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this was after a long string of needling and speculation over my early life & trauma, making me out to be a monster for having admitted to beating up other kids in kindergarten. like, if people are gonna say I just told her to kys out of nowhere.
A man restrained me during a meltdown on a bus when I was 7 years old by sitting on my torso, it is the only memory that triggers suffocating pressure in my chest when I think about it. they used it against me, justifying and minimizing and laughing at me calling it state violence & oppression
they found a button to push. they knew i got incoherent at anything involving special ed because I was panicking and switching and regressing. they said I was pampered, that I was SPARED the worst of public school & was lowkey a menace who probably should have been held on the floor by 5 people 24/7
like how dare she complain that she was beaten by adults who had the legal license to do so for her entire childhood, it was probably worse for the kids she beat up when she was five :/
if you find it distasteful for me to invoke police violence when describing the times in which adult professionals were permitted and expected to use deadly force against me because of my disability, you do not believe autistic people face systemic oppression.
This person is a good example of various social phenomina I've seen online. They quite literally only started attacking you because when they discovered that they couldnt hurt that one lady they shifted their ire to you because they know they can cause you pain.
I don't know what it is about people like this and honing in on 'soft targets' but there is always this retroactive assumption that the trauma and pain of austistic people is innately a kind of falsehood as they quite literally don't even see you as fully human.
That its easy for them to treat you as a sort of ontological inferior because you are not immediately comprehensibly restrained by a sort of pervasive and weightful self-hatred that haunts every waking moment of your life that leaves you a sort cursed reactionary spectre.
They make a practical lifestyle out of this constant posturing and needless assertions about your 'true nature' because the chaos of the world and their own fears makes it impossible for them to understand people as they are. The 'fantasized evil doer' easier to reckon with in their endless crusade
To accept you as a normal flawed human being like anyone else is anathema to their entire reactionary zero sum view of people in general.
I shouldn't even be shocked that yet another platform (like irl groups let's be honest) doesn't care about the heinous shit someone says as long as no Forbidden Words are used but this is worse than I imagined. Just evil
autistic people don't get to have physical boundaries, we are always "permissible targets" and the violence we experience is always sanctioned.
if I wasn't angry about this fact, I'd feel sorry.
sorry about this, Patricia
Yeah britt is like a massive cunt. I remember arguing with them one time over them not understanding the legality of like, fictional pornography and they were like, arguing in such bad faith.
yeah he struck me immediately as being bad faith when he tried to argue about how patty was all these horrible things. good god i've never seen autism so intensely weaponized. i hate him
The OP is somehow much worse than I imagined it would be...
This is honestly so tame I would have said so much worst. Valid crashout honestly
