i feel so fucking scammed by the way pedophilia and pedophiles were conceptualized and explained to me when i was young. my groomer did it by fucking accident

i don’t have aphantasia, i can visualize things to a minor extent, just not memories.

loop short things an even number of times, loop long things an odd number of times

good news, my disability rent voucher was finally approved, I’m paying in the hundreds for a 2 bed 2 bath apartment in santa cruz that previously cost thousands

mandelbrot hall finally has a time-locked animatic and ive started working on music for it. im depressed as hell but client work finds a way to get done on time

people who made names for themselves in the mid 2010s talking about “AI Safety” as a hypothetical sci fi doomsday scenario trying to connect their ideas to the current day technology of large language models is so fucking embarrassing. if we invent artificial general intelligence it won’t be a neural net. they called it AI to swindle money from you specifically

i think we should apologize to the kendrick lamar the heart pt 5 theorizer twitter person. like its possible their specific reading was off but they were just responding to the offbeat choreography, why is he hunched over on the right side of the screen, why does he move to the center & look dead on into the camera when the deepfakes turn on, idk. some people see a “dumb stan” make an arcane proclamation about the art they like and would rather die than consider they missed something

I now own 2 archimedean solids as twisty puzzles

I talk about olive a lot because she’s still by a long shot the easiest alter to identify, because she’s so simple and physiologically powerful. when i talk about switches feeling like the lame part of an intense high, its usually her.

listening back to my older albums with tons of features, like damn I used to be able to talk to people