Thank you to everyone who reached out to ask if I’m okay. I’m safe and resting right now. I most likely won’t be attending Twitch con in the foreseeable future nor will I be around the area for the rest of my stay. As a CSA survivor, what happened last night deeply affected me and it’s been really hard to process. My body is in a lot of pain and my mind is shaken.
Last night was bad. I tried to downplay what happened in the moment to “keep the peace.” I even apologized to him and told security I was okay because I just wanted to move on and pretend everything was normal. But security made the call to remove him and I’m incredibly thankful for that. As the night went on I found myself drinking more and more just to stop it from replaying in my head.
As a man, it’s hard to navigate something like this. I’m scared to vent but I believe it’s important to speak openly about mental health. I want people to feel safe saying “I’m not doing okay” so their loved ones can be there for them. “Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half sorrow.”
I’m so thankful for the people I was with last night. I met two amazing individuals at that party who protected me when I needed it most, and I can’t thank them enough! Sadly, I came to this con alone and didn’t make it home safely. Moving forward, I’ll make sure to attend future conventions with someone by my side.
The security and the event host were incredible. They checked on me, apologized for the situation, and took action even when I was conflicted. Because of them I felt safe and seen. I want to thank them for being there and helping me!
I have a lot of trauma tied to conventions, especially after what happened last year at TwitchCon. But everybody reaching out to check on my safety means the world to me. Moving forward will be hard, i was at an invite only after party and i do not know the creator/guest/man who did that to me. I just want to heal right now. Thank you all for being here.
I’m going to do my best to have better days ahead. 
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