saw you in the garden
that one summer,
in your rumpled dresses
trampling on rosesbrought you to that frozen lake
where i
watched your broken soul ache
where you told me
your secret griefsand sometimes i can’t help but wish
things hadn’t changed between us
was it pride, was it the way
i wasn’t by your sidewas it my broken promises
and miserable lies
that made you think otherwise?but i promise i’ll be a better man,
be a bit less of a fool, someone wisethis time
i’d like to make you minesaw you in the desert
that next summer,
in your military blues
like a plan gone askewthings would never be the same
and i would
never call your nameall this was an old fantasy
it wasn’t meant to besometimes i can’t help but wish
things hadn’t changed between us
was it pride, was it the way
i wasn’t by your sidewas it my broken promises
and miserable lies
that made you think otherwise?but i promise i’ll be a better man,
be a bit less of a fool, someone wisethis time
i’d like to make you minenever would’ve thought
we’d end up this way
from old-time lovers
to nothing but hearsayit’s hard, when I just
wanna hear your voice
at two in the morning,
kiss you in the pouring rain
take away all your painsometimes i can’t help but wish
things hadn’t changed between us
was it pride, was it the way
i wasn’t by your sidewas it my broken promises
and miserable lies
that made you think otherwise?but i promise i’ll be a better man,
be a bit less of a fool, someone wisethis time
i promise I’ll make you mine© eri / 2021
(also on soundcloud)
anyway you should always remember that all those foreigners you see dying on the news are just as real people as you are who have just as much interiority as you do. there is nothing about you that makes you more important and it is by pure chance that you are not in their position. in fact, this holds for all of history. every person, no matter the horror of the fate that befell them, had just as much interiority as you do. i feel like some people haven't fully internalized this.
let's use this post for something good. if you are considering being annoying in my notes, please instead consider donating to gaza soup kitchen. thanks!
this much i do remember by Billy Collins
found this in my files, no recollection of making it (~1 yr ago)
Light in the dark
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Happy Lunar New Year 2025 🌻🌷🌹🌼💐
According to the Zodiac, this is the year of the Fire Snake. Fire as in "a lantern fire". Let's just be there for each other, keep on a small light in the dark, and give hope to the one who needs it most. We are stronger together.
上高地 (kamikochi) / where the gods descend
— a quiet standstill