tldr: feeling stuck in my transition financially, and it causing me to feel bad about myself. i recently took a month long break from all social media, and took the time to do some soul searching if you will. in that time i connected more with myself, and took the time with no distractions or doom scrolling to genuinely and brutally honestly check in with myself. i came out of it being so much more sure about who i am and my transness than ever before which is why this hurts so bad. i KNOW who i am and i am so rock solid in my transfemme identity, but this nagging still persists. anyway, i've known for most of my life i was queer in some capacity. when i was young i thought i was just bi as the extent of my queer knowledge at the time was just gay, lesbian, and bi. it wasn't until my teenage years that i started to realize certain disconnects with my other amab peers that started to make me realize there was something more going on. naturally i subconsciously stuffed it away for YEARS. all the while not realizing it was just brewing for the better part of 15 years. this has started to mildly develop into self resentment about wasted time, and being jealous of people starting their transitions earlier in life. i'm turning 31 on the 15th and all i can think about is "just another year down the drain." through no one's fault but my own i am not in the best situation, as i still live with my parents, and don't make enough to even day dream about thinking about moving out. thankfully it's not a hostile situation, my parents were very accepting when i came out, and fully accepted my brother in law who is trans with open arms. i had my first consultation for hrt two weeks ago, and without insurance i just legitimately cannot afford it. at the moment i get paid and my paycheck vacuums into my car note, internet bill, phone bill, and stupid dumb subscription services i don't need but can't bring myself to cancel. thankfully my car is only like ~5 more payments away from being paid off, but it's starting to have mechanical issues now so it's just like🙃. i hate that i cannot afford therapy, i hate that i live in the southeastern united states and that it's so insanely expensive to even move down the street, i hate that it seems like my national government wants me dead, i hate that my biggest source of imposter syndrome and dysphoria is essentially boiling down to "not rich enough." i know first and foremost regularly seeing a lgbtq+ friendly therapist will do wonders, but until i'm financially able to what are some ways you all have found to deal with imposter syndrome, or not being able to look in the mirror for days at a time?

I'm trying to get more into the subculture but I don't know many English bands (I usually listen to Spanish punk bands since I'm Spanish :3)

Everyone is so ready to fight all of the time. Platforms like twitter, TikTok and instagram just seem like a big stage for a brawl nowadays. What do you think causes that kind of environment?

Hi guys! So, I have this Instagram account where I share my personal interests (from music, to books, unboxing etc) but I’m tired of taking photos than just feel like they belong in a basic Pinterest board. I want to be more creative but have no ideia how to do it. I’m fashion designer and obsessed with art history (plus a 100 things bc autism) I feel like what I create is nothing new. If you guys could recommend sites, apps or artists than could help me develop a more creative eye for my photos I would be forever grateful (btw my insta is @milaskosmos if anyone wants to take a look there)

Eu sou o tipo de pessoa muito social, mas a bateria acaba rápido demais e é difícil manter amizade constantemente. Alguma dica? Vocês fazem mais amizade irl ou só online?

Where do you go to get political information that you feel is a verified journalistic source. I find social media amd mainstream media is a complete minefield of bias and mistrust. I like breaking points and drop site news. Other than that it seems really difficult to know what’s going on fr. Where do yall look?

i just got this app and i want to know how this works and how u guys use this. i just post anything that comes to my head? at any moment? or i have to post only in the communities that i join?

hihi ^_^ im looking for music/band recs with female vocalists. Please tell me some good songs!! :D