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DigitalVagrant
‪@digitalvagrant.bsky.social‬
Radia convinced me it was important to at least publicly talk about the uphill struggles I've been dealing with over the past couple years, which I have refrained from speaking much about in most cases. I'm not looking for anything in particular; she's just encouraged me to stop hiding my agony.
It is a screenshot of text taken to condense the post down to a single one. A truncated version of this is as follows: The last several years of my life have been been a slow degradation, of both my circumstances and my own mental health. To be brief: Over the last several years, I lost basically my entire life savings, of several tens of thousands of dollars, at hands of the poor financial habits of those I believed to be responsible with it. Though I was able to reach an amicable payment plan, I will likely never see most of that money for a long, long time. In the meantime, I have dealt with a near-constant onslaught of back to back crises to deal with, from a massive laceration on my thumb (that I still have not regained full sensation in), to unexpected bills, to the now well-documented hell that Radia was put through by her former "friend" (which I do not regret helping her with and would do it again in a heartbeat). I have been in a steadily-increasing, near-constant mental fog for I do not know how long at this point; it is difficult for me to even pick out specific incidents, as my memory at this point is incredibly fragmented from stress. I did not speak at length publicly about these out of shame and an incredibly unhealthy habit to put my head down and try to brute-force work my way out of my problems. I am immensely conflict avoidant; I fear the anger of others, or of upsetting them with my issues. The end result was attempting to fight an uphill battle alone I had zero chance of winning, even as it steadily destroyed me. I am not okay. I am getting better; Radia's assistance, a steady therapist, and the slow abatement of some of the most major problems I have faced have begun to ease the pressure somewhat. But it is likely going to be some time until I feel back to where I once was. Thank you.
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August 14, 2025 at 1:31 PM
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‪Minerva is Tired‬ ‪@partydemoness.bsky.social‬
· 18m
I'm so proud of you. 🫂
‪DigitalVagrant‬ ‪@digitalvagrant.bsky.social‬
· 16m
Thank you, Min. I'm trying to stop hiding in my cave.
‪Minerva is Tired‬ ‪@partydemoness.bsky.social‬
· 15m
I'm pulling you out to play FFXIV
‪JoCat 🔜 PAX WEST‬ ‪@jocat.net‬
· 27m
❤️
‪DigitalVagrant‬ ‪@digitalvagrant.bsky.social‬
· 17m
I cannot remember if ever told you but I basically cried that one time you drew art of me out of nowhere
‪JoCat 🔜 PAX WEST‬ ‪@jocat.net‬
· 13m
we love you man, keep on keepin on
‪projectxa3.bsky.social‬ ‪@projectxa3.bsky.social‬
· 26m
Dang dude, that sounds really rough!