idk why, if this is a new alter or anything, but some part of me feels so connected to our old fursona that was related to my past alias.

i moved on from that era but some part of me misses that fursona, a part of me that's younger and traumatized over the stuff I dealt with online as a teenager. idk.

in feeling strong emotions rn. kinda want to cry..I didn't know I was hurt this badly

this part of me is hurt and wants to be visible, but she's scared. i want her to know it's ok

(gahhh love being plural and having to go through extremely traumatic events)

i might delete later, but someone in my system appears in this form, she's hurt but I'm here for her.

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i dont think thats too surprising honestly. it was a representation of you that meant a lot to yourself but it was also used against you and was part of a time in which you got really badly hurt. i dont think its unusual to have these kinds of feelings over it at all, esp if you feel like a part of yourself missing it and stuff

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yeah, it feels like a gaping hole in my chest that I just tried to ignore, and now this happened...I'll be ok I'm just feel strong feelings

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@wolfertinger666 no i totally get what ur going thru (to an extent ofc). i get the same over parts of my past that i miss but are tied to trauma. i hope you can feel better soon

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i'm so sorry you're feeling this way, online trauma sucks and you didn't deserve what happened to you :(

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💜💜💜

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Pal, you don’t deserve what happened to you. I understand you on the trauma front, and hope I at least distract you from some of it with this comment, like your art has for many a spiral of mine. Hate to be corny, but if you have one fan, it’s me <3.

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I wish I could give her a hug

I love you

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i love you too

Trying to be this kind to my own younger alters 💕

Hey, sorry to post this from my ancient oc askblog, Tumblr bug, but you are seen, and I wish you only the best

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@wolfertinger666 Oh also, your art is amazing, but im typically too shy to interact with people I look up to

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Stay safe okay

sending love to you guys, no one deserves to have dealt with that. I'm sorry you were alone, I hope you get the support and love you deserve

I hope things can start feeling better for them/you

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You didn't deserve to be hurt just for existing. Thanks for sharing with us.

Wait is that an alt account or

You've grown so much, I know how scary it is to share such a personal part of yourself. You inspire a lot of people who wish the best for you <3

i love you lil doggy <3 you deserve all the love

Even if we think we moved on, there still might be parts of us that want to rewrite certain situations from the past, the trauma can still hurt even after the years. But please do know there are people who want you to support you as a person (or people) and not just only as an artist. Your pain is seen, and others are here to give you a small support.

You deserve everything good in the world, don't ever let anyone convince you otherwise

wait oh my god that was yall?? oh wow I had no idea. I drew fanart of that character when I was 14, 5 years ago. Seems I've been a fan of your stuff far longer than I thought ha. I'm glad I found your art again, and I'm glad you're taking time and space to be compassionate and kind to a you that went through so much 🩵

Tell her I love her, she is perfect

You are very seen, and don’t deserve what happened to you :( Thank you for feeling able to share with us all

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offering hugs and pets to this little puppy 💚

Petting her gently if that’s ok

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It’s nice to see you reconnecting to her, I’ve always had a lot of sympathy for her <3 and it makes me happy to see her again fully by coincidence like this

I haven't seen that dog for some time...

Breathing love into the past is the best way to relieve the pressure of ancient healing! Let it bubble up, you got this! 💜💜

I'm plural too and I can relate to the feeling. I'm so sorry for what happened to you.

you deserved better

We don't usually comment on your more personal/rant-y stuff cause we don't have anything valuable to add to them, but as a plural with similar in-sys experiences I feel more confident chiming in here. What you are doing for her is incredibly important and I hope it helps your collective healing and wellbeing. You are seen and heard, all parts of you, and also incredibly brave for sharing your vulnerability with us despite the trauma you've been through. Thank you for being here and for bringing your creativity and your unique voice to this world, we wish you only the best

i think she seems very sweet. i hope she will be okay, and im sure youll do everything you can to help her. :)

I understand I am precisely one random internet stranger out of thousands, but here is my unwarranted opinion. Your old art from back then brought me a lot of joy, I would share literally every new post with my girlfriend. I think I still have a few saved of the cerverus gal on my computer. It really sucked to see so many people tearing you down over fucking nothing, and I recall bein' a little upset when y'all said you hated that era of your art and yourselves a couple years ago. I wish you all nothing but the absolute best because, quite honestly, that is all y'all have ever put out into the world.

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💜💜💜💜I appreciate it, that era of my life is somewhat over but there are new beginnings especially with healing

It’s really scary to be public abt system stuff, esp the more vulnerable things. But when someone wants to be seen it’s important to let them and I’m really proud of yall for being able to post this!! Seeing ur trans and black art and u being public abt system stuff is really amazing esp as a trans system! It makes me feel like I can try and draw my parts too! Plus my other friends who r systems and I are always sharing ur art and saying how awesome it is both technically and just like to see themselves represented in great art

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