April 29th, 2025: Another shitty day today. I woke up and went down to the convenience store to grab some cereal and signed up for their rewards program because I could get 3 boxes of Apple Jacks cereal for the price of one. I had some for breakfast and then went to this popular meetup to work on finalizing the presentation with Nintendo fan and Chappell. We got everything finished up as Chappell was complaining about the South Korean because she gets her politics from TikTok. Then the South Korean came and we finished up working on it and practicing rehearsal before heading out to my German class. I was feeling absolutely awful throughout class and I had this headache for it, plus with the added odd number of people attending class that day, I was the odd one out for the partner activities so I just decided to leave for a while and randomly decided to walk up to the third floor and then over to the far stairs and finally back down again. I got back once it was done and then proceeded to my next class where I transcribed the speaker's notes for my slides and read them off of them when it came time to present. I got kind of nervous but I powered through it and then went to this restaurant on campus to order this veggie quesadilla for a late lunch and absolutely loved it. I went back home to get prepared for my therapy session while I still had a headache. I took the bus down and decided to get some boba tea along the way and went to this place where they had AI generated art on the walls that was surprising. I got the tea and sat on the upper balcony and had the guy bring it up to me so I thanked him. I drank it and then went into my therapist’s office and waited until 3:30pm when I went into her room only to find out she was in a session with another girl:
“I’m sorry I had you down for 4:00pm, could you come back later?”
I said:
“I can do it next week!”
And then left, but I got outside and was still feeling awful mentally and then went back in and waited until 4:00pm and entered her office. The therapy session was good but I talked about my whole fight with Asherah. At one point she gave me a cup of water and I ended up having to refill it 3 times and my headache won't go away. I mentioned that I drank a half a can of beer before my date yesterday and she congratulated me on using that to help me socialize. One thing she suggested is that I used white noise to sleep. At one point she asked if I wanted to start SSRIs but I said no and she was more insistent this time, almost guilting me into it, which made me have an epiphany that she didn’t want to see me happy, she wanted to see me complacent. I left at 4:30pm because of the early wrap-up and just shambled my way to the Catholic Center. On the way there I messaged the girl I went on a date with yesterday asking if she wanted to go on another date but I just got a half-assed answer. I didn’t get a text asking to acolyte for this mass but I hung out with the Honduran and Markus before it started and sat near Mercurius during the mass. I had this thing for Twitter where I wanted to count the attendance for the mass by the number of men and women there and I got 14 men (Gabriel, Markus, the Honduran, Mahdi, Reuben, Henry, and others) (+2 Acolytes) and 13 women (Ava, Elizabeth, the girl I first danced with, some others). The priest’s homily was on Catherine of Sienna and her foreskin ring thing. We went upstairs for dinner and then went outside to take a group photo and a passing the torch event, because Henry was a senior, he got the torch first and then passed it along to us. I had dinner outside with the gang but Henry’s girlfriend was being Henry's girlfriend. This one girl went to my plate and offered to grate cheese over it and I accepted. I went inside and saw Punk and I called them by their last name and they asked if I was just showing off my knowledge. I saw Pen Guy and I also found out that Punk is graduating but I eventually had to leave for the Autism group. Gabriel was the only one to say bye to me but I walked over and then found out that the thing wasn’t even happening because the Zoom host hadn’t started the meeting. I then went to this popular place and posted on my Instagram story asking for advice on what to do if I had a persistent headache and I got some replies:
One from this girl who I will be calling Guinivere:
<Try caffeine. A shot or two of espresso will probably help !
Another from this girl who lives in Green Bay:
<Take an excedrin
<Drink a Coke
>I don't have that [excedrin]
<A sugary, caffeinated drink would help
>I'll buy that
<If you have one handy
<A Coke works wonders for many things
One from the Angeleno himself:
<have you tanen ibuprofen or acetaminophen
>No I don't have those at home.
<Over
<Those are the best
>Got it!
<Nice
>Thank you so much
<no problem
A final one from my cousin 6ie:
<"look at my new boots" [replying to the Saint Michael the Archangel post]:
<Allergy poll
>Thank you
I got a Pepsi and drank that before heading back home. I then sent this message in the Catholic center group chat:
>Whatever happened to the prayers request chat?
>I need to make a request
This girl then replied to me:
<You can make prayer requests in this chat! Who can we be praying for?
So I replied:
>I haven’t been feeling good mentally so for me.
I then went to sleep with brown noise playing in the background.
Song of the Day: Einmal um die Welt - CRO (2011)
