I don't know what everybody wants from me. If I apologize, I'm making excuses. If I admit I'm mentally ill, I'm lying, because mentally ill people never hurt others in their battle of extreme ills, they only self harm, and keep it all bottled inside. Well guess what. I have
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self harmed, I have bottled it inside, and it doesn't work. You explode eventually. That's what gets you to this point. When you have an abusive mother that constantly torments and stalks you, when you have a roof over your head that's conditional, when your
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little brother is dying, when you barely see the family you care about, when you have health issues constantly, when you have mental health issues in addition, when you have no friends, when you have nobody you can rely on, when you're all alone in this cruel world...
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You truly lose hope. I never doxxed Apollo, nor did revenge porn of her. I was dmed information about Apollo on twitter, and I immediately reported the account, and went to her manager too, telling him about them. I wouldn't have done that if I made the account.
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Since I reported them, and I'm sure Tray did as well, I'm sure it's banned. And if it's banned, and I made it, then I'd automatically be banned as well. These are things nobody thinks about. Nobody asks for evidence, or cares. They just assume I'm
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guilty because Apollo has such a massive following, surely she'd never lie. I never doxxed ANYBODY. I'm begging anybody to provide any evidence of me doxxing anybody. I can name the people I know the real name's of in the vtubing community on 1 hand, and
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