I managed to get some sleep and take a lot of time to think and reflect.
I don’t blame anyone for protecting themselves. Support your oshi and don’t bring anything into their space. Let them continue to live their dreams even if it wasn’t meant to be for me. Don’t feel guilty and don’t come at anyone for supporting who they want. Everyone has their own feelings and opinions and all of them are valid as the next no matter how much you might agree or disagree.
All I truly hope for is this never happens again. I hope that if anyone ever comes forward with something they are struggling with, they can look back on this and instead treat it with kindness and compassion no matter what it is. No one deserves this and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone else. Do better.
Whatever comes next is a result of my own doing and I will own it. I will do my best to learn and grow from this going forward and do what I can to help myself get better. Thank you for your support and kind words. I wouldn’t be here to today if I wasn’t for you and I will continue to fight for you until the very end.
It’s easier said than done when emotions are running high, I know, but be kind. Ignore, block, do whatever you need to do to look after yourself. We’ll be okay 