever need to. I've never been violent or had any substance use issues so I assume all of them should be ok with me. Lord willing, may I never have to suffer in those ways.
I want to talk about this topic more.
In my opinion, self-defense needs to be a bigger part of the autism rights movement. I've noticed that there are a lot of people in the world who try to teach us autists how to "behave properly" and ... well ... this is good to an extent ... but the statistical data seems to indicate that we autists get murdered even when we are trying our best to be normal.
In my opinion, self-defense needs to be a bigger part of autistic culture. More autistic people need to be aware of the fact that we might have to fight for our lives at some point.
I'm already on a diet because I'm trying to lose weight and build muscle. I also mentioned in the other thread that I might learn martial arts and buy a firearm at some point.
Of course, I wouldn't attack innocent people ... but, the more I read about all the autistic men who are killed by cops, the more I realize that this system itself hungers for my flesh and blood. This system hungers for the flesh of my brothers and sisters as well. I get that I have said shitty things about autistic women in the past, but I don't want them to be killed by the normie system.
As for prison, I'm pretty sure that autistic men get raped in prisons ... except for those who can fight back against the rapists.

>>24218271
Also, good job memorizing the locations of homeless shelters. I almost feel like crying now. It sucks how a lot of us have to do that. Good luck in life fellow monster boy. I love you.

Honestly, the more I read about autism, the more I realize how dire our situation is. I mean, of course a lot of us either end up as incels or pathetic, basement dwelling manchildren ... but the reality is much scarier. We are at a higher risk of suicide and we are victims of murder and police brutality more often than normies. Oftentimes, our blood just ends up painting the street. Oftentimes, our flesh and blood just fertilizes the soil. Apparently a lot of autistic kids get murdered by their own parents too. The autistic men in jails likely end up as shower fucktoys also.
The more I learn about all of this, the more I want to defend myself and love my autistic brothers.
Hug me guys. I need luvviez.

>>24218293
I get that I am making multiple posts in a row and you guys don't seem to care about this thread, but I guess I'll say one more thing before I finally give up and let this thread die.
>Another fantasy I've held since I was younger was the idea of being a father. Nothing more in life would fulfill me than taking care of a child. I felt a tinge of this when interacting with the kid of a neighbor for an hour one time, and it instantly made me 100% certain that I wish I could be a dad. Fwiw, no amount of tiredness/irritability/annoyance can put me off, even when I am near a child screaming/crying in public I have never minded it. I literally get a feeling of love/compassion washing over me when I hear them being loud, because it reminds me instantly, no matter how irritating their noise, that they exist. I assume this feeling would be amplified even more if they were my own child.
Holy fuck man. This is beautiful. I want to hug you now for real.
In my life, a lot of people have told me "Autistic people are sociopath assholes who should be spayed and neutered and autistic adults should not be allowed around children." ... but life has taught me that a lot of autistic people are either born with a warm heart or develop one with time. Your words are pure poetry.

>>24218271
>Virgin, but I'm just a failed normie. It took me years after the fact to realize that a lot of women were hitting on me and open to relationships. I feel so fucking stupid, but oh well. Maybe once I can get on my own feet (a good income and my own place) I'll move on from it all.
Go out and have hot sex man. The world desperately needs more men like you. I hope the woman you impregnate has triplets. You sound like a warrior-poet.

>>24214845 (OP)
>1. What is your relationship with your parents like?
Good.
>4. Have you tried using more mainstream autism sites
Only when I started exploring my issues many years ago to understand things better.
>7. Do you ever think about that and wonder if you are next?
Depends, the worst factor here is lack of a strong social network that could protect/support me. If you're socially isolated, you're prey.
>8. Were you bullied in school?
Kinda, but only from a few foreigners and I was too nice and passive to fight back.
>10. Have you ever struggled against thoughts of suicide?
When things went downhill and it all felt like I didn't have any control over my life. Once that changed, the stupid thoughts went away for good.

>>24221013
>If you're socially isolated, you're prey.
That's why I make threads like this.
>I was too nice and passive to fight back.
Reading this made my heart stop for a second. I was the same. I was worried that maybe my bullies were connected to local gangster types and I was also worried that I might get expelled from school or get a criminal record and destroy my future.
Life is Hell, but autistic man hugs make it bearable.

>>24221501
>That's why I make threads like this.
Though that's not the kind of network I meant. The networks that protect us from police brutality, abuse during imprisonment, and general governmental overreach have a strong local presence and influence (visibility to make issues public, can deal with the legal/admin system, or can deal with decision-makers in private). They can be global as well, but the local influence is important.
>Life is Hell
That's sad to hear. From your remarks here it seems you're worried about violence against us (also >>24219739). I'm not saying you're wrong as we're prone to misjudge cues and situations and often lack adequate responses. Is there an acute threat you're exposed to or is this more of a general concern?

>>24221599
>Is there an acute threat you're exposed to or is this more of a general concern?
Well ... I talk about these issues for 3 reasons.
1. I grew up as a nerdy kid in a tough neighborhood full of people who wanted to kick the shit out of me. I'm in a safer neighborhood now ... but ... you know. The flames are all long gone but the pain lingers on.
2. My mom constantly warns me about autistic people who went to jail.
3. Remember when there were riots all over the United States because American cops were being racist? Has anti-autistic violence by cops ever caused riots on a similar magnitude? The "tolerant" liberal types seem to view autistic men's issues as unimportant, despite the nightmarish reality revealed by the statistics.

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>>24214845 (OP)
what was the last thread's number?

>>24221639
>2. My mom constantly warns me about autistic people who went to jail.
What are the conditional probabilities here? Those cases have specific circumstances. Do you think you're similar personality-wise or could run into similar situations? (I haven't studied that, so can't say anything about it.)
>riots all over the United States because American cops were being racist
Those were orchestrated, the outrage wasn't genuine. And us spergs are rather seen as evil/genius oppressive tech overlords now, not as victims.

>>24221647
>>24194380
That's the link, but thread is dead.

>>24221700
>Do you think you're similar personality-wise
Well ... autistic men are all shy nerdy guys except for the ones who are extremely low functioning. Right?
>us spergs are rather seen as evil/genius oppressive tech overlords now
Isn't that kinda similar to what Nazis say about Jews?
>not as victims.
Yeah, that's why I use love language when talking to other autistic men on the internet. I sound really gay at times ... but we need to support one another, given that society has abandoned us.

>>24221942
Love letters straight from your heart ;)

>>24221955
Thanks Spartan.

Alright. I want to bump this thread before I sleep so that it doesn't die.
Question: A lot of autistic guys rarely get compliments from women. Have you ever gotten a compliment from a woman that made you feel really good?
My ex-girlfriend used to tell me that I was a hot stud and she also liked my chest hair and beard. I once told her "I'll probably have even more body hair when I'm older." She said "Yay!" She eventually left me, but I'll never forget how much she loved me at first.
... but seriously. One of the best things about being a man is having almost as much fur as a musk ox. My fur keeps me warm in winter. Every winter, my mom practically begs me to put on a coat and I'm always like "Mom! I don't need it." I guess women don't understand that man-fur can make you hot as a pressure cooker, even in the Canadian winter. Men (especially Canadian men like me) laugh in the face of ice.
Anyways, it's kinda weird how men are obsessed with woman's tits and asses but women don't talk about sexy chest hair all that often. I only knew of one very special dame who was horny for chest hair.
Also, I've done some research into what a "stud" really is. Apparently, "stud" is another word for breeding bull. The ones who fuck the cows so that the cows can start lactating.
>In b4 "I'm jealous! Fuck you!"
Nah man. Don't be jealous. She broke my heart in the end.

... but seriously folks. Whenever I feel sad I just remember that I have enough wool around my face, arms, chest, dick, balls and ass crack to make a sweater. If aliens ever abducted me, they'd probably use me as a barnyard sheep. Baa.
>In b4 "Too much information!"
This board is already full of trannyposting. There's no such thing as too much information unless you dox someone.

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>>24222871
Just demand the compliments, dummy.

https://youtu.be/zi8ShAosqzI [Embed]

Good Quote:
>"It is lucky for the adult woman that men do not consider themselves beautiful, since
most men are beautiful. Their smooth bodies, kept trim by hard work, their strong
shoulders, their muscular legs, their melodic voices, their warm, human laughter, the
intelligent expression of their faces and their calibrated, meaningful movements
overshadow those of women completely, even in a purely animal sense. And since
they, unlike women, work and their bodies are therefore preserved for continued
future use, men also retain their beauty longer. As a result of their inertia, women's
bodies rapidly decay and, after the age of fifty, they are nothing but indifferent heaps
of human cells, (One has only to observe a fifty-year-old housewife on the street and
compare her appearance with that of a man of the same age.)"
https://selfdefinition.org/psychology/Esther-Vilar-The-Manipulated-Man.pdf
... but seriously guys. Don't rip apart your bodies with extreme "looksmaxxing" bullshit. Most men are beautiful already!

ATTENTION BANT USERS: Stop spamming the Cirno/Pepe slide threads! I need to head off to work at 10:30 today. If I come back from work tonight and this thread is already pruned then I'm going to be REALLY fucking pissed.
For a while now, I've been using this board as an autistic male positivity zone because most autism rights websites are full of misandry and most men's websites are full of right-wing "Autistic men are just faking it!" bullshit just like what Michael Savage and the creators of South Park spew. Over the past few days I have been using this board for autistic male love, positivity and man hugs. That's more important than your stupid fucking meme character wars.
I'm an autistic man who actually works even though a lot of my brothers and sisters out there are either unemployed or too low-functioning to ever be employable. Don't force me to choose between my job and my man hug thread!

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>>24223549
Hello I can try to bump it for you bro, though I'm not sure if I'm allowed to give my thoughts as an autistic womanchild

>>24223794
>Hello I can try to bump it for you bro, though I'm not sure if I'm allowed to give my thoughts as an autistic womanchild
<3<3<3
Thank you madam.

>>24221942
>autistic men are all shy nerdy guys
Nope. One can learn to be more extroverted and enjoy it. It takes time (took several years in my case), but it's worth it. Far from perfect, but obviously good enough that the nerds love it when I do the people stuff. It helps to generally like people, only a minority of them is an actual threat.
>given that society has abandoned us.
Society has abandoned normies as well. We're not special, only different.

Okay! My thread isn't quite dead yet!
>>24223794
It looks like you didn't need to bump my thread (Thanks German anon!) but it warms my heart that you care about autistic men's issues.
>I'm not sure if I'm allowed to give my thoughts as an autistic womanchild
Give your thoughts please! You seem nice and it would keep this thread bumped up.
I honestly feel overwhelmed with emotions now. I've had a lot of horrifying experiences with women in the past, but maybe I'm ready to let that all go now.

I also want to add one more question to the question list. Have you ever struggled with drug addiction?
Statistically, autistic people are more likely to develop drug addiction compared to normal people, which is pretty horrifying when you think about what heroin addiction looks like.
I don't take any street drugs, and I NEVER smoke or drink. Ever.
That's one of the reasons I want to keep our online cuddle circle going. Every time I learn more about the statistics, I learn more about just how bad our situation is. We should all cuddle as much as possible. Okay brothers and sister?

>>24223794
Quick bump.
Want to say anything?

Fucking slide threads.

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>>24214845 (OP)
>1. What is your relationship with your parents like?
They're dead. But when alive they were of even less use than they are now.
>2. What is your relationship with your siblings like?
They talk too much, and they are legit retarded. I avoid them.
>3. Are there any fictional characters that feel important to you?
No one specific, but I usually root for the bad guys in movies.
>4. Have you tried using more mainstream autism sites like Wrong Planet or the autism subreddits? What was that like?
I have not. 4chan provides me with all the spergs I'll ever need.
Also I feel that Reddit "autists" are just quirky normalfags.
>5. Are you a furry? Be careful when posting images. They might get you banned.
Nope
>6. Are you a virgin? If not, how did you lose your virginity? What did it feel like?
It was an underwhelming experience. Sex is not worth it as women are pure cancer, I stay away from them now.
>7. Autistic people, statistically, suffer from police brutality, imprisonment and homelessness more than non-autists and we also die from both murder and suicide more than normal people. Do you ever think about that and wonder if you are next?
No, I live in Denmark, even someone as dysfunctional as myself can do alright here. I should have moved to here decades ago.
>8. Were you bullied in school?
That goes without saying.
>9. Do you have nervous habits that are hard to break?
I'm never late for anything because I anxiously get myself ready way too early, resulting into arriving at least 45 minutes before my shift starts, or for an appointment.
>10. Have you ever struggled against thoughts of suicide? Did you ever attempt to end it all?
A long time ago I did have those thoughts, though there were no serious attempts.
>How do you hold on to an appreciation for life now?
I just moved away from the people who made me feel bad enough to end it all. Fuck my family of alcoholics in my nigger tier hometown. They made me what I am.
I hope Putin nukes them all.

>>24225807
>I just moved away from the people who made me feel bad enough to end it all
When I cut people out of my life for the first time I remember feeling an extreme sense of relief that I had never felt before or since. I hope you are able to enjoy your time on your own nowadays, anon.

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>>24214845 (OP)
obvious glowie thread is obvious all you need to know about me is i love fucking my boyhole with giant bibsi

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>>24225021
Okay well
>1/2
Relationships are fine but a little frayed because I live with my mom and haven't had a job in a while, but it's better now because I'm getting close to publishing and that's mostly what she cares about (money) due to the trump economy. That's where the disconnect lies because I don't value money, or rather I choose not to because it's evil. So I wear my clothes till they fall apart or get them thrifting, I get books from free libraries, and build arts and crafts out of recyclables
>3
Idk about important but growing up I always admired the characters in Ghibli movies, especially the mc in Howl's Moving Castle and Castle in the Sky. Because I wanted to live in their worlds of course, but I also like how they could be strong despite being small in a big world. That's what I appreciate in characters, more than anything
>4
No
>5
No but the japanese version of them are cute. But I just like talking animals in general, probably my favorite storybook trope, so it scratches that itch for me
>6
No and I don't want to talk about it
>7
No. Well maybe. I've been harrassed by cops before but I realized they are just doing their jobs most of the time and are merely figureheads of a larger system so I can't be mad at them too much. The billionaires though yes, I hate them
>8
Since my first days in school, for being weird, so I tried to embrace it and be as weird as I can. That worked out until around middle school when I got depressed and anorexic. At least my parents realized it and I got to do highschool at home but now I'm back to being weird again
>9
I used to. Mostly, I bite my lips a lot
>10
Yes. Try to look on the bright or more specifically the humorous side of things. I truly believe God has a sense of humor, so finding something to laugh at like animal videos (or even myself) cures me right up. Obviously there's a limit, but I think laughing at yourself is a good way to stay humble, and if you're humbled then it's hard to stay sad

>>24225021
Women are just like men most of the time, just trying to survive. Sometimes, I wish I had more of a survival instinct like my mom or my brother, but it's also that instinct that causes much of the ills in the world. Maybe you don't see it this way but women don't hold much in the way of power, so even if you've been affected by them more personally or emotionally, you've certainly been wronged by men more on a grander scale
>>24225056
Used to. I had liver spots on my tummy from drinking wine, back when I had a job, but it went away when I switched to weed. I wouldn't recommend it btw, it just helps me personally with concentration. It's important to remember that food is also like a drug, and I think most people rely on those good feelings to get them through the day. The important thing is to fully appreciate it (which goes back to being humble)

Anywho, I hope this helps

Thanks for saving this thread.
I'd like to ask another question. Have you ever dated someone on the autism spectrum?
My girlfriend back in 2013-2017 was on the autism spectrum. She was sweet and kind and gentle in a lot of lovely ways, but she was also grossly obese, she created conflicts with my parents and then she abandoned me.
Later, in 2021-2023, I had a mad crush on another autistic woman ... but she preferred this other guy over me and that was the end of that. She seemed sweet and gentle to an almost angelic degree ... and ... well ... sometimes beauty is out of reach I suppose.
Overall, I like the idea of dating someone else on the spectrum. I like the idea of having a soul mate who will understand me and be as nerdy as me. Love can hurt though...

I also want to add something to question 7 from the original post. Those awful things that I listed ... have you ever experienced any of them directly? Has anyone here directly experienced police brutality, homelessness or attempted murder first-hand?
I never experienced any of those, but there were some close calls during my high school years.
Honestly, the more I learn about the world, the more I realize that some autistic people have literally had to fight for their lives. Like ... maybe there are some autistic people out there who were almost murdered and literally had to fight for their lives. I often wonder what that would feel like. Like ... sometimes I wonder what I would do if a gun was inches from my head or a blade was inches from my throat and I had to make a split-second decision.

>>24226968
Sorry to hear that bud. I guess I never asked, but I was seeing an older guy I met online who might have been a little autistic. I enjoyed just hanging out with him because it felt like less pressure on me, like I could just be myself. So I think that's what is important, overall, allowing people the room to feel comfortable. I stoped seeing him though because I was going through some things (the alcoholism) and it felt wrong to basically use him to get wasted when I didn't quite feel "in love" with him.

Though I think it's also important to remember that some people feel love differently (aromantic, etc), there's also the sad fact that it's often not "the one" that ends up being the best fit. I've been obsessed with a guy before too, but he lived across the pond and I never got to meet him in the end.

>I like the idea of having a soul mate who will understand me and be as nerdy as me
Well what are you interested in? I daydream and write about fantasy/scifi stuff a lot, so I've always thought it would be fun to meet someone through a roleplaying game (the DnD kind). But I'm a lot more outgoing online than I am around most people I'm afraid, so I've always been too scared to.

>>24227014
That's what I meant by harassment actually. But in fairness, I was really rambunctious and opinionated back then and was probably asking for it, screaming etc... But you can't expect the orderlies to understand what the mental patients are going through, it's just not in their experience, so I can understand why they did it and don't blame them.

But I think this is also really common among autistic people, blaming ourselves because we feel we're broken in some way. But it's also important to remember it's what makes you special and different too. Maybe you could try therapy if you're having intrusive thoughts (though maybe don't mention guns/knives...). It helped me a lot to correct my negative thought loops, specifically cognitive behavioral therapy.

>>24227074
>Well what are you interested in?
I like prehistory and science fiction and also Mario and Kirby.
>But I'm a lot more outgoing online than I am around most people I'm afraid, so I've always been too scared to.
That's interesting. Most autistic men seem scared and introverted as well.
>screaming etc
You mean like a meltdown? Well ... you certainly didn't deserve harassment if it was over a meltdown.
>But I think this is also really common among autistic people, blaming ourselves because we feel we're broken in some way.
I wasted my childhood and teenage years constantly telling myself that I was always the problem. That's why I choose to love myself and the other autistic guys so much now.
>Maybe you could try therapy if you're having intrusive thoughts
Been there, done that.
>(though maybe don't mention guns/knives...)
I mention guns and knives because using chilling language is justified. According to to the statistics, autistic people are more likely to be muder victims compared to non-autistic people ... and ... well ... muder is the end of a human life. It typically involves a knife to the throat or a gun to the head. If my brothers and sisters are out there getting killed then I will absolutely describe the killing in uncomfortable detail.
>It helped me a lot to correct my negative thought loops, specifically cognitive behavioral therapy.
Should a "negative thought loop" be corrected if you are thinking about violence and cruelty that is objectively real and directed at people who are similar to you?

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>>24227185
>prehistory
Ooh like Rome or Greece? I've been reading about some Chinese dynasties recently like the Shang & Chou, and they're said to have gotten chariots from the west before the lines were severed. Who knows what the world would look like if that hadn't happened though, do you ever think about stuff like that?
>scifi
Like Startrek? I'm more of a Doctor Who fan myself. The old series, that is, because the episodes are really really long like a drama. Not that you asked but this is the stuff I like to write about, animal robots made by talking animals. I really love making dioramas at really tiny scales too, makes me feel like a god mwhahaha. But anyway, I should stop blabbing. I do love Kirby too, though
>You mean like a meltdown?
Sort of. Me and my friends were being arrested but I couldn't stop making trouble and lecturing them on politics, so they threw me against the hood of their car. That's when I started reflecting more, so maybe it helped me in a way, weird as it sounds.
>I wasted my childhood and teenage years constantly telling myself that I was always the problem
I'm glad you feel differently now. There are very few people though, I am certain, who don't live with regrets. That's what those years are for, for growing up. That's why we focus on what we can do, things in our control, NOT things like mysterious potential dangers lurking around every corner. Unless you like that, in a horror story kind of way.
>Should a "negative thought loop" be corrected if you are thinking about violence and cruelty that is objectively real
That depends. Is it getting in the way of sleeping or going outside? Then I would say yes. But if I had to guess, those are mostly within families or relationships, right? It's not like someone you pass on the street is gonna suddenly sniff it out and go into feral attack mode. Probably. Don't get that into your head. But as someone who has to go into sketchy neighborhoods at times, my advice is to act like you belong.