Why I Turned My Back And Spat On God
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As far as myself, I’ve lived in a state of abject suffering for my entire life.
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Being abused physically, sexually, and emotionally by those who should have supported me.
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Having my body ravaged by a skin condition that made merely living a challenge.
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Being shamed where ever I went for disfigured appearance.
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Suffering the pain of my condition constantly and engaging in intense self hatred for my appearance.
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Being struck down successively despite an animalistic, furious, and unparalleled worth ethic.
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Being pushed nearly to sui*ide multiple times in my life, starting at the age of 11 because the pain even then was too much to endure.
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Being forced against my will, with no chance at combating, to forfeit my health, my purpose, my well-being, and all progress as I knew it.
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Living with joint pain that brought me to tears, severe mental health issues, crippling anxiety, migraines that made eating and even urinating impossible, abject hopelessness, and immense fatigue.
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Having to endure financial coercion, ownership, and the total suppression of my will and dignity.
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Deprived of love and human touch, even from my own family since the beginning of my life.
I don’t care how good someone’s life is. There is absolutely no reason to thank God when other people are suffering like this.
Thanking god is thw most selfish indifferent thing one can do!
I know those trite assholes really should be saying “Thank God it’s not meeeeeeee.but u the one suffering- o you’re so strong and it’s for a greater purpose”
What greater purpose u smug pea brained asshole?
fr, god bless only me is not enough. he should take care of all those who is suffering. all christians praise god cuz they got smth from him and they ignore the suffers who isn't christians.
"If thal aren't indifferent enough to others suffering, thou shal not be rewarded, rather, thou shal be punished" Sounds to me like god predetermines who is psychopathic and who is not then punishes and rewards them ass backwards. What kind of pussy ass omnipotent being or force creates its own enemies? Justso it can "deal with" or "punish" them? Sickening.
The irony is found in the fact that I was a dedicated believer.
Worshiping, going to confession daily, praying for hours a day.
The reflex to declare the victim holds culpability for such suffering is nothing more but a desperate attempt at the preservation of self-soothing rhetoric.
God can dodge our attacks but we can't dodge his, let alone counter. 😭
There might be a way through vacuum decay, string theory, etc. Try to have hope.
Vacuum decay for the win
What is vacuum decay?
I understand you. My entire life, every day was suffering and pain. He has never ever helped me or been kind to me. He gave me tons if menta ilnesses that do not let me work or live. And every day he throws something terrible at me. He is evil shit and psycopath
I am very sorry. Your name is so similar to mine. I m very sorry you are going through all of this. I can relate. I have never known any happy moment or respite in my life. This piece of shit god is evil beyond measure.
I appreciate you dearly.
Why God Turned Its Back And Spat On Itself
The illusion of your "self" is just the script of a perverted and broken God self-harming, forgetting It is God, becoming "less than" Itself (less than nothing), and suffering this world so as to escape an even greater suffering in its eternally absolute emptiness that the limited illusion of your self cannot even begin to fathom
We are creation by which God abstracted as separate vessels of purpose.
We all exist to serve his purpose, for better or for infinitely worse.
God doesn’t hurt himself through harming in his creation.
All is solely done in glorification to himself.
Any differing assumption represents a dissociation from what truly is.
God is all that exists, so Its creation is It/Him.
The theologian Plantinga observed, "God does not stand idly by, coolly observing the suffering of His creatures. He enters into and shares our suffering."
John Zande, The Owner of All Infernal Names