So, in your orbit. Let me explain. Long thread incoming.

I’m going to start out by just stating outright that I was a volunteer worker of Jules Hydes. Now, that’s not necessarily what I believe, but since Jules likes to pretend being unpaid is my one and only “gripe” with him, I’ll strike it from the records and focus on what really matters.

In early 2023, I worked on a soundtrack for a then friend’s student film. That’s three years ago. I alleged that I didn’t know I was working for free until partway through the production, Jules disputes this, and unfortunately it’s a he said she said situation.

I thought I was getting paid because the contract I got described me as a contractor, he says I knew I was doing it for free because I said I wanted to work on it, whatever. Friends do free work for friends, I guess.

Anyways, the film was completed later that year, made it into multiple festivals throughout 2024, and was set to release in 2025. It is instead being released in 2026, with music by someone else. What happened?

Well, In 2025 I became the subject of a rapidly growing reactionary online hate movement. That's what I'm going to call it, if that makes you uncomfortable then get out of my audience before you hurt someone.

“Transandrophobia” was coined in reaction to transfeminism by tboys arriving 15 years too late to reddit atheist men’s rights activism. I will not be explaining more, they do not deserve grace.

I became a target of this hate movement for my growing apprehension at being scrutinized and needled by tumblr transmascs, persistently policing any notion of transfeminism or the idea that they possess *any* male privilege whatsoever.

This included my friend, the film director, who repeatedly took it to dms to interrogate me over takes such as “nonbinary transfems have more pressure to conform to a binary than nonbinary transmascs.” He later testified that he was treating me with kid gloves.

The harassment really kicked into high gear when I finally said that I was feeling vaguely threatened by transmascs in response to an anon ask.

My tumblr account is gone, so I can't show the worst of it, but the abuse included descriptions of murder and torture, sealioning questions about whether I'd feel the same about *black* men, straight up being told “if you really felt threatened you'd shut the fuck up.”

And of course, regurgitating long since resolved manipulative half truths from my distant past without thinking about why it's so easy to do this for every transfem they want to silence.

This included Jules, who formally denounced me, and participated in digging up dirt on me, leaking screenshots of my private twitter with 20 followers, making my statements out to be a petulant act of revenge against him specifically.

He also wrote a portion of the callout doc against me, where he transparently runs in circles in an attempt to paint me as an abusive greedy business partner, despite receiving free labor from me.

This includes my decision not to contribute to festival fees after already providing free work, and asking to stay at one of their places once. I'm being serious. He wrote a callout post about his volunteer worker because I didn't accept a paycheck of negative 30 dollars.

Make no mistake, it's a student film, but it's not my degree. It wasn't my creative vision, I politely asked for one pratfall to be animated on beat. In some cases I had to revise the score to accommodate their editing changes. I was the third name of three on the credits, but it wasn't my movie.

And again, as a student film, they weren't making any money, but they did get their degree and all those official selection seals on the thumbnail partially on the back of my free work.

There’s a deranged portion of his callout that just tries its absolute hardest to convey that I should have been obligated to give him 30 dollars, because sometimes I buy things and make expenses for my own business, and it’s ONLY 30 dollars.

And, well, first off, it’s not 30 dollars. It’s 930 dollars, because I donated 900 dollars of my labor. He claims I did so willingly, but that doesn’t change the fact that I’d already given him an unreasonable sum of money in the form of free work, and he’s cancelling me for not giving him more.

But really, it’s not 930 dollars either, because if I’m obligated to pay fees for ONE festival then I’d also be obligated for the other pawful of festivals they submitted to. Jules is mad that I did not become his paypig indefinitely after I did free labor for him.

And about that last detail, that an artist “had to wait literal years” to receive payment from me for album art. This calls to mind imagery of the artist continuously pestering me for money and being blown off, but this isn’t what happened.

The artist themself, Octa Mobius Sheffner aka Asleep Country later got in contact with me to apologize & clarify that they were not the source of this claim, that I had forgotten to pay them and they elected to just let it slide for years, and it was their ex-partner who was spreading that claim.

I paid them, of course, the instant that ex-partner contacted me I paid Sheffner back ten times what I owed them. But also, none of this fucking matters, because this is just another attempt to make me out to be someone worth exploiting. Like what if I did stiff them, so what, you owe ME money.

But the more insidious part of his narrative is the pervasive insinuation that my dependence on him is an excuse to exploit me.

He and I both testify that I was terrified and suicidally depressed while I was being stalked and doxxed by kiwifarms et al, that I was eager to produce work for him and see my music in festivals because I wanted a career that wasn’t dependent on social media

That he goes over this to support the idea that he was actually helping me by taking advantage of me in an extremely vulnerable time, it makes me see red. He detailed the ways in which he benefited from my vulnerability to demonize me.

That he played the transmasc saviour while stabbing me in the back for pointing out he’s a man. It’s enough to make you go insane.

So I responded, basically saying... no, this is fucking incomprehensible, what do you mean. I did free labor for you, I even thought I was doing it for money but let it slide when I found out it was free. Stop it.

And he RETALIATED, he posted “a statement on patricia taxxon,” restating the same attacks on my character and regurgitating my kiwifarms thread. It has now been cited multiple times by people who wish to smear me, and I hope they eventually learn what that post was really for.

It was an incoherent meltdown by an employer protecting his own bag, abdicating himself of responsibility and erasing his debt. Never mind the fact that free labor is free labor even if a pedo groomer nazi is volunteering it.

He also formally declared he would no longer be using my music, and would be paying out of pocket for a new score. Lol.

In the months since, he has continued to smear my character behind closed doors. I am only aware of the parts that get spat up by the seven or so blogs that were dedicated to stalking and defaming me.

He claims that I pestered him to release the film early & skip the festival circuit. No, I was *bummed* and *frustrated* when I found out that the film wouldn’t be coming out for another year because that would be the point at which I finally benefited from the free music I gave you.

I was second-hand accused by someone claiming I sexually assaulted Jules by showing him The Rodfellows Movie without disclosing that it was “fetish content”, I don’t even think that’s why he brought it up in the first place.

Like, he brought up that he let me pick the movie when I visited him so that he could hold it over me, making me unknowingly accrue debt in a transactional social game I had no awareness of. Just pure unrepentant toxic friend shit.

This situation has been tearing me up inside for months upon months. I don’t understand how he and his new friends continue to stand by this obvious gross injustice. I was proud of the music that I made and I am still heartbroken that it’s gone from the film.

“in your orbit” will premiere publicly this Friday. I’m not going to lie to you and say it’s a bad film, it’s quite good, I just find it tragic that the director’s actions so thoroughly ruined the film’s strong themes surrounding the transformative magic of imitation blossoming into collaboration.

I will also be keeping the new composer’s name out of my mouth, and avoid saying anything negative about his work that replaced mine. But I have a right to let my music speak for itself, and I will be releasing my own version of the score, with an included DIY file to sync with the film.

I pondered over whether Jules would edit or remake the film so my music no longer fits, it would be very funny, but if that happens then by god I’ll remake whatever I have to remake to show everyone what I’m capable of.

Holy fuck. That's a properly insane level of greed, to take free work from someone and then fucking explode like that when they wouldn't do it again. Saying you 'blew him off' because you wouldn't pay his fees? Comical, if it wasn't so serious.

this is so truly rotten. it's frustrating hearing about every time you've contributed to someone else's success and then they've turned around and ensured your demise in response. these are honestly barely even people any more and they've poisoned their film. congrats to them !!