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@ghost-and-pals.bsky.social
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yes okay we're back on track. i need to go hug someone.
and i want to write music again, so i will keep ignoring these things.
we like what we relate to. to people with NPD: i love you too much. it has taken me too much, for me to say these things.
QRP tracing 3D models can also help you learn how to break down photo references if it's something you're using temporarily
I need all artists to know that using 3D models in your art is not cheating. Those free-to-use 3D models are literally there to make your life easier. Stop being so hard on yourself and just trace that 3D object. You don't need to be able to perfectly draw every object ever from memory!!
"owes me" was my father's name. please, call me money.
Mersu // Commissions Open! ✨️🩵
@mersuu.bsky.social
· 13h
i think i'm a little impressive
www.keithcirkel.co.uk/whats-my-jnd/
this has nothing to do with my father's own musical pursuits, of course. ^_^
the, who i would like to call """elusive they,""" trained me on nothing but lies and deceit, threw my mother up to heaven and said "fetch." but, like, i've already tried to multiple times now. they keep rejecting me for some reason and i don't see a contact form or a customer support email anywhere.
i mustn't @ grok... no... i shan't... the indecency of it all...
DID + intermittent psychosis + FND + access to a little thing called "puter" = i think our persecutor and only our persecutor is duking it out with the lord god himself and it'd be funny if it wasn't a little. ??? well
different areas of my torso along my vagus nerve will start cramping in response to talking about various """theories""" about, what i would like to call, """esoteric talking points."""
i don't expect anyone to believe me. i'm just posting to stay entertained while insomnia and what i would like to call """esoteric talking points""" are bothering me. ^_^;;
over the past year and a half i've been microdosing re-listens of my old music and each time i do i can FEEL just how SICK i felt back then. oh my fucking god.
and this is *before* i've gotten around to the songs with gentler tones. they'd kill me on fucking sight lmaooo
"am i faking this for attention" man what's the difference. you need the attention the world is too mean to people who don't get it
ghost and pals after hours gone right gone psychotic gone yuri so toxic it's yaoi gone yaoi gone fishing gone blackmail gone dissociative identity disorder gone FUCK!!!!! GOD DAMMIT SHIT FUCK OH MY FUCKING GOD gone ^_^ gone angelic gone sexual... and finally... gone sexual.
actually, the correct answer is "not really," because of the context in which the conversation lies. you see, in family guy season 3 episode 7,
i was gonna post bitchtalk about hating the fact that i can't relate to people who vilify their moms rn and then i read this and he fucking squeaked "yeah" from the back of my head get a load of this fucking moron
ren 🐇
@raz0rdisk.bsky.social
· 3d
mr ghost are you ok you sound like you lost too much blood and are about to collapse. did the scary email get you
don't actually i have a disorder that works in weird ways
and we will end the conversation THERE anyways what i ACTUALLY hate is that my mom had the purest fucking heart in the world and i still feel better without her in the picture rn and that makes me feel like shit abt myself cus she's been my role model this whole time for navigating this fanbase shit
the torture porn dungeon is in the room with us... right now... ahhh... haunted house actor job application....
Friend
@ohnologist.bsky.social
· 3d
genuine question: is the torture porn dungeon metaphorical or is there lore i missed
i'm literally fine like i'm literally so fucking cool actually
sometimes i feel like therapy took all the milestones that were supposed to be spread across my life and crammed them into my first 30 years.
narcissistic-ass curse my dad gave me. anyways.
BOY GO GET BACK IN YOUR TORTURE PORN DUNGEON. GET. GET.
i'm gonna be so real with you guys. the story was set in the 1950s and that woman had been getting gaslit by the world itself regarding the burdens she was carrying for 30 years ongoing at that point. i don't think she would've ever gotten to know what a sexuality even was before croaking. 🫡
cairy
@caiiry.bsky.social
· 5d
hiiii im curious wat about frances 👀👀 would she count as aromantic i remember you saying shes real turned off from getting into relationships again and was wondering if that could be labelled aro as well 😁😁😁
all of my music is written during bursts of self-love, or at LEAST self-alliance when the subject matter is something that's difficult to love myself for. i don't really know how else to describe it.
⦻Ian⦻
@iantehepik.bsky.social
· 6d
How do you turn what you’re feeling into an actual song? I always feel like I have too much to say yet not enough I can put into words or lyrics.
i also wrote it because our second host REALLY wanted to finish trust fall, but it was a song about meeting me from their POV and - at least imo - it was insanely infantilizing/dismissive. we agreed that trust fall could be uploaded as long as i got to be petty about it in response LMAO.
they wrote the first half of trust fall (beginning ~ first chorus) before diagnosis; everything after that was post-Dx + education on the disorder. which was great! except for the part where they thought that the only problems and issues we have are self-hatred!!! @___@
friday fun fact: i put a brick wall of "ignore it" at the end of covetous but the swirly agate pattern made youtube absolutely DEMOLISH the text into compression artifacts (poetic).
friday fun fact: part two: re: the swirly agate pattern: i was trying to recreate the hallucinations i get when our trauma holders get in touch with the more present-day-grounded side of the system. usually i can only see it with my eyes closed, but there's been a few vivid eyes-open instances.
smoking weed is what converts the false wife into the true wife.
this is what silent hill 2 is about. thank you.
i don't think i had this bsky account at the time but i played mouthwashing when it first came out and ohhh. ooohhhuuu
sometimes my partner and i *still* talk about the symbolisms and how they really make dialogues count and how well it emotes the sheer panic of "i can't talk to anyone about this;" you're left to assume anya's experiencing the same kind of panic by connecting the dots in her self-isolative behavior
finally getting around to reading saya no uta but it hits oddly-specifically close enough to home that i am microdosing that thing
feels bad to dramapost but i'm still mad at myself for placating that shit for so long.
saw some of my fans trying to call me out for having been friends with umber because he was hornyposting on his personal twitter account back in ~2017, which reminded me of when i got called out for being homophobic for labeling kennith as an aro-homosexual. like, y'all are STILL on this shit???
can i not look at fanart in PEACE without seeing BLATANT queerphobia and ableism every time oh my god.
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Old drawing, looks so-so
(Но оно всё равно мне нравится.. (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*)
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i hated doing this with a paint, but im done with it somehow(im also sick and on my period, its hell)
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that unpleasant feeling when someone hits you with an axe #ghostandpals #chelovek
correct: another point of inaccessibility i don't see many people bring up is that, now that we're entering a phase where therapy is less-stigmatized, abusers have less shame towards looping it into the gaslighting regime.
Hebe
@10thmuse.bsky.social
· 14d
People will just intentionally antagonize people who are clearly unwell and act surprised when they reasonably lash out or break down. Not to mention it can be hard to actually get a therapist if you don't have the money, insurance, or even support from family. Poke the bear and you'll get bit.
multiple therapists and psychiatrists were bewildered by me and how unresponsive i was to treatment when, no shit, i was only in there because my abusers manipulated me into it behind my back and threatened me with it as if it was a punishment for "poor behavior" (psychosomatic symptoms).
even after moving out, most of our system can't feel safe in a therapist's presence, especially after facing so much of the world's ableism online over the specific concept that i'm acting insane and should be in therapy instead of with my art and stories.
ppl will say the most degrading, dehumanizing and violatingly assumptuous shit abt mentally ill ppl and then go "they should be speaking to a therapist instead of acting out on the internet" when we start protecting & defending ourselves like no i'm sorry it is YOUR job to keep your mouth decent
how does a japanese train let you know it loves you
feeling disgustingly pathetically just downright NASTY jealous of ppl who don't have chronic fatigue atm. which is absolutely not helping the chronic fatigue in any way whatsoever
not to be all WOOOEEEE is me or anything. idk hopefully someone out there will feel less alone cus i don't rlly see conversion disorder stuff talked abt much in relation to dissociative disorders cus the alters are where all the fun is at (RIGHTFULLY SO!!!!!!! /hj)
AND THEN I HAVE TO DO TAXES AND FILL OUT FORMS AND CONSULT SOME KINDA CHA-CHING-WHORE OF A CEO CULT OPERATION AAHHHHHHHG