hello everyone !!
i'm sorry for how emotional and upset / angry i got on stream today. in truth, i think i knew the topic would trigger me, but tried to push through it anyways, which wasnt smart. this situation drains and hurts me with how personal it is and how it branches off into ponders negligence with me in neighboring situations. i hate it. i hate being a victim, and im tired of being "strong".
today is also the 1 year anniversary of me returning to youtube, which essentially marks 1 year of mental hell for me so far. i still have an obligation to make 3 more videos, but as ive stated before, i have to step away from this content soon and i have to take care of myself more. forcing myself to hunker down and be strong is killing me, and i cant keep doing it to myself.
i need a break from drama content until october at least. i will still be doing my horror streams because horror games are actually quite comforting to me, but dont expect any drama streams for at least a couple more weeks id say. maybe ill feel better sooner and take things head on, but i dont see myself doing that right now.
again, sorry if i worried anyone, i hope you all do well moving forward. 🩷
Read more