My Safety
- 4 December, 2025
- Update
- UNDERTALE Yellow
Since my last journal post, a lot has happened. I'd like to take the time to go over everything.
For starters, I was swatted on the 29th of November, two days after my post talking about the team behind UNDERTALE Yellow's mishandling of a predator. Two days later, someone contacted my work. For privacy and safety reasons I'd like to avoid going into details about how these happened, but it gave my family a scare. It also is not the first time I've been swatted, as I've been stalked and doxxed since 2020. However, my stalker stopped in 2024, giving me a year long grace period. I have suspicions behind the timing of the swat and the attempted contact to my work. I fully believe that it is because of that journal post. Other users have also been calling me delusional, a pedophile, and hurling transphobia towards me. It has been unbearable, despite blocking the people sending this my way. I had to turn off comments on all journals overall due to the sheer amount of harassment.
People have been sharing my post everywhere, on Twitter and Reddit included. A day after my post went live on my site, the bandwidth limit was hit. This has been remedied for the foreseeable future and I apologize for not looking into it sooner. This topic did not get much attention in July... MasterSwordRMX also released a statement that more or less doubled down on the lie of "we did not know," and refused to acknowledge the use of religion in defending a predator. Many people took his word for it, which upset all of the victims. Person "A" in my post came out as a victim and was temporarily harassed into silence, before coming forward again with the emails. Zaid spoke up when I was swatted and my work was contacted, something I did not ask for them to do. Off has been making sure to help me increase my privacy and security.
My friend Deacon responded, in my opinion, perfectly to MasterSword. Please give it a read if you are interested. Otherwise, I refuse to comment further.
Something I wanted to note as well is the fact many people were too caught up in still wanting to be seen as good and fine for liking UNDERTALE Yellow and its character, Martlet. It has come to a point where since the attacks on me, the victims are severely uncomfortable with UNDERTALE Yellow and Martlet. They understand not everyone who made the game isn't evil and Martlet was a collaborative effort, but it has come to a point where none of the victims are comfortable with it due to its usage in pushing aside their stories in favor of liking a game and a character. The community's parasocial attachment to the game has hurt them personally.
I have previously announced I am no longer going to be public with sharing my fan art and excitement regarding UNDERTALE and Deltarune, and I will continue to stick to it. While I love these games, it is factually unsafe for me for exist in these spaces. I want to emphasize that as much as I'd like Toby to denounce how people act in his name and act parasocially about him and his works, I also understand that he is a busy, disabled man and should focus on his game. He should not be concerned with my safety. He is not responsible for my safety. He is not reaponsible for UNDERTALE Yellow's behavior. I have seen a few people blaming him, and I want to clear that up. It is not his fault at all. I may take issue with his silence at times, but I must stress it is NOT his fault.
For the rest of the month, I plan to keep comments closed on all journals and refrain from posting. I don't want to spend the holidays scared out of my mind and afraid for my life. I appreciate the messages from followers, friends and mutuals checking in on me, truly. It means a lot.
For some positive news, I finally understand why I've had trouble with my bladder. It's because my uterus is squishing it. That single piece of news has made me so happy, as it's been a problem since middle school. Also, I might get my uterus removed, which is double good news for me, as an asexual with no interest in birthing children!! I'll take any good news I can get...
Happy holidays.
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