Writing wasn’t a window to the world – it was a window onto myself. And when I gained language, it felt like I had finally found a friend on this brutal planet: one who listened without fleeing, who made the world feel momentarily escapeable.
What I never expected was that one day this friend would fall silent. Not because I wanted to stop writing, but because I no longer could.
And the reason?
I am hungry.
Since the genocide began in Gaza, I’ve questioned everything. Every value that once shaped me has trembled. Even writing – that deep power I’ve always used to resist fear, displacement, and grief – began to feel fragile, subject to decay. War is a strange thing. It doesn’t just destroy homes; it pulls the ground of certainty from beneath you, wipes away the tiny sense of security you once arranged in your room to comfort yourself.
But you know what does this more than war?
Hunger.
they're calling the daily murder of 30-60 palestinians in search of food "the hunger games" now, because it has been going on for nearly two weeks where israel will set up aid distribution points as bait and then shoot the starving people going and coming to get it.
and you would think the chances of dying are so high that people would refuse to go there, but then i think about if people in my family, especially children, were crying from hunger in front of me i would not hesitate to go. and i also remember this essay, about hunger. you would do anything to end it, including take your chances with unseen, sadistic israeli soldiers lying in wait with their snipers ready.
abla-sosoRebloggedtamarrudFollowRead this horrific account shared by Mo Zraiy, which describes the death trap that is disguised as "aid distribution centres" in Gaza: "It felt like I was in an episode of Squid Game. Thousands - tens of thousands - sleep near the gate waiting for sunrise, because the amount of food being distributed is so limited. I arrived at 2 a.m., and as dawn broke, a quadcopter drone approached the crowd and spoke in broken Arabic: 'You will now enter to receive the food. There is a limited time — you must all leave before it runs out. You must all stick to the time.'Everyone gets up, taking off their shirts to turn them into makeshift bags for cans of beans and sacks of rice. An employee from the American company waves his hand for people to enter. People rush in screaming — it felt like the Day of Judgment.We enter a large yard surrounded by iron fences. U-shaped tables are stacked with everything Gazans long for - rice, oil, sugar, chocolate, flour. And because the supplies can only feed a few hundred people, the yard turns into something like a Roman gladiator arena. Whoever loses... their family will sleep hungry tonight.When the time runs out, the quadcopter comes back again, ordering people to retreat and leave the yard immediately.No one listens - everyone is busy picking food off the ground. I saw a woman and her child collecting grains of rice mixed with sand, pouring them into a sack they were carrying.Then an Israeli tank takes position on a nearby hill overlooking the distribution point. It opens fire on the crowds. People scream and run. No one cares about anyone else — they step over the bodies struck by bullets. Everyone is just trying to survive."This evil is incomprehensible. What fucking apocalyptic hell is this? #starving innocent people and then setting death traps for them when they desperately seek food is the most demonically evil shit ever#i don't wanna see any complains about equating Zionism with Nazis#death to israel#israel is a genocidal state#gaza#palestine
abla-sosoDMC fandom please stop noticing things 💔💔💔#my heart can't take it 😭😭😭#nero#vergil#devil may cry
abla-sosoRebloggedcatgirlcaliphateFollowHow much violence it takes to decolonize will always be a function of how much violence the colonizers bring to the process.mariofedsnot if it involves killing civillianscatgirlcaliphateNice non sequitur, buddy. Just to be clear: if settler civilians are killed in the process of decolonization this is also a function of the violence that colonizers brought to the process to begin with.Colonization is a violent process requiring massive violence to uphold. Colonizers are responsible for the violence and the heirs of the previous waves of colonization can and should choose to prioritize making restitution instead of employing even more violence to retain ill-gotten gains.It is easy and convenient to condemn the violence of resistance while ignoring the violent foundations of the status quo. It is also deeply dishonest and betrays a worldview in which violence against colonized peoples is always, always, always acceptable. #decolonisation#colonial settlers in an apartheid state are not innocent civilians
abla-sosoReblogged catgirlcaliphatelifeafterpsychiatryFollowThe solution to ableism isn't for me to "stop calling myself disabled", it's for everyone to stop treating "disabled" as a bad wordqueercripintersexThere's an actual named phenomenon called The Euphemism Treadmill for how people keep coining new terms for disability hoping to get away from the stigma but then the new term just winds up with a negative association. Because the problem is not the term, the problem is the ableism.Disabled isn't a bad word. It's a neutral and descriptive term and it's one we've been using for political organizing for decades now. #ableism
abla-sosoReblogged horrificgothglittertome-blogFollowdont talk to me or my 47 moodswings ever again#just don't
abla-sosoRebloggedwentianFollowDEVIL MAY CRY 4: Special Edition (2015)
bonus:abla-soso#i love their relationship so much#dante#nero#uncle and nephew#devil may cry
abla-sosoReblogged horrificgothprobuccalfatFollowfor a while now i’ve been learning that some people kind of choose to hate themselves like you can give them tools and resources and advice and they’ll even follow some of it and go “i still hate myself” and i feel strongly at that point they’re kind of choosing to stay in that mindset because it’s comfortable and familiar or something but some people are truly [gotye voice] addicted to a certain kind of sadness and hooked on feeling low probuccalfatyou really do have to trick and teach your brain to stop catastrophizing and seeking out negative bias and like trust me i know how it sounds but if you wake up in the morning and say “it’s so shitty out i don’t wanna get up or do anything” your brain will Believe that and make it so. for months i had to force myself to follow up self-defeating thoughts with reasons why it’s still going to be a good day and what’s going good for me so i could teach my brain to work in the opposite direction and it works. takes a while and feels fake the whole time but you wake up one day and realize you actually really love yourself and there’s so much going for you and you can do everything you always wanted #mental health
abla-sosoReblogged bloglikeanegyptianevillesbianvillainFollowI dont give a shit about the "poor american soldier who could be deployed in the middle east", if they set foot in any country in Asia or Africa they should be turned into paste. #this includes European soldiers too#they all deserve to die slow and painful deaths
abla-sosoRebloggedeverythingfoxFollowSo chattySource: instagram.com#i adore chatty cats 😭❤️❤️❤️#animals
abla-sosoRebloggedr4diumgirlzFollownever falling for good parent vergil propaganda. he would not have raised nero well. no disrespect to those who have faith in him but you can not make me buy into dadgil. he wouldnt do that.nerogoreomg literally. been meaning to post about this but i can’t put together the words properly, so this kinda just gives me an excuse to rant a little LOL. using real world examples here, but men with significantly less trauma, who are more emotionally open than vergil are often still terrible, emotionally absent fathers. vergil as he was (especially in dmc3) would be a nightmare as a parent. regardless of his love for nero, he’d struggle to meet any of his needs and would ultimately still put his goals over his child.the existence of a child doesn’t change someone from the inside out, in one night. i love vergil as a character to death, but nero growing up in fortuna was definitely for the best. and by dmc5, vergil has grown significantly as a person but even then… there is no child to raise. nero is a grown ass man. vergil wouldn’t know the first thing about tending to the needs of someone vulnerable. i think it all comes down to the fact that vergil is too traumatised and should focus on himself first, before another person. not to say he wouldn’t be capable of romantic relationships but that’s a WHOLE other conversation.r4diumgirlz^^^exactlyyyyyy. exactly exactly exactly. all very good input. thank u.abla-sosoHonestly, this is why AU writers need to work extra hard to make Vergil beilivable as an OKish father to baby Nero. It absolutely can be done (nothing is impossible when it comes to AUs because you're not bound by canon characterization), but it should achieve two things to be beilivable, 1) create the right circumstances and motivations that would allow Vergil to heal well enough to be an OKish parent, 2) acknowledge that this transformation will take a lot of time and effort, major fuck ups are inevitable, and Vergil will always have some flawed parenting skills.#vergil#devil may cry#au writing45 notes
abla-sosoReblogged stashoflostsoulsllmsosFollowMy magnum opus Keep reading#❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️#this genuinely makes so damn emotional 😭😭😭#father and son#nero#vergil#devil may cry#awesome fanart… See all216 notes
abla-sosoReblogged happyk44rexcakeFollowShout out to "i wanna socialize with my Internet friends but I don't have anything to talk about", gotta be one of my least favorite predicaments#yeah..35,967 notes
abla-soso#i'm so glad i lived to see this moment#death to israel1 note
abla-sosoRebloggedabla-sosoFollowWhat a banger.I laughed at loud when the singer mocked the Arab rulers xD1,149 notes
abla-sosoRebloggedouroborosmoonsFollowrhubarbspring#death to israel
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abla-sosoRebloggedabla-sosoFollowIran is finally bombing Tel Aviv 🥳🥳abla-sosoDon't expect us to have any fucking sympathy #death to israel#death to zionists
abla-sosoReblogged longlivepalestineouroborosmoonsFollowIsrael built a IOF headquarters under one of their hospitals in Tel Aviv and will be using it at this time for cabinet meetings? Israeli media: Channel 13 says, it’s an underground military base with military facilities and tunnels to the IOF headquarters within a 450 meters radius of the hospital. They are changing their meetings to this base underneath Ichilov Hospital due to Iranian hit of the “Defence” Ministry last night. Sing it with me now folks:#every accusation is a confession#death to israel#palestine
abla-soso#i didn't notice this before 😭❤️❤️#vergil#devil may cry
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abla-sosoReblogged horrificgothphlebotomiesFollowchoices made in anger is such a crazy image. if you know what i'm talking about phlebotomiesi'm gonna thrup #yikes!
abla-sosoIran is finally bombing Tel Aviv 🥳🥳
abla-sosoRebloggedel-shab-husseinFollowThe thing I do most consistently on this blog is remind everyone of everything's part in the Western imperial project. Because I don't want anybody who follows me to miss the forest for the trees. Everything that happens to our beloved region is part of a project designed to destroy it and submit it to the will of the Western empire that has saught its destruction since fucking Antiquity.
abla-sosoRebloggeddemifiendrsaFollowA remake of the original Silent Hill is currently in development at by Silent Hill 2 remake developer Bloober Team.Further information about the game was not announced.#ahhhhhhh#😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️#Silent Hill 1 remake#video games
abla-sosoRebloggedstashoflostsoulsFollowMy DMC creative stuff!Here's a list of all I've written for the dmc fandom, partially on here, partially on ao3. I'll update this as I go.Fics:Brother mine, we will be fine on ao3 All it takes is one very fraught roadtrip through hell to learn how to be brothers again.Snatches of the past on ao3Vergil's growing years are haunted by a figure in red. Grief and magic are a bad mix.Scratched parts on ao3Outtakes from 'Snatches'.A familiar face on ao3V is struck with recognition when first meeting Dante.Follow-up to 'Snatches'.On a second glance... on ao3V and Dante's first meeting takes a sudden turn when Dante senses something peculiar.Take a trip or two on ao3Dante has a bad start into his day and Vergil suddenly decides to drag his brother along for a trip.Affection on ao3 (older version here on tumblr) Touching Vergil is a bad idea until suddenly it isn't.Wrong fate on tumblrVergil is human, Dante is his devil. It's not right.Sleep, sleep; in thy sleep on ao3Demons and dreams and the twins stuck in-between while old wounds weep.Drunken smiles on ao3 (older version on tumblr) An evening with alcohol, better than ever before.Punched out clarity on ao3A look at what might've been going through Dante's head at the end of the Qliphoth fight.Bedside worries on ao3Eva thinks late at night about her family.Murky thoughts on ao3Vergil is... a prisoner. But... Things are changing. He won't go through this again. Undercover troubles on tumblrDante has to go by Tony again, but he's luckily not alone.Care for a drink? on ao3Dante stumbles across something unexpected in Fortuna and now he has to figure out how to deal with it.Discussions, headcanons and asks:Top ten characters introduced in the animeVideo game concept for one of the ladiesMy attempt at a timeline of dmcPost-dmc5 twins and their future developmentPutting the dmc characters in the most distressing situationsAlready established character dynamics and my interpretation of themSome thoughts on a game remakeOne simple cut... Or not?Crossover funVergil haunts dmc4Vergil and the 'abandonment' of that nightTechnology in dmcWhy Vergil fallsFears of some of the charactersWhy V hides himselfSnowShippingWhat's Beryl up to now? Vergil's gratitude and fear towards DanteReasons to go through a divorceA demon's death throeRamble about dmc1Vergil and humanityHorrifying dmc scenarioVergil's hairstyleV's familiars and Vergil's memoriesSome thoughts on fighting and harmingWhich of the twins was on Morris IslandThe Sparda family hairCollab:An introspection of devil triggersIf there are any questions, feel free to ask them. Hope you enjoy!#OP is one the BEST writers in this whole fandom#they absolutely nailed Dante and Vergil's dynamic and characterizations!!#if you guys love DMC then i'm begging y'all to at least read the first fic on this list#the ending of the latest chapter (chapter 5) is PHENOMENAL#the SPECTACULAR emotional catharsis made my heart soar and sing#fic recommendation#devil may cry
abla-sosoNew Resident Evil game?GIF by muvanaWith a new FEMALE protagonist?GIF by ousofiaWho's adorable and nerdy and not sexually objectified?GIF by middletonhellqvist-blog#i'm actually excited wow#grace ashcroft#resident evil 9#video games
