▶ №64780[Quote] [Voice Chat]
Right now I'm supposed to be studying for the two classes I've barely been paying attention to, but who cares. Even if I do dedicate time to it, I'll probably just waste 30% of it staring at nothing while playing with my hair like a subhuman retard. I only partially understand the stuff my professors gave me anyway, and most of my time would be spent just trying to understand shit that I should already know by now. Maybe I should just kill myself. Like what the hell am I even doing. This is college. This is literally shit that I'm supposed to be passionate about. I shouldn't be even on this site at all. I made a promise to myself that I'd take a long break to better focous on my studies, and I broke it like 4 days later. I don't really have anything stopping me from ending it anyway, besides my parents I guess. I don't have any friends. I haven't since middle school, and I doubt that I'll be making new ones anytime soon here. I have no one except this stupid site and I'm so sick of it. I have no motivation, no drive, no reason to do anything. I don't think I was ever supposed to be born. My life has no purpose. Like, all of the genuine happy moments I've had in recent memory have always been when using this site. I fucking hate that. I don't want to just use the baldman glasses site forever. I want to talk with people. Do shit with people. Have conversations about stuff we find interesting. Actually bond over shit. Even if I do get my diploma and by some miracle manage to find work, what then? Fuck I forgot what point I was even trying to make with this thread. I'm such a fucking mess. no one will probably read it anyway
▶ №65038[Quote]
eerily similar to me
▶ №65110[Quote]>>65123
adhdDEITY.. I knvvl..
go say something that will get you banned permanently from this site, nothing pedophilic but like a suicide threat on /soy/. then go onto proton vpn and get yourself banned on every vpn ip so you cant bypass the ban. make yourself unable to use the site.
delete all other apps, delete google accounts. if you have anyone around you have them spy on you as you study. if they see you going off course have them hit you. this will train your brain. if you have no one, go hit yourself.
make your job your life, and live only for your job like a good goy. or get a hobby like guitar or something
▶ №65123[Quote]>>65125
>>65054>have you even tried talking to others? ive found it also difficult to make friends in college but at least i have a few people that i know. No. I learned this one gook's name after he helped me with this line of code, but that's it. I hate whenever I see people just casually talking with one another. It makes me feel so ashamed. The closest thing to "someone I know" is my roommate I guess, but we've barely talked and he probably thinks I'm a weird faggot.
>you need to find opportunities to socialize and spread your wings out. maybe try going to church; theres a lot of good young people converting to Orthodoxy and i guess also Catholicism and the old people within churches are also fun to talk to.Christianity is pozzed + all of the churches in my area are probably filled with esl raisinskin turdworld immigrants. Are there any other options for someone like me?
>>65110Studying is usually fine for like the first half of the day. I studied for like 2 hours earlier on the day I made this thread. It's at around the evening when my ZOG adhd retard meds ware off and I feel like doing nothing. The only real distraction for me is the farty I guess, but it's also literally my only friend.
▶ №65125[Quote]
>>65123>Christianity is pozzedIt usually matters on where you live. A lot of Protestant and even Catholic churches in the west are unfortunately pretty gay but from what I've seen Orthodox churches have never really changed. You should still at least try going to a church. Maybe you'll change your mind.
▶ №65271[Quote]
Just Killy yourself you subhuman ableist kek
keep whining like the tranny you are
