Anonymous asked:

Can you write a drabble or headcanons (whatever you prefer) about Cloud's nightmares and how reader would comfort him? Like, would he open up and tell reader what are his dreams about, would he shut down and need space to calm himself first, would he need physical comfort...? Sorry if it sounds messy >.<

Don’t worry, your request wasn’t messy at all! :) I decided to do a drabble for this one since I really missed writing for Cloud. Hope you like it!

Not today – Cloud Strife x reader

When you woke up, you found the other side of the bed empty. You knew that Cloud dealt with pretty bad insomnia sometimes, so it wasn’t unusual that he went to bed late but somehow, things felt different today. A part of you was sure that he had been lying next to you just a few moments ago. Maybe it had been the shift of weight on the mattress that had woken you up or maybe the door clicking shut.

Groggily, you sat up and rubbed your eyes. The clock on your bedside table showed almost three o’clock, and while you knew that it would be more reasonable to go back to sleep since you had to get up early in the morning, you had the feeling that Cloud could need some company right now. He usually didn’t like to talk about his insomnia or the nightmares he had but you knew that he appreciated your company to distract himself from the things that kept him awake at night.

With that in mind, you threw back the covers and put on a sweater to keep yourself warm in the chilly hours of the night before making your way into the living room. The room was only dimly lit by a few candles on the table in the corner, their flames drawing dancing shadows onto the walls. You could see Cloud standing by the window where he stared into the darkness absent-mindedly as if something out there could help him to keep the unsettling thoughts away.

You made your way over to him, carefully wrapping your arms around his. “Hey,” you muttered softly. “Can’t sleep?”

He shook his head.

“The nightmares again?” you asked. When he nodded, you tightened your hug a bit. You knew that his dreams had something to do with his past but since he never talked about it, you had no idea what had really happened. “I’m sorry,” you said. “You shouldn’t have to deal with all of this. You deserve some peace.”

He let out a quiet sigh but didn’t answer. It was always like that. After experiencing another nightmare, Cloud usually didn’t talk much since he felt like he had to relive the dream once more by speaking about it. He knew that you were curious about his dreams but you never pestered him to talk about it – something he was incredibly thankful for. He had no idea how to address the memories that haunted him, how to explain why it was so hard for him to come to terms with his past. With that in mind, he always hoped you’d be patient for just a little while longer. One day, he would tell you everything. But not today.

You leaned your head against his back, feeling the warmth of his skin through the thin fabric of his dark grey shirt. “I know that you don’t want to talk about it,” you said quietly. “But I just need to make sure that you know I’m always here for you. If you ever change your mind, I’m here to listen. You don’t need to sort everything out on your own, you know.”

“Thank you, (Y/N),” he replied, his voice barely louder than a whisper. “And I promise to tell you everything at some point because I think you really deserve an explanation but – I can’t do this today. Not now. I’m sorry.”

He disentangled himself from your hug and turned around to look at you. His blue eyes were filled with distress but there was something else, too. A deep gratitude because you respected his decision to remain silent about his past for now. “It’s not that I don’t trust you,” he added and cupped your face with his hands. “It’s just…”

He didn’t finish his sentence. You smiled at him, slowly leaning in to close the gap between the two of you. “You don’t need to apologize,” you mumbled right before your lips met in a soft kiss. “Talk about it when you’re ready. I’ll be here for you.”

Cloud wrapped his arms around you to pull you close to him and buried his face into the crook of your neck. The faint scent of your perfume filled his nose as he took a deep breath. He knew that he was incredibly lucky to have someone like you in his life. You were patient and caring and you never complained about his secretiveness, no matter how hard the whole situation was for you.

Sometimes, he almost believed that he had found his soulmate when he met you in Seventh Heaven after his first mission with Avalanche. He hadn’t noticed you at first but after Tifa had introduced him to you and asked you to keep him company while she discussed further details about the next mission with Barret and the others, he had been hooked. There had been something about you that fascinated him and even now, after you had been together for almost one year, he couldn’t quite put his finger on it.

Maybe you were really meant to be for each other. And he wouldn’t let anything, not even his nightmares or his past, destroy what you had.

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