Like I’m not even mad, I’m so upset and confused

Edit: now I am mad and I’m allowed to be.

Google and I are wrong

Also how is talking about a subject whether that be trauma or not for years between each other, formed a bond over familiar situations and mindset and then say we’re friends, to only change the narrative, to… apparently I’m trauma dumping, when I was just showing a comparison to how healed I was and that I’ll get back there someday. This isn’t even anything you aren’t aware of. You know all this anyway. I’m not your ex. Stop treating me like her.

Notice how I’m only reactive.

How does someone think that it’s okay to send someone a meme stating they’re addicted to chaos when I’m currently, quite OPENLY going through major c-ptsd breakdown, also him being a contributing factor bc of it. How is that appropriate? I do not crave chaos. I’ve been begging and pleading and people pleasing to try and survive. You think this is a choice? Something fun for me? Like how would I find that “meme” funny? Fuck off.

I told you so nicely that, it wasn’t appropriate and just kindly and calmingly informed you of that. And you took it and ran with it and ended up in your own head. You need to start taking accountability for your actions and go to therapy. Otherwise your pattern of discarding your female “besties” will only continue. 

I’ve officially given up

I’m just a piece of shit. That doesn’t even deserve one text of acknowledgment and then turn around and make me feel bad for being vulnerable with my “friend”

Like sorry I felt you were once again now a safe space? The fuck. Hours and hours of conversation to get over the pain and trauma you caused me last year, gaslighting me and lying to absolutely everyone. To build back up a friendship and considering I was at yours last week, vulnerable, sorry you didn’t send out the memo of you aren’t my friend. You told me I was your friend. Everything is okay between us. So why act like it isn’t now? Over night. Just switch up. Sort yourself out. You want me as a space filler and acquaintance only. I had such a good day yesterday, until you wanted to make me feel like shit for trusting you again with something important and meaningful to me. Again, you have not been my friend since 2023. Friends don’t treat each other how you’ve treated me. I’ve only ever reacted.

Oh and if anyone has any fucking questions, MAYBE ASK ME? And not the dude constructing his PR fall out.

Oh and one more thing, the fact you allowed me to cry inconsolably for 2 days, mind you, when you told me that I “talked shit about you to “insert name” when I have NEVER talked shit about you. I’ve actually told my friends not to say somethings to me. You really thought I wouldn’t message her and ask?

Kinda wanna message everyone now and see what the fuck you’ve been saying.

And if you have a problem with what I write on MY Facebook, you can delete me. I don’t care anymore.

This is my safe space. I allowed you in and you are MORE THAN WELCOME to leave.

Some might read this and see “over reaction” but if I’m honest, this is me remaining composed. I have put up with this treatment for a year and a half now. So yeah, it’s overflowed. Zero patience for it anymore. I won’t allow myself to be disrespected.

Like im sorry? I gave you the perfect opportunity to say something. Instead you stayed in your head and projected onto me. This is how nice I am. Was I horrible? No. You just can’t take ANY criticism. You’re perfect mate. 

So after this, he had a sook and apparently now We’re not friends and I can’t message him about my growth as a person? LMAO OK BUDDY

Oh yeah and apparently I can’t trauma dump, even though that’s not what I was doing. It was a comparison and hopefulness! But you, you can tell me out of left field last week, how you think you have adhd but that your dad just beat it out of you. Like the fuck. Nah.

Your double standards and the way you change up boundaries, without even telling me, yet you’re allowed to. You’re a hypocrite.