I think you're right that going through pain and suffering can push people to question reality more deeply. But for me personally, this theory didn't come from emotion or trying to make sense of bad experiences. It came from personal research and years of looking into the evidence and noticing patterns that point to something deeply off about the structure of this place. I came to the conclusion that this is a prison planet/loosh farm after researching over 500 past life regressions where people describe being pressured to reincarnate on the other side, seeing that there are many regressionists/alien abduction researchers who came to the conclusion that ETs are truly evil and that all they care about is to exploit/control us, discovering remote viewing data showing manipulation after death and the light being used as a trap, discovering out of body experiencer Robert Monroe and finding out about loosh harvesting and how it fits into the bigger picture, etc.

I sympathize with what you have been through, but i also think that it's important that people, especially those new to this sub understand this theory is not based on trauma or used as some kind of coping mechanism. For many of us, it's simply about connecting dots and following where the information leads. You can live a normal, healthy life and still see that this system runs on suffering, deception, and decay.

Anyway, to answer your question. Besides all the evidence i've come across, my eureka moment was when I realized that this entire place is built on killing, eating, and being eaten. Every single being here is put in a situation where they have to attack, kill and eat another living being just to survive which guarantees endless suffering for all living beings 24/7. That's when it hit me that we actually have proof showing that whoever created this place is extremely evil and what mainstream religions and people around us tell us about “God” is very, very far from the truth.