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this is really sweet. i think CJ would be proud of how far youve come. youre a wonderful presence everywhere weve seen you. its nice to see such loving art for a sysmate. maybe some time well draw something for our own

kipper7

I wasn’t following you when this happened, but I’ve seen the ‘callout vids’ and I’m so sorry that cj had to go through that. They didn’t and still don’t deserve the hate they got.

pastelpunk413

Thank you, Salem, for showing us the most vulnerable parts of you and your alters. I hope it gives you some peace, some healing.

cute-cat-girl

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tropicalscream

૮ (˶• ﻌ •˶) ა ♡ /づづ proud of u

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nullconvention

They were a teenager, you're an adult now. You care about others and stand up for yourself, you do creative work people appreciate and can express yourself. I'm sure the reason they can be merged with you like this is ultimately that you're a safe person to be with.

fanfictionbard

It’s heartwarming to see this, forgiving the parts of yourself that you’re not proud of, so thank you for drawing this and posting it 🙏

badgersandbees

<3 thank you for being vulnerable salem. we love them and you.

anomymous2

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taksynator

God we just found out we are a system ourselves. I think it's a good idea to be able to say goodbye and forgive each other when we make mistakes. But hold each other accountable when we do. We may be separate people but a unified entity. And this is like finally mourning someone you never got to mourn. I'm proud of you for your vulnerability man.

aloperuby

I will hug

helsingvania

I'm genuinely sad what has become of not only this alter and their Sona (sorry I don't know the pronouns), but also the symbol they became. I hope you do reclaim cj because I always thought of them being a really cute design

spitefulgarden

B [It's... very hard to move on from things that happen, especially when it feels like "you" did them. But it's for the best - nobody heals by picking at their scabs.]

fablebagel

I don't know if CJ can still hear me when I say this, but they were just a teenager! Whatever happened wasn't their fault! I know my old hosts can be very aggressive out of protection, so genuinely, thank you for this. I hope you all heal!! I'm healing this too right now. You're not alone :)

somebodynew1guess

realclownery

Always proud of you Salem. I'm sorry nobody was there for CJ in their time of need. I hope you can find some peace

ruthlesslistener

Giving them a kiss on their forehead. They did their best and that's all they needed to do

melodiousvoid

Thank you for sharing this. Saying goodbye to former alters is such a complicated and lonely form of grief, but we deserve the space to talk about it. Sending love to all you’ve been and all you will be 💜

dailoh6the9f-ckup

So proud of your hard work to be better, Salem, not only for CJ but for yourself.

ghost-orion

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emeraldraccoon478

One of the hardest things about being a system is losing someone like that, I don’t think there’s anything similar to the particular kind of grief you get from losing someone others might not ever have met, unlike death there is no funeral, it’s painful. Sending you all well wishes, I’m bad with words because I’m tired right now but like, yeah, it’s a special kind of pain, especially when they were a just a kid.

minecraftgender

letting go of an old host is so hard, we feel you on that. jaydon recently fused with someone else and, while lucas is very nice, it almost feels like a piece of us is gone. its painful and hard but its worth it in the end to grow. im our new host and im trying to bring us to a new healthy place. i wish the best for you and i hope we can both get to a happy and healthy mental state. - robin

bel-tamtu

Forgiving our previous hosts (or younger selves, I'm median so that line is a little blurry for me) is so hard but I'm glad to hear of your progress in this because they deserved comfort and kindness and sympathy.

bel-tamtu

Like I think an older host of mine is gone and it's taken me years to pick up the memory pieces and I'm still forgiving him too but yeah. Moving forward. It's hard.

marrashoure

i was looking through all the stuff people were calling out but once i realized all of it was due to what a mentally struggling teenager did i checked out real fast from caring about any of it (the misgendering, ableism and transmedicalism did not help either) anyway, as long as you are trying to be the best version(s) of yourself/ves, that's really all that matters, no matter who you are or were

heartycromia

i saw in real time the whole thing about CJ, and i always thought "man, people are really mean towards a simple teenager" and now, you are An Adult, and not even the original Host anymore, and it's like the ship of Theseus, atleast you seem in s better Place, Salem, take care, and if you see CJ, say hello to them for me

despicableplankton

What is a "plural system host"?

return-of-cheryl-mason

Thank you for sharing this. We hope CJ is at rest now. We're sorry, Salem.

kitty-moss

Thank you for sharing this Salem, I can see the tenderness in your art. I’m sorry and I hope you’re doing ok, this is beautiful.

hazelnooter

Thank you for sharing, I know it can't have been easy 🫂

loth-caatgirl

this has made me realize I've had my own previous syshost merge some time after starting transition, and it's bringing up feelings. mourning, acceptance of an unchanging past... it's a lot to hit suddenly, but he was relieved to hand this life over to someone who could be the spark of joy he wanted to see in this world, amd I owe it to him to live that truth see that out. for him who came before, and the me the us that are now and yet to be. thank you Salem, for giving CJ this elegy, and carrying forth the work of life from them

caemdare

This is really beautiful; thank you for being so vulnerable. I really do hope the future gets to be kinder.

nikkiiiscute

Even if no one will forgive them, I'll forgive CJ.

crownamedcrow

i feel like... im not who i once was. like someone took over entirely and now I'm struggling to fit in these clothes. does anyone else understand this?

crownamedcrow

thank you for sharing this. i want to understand myself further.

oracle-milkman

I understand what it's like to have nixed feelings about the person that represented you in the past. It's very good that you're forgiving CJ

oracle-milkman

*mixed lordy i need a coffee

the-canvas-system

They are just a puppy :( i wish them the best (and for all of you)

stormborn-naiad

This post really helped me find myself. Thank you :)

unluckydoor

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the-things-that-are-fear

Im really proud of you salem!

cxsmicvega

is it ok if i talk about a similar experience i have with old hosts of our system? im the 4th in a line of Vega's and this post hits really hard for me and it'd be nice to share my experience with someone who 100% gets it totally fine if not of course, this post is incredibly personal and vulnerable. I'd hate to accidentally take it over or something, it's just not a side of plurality I see talked about a lot and it's nice to know I'm not alone

cxsmicvega

im taking the like as an ok, ty!! there was a quote i saw floating around the internet at some point of "these memories aren't mine, but I'm happy to hold onto them" and that's like the best way to describe how it feels to be the new host of a system. I've been here for 4 years now, hosting the system, maneuvering this body, but before me there was another Vega. They were soft and pastel and in love with the stars, they age regressed and were pagan and they loved art and had such a pretty laugh and long hair. But they're gone now and the only ones who have truly mourned that are the rest of the system. We don't realize until so much later after the old host is long gone that no one else in our life ever has the chance to mourn them because this whole time, they thought we were them anyways. This piece speaks to me a lot because of that experience. It is so difficult and painful to mourn someone you know is gone and never coming back that no one else around you even knows is gone. These aren't my memories and really this isn't my name, but I'm happy to hold onto them. I'm sure C.J. would be happy and proud of how far you've all come :)

some-random-ace

You are amazing, Salem

thebluewhalejester

This is beautiful and heartbreaking all at once

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