i cant even really make characters because i dont have anyone in my life who's likeness would inspire me to create a character of. im a fucking chud and i hate everyone and have nothing. i think it would be amazing to somehow cultivate a website where everyone had a world of sorts, some sort of universe of characters, a story, something interactive, etc. i think everyone should try, including me. maybe those worlds could cross over, we could create something truly innovative in that way, but it's just not like that.
>>82340
pisses me off too, nothing we can do tbh.
>>82341
we dont need a lot of people, i just wish everyone was a bit more active. i hate people but i feel like i need them, if i saw others being creative more, it would inspire me to be creative also, because why should i be depressed when everyone else is contributing, etc. sometimes i get the urge to draw when others are drawing, etc. i wish a lot more people were developers, instead of asking me to add stuff, they'd do it. i think we have the wrong mindsets about things.
we don't need 100 people, we just need a small amount of people to put the effort in and work as a team, but almost always, things are reliant on one person, for site updates and maintenance it's always me and only me, i do have staff and that helps but for developing anything its all down to me. for art, everyone just makes whatever and not in a co-ordinated way. maybe things would be different if perhaps we decided to collectively work on an averi game, as a team of people, etc.
>>82342
the only thing i have is cope. cope by playing videogames, cope by ignorance, cope by doomscrolling. cope that by the passage of time things will just get better or something.
i'm surrounded by incredible people who've been able to do amazing things by teaming up with friends, etc, but i don't have that, i kind of wish i did, i've come to realize that you can't just make a project all on your own, you do need other people, when making a game or whatever, etc, all these animation projects, they have other people working on them, etc, and the results are amazing. I wonder how normie autistcacas can make group anim projects with 15+ contributors for whatever, but I can't? Is it because I'm too autistic to bite the discord bullet and co-operate with the most insufferable people?
My gateway to something greater is guarded by leftists, transexuals, gays, porn addicts, etc, all this drama bound to happen over minor disagreements and shit. I'm so tired of human beings. I hate them all.
But there is an irony in me, in the sense that I really don't. I don't hate women and I don't hate men either, I'm just eternally holding on like a princess stuck in a tower thinking that maybe some day, someone that I didn't know or think that I would need in my life is somehow just gonna come strolling by and prove me wrong, but that's a pipe dream, it will never happen. I'm continuously reminded or taught by what I see and my interactions with people, to not trust them, to avoid them. Nobody actually cares about eachother, this is the internet after all, and as for real life, well, yet again, I have nothing. I don't want a job, I don't want to work for other people or just do shit that I don't want to do, there's no passion in it, I don't care about what it is, money does not motivate me, the only things I like are art and creativity but I have nobody to really help me reach my full potential, I can only do it when I feel like it, and I only get the urge to do so when I see others doing it. It's just weird.
If not for that, then I'll just doomscroll and get nothing done, because why should I? Why should I care at all, if most people have wronged me all my life and I'm stuck in this situation that I am now, where realistically, I would need people to help, but i'm stuck alone.
