>>51911
I personally used to struggle with that kind of thing a long time ago, and I believe it's mostly lust motivated. Having a wife is genuinely so much more than what people advertise it as on the surface level. It's not all sunshine and rainbows, it's not all lovey dovey, and for heavens sake your wife isn't a dog with the brain of a loyal dog. It all reeks and screams of incessant self-indulging sinful fantasy, something to think about in bed at night that only benefits you and can never benefit your imaginary wife that doesn't even exist.
I stopped having those feelings when I realized just who I am, when I realized that I'll never be a normie. Romantic hypotheticals are an utter waste of time, I think people getting together in that way is easy, but it can never happen to someone like me, who doesn't even go outside, who's so genuinely afraid of people. When I realized that I'm truly different in that way, I often began to have feelings that incessant thoughts like that were useless and I didn't need to indulge in them, so I didn't and never have for a long time.
I like to think of myself more as an enlightened volcel rather than a furry incel, of which most are, and they're everywhere. I think women are confusing, but I have some genuine compassion for them, I hate how they're treated, they're objectified, treated as nothing more than something to project fantasies onto, or treated as lesser. But to me, they have a black hole level of presence. I don't hate women, I'm definitely confused with women, because I don't think I've really actually talked to one outside of my family and I don't think I ever will again. When women have a black hole level of presence in my life, it becomes hard to think about them in a weird romantic or sexual way, because they're not here and reality is important. Often people jokingly call me gay but I never have any strange thoughts regarding men, obviously. And it's not gay to be anti-sexual or a-sexual.
I'm not sure if romance is necessary, but a lot of people act like it is. I guess I have some differences in me compared to other human beings, they make no sense to me. It all just comes across as fake to me, and often I feel nothing, but when people bring up romance, I can only cringe. Romance in movies always annoyed me and pissed me off, especially when its unnecessary. Always hated unnecessary sex scenes and shit too.
