Bro. I say this with all the love I can muster: You need to get off the internet and experience greenery for a while. You’ve clearly gotten way too immersed in the dopamine hits you get from being noticed by people you admire on the internet to the point you’ve been throwing melties left and right when you don’t get what you want. Like you literally got yourself banned from a streamer who from the sounds of it has been INSANELY tolerant of your behaviour for 3 years. AND essentially shadowbanned before that by the community bc of how uncomfortable you were making everyone, Shondo included (see the kudoboard instance you didn’t get invited to for example). Take a year off from all cyber social interactions and twitch in general. Get a hobby, find an interest you can enjoy that doesn’t involve other people if you can. Because if you don’t you’re not going to get better, you’re just going to keep spiralling out until you unhinge completely.

That you didn’t get the point and asked in the last part for a second chance is crazy 💀

I’m so sorry all of this happened and for all the lashing out. I really hope things get better. From some of the less toxic comments, it sounds like the intent of your message was delivered. Good luck, lil guy!

Seek help.

Normally I’m toxic and point fingers and laugh but seriously find a therapist, get a regular 9-5, go out and make friends and completely cut off parasocial relationships it is NOT healthy for you

please step away from the internet and get some therapy. this is extremely toxic and im GENUINELY worried for you and your mental state.

Ew, grow up. Find an actual gf 🤮

You're cooked dude. Get help. Or you can spite everyone that's bullying you and keep being parasocial somewhere else. But personally I would get professional help

You did nothing wrong. Clearly some crybaby vtuber and the mods can't handle the light you bring to people eyes.

Seeing some of these replies is textbook crabs in a bucket analogy

So, you may have gotten "too much attention" because streamers pointed out that the things that got you banned was what they constantly deal with. I'm not going to analyze you, I don't know you, but I have heard horror stories from streamers and creators that stem from this kind

Orange jumpsuit in your future

youre obsessed with a streamer go outside and get a job

Get off Twitter

Wrap it up buddy.

I'm sorry you're goin through it man. Twitter aint the place for good vibes and healing.

Parasocial Much case book definition 😬

i used to be in the same boat as you dude. it wasn’t shondo, but another girl. i got too attached and realized i was way in over my head compared to the other regulars. the anxiety i was getting was not worth it, and i decided to drop her completely. i recommend you do the same

You obviously need to go outside because obsessing over someone who doesn't know you is a bit weird ngl

I seen the main tweet and I think it’s messed up you got banned. Don’t listen to anybody giving you hate recently. You are human and you made a mistake. We all do. You are deserving of a chance at redemption just as anyone else. Keep your head up for your Oshi! Don’t give up

Please stop obsessing over entertainers in the Vtuber community. We are people behind the screens and what you see is just a performance, an Original character that we give life with our voice. Stop being parasocial about it, respect boundaries, cool down and take a break 🧡🍊

you don't need to be on twitch buddy lol

Hey chikun, i sent u a dm, i hope it helps

who are you?

i think way too many people were too eager to dog you over this

how u get banned in a chat for pedophiles

get off of Twitch permanently

U need help mentally and physically

seek help