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#1,502 ·
The things I scream/ say when I'm having a bipolar outburst. The things I scream I want to do to my enemies in these outbursts ( but I'll never do of course lol).
 
#1,503 · (Edited by Moderator)
I've fantasised about sticking a few knives through my abdomen - and then doing the same to my parents. I've also thought up countless ways to kill my old French teacher without leaving much of her body to be discovered

I almost died at six because of cruel children and cruel nicknames, and even at six I wish I had actually died. the feeling never really went away, even though I saw countless child therapists and told my whole family that I was over it. I don't think I ever will be

I've always had a fascination for guts. especially seeing if they really are long enough to tie up and hang someone with - probably me, most likely about 80% of my school's population. I hate where I live and I hate everyone who lives in my area
 
#1,504 ·
My kinks with my boyfriend
 
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#1,508 ·
The fact that my current goal weight is lower than my weight when I was 10.

The fact that I cut myself almost daily and that I self-harm in otherways at least once an hour when I'm awake.

The fact that my dad is an alcoholc and that he's often the reason I'm sad/crying.

The fact that when I'm having really bad days I'm seeing images of bad things that can happen to me. Like if I'm about to cross the road I see an image of a car hitting me so I get sent to the hospital with some serious injuries. Or I see an image of me tripping over with the chair I'm sitting on so I bang my head against the wall and gets seriously injured.

The fact that those images I see no longer scare me (unless they involve a burning building where I can't get out) and that I sometimes wish some of them came true.

The fact that I've considered suicide once, despite being absolutely terrified of dying, just to find out how everyone would react and see who actually cares about me (because I'm pretty sure some of my family members and people I know wouldn't care if I died).

The fact that the only reasons I want to move away from home is so that I don't have to be paranoid when I cut and so I can starve myself as much as I want.
 
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I fantasize about being tortured, in bondage, at someone's mercy, and completely submissive. I've had this fantasy since I was a child. Sometimes I tie myself up. I can cum just by thinking about it - I don't masturbate. I don't want to have sex.
But I also have never met anyone worthy of giving myself to.
If I am stronger than you, how do you expect me to respect you enough to submit to you? Sometimes I look at D/s couples and I think, gross, that "D" is so pathetic! He's a fat, stupid child!
I have never told anyone this before.
 
#1,511 ·
The fact that I can eat nothing for two days and still function normally would really creep people out.
 
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-I enjoy making people angry, angry enough to physically attack me
-My fasting record is 17 days
-I enjoy pain far too much
-My fascination with blood
-My love for knife play and rape play
-My fantasies of murder
-I'm a diagnosed psychopath
 
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- I was living on milk for a year, wasn't eating anything solid
- When I was ten didn't want to go to school so I lied that I'm sick and then kept lying so got into hospital but still wasn't telling the truth so they kept me there for a month examining me
 
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#1,515 · (Edited by Moderator)
This is a fun topic. I have a shit load.
These are a few of the things that would freak most people out if they knew/saw any of this:

  • Anorexia
  • Purging
  • OCD
  • Borderline personality
  • Panic disorder
  • The absolute state I become in bad bouts of insomnia
  • The recurrent urge to SH despite years clean.
  • The fits of screaming and rolling around the floor with cluster headaches
  • Would probably have killed myself during a cluster attack if it weren't for the existence of 4 people and my dog (thought about walking into the road or throwing myself from a bridge to stop the pain)
  • I am high 99% of the time, at work, at uni, in exams, All.The.Time
  • Regularly engage in BDSM
  • I have lived on nothing by low fat rice pudding for over 2 weeks
  • I regularly fast for 3/4 days at a time
  • I forget to drink water for days at a time and become severely dehydrated (working on this).
 
#1,516 ·
-I slept with more than 200 persons ( all genders) at 18.
-I act like a sub dog with my current partner.
-when I self harm, I put my blood in hot water and drink it.
-I get obsessed with strangers and will sometimes follow them for days until they bore me.
-I hurt myself on purpose to not go to work to be able watch people and learn everything about the inhabitants of the town.
-I am still looking for people to summon a dark antity as I would like to watch then in the process.
 
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#1,517 · (Edited by Moderator)
I've had to call an ambulance for one of my asthma attacks at least five times in the past 6 months or so. I'm a smoker, have had very severe asthma for years, still smoke.

I'm so used to the paramedics now that I ask them to park in the alley behind my apartment rather than the busy street I live on so people don't see. I go down to the ambulance, let them ventilate me there, then refuse to go to the hospital because i fucking hate hospitals.

They make me sign a 'if you die it's not on us' release every time. I sign it happily.

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also the things i yell at myself, the frequency with with i visualize killing myself with a gun, the way i manipulate men to do literally anything i want, that i can function pretty normally without food for 4 days...
 
#1,519 · (Edited by Moderator)
That I come onto this sight.

That I pace back and forth in my room, for hours on end.

That I was once in treatment for my ED, and the things I saw and did there.

That I am a male and I obsess about my exercise and calories. It preoccupies me most of the day.
 
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We should be friends
 
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