early 20s ass game. something I’m always stupidly amazed at with games is how much u can get out of a game emotionally out of how it plays. idk my media background is film where everything is up front and most ppl get the same thing out of each project, everyone picks up on the same themes and the movie plays out the same and means the same for most people. film is inherently unsubtle. games are not. mostly just wanted to play this bc it looked cute and fun, a good easy time with a cute little open world and I did get that but I also got a really touching experience. there’s not really a story here but just from the game handles, how sloppily kat handles, I got lots out of it. how chaotic and messy this part of someone’s life feels, being tug at in every way, redoing the same tasks every day, fucking up at the simplest things and realizing how easy they are once u can complete them. Idk I’m a crazy emotional girl and have finally started to attempt to go back to school and do something with my life and this meant a lot to me. I’d like to make a difference in this world even if just a small one :-)

could never get into minecraft tbh bc I think that shit ugly and also bc I’m not creative in that specific kind of way but this kind of made me understand the appeal of games like that. was already heavily vibing w this and then put in cheats and that kind of like broke the game and also my brain momentarily. it’s like very janky and kind of clunky but in a good way before cheats (u get killed by just about anything and traversal is honestly a bitch) but after cheats it allows u to freely explore these worlds. worlds that before felt so big and made you feel so small now are the opposite. it’s cool stuff and I love the interiors and how maze like or labrynth-y they feel, really reminded me of the early hours of drakengard that I’ve played and lots of the outdoor areas reminded me of like the vehicle segments in half life 2. also one of those games that def doesn’t have a real ending and kind of just allows to explore as much as you want, you can get out as much as u put in and when you’ve decided you’ve seen enough you can just move on with your life, I love stuff like that.

it’s been about five years since I last saw the snow and about fifteen since I last saw my father. I’m in a different place now surrounded by different people now. I wouldn’t have it any other way, I’m happy and things are ideal for me in a way I never thought they could be. most days I can’t remember what the snow felt like, what my fathers hand felt like. but occasionally I remember, I remember how my barefoot felt pressed hard into the snow, how nice it felt to come back inside afterwards, I remember my father’s car and his cologne, how he’d buy me candy in a gas station drive around, sometimes I remember his face and sometimes I remember that there’s trace amounts of his face in mine. I spent my teenage years hating that man, because that’s all he ever really was to me. just some guy and I didn’t really know him, I never got the chance to. once I realized this I stopped hating him, it didn’t make me want to have a chance to get to know my father but it did make me forgive him. he wasn’t a bad guy, just a bad father, but I don’t think I can blame him for that, he wasn’t cut out to be a father and that’s okay. wherever he is, I hope he’s happy, I hope he’s found peace, I hope he’s escaped the snow just as I have.

in my dreams ur alive and ur crying :-))

-wypipo game
-got me thinking about the inherent secrets that come with like multi-story houses. like I kept weed that I bought and never smoked in a guitar case in my room that I kept bolted shut. idk why I did this it’s not like my family really would’ve cared but they did care of who I talked to and who I brought over. made me think of how even though no one in my household smoked cigarettes (besides me for one eventful winter) there was this unopened pack that were older than me buried underneath a bunch of junk in a cabinet. and even though I haven’t seen my house in over a half decade now I assume those cigarettes are still there.
-also lots of cool stuff about like generational abuse that’s slowly peeled away at much like the hidden rooms in the house. though I much prefer last years barbarian or the mountain goats’ tallahassee and sunset tree
-weezer jumpscare😵‍💫
-actually a lot of the cultural artifacts that are presented here are really cool, nice little snapshot of a specific time. very interested for in like 5-10 years to see my generations equivalent of this.
-best parts of this are how it leans so far into pretending to be a horror game. like the bathtub coated w blood red hair dye and the curtains and windows being illuminated with thunder cracks to look like an intruder in the house. like yaas play little tricks on me pls
-damn would like this a lot more if it wasn’t made by a fucking creep. but also how did it take so long for him to be outed as a shitty person. idk don’t trust any cis male this interested in queer relationship dynamics, y’all weird. also would be infinitely better if not so much so a neoliberal new sincerity game, get out of here w ur “last of us made me cry 🤓” ass takes like brooooo u posted cringe u posted lesbian fanfic cringe and that’s sus

-game for girls who keep their anxiety meds in a macaron pill container so that when they inevitably have an anxiety attack while out they can feel cute even though they’re mentally ill lol
-literally just kept thinking lol it would be so funny if someone did fancam for this game but it was set to that awful one republic oh this is gonna be the good life song
-I think this is like a masterpiece about being delusional and the power of like repression. like idk I’m lucky to be able to trick myself into thinking the things that happened to me in my adolescence didn’t actually happen. or at least lucky enough to be able to shove it to some far off corner of my brain where it can’t hurt me. but of course it always does and ur just kind of delaying the inevitable, still though probably better than the alternative! I think the ending does a fantastic job of conveying that, lock all ur trauma away and hope and pray you don’t have to think about it too often lmao
-this is like a top five game of all time tbh, very rare that I actively seek out what a creator of a piece of media that I love has said about their work and this made me do that despite the fact that there is very little in terms of behind the scenes info on it
-theres a very funny european (?) newspaper from around this games release w a screenshot of jennifer and brown on the front page and off to the side it says in big text THE ARMY APPROVED ABUSE OF PRISONERS and above it FOOD FRAUD
-Hi, Emily, you don't have to play
You are not her, and he is not me
Emily, you don't have to play
You are not her, and he is not me :)))