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May 24th, 2025: Back to normal work today, I got up at 7:00am and had cereal with milk for breakfast. I started to get packed for moving out and then I got to the bus stop. The bus stop had this woman wearing a hat at it so I went back to my house and got a hat to wear. I got off a bit early and walked into this convenience store to buy some lunch, there was a homeless Black man outside accosting everyone.
“Excuse me sir! Do you have any change?”
He asked me and this other guy that went in. I bought one of those microwavable cups of Mac n cheese and two packets of gum, when I walked out, I timed my exit so that this other guy was getting talked to while he was leaving. I got into work and started off the day by working on the beverage aisle, I got done with that and then got to cleaning the bathrooms. I noticed that fAsherah still wasn’t there today, so I asked one of the cashiers if she had quit.
“No, she’s just sick!”
He replied. I went on with my day and talked to Paula a bit more. Jesse didn’t assign me enough tasks again. For lunch I heated up the Mac n cheese in the microwave while I overheard the new employee in my department watch some anime on his phone. I took the cup out and tried to stir in the dried cheese powder but the black plastic spoons they provided were too flimsy and the heads would bend a good amount. I ate the half mixed Mac n cheese and then bought some cookies for everyone to eat, the bag was in the break room. I continued my tasks and then decided to go into the office to see Jesse cleaning out behind the desk, he then asks me:
“Want some half eaten chocolate I found behind the desk? It expired in 2023!”
I jokingly declined. But the interesting thing he found behind the desk was an unopened package for an USB powered LED clock fan, which basically how it works is it has LEDs on one fan blade (red and green for this one) and when it is on, it spins very fast but also turns the individual LEDs on and off very quickly at the precise time so images are formed as the text on a clock, including an hour, minute, and second hand, but no indication of AM or PM. I enjoyed it and took it home. I decided to finally text fAsherah at 3:49pm and had this conversation:
>I brought my 3D why did you quit this week?
<My Friend I Was Poisoned
<The Microbes Got Me .
One additional task that I got assigned by Jesse was to dust off some stuff for Lebanon with this duster that he found, along the way I spotted the new employee and Will talking to each other in Spanish. I dusted for Lebanon and he congratulated me, saying that the new duster was much less worn than the old duster. I started on my closings and while I was doing so, there was this conversation between Matt, Tony, and Jab about something relating to Tony spending time in jail, I didn’t really overhear that much so I would not make any hasty judgments. I finally got out at 6:00pm and took some boxes for packing and took the bus home. When I got home I had started to work on packing up for the day. I checked my Instagram account and I finally got a message back from Henry asking about the Bible study group, he just replied:
<Yeah
Which makes me wonder if I accidentally gave Henry and Punk my original landline number instead of my current phone number, I kind of wanted to ask him that but I decided against it, I watched two episodes of Severance while on my couch, I cooked some chicken nuggets that were in the freezer compartment of the fridge with the Airfryer and drizzled some ketchup over it, I also had some sauerkraut while finally getting the tv in the living room working. I wrote my entry for the day and then took a shower before plugging in the fan and going to sleep, also I didn’t see Enosh all day…

Song of the Day: Knock Three Times - Tony Orlando and Dawn (1970)
 
May 25th, 2025: Final day of the workweek today. I woke up and had cereal for breakfast along with some coffee. I got dressed in my good pants but wore a normal shirt. The bus line I usually went on magically decided to have a skip in the schedule for the bus I usually got which resulted in me using the other bus. I walked to work from the bus stop and then clocked in to do my regular task. While I was working on the drink cooler and pushing one of the glass bottles to the front, the first one shattered and dripped juice down on all of the others. I grabbed the biggest intact portion of the bottle and brought it to the back, marked it off, and then threw it in the garbage. I got some disinfectant wipes to grab the rest of the glass shards, but one of them pierced me in my left thumb and caused some bleeding. I looked everywhere for a band aid until I checked one of the cashier’s places and found one, it was too big for my thumb and more fit for putting on a scab you got on your knee because you tripped on the curb while running. It didn’t really stay on so I fixed that by wearing a glove. I ended up seeing fAsherah and asked her why she was sick. She told me:
“I had an issue with my kidneys!”
I then continued on my sweeping task and also the cleaning upstairs task that I had. This one employee who always plays dubstep whenever he’s upstairs and packing food, he gave me a roasted sesame stick for free. When I got done with the cleaning I had to water some plants outside. I decided to hook up the hose to our power washer outside and asked Jesse if we had any extra oil for the sreal womanger power washer that we had. He couldn’t find any and said that Will usually goes out to buy them. I decided to get lunch first and bought some new cookies. I gave fAsherah one and she liked it. While I was getting to the end of my lunch break fAsherah sat next to me while I was eating some of Bill’s soup. She asked if it was vegetarian and I said yes. I got clocked back in and got all the watering done and then power washed this entrance we had with some caked up piles of salt left over from winter. I got that removed and then just chilled for the rest of my day while trying to find work. Paula accidentally stained her white shirt which she was disappointed with. I emptied the trash for the bakery and got rewarded with a singular fry for my efforts. I had ginger beer because my stomach wasn’t feeling so good. I started on closings. I got a text from Grandma Jane of a video of her cat chirping at the birds outside her window with her saying:
<Now Katnip is talking to the birds!
When I was about to head out. I noticed this container of Strawberry Nesquik milk mix and asked Tony what it was for and he said that we made something that used it and french vanilla coffee creamer as powder for something. He asked me:
“Do you want some strawberry milk?”
But I declined. I clocked out and waited for the bus stop and this old White guy came up to me and said:
“Do you like to party?”
I declined again because I didn’t want to get multiple sexually transmitted infections or a drug addiction. I got on the bus and took it to church, I got in and did some prayers before the mass started. The presider was a 41 year old Latino priest and I gave $10 during the money distribution. Once that was done I went to the grocery store to buy some off brand soda and then took the bus home, I packed a bit more and then watched the final episode of season 2 of Severance. I loved the ending and laughed at the scene with Mr. Drummond. I took a shower and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: I Say a Little Prayer - Aretha Franklin (1968)
 
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May 26th, 2025: Enosh’s final day living here. I woke up and had some cereal and coffee before I started to help Enosh with moving some stuff out. I carried his bed frames and we both carried the couch and futon out to the U-Haul truck that he had rented. We had some issues with getting it out of the door but there was this event that was happening on the other side of the city where there was a Christian Catholic cookout happening. I took the bus down at 11:15pm but I was there a bit early so I did a bit of a walk around to fill out SuperlocalMaps. I saw this Black guy slouching down with his also Black girlfriend pulling him back up. I eventually entered the lawn of the place and saw the missionary guy, he welcomed me and showed me around the place a bit. Including the very crowded library. He started up the grill and then I got told to make some lemonade. I didn’t have enough lemon juice to make it so I asked the missionary if he had anything else and gave me a lime. I cut it into fours and then squeezed them into the pitcher. I cleaned up the place a bit and he thanked me for it. My next task was to work on grilling this package of hotdogs, which I have never done before, the missionary brushed off the grill for me and just told me to roll them around, I put the first ones on and noticed that a few were dirty so he grabbed a tray filled with water to dunk the things in. Some more people came to the event but there ended up being only one woman, Liseuxa, she was from the previous takedown event after Christmastime and she had shown up and said hi to me. I said hi back and she remembered me from the takedown event and the flowers she wanted. The missionary asked her if she could make a grocery run, she said yes and I also asked if she could pick up some lemon juice from the store. She left and I continued to cook all the hotdogs in the package. This other older guy from Chicago came in and took over for me to cook the hamburger patties while holding a beer can in one of those can pouches, near the start of his cooking experience, he let a total of three burger patties slip into the charcoals below but put them back on immediately. He talked about this story of Chicago in the 1990s about this guy at this chicken place that was mad at management and posted an advertisement for free food which caused a giant rush that made the news. Later on he let me finish cooking them and I got all the fallen patties washed off and we sat at a table with the others, including Liseuxa. The conversation turned to Sedevacantists and one of the guys from the Catholic center who acolyted with us (not Mercurius) mentioned people being secretly Sedevacantists in relation to the recent case of the Bishop of the Diocese of Charlotte, Michael Martin, announcing that on July 8th that almost all instances of the Traditional Latin Mass would be banned except for one far away from the city of Charlotte, and in his letter with an excerpt below:
<Effective July 8, 2025, the Traditional Latin Mass will no longer be celebrated at parish churches in the Diocese of Charlotte. In accordance with Traditionis Custodes Art. 3 §2, I am designating a chapel in the diocese where faithful adherents may gather for the celebration of the Eucharist on Sundays and Holy Days of Obligation using the Roman Missal of 1962. The chapel set aside for this purpose is located at 757 Oakridge Farm Hwy., Mooresville, North Carolina 28115. The name of the chapel is yet to be determined.
<A priest of the diocese will be appointed as chaplain, to be responsible for celebrating two Sunday Masses and Holy Day Masses using the 1962 Roman Missal at this site. Those who are interested in participating in the Eucharistic celebration in this form will remain active members of their current parishes, where they may continue receiving the sacraments.
Pretty much all of the people were mad at it (the cook guy was on a walk with this dog) and then Sedevacantists came up, I figured out how to detect one so I asked Liseuxa:
“What’s your opinion on the Vatican II council?”
She told me that it was mostly ok except for how they modified all those altars and the insides of churches ended up looking uglier. I agreed with her on how Vatican II had this effect which caused churches to look boring and modern as per other churches built at the time. The missionary then started a game of Croquet (Nine-wicket) with him going first, Liseuxa getting the yellow hammer, and I got the orange hammer, going last. The rules are that you have to hit it through 9 different hoops and get it to the other stake and then go back the other route, you get extra hits for hitting another person’s ball or going through a hoop, the one in the middle you had to go through twice. I was going the worst but when the missionary got back to the starting point first, he decided to play the poison version where you could take players out by intentionally hitting their ball, if the poisoned ball went through a gate, they were out. He then proceeded to wipe out everyone but me in one single turn, but the next turn I got out myself because the curvature of the hill messed me up. I sat out the next round and asked for a broom and dustpan to sweep up the 8 concrete steps. I talked to Liseuxa about the sounds that electric cars made and she said she hated it and just wanted them to make no sounds because she lives next to a highway. There was some music playing and I just hung on the guardrails because I could. I had to leave for this other cookout that I promised Joseph I would go to. I took the bus back home and then called him asking for the address but didn’t get a response, I got home to work on writing my blog entry for the day when Joseph called me telling me the address. I then walked over and said hi to him. It was at the house of one of the choir leaders, whom I will be calling Lang, and I even got to meet their bunny named Fritz, he was alternating between being shy and curious, wanting to be pet and running away from me. That one guy that was going into the military that I met during one of Joseph and I’s dinner nights, his grandma was here and he was playing baseball with his brother. I talked with Lucas a bit before joining the baseball game, I hit it once which was a homerun and then went back to talking with Joseph and the military kid’s grandmother. I talked to the military kid and he said that he might be going to the same college as me. Eventually the military kid left and his brother was coloring in the flag of Australia in this coloring book, very sloppy, I gave him some tips to help him, but a bit later I ended up getting a call from my dad about my plan to go to Jared’s graduation party, while I was in there, the kid kept saying to me:
“Wanna play baseball”
I kept my cool thankfully and discussed taking the Amtrak line to get there and possibly staying at his sister’s place. Lang came in and I said hi to him as he got the kid calmed down. I then overheard Lucas and 2 others talk to Joseph about his picky eating habits, one of the fruits I remember he tolerates is grapes, both green and purple. I eventually left at 7:15pm to start walking home. When I finally got in, I noticed that Enosh had still left some stuff so I texted him:
>There’s still some of your stuff here.
But I never got a response, I took a shower and then went to sleep.

Song of the Day: El Gigante de Hierro - Grupo Soñador (2003)
 
May 27th, 2025: Packing today, I woke up at 6:15am and got dressed in my grey dress pants and one of my blue and white plaid button-downs, I hopped on the bus with my backpack and took it down, it was relatively full but halfway to my stop I realized that I had forgotten my ID card. I did the time card fill out for last Tuesday and then got my chip in. I talked to Seth M and got started by helping with some miscellaneous tasks for IT. When I checked the calendar, it said that this new person was coming in at 9:30am so I was kind of excited. Someone pointed out that Seth M and I both had matching blue and white plaid button-downs and they remarked that it must have been the official IT uniform. At 9:11pm I got a text form Enosh saying:
<Hey, sorry for not getting back to you yesterday. I was on the road all day. I did leave a few things behind. I didn’t want to take the mug because I couldn’t remember if it was yours or mine. You can have it if you want. I also couldn’t take the microwave because my car didn’t have space. If you want you can have it for the summer. Otherwise, maybe we could sell it on Facebook marketplace?
I replied at 9:12am with:
>I don’t need a microwave, I wish you thought this out more. You could have just left some more stuff at your cousin’s place.
He then replied at 9:34am:
<I actually don’t think I could have stored it at my cousins house. Let me ask around and see who would take it. I’m sure I can find someone. Also, if you can text me a picture of it I can put it on Facebook Marketplace.
I was still at work so I couldn’t do anything. My task for the day was to help set up company iPhones and distribute apps for people to use on their phones, I thought it was a waste of money but only some people have it. The new girl finally came in but we didn’t really talk for a bit until I got the card printer set up. I asked the new girl for a professional picture of herself and her preferred job title. She airdropped it to me, which I hadn’t had to deal with in a long time. I talked with her a bit more and found out she was from the city of Daegu in South Korea and was in the same grade as me. She came to my city because it was one of the few exchange programs offered by her high school. I got her the new ID card just before she left at 12:30pm. I then went over to the pizza place and bought lunch there. I got back in time and I noticed a Pakistani family in the lobby past the elevators and holy cannoli they left a cloud of their odor which made me sick. Then this employee whom I will be calling Staples told me about this issue she had with someone putting in staples that were too big for the stapler and got stuck. I decided to use the thing of small staples to scoop the bigger staples out and it worked. She wrote a note telling people to not use the big staples. I chilled out for a bit until Zach A called me into his office to continue working on the data sheet. He had a black suit and white pants. Dude fashionmogged me. I told him that I would not be here for the next week because of my cousin’s graduation party. Later on the topic of his church came up and I asked him where he went, he told me he went to this Assemblies of God church. I got back to my spot and ended up clocking out a bit early so I walked over to the bus stop and then took the bus home. James had texted me about me bringing over some boxes before hand and I texted him at 5:18pm that I was walking over to the place with two boxes now, he gave me the ok and then I walked over, I eventually got there at 5:27pm, texting him to let me in, he did at 5:29pm and I went upstairs and put my stuff in Quoc’s empty room. James talked to me about wanting to make himself some ramen but Quoc took all the pots and pans when he left. We then took his compact Honda over to my house and then loaded it up with more stuff. He parked a bit far from my apartment but he remarked about my Magic the Gathering card collection, he used to play it but hasn’t in a long time. We then drove back and I was even allowed to have some snacks except for the Swedish Fish in the cabinet because James the Greater liked them. I took 3 fruit gummy packages and then walked home and took a shower and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: The Ballad of Boot Hill - Johnny Cash (1959)
 
May 28th, 2025: Free day today, I woke up at 7:08am and had cocoa pebbles in milk for breakfast but I was all out of milk, so I went over to the convenience store to buy a half-gallon of milk for $2.99. I got home and made it along with a cup of coffee mixed with powdered french vanilla creamer. I uploaded my Biblejak to the booru and then got dressed up for this Traditional Latin Mass that was happening at 12:00pm, but before that I walked over to the bank at 10:05am to get a roll of quarters for my laundry, I got it extracted at 10:24am and then walked back home. I got on the bus in the rain at 11:04am and took it down while doing a bit of a detour on my walk there despite the rain. My single-breasted 3 button jacket ended up being kind of soaked when I got into the church, the place looked like it was a room in Versailles but with more religious paintings and statues, including a depiction of Jesus on the cross with his mother Mary on the left of him and Saint John on the right and the 4 animal representations of the gospel authors just below that and their names in Latin. U got in at 11:42am while they were doing this long thing where one of many saints were named and then we would say a short prayer for them. I saw this older guy who looked like he was dressed for a construction work job and the priest was this older French guy with greying hair, he looked like the acolyte from the dance but I was confused if priests could serve as acolytes. The entire mass ended up sounding like a French mass because he spoke Latin with an accent from a descendant language. For communion, we got lined up to kneel on these spots where the altar rail was and the priest would go around to give us the Eucharist. The mass was done at 12:45pm and I checked to see if it was still raining so I decided against riding a nearby bus route all the way to its end and back for fun. I walked over to my bus stop and took it all the way back home. For lunch I had some Shrimp Scampi and ate it then went back home. I played some normal Terraria and modded Terraria when I got a text from Enosh saying:
<My friend Monica will be there around 9:00 tomorrow.
In regards to the pickup for the microwave. I took the bus over to the Men’s dinner night at 5:30pm and got there in time. I went in and was greeted by Father Malachi and dinner was brats with watermelon and pasta salad. The fellow acolyte from Monday was there and also one of the guys who lives here that I first encountered on November 20th, he said that he was born in South Africa. There were over 11 priests there and I was surprised. I talked with the missionary for a bit and he offered that I help him with his work. While I was walking out of the food place the Catholic center priest said to me:
“Oh hey Gemerson, I saw Joe today?”
I replied:
“Wait, Joe as in Joseph?”
He explained:
“Yeah, at your confirmation priest’s going away party.”
I was confused as to why I never got invited. I went into the Eucharistic adoration and sat next to Elizabeth, she didn’t seem that welcoming so a bit into it, I just decided to then take a walk outside for a bit and then come back in, I sat next to Luigi and his brother at the time and then still felt bad so I took yet another walk, but this time sat all by myself when I got back, I saw Naomi, Gabriel, the missionary, and also Liseuxa. At one point Liseuxa came back and I waved to her but she didn’t wave back. Eventually we got in line for the Eucharist and I saw that none other than Mercurius was coming back from receiving the Eucharist, I waved to him and he then decided to kneel next to me for the rest of the mass, we did the Saint Michael prayer. I then went outside to where the party was and helped Father Malachi with getting the vanilla ice cream set up for the root beer floats. There was also beer being distributed for the event so I asked for a can of Miller Lite, I had to remind Father Malachi to properly card me. He asked me to confirm my birthday. I did that and then waited around as others came in. I saw Sideburns’s cousin and asked her where he was but she said that his sister was here tonight. I ended up seeing Liseuxa come out and she got a beer and we chatted a great amount. I finally figured out her age (37) and I decided to introduce her and her friend to Mercurius, they got along pretty ok. I wandered off a bit to meet Luigi’s older brother, he had already graduated college. I said hi to Elizabeth and then went back to Liseuxa, she discussed how she didn’t attend the last dance because she had another event and her roommate said it was boring, I told her that she should have considered that her roommate was being boring. She laughed and then got in line for root beer floats, I already had one but she was sad that there were no more. We went around trying to get blessings from the 3 newly ordained priests, I was on my second beer at this point and we got the first two before looking around for the third, we find him and then the priest asks me:
“What Saint are you going to evoke?”
I was going to say Saint Ambrose of Milan but then Liseuxa told me:
“Do Saint John Paul II!”
I then took her advice and received the prayer. The people that were at the music station were playing some songs during it and there was this camera with film that we were supposed to take pictures of ourselves with and wrote some stuff on it for what we thought of the event, I wrote ‘transubstantiation’ on mine, Lisexua mentioned this event near where she lived that was a pro-LGBTQ+ which is what made her not want to come. She mentioned this event happening downtown later on this week that she wanted me to know if I could come to and to tell her on GroupMe, I asked her if she could drive me home but before we did so, we grabbed two lawn signs, I went to her car and tried to get in, but the door handle on the passenger side for the front was missing and she had to put some of her stuff in the back, I think a little bit of milk spilled. I got driven home and then dropped off. I took the metal poles out of my lawn sign and displayed it in my window before taking a shower and going to sleep.

Song of the Day: Linger - The Cranberries (1993)
 
May 29th, 2025: First of my two days at work. I woke up at 7:00am and cleaned out the microwave because there was someone coming to pick up our microwave at 9:00am. I put my laundry in the dryer and finished off my cereal for breakfast and made some coffee for myself. I also had some s’mores Pop Tarts. I worked on my Biblejak for the day and uploaded it, I then went downstairs to get my laundry from the drier and it was steaming and still somehow wet, I got so mad that I posted about on the Shiwi:
>I just put my laundry in the dryer and it came out steaming and still somewhat wet, this is the second time this shit has happened.
Although this guy by the name of GotFriedBy gave me this advice:
<You just need to put it back in for another 30 minutes
By that time I was already on the bus to my therapy appointment, we started a bit early and I was praised for continuing to work on my social skills and reaching out to others. I had to end a bit early at 9:55am so I could catch the bus to my work. I got there and clocked in at 10:24am. First thing I did was help John, Jesse, Max, and Will out with a large delivery we got. Jesse and I then went out into the cheese cooler and I found this broken package of bucatini and asked him what to do with it, he said:
“Just mark it down and toss it out, or keep it and bring it home.”
I did the second option, A bit later on I had to bring some cardboard past this old lady and said:
“Excuse me!”
To her and so did this other coworker, Matt then joked:
“Let me get a pen so I can write it down too.”
I then took my lunch break and ordered my food from Biker, his girlfriend was also there and ordered after me. I got a Chicago Combo sandwich and a Mucho Mango Arizona iced tea. I peeked my head out of the window and waved to Mr. Blundstone and he took a picture of me because it was so funny. A bit later after my first break, Tiffany and her manager came into the break room and I told her about the cookies that I had from Sunday for everyone to eat. I told Tiffany about them and she had one and enjoyed them, but I saw her drop some crumbs on the floor. It was raining so hard that I could hear it in the break room, I posted it on my Snapchat story and the only response I got was from Geno which became this conversation:
<my bad i didn’t ss your story i ss a notification i got lol
>Come to [city]
<i live here lol
>So do I, I’m moving into a new place on the 31st
<that’s exciting
>It’s an upgrade
I was disappointed that fAsherah wasn’t here today but Ignacio was here and commented on the fact that I forgot my name tag, he didn’t punish me for that thankfully. Tiffany’s manager joked about how Tiffany would frequently go on bathroom breaks to explore and I joked that Tiffany should see a doctor. A bit later if anybody remembers that Moxxie girl that I matched with last year on Hinge, she came in with 3 of her friends and I was surprised, she got in while I grabbed the hand vacuum to deal with some ants I found, I saw their group go up to buy their stuff when John and Tiffany were there. I saw them eat outside. At 4:50pm I texted fAsherah asking her:
>I am moving out on the 31st and I have a fuck ton of food that he got but didn’t take, do you or your fiancée want some?
She replied at 6:33pm:
<Oh shit !! What kinda food !!
I saw the original manager for a bit until it was time to start on my closing tasks, I got done and then clocked out a bit later to take the bus home along with some boxes, I got back and started on my pasta and did the laundry a second time in the dryer. I texted fAsherah a video of my pantry touring all my food at 7:18pm. At 7:26pm I got a text from grandma Jane saying:
<Gemerson-I hope you are able to come for Jared’s grad-you of course always have a place to stay! Hope to see you!❤️🎓
I immediately replied:
>Yes, I am coming on Monday!
I started to boil the bucatini and when that was done, I drained most of the water except I accidentally left too much water in so when I dumped the marinara sauce in, it was too watery so I had to let it boil for a while and stir it. When that was done I served myself a bowl and enjoyed it a lot. I put the rest in a container and then got my dry laundry out and took a shower before going to sleep.

Song of the Day: Sing for the Moment - Eminem (2002)
 
May 30th, 2025: Friday today, I had some s’mores PopTarts for breakfast along with some coffee and started a bit on packing, I got my desk taken down and some stuff put into boxes before I had to hop on the bus, I went through my tasks as usual and had to help out with a few deliveries here and there. At 10:56pm I had this conversation with James:
<Are you gonna want to keep anything behind the mirror in the bathroom?
<Like toothbrush and stuff
>Yes.
<Alright, I'll move my stuff around then
<Were you going to be meeting with the Landlady today? I forgot
>No, tomorrow
<Ah ok
<I was gonna have you look through the food I got so I can take what you don't want home, but I'll just leave whatever
Sabrina was back at work and she said that she had finally made the banana bread she was always talking about and that I should get some after work. I discussed with my mom that they should come over at 9:30am. I had my first break as lunch and heated up some of the bucatini in marinara sauce at 12:03pm and played some 4th generation of Pokémon with fAsherah, I did some more level grinding while fAsherah viewed the video I sent her and asked for some of the ramen noodles and all the peanut butter I had. I got done with my lunch break and worked in the back for a bit when Will asked me if I wanted any soup. I asked for one for fAsherah because the veggie soup was the one she wanted to try. Will then joked to me about her being my girlfriend but I denied it. I didn’t bring up her fiancée at all to disprove Will even though I should have. At 2:10pm, James texted me some more about the move in:
<The spectrum stuff should be all set up, the info is on the router, I did not change the password or name or anything
<Also set up the streaming box, it is on input 3 of the TV so feel free to watch whatever while I'm gone, although use your accounts if possible
<The boxes for both are under the TV for now, feel free to move them wherever
I replied:
>Thank you so much!
<Yessir, lmk if you need anything else
<I should have access to my phone off and on so if you need something you can reach out and I'll respond whenever I get the chance
For my second break I chilled out a bit until I got done with all my tasks for the day. John didn’t help me with the closing tasks but Ignacio gave me a fistbump. I once got into a pointing duel with fAsherah while she was helping out a customer. I ended up breaking contact first and later she told me that he said:
“Looks like he lost the contest!”
While I was upstairs, I overheard Jesse playing some music on his phone while doing this task. I forgot what it was. I eventually got started on my closing tasks for the day and then finally clocked out a bit early after doing all seven of my closing tasks, I hopped on the bus down to this event that was happening downtown and walked over to it in the drizzle with the empty container that I had along with the two containers of Will’s soup. I had it in my drawstring backpack and then got to the gates when I found out that I couldn’t get in unless I put it away. I tried texting Liseuxa about it to no avail and then just walked back home in the drizzle. The bus arrived at my stop conveniently on time and I got on. I took it home and then started packing even more, I got furious at the sheer amount of food that was not taken. I went over to Sabrina’s place and she let me in to grab the banana bread that was promised to me, I met her roommate’s cat and took a picture of it with the flash in its eye
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(sorry there little buddy) and noticed she had one of those flavor syrup pumps but for lavender, she had a new roommate moving in. I continued packing until I tried to call my internet service to cancel my service because I was moving and they kept trying to get me to transfer my stuff over but that didn’t work out at all because it was too late. At 11:00pm I finally took a shower and went to bed.

Song of the Day: Burning Desire - MIKE (2023)
 
May 31st, 2025: My final day of May. I hadn’t been able to go to sleep a good amount but I had this dream where Diane was being shitoko friendly with me and changed appearances at multiple times, becoming young once and then Latina in another. I woke up at 3:00am at one point and decided to pack for a bit until it was 3:35am so I went back to sleep, I woke up at 4:45am again and stayed in bed until 7:00am and continued packing, taking a good amount of stuff down until it was 8:45am when I took two boxes over to the new place, along the way, Sabrina’s friend said hi to me in her car and Sabrina asked if I had eaten the banana bread yet and I said no, Sabrina’s friend said she loved it. I got there and saw the new Landlady on the steps and we meet for the first time, she showed me the place and all the keys we had, when we were in the back, she told me to break down the cardboard boxes because the garbage truck won’t take any cardboard from outside the cans, I already did that a lot but when I opened the recycling can, I saw multiple unbroken cardboard boxes. I then went back and forth 3 times until my parents finally arrived at 10:03am, we got started on packing more stuff into boxes and hauling them into the new minivan. My dad was acting all grumpy while we were loading stuff into the minivan and got critical of me one time for cleaning when we should be packing. We got the new minivan full when my mom told us to drive over and unpack. We did but when we got into our road, there was this blue car blocking the only open space for us to drive through for a while and they wouldn’t move, they then moved but parked so horribly we just laughed at them. When dad and I got in we unloaded a basket full of Enosh’s leftover food, he even bought a bag of coffee grounds when he didn’t drink coffee because “it made him too jittery.” We got back at 11:02am to my mom cleaning out the sink and the kitchen. We packed some more stuff into the minivan and then drove over to unload it the second time, on the way there we saw this soylennial dad and his 5 year old daughter being taught how to ride a bicycle in the middle of a busy intersection, she almost strayed into the other lane.
“What the fuck is this shit, get off the fucking road!”
My dad yelled:
“How dumb can you be, you just passed a safer street to teach your kid on.”
It was so infuriating, we could have saved precious time if not for that dumbass biker. We then got there and we were quicker with our unloading this time. We drove back home and then got all the stuff that I didn’t need and put it into the car: Yasmine’s cabinet, the queen sized mattress that we folded in half through the use of ratchets and ribbons, Photography aunt’s old giant tv, my fake wooden table, and my bedframe. My desk was in there even though we were taking it over despite me saying that I did not want it. We unloaded some of that stuff and then started setting up all of my stuff in the new apartment. Where I mainly focused on putting away as much food as I could in the kitchen, my mom was putting everything away in my new bedroom while my dad was just sitting on the couch, he mentioned this headline about how over half of all Tesla owners report having their cars vandalized. My dad also noticed that I was wearing my Pentecost necklace not tucked into my shirt and he told me:
“Your necklace only has meaning when it’s tucked under your shirt, otherwise you look like one of those preachy Evangelicals.”
My mom agreed and I put my necklace under my shirt. I pointed out Quoc’s suggestion that we get an extension cord so we drove over to the nearest hardware store and got a 25 foot cable. I originally wanted a 20 foot cable but my mom insisted on a 25 foot cable even though it was too long. We got that set up at my new apartment and I told my parents about James the Greater currently being at O’Hare airport taking his flight out to Kentucky. We then decided to eat at this famous local place and dad mentioned that he was in ROTC for 6 years from his freshman year of high school up until his sophomore year of college. We saw a cop car park in front of a fire hydrant and I took a picture of it. While we were eating, I spotted this normie looking girl who was wearing a cross necklace sitting in the booth next to us and I felt kind of inspired by her confidence compared to mine. My mom didn't finish her spinach dish so she gave it to me to eat as dinner. After that we finished up taking stuff out and I got dressed for this event that would be happening but my mom criticized me for it being inappropriate for the weather. She grabbed all the stuff that I didn’t need and then we drove down to the event. I wanted them to come along but they were not interested. On the drive there my mom asked me about my confirmation name (Ambrose) and how I decided on it (I asked my friends and Asherah was the only one to give me an answer. The next thing that she asked me was:
“Have you been attending therapy still?”
I replied honestly:
“Yes I have.”
She then asked me this:
“Are you going to consider getting that medication?”
I lied:
“Yes I will.”
My dad even chimed in:
“You should at least try it for a bit and see how it makes you feel.”
I wasn’t even going to consider that, anybody with a brain has heard about the negative side effects that happen even after people quit it. I was let off and then purchased a ticket before heading into Italianfest. There were a lot of people there but the food was kind of expensive. I got a 32 ounce thing of freshly made lemonade for $9.00 (plus the giant ass tips they suggest) and walked around while listening to the live bands. I later got a thing of corn for dinner and put Tajin seasoning on it and ADORED the flavor. I walked around more until I found this lady with an amazing voice that looked pretty Italian, her name was Madeline Keane and she ended up singing some songs from Phantom of the Opera (Note: go see that for the first time) And I then later got these Italian donuts with cinnamon sugar and chocolate syrup sprinkled over them. I decided to go home after a while and got back, I drank a thing of James’s Muscle Milk and washed more dishes before finally taking a shower in the much nicer new place, there was a nightlight in there for a much darker and relaxing shower ambiance, I then went to bed on my mattress without a bedframe.

Song of the Day: The Phantom of the Opera - Andrew Lloyd Webber, Charles Hart, Richard Stilgoe (1986)
 
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June 1st, 2025: Mattresses on the ground is a telltale sign that a man is not orderly, we’ll blame my parents for my room, I woke up at 6:00am with my alarm and got dressed for work, I had some Reese’s puffs for breakfast along with finishing off the milk that James had left me. I packed my lunch in a lunch bag and put it in one of those reusable grocery bags and tried to hop on the bus but there was this issue with skips in the bus schedule making my bus not be there. So I just walked to work and loved the atmosphere while I was walking there. Getting off the busy road that the bus takes was so relaxing and the shade of the trees was just a chef’s kiss on top of the calm, and it regulated the heat. After getting through the forest like part, I then went into this alley that I have never been to before in my life and walked past two people in the alley. I eventually passed this homeless person across the street begging for spare change. I ended up walking behind this fat middle aged woman who had tanned skin and when I passed her she said to me:
“Hey baby do you want to buy me a cigarette?”
I ignored her for obvious reasons. While I was walking there I saw fAsherah and said hi to her as she talked about moving to this better place than her old spot after work. She was a bit late but I was early. Jesse had me working on the beverage aisle and stocking half of the place while the other employee worked on the other half. My first break was ok. I continued with my work sweeping outside, I had unscrewed the broom handle from the broomstick to get a more precise sweep. When I got back, I had my lunch break. I heated up the spinach dish in the microwave and then ate that along with some canned tuna that I needed to eat. I then went into the office to pick up my coffee that I had forgotten about and drank it, the office lady made a joke about me forgetting it. I then got into more pointing contests with fAsherah and at one point, there was this super long line for the cashier with only one cashier and Lebanon called out on the walkie-talkie:
“Hey, can we get another cashier up front, there’s a line that’s wrapping all the way round to the back.”
I looked around for the other cashier that wasn’t on break and couldn’t find her, fAsherah had recently clocked out at this point. A bit later I went on my second break and had some Reign energy. I got on my tasks and then relaxed for a bit because I had nothing else to do. The duster that Jesse found was in this room so I dusted some of the alcohol bottles while Lebanon was talking to this new supplier which inspired me to look for something to buy for Angeleno’s birthday. In the office Jesse created this folder of daily tasks for Will to manage when Jesse was gone on vacation. I started on closings and one of my tasks was to sweep up the store floor, when I got near the front, this manager was sweeping and she was laughing that I shook off the dry mop in this place to sweep it up while she had the broom and then I went back. I had some time to spare so I waited for it to be near clock out time and then got out. I bought some Hotel Starlino arancione orange for Angeleno’s birthday and then put it in my bag.
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The bus was skipping so I took a different bus home. When I got on the bus this Black lady who was nearly homeless and smelled bad came off with an extremely beaten up, threads hanging off of it. I got on and enjoyed the relatively uncrowded bus ride home. I hopped off and walked back, in the middle of my homewards trek I encountered this Black guy and woman in their car and the Black guy said to me:
“Ayy man what you got in that bag?”
I then started to pull it out.
“AYYAYYAYYAYYAYYAYY!”
She screamed like I was pulling out a pistol from my bag to shoot them, but when they saw it wasn’t an actual pistol they laughed, the guy said:
“I’m just like you man I’m always carrying around Tito’s.”
He showed me a crumpled water bottle that looked like it was filled with water. I got home and started heating up some 90 second rice and tuna for dinner. At 6:00pm I had this conversation with my dad:
<Ok. I hear you are heading to your aunt’s place. I see you for dinner
>Yes!
<Offer to buy something for your aunt, also bring her flowers
>Ok!!!
<You are a good kid. I'll tell your Mom to not throw out your clothes. #helpfulspawn
>Thank you #kindspawner
I then ate a popsicle and then walked down to church, Lucas and Raphael were ushers. Joseph mispronounced my name accidentally and then corrected himself. and the priest from the mini-masses was the priest, his homily was about how the solemnity of the ascension was his first mass that he did two years ago with tons of other priests, like 20 according to his claim, and that a going away celebration for him would commence on a day that I would not have the fortune of being able to attend due to work, Bartholomew and Lauren weren’t sitting next to each other and there was one point where she coughed really loudly, she even cut in line for the Eucharist. I went back and then finally walked back home, I had yet another popsicle and then took a shower in the dark before going to sleep.

Song of the Day: Burning Love - Elvis Presley (1972)
 
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June 2nd, 2025: Off to another city today, I woke up at 5:34am despite my alarm being set for 6:00am so I just made up the difference by packing early, I had my biggest suitcase with me so it ended up being super empty except for 2 pairs of clothes, I got my towel and wrapped up Angeleno’s gift in said blue towel and put it at the bottom of the thing. No milk for my cereal so I brewed a pot of coffee. At 6:45am I hopped on the bus down to the station and walked over to the station. I got a boston creme donut as my breakfast and the lady working at the cash register completed the transaction before I could even press any of the tip options, guess she knew it was bullshit. I got in line for the Amtrak and then boarded at 7:55am, the train left at 8:05am and at our first stop, this late 30s lady with blonde hair sat next to me while talking about her work, we got there at 9:45am and I got over to the loop when I entered one of the stations, I collected the train maps they had there and the lady working there told me:
“Come here, I got one of the big maps.”
I took it and then paid with just my debit card and took the hour long train ride out. At one point it stopped and I posted about on Instagram, this Black guy was walking in between trains and stood near me when I got off at my stop, he didn’t follow me to my aunt’s place but I was let in and put my stuff down, I chilled for a bit until Angeleno and I agreed to meet at this sushi place at 12:45pm. I left at 12:25pm and walked straight there, when we got inside I finally met Angeleno for the second time. We had a bunch of sushi and he paid for it all thankfully as we talked about boats across Lake Michigan. We then walked back to my aunt’s place and we were locked out. I called her to let us in and we saw Thing Beta painting the sign for Jared’s graduation party, Angeleno and her talked a bit before he met the cat and then we decided we should walk over to this place called Miko’s, after @mikobowl. On the walk over, Angeleno had revealed to me Froot’s real name, the fact that the Sharty IRC was shut down due to a potential court case, which would mean that Quote would have his real name released.
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I paid for the Italian ice where I got lime flavor while Angeleno got watermelon and lemon in his. My aunt then came over to drop off the keys for me, we then walked back and talked some more. When I went inside I found that my aunt had 4 Elvis Prestly plates that she got from Jane’s sister. I finally gave Angeleno his birthday gift, which I thought was on June 6th but was actually on July 6th.
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We played some Tetris on the Macintosh, we didn’t get anywhere near as good of a score as the old owner (Dave) and I thought he was one of my father’s step-brothers, so I texted him:
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>Who’s this Dave gamer guy?
<do you realize you're talking to your father?
>Yes!
<I have no idea what you are talking about
>Oh I thought that might have been your step brother.
<Still no clue
>Oh nevermind.
We played more Tetris and never managed to rape the top 10 scores. After a bit we then browsed KiwiFarms a bit.
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My grandma came over and said she was so glad to see Lorenzo again. I got started on the salad for my aunt and we put 5 potatoes in tinfoil in the oven. My dad arrived at 6:40pm and we ate while talking about a lot of different stuff. My dad mentioned the budget cuts to the CTA and everybody but me got so upset about it. Dad says:
“If the CTA does their cuts, the city’s going to face an exodus of people!”
The topic later shift’s to Jared’s dad’s adoptive father, he was described as “looking like a stereotypical cop but with the Star of David” and how he would leave a loaded pistol in the top shelf of a cabinet and deter his kids from playing with it by telling them how dangerous it is, my aunt found that dumb as hell. Jane told me a story about how she had gotten confirmed in the Lutheran church and then started going to a Presbyterian church with her grandma after that, safe to say she doesn’t go to church nowadays. I got lectured by my dad for being vague in my texts to him about the computer. At 7:30pm. Angeleno left and we said our goodbyes as I finalized my blog entry for the day. It was getting time for bed so I got on the couch. I found out that Jared’s dad and his stepmom broke up, this was when I was asking if his step-sister was supposed to be the 6th person he could invite to his graduation, but she wanted her mom to be invited. Thing Beta came back later and then had a disagreement with her mom about using the car and her boyfriend, I overheard it while downstairs and her mom was mad at her for being disrespectful for her and she even shouted:
“STOP FUCKING YELLING AT ME RIGHT NOW!”
Although she wasn’t actually yelling at her mom. I was crouched down in the corner for this event and I decided to pop out.
“So sorry to hear that!”
I told her.
“Yeah, she’s just angry!”
I asked her:
“Where’s the cat?”
“Oh he’s upstairs but I would just wait for her to calm down."
I got the bedsheets and then took a shower before going to bed.

Song of the Day: shitoko Minds - Elvis Prestly (1969)
 
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