ใ๐๐จ ๐๐ฎ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐ค๐๐ง ๐จ๐ซ ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐๐ฆใ
Iโm sure many of you thought, โI can hear his voice again!โ and tuned in, only to end up feeling inexplicably sad.
I was one of them.
For some reason the stream itself terrified me. I listened to the opening explanation of the situation, but once they said they wouldnโt touch on the matter after that and moved on to the game, I stopped watching.
The moment I closed the stream, I noticed my heart was pounding. And then I realizedโI felt relieved.
After that, the tears wouldnโt stop. Iโd been crying until just a moment ago. Normally I can sort out my feelings, but this time I couldnโt. I didnโt even know why I was sad.
Then, thanks to a kind friend, I was able to put my emotions in order. So Iโd like to share that with all of you.
I think, even knowing that Xandu is Xandu, somewhere deep down I was still looking for traces of Ike in him.
But the person there wasnโt Ikeโit was Xandu.
That realization shocked me.
Vtuber is a roleplay, after all.
Ike was a character who was intellectual, calm, gentle, always encouraging everyone, and loved his fans.
But in my impression of Xandu, I couldnโt find Ike at all.
Yes, the voice was the same.
But it absolutely wasnโt Ike.
Looking back now, Xandu caused this whole uproar in collusion with Bari.
I canโt help but think there were smarter ways to handle it.
Making the fans worry endlessly, then laughing uproariously and appearing on Dokiโs stream of all placesโit was bound to confuse people.
Ike would never do something like that.
But he isnโt Ike.
Heโs Xandu.
People have many sides.
Compared to Ike, Xandu feels more free-spiritedโor, to put it harshly, like a mischievous, high-maintenance child.
But Iโm grateful that he perfectly played the role of Ike until the very end.
Seeing how different he was in the stream made me realize just how much care he put into the performance.
He did his job perfectly.
In the end, the person I loved was Ike.
I went to Xanduโs stream hoping to see Ike, but Ike wasnโt there.
That shock was the reason for the tears that came unbidden.
But Iโm not saying โIke is gone foreverโ or anything like that.
Ike Eveland did โdie,โ but true death doesnโt exist.
When a person dies, they become memories.
Even if every person on Earth forgets them, their traces remain on this planet in countless forms.
So I was able to convince myself: I really do love Ike.
With that, I understood the reason for my distress from watching the stream, and Iโve calmed down.
This is just my opinion and experience, so I donโt know how everyone else feels, but I hope it helps someone.
We will always be Quills.
As long as we keep loving Ike.
As long as we walk along the trail of words he left behind.
Life goes on.
Letโs carry the legacy of the blue novelist and keep walking.
When it gets hard, letโs encourage each other and keep living.