>>81240
im highly prone to demoralization for some reason
i think averi is the only thing that brings users to the site, but cordists like those are what make me hate the character. i feel more comfortable and at ease with characters from franchises like sonic the hedgehog, for the safety net that they have. there are some creeps in the sonic fandom, but overall sonic is wholesome, same goes with pokemon, but for averi, the averi and fiddle fandom is so niche that i wouldn't be surprised if a person's perception of it at first is tainted.
its what often makes me hate identity. i have no plans to do anything about things that aren't in my control, really. often i think about what i could be, and i know that i am nothing, not necessarily capable of making anything worth sharing to others for people to enjoy. i dont care really what kind of person fiddle was, she was a gateway for me to realize that you could be an anthro fan or a furry without it being a toxic and self destructive masturbatory relationship, it can be a hobby, it can be a passion. so even if she did make romance arts between lgbt characters and whatever, it doesn't matter at all knowing what she went through, how she was treated for having opinions i would have, how she felt towards the community in the years leading up to her eventually leaving.
it makes me sick how the internet can be sometimes, they claim to be tolerant and love creativity, except their hearts are all impure, their souls are nothing, they create political "art" that serves to spread a message and nothing more, they create pornography out of hate and lust, the furries you commonly see are not artists or bringers and inspirers of creativty, they are very happy to draw rape art of you and your characters just because you said something they disagree with, and to put a cherry on top, they'll draw your characters supporting trans rights or some shit.
i am disgusted by this, the rape of the joy of art itself to promote products, ideologies and pure evil, to satiate primal desires, this is not what art was intended for, and yet this is what encapsulates so many "creatives" you may encounter today, on discord, on twitter, etc. i suppose at the end of the day, the metric for a true artist is simple, it depends on whether or not they have a soul, whether or not they have integrity. people like shadman are not true artists, he deserves to be in prison.
i have a tainted view of women, i think they can be beautiful, but their beauty is exploited by lust and primal desires. i am unable to really differentiate the true intentions of an artist in that regard, so im hostile towards it. we do not live in a world where we can be afforded the true liberty of exploring natural beauty involving alive beings without it being ruined in some way. there is a lot of beauty in a lot of things about women, the shapes of their bodies, the ways they act, the clothes they wear, and a lot of thought was put into that, tailors and fashion designers coming up with things like skirts, it's no accident. but perhaps there are some people who truly do not understand this, in the same way they could not truly understand the natural beauty and archetypes of men and masculinity, they cannot understand anything, all they see is their own urge to fulfill a desire, and thus for many furries, being a furry has become moreso about making their two favourite characters fuck eachother or get defiled, like a child playing with action figures, rather than using the liberty they have to explore their soul.
it's strange because evil is not exactly something that should be devoid in art, it's rather become a serious artistic limitation in our times. evil can be used in stories, fiction and media to provide reasonings behind why our heroes are the way they are, and usually this is the case, but for furry art, evil is a limitation because naturally most of it stems from a wicked evil desire to see how far they can go, and some take it way too far, they never stop. it never ends. it's a game for them to see how far they can push being evil until evil itself reaches it's limits, until drawing a child getting raped by a 1000 ft mega dinosaur who's being inflated shitting himself (or something even more absurd, please excuse what i just said it was for the purpose of illustrating a potential possibility of how absurd "furries" can be) is a serious limit to the degeneracy that your average "artist" can fathom.
when i see these people in relations to averi i see a woman who had artistic desires, plans, etc, and i see her creations that she left behind are being misappropriated by people who simply don't get it. it's like leaving your art in a museum only for dumb fucking niggers to take selfies of it. averi was an expression of her, she is the anthropomorphized personification of her own creator, and her main personality trait was that of innocence. she was just a cute fox who liked chicken, nothing more and nothing less.
and now we are left with the bastard children who clearly don't fucking understand who they are or what they're even doing, and never will, these people enjoy porn, they enjoy lust, they enjoy hmofa, they enjoy the hobby of drawing without understanding the art, you're left with these discordists who are tainted by lust and follow evil like a handbook, working under it's limitations. to question evil to them is a sin, because it's the rules they know. it would be like questioning god for a man with faith in christ. how dare we to question the dogma that allows us to exist in the "community"?
Fuck the community. Human beings deserve to rot in hell, everyone should be alone, nobody should have friends or connections, they have all succumbed to the evils of wicked transactions and lies, transactions they make amongst themselves whilst wearing fake masks of who they say they are but not actually be. Nobody is truly appreciated unless they can sacrifice a bit of their soul to appease others, and this is how you get people like that, they conform to what they think will make the group like them the most, they're a slave to their need to not be lonely, and are willing to do anything for that connection.
This is the aspect of humanity I hate the most, the ability to be spineless to fulfill the void you have, when you have nobody to talk to. You run desperately from that feeling, that you are willing to act in any way that would make another person be submissive to you and be in your company, when you know full well that without a transaction, you are nothing to them and you never would be, and even I now am transacting a service to the people who communicate with me, that if I did not provide, they would not be here. The evil of this world, above all else is transaction, two people agreeing to do things they wouldn't normally do under the condition that a crtieria is met or reward is received, I scratch your back if you scratch mine, these transactions and deals we have are the root of all evil, they are compliances and not from the heart. I disbelieve there is any genuinity in the communications we have with eachother as human beings, all of it is a front facing lie, because we're scared to be alone. there are no genuine connections, nobody is equal. i see it even in my mother with all her insecurities, even in my nan, my father, etc, we all do things to try and run from the feeling of loneliness. had a best friend of 8 years come crying to me after he abused me and i left him, after 3 years passed since i last spoke to him, he came crawling back like he thought that time passing would make me forget how he was as a person. Human beings are spineless and pathetic. I have always known this, perhaps you would understand where I come from now when I speak so highly of things that are not human, like robots.
accept this dumb scribble i made of mimic the octopus idk
