/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

you're not your addiction
yes you fell into the trap, but you have to see that the rest of it is being done compulsively
try your best to get out of it and visit the semen retention general on /x/

>>67529
I forgot to mention that i'm still good on semen retention because cooming is very nasty but it still sucks

Stay away from that shit, you will be perma-soft before you're even 30

>>67552
I'm currently 17 but I will turn 18 in a few weeks. Either ways I wanted to write down most of the stuff I did or my mental problems once again but I prefer telling the ai.
Although I get suspicious of the ai since it's known for making things up at times.

I hate this DNB board smh

>>67555
bro you need to log off. ik you don't want to hear it, but you do. get tf away from ai convos, u will ltrlly turn urself schizoid. are you planning to go to college? u need to immerse yourself in something irl and goon to non-internet shit, that helps most ppl. And you are normal, you're just 18 horny af being exposed to manmade horrors beyond comprehension. 40 years ago youd be fucking some mid chick or gooning to playboys, not watching vore

>>67578
>bro you need to log off
Ik I hate porn

>get tf away from ai convos, u will ltrlly turn urself schizoid.

I ask perplexity whenever I should care or not for help

>u need to immerse yourself in something irl
I train martial and try to workout

>And you are normal, you're just 18 horny af being exposed to manmade horrors beyond comprehension.

I get it but the OCD (mainly POCD and HOCD) is the worst part of all.
What kills me the most is that when I was early 16 the OCD got me so distressed that eventually ended up watching something messed (it wasn't 'p or illegal but it's extremely sick to watch)

>>67580
What martial art

>>67581
Wing Chun

>>67580
I hate how much this stuff distresses me tho because of how sick it is. Despite not being 'p I don't think it's not very much better to watch it. It might be some retarded thing teens do eventually and i did it because i was extremely distressed and didn't know about OCD at that time iirc

>>67578
big fuggin oof

>>67600

Ignore the heading part of this one

>>67578
Wdym non Internet shit

>>67582
lole

>>67582
Never tried it. I hope you enjoy it though

>>67590
Get help for your OCD. It takes courage to open up but you NEED to to save your health and sanity

>>67605
Looked it up and it looks good

>>>67578
>Wdym non Internet shit

"Whoa, look! Real life girls!"

>>67605
>>67608
It's Bruce Lee's school and one of the most underrated martial arts ig. It even teaches you to defend yourself against knife attacks. It generally alot more effective then boxing because it already prevents you from being punshed

>>67606
Yeah it kills me tho since it keeps making me feel like a hypocrite when criticizing faggots and other degenerates

>>67638
I dunno man, I box and it's pretty effective but you need to be very good to avoid punishment true

>>67684
My teacher taught me that boxing is a scam since you can't heavily defend yourself against arms and only use your fist all the time.

I failed again but this time i resisted alot more before eventually giving it up. What kills me doe is that i came across some very sick tranime stuff while looking for gooning material confusing it for something else for one second.
I'm heckin done with everything. I don't want to seek the slightest form of pleasure anymore. I'm scared for myself. I'm tired of feeling hypocritic and feeling dementized at degenenarcy against my will.
I also want to add that my mom keeps me inside all the time and pretty much keeps controlling me alot wich kind of robs my sanity.

Sorry for ESL since i typed too fast

>>67680
gooning can condition you into bad shit but if you stop doing it, i don't think it should matter.
but perhaps someone with something better to say will reply to this thread, i honestly can't say too much

>>67725
I was actually referring to my OCD making me look up one of those movie scenes that are somehow still legal. It was on porn side too wich keeps making me guilty

>>67582
Sounds like food

>>67680
Whatever it is at least you are highlighting the problem and not going all in and accepting the porn as a positive thing like many troons and faggots which make them the way they are

>>67830
trvke
>Unoriginal content! You have been muted for 4 seconds!

Ok I feel alot better now and have zero interest in gooning my OCD is mostly gone as well.
The regret still hits hard tho because it's hard for me to feel normal anymore. I seek a more disciplined and asceticist life

>>67830
Yes it haunts me mainly because it's too sick and makes me wish i got burned alive. Particularly the incident related to the OCD wich makes me think i can never truly feel normal anymore. For more detail when I was early 16 i was suffering from the OCD but it wasn't severe so i tried to ignore it. But it became alot worse when i once got a severe diarrhea and it apparently made the OCD alot worse and it didn't want to get out of my head anymore. I didn't know anything about OCD back then so i kept testing myself desperately and it ended up being so bad that i had to watch one of those movie scenes that are still legal somehow. It was on a porn site on top of that. It wasn't something inherently sexual but a extremely sick faggot would obviously enjoy watching something like that. I also did something similar the day after or so by writing some extremely disgusting femdom stuff on ai while having some very sick image in my head (most likely unconsciously)
This litterally makes me think i can never be normal again

*but

>>69361
everything will be fine, give it a while
you'll realize that once you quit you don't have to worry about it

>>69270
>my OCD is mostly gone as well.
ocd just goes away? i thought it was a condition like autism where it always stays with the person, whats ocd anyway?
>>69361
>This litterally makes me think i can never be normal again
Self fuffiling prophecy, the classic mindset of losers, if someone thinks of themselves as stupid then that person will be stupid, if someone thinks they're gonna fail that test they are gonna fail the test. such and such
Never fall for negative self-fufilling prophecies.
For advice, make yourself busy by doing jobs, i dont mean ZOG employed by jobs i mean trying to earn money on the internet with 'tube or making games or making websites for people, i always preach this since if you have access to a device and internet, this option is always possible and its the best thing u can do

>>69365
>ocd just goes away? i thought it was a condition like autism where it always stays with the person, whats ocd anyway?

Having a mental disorder makes you obsessed either through intrusive thoughts (my case) or doing something (like washing your hands) regulary.

>Self fuffiling prophecy, the classic mindset of losers, if someone thinks of themselves as stupid then that person will be stupid, if someone thinks they're gonna fail that test they are gonna fail the test. such and such
Never fall for negative self-fufilling prophecies.
For advice, make yourself busy by doing jobs, i dont mean ZOG employed by jobs i mean trying to earn money on the internet with 'tube or making games or making websites for people, i always preach this since if you have access to a device and internet, this option is always possible and its the best thing u can do

I see thx for the advice
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>>69363
Yeah but this isn't about gooning tho

>>69361
become obsessed with cleanliness and closing doors, redirect the ocd
Play map coloring games or something

>>69370
i'm aware because i had this exact same thing happen to me
just remember that your regret is your reminder of why you quit and why you DIDN'T actually like any of it
so every time you have it, you can think of that and you'll feel less disgusted about it
>>69365
tsmt, this is really similar to what i was trying to say

>>69372
Thanks alot then. I can feel better now. The reason this got into my head is because i recently saw news and the like about pedophiles wich kept triggering me. The fact that i recently lost contact of one of my online friends is pretty nasty too since he kind of helped me to cope

>>69375
glad to hear i helped, i also hope you have good luck on everything else and maybe you'll be able to get back in contact with that friend too

>>69377
Ty the OCD is more disgusting then most other's since it mainly revolves around some of the worst fag stuff out there and the addiction went pretty awful too although that's alot more secondary rn and i have little to no interest in gooning anymore i will have to keep coping with it alot for a while