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November 1st, 2025: I picked up from what I was doing yesterday which was cleaning the owner’s stovetop while getting kinda drunk. I talked to the Terra outfit girl and asked if she was dressed as Terra from Teen Titans and she told me she was dressed as something else, I don’t remember what she was but she invited me for another shot with the Raven girl and the Starfire sugarplum guy, the Terra girl finished off a glass bottle of vodka so I took it, washed it out, and put it where a bunch of empty glass beer bottles and another vodka bottle was standing. I drank some more water and went out to the living room and saw this one emo girl with a lot of self harm scars on her thighs, she was talking with another person and I had to muster up all my energy to not say anything about it. I walked back to the kitchen when I saw this guy who was trying to kiss this girl and the girl was reeling away. I intervened for a bit with this other person drunk out of his mind:
“Bro is that your girlfriend?”
I sloshed out of my mouth.
“Yes!”
He answered, I didn’t understand if he was lying or telling the truth. I just went on a rant about consent or something and that bought her some time. I did yet another shot with the Teen Titans people and also Punk’s friend. The girls were getting kind of touchy (putting their hands on my back but this girl along with the one that invited me to the party talked and she just said she made friends through Hinge. Fuck this, thankfully she left and some Mexican guy dressed as a witch offered me a Modelo which I drank. I had another girl take a picture of my outfit and I got that sent to me at 1:11am:
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I saw the Terra girl talk to this other guy the same way that she talked to me (rip) and I saw a polaroid covered door in the apartment. Someone came in dressed as Jesus and I immediately asked them what their natures were and how they were split. More people ended up asking me to do Seinfeld impressions. I ended up leaving at 1:44pm before trying to hug everyone on the porch, the only person who rejected it was Punk’s friend. I walked home, taking some pictures to help me jog my memory and one of the inside of a restaurant, I saw some people pushing a car out of gas into a parking lot and almost tried to help: At 2:00am, I messaged the girl who sent me the pictures
>1. Do you have a light skin friend who looks like Michael Jackson?
>2. Do you have a dark skin friend who looks like Michael Jackson?

She replied:
<no
And I replied:
>Apology accepted
I was feeling kind of sick to the point where I went into the bathroom and threw up into the sink 6 times while on the toilet. The sink drained slowly so I had to shove some of the cubes of partially-digested food down the sink. I worried about James noticing the smell of the vomit so I got off the toilet and got dressed, then I poured some baking soda around the sink and washed it down. I took off my white button-up before noticing it was browner around the collar, not due to sweat but because of the suede jacket. My nose got super stuffy and I was constantly blowing it. But I went to bed with the tiny trash can just at my bedside.

I woke up at 7:30am hearing my roommate James brush his teeth and then leave. A minute later he texted me:
<How was your Halloween
I checked the sink and realized bits of food were visible if you looked at it at a certain angle, fuck. I had cereal for breakfast and no coffee. With my stuffy nose, I looked up why this was happening and it turned out to be alcohol intolerance. I got my laundry packed and took the bus to the main bus stop at 8:45am. I waited for a long time once I got there at 9:20am and also bought coffee. I drank the coffee and got on the bus at 10:00am, I spent most of the time transcribing my green journal to the computer. I got there at 11:31am and was picked up by my mom. She greeted me and asked me what I ate, I tried describing my breakfast as being like Wheaties but frosted. She had already noticed that my nose was stuffy and made a remark blaming my stuffed nose was due to me eating sugared cereal for breakfast which made me snap and tell her:
“Can you please fucking stop it!”
My mom got upset at me but it just felt so cathartic finally standing up to her belittlement. I managed to de-escalate things and we drove to Home Depot with some more talking, we didn’t get wall hangers like she brought me here for but mentioned that kid play area they had now. We got Chicago style hot dogs for lunch and then dropped off some stuff at a different hardware shop. We drove home but dad wouldn’t be here until 9:00pm because of a rugby match he was seeing between Ireland and New Zealand. I got back and spent most of my time on my laptop. My charger was failing me so I needed to find an angle it would charge at. I completed transcribing my journal and then started posting it but @Jimbo was SNCA reacting me. Talking about my pseudoleather jacket, my mom said that she couldn’t repair it because it would have cost about $100 to repair it, despite the Seamstress offering me a much cheaper rate and she said she could easily get it done, I asked for it back but she had lost it, I thought she might have thrown it away due to it being too small for me (absolutely wrong.) I had French onion soup for dinner and At 5:30pm my mom left to go over to Addison’s house for their sauna. Also she split the ball of cheese I gave her in half and Addison got one half. I cuddled with the good cat until my mom got back and then my dad did at 9:00pm. We watched the first Naked Gun movie. I found the scene where Leslie Nielsen’s character’s unparked car goes wild to be hilarious. But I took a shower and went to sleep.

Song of the Day: November Has Come - Gorillaz, MF DOOM (2005)
 
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November 2nd, 2025: The Lord’s day today, I woke up at 7:30am after the time shift and went downstairs to brew the coffee like I’d always do back when I lived at home. I got dressed up for church but didn’t bring a belt. I got in a bit late to church at 8:55pm and sat next to Uebec and Yebec. Yebec said Zebec would be here soon but I just sat down. Mass went through as normal and the 2 priests there were wearing black, the homily was about the priest being given a business card by the late bishop Robert C. Morlino to the priesthood over dinner. He never accepted but he wished he did. I didn’t see anybody else I knew there and when I went up to receive a blessing instead of the Eucharist I got this weird unemotional rub on the head with no other words I left during the final song and drove my car a bit far out to fill out SuperLocalMaps a bit more. I got home at 10:10am and made myself some of the pancakes my parents already had. While I was eating them I was just being made fun of a lot by my parents, I kept my silence and left the moment I could, going upstairs to write and browse KiwiFarms. The pancakes were amazing. I spent a lot of time with my good cat. I got my hair cut by my mom (it’s free) and I took a shower upstairs, no matter how much I scrubbed my scalp and sat under the showerhead, bits of hair kept coming out, even once I got out of the shower. Later on my dad called me out to use the new lawnmower to haul stuff to the piggery and get the other cart, turns out he got it wrong and actually meant the machine shed. Later he had me haul down the gigantic metal tub for the hot tub he was taking down and then carry 2 pink large 2” thick sheets of polystyrene, they had the Pink Panther character on it, We put the polystyrene down and then put the tub on it and I was free to go for the while, being asocial up in my room. I found out that Married girl’s younger sister’s boyfriend requested to follow me on Instagram and I accepted it knowing full well he would just try and tell me out but he didn’t, just liked my stories, which Asherah viewed one of them. I need to force people to be friendly to me at this point. My mom got my laundry done and we packed up to leave after having dinner at 4:30pm to drive there starting at 4:50pm, my dad gave me some Mike & Ikes to have. My mom and I turned around because I forgot my bag of toiletries, but we eventually got to the bus stop at 5:20pm. I said goodbye to my mom and got on the bus on the way back. An Indian-American guy sat next to me and I took the bus home with him not smelling bad thankfully. I spent most of my time on my iPhone switching back and forth between apps, it made me understand more that I’m trapped in a state of terminal onlineness and I have no power to stop it. At 6:27pm I was stressed out and texted my mom:
>Hey I really didn’t appreciate you and dad mocking me during my breakfast.
The guy next to me got off and I had to give him his Airpod pro case because he accidentally left it. I got back at 7:25pm and took the second bus home. I wanted to join Oriang and Reuben, but I felt like it would be too late given when I got there. I waited forever for my bus and when I got back. I found my wallet wrapped in packaging and then I went to write more in my blog. At 9:19pm I got these texts from my mom but never opened them that day:
<Did you mean this for Dad? I don't recall any mocking. Wgad did he/we say
<What did we say? I'm sorry that you were hurt.

I didn’t respond then but I went to sleep.
Song of the Day: Dance to the Music - Sly and the Family Stone (1967)
 
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November 3rd, 2025: I had a dream where I got blocked on everything by Lizzo. I woke up to my alarm clock at 6:30am and had those frosted Wheaties like things for my cereal with milk. I didn’t get a congested nose. I realized my 1% milk expired today. I would drink it more later. I took the bus at 7:45am and got there a bit later than usual. The door to my office was unlocked and my ID was there, I didn’t know who put it back and never did. I went to the main office to set up the coffee to brew. I went back at 8:26am and clocked in. At 8:36am, Staples and Ahwahn came in, I overheard Staples mention Fire Emblem and I went out to talk to her about it. She said she dressed up as a character from Fire Emblem 3 Houses (the only game in the series she’s played) and showed me a picture of her with a blue cape and an eyepatch. I searched the Fire Emblem wiki and couldn’t find anything about what character it was. I finished off my coffee and sat in the main room for the meeting. I initially sat in between Portia and Joy but swapped seats with Joy so she could sit with her boss. The meeting started at 9:00am and here’s the boss’ speech I recorded:
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, we got our pins.” - the Latinx lady
“Thank you.” - someone
“Hey, uh, I'm really glad to see you more and more everyday, the doctor's appointments I have, we're going to go for another ten weeks. Monday, Tuesday, Thursdays, so getting to hear about nine or so on weekdays. It's going well. They work me out. So it's good. As far as news from the front, we're still waiting for details about how they're going to structure uhh resettlement. The overall word is the states will have more control, but we don't know what that is. So we'll have to see what happens. If we haven't heard the president of determinations said that there's going to be 7500 from the year. It's the lowest it’s ever been. So we'll just have to keep an eye on that. I think they're really trying to figure out what they're doing. Maybe in December, there may be some more word the United States or all leadership coalition or committee coalition. They're targeted to meet in December 9th. We talked about how we're going to rebuild things, but I think if there's no significant news moving forward, they might not have that meaning to see. We don't know what they work with. If I were running it, I would start meeting the case where you could talk about contingencies. So it's always a good idea to have a plan to move forward when things get released. Turning back our eye to here at [company], that's what we've been doing for the last year, year and a half. It is looking at mitigations and contingencies, that's what allowed us actually to grow and sustain our numbers. As far as staff goes, I still think there's quite a few things that we could explore with our clients. I keep on asking the question, where else can we do for our clients? Look at those gaps, try to figure out what we could actually do, to talk to your supervisor about it, and the directors and I will talk about that and see what is the most plausible. I don't think there's a bad idea, I don't think. It's more of like what is feasible, what is low hanging proof, what can we do first, make it quiet? So that's what we need to take a look at. I think the two friends that are the sreal womangest are immigration and interpretation and translation. I still think there's other services out there that go through refugee support services that will have some form that will continue after the next budget cycle. We're good until 2027.”
[Whispering to the latinx lady]
“Yeah! So we're good until 2027 based on how the budget works for the we're expected to support services contracts. So if you're part of that, just keep on doing your work, see as many clients as you can, have quality, take the lower numbers and do a really banging job on documents. If you're actually not working directly with clients, support your fellow worker, help them, free up time and make sure we do quality, not good, stock documents. It's not done. Whoever has the best services documented usually gets a line share of the money. So it's very competitive out there, so do the best you can with any client that comes through the door, it doesn't matter if it's one or two or a hundred a really good job and are granting agency staff notice of that. Other than that, Holiday FolkFair is coming up right. So we're still talking more about that, and I'm really excited about it. I think it's been like two reused by us now so far. So those are starting to pick up and we'll continue to work there. Any questions so far when I talk to? Keep your eye on the news, but keep your eye on the clients here. You want to make a difference, you feel like you need to do more and then think about your clients. The biggest noise that we can make the most significant thing to communicate is your job really well your actions speak louder than words right now, and we'll do more than protest. So let's do our job really well. and things will change, and I'm pretty sure it's going to be. can't get much worse than it is, so. Any questions? Make sure to wear your pins!”
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November 3rd, 2025 [continued]:
My mom tried to bait me to responding with images of the good cat at 9:09am and it worked:
<She misses you.
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>Aww.
>You were kind of mocking me, especially over the cereal thing.

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<That was the day before? Wasn't it about the sugared cereal?

>Yes.
>And also you were being a bit demeaning while I was eating pancakes.

<Well the cereal thing was Saturday morning. What did I say that was demeaning during pancakes?
>You joked about me not making myself good food back at my apartment.
<I don't remember saying anything derogatory. I want to teach you the skills to live on your own. It's a mother thing that is hard to shake.
<What upsets me is you save all your criticism for me and Daddy who teases you a lot more is off the hook. I don't understand why I take the brunt of your iree.
<ire

>I said you and dad. I’m still upset with his mockery still.
<Ok, I thought you were just picking on your Mom. I appreciate you reaching out to tell me (us?) when you are upset.
I continued listening to the others when we got 6 free tickets to this event later this month. We then had our onigiri session where Joy taught us to make onigiri, my first ball of rice I got fell directly into the trash. I got a second one with bits of seaweed in it. I seasoned it with salmon flavoring, shitoko flavoring, and iodized salt, but it wouldn’t form back into a ball. I put the seaweed paper on it and ate it like that. I absolutely loved it, why don’t sushi restaurants here serve that more often, especially with the salmon seasoning. I didn’t take a picture of mine so I tried going in line for seconds and I was told that I couldn’t get seconds, but Elon offered his to me, I passed on his offer and went back to my office. A bit later his friend with short names came to me and offered it again, I had to tell him no I don’t want it yet again, he eventually relented and then I clocked out to head back on the bus, paying with my cash. At 11:03am there were 2 old Black men on the bus, one had a bunch of stuff he carried and smelled it alcohol, the other one was talking to himself, I got back and walked to campus, I stopped by the coffee shop Enosh recommended me years ago, I got a small coffee for $1.00 and paid for it with a $5.00 to get for George Washingtons to pay for my bus fares until they got my new card back. I went into my art history class and we talked about the Roman empire now. At 11:54am, my art history professor said he hated that Gladiator II was inaccurate by making 2 people known not to be twins and made them twins. He loved the naval battle and encouraged us to pirate the movie. At 12:21pm I got a response to my ticket offer from Sideburns’ crush:
<Could I get 2?!
>For you and your boyfriend?
<Yes haha
I posted this on my close friends list and nobody else replied as of that point.
I went over to my art history discussion and I was super excited to go through all the Christian art, there was one painting where I tried to identify all the saints they had on there and found Saint John the Baptist, Saint Matthew, Saint Mark, and Saint Peter on the left clouds, Saint Paul, Saint Luke, and Saint John the Evangelist on the right cloud, and Saint Thomas Aquinas on the ground. I pointed that out when my group discussed it. At the end of the class I asked the recovering AceAro for her Instagram and she gave it to me. I found out she was Macie’s former roommate, which explains where I’ve seen her previously. I wish I told her the story of her getting drunk. I ran back to the bus stop and got on. I took it to work and forgot to clock in. I continued with work but didn’t have much to do, KeKe’s pet shrimp Sheldon died overnight which sucks. I walked around the office a bit more and checked in with Tia about Liseuxa’s application, she said she had over 30 applications to go through but we have plenty of jobs in that to fill. I did more rounds for the office. A bit later Seth M came in and asked me if I wanted to play a game of chess, something came up that stopped us. At 3:32pm Harmony C talked to me about a bunch of volunteers calling out sick because of school related stress. She talked about her nephew, aka her brother’s son who was in college at the engineering college doing that. I tried to get an email assigned to an intern but he was in a meeting with some others like Zarith C, Shima C, Ahwahn, Zach A. But when I was leaving I saw Silas and waved to him. Zach A called me to discuss the Google form I created but I already left at this point. I took the bus home and got back at 4:30pm. I had some squid ink spaghetti, the kind where it’s actually bent so the pasta ends up super long. I microwaved some of the meatballs and while I was doing that, James the Lesser said he’d wait for me to be done before making himself tacos. I got done with the food at 5:24pm here’s my food:
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I texted Cara a bit later because I figure she’s like it:
>Do you want me to bring you some squid ink spaghetti leftovers?
<I’m allergic to squid but thank you for the offer 😭
>🤨
She didn’t respond after that, but I was a bit underwhelmed at the squid ink spaghetti, I remember watching Jojo’s Bizzare Adventure Part 2 with Joseph Joestar eating the squid ink spaghetti and loving it. I got informed later by Sideburns’ crush that she wouldn’t be able to accept the tickets in reality. I should have bought squid ink and I ended up saving a giant tub of it. I played more heavily modded Minecraft before taking my shower at 9:00am and then going to sleep later.
Song of the Day: Calabria 2008 - Enur, Natasja (2008)
 
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November 4th, 2025: I woke up early and had to buy milk with my dwindling supply of cash. I finished off my frosted wheaties for dinner and then got packed to walk to campus. I got there at 9:00am and the cheap coffee shop was closed for some reason. I went to a nearby coffee place off campus and they had a white chocolate mocha for exactly $5.00. I paid for it with cash but taxes were factored into the price for once. So I couldn’t give them the second $5 bill to exchange for coins and 4 $1 bills. I loved drinking the mocha and walking to the library. Completing 2 German assignments and also my capstone preparation role report. I walked back to the coffee place to see if the cheap coffee place was open and to my surprise it still wasn’t, I saw Mercurius and his girlfriend, then Monique, and finally Sonja in short succession, I waved to Sonja. I walked over to my German class and waited with the girl with A10 eyes. At 10:42am I texted my mom:
>[former governeror] is coming to campus tomorrow.
Because he would be and I’m attending the dinner beforehand. Instantly after that Lizzo’s friend came over and talked to me about Lizzo not being here. She told me she’s still not doing good but I felt like she was just avoiding me, I didn’t want to embarrass myself so I pulled out my notes app and at 10:45am I wrote:
>I just think she’s avoiding me.
Lizzo’s friend told me that she thinks Lizzo is going through that feeling where someone is too intimidated to reply to their friends. I still had my doubts so I wrote:
>Can you just tell her that she should just tell me if she has any issues with me.
She said something about coming to terms with who she is and her identity is all she would disclose about what Lizzo’s going through. Like I remember freshman year chilling out in her room under her bed (it wasn’t lofted) seeing the generic sugarplum pride flag, although she mentioned a boyfriend at one point I never heard about that again, probably just bisexual. But I wrote finally:
>She has nothing to be scared of =]
And Lizzo’s friend talked some more until she left. At 10:51am I overheard the other class before Talia and A10’s class talking about early feminists like Mary Wollstonecraft, she was one of the feminists I liked more due to being not insane like the later, more scroogeish feminists like Andrea Dworkin. But then I looked up the 1798 book written posthumously by her husband William Godwin and the affairs made me think lesser of her. To make things more comedic, her husband thought she was portraying her positively. Was he jolly good, a cuck, or hiding his anger better than we thought. I said hi to Talia and talked with her a bit. I asked her if she wanted the tickets but she needed to check that it wasn’t the week she was going home. I then went into my class and just fumbled the in class assignments more. Found out that Dick Cheney died yesterday in his sleep. I left at 12:45pm and had this conversation with my mom:
<If you get a chance to talk to him, tell him your Mom says hi. [censored] Presidents house. I also baked him Irish bread for St Patrick's day.
>Wouldn’t it be the governor’s house?
<No, after he retired as Governor he became President of the [state university] System for 2 years. Then he really retired.
>The president’s house? In [state]?
<The president of the University of [state]'s system has their own house.
>Wait what?
<It was an old house out in West [capital of state] that was donated to the University.
I ran to the bus stop and got on, I got off at 1:25pm and clocked in. But instantly went to the pizza place to get a slice of the philly cheesesteak pizza, the balding guy on the register offered to get the price down for me to $5.00 because I was a frequent customer. I said I still needed the $5 turned into $1s for the bus fare. He did that and I got a call from Zach A asking me to meet him to discuss the Google form. I told him I’m at lunch and he said it’s ok. I got back and met with him to discuss it and it worked mostly until I realized the formula after the response was erased whenever a response was received so I moved it to a separate sheet and it worked then, but Shima C came in for a meeting and I got kicked out. I proceeded to make some signs for the website designer guy. I did nothing for most of the day and the Ukrainian man wasn’t there so I left at 4:00pm to head home. I dropped off my bag and grabbed my Pentecost necklace and the green scapular and walked over to the Catholic center, I got there at 5:05pm to talk with Mahdi and Markus’ brother while waiting for the mass to start, I sat in the same row as Agaw and Onyx sat next to me. Near the start of the mass, Elijah served for mass. The quad was there also and while Drawmija was in the choir and she turned on the light behind her so I just turned around and stared at her, she laughed a bit. The priest gave a homily on the importance that even sinners still attend church. I went up to receive the blessing from him instead of the Eucharist, speaking of people in here like Nash, Drawmij, Kalifornia, and many of the self made namesnowmen. The place was packed with few seats left. I went upstairs after praying some more for Lizzo. I went up to hear the announcements with Bernarda leading them. It’s been a very long time since I’ve last seen a woman with naturally blonde hair. Every single blonde I’ve seen here is clearly someone just dying their hair. I saw Bernarda’s poncho and jokingly asked for one the kindness of your heart, I was denied. While in line for dinner Agaw, Markus’ brother, and I discussed the item drawer being so unarranged that things were everywhere, I found a pair of lineman’s pliers and used it to pinch Agaw’s nose. A bit later she did that to Markus’ brother and I and later mentioned something about her future husband. Dinner was tacos so I got 2 tortillas on mine, one wheat, and one corn, I loaded it with toppings and then moved to a table with Alley, Casta, Sideburns’ cousin, and Agaw. I ate with them and they all forgot my major so they tried guessing. Alley joked that I was an African dance major, I corrected her that it was lesbian dance therapy major. Someone got it correct (computer science) and we talked more. Casta and Alley said I dressed very well for a computer science major. Sideburns’ cousin said a joke about being a victim of racism because she’s brown. I brought over these sour patch kids twizzlers thing and Agaw tried to build a pyramid with them but she’s not a civil engineer so I only got a photo of it when it fell. I left at 7:00pm to head home and write in my blog more. At 8:23pm, I saw on James the Great’s story of him doing homework with the caption:
<C++ is by far superior to C why have I not crossed over bro
Bro… Turns out Zohran Mamdani won the mayorship of New York City over Anthony Cuomo and the best option for NYC, Curtis Silwa. I took a shower then gamed a lot more before going to sleep.

Song of the Day: You Don't Mess Around with Jim - Jim Croce (1972)
 
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This is a fascinating and deeply personal piece of writing. Based on the provided text, here is a critique and analysis of the user named giftersonLakeAndPalmer.

Overall Impression​

giftersonLakeAndPalmer (GL&P) is a highly detailed, stream-of-consciousness diarist. The writing style is reminiscent of an online "blog" or journal, offering a raw, unfiltered look into their daily life, thoughts, and social interactions. The primary strength is the immersive, almost cinematic detail. The primary weakness is a lack of self-awareness and reflection that could elevate the writing from a mere regrinch lair of events to a meaningful narrative.


Criticisms and Areas for Development​

1. Lack of Narrative Arc and Reflection:
The posts read like a transcription of events rather than a crafted story. We are told what happens, but rarely how it affects GL&P or what it means to them.

  • Example: The intense, messy vomiting scene is described with clinical detail ("shove some of the cubes of partially-digested food down the sink") but is immediately followed by mundane tasks. There's no exploration of the shame, regret, or physical misery one would expect from such an experience. The emotional core is missing.
  • Suggestion: GL&P should focus less on cataloging every event and more on selecting key moments that had an emotional impact and exploring them in depth. Why did standing up to his mother feel "cathartic"? What was the underlying tension?
2. Social Awkwardness and Judgment:
GL&P comes across as socially observant but often awkward and judgmental. They meticulously regrinch lair the appearances and behaviors of others (e.g., "emo girl with a lot of self harm scars," "Starfire sugarplum guy," "balding guy") in a way that feels detached and occasionally condescending.

  • Example: The interaction with "Lizzo's friend" is a masterclass in social anxiety and passive-aggression. Instead of communicating directly, GL&P uses a notes app to convey their feelings, putting the friend in an uncomfortable position. The speculation about Lizzo's sexuality feels intrusive.
  • Suggestion: The writing would be more compelling if GL&P turned their sharp observational skills inward. Acknowledging their own social missteps and anxieties would make the character more relatable and complex.
3. A Passive Protagonist:
GL&P often seems to be swept along by events rather than actively shaping them. They intervene in a potential assault (a positive action) but are largely reactive in other social situations. They are "trapped in a state of terminal onlineness" and feel they have "no power to stop it." This passivity can be frustrating for a reader.

  • Example: The entire narrative is about things happening to them: people offer them shots, their mom mocks them, their boss gives a speech, friends talk to them.
  • Suggestion: The story would gain momentum if GL&P made a conscious decision to change something about their life and we followed that journey.
4. Inconsistent Voice and Tone:
The voice swings between overly formal ("I mustered up all my energy"), crass ("sloshed out of my mouth"), and internet-meme-savvy ("rip," "saar you look like John Arbuckle"). The inclusion of the "giftbomb MODE" reaction is jarring and undermines the more serious or introspective moments.

  • Suggestion: Developing a more consistent and authentic narrative voice would strengthen the writing. Deciding on the tone—is this a tragicomedy, a candid confession, a satire of modern life?—would help guide what details to include and how to phrase them.
5. Excessive, Uncurated Detail:
While detail is a strength, it becomes a weakness when it bogs down the narrative. Do we need to know the exact price of the mocha, the specific timing of every bus ride, or the full transcript of a work meeting? This can feel like inside baseball that doesn't serve a broader point.

  • Suggestion: Practice editing. Ask: "Does this detail reveal character, advance the plot, or establish a crucial mood?" If not, it might be worth cutting.

Strengths and Positive Qualities​

  • Vivid Descriptors: Phrases like "sloshed out of my mouth" and "cubes of partially-digested food" are powerfully visceral and memorable.
  • Commitment to the Craft: The act of consistently transcribing a journal and posting it publicly shows a dedication to documentation that is admirable.
  • Intriguing Character Flaws: While the lack of self-awareness is a criticism from a craft perspective, it makes GL&P a fascinating and authentic character study. They are a perfect example of an "unreliable narrator" not because they lie, but because they don't fully understand themselves.
  • Captures a Specific Subculture: The writing perfectly encapsulates a certain online, forum-dwelling, slightly alienated young adult experience. The references to KiwiFarms, specific meme cultures, and the social dynamics of university Catholic centers are very specific and well-realized.

Conclusion​

giftersonLakeAndPalmer is a writer with a potent raw talent for observation but a need for deeper introspection and narrative craft. The journal is a compelling and often uncomfortable read, offering a stark portrait of a person navigating early adulthood with a mixture of social anxiety, intellectual curiosity, and a deep-seated sense of alienation.

The critique is not that the writing is "bad," but that it has the potential to be truly great. By shifting the focus from what happened to what it meant, GL&P could transform their detailed logs into powerful, resonant stories.











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November 5th, 2025: Another day of classes. I woke up and had 2 softboiled eggs plus some pumpkin bread for breakfast. I made coffee to go along with it and added the italian creamer. I got dressed and went to the bank first thing to withdraw 10 dollars in $1s. I went to the cheap coffee place and got a small coffee for $1.00 before walking over to the library. I saw Day in the distance but said nothing to her, heading upstairs to browse Kiwifarms and write in my blog. I didn’t do the homework due tonight in the time I had but at 10:20am I left to head to my Greek mythology class. It went well but we got a paper first thing we had to write down in, here are my answers to almost all the questions the teacher gave us:
>1. A recognition scene in Greek mythology is where one or more characters recognize who another character is, establishing their kleos
>2. An example from the Odyssey would be Telemachus recognizing his father Odysseus with the help of the goddess Athena because Telemachus last saw his father when he was an infant and wouldn’t recognize him.
>3. Sight and knowledge are less connected in Greek culture as compared to modern American culture. The isolated Phaeacians are able to know about the Trojan war due to the blind bard Demodocus seeing events happening in far off lands. The oracles at Delphi used gasses to get high and prophecy. Homer, the author attributed to the Odyssey and its prequel the Illiad, was said to be blind, but nothing for sure can be said about the 8th century BC author.
>4. Self help justice is taking justice into your own hands, institutional justice is relying upon others to do it for you.
>5. An example of self help justice in the Odyssey is Odysseus killing all the suitors for his wife Penelope.

I didn’t do 6 or 7. But I turned them in and walked over to my next class. I saw Day sitting alone eating fries, I went over to her and waved hi to her. I went to my art history class and we shifted to discussion of early Christian art. Like the Sarcophagus of Junius Bassus (June 317 – August 25th, 359) and how the guy thought it would be smart to put the Roman God of the sky Caelus as holding up Jesus Christ. I posted about the genocide of Christians in Nigeria and this is the seethe I got from some White guy photographer:
<It’s not religious... tens of thousands of Muslims and other religious groups have been murdered by many extremity groups too. Everyone is being murdered literally. But where was this energy when Israel has almost completely wiped out the oldest Christian community to literally exist on planet earth. The only reason trump cares about them and not Gaza is because he wants to steal natural resources and profit, he does not care abt Christians in Gaza, nor does he care abt Christian’s in Nigeria or quite literally anyone and anything. If he cared, thousands of people wouldn’t be killed after his “performative ceasefire.” Quite literally what’s even more insane is that Christian’s in Gaza are saying that this isn’t religious... it’s extremism. Just like the genocide in Gaza is being committed by the extremist Zionists not the scroogeish. Using religion to pit other people against eachother is increadibly harmful... especially when you literally don’t even live there. Yall only care when people of your religion Let your heart be bright!, but you put no energy into calling out the holocaust that has killed 380,000 children in Gaza under 5, a total of 480,000 children, and 680,000 people overall because y’all’s humanity is selective and you value lives on the basis of religion and not the fact they are literal people and then use these conflicts around the world such as in Nigeria, you use the mass suffering of people to your own gain and own political cause and you don’t even advocate for those people, you advocate for people here that fit your minds idea of people who are “somewhat deserving” of a tiny bit of your empathy.
<Extremists have killed MORE Muslims than Christians and that’s literally one google search away. It’s not even a genocide of a religion... indigenious Nigerians are being killed all over the place regardless of religion. And it seems like the humanity is selective because when the perpetrators are islamist extremists (claim to practice Islam but don’t) yall go crazy but when it’s Zionists (claim to practice Judaism but don’t) yall literally say nothing. This is the same case. All religions, scroogeish, Christian, gingerbread, are being murdered in Gaza and Nigeria... notice how no one said the genocide in Gaza is against Muslims... it’s the same case in Nigeria, it’s against the indigenous people. Saying it’s a religious genocide against the Christians is literally so harmful and skews the truth of the situation. Don’t promote extremist ideology, or talk about anything touchy when you literally don’t know shyttt.
<You don’t play ball 🙄
<Bro what 💀
- Jalil
<Jalil ur proving me right... lmfao
<Jalil words go in one of your ears and go back out…
<Jalil If your humanity is selective and use the suffering of Christians to further a political agenda, bc yall did not gaf about Christians in Gaza, then idk what to tell you bc that seems selective asf
- Jalil
<You just went on a whole rant about one single post. It’s crazy how people are so outspoken about this but oh when Christians are the ones getting killed it’s not a big deal right?
<Calling it out bc there is a holocaust of people and yall don’t even gaf cuz they don’t fit your section of who deserves humanity… and if yall really care abt Christians, why does that change when it comes to Christians in gingerbread countries… maybe start listening to people living there

It was so funny, Macie’s roommate wasn’t there to my dismay. I got out at 12:20pm and walked home to reheat some squid ink spaghetti while James was doing a bit of cleaning up. I walked to the bus stop. I got in at 1:25pm and did nothing for most of the time while at work, I went to the main office and got half a strawberry frosting donut. I did my laps more and asked Seth M to assign me something which was just renaming the guy who left’s phone account to be for Edgar. I spent some time on chess.com but during one of my rounds in the main office I saw Staples complaining again about people putting the wrong sized staples in the stapler. She wanted to put another sign up but she didn’t want to come off as passive aggressive. I just reorganized the staples. I didn’t do much more help around the office yet I spotted Zarith C, Shima C, and the younger Ukrainian woman go out one time and then back in. I left at 4:03pm to catch the bus back home. At 4:20pm, the FAS Drew Afualo fan got on the bus. I got off and read my email to see that we needed to get there at 4:45pm, I ran to campus and got there exactly on time. I saw Seraphim sitting already and got some food, I wrote down questions I wanted to ask him, like his thoughts on current rail transit. At 5:12pm. Markus’ brother came in and we had dinner, there was this old guy who graduated all the way back in 1973 from this school who voted for the guy giving the speech many times. At 5:15pm the actual speech started and here’s what I recorded:
“Hi, are you” - Laura
“What?” - Governor
“How are you?” - Laura
“Oh, fine, Thank you.” - Governor
“And it's Laura.” - Laura
“What? I don't hear very well, so if I make mistakes…” - Governor
“No problem. We were just getting acquainted.” We have such a diverse group of students.” - Laura
“Oh, good, that’s great” - Governor
“Somebody who lived close to Elroy, who's from Toma.” - Laura
“Suburb of Elroy.” - Governor
“Yeah.” - Laura
“Who's that?” - Governor
[Markus' brother waves]
“How are you?” - Governor
“I'm good!” - Markus' brother
“Remember the old Tepee?” - Governor
“Yeah.” - Markus' brother
“Yeah, that's my brother's.” - Governor
“I mentioned that.” - Markus' brother
“Have you been on the Elroy Sparta Trail?” - Governor
“Yes, a couple times.” - Markus' brother
“Oh, that's good. Those tunnels are real nice. I think?” - Governor
“Yeah, they really.” - Markus' brother
“To contrast that, we have a student from Scotland, who uhm is an international student at UWM.” - Laura
“Oh, that's good. Have you ever been to the tattoo?” - Governor
“Yeah, I have. I'm from Edinburgh.” - Scottish lady
“Oh, I love it. That's got to be one of the best musical events in the year.” - Governor
“It's fantastic, but I've never seen it not rain.” - Scottish lady
“You haven't?” - Governor
“It's always raining when it's happening.” - Scottish lady
“Oh, damn.” - Governor
“But it's good. It's very good. It is” - Scottish lady
“Yeah.” - Governor
“Well, we're so glad to have you, and thank you to the UWM Student Involvement Center for hosting tonight and especially Reumba…” - Laura
“Yes.” Rumba
“...And Sybil, who coordinated all of this.” - Laura
“Thank you very much. Appreciate it, thank you.” - Governor
“You want to start this off?” - Laura
“Yes.” - Reumba
“Just keep it brief.” - Laura
[POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO CHARACTER LIMIT]
 
November 5th, 2025 (Continued): “My name is Reumba. I work in student involvement, fraternity and sorority life, and leadership programs. And today you're here for meals with meaning. We do this like this very exclusive deal with our distinguished lecture series every time that we bring one. So this is who we have for the fall, Governor [last name]. In moderating the conversation today, will be Laura. She'll be introducing in the conversation as well as opening up the floor to hear from you all for questions or discussion topics that you all like to read up. Laura is a double major. She's an alumni herself, two time alumni, where she studied. And during her time here, she led the University of marketing communications department while she got her undergrad and grad degree in reindeeristrative leadership. She had a broad background serving a nonprofit community based in national organization that advance education, economic development, help, human, and social services. Her mission is improving lives in [city]. She has been a one year vice president at G[City]F and has helped the Foundation, regimes, reimagined philanthropy in community impact, including catering the foundation's headquarters on [you know that street name]. Laura first remembers meeting Governor [last name], while he was doing his famous Harley ride around the state in 1998. During his fourth term as governor. Please give a warm welcome to him.” - Reumba
“And I'm to introduce you a little bit, but you can talk about yourself.” - Laura
“Well, I don't want to talk about much. I want to ask questions, answer questions.” - Governor
“I agree. I'm with you. I'm just trying to see if there's anything really critical. I think for people who maybe don't know the background, just a couple high points. Governor [last name] is the longest, has been the longest serving governor in the state, four terms. And beyond that was also engaged by president then George Bush to do some pretty national level workers, like Secretary of Health and Human Services… - Laura
”Yeah, Health and Human Services, right.” - Governor
“And also led a national governors group and really set forward a lot of incredible models around economics, healthcare, investments in education, and then, later, took a real interesting turn that you were appointed or asked to be the interim?” - Laura
“But then I became the president.” - Governor
“And then you were named the president of the board regions because you were doing such a great job.” - Laura
“University’s got that, and I was responsible for hiring your current president.” - Governor
“Mm hmm.” - Laura
“At Steven’s Point was that. How many know TG? That's one thing I told him. I said when I interviewed my city, ‘I like you, and I said, you're basically gonna become the president or the chancellor of [college].’ He said: ‘ohh, I’ll never be made for that!’ And at [rural college], I said: ‘What I want you to do is I want you to go out to the communities, and I want you to meet people, and I want you to walk all around the campus and say hello to students!’ And TG did that, and he did a great job, and I believe he was probably doing the same thing. I'm going to meet with him." I'm gonna have a cup of coffee with him tonight. But I'm very proud of what TG stands for.” - Governor
“Yes, he came to the alumni Association, and he impressed us all with how genuine he was.” - Laura
“Well, very!”
“And I guess, you know, we're gonna open up questions here in a minute because many of the students do have questions...” - Laura
”Good!” - Governor
“The focus of the conversation, one of the themes is really your leadership style, how approachable you are and how you've centered in your career, you know, in all the roles you've had around building trust, how important that is. But I do have an opening question.” - Laura
“Go ahead!” - Governor
“All right. So, jumping right in, is politics harder today?” - Laura
“Absolutely!” - Governor
[Laughter]
“And how would you adjust your style?” - Laura
“I wouldn't adjust my style at all, because my style still would work. Politics have become so partisan and so polarized that Democrats don't like Republicans, Republicans hate Democrats, Democrats want to annihilate Republicans, and Nobody wants to work together. And I think that is just absurd. When I was governor, I did something that no other governor did. I was, you know, I was, I was a young governor, 43 years of age, was governor. And I brought in the Republican leadership at 9:30 in the morning on the first day of the second. And I talked to them and I said: ‘I want to know, you know, I want to get to know you. And I want to know what you need and what you want to get accomplished?’ And then at 11 o'clock, I got rid of them. I had to buy them donuts and coffee, never bringing anything without my money. I always said goodbye. But at 11 o'clock, I brought the Democrats in. And I brought the leadership in, and I said:
‘How far can we go? How much can we accomplish?’ And then at 1:30, I invited all of them, all the leadership, both Republican and Democrat together! And I said: ‘Now, I've met with all of you, and this morning the Republicans said they could go this far. Then we've got a leadership that said they could go this far, and they could go this far.’ I said: ‘We're not that far apart.’ I said, ‘’Would it be nice, you know, if we compromise?’ And we reached a solution and went out and passed it and both sides took credit for it. Took a long time, but they were able to do it. And I tell the Republicans, I said: ‘you know, you don't have all the great ideas. There are some good ideas coming from Democrats.’ Not many. But you've got good ideas from Democrats? You got good ideas from Republicans. Well, I think instead of fighting, you know, let's get something done. And today, you know, everybody wants us to fight. I mean, they want to get on the 5 o'clock news about how bad you are or how bad you are, and how good they are. And I just can't understand, you know, why people can't see what's the reason for running? You know, you run for an office to do what? To serve, right? You get elected to serve, take out their responsibility, but they don't see it that way. They just want to tear down, and I on the other hand, I'm a builder. I come from Elroy, Wisconsin, very poor, didn't have anything, and I always felt, you know, it was important to get something done. And that's the kind of attitude, you know, that I brought to government. Wherever I was, it was: ‘Let's get something done. Let's, you know, let's discuss it, let's argue about it. But let's make some compromise, get something done. And let's do what we ran for, and that is to serve them.’ And so, that's my philosophy, and I also find it really, you know, somewhat depressing, that you talk to you talk to candidates right now. Nobody can tell you, you know, why they're running, except that: ‘I'm better than you!’ You don't want to let him or her, because they're bad people. I'm better. Well, what are you gonna do? Well, don't elect him because they're bad. I want people, you know, run for public office and tell you, you know, I want to be able to make the road safe. Fine. It's something, you know. I want kids, everybody can be able to read, you know, by the time they're in second grade. and I'm gonna do everything I possibly can to accomplish that, and I'm going to go into the classrooms and help the teachers teach those students how to read. Do something, but have an agenda for what you're gonna write. And so that's my concern, that's how I do. And today, does that happen that way? People don't run for public office, for accomplishing that much. They just run because they're a Republican and they hate Democrats, and they're a Democrat, and they hate Republicans. And that's that has become the tenor of our times. And I just I find that offensive, but I find it tearing down at the basics of our democracy.” - Governor
“So, that's all very true. I mean, you are so authentic with your approach and connection, with people, and how you've been effective at bringing people together. Let's turn to a question related to the theme we're on. Does anyone have a question about leadership style or you know, some of the accomplishments and how the governor was successful in his roles. If not, just we'll go random, but come here.” - Laura
[Amber raises her hand]
“Please tell me about yourself!” - Governor
“Hi, my name's Amber.” - Amber
“Amber?” - Governor
“Yes!” - Amber
“Where are you from?” - Governor
“I am from [city], actually.” - Amber
“Oh, good.” - Governor
“Yes.” - Amber
“Where did you go to school?” - Governor
I went to RR High School.” - Amber
“Okay…” - Governor
“It's a public high school.” - Amber
“Yeah, I know.” - Governor
“And yeah, I'm a junior in the fall.” - Amber
“What are you majoring in?” - Governor
“Journalism advertising and media studies.” - Amber
“Journalism and what?” - Governor
“Advertising and media studies, it’s multiple.” - Amber
“What do you want to do?” - Governor
“I’m kind of on a cross section. I feel like that's always the case. Like, I figured it out. I was undecided, and I figured out my major, and then I’m like: ‘I don't know if I actually love my major. But I know I want to do something that helps the world.’ Which is, like everyone goes into what they're doing for the most purpose because they want to help some type of people.” - Amber
[POST SPLIT INTO MULTIPLE PARTS DUE TO CHARACTER LIMIT]
 
November 5th, 2025 (Continued): “Run for public office?” - Governor
“It's a great idea. Um, yeah, I think one of my doubts with public office is, I think, meeting the match of, like, who are doing public service work, but also you are kind of balancing your ambition and like, what you want to do for yourself. How do you find a good balance between those two?” - Amber
“Pretty hard, um, one of my biggest regrets is that I said. I didn't have any money, so I had to work harder than most people in regards to getting elected, they have money or something, and start off. I ran in the state legislature when I was 22 and I got elected when I was 23. I didn't have any money, I just went door to door, and in a rural area. Nobody ever seen a candidate go door to door. And I'd show up at weddings and say: ‘How would I get a picture? with the next legislator from your district?’ And nothing, funerals, you know, probably wouldn't do it today…”
[laughter]
“...but. I went out into bars, you know, you could still buy a beer, a glass of beer for ten cents. You get that early in the morning. And when the only person in the bar is the town drunk, you buy him a beer and I by 5 o'clock in the afternoon. He said, ‘You should have been in here this morning. That young Governor [last name] came in and bought the whole bar a drink.’ It's my… looking at the situation and campaigning’s hard, but in order to you've also got to be take care of your family and the biggest regret I have in my young life in politics is that when I got married and had children, I spent more time doing a campaign in less time for my children and doing became governor had never. I never saw my children play, you know, basketball and football in high school like I would have, should have! And now I regret it terribly. And my children remind me of that. So I go to all my grandchildren's sports, and now I'm the first one there when they're playing basketball and football. I'm in the stands. Look at them. You have to balance what you are think. I was not a good balancer. I was more dedicated to getting elected and practicing law and building myself, with my constituents and my family, I haven't half sorry, got shortchanged. Yeah. So you got to balance it. I was not even balance.. Here to tell you!” - Governor
“I was going to say, looking bad, because I feel like it is a do thing about. It's a very tough thing to balance everything.” - Amber
“It is!” - Governor
“I think in every stage of life. Looking back what you think would have done differently to maintain this relationship through now.” - Amber
“Well, I think I would have spent more time, you know, with my family and going to all my children's things. That's my biggest regret in politics that I didn't do that and I showed up. They all turned out great. still love me? So are they still asking for money? As a former love of social care, but no, I think that was it. You got to balance it. But, you know, you're a student, all of me are students, and I'll bet you. I'll bet you exam time comes around, you're pretty hard to deal with. You're spending your time, staying up nights, drinking coffee, memorizing things that you should have done. with go and you would have had some knowledge, but that's. We're all that way. We postponing things, not everybody, but some, a lot of people, a lot of students do, I did. And as a legislator, I spent too much time. out, you know, we have the legislator than taking care of myself personally. I can't do that I've done something. I am doing something right now. I get up every morning and you get exercise. get up every morning and do 50 pushups back 200 setups, and then I lift every morning!” - Governor
“Every morning?” - Amber
“Every morning, I do it religiously. Wow. So you gotta take care of yourself physically and mentally, and you gotta have friends. You can't reach out. And that's what's wrong with modern day politics. They don't want to reach out to the other side. Everybody wants to be cloistered and they want to be able to tear down. I want to build, I like I’m a builder, and I've never had anything, but I've been very successful. And I like to build things, and that's the kind of, you know, I give people. Take time, take care of yourself physically, but also work hard and build something.” - Governor
“Can I play off a second ?” - Laura
“Sure you can do anything you want, you’re the elf.” - Governor
“All right. I interrupted you a second ago, and you were on roll.” - Laura
“Am I talking too much?” - Governor
“Not at all. So we're going to come over to this side in a second, so think about a question, but I think the example that you just did, in terms of building relationships…” - Laura
“Yeah!” - Governor
“...and the connector that you are…” - Laura
“Mhm!” - Governor
“...that's what you built. And that takes work, and honesty, and people don't typically get as honest as you just did. You answered with total authenticity and vulnerability where you have a regret, you know, and I think people respect that, right?” - Laura
“Yeah.” - Governor
”People who are gonna leave here tonight are gonna feel like they heard a real person speak. So that's awesome. I just wanted to call it forward. Go ahead.”
“Are we still on the…” - Wyatt
“Do whatever!” - Laura
“Do whatever all right! but first you got to tell me who you are. What you want to accomplish. Amber, that was great!” - Governor
“Thank you! - Amber
“I want to support you whatever you want to do. Go ahead!” - Governor
“My name's Wyatt…” - Wyatt
“Hi Wyatt.” - Governor
“I am a sophomore here…” - Wyatt
“Why'd you pick UWM?” - Governor
“I picked UWM because originally I was at Whitewater, and it was a good school, too. It's a good school. It was very businessy. It wasn't for me. I'm more into the arts, so… - Wyatt
”Oh, fine.” - Governor
“I went here instead…” - Wyatt
“They got a great business curriculum at UW-Whitewater.” - Governor
“Yes, yes, they do. I was a tour guide there, actually. Oh, yeah.. plenty of facts.” - Wy
“That was good. Where are you from?” - Governor
“I'm from Bristol, Wisconsin. So the Bristol Renaissance fair.” - Wyatt
“Yeah.” - Governor
“Um, and I'm going into journalism…” Wyatt
“Just like Amber” - Governor
“Yep!” - Amber
“Do you like her?” - Governor
“I've never met her…” - Wyatt
“Now you’ve met her, I want you to be a friend of hers…” - Governor
“All right.” - Wyatt
“I want you sometime this week to call her and say: ‘how are we doing?” - Governor
“All right. Is there any song stuck in your head right now?” - Wyatt
“That's a great question at the moment, I’m drawing a blank, so I'll get back to you. I'll give you a call later this evening.” - Amber
“All right.” - Wyatt
“Thank you.” - Governor
“Yeah. So minor in polisci. I think I might end up leaning more towards a major in politics.” - Wyatt
“Okay, good.” - Governor
“Yeah, so I'm not sure yet.” - Wyatt
“Why don't you run for public office?” - Governor
“Uh, that's a great question. I actually, um…” - Wyatt
“You like to talk?” - Governor
“I do. I do.” - Wyatt
“And you like people right?” - Governor
”Yeah, yeah, I do.” - Wyatt
“So what's wrong with running for public office?” - Governor
‘It's, uh, harder than now, I think, to get into it than before.” - Wyatt
“I don't, I don't get it, they need people like you.” - Governor
“I think the amount of money it takes to get in…” - Wyatt
“Oh, money is terrible! Money is terrible! - Governor
“Yeah, I agree. I think elections of all sizes have only increased in the amount of money. It takes to fundraise…” - Wyatt
“It's terrible!” - Governor
“And that has kicked a lot of people who would like to run out of the running, and I think that applies to…” - Wyatt
“You know, my first year running for the state legislature. I spent 500 bucks.” - Governor
“Wow!” - Laura
“It wouldn't even be possible today.” - Wyatt
“When I ran for governor. I got elected, a million dollars.” - Governor
“That’s really cheap.” - Wyatt
Wow. Yeah, I mean it.” - Governor
“I can't imagine trying to do that today with that amount of money. Well I do have I have a few questions.” - Wyatt
“You only get one.” - Governor
“Of course.” - Wyatt
“Pick your best one, Wayne.” - Laura
“I'll pick my best one. I'll pick my best one. Okay, so former Governor [last name], we saw some big wins for Democrats today.” - Wyatt
“Yesterday.” - Governor
“Yesterday, sorry. In the states that already leaned blue, some candidates ran on economic populism while others, like assembly member Mamdani, in New York [City] leaned into democratic socialist policies…” - Wyatt
“Right!” - Governor
“Given your experience working with Democrats reaching across the aisle and also, you know, being on the other side, both at the state and federal levels, how do you see the party evolving from here? Do you think it's moving towards more democratic socialism, staying closer to the center left, or are we seeing the coalition really broaden to include a wider range across the entire range of the land?” - Wyatt
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