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When a Mother of Four Declares She's a Man

She's Still a Woman...Obviously

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Kat Highsmith
Mar 29, 2026
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This is the story of a family.

As Tolstoy wrote, All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.

This unhappy family had three members (that’s right, three) who declared themselves to be born in the wrong body before it imploded under the weight of its own inanity as it cycled through “trans” and polyamory and cross-dressing and adoption.

At the center of it is a woman named Amanda Jetté Knox, now calling herself “Rowan,” a fairly well-known Canadian writer and activist who has published several books and articles about her sinking ship of a family unit as well as the highly improbable instance of three of them being born incorrectly.

Her life story is a wild ride, but it’s a glimpse into the dysfunction that forms the core of the “trans” lie, and it demonstrates why the only answer to this fraud can be no, at every stage and any age.

Her Origins

In her first book Love Lives Here, Amanda describes her traumatic and chaotic childhood in the late 1970s and early 1980s with her unmarried teenaged parents. She claims her father belonged to the Ojibwa tribe and abandoned her mother just a few months after her birth.

Her childhood with her stepfather was unstable, and she suffered due to severe bullying from other children at school, which resulted in students lighting her backpack on fire. She suffered from substance abuse at the very early age of 14 and sought treatment, and she did not pursue higher education.

Her Family

Instead of college, she had a child out of wedlock, like her mother, and then married the father, unlike her mother, when she was 20. More children arrived, and her marriage was miserable, according to her own account:

For nearly 18 years of marriage, I knew my spouse as a man. When we got married first time around, we were new parents to an infant son. We couldn’t afford a photographer or a honeymoon…

We might have looked the part of a perfect family, but there were issues beneath the surface. A veil of unhappiness hung over our household. Both my spouse and our middle child were sullen, withdrawn and often angry…

Truth be told, while my spouse and I loved each other, there were many problems over the years. I would watch the person I knew as my husband come home from work, shoulders down, head hung low with a proverbial rain cloud over it. We hardly went out together and had few couple friends. “I don’t want to hang out with your friends’ husbands,” I would be told. “I don’t need friends.” The discontent spilled into all parts of our lives, from socializing to parenting.

Then one evening she received an email from her 11-year-old son telling her that he was, in fact, a girl:

But on a frigid February night in 2014, an email arrived from our 11-year-old, who we knew then as our middle son. “Please try to understand,” the message read. “I am a girl trapped in a boy’s body. More than anything, I need to be a girl. Please help me.”

If she had told her son that he was healthy and whole as a boy, and he could play with dolls or even wear pink as a boy, that would have opposed this agenda. If she told her son that having mental problems didn’t mean his body was wrong and that it was possible to address his depression or anxiety by embracing reality rather than pretending to be someone he is not, that would have disproven the “trans” lie.

Instead, she declared that her son’s feelings of being born in the wrong body were legitimate, that he needed puberty blockers and hormones which would destroy his health, and that he was actually a girl named Alexis who needed to transfer to a special “LGBTQIA+” friendly school with “gender-neutral” bathrooms, which is what happened.

She states her child came to the conclusion that he was a girl after using anti-depressants:

“She had always been anxious, and withdrawn. We had done everything we could to help her, but it wasn’t until she went on anti-depressants that she was able to control her moods enough to realize what was actually going on,” Amanda explained.

Although she was different than Amanda’s two other sons, Aerik, 19, and Jackson, 9, Alexis, was never particularly “girly.”

“She liked Hannah Montana, and iCarly and she wanted to sew, but we didn’t assume anything. We just thought you be you,” Amanda, a writer from Ottawa, Canada, said.

Does anybody else think the use of psychotropic medications by 10- or 11-year-old children might be an issue here? No?

And when TERFs say that “trans” is nothing but stereotypes, we mean it. Hannah Montana, iCarly, and sewing—that’s literally what this boy built his identity on. Amazing.

Then…guess what happened.

One year later, her husband proclaimed that he was a woman! What are the odds?!

It turned out that a 43-year-old man who had been married for nearly 20 years and fathered three children was actually a woman named Zoe, and by that he means he was actually a cross-dressing fetishist who wanted to take his pornography-influenced misogyny perversion full-time.

Their youngest child cried at the announcement:

“You mean, I don’t have a dad?” Jackson, our youngest, asked, tears filling his eyes and spilling down his face.

“No,” I said, wiping a tear from his cheek. “But you have two moms who love you very much.”

Mr. Zoe renewed his vows with his wife as he publicly cross-dressed along with his young son. Amanda was now happy to declare herself a lesbian. The kids supposedly loved calling their father “Mama,” though it is abusive to force children to tell lies to serve their father’s delusion.

The Adoption

While her husband and son maintained their false identities, Amanda persevered as a mother with her highly statistically unlikely family as she chose to adopt a very vulnerable 17-year-old girl named Ashley, as covered by global media outlets.

Ashley came from a deeply unstable family and never had a permanent home as she had been in and out of foster care and temporary homes since she was very young.

She had just moved into a group home, which was a very negative experience, when she met Amanda’s son “Alexis”:

“I had moved to a new home,” Ashley said, “but it was not really a home. It was not a good experience. I cried every day and I tried everything to get out of there, but no one was helping me.”

It was the first time she had ever cried in front of Alexis, she says.

“She said it was unacceptable, and she would talk to her parents to ask if I could move in. I thought it was impossible. Who was going to take in a teenager who has been known to move around in foster care?”

She does not explicitly state that sexual or physical abuse took place in any of her homes, but those are sadly common in foster and group homes. Whatever happened, she felt more comfortable living with a family with two cross-dressing males who were essentially strangers to her.

Ashley was only six months away from turning 18 and aging out of the system by becoming an adult with no need for legal guardians. After her eighteenth birthday in 2020, she disappeared from the articles and media coverage of these people. Did she simply move out? Did she manage to establish a quiet, stable home for herself, which adults in her life never managed to accomplish for her?

Hopefully, wherever she is, she is doing well because she departed right before the real bedlam was unleashed, which only would have added to her already chaotic experience with familial situations.

Amanda’s Breakdown

As a mother with a cross-dressing son and husband who had published a book about her super-cool modern family, Amanda probably expected only praise due to her newly super-woke credentials.

She got some praise, but she also got a deluge of online criticism not only from opponents of this false ideology but also from ostensible “allies” who accused her of pushing this on her kid as an attention-seeking stage mom.

That led to a nearly fatal spiral and breakdown.

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