hi i'm back
it's been a few years. got a lot A LOT on my mind but i'll keep it (fairly) brief
i've spent the interim between my controversy and now generally just trying to live a better life and trying to improve myself, including unlearning the behaviors that were the main reason i stepped away for as long as i have. if people are still wary of me, they have that right to be, don't blame them. and if you're just finding out about this about me, yeah. it's the main reason i've stayed away from the OSC (and plan to continue to stay away for people's comfort). i don't think a day's gone by since March 2023 where i haven't felt ashamed about what i did, a lot of people were hurt by the things i said and how i responded, and regardless of whether i meant to do any of it or not, it happened and it was my own lack of social awareness that did it. i was absolute dogwater forgiving taylor grodin and his actions like that. i should've known better, and i simply just didn't. i was ignorant. i'm gonna be better going forward, and i hope over time people can see that. from the bottom of my heart i genuinely am sorry i let all that happen.
if you're wondering about the fate of AIB, you're probably not gonna like this, but i'm no longer working on it and am no longer interested in working on it for the foreseeable future. as much as the show was a major part of my life for a while, it was eating away at me physically and mentally. a lot of factors that led to that, but in truth, AIB was always an idea that sprung from pandemic craziness and it was not sustainable for me with my mental state at the time to keep working on it. there are definitely other unsaid reasons for its end, but otherwise AIB is officially done. i truly am sorry if you were/are a fan of the show, i'm sure this isn't the ideal news you'd want to hear after nearly three years. i think this is ultimately for the best. there are better object shows out there, trust me.
i do want to make content again, and i am currently working on a new, SMALLER AND SIMPLER project that HAS shades and elements of AIB in it, but with a slightly different vibe and a very very different cast of characters. so there's a compromise i guess. the first episode of that will go up in a few days. so uhhh i guess if you want to see that, stick around. but again, no more new AIB stuff. i hope people like this new thing i'm making, but if you were only here for AIB, i won't blame ya one bit for leaving. i'll also be making other content and in general just uploading more random silly stuff again. i like making stuff and i wanna show off that stuff.
main point though, i want to continue to change for the better, that's my number one goal coming back here. not just for myself but those around me. especially nowadays, i think it's more important now than ever to stand by what you believe in, so i'm going to be better and more diligent about that. those who still want to be fans of me deserve to know the real me and not the asshole who forgave a racist almost three years ago. i sincerely believe i'm better than that now, and i want to show that that's the case.
one last thing, i'd appreciate it if people fully dropped the "Groink" moniker, if you still call me that. i'd like it if people called me Bobby! or Robert, if you wanna be formal about it. or Bobert if we wanna get real crazy. but Bobby is fine.
but yeah. i hope this is the start of something better. maybe in the distant future i'll bring AIB back (maybe a reboot), but who knows? i'm currently looking for a real part time job right now and in general just focusing on being an actual adult while still getting to make the silly freeing stuff i want to make here. that's what i truly want at the end of the day, really.
i hope i can show that better side of me here. see you guys then
