Chapter 1: Days Of The Future Past
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The classic and enormously popular Pac-Man video game came out in Japan on May 21, 1972, and by October of that year, it was released in the United States of America spreading through the arcade scene like a deadly virus.
The adorably yellow, pie-shaped Pac-Man character, who travels around a maze trying to eat dots and avoid four hunting ghosts, quickly became Pietro Maximoff's hyper-fixation for fucking months. Months of staring at the flashing screen of the yellow Pac-Man machine that he legally did not steal from the Arcade shop downtown owned by a peeping Tom with a swastika tattoo.
There are 256 stages in PAC-MAN and Pietro refuses to leave the house until he clears all of them. At least that’s what he tells his mother who thinks he won’t leave the house because he’s depressed, which is untrue. He’s completely fine.
So he can’t compete in track anymore. No freaks allowed. Whatever, no big deal. It’s completely unrelated to the eyebags under his eyes. They took all his trophies and medals and scrubbed his name off all the records. No stress. No problem. Now he has more room in his basement-turned-bedroom for all the junk food in the world. Plenty of space for the ping pong machine, the ho hos, and the awesome pac machine where his trophies used to be mounted on the wall.
It’s completely fine. He’s completely fine. Totally.
He shoves a chocolate fudge muffin in his mouth and is seconds away from beating level 255 when he hears a car pull up in his driveway.
Which is super weird.
His mother is home upstairs disassociating from the TV, Wanda is at school till 3:30 pm and the Maximoff’s do not own a single working vehicle. The baby blue Corvette that belongs to David, Pietro's goy stepfather, has been gathering dust in the driveway since before Wanda was even born and is there more for show than for actual functional use. David is still in jail for another 8 months so Pietro doubts he would’ve miraculously made it start working just in time for Pietro's mental breakdown. Not that he was having one. Not at all.
Pietro was out of his room for the first time in three months. In less than a millisecond, he skirted next to the parked car. Three grown men came out of it. The buff one in the driver's seat had a leather jacket that Pietro was gonna snatch as soon as he could. The one stepping out of the passenger seat wore a comfy orange shirt and squared-off glasses and the guy cruising in the back was someone they could’ve picked up for drunken disorderly conduct if they had been cops. If they had been cops. Which they aren’t. This is a rental car, Pietro spots the company's name on the bumper sticker. Curiously he checks the registration agreement and it’s not from Washington DC.
He super speeds back into the house after memorizing the license plate number.
He pauses the Pac-Man game he was on so he doesn’t lose his place and sits on the couch.
He sits and he hears the knock on the door ages later. He waits. He kind of got bored of waiting so he started playing ping pong. Why are they so slow?
“Peter the cops are here. Again!” His mom shouts and usually, she only calls him Peter when people she doesn’t know are around.
Not friends of hers then. Not that she has any besides the moms from the synagogue and they never make surprise visits.
He sees them come down the stairs and he briefly considers not using super speed but his legs are already getting shaky from standing still and he’s getting increasingly bored by the millisecond.
“What do you guys want?” He switches Pattles “I didn’t do anything.” His wrist is starting to hurt actually.
“I’ve been here all day.” He zooms past them, takes out a popsicle from the upstairs fridge, and runs back downstairs to sit on the couch.
The leather man had pointy hair, like horns, which Pietro thought was kind of hilarious considering how serious-looking he seemed.
“Just relax Peter. We’re not cops,” he says and Pietro looks at him funny, hands clasped behind his head, popsicle vanished “Of course you’re not cops. If you were cops, you wouldn’t be driving a rental car.”
His mother says he tends to word vomit when he’s nervous.
The long-haired hipster glares at him suspiciously behind his chunky sunglasses “How’d you know we’ve got a rental car?” Pietro sits up straighter swallowing something in his throat.
The man is drunk. He’s a different kind of drunk than his mother.
“I checked your registration when you were walking to the door. I also had some time to kill so I went through your rental agreement and saw you’re from out of town.” Pietro doesn’t dare look at anyone but him. This guy reminds him too much of his step-father and he’s smart enough to know danger when he sees it.
“Are you FBI?” Just to make sure Pietro checks David’s wallet. No-not David. Some other random drunk. Not David. “Nope, you’re not cops.” He flips through his card. He has a lot. “Hey, what's with this gifted youngster place?” He drops the Wallet on the ping pong table. A bit further down so the man doesn’t have to come close to him to get it back.
He picks it up from the table with barely contained frustration “That’s an…old card.” he shoves it in his pocket.
Pietro runs around him and up the stairs to get his extra ping pong ball from the kitchen cabinet.
“Why, he’s fascinating.” The tall nerdy-looking one says and that particular phrase makes Pietro's stomach turn. He is starting to not want these people here. He wants them gone.
“He’s a pain in the ass.” The drunk days meanly. Rude. He’s the one breaking and entering into his house under false pretenses.
“What, a teleporter?” That’s not the first time he’s been asked that. But actually, he’s not asking him. In fact, this nerd is talking like he’s not even in the damn room. Which he is, so that’s super rude.
“No, he’s just fast.” The leather jacket clarifies which spooks Pietro a bit. How does he know that? Did he read about him in the newspaper? Pietro was certain they’d scrubbed his name off of everything. Any evidence that Pietro Maximoff was ever part of athletic society was erased utterly from all records. “and when I knew him he wasn’t so…young.”
“Young? you’re just old.” He likes watching their heads jerk back and forth left and right every time he moves from one place to the other. It’s funny.
“So you're not afraid to show your powers?” It’s honestly weird that he automatically assumed I had powers and wasn’t jumping to “possessed by the devil” as his elderly neighbors would say or that it wasn’t some trick of light or trippy mass hallucination. All things that people have assumed before landing on superpowers.
“Powers? What powers? What are you talking about? Do you see something strange here?” Pietro loves the gaslighting part. It’s his favorite little bit of dialogue.
“Nothing anybody would believe if you told them.” His face stretches into a grin.
He’s made people check themselves into mental hospitals. People have lost their literal livelihoods trying to prove he’s a freak. Which really shouldn’t be that hard. He’s a teenager with gray hair and an unhealthy habit of stealing.
He zooms past them and starts playing the Pac-Man again, resuming his game eagerly.
“So who are you and what do you want?” He gets to the point, eating a banana in the game and advancing further into the maze.
“We need your help, Peter.”
“For what?”
“To break into a highly secured facility.” Oh shit? “And get someone out.” Not fucking cops then. Not that that was ever in doubt but elohim these guys are nuts. Walking into his mom's house and asking some random kid to commit crimes.
“Prison break?” He grins to himself. “That’s illegal, you know.” He continues playing on his legally purchased Pac-Man machine.
“Uh…well only if you get caught.”
“So what’s in it for me?” Pietro has already decided he is gonna do this.
“You, you kleptomaniac, get to break into the pentagon.” Not David says.
Holy fucking shit. He stops playing his game, his pac man dies, and he still has two lives left. Pietro turns to look at them suspiciously “How do I know I can trust you?”
“Cause we’re just like you.” Scruffy leathered man says and Pietro can’t help it when he looks over at not-David and his drunkenness. And the skinny scientist is already examining him like a run-over dog on the side of the road.
I’m not like these guys.
“Show him.” The drunk tells the big buff guy as if he could read the uncertainty in Pietro's mind. He “shows him” by making bone claws come out of his knuckles like chopsticks.
Pietro isn’t trying to be insensitive but “That’s cool but it’s disgusting.” The man shrugs like he’s heard it a million times.
He’d never met someone like him before. Well, he’s never met an adult mutant. He had a classmate in grade school whose ears were a little too pointed, nails a little too long, and eyes a little too big. He didn’t know for sure if she was like him but he had his suspicions. At the time he didn’t say anything. His hair was still brown and becoming streaks of silver that he covered up with a beanie or hair dye. His speed wasn’t in full effect, covered up as a learning deficiency. They put him in special classes. They put her in special classes too. One day she stopped showing up to those classes. None of the teachers reported it. They stopped calling her name in attendance.
Pietro didn’t last much longer in school either.
When his powers first came he had a severe panic attack that shook the entire house. Not that he could remember exactly why. That whole day was a blur. He was a freak. Like that girl in class. He was going to disappear. His mother in drunken comfort soothing him and reassurance in her voice. She told him about a man she knew. A foreigner with kind eyes and a knack for bending metal. She told Pietro he wasn’t the only one that was special in this world. She told him he wasn’t alone. Pietro believed her.
Pietro agrees to help them. He makes sure to steal the shotgun seat when it’s time to go sit in the car, refusing to sit next to Charles or Hank.
Logan introduced them afterward.
“I’m Pietro.” His mom's voice is in the back of his head telling him to use his Americanized name. To keep pretending. To hide. To be safe. But he trusts these guys. Well, at least, he trusts Logan. He’s like him. The other two may not. He’s not 100 percent sure. “Pietro Django Maximoff.”
“That’s a mouthful.” Charles snides and Pietro really doesn’t like that guy.
Logan gives Charles an odd expression “Professor I think it’s time you sobered up a bit.”
“Fuck you.”
“Charles!” Hank scolds.
“You can just call me Peter.” It’s safer that way.
Pietro is glad he picked the front seat.
They tell him the plan. It’s a stupid plan. But he can execute stupid plans. He’s not sure why the others have to come at all. He could be in and out before any cameras could detect him but Pietro doesn’t tell them that.
Pietro used his duct tape to stick the security guard to the elevator wall. He was meant to knock him out but this way seemed far more entertaining. He puts on the security guard's clothes. It was big, too big on him and the hat barely covered up his gray hair. He puts a scribbled note he wrote on the car ride here and slides it into the tray.
He walks slowly down the hall. Slow. Slow. Slow. Like a damn turtle. It was actually the hardest part of this whole thing.
“Where’s Tim?” One of the guards questions before buzzing him in.
“At home with the sick kid.” He thinks of the excuse late but he thinks it at super speed so it’s not even a moment's delay in response.
“Ah, lucky him. And they put you in the dog house. That’s tough.”
“Someone’s gotta do it.” Pietro jokes trying to make his voice deeper than it is.
“Better than us.” They buzz him in. And the wall turns into a door, a hall sliding into another door. Cool. He turns the corner and he’s in a room. The center of the floor is glass. Probably hard bulletproof glass. It wouldn’t be a problem,
He steps inside, closer to the edge of the glass to see a man pretending to sleep in a corner of the small room, hands neatly clasped on his stomach.
He waits for him to see the note. When he looks up at him questioningly he smiles like it’s picture day in fifth grade. No teeth, all dimples. His mother framed that picture and it’s currently sitting next to his sister's current fifth-grade picture.
Okay, show time.
He puts his palms on the glass and at super speed he shakes them. Vibrates the glass to an unknown speed that makes it shatter. The man ducks away from the crystals of glass raining on him.
The alarm goes off.
Okay. Cool cool cool it’s all working out.
The man manages to get out of the room by himself, Pietro makes sure to give him distance to gain his senses. That seems like the right call.
“In three seconds those doors are going to open, and 20 guards will be here to shoot us.” He looks at Pietro in a warning.
He’s one thousand percent has tried escaping before. This is gonna be great.
Pietros is going to make sure this time it’s a success. He zooms right behind him and grabs his neck making him stiffen. That’s okay.
“I know. That’s what I’m waiting for.”
“What are you doing?” He asks stiffly. Does he think he’s gonna murk him?
“I’m holding your neck so you don’t get whiplash.”
“What?” He asks quietly, almost to himself.
“WHIIIIP LAAAAAASH.” He repeats slowly because sometimes he talks too fast and it comes out in a high-pitched noise that no human can hear. The door opens.
“Don’t move!” Said the first guard, gun aimed at the prisoner's head.
He did move. He moved quite quickly. Fast enough to shove everyone out of the way through pure force of his speed.
They are back in the elevator. He changes out of the uncomfortable uniform.
The prisoner looks like he’s gonna hurl and looks at him in confusion.
“You’re good it’ll pass. It happens with everyone.” He was gonna pat his shoulder comfortably but considering he’s a prisoner in the fucking pentagon, Pietro decides against it. The others didn’t tell him much about him, just that he could bend metal. Which explains the lack of it in the building.
“You must have done something pretty serious.”
Ratzah.
It’s got to be murder.
Or terrorism.
Murderous terrorism!
“What’d you do man?” After a while, he asks again “What’d you do?” Or maybe it wasn't for a while. It just felt like he was taking forever to answer. “What’d you do?” This guy is seriously going to throw up.
“Why’d they have you in there?” He asks again because Pietro has no filter, no concept of subtleness, “For killing the President,”
Oh. Wow. Double points for Pietro. Murderer AND a terrorist. A murderous terrorist. Double shit.
He looked at the guard and verbalized his surprise to him “shit.”
“The only thing I’m guilty of is fighting for people like us.”
Like us.
In retrospect, Pietro is aware he’s a mutant but it’s starting to add up in his brain that all the mutants he’s met so far have been shady ass dudes. He’s starting to not feel so bad about being a loser living in his mom's basement. At least he isn’t a terrorist.
Well, Pietro guesses that breaking terrorists out of a secured facility is justified as terrorist behavior but that doesn’t count. Not really. He hasn’t killed anyone.
“You take karate? You know karate, man?” His stepdad made him take karate once when he was seven and Pietro was starting to get a bit too much to handle but it didn’t “humble and teach him responsibility” like David thought it would. Honestly, Pietro is positive he only signed him up as an excuse to punch him in the face.
Practice for karate.
“I don’t know karate. But I know crazy.” The man says and he’s talking about Pietro which makes him laugh.
Being called Crazy is better than being called a Freak. Much better.
Peter Maximoff is crazy fast, world record-breaker-type speed.
Vs.
Maximoff is disqualified after being reported to have used steroids to gain his freak-like speed.
The alarm is getting louder.
“They told me you control metal.”
“They?”
The elevator dings interrupting a thought Pietro was itching with. Is this the same guy his mom knew?
He should ask him.
“You know, my mom once knew a guy who could do that.” It would be actually super weird if it was the same guy. What are the odds?
The doors opened before he could continue his questions.
“Charles?” So they did know each other! Charles hits the prisoner square in the face and Pietro flinches away, heart hammering a mile a minute, literally.
“Good to see you, too old friend.” The prisoner stands up from the ground he had just been dropped to “And walking.”
Was he not meant to be walking? Was that a threat?
“No thanks to you,” Charles spits at him and Pietro stays silent. Watching the entire altercation unfold like a child hiding under his bed.
“You’re the last person in the world I expected to see today.” The prisoner says from the floor an odd expression crossing his face.
“Believe me, I wouldn't be here if I didn’t have to.” Charles says eyes daggers and Pietro bites back the remark that he most definitely did NOT have to come since Pietro could’ve just done this by himself.
He doesn’t say that. He knows better than to disturb arguing adults.
“If we get you out of here, we do it my way. No killing.” Valid super valid. No killing, no hurting. Especially not Pietro. Sounds like a plan.
“No helmet. I couldn’t disobey you even if I wanted you.”
What? Is this Charles guy like some master manipulator? That would make sense. He looks at the guard for confirmation and the guard looks at Pietro like he’s an idiot.
“I’m never getting inside of that head again. I need your word, Erik.” So tense. Why’d he want to get this guy out of prison so bad if he hates his guts?
They get really close to each other. Challengingly, lovingly? Pietro can’t exactly tell but he’d like to get out of this very small elevator.
The real security comes in just in time.
Erik tells something to Charles and Charles yells something back, stuff around them is shaking and Logan is clawing out. Before shit can hit the fan Pietro puts on his headphones.
He does his speedster thing and knocks a few heads together, moves a couple of plates, and a few odd bullets. Take a little nosh.
Does a cartwheel for finales and he’s on the opposite side of the room with a security guard's hat on his greasy head. He is so keeping it. Time goes back to slow and everything unfolds perfectly.
The others look at him from across the room openly stunned and Pietro soaks in it in awe.
Hell yeah, he’s the shit.
But these mother fuckers, they walk past him like he didn’t just save their asses. Logan claps his shoulder “Thanks, kid.” He says.
Logan is the only one to say thank you which he appreciates.
They get in the car and unfortunately, out of pure necessity, he cannot get shotgun. He is squished between Logan and the prisoner Erik whose name he finally catches, Hank clutching the steering wheel tightly and Charles seething in the passenger seat.
“Can we stop to eat?” He was starving but also he couldn’t take the small quiet space of the car for much longer.
“We’re still in the parking lot.” Hank lies. Must be a bold lie because we’ve been driving for ages. “When can we stop for food.”
“We stopped before we got here, Peter.” Hank says pointedly.
“I have a fast metabolism,” Pietro stated simply.
Hank looks at Pietro through the rearview mirror. “How many calories do you have to consume daily?” Hank was using his nerd voice and Pietro leaned away from him pressing the seat belt closer to himself.
“I don’t know. Like 55 hostess boxes?” Per meal.
“Hostess.” Hank nods like that was a scientific term and not a sugary nosh.
“If you didn’t run at all would you still have to consume that many calories?”
“I’m always running.” Pietro tries not to fidget.
“If you didn’t eat for an extended amount of time would you be slower? Or would you simply just be unable to do it for a long period of time?”
“I don't know.” Pietro squirms at the question.
“What’s the longest you’ve gone without eating?”
“I don’t know.” Three days. When David first moved in he put padlocks on the pantry door and fridge to prevent Pietro from eating too much of the food. When that didn’t work he put padlocks in Pietro's room instead and kept him away from the food instead of the food away from him. Unfortunately David, much like his mother, is a drunk and had gone on a three-day bender at a buddy's house leaving him locked away to his own devices slowly making Pietro go insane and inadvertently starving him.
His mom found him after she came home from the synagogue. She yelled and screamed at David and that was the first time he lifted a hand to his mother.
“Have you gotten any vaccinations?”
“What?” Huh?
Charles starts to say something “Hank perhaps-“
“-Would your body just completely reject it? Have you ever gotten Ill?”
Pietro's head is swimming. “Maybe? I don’t remember-“ his mother hated doctors.
“-Can you get Ill?” Charles is taking off his sunglasses and looking very seriously at Hank but the guy must be boneheaded or completely not self-aware.
“I think so? I feel Ill right now.” He needs Hank to stop asking him so many questions.
“-How fast can-“ The windshield wiper smacks against the window with a thud
making Hank Charles and I jump.
“I haven’t had a proper meal in ten years. Perhaps we should all stop somewhere for a bite.”
“You are the most wanted person in America right now. We can’t just stop and eat at a restaurant.” Hank turns his gaze away from Pietro and to Erik instead.
“It doesn’t have to be a restaurant.” Erik smiles cockily and it looks almost familiar. Like he’s seen him smile before.
Pietro cannot make this shit up. Hank stops at a Wendy’s about three miles out.
He parks in a handicapped parking spot which seems pretty shitty to Pietro but he isn’t gonna bite his head off about it before he feeds him. They all go inside like a weird blended family, no one trusting the other to not run off or to be left alone in the car. Pietro was mostly worried they’d get his order wrong and leave the pickles in his burgers. That would be a big texture no-no and he’d throw a damn fit. So he goes inside with them. Hank holds the door for them and Pietro zooms past Logan and goes inside into the air-conditioned establishment.
Charles picks a table to sit in. This is surprising within itself considering Pietro thought they'd just grab the food and go. The fact that they didn’t go through the drive-through is bizarre but he was too hungry to give a flying fuck
Logan orders twenty burgers and fries.
They each get two burgers and two fries and Pietro hogs down Twelve Burgers and twelve fries. He hums and sips on his soda, content and waiting for the others to finish their second burger.
They eat in blissful silence.
“Can I get a Sunday?”
“I’d like one too.” Erik says at the same time that Charles says “At least finish your fries before getting dessert.”
Erik and Charles look at each other sharply.
Logan snorts, and Pietro shovels the rest of his fries into his mouth and super speeds into the kitchen. In about two seconds he's poured two Sundays into large-sized Wendy's cups. He places one in Erik's hand and sits back in his chair like he hasn’t moved.
Everything catches up to everybody else and Charles barrows his eyes at the cup in Erik's hand “I had money to pay for that.”
“We just did a prison break. You have hang-ups over stealing?”
Erik hides a smile and Logan verbally snorts.
“Say it louder why don't you? I don't think the cashier heard you.” Hank whisper yells.
“The prison break was a necessity, stealing is not.” Charles rubs his forehead, stifling back a migraine.
“Whatever.” Pietro shrugs and Charles takes out a wad of cash out if his wallet and puts it in the tip jar heading straight out the door and to the rental car.
“Guess that’s our queue.” Logan pats his shoulder and they all start heading out.
Pietro frowns and looks at the mess they all left behind and cleans it in less than a millisecond and takes out the overflowing trash while he’s at it.
“Felt guilty?” Logan asked, waiting outside with a freshly lit cigarette in his mouth and something close to amusement on his face.
“No.” Pietro's leg bounces, the ten sodas hitting him at once.
The drive wasn’t long. Although it felt like hours to Pietro. He distracted himself by counting how many trees they passed to the airport. One thousand three hundred seventy-one.
They give him the keys to the rental car. “Take it slow.” Charles says.
He laughs. It’s funny in a dumb way,
He goes home. He puts the gifted youngster's card in his wallet because…maybe. You never know. He wears the security guard hat on his greasy head for days before Wanda finesses her way into bedazzling it and claiming it as her own. He’s only allowed to wear it when they play dress up.
Everything goes back to normal. He wins the last level of Pac-Man. His hyper-fixation on the game vanished. He eats the last hostess box in his room. Everything is completely fine.
Six days pass before Pietro realizes just how much he’s fucked up.
It takes six days. Six days after Erik gets broken out of the Pentagon and tries to kill another president. Two days after Erik brandishes mutants as a national threat…a knock is heard at Pietro's door.
“Peter, the cops are here! Again!”
It’s not the cops.
Pietro Maximoff isn’t a fan of uninvited visitors.
Two days after Erik Lensherr attempted to kill the literal president and told humanity to fuck right off, Pietro got a few unfriendly visitors.
He knew bad news when he saw it and these men in black were the spitting image of shitty origins. Pietro made it a point to walk up the stairs. Slowly.
“Hello, Pietro.” Pietro isn’t for everybody. It's what his sister calls him, and his mother. It’s for family. It's not for assholes breaking into his house under pretenses. It's also not a name documented anywhere except his birth certificate so how they knew it at all was beyond his comprehension but it managed to send a foreboding chill up his spine.
Pietro turned his head to see his mother on the floor, in the kitchen blood bruising on her forehead.
He tenses “What the fuck did you do to my mom?”
“Don’t make this harder than it has to be Pietro.” His given name rolled off the officer's tongue like cement down his throat and Pietro wanted nothing more than to never hear it come out of his vile mouth again.
“We had reason to believe a mutant lived in this neighborhood and your neighbors were more than happy to point you out.” Pietro thinks of Margaret with the Chihuahua whose dog always barked at Pietro when he waited at the bus stop for his sister. He thinks of Hank and Dale, the old drinking buddies who find an excuse to leave cigarette buds and beer bottles in his mother's yard. He thinks of Hannah and Larry from the home association who reported his mother to CPS on three separate occasions. He thinks of the endless names of neighbors that hate him and his family. They would fucking jump at the chance to finally get rid of him. The black sheep of this shitty wannabe suburban neighborhood.
“You came here over a rumor?”
A blonde-haired blue blue-eyed man smiled crookedly his gold tooth creeping into view “Is that your natural hair color Pietro?”
“This is breaking and entering. You're not cops or FBI or anything you're just a bunch of fascist shitheads. Get out or im calling the fucking cops.”
“The cops won't come.” one of the men came from the back porch, brown-haired and older. He flashes his badge. A fucking police captain.
“Whatever you people think I did, I didn’t.” No proof. Pietro leans on that fact too heavily.
They see no reason. They don't need one.
His mother always warned him that there would be people that would hate him. That will hate him so much to want him dead. She always said they’d hate him because he’s Jewish and that he should always be careful who he tells. He knew they would hate him because he’s a mutant too. He knew, but not like this. He never thought it would get to this. At least not this fast. Not this soon.
When Pietro takes a step forward his foot knocks on a metal canister. Gas leaking from each end and Pietro realizes that he’s been inhaling it this whole time. It shouldn’t affect him for too long. His immune system is currently fighting it off as he came to this realization. But not fast enough. He tried to take another step but felt lightheaded and just when he was starting to gain priorities again a pair of savvy-looking cuffs zapped against Pietro's wrist, electricity flashing through him harshly and the hard iron clasping shut.
What the fuck.
Pietro super speeds away. Or at least that was the intended plan. Recently all of Pietro's plans have been shitty.
His first shitty plan was to use his super speed a little bit more during his ultramarathon because the competition was getting a little bit too close to him. His second mistake was not checking for reporters' cameras pointed at him. It was only for the last four seconds and it was barely any super speed. But it was enough. Enough to raise suspicion. And the thing is that Pietro’s fast even without his super speed. He was fast before he got his powers and he could’ve won without them. He could’ve fucking won. But the pressure was on and he had a way to be faster and he took that chance and fuck off it’s his power! It’s his gift and he shouldn’t have to slow down for anybody. So he didn’t.
So yeah, he cheated. But not really because it’s still him. It’s still his gift. It’s still his speed. And he hates this. He hates being slow. He hates it so much.
The world is dull. The wind doesn’t sing and the flies don’t dance with his breath. The speed doesn’t come. He can’t go fast. His breath catches in his throat as panic begins to settle.
He can’t run away.
HE CAN’T FUCKING RUN.
Pietro is kicked on the ground and he screams, he kicks and he bites. Teeth digging into flesh. Pietro is fighting them every inch of the way.
He doesn’t know where his mom is. He screams for her. Sobs for her. Cries like a little kid. They kick him in the face, his head smacks against the basement stairs. He’s certainly bleeding and bruising.
Everything happens at a normal pace. They start dragging him up the stairs. They pull out a needle after Pietro bites one of their ears, spitting blood in outrage.
His mother taught him to fight. To always fight.
They grab his jaw harshly, jerking his head to the side to extend his neck and they reveal a needle bigger than his fucking hand. “You little piece of shit. You deserve everything you’re getti-“
“What are you doing to Peter?” A small voice spoke from the doorway.
It’s 3:30 in the afternoon.
Schools over. The bus just dropped off Wanda. She’s still wearing the Mickey Mouse book bag that Pietro stole for her.
“Who the fuck-“
“Wanda, leave right now!” Pietro scolds his sister, hoping that the meanness in his voice will compel her to do as he says for once. He should’ve known better.
“Who are you people? Why are you hurting Peter?”
“We’re just playing a game, don’t worry.” Pietro knows he’s in danger. His sister is in danger. If she freaks out they’ll hurt her. They’ll hurt Wanda. Holy shit what the fuck is he supposed to do?
“Why are they hurting you?” Wanda’s voice shakes but she stays firmly in her spot, refusing to move. Refusing to go away and leave her brother to rot. She’s a good sister. God damn it.
God fucking damn it. Pietro raised her to be too stubborn.
One of the men aims a gun at her head and Wanda’s eyes widen and Pietro thrashes.
“I don’t like this game.” Wanda tears up and Pietro screams.
“Stop that! She’s got nothing to do with this!” Electricity zaps through his wrist making him gasp and cough a fit.
He sees spots in his vision.
“Mutation is genetic. Right?” They take off the safety in the gun and Pietro can’t breathe. His heart is running but his feet are still, paralyzed by immovable fear.
“She’s not a mutant. She doesn’t have powers.” Pietro knows that could be a lie.
“Can’t really take that chance, can we?”
Wanda could be a mutant. They have different dads but they have the same mom. Pietro isn’t 100 percent certain which parent gave him the mutation gene but if it’s his mom then there is a chance Wanda might turn out like him. And if he got it from his dad then that means Wanda is going to be killed for absolutely no reason.
Not that being a mutant is a killable offense. It’s not. But Pietro would prefer if his sister didn’t die for a lie. Or at all. Preferably.
“She’s not my sister.” It was a lie. Wanda and Pietro look nothing alike so the bluff could be believable.
“She’s not a mutant. She’s just my neighbor's kid. I tutor her sometimes after school.” Pietro pushed the words out and it felt horrible to verbally disregard his family.
It felt wrong. But it’s what he had to do. His mother would understand.
“Even so. Can’t have any witnesses.”
“Should've just done homework at home.” Another says mercilessly and aims a gun straight at Wanda. Pietro has no proficiency towards guns so he has no idea what brand or style or whatever type the gun is. All he knows is that it’s aimed at his kid sister and it can kill her.
Pietro jerks and screams and Wanda is starting to cry. She's starting to realize the problem. Pietro needs to figure something out right now or their both fucked.
“Please, please, don't do this!” Pietro sobs. The tears running down his face made his face buzz and hot and he couldn't breathe. He can't run and he can't save her. At the end of the day Pietro is just a kid and he has no idea what to do.
They pull the trigger.
He watches in slow motion as the bullet leaves the chamber. The plastic bullet slices through the air and aims between his sisters' eyebrows. A headshot. It's a fucking headshot. Just before it reaches his sister's skin it stops and Pietro thinks he's delayed it. He thinks that he's frozen in time. He doesn’t know how fast his powers can go…but he didn’t think he was capable of stopping time. Not like this. He then realizes the bullet is the only thing that's stopped. The tweeting of the ravens outside sang, the harsh breathing of his sisters chest kept moving, and the static tv kept playing the same news report about Erik fucking lensherr. The world is still moving just not the bullet.
A red glowing strand wrapped around the bullet holding it in place like a yanking string. His sister's eyes change to a different shade and her hair turns to static as a blood-curdling scream rips from her throat and the bullet ricochets back to the sender and pierces the heart of the man with the gun. The windows shatter, the tv fries, the light bulbs blow up and a million pieces of glass juts out into the throats of every single invader. They all miss Pietro. They all miss his mom too. The cuffs around Pietro's wrist buzz painfully before collapsing within itself and dropping to the floor.
The blood stains the wooden floor and
They are surrounded by dead bodies.
“Holy shit.'' Both siblings speak at the same time and Pietro refuses to look away from his sister.
His sister.
“Oh, Elohim.” she gasps falling to her knees and breathing harshly.
Pietro stands and quickly goes to his sisters side “Wanda…Wanda.” when she pushes him away crying he wraps his arms around her tighter. “It's okay.” He soothes.
“I killed them.” She hiccups, her tears overwhelming her, consuming her entire face. Her round cheeks flushed and fingers tightened around her hair, yanking hard.
“Hey, Stop that.” Pietro speaks softly, gently prying her fingers off her scalp and combing her hair with his fingers just like he’s done every time her head gets too loud.
“You didn’t mean to.” Pietro begins swaying back and forth with her. When she was a baby swaddled in a pink blanket they used to have a faded rocking chair in the corner of her nursery where Pietro would rock his sister to sleep after a good little cry.
He did it for months. When his powers first manifested he didn’t have much control and he accidentally broke the chair. It was a stupid wooden chair with a carved butterfly in the center but when he broke it he cried. He cried for what felt like hours. He realized then that he had used the rocking chair to calm himself down too. He cried and he swayed and his sister cried and she swayed. They swayed together. They calmed together.
“What's wrong with me?” Her voice is raw and small and Pietro wishes he could take that hurt and bottle it up somewhere far away from her.
“Nothing is wrong with you. You're just special. Like me.”
“But I’m not fast.” Her eyes are red now. Will they stay like that forever?
“No, you're something completely different.” He kisses her head.
“I don't want to be fast, or special. I don't want to be like you.” Pietro wasn't offended. He didn’t want to be like him either. He wouldn’t have wanted his sister to be like him at all.
“I know. I'm so sorry.” Pietro squeezes her closer to his chest and he can smell the iron in the air and he can hear sirens in the distance.
“What do we do now?” Wanda sounds four again, hiding under her bed scared of the monster that lived in our house.
Pietro says the same thing he said back then “we go somewhere safe.”
Pietro thinks of the wrinkled-up card in his back pocket and he doesn’t have a plan. Not really.
Just an address.
The sirens get louder, and closer. He grabs his sister and he runs.
Chapter 2: Bite Your Tongue Or Tell A Lie
Summary:
“Is David not your father?” Let’s not open that can of worms.
“No, thank fuck. My father isn’t in the picture. He’s not even aware there is a picture. If he did I doubt he’d like the picture to begin with.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Why are you sorry?”
“I’ve brought up a sensitive topic without realizing and I’ve upset you.”
“You haven't, I'm fine.”
“I suppose I assumed you and Wanda had the same father. Considering you both have mutations. Does your mother carry the mutant gene?”
“Don’t know. But she does have a type.”
“Which is?”
“Powerful men.”
Or
Pietro and Wanda Visit the X Mansion and lie their ass off.
Chapter Text
Funnily enough, Pietro is no good at perceiving distance. He overshot by a few hundred miles and ended up in Maine. He rerouted once he located a map in a rest station and figured out the quickest route…for him at his super speed he means.
Roads and paths mean nothing to Pietro; he can create his own.
“Ready to go again?”
Wanda nods, putting on her own pair of red goggles that he got her the third time she went super speeding with him. The second time they went on a run together she had been six and she had gotten serious dry eye and missed school because it would’ve been difficult to explain sudden momentary blindness to the principal. Guilt-ridden Pietro didn’t take her for a run for weeks after. But his sister is nothing if not stubborn even at six years old and she convinced David to buy her a pair of pink goggles under the guise of swimming lessons at school. If David had been half as attentive as he should’ve been he would have realized the school didn’t have a pool and that Wanda already knew how to swim.
Because of this early exposure to his super speed runs, Wanda is one of the only people who doesn’t get sick when she runs with him, her body is already used to the speed he goes.
“Born ready.” She says and Pietro puts her on his back and they piggyback to the correct location.
The card had an address located in New York. Specifically 1407 Graymalkin Lane, Salem Center, located in Westchester County. Pietro had only been to New York City twice in his whole short life. Once during a sixth-grade field trip, it rained the whole time and they went to the Museum of Modern Art and he was bored out of his mind the whole time. His second trip to the city that never sleeps was when his powers first manifested. Beyond excited and a bit curious he ran up the Statue of Liberty, burning off a barely decent pair of sneakers, and sat on the tip of the crown. There was a lot of bird poop and the air smelled of smoke and pollution. It was incredibly anticlimactic. He got home just before dinner and his shoes were toast. They wouldn’t be the first pairs of shoes ruined by a long run but those felt wasted on the trip.
This would now be his third visit to New York, and it's not much better than the first two. Just long dirt paths and woods as far as the eye can see.
“Why are we at a haunted house?” Wanda pouted, stepping over the overgrown weeds on the acre of the hellish front lawn. Pietro holds on to her hand, briefly convinced that he got the wrong address and that he’s supposed to be at a different druggie billionaire's mansion in New York. Until he spots the broken-down sign hidden behind the orange grass.
Xavier's school for gifted youngsters.
The slogan carved carefully onto the wood is "mutatis mutandis"
“After the necessary modifications.” Pietro translates.
“I don't get it.”
“Rich people stuff.”
Wanda’s eyes widened big “Is your friend rich?”
“We're not really friends but yeah I guess he’s rich.” The private jet hinted at that fact in his head but the old-timey mansion-yeah, that's old money for sure.
Who has their own lake? Is that a basketball court? A fountain?
Wanda frowns “There’s a lot of sadness here.”
Pietro is gonna need his sister to
stop saying ominous stuff like that. “It’s a school. Who isn’t immediately depressed at school? Imma’ right?” He explains easily, recalling the multiple panic attacks and rulers slapped against his knuckles he’s had to endure. School is not for the faint of heart.
Wanda frowns, nodding to herself. “grief. Yeah, that makes sense.”
“What?”
“I wasn’t talking to you,” Wanda says as if she's having a private phone call with a friend and not literally talking to thin air like a mental case.
“Okay. Sure.”
They both walk through the gates just as a tall man with a briefcase is leaving, bumping squarely into Wanda with no regard making her fall to the ground in a huff.
“Watch it!” Pietro snaps at the man who takes one look at them and pales considerably. This is when Pietro realizes they both still have blood covering them. From the dead bodies. Because Wanda killed ten men and it was messy. She could probably kill this guy easily too. She could kill anyone.
That’s a dark thought.
The man adjusts his footing and walks briskly around them looking disgusted.
Pietro glares at his retreating form unreasonably irritated at his reaction.
Who looks at a couple of beaten-up kids and looks grossed out instead of concerned?
Pietro already knew the answer to that question.
Scum bags.
He takes the cigarette box from the stranger's coat pocket and puts it in his own pocket, putting the empty box back into the man's coat for him to find later. He also assumes the car at the end of the lot is his and pops his spare tire. He won’t notice right away. But when he loses a tire in the future he won’t have a spare to change it with and that future misfortune sparks satisfaction in Pietro's heart.
Who the hell does that asshole think he is? He doesn’t deserve a corvette. No-not a corvette. A tan convertible.
Yeah, okay, relax.
“Pietro?” Wanda’s voice brings him back and she’s looking at one of the tall glass windows in the entrance of the mansion.
A kid was looking outside, maybe a year or two older than Wanda. Red hair, pale skin, and a curious expression.
Pietro guesses the school isn’t as abandoned as it appeared. Maybe Charles is just really bad at management upkeep. Probably drinks too much to notice the litter in his yard and the dust on his overfilled mail post.
“That was her dad,” Wanda says owlishly and Pietro looks away from the family of wasps hovering in the corner of the door frame to look at his sister curiously.
Her eyes haven’t changed back and he’s wondering if it’s a forever type of thing like his silver hair. Her red eyes and his silver hair will always be there. Something to set them apart from everyone else. Something they can’t hide…not easily. Something someone can use against them.
No eye contact, hair dye, name changes, or running can hide the amount of pain and suffering they’ll endure for simply existing.
They can’t change their DNA. They can’t change who they are and they’re not only going to be hated, they’re going to be hunted.
His mother's cautious words echo.
Collars and cuffs and numbers on his wrist, he can imagine it so clearly. He can feel himself starve, can imagine the razor on his head, and can feel the burning rage not only caused by the assholes who might put him in cages but the hatred festering in his chest making him like them.
He can imagine snapping. He can see it so clearly in his mind. He sees Erik Lehnsherr on the tv and he doesn’t think it was unreasonable…and that freaks him out a little bit.
It can’t get to that. It can’t get that bad. He won’t let it.
Pietro doesn’t know how to help Wanda but he’s hoping Charles knows someone who can. She’s young, she can learn better than he could.
What does Charles even do for a living? He forgot to ask.
“Her dad?” Pietro tries to focus on what Wanda is saying. He needs to stop losing focus. Losing time in the speed force and making it up in real-time.
“Yeah, he just enrolled her.” She says.
“Cool beans.” Pietro doesn’t really give a fuck but he wasn’t gonna say that.
He knocks on the door quickly. Once, twice, thrice he knocks four times and waits a few minutes before knocking again. Or maybe more like a few seconds. He doesn’t perceive time very well but the bugs are starting to buzz around his head and he wants to go inside.
He knocks again. Twice.
“Jesus Christ!” He hears Hank's voice bounce off behind the door and grins to himself. At least he knows he’s got the right place. The door peaks open and Hank is mid-rant “You made it quite clear! Don’t-“ Hank abruptly stops talking as his eyes land on Pietro.
Pietro smiles awkwardly giving a little wave.
“Peter! My apologies-“Hank's eyes dart behind him probably at the long retreating form of the rude guy who bumped into Wanda “-i thought-“ he clears his throat brushing off the non existenting wrinkles off the front of his sweater. “What brings you here?” Then quickly adds “Not that it’s bad you came here, we just weren’t expecting company.”
“We needed somewhere to lay low.” Pietro says and Hank's eyebrows crease together in confusion “We?”
Wanda moves to the left, away from the back of the door to make herself known. “Hello.” She smiles awkwardly just like him and waves bringing attention to the red blood in her hands.
Hank's eyes widen and he pushes open the door “My god, come in. What happened?” He ushers them both in and Pietro notices the half-filled boxes at the stairway. He darts closer and goes through the first box quickly, his super speed making it seem like no time at all.
The first box has books. The second has books. The third fourth fifth box has books. Textbooks. He keeps one in hand when he super speeds back into the place he had been. He begins rifling through the pages as he speaks “You moving?”
Hank flinches the gust of wind from his super speed flapping him in the face and nearly knocking his square glasses off his nose. “no, just updating some old textbooks. You gotta answer my question.” He adjusts his glasses “What happened? Who’s the girl?”
“The girl can talk.” Wanda huffs “I’m Wanda Django Maximoff.”
Hank settles on an expression of surprise “you have a sister?”
“Clearly.” Pietro is starting to doubt that Hank is a doctor.
“You’re an older brother.”
“No, I’m older.” Wanda says sarcastically and Pietro shares on exasperated look with her.
“I can hear the resemblance,” Hank mutters “and why exactly are you bleeding on our floor Wanda?”
“Nothing happened. She just fell, you know how kids are.”
“This isn’t an injury from a fall.” Hank goes to a room and comes back with a first aid kit. Does he just have that in every room? He pulls out a chair and makes Wanda sit in it while he kneels on the ground. He’s gentle as he wipes her knees and palms and I’m curious as to whether he has siblings too. Most of the blood wasn’t hers and the more he wipes the more clear that became. The shards of glass on her knees and arms weren’t a lot but definitely present.
“How’d this happen?” He says after he has to take out a tweezers to pluck out a particularly deep piece of glass off her calf.
“I fell.” Wanda repeats Pietro's lie back to him. “Playing at school.”
Pietro shouldn’t feel fondness over the fact that she defended his lie without hesitation. No questions asked.
Sibling law? Thou shall back up siblings' bullshit until told otherwise.
“Why does she have blood on her Peter?” Hank sounds calm, like he’s had to have this conversation before like he’s willing to repeat the question as many times as possible until he gets the answer he wants.
“Kids get a little rough at school nowadays. Not like how it was in your time.” Pietro jokes, evades the truth and Hank doesn’t look like he’s gonna take the bait. Which is beyond annoying for Pietro.
You tell Child Protective Services you have a black eye because you ran into a door and they believe it but you tell Hank you fell and scraped your knee and he calls utter bullshit.
“I was pushed. I got angry so I pushed them back.” Wanda says and Hank momentarily stops moving. It’s half a second but it’s there. And it’s telling.
He grabs the disinfectant spray off the first aid kit.
“I’m sure they deserved it.” Hank doesn’t meet either of their eyes, focusing on making her not get infected.
Pietro looks at him in surprise and Wanda nods stiffly “They did. They’re bullies. Mom says bullies are just weak men trying to bring everyone to their level. They need to be put in their place before they think everyone is small and they can rule the world like fascist dictatorship.” Hank wraps up her knees with thick bandages.
Yeah, That sounds like mom. Always swindling half-witted propaganda and conspiracy theories when drunk as a skunk. If the tv with the one drastically dark news channel on doesn’t scare them straight then she sure as hell will. Their mother was a paranoid lady with a dozen mental disorders rattling off at a time.
Pietro used to hover at every word, afraid constantly. He mostly grew out of it but Wanda still eats her words up and takes them at face value.
But Wanda is the good sibling, and their mother preferred her over him to begin with. Surely Wanda feeding into her words was a part of it.
“Sounds scary,” Hank says.
“They were hurting Peter.” She changed his name back to Peter instead of Pietro. Just like Mama taught her in front of non-Jewish folks. Their mother Americanized Pietro's name after his previous elementary school teachers would call attendance out loud and make a face while saying Pietro Maximoff. He tended to fall asleep in class and usually, the teachers would scoff and move on but when he woke up someone had written numbers on his wrist. They claimed it was his lunch number because they noticed he had lost his Lunch Card but he hadn't and they weren't his lunch numbers.
His mother pulled him from that school that afternoon and the next day went to the courthouse to legally change his name to Peter. He had to beg her not to change his last name too.
Hank looks up at Pietro “they hurt Peter?” He scans over him and his eyes land on the bruises around his wrist, left by the cuffs and the bruise on his upper arm, the cut on his other arm and the bite mark and the dried blood on his gray hair and his fingertips where he stroked Wanda’s hair when she was having a panic attack.
Wanda was adding too many details to the story.
“I hurt them back,” Wanda says and Hank's lips form a straight line as he folds through those words. His skin was turning a weird color.
“It was an accident.” Pietro defends quickly even though he shouldn’t have to. “They were going to-“ kill her. He couldn’t finish that sentence…not without freaking out about it. This shouldn’t have happened. They shouldn’t have been there. “They were being really rough. Wanda didn’t know how to control herself.” But Pietro thinks about how the shards of glass never actually hit him or their unconscious mother. How the glass only hurt the bad men and not her family. That must’ve taken some form of control. At least a little bit. He doesn’t say anything.
“We just-um…needed somewhere to stay for a few nights.” He tries to sound concrete, and solid in his words instead of shaky. “Because our mother would freak out if she saw us both banged up like this.” Liar liar liar.
“You’re more than welcome to stay as long as you’d like.” He hears Charles' voice before he actually sees him.
Pietro's heart drops to his fucking ass when he does see Charles. He’s in a wheelchair smiling up at them with a clean-shaven face.
“Fuck, man. Did that happen at the White House?” Pietro doesn’t remember hearing about any casualties or any wounded. At least nothing this serious. He listened to the radio for days afterward. His guilt wouldn’t let him not know. He needed to know how many people he inadvertently hurt by letting out a murderer.
He didn’t think Erik would actually hurt Charles. He thought maybe they had been friends. Pretty close ones. But Pietro has been wrong before. About a lot of things lately.
“Holy shit.” He repeats more to himself.
Note to self: Don’t mess with Erik Lehnsherr.
“Charles, you shouldn’t be down here. What if Jean needs you.” Hanks anxiously added.
“Jean is settling in just fine. She’s already made a friend.” Charles smiles at Wanda “She’s on the third floor, second door to the left.”
Wanda smiles widely “Thank you professor.” and darts up the stairs excitedly taking two steps at a time.
Professor? What the hell?
“Jean is a telepath, like me, she’s been communicating with Wanda since the moment you set foot in the neighborhood.”
“You’re a telepath?” Pietro's eyes widened. Then he remembers his previous question wasn't answered either. “you’re crippled now?”
Charles laughs and begins to shift his wheelchair like a professional wheelchair user instead of a guy who just suddenly becomes unable to use his legs. “This happened a long time ago.”
“Three days is not a long time ago. Unless you’re me then yeah that was ages ago. Good times.”
“I recently decided to stop taking the medication that would help me walk.” Drugs. Straight up drugs.
“I don’t think that’s how medicine works.” Pietro is gobsmacked.
Hank tunes in “I developed it myself, it targeted the mutant gene and converted it to the muscle and nerves on the legs and spine.”
“Essentially The medicine had been preventing me from using my powers so that I would’ve been able to walk.”
A chill ran up Pietro's spine. They were developing a drug that could take away mutant powers?
“Okay, cool. You have no legs. Well, actually you do have legs, you just can’t use them. That's a bummer, but if you’re really a telepath what am I thinking right now?”
Charles chuckles but puts two fingers on his scalp and after a few moments of Pietro thinking of Hanukkah and wine glasses clinking together and hand-me-down sweaters knitted by the old ladies at the synagogue Charles' face crunches into a grimace and his nose starts bleeding.
Pietro blinks in surprise, taking a cautious step forward in concern. “dude are you okay?” Hank hands Charles a napkin looking startled as well. Charles shakes his head, rubbing the blood off his nose.
“It seems your brain moves just as quickly as you do. I couldn’t understand anything. Not without getting a headache.”
Pietro is literally a headache.
“That’s corny. Try again.” He super speeds a bit closer to Charles only a mere 2 feet away from his squeaky wheelchair. Pietro puts his two pointer fingers in the side of each side of his head and squeezes his eyes shut “This time focus reaaaaaally hard.” He thinks harder as well “What am I thinking?” He’s gonna pop a blood vessel.
“You’re hungry.”
Pietro beams “holy shit! Yeah!”
“I heard your stomach growl. Did you run all the way here, Peter?” He voiced softly.
Pietro lets out a disappointed breath. “Yeah, I didn't have time to make a snack before I ran for my life.” He meant to say it casually but it came out too genuine. Too real.
Charles looks startled “pardon? Did something happen?”
“No, I was joking.” Fuck how can Pietro forget the lie?
“He’s clearly lying.” Hank is a real snitch.
“Peter my boy what happened? Where you attacked?” Charles sounds weirdly soft when he says ‘My Boy’ and it makes Pietro's face go hot.
“No we-“ Charles put two fingers to his temple and I was startled when he spoke up quickly voice laced in sincerity that made Pietro want to throw up “Peter, I had no idea that you would be targeted. If I had known I wouldn’t have even involved you in any of this. I’m so sorry.”
“How did you-“Then he realizes he wasn’t alone, “Wanda told you. So much for sibling law.” Pietro's chest kinda hurts so he avoids looking him in the face when he speaks “us getting attacked isn’t your fault. It was bound to happen eventually. I shouldn’t have been so stupid. I should’ve asked more questions before breaking into the literal freaking pentagon. That’s on me.”
“You’re not-“
Pietro doesn’t hear the rest of that speech. The ringing in his ear is getting to be too much and the tension in his ribs can do with some super speed. So he gives himself a tour, looking into every room and every corner of every classroom. It was dusty, cobwebs, and faded. It looked like the students took a very long summer vacation and hadn’t touched any of their stuff since.
Some rooms still had kids' clothes, old posters, and little gadgets of a curious child. But…no kids.
No kids anywhere. Not one.
He finds Wanda and Jean on the third floor in the only bedroom that looks properly cleaned besides what he assumes is Charles' room. He doesn’t know where Hank sleeps but it must be one of the messy rooms near the master bedroom.
Wanda and Jean are standing close to each other, books and pens floating all around them. Some are covered in red and others in orange. Both of them are smiling and Wanda looks like she’s in the beginning of a giggle. Pietro lets out a relieved breath before super speeding back downstairs.
“-stupid.” Charles fumbles as a harsh wind hits him in the face and Pietro already forgot what he was saying before he left.
“Yeah, yeah, cool. How come there aren't any students here? Isn’t this supposed to be a school?”
“We were closed for a while. We’re now just beginning to recruit students again.”
“What do you need to enroll in?”
Charles looks at Hank and there’s a long pause that makes Pietro fidget “we would love to have you Peter.”
Pietro snorts “no way. Not for me, I did my time. I meant for my sister Wanda. She can’t go back to her old school.” She can’t go back anywhere near that town.
“She’s more than welcome to enroll. We just need her to take a general knowledge test to see where she is grade level wise, although we haven’t quite started having classes yet. We have lots to do before we are ready for business.”
“Okay, I can help.” Pietro claps his hands together “first food.”
“The kitchen is-“
“-I know where it is Charles.”
Pietro makes four cheese pizzas, as a snack for him and the girls. He fiddles with the ingredients and the oven and basically runs wild in the kitchen for several minutes.
“Wheels, where do you keep the Parmesan?”
“Cabinet to the left. Next to the salt.”
“Okay, cool,cool,cool.”
“There's pepperoni in the fridge, salami too if you wanna add some.” Hank points out.
“Naw I'm good, and the plates?” Why doesn't he have plates in the kitchen?
“We have paper plates under the sink.” Pietro opens the cabinet doors under the sink and instead of paper plates he sees two half-empty vodka bottles.
It’s the same brand David drinks.
Pietro barely thinks when he dumps the rest of the alcohol down the sink at super speeds and tosses the bottles in the recycling bin. The paper plates were actually next to the dishwasher. He doesn’t say anything.
“You seem different.” Pietro starts, not knowing how else to broach the topic. “Beside the wheelchair I mean. You seem less…assholey.”
His eyes don’t look red and his breath smells minty. He looks like he actually bathed instead of marinating in filth for three straight days. He shaved his greasy beard and he looks like an actual human being instead of a shell of one. But addiction is brutal. Pietro knows that better than anyone.
Charles clears his throat and Pietro must’ve not hidden the bottles that well in the recycling bin because his eyes land on them before he speaks “I’m sorry if I came across as callous before. I had been going through some bad…years. I’m just now starting to get better.”
“If you’re just now getting better, is it smart to start teaching again?” Should he be anywhere near Wanda? Or Jean? Should Charles be anywhere near children? Is he just gonna fall off the wagon again and get mean again, throw things, yell at them, hit-no. That’s David. Why does Pietro keep doing that?
Charles is not David.
He looks like him though. Pale, blue eyes and long brown hair. Maybe that's why he keeps confusing the two.
“Pietro…” Charles' voice sounds confused “Who’s David?”
Pietro stiffens “I thought you said-“ the clock dings in the oven “-you said you couldn’t read my mind.”
“I can't- my apologies. I shouldn’t have asked. Your sister was just thinking of him.”
Oh.
“David is her dad.”
“Why does she call him David in her head?”
“Because I call him David. She’s a little copycat.” Wanda also joined track in her school, running faster than everyone there. Not like Pietro but still fast. He liked to think that even though his name was scrubbed off the records maybe the Maximoff name could still be there one day.
Well, he doesn't suppose she could do track anymore.
No mutants allowed.
But it was a nice thought at the time.
“Is David not your father?” Let’s not open that can of worms.
“No, thank fuck. My father isn’t in the picture. He’s not even aware there is a picture. If he did I doubt he’d like the picture to begin with.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Why are you sorry?”
“I’ve brought up a sensitive topic without realizing and I’ve upset you.”
“You haven't, I'm fine.”
“I suppose I assumed you and Wanda had the same father. Considering you both have mutations. Does your mother carry the mutant gene?”
“Don’t know. But she does have a type.”
“Which is?”
“Powerful men.”
Hank starts to go on a rant about science because he’s a scientist and we are not allowed to forget.
“The X gene is passed down through the father usually, so it could be a recessive or dominant gene. Not a lot of data on the subject of mutation but usually one of the parents has to have the gene to have a mutant child. Your mother could’ve had a mutant great-great-great-grandfather or something of the sort and the x gene could've been passed down but dormant all these years. Or-”
“-Or she could have a type.” Pietro cuts in.
Hank sighs but nods anyway “Or she could have a type.” he agrees.
“Speaking of my mother's sex life-”
Hank's face goes red “-we were not-”
“-what was the deal with that Erik Lensherr guy?”
“What does he have to do with your mother's sex life?” Charles's eyebrows furrow into one caterpillar.
“-Can we please stop talking about his mother having sex!”
“-I just think he’s definitely my mother's type so I should probably know if he's gonna be making a cameo any time soon so I can keep them away from each other.” and as far away from Wanda as possible.
“He won't be coming around here. Not for a very long time. His actions in the white house made it so that he couldn't stay in the States. So no surprise visits any time soon.”
“Good. I don’t want any more siblings.”
“-Can we please move on-” Hank exasperates.
“-Didn’t take you for a prude, Hank.”
Charles laughs and it takes Pietro so off guard that he starts laughing too.
“I AM NOT A PRUDE!” Hank is literally turning blue to the face.
Jena and Wanda start stumbling down the stairs and into the kitchen “What's burning?” Wanda exclaims in alarm.
“Nothing is burni-” Pietro opens the oven door as if to show off the nonexistent burning pizza and a waft of black smoke hits him in the face making him cough erratically.
Holy shit, what the fuck?
“Peter, are you okay?’ Charles is by his side in an instant closing the oven door and turning it off completely Hank runs out to get a fire extinguisher from the closet.
“Yes, I'm cool. I’m fine, just a bit of smoke in the lungs, nothing crazy, nothing dangerous.”
“My science teacher actually said that inhaling smoke is actually super bad for the lungs.” Wanda said matter-of-factly just to prove Pietro wrong.
Charles pats Pietro's back, looking like he aged ten years in the last five seconds. “She's right maybe you should sit down and drink some water, my boy.”
“I'll order pizza instead,” Hank says after going crazy with the fire extinguisher.
“Plain cheese, please.” Wanda says.
“I think we need a bit of iron and meat if we are going to survive the rest of the day,” Hank jokes.
“Can't mix meat and dairy.” Wanda says. “Me and Peter will eat the cheese pizza you can order a different topping for everyone else.”
“Peter and I.” Pietro corrects like a little shit.
“I hope you get lung cancer.” Wanda snides.
“Damn, that's brutal.”
“Your face is brutal.”
“Only because my face is exposed to your face.”
Hank goes to the landline and orders the pizzas. Jean stands mutely next to Charles stimming with her fingers and they both look at the two bickering siblings with matching fond smiles.
This house hasn't been this loud in quite some time.
Chapter 3: Sisters Keeper, Plus Two.
Summary:
Jean doesn’t look at Pietro, hands folding in a way that looks painful. Jean is eleven she must feel awkward coming to an adult for help. Wanda is nine and wouldn’t hesitate to come and get him if she was scared. But she grew up with Pietro, she knows him and Jean is in a house full of strangers she’s barely known for a month.
Pietro doesn’t know how he’d feel in that scenario.
“Alright. You can stay but don’t tell Wanda, she’ll be so jealous she missed out on a sleepover.” Pietro doesn’t actually care if she does or doesn’t but he knows Jean most likely wouldn’t, too embarrassed. So he’ll make her think she’s doing him a favor, so she feels less bad about it.
It’s what big brothers do.
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Pietro learns chess and establishes a routine.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
The first time Pietro Django Maximoff was arrested he still hadn't gotten his powers yet. He stole a silver Hot Wheels toy from the candy section of a local grocery store. He didn’t necessarily need the toy or even really want it. He had enough money to buy the plastic car but it seemed as if one second he was looking at it with a bored expression and the next it was in his hoodie pocket. He was caught relatively quickly, he had only been seven after all. The store manager from that particular grocery store always kept an unnecessary eye on Pietro and his family. Pietro suspected he wasn't a fan of scanning all the food stamps his mom constantly brought in or maybe the way Pietro accidentally slipped in Hebrew words when speaking to the workers. Either way, Pietro didn’t stand a chance. The lone officer that picked him up in a banged-up car kept him in the twenty-four-hour cell room, cluttered with smelly dudes and creeps and they told him he had one singular phone call. Pietro hadn't memorized his house number so he sat in that cell for a good long while with full-grown adult men staring at him before they tracked down David and had him pick him up. Pietro was black and blue for days after and he finally memorized his house phone.
Pietro typed that very same phone number into the landline, finally deciding to call his mother. The cord for the landline twirled between his fingers in anxiety. His foot tapped inhumanly fast on the wooden floor. Usually, he’d just run back home and speak to her in person but he doesn’t really wanna see the broken glass.
Last Pietro saw her she was waking up in the kitchen surrounded by dead bodies and the cops close by.
He should’ve taken her with them, he’s carried two people while speed running before, but he needed time to process and to think of something that wasn’t “Oh by the way your daughter murdered ten men. Don’t be mad, but I'm the reason they were at the house.”
Yeah, that would not have gone well.
The phone rings. The home number is the only number he knows by heart. It rings and it rings and it rings and the longer it rings the more anxious Pietro becomes and the more tangled the cord gets between his fingers.
She doesn’t pick up. He calls again. It rings it rings and someone answers the phone. All Pietro can hear is breathing and he can’t tell if it’s his mom or not.
“Shalom? Ima?” Pietro tests and he can feel a shuttering of breath on the receiver.
“Pietro! Please tell me Wanda is with you. She hasn’t come home.” Pietro's mother's voice shook, vibrating through the phone and kicking him in the chest. Pietro was so relieved to hear her voice.
“Yes, she’s with me. We had to go, I’m sorry I left you.” Pietro says quickly. Maybe too quickly but it was still understandable for his mother.
“No don't be sorry. Someone had to stay behind and explain to the police what happened or else they’d think the worst.” Like they always do.
“How? I mean what exactly did you tell them?” Not the truth.
“I told them we had a party mishap.”
“A party?”
“Well I had to explain the glass…and the blood and the multiple dead men. I put the least damaged corpse in David's car and ran through the wall of the house.”
“YOU DID WHAT?” Pietro yelled into the receiver in shock.
“I told them they were under the influence and when left to their own devices they crashed into the house and set off the explosion in the engine that started the fire.” Magda Maximoff was always a bit rough around the edges but she’d do anything to protect her children.
“What’s this about a fire?”
“Had to get rid of some evidence.”
“But they bought that?”
“Didn’t need much convincing. I think they assumed it was a provocative type of party. They had all been wearing leather and none were women.”
“Mom I don’t need to imagine the pretend orgy party that you used to cover up dead bodies.” What fucking sentence just came out of Pietro's mouth.
“I’m going to be staying with Miss Margo until I can find a place. I'm packing some belongings.” Miss Margo is a Christian woman who solicits near the elementary school. She lives alone with her disabled child only two streets down from the house and has about twelve outside cats that decorate her lawn. She’s a bit pushy but a charitable lady who will talk your ear off about Jesus until you’ve gone to at least one Sunday sermon with her. Pietro fell victim to her squeezing of cheeks and Jesus cookies and spent an entire Sunday at her church. And Pietro does mean the entire Sunday because it was an urban church with brown and black pastors and the whitest thing there besides the holy bread was Pietro Maximoff and the pastor's daughter's dog. It lasted hours. To Pietro, it felt like days. A quest of wills and the only thing to save him was the drums, the guitar, and the smooth voices of the singers.
All this is to say that Miss Margo is a nice Christian woman. My mother will be out of her house running within the week.
“Right, okay, and where does Margo live? I can come get you.”
“How’s Wanda?” Seriously?
“Mom-“
“Are you both safe? I was worried sick thinking she never came home.”
“Yes, ima we’re both safe. We’re at the stoner dudes house.”
“Are you doing drugs?” She asked, alarmed.
“Not Currently.”
“Pietro Django Maximoff!” Pietro puts the phone away from his ear as she yells at him.
“I was kidding. I’m not doing drugs nor am I planning to.”
“Is your hipster friend doing drugs in front of Wanda? You know how I feel about that Pietro.”
“I know! And no he isn’t. He’s sober or whatever. He’s actually a professor. He has a school…for mutants.
Gifted youngsters.”
“Are we sure we're thinking of the same person? Are you talking about the tall awkward fellow with the glasses?”
“No Mom, that’s Hank.”
“The sexy man with the perky ass.”
“Ew, no Mom, that’s Logan.”
“Don’t ew me you knew who I was talking about.”
“I’m talking about Charles, he's the one that looked like he was in a constant state of the worst hangover of his life.”
“Yes, that’s who I thought you were referring to. I hoped that I had misheard. Are you sure he’s a professor and not part of the janitorial staff?”
“He’s not a janitor, mom. He went to college and stuff. I saw the teaching certificate on his wall, it looked legit.” In all honesty, Pietro wasn’t a hundred percent sure it wasn’t forged.
“And he has a school for mutants, do you like it?”
“Don’t know. It’s school. I think Wanda will like it.”
“But will you?”
“Mom- where are you? I can come get you.”
“Best you not. I think it’s better if you stay there.”
Pietro's heart sank “Mom-“
“-I'm not upset with you. Don’t get that jumbled in your head like you tend to do. I’m under police surveillance they’re keeping an extra eye on everything I do, with everyone I speak with. They say it’s for my safety but they're waiting for you to come get me. So don’t. Stay away for as long as you can and when it’s safe I’ll tell you.”
“But what if-“
“You can’t call this number again. I’ll memorize the number you’re calling from and I’ll call you. Okay?”
“Ima why can’t I-“
“-don’t argue with me over this Pietro. I love you and I want you to be safe.”
“Mom I need to tell you-“
“-tell me what?”
“-you keep interrupting me before I can tell you.”
A pause. “Okay. I’m not gonna talk, tell me what you’re gonna tell me.”
“It was Wanda. She’s the one who killed those men. She was scared and they had a gun aimed at her. They pulled the trigger and the bullet stopped Mom. She stopped the bullet. She made all the glass break and she killed all the men. I don’t really understand how she did it but she did. Wanda is like me, mom. She’s a mutant.”
Pietro's ears were ringing and he waited anxiously for his mother's response. He waited for her disappointment. Her horror. He waited for her to feel the tragedy of having not one but two mutant children. He tried to imagine the confusion and pain she must feel to have birthed two outcasts. To not have a single easy thing in her life.
What bad luck it is to be a mother of two mutants.
Silence.
“Mom? You can talk now.”
“Okay.”
“Okay? Okay, what? Okay, you can talk now, or okay your daughter is a mutant? Please elaborate.”
“Okay, as in that doesn’t surprise me. Your sister is incredibly protective of her family. As she should be.”
Pietro cannot believe this. “I feel like you’re not reacting properly.”
“I already knew Wanda was special.”
“How?” Pietro's brain was going too fast and his mother wasn’t responding fast enough to any of his questions.
“A mother always knows. I knew with you.” Magda has always claimed this. Technically it’s true she always said Pietro was special way before he got his power although Pietro always assumed she meant special as in “slow” not special as in gifted.
“I-I don’t know what to do. How do I help her?”
“Be the person you needed when your powers first manifested.”
Be the person you needed? Those are her words of wisdom? He needed his mom, but she was gone. He needed a therapist but he couldn’t afford it. He needed a dad and instead, he had fucking David.
When his powers manifested? He needed someone to hold him. He needed someone to reach for him and touch him so he could know that he was still alive and that the world was still moving.
But he didn’t. No one helped him. No one told him it would be okay.
So I guess that’s his answer.
“I love you.”
“I love you too kid. Don’t do anything crazy.”
“Too late.”
“Shalom.” They both said and Pietro hung up clicking the phone back into place on the wall.
Pietro hears the familiar vrooming of Charles’ wheelchair entering the second living room.
You heard right. Second living room. Man is rich-rich.
Pietro pushes off the wall and approaches Charles curiously. He has something in his hands he can’t see…not until he gets a bit closer to the British man.
He was holding a clear canister of gooey brown liquid. “I appreciate you cleaning out the rooms Peter.” Charles clears his throat.
Pietro had gone on a bit of a venture earlier that day, stress-cleaning all of the rooms and it took a while, even for him because some of the rooms still had things in them that belonged to previous students. With much care and as much patience he could muster he packed those possessions away into boxes in the basement. Hair clips and sketchbooks, DVDs, and old theater tickets. He rifled through old photo albums and folded old jumpers and blankets. He found an old diary hidden between a mattress and a headboard. It belonged to a child, a year younger than Wanda and Pietro couldn’t bare to read past the first couple pages.
He kept thinking about how all those kids that used to go here are probably dead. Charles mentioned he had to shut the school down after the older kids got drafted. Charles didn’t go into too much detail about what happened to the kids that didn’t get drafted…to the kids that didn’t have a home to go back to after the semester was cut short but someone doesn’t just leave their skateboard, or their full piggy bank behind if they didn’t think they’d be back.
Pietro didn’t want to think about the little girl with the baby blue diary talking about a boy in her class…a class in this school. A boy who’s probably dead too.
Or worse.
Charles hadn’t asked him to clean. Neither did Hank. In fact it seemed like they where procrastinating doing so but after Pietro sneezed for the twenty seventh time he decided a bit of light dusting wouldn’t hurt. And then he ended up cleaning everything.
His mother would be outraged. He never cleaned the house voluntarily.
“It’s no problem. Barely took a second.” It took a long time actually but like hell he was gonna let him think he did something voluntarily that took him an exuberant amount of time.
“I still appreciate it. If I’m being honest I was quite hesitant to go into any of the rooms. It brought quite a few old memories I’m still trying to work through.”
Pietro nods, fidgeting his feet. What is he supposed to say to that? What does someone even say to something like that?
I’m sorry you have trauma?
No problem, it was only a bit traumatic to have to pack away a dead child’s entire childhood.
No stress, I was only having a few panic attacks per room.
Easy peasy no worries.
Like what exactly is he suppose to say in this kind of social situation? Usually he goes into super speed and thinks of about ten million different scenarios and settles on one before going back into normal speed but now he can’t because-
Shit- Charles has been talking this whole time.
“-it won’t eliminate all cravings but it should hold you over for a bit longer than usual because of the high-calorie count.” Charles extends the canister to Pietro and when he simply blinks at Charles in confusion Charles frowns.
“Peter?” Damn he’s gonna have to ask. Fuck.
Pietro lets out a breath, cheeks going slightly pink “I’m sorry, can you repeat what you were saying? I spaced.”
David wouldn’t have repeated himself. He would’ve yelled at him for ignoring him and for being such a fucking moron.
Charles smiles “No worries, Peter. What I was saying was that Hank made you this meal replacement with a high calorie count. It has all the iron and protein you’re suppose to be getting. The oven cooked pizzas and hohos aren’t gonna cut it. You need nearly twelve times more then what the average human being needs. If you drink this a couple times a day it should at least subside any hunger you might be having between runs. You can still have your snacks and your regular meals of course but this would help your body get what it needs.” Charles Xavier scans Pietro quickly “how much do you weigh? You look-“ Scrawny. Skinny. Sickly. Starved. Anorexic. “-small. Perhaps we should adjust the calorie count so you're not gaining too much weight too fast. Maybe taking a canister once a day for now. Do you get any headaches? Lightheadedness? Do you feel fatigued when you run?-“ Pietro must’ve been making a face because Charles stops abruptly.
Charles sounds kind of like his mother. A weird kind of concern that becomes almost overwhelmingly frantic far too quickly.
“-perhaps Hank should be the one to discuss this with you. If that’s alright?”
“Yeah, that’s cool.” Pietro doubts Hank would be any more smooth.
“Cool.” Charles repeats the word like he’s never said it in his life. He’s so British.
“It’s getting late. I should probably head to bed.” Pietro quite literally is just trying to find a good enough excuse to get the fuck out of there.
“Of course. The boys dormitory is on the fourth floor.”
“No worries, I’ll just bunk with Wanda.”
Charles frowns “you wouldn’t prefer your own room?”
Preference has nothing to do with it. He needs to be with his sister.
“I’m cool.”
Charles doesn’t say anything after that.
That night when they went to bed Pietro made sure the door was locked and left a lamp on in the corner. Wanda says she doesn’t need a nightlight but she’ll squirm and rustle in bed all night if it’s pitch black so Pietro tells her he prefers it on. He tucks her In, the smooth comforter wrapping her up like a burrito and Wanda blinks like a tired frog when he sings to her. He doesn’t sing to her every night. Pietro used to sing to her nightly when she was much younger but now he only sings whenever she’s had a particularly bad day. Today has been one of the worst bad days ever.
He still can’t believe it’s been only a day. This morning he was playing Pac-man and now it’s close to midnight and he’s not even in the same city with his sister who’s also a mutant now and has killed several people living under the hospitality of the people he helped break some other guy out of the pentagon.
It’s been a damn day.
His sister is expecting it so he sings. He hadn’t sung this particular song in years and he couldn’t quite remember the words fully but it used to be Wanda’s favorite.
“daj spokój mojemu dziecku.” The lyrics come out choppy and Pietro has an accent while singing the lullaby that would make his mother cringe but Wanda doesn’t know any better.
“dzień się skończył.” He sees the moment Wanda recognizes the words. “gdy nadejdzie poranek, zaświeci słońce.”
Wanda’s smiles sleepily “Ale teraz jest ciemno i świat nadejdzie.” Pietro remembers making his mother teach him this song, word for word, line by line; it had been three days after Wanda had been born. She had sung it to him as a child and it had always made him smile as well. Their mother has a beautiful singing voice.
“Pozwól więc swoim oczom odpocząć i zasnąć.” Pietro smooths through the end, muscle memory pulling finishing the song for him.
“You haven’t sang that one in ages.” Wanda was blinking heavily, she’s exhausted but refuses to sleep.
“Felt like we were due for one.” Pietro speaks softly. “Mom never taught it to you?”
Wanda shakes her head “I barely speak polish. I only know a few words in hebrew.”
Their mother had raised the two very differently. It was something Pietro had caught on very quickly. Pietro was only spoken to in Hebrew until he started pre-k and mother would take him to the synagogue and teach him prayers and taught him how to make Jewish dishes. But when she had Wanda she didn’t do those things for her. In fact it seemed she went out of her way to make sure Wanda knew nothing about her culture.
Pietro thinks it’s because Wanda looks like her. Wanda has their mothers hair, and her eyes and her smile and her complexion. Their mother saw herself and wanted Wanda to never experience the sort of prejudices she faced because of her culture. The same sort of prejudices Pietro had been exposed to time and time again.
Pietro never hates his mother for that. It was her way of protecting wanda. Her small sacrifice. Because that’s what it really was. A sacrifice. Her culture,her language, her religion, her faith, her history, her pain, completely stopping with her, never being passed down to her children. She’s losing her very essence- for her children to be accepted by a society that couldn’t give less of a fuck about them.
Pietro never resented her. Not until he couldn’t remember certain words, or phrases in Hebrew, when his English got better but he got an accent when he talked in Hebrew, when he couldn’t remember the recipe for his favorite dish, when she called him Peter so many times he started introducing himself by that. He began to truly blame her for it when the words to his favorite song began to fade from his mind. A distant memory the less she sang it.
Pietro had to teach himself again. Had to learn it all over again. He refused to forget.
“I’ll teach it to you one day. So you can sing it to your kids one day.”
“Ew, I don’t want kids.”
“Then you’ll sing it to mine.”
Wanda looks at Pietro curiously “you want kids?”
“One or two.”
“Twos good. A boy and a girl. They’ll keep each other company.”
“That’s smart. I should have them ten years apart so the older one can change the other's diaper.”
Wanda makes a face “you’re so annoying.” Pietro laughs at her.
“I think you’ll be a good dad one day. You’re already a pretty great brother.” Wanda’s literally drifting into sleep as she says this and it’s the nicest thing ever and-
Pietro isn’t crying.
He’s not.
“I think I’m only such a great brother because I have such a great sister.” Pietro wrapping his arms around Wanda.
“That’s cheesy.” Wanda mumbles out already dead asleep but refusing to let Pietro have the last word.
Pietro suppresses a breathy laugh, composing himself as he lays a peck on his sister's forehead whispering a quick prayer.
The next day comes and Both Charles and Hank are gone. A note left in one of the kitchens stating that they're out recruiting a new student. They’ll be back by dinner.
Jean doesn’t talk much but as a telepath that’s only a problem when she wants to talk to Pietro who’s mind seems to be impenetrable.
“She says it’s like walking inside a house with the light off. She knows there's furniture and decorations but she can’t see it. Just when she thinks she can see the outline of a couch or a picture frame it all shifts and moves around and she's stumbling and bumping into things again.” Wanda is teaching Jean how to do origami. She had learned in her third grade class and she’s very adamant on teaching Jean and Pietro because ‘everyone should know how to make a swan.’
“That sounds tiresome.” He gets another papercut on his pointer finger.
Wanda shrugs grabbing the blue craft paper to make a boy swan for her thirty four perfectly crafted pink swans “She says it’s nice. Usually she walks inside the house and there’s a lot of stuff going on. Different colors, lots of loud music, different doors that lead to more rooms with more doors and lots of furniture and pictures on the walls, sometimes they even have pets. She says it’s really overwhelming to be inside somebody's house.”
“She hears music in people’s heads?” Jean is cutting red paper absentmindedly even though origami requires no cutting.
“Yeah, you have music but she says the music is going so fast and it’s so far away that it defaults to white noise. She says it’s nice. it’s the first time it’s quiet in someone else’s head.”
Pietro doesn’t know how he feels about that.
“Is that how it is for you?”
Wanda shakes her head folding the blue paper expertly “not really. I mean yeah, your mind is kinda like a dark moving house but it’s a house I recognize. I know where all the furniture is even if it’s dark and I know where it’s going to move. The music in your head is in a different language but I can still feel what it's trying to say.”
“So you can read my mind?” Pietros was a bit alarmed by that.
“No. Not really. I can feel your mind. If you were sad I’d be able to tell, or scared, or any really strong emotion but I wouldn’t be able to know exactly why.”
“That’s pretty cool, Wanda.”
“I guess…” Wanda looks a bit too deeply at her paper now and Pietro raises on eyebrow at her. “You alright?”
Wanda looks at Jean. They do that thing where they talk but don’t. How would telepathy work with other telepaths? Would they be inviting each other to each other's houses or would they just migrate in one? Would it be in an entirely different house? Like a combination of both of them? Pietro still doesn’t fully get it. He probably never will.
“What if I never learn how to control it?”
“You will.”
“But what if I can’t? What if I can’t stop accidentally breaking into people's houses?”
“Can we use another analogy?”
“What if I hurt someone again?”
“You won’t.”
“But what if I do?”
“Then we deal with it. Together. Like we always do. Okay?”
“Okay.”
Charles and Hank arrive later that day, around 7 pm without a new student and matching grim expressions.
Pietro doesn’t ask what happened.
The next day Pietro wakes up to permanent marker drawings on his face. Within seconds he’s got his hands on every bottle of whipped cream in the mansion and spraying his sister with it from head to toe. She retaliates by rewinding his Walkman so it goes at normal speed instead of the 12x speed. He rebuttals that by hiding all a hundred and seventeen of her swan children all over the school. Back and forth. They do this for two days before Charles reveals that it was actually Jean who painted on Pietro's face that morning.
Aghast Pietro covers Jean Grey's floor with bubble wrap in her sleep.
All three became involved in the prank war. Half of Pietro's hair was blue, Wanda’s teeth were green and Jean only had one eyebrow.
Charles forced them to make a truce when they pushed it a little too far and started a small fire in the kitchen.
Two weeks pass and Charles brings Pietro to his office. He thinks it’s about school stuff instead he takes out a chess board. “You play?”
Pietro snorts “No, do I look like I hate fun.”
Charles shakes his head “chess can be quite riveting when done with the right partner.”
“I’m sure all the nerds said that at your fancy little nerd school.”
Charles smiles, putting the little figures into their supposed place “Would you like me to teach you?”
“Not really.” but Pietro was already darting to the kitchen to get a family sized bag of chips and darting back sitting in the chair in front of the chess board.
It was two hours later of Charles explaining the game and what each piece did and how to effectively win or sacrifice pieces and the bag of chips was long gone and replaced with a box of cereal. Pietro was being annoying, he knew he was moving too much and asking too many questions and the few practice games that they played were short lived because Pietro kept sacrificing his king like an idiot. He sucked. Like super hard. Charles didn’t yell at him though. He’d just reset the board and show him again. Again. Again. Again. He didn’t seem annoyed either but some people are good at hiding that sort of stuff.
“Can we put this on pause?” Pietro fidgets with the Walkman on his hip.
“Something wrong?” Pietro hates how genuinely concerned Charles sounds when he asks that. Three weeks ago he was calling him a pain in the ass and now he’s patiently teaching him how to play chess.
“I’m just not any good.”
“You’re just starting. Nobody’s Robert James Fischer from the very start. You’re doing very well for a beginner, look.” He points at a piece in the board “you got my knight blocked.” Pietro doesn’t know who this Robert guy is and he hadn't blocked his knight on purpose but he’ll take the praise anyway.
In the following days Charles had taken the time to sit him down for an hour or two to play a game of chess. The conversation during that time can vary from Charles expressing his struggle to find mutant students willing to enroll, to Commenting on how Hank has been clogging up the pipes in the first floor bathroom with fur. Pietro almost never contributed to the conversation. Not that he never wanted to it’s just that when he’d open his mouth to talk he couldn’t think of a single damn thing to say. So he let Charles fill the space. It seems like he needs it more than Pietro anyway.
At the one month mark Pietro receives a phone call from his mother. She greets him in Hebrew and Pietro responds the same, she asks how Wanda and he are settling and he asks her the same.
“Have you been eating?”
“Yes, ima.”
“Have you been sleeping?”
“Yes, ima.”
“I’m not trying to nag you. I’m just making sure your healthy. I’ve never...I’ve never gone this long without seeing you.” Her voice sounds strained.
When Pietro hears that he nearly runs all the way to Miss Margo’s house right then and there. He wants to hug his mom but he knows it isn’t safe yet.
They talk for a bit longer and then say their goodbyes.
She calls again two days later.
The conversation is shorter but she gives him her Latkes recipe. He writes it down on a napkin. She sends him a prayer.
A couple days later Wanda and Jean have conspired against him and have literally kicked him out of Wanda’s room. They're going to bunk together now. Pietro is only a little bit jealous.
It’s nice to know that at the end of the day Wanda has a friend who is so much like her and who she can talk to in their weird telepathic way.
He tells Charles this during their chess game that day. Pietro tries not to notice the way Charles mood shifts slightly when Pietro actually starts talking during their matches. He seems kinda happy about it.
Which is weird, right? Pietro tries not to think too much about it.
“Where’s Hank been the last couple days?”
“He’s quarantined in his lab.”
“Why? He sick or somethin’?”
“He’s been trying to slowly wean off his medication and that’s resulted in his mutation coming back a bit harsher than usual. He experiences a lot of mood swings, and shedding.”
“What exactly is his mutation?” Pietro moves his Little horsey. He’s fully aware that’s not the name for the piece but Wanda calls it that and it’s now implanted in his head.
“Genius-level intellect, Superhuman strength, stamina, durability, speed, agility, reflexes, dexterity, healing, longevity, and senses, Pheromone manipulation, Razor-sharp fangs, claws, and blue fur.”
Hank has a physical mutation. That actually checks out. “Is that why he’s been a bit reclusive since we got here?”
Charles shifts in his wheelchair looking very pointedly not at Pietro “in all honesty Hank is just not used to other people in the house. It had been just us for so long and we would go weeks without speaking to each other at times. He’ll get adjusted to it.”
Pietro moves his queen.
Charles takes his king in one fell swoop. Damn. They play two more games.
Charles tells them Hank is working on Cerebro. He doesn’t know what that is but it sounds important so Pietro leaves a Kugel outside his door that he can snack on.
He doesn’t see him but when he runs back around a few hours later the plate is empty outside his door and there’s a note written on graphic parchment paper.
He didn’t write anything crazy, just a simple thank you and a comment about the Kugel tasting delicious.
It wasn’t a big deal. It’s just a letter.
Pietro keeps it in his wallet.
Purely because it felt rude to throw it away. Especially when he took the time to sign it and doodle a little cartoon Pietro running with a kugel.
That’s the only reason.
The next day Pietro wakes up early and when he passes by Wanda and Jeans' room he finds the both of them floating about two feet above their respective beds. Pietro keeps walking, already used to it.
He almost beats Charles at chess for the first time. Wanda discovers the fantasy section in the library on the fifth floor. She’s three books into mermaid lore.
That night Pietro heard a knock on his door while he pretended to fall asleep. Jean was standing outside the door matching a set of pink striped pajamas and hair up in a loose bonnet. She had deep bags under her eyes.
“Jean-man, why are you still up so late?” Pietro asks like a hypocrite.
Pietro peaks his head into the hallway. No Wanda.
“Wanda’s snoring driving you crazy?” He teases.
Jean shakes her head and taps her head twice and speaks for the first time ever. “Too loud.”
It's the first time it’s quiet in someone else’s head.
Oh.
Jean doesn’t look at Pietro, hands folding in a way that looks painful. Jean is eleven she must feel awkward coming to an adult for help. Wanda is nine and wouldn’t hesitate to come and get him if she was scared. But she grew up with Pietro, she knows him and Jean is in a house full of strangers she’s barely known for a month.
Pietro doesn’t know how he’d feel in that scenario.
“Alright. You can stay but don’t tell Wanda, she’ll be so jealous she missed out on a sleepover.” Pietro doesn’t actually care if she does or doesn’t but he knows Jean most likely wouldn’t, too embarrassed. So he’ll make her think she’s doing him a favor, so she feels less bad about it.
It’s what big brothers do.
She sleeps in one bed and he sleeps in the other, facing the door out of habit.
Thirty minutes pass and he thinks maybe she’s fallen asleep, but then alarmingly he hears the harsh scraping of wood on wood. He turns around to face Jean who’s lying on the bed. A bed that is gradually moving closer to Pietro in a creepy horror movie moment.
Holy fuck.
It stops when it’s flush against Pietro's twin-sized bed. Jean is now right next to Pietro and by her forced shut eyes and the small blush on her cheeks, he can tell she’s still awake.
Okay. He should’ve realized what she really wanted. It’s not off base to assume Jean probably got accustomed to sleeping next to Wanda.
Pietro has it under good authority that Wanda is a cuddler.
So without much thought and like he’s done thousands of times with Wanda he lays his cheek on top of Jean's head and wraps his free hand loosely around Jean's shoulders. She sinks deeper, trying to make it seem natural. She wraps her arms around his waist and pretends to yawn. He forces back a laugh before it can start bubbling. She’s such an actress.
He hums a little song. And in his mind, Jean is Wanda and she’s his sister, a baby cradled in his arms as he sways her in his old rocking chair.
But in this memory, infant Wanda’s skin is paler, more freckled and her hair is curly and red. He’ll protect this baby just as fiercely as the other.
Pietro will comfort Jean like any brother would.
The next morning Wanda is standing at the foot of the bed looking like a demon out of hell as she sees Jean and Pietro cuddling without her. Pietro has exactly one millisecond to prepare himself before she decides to interrupt by diving in between them at full speed and forcing herself between the sleepy duo. Whining about how cuddle piles are better than cuddle pairs.
That afternoon Pietro tries Mom's recipe and leaves a few Latkes outside of Hank's door. Then Pietro runs to the city to get new bed sheets for all the bedrooms after he finds a weird-looking green stain on one of the spare sheets downstairs.
“You didn’t take my card.” Charles frowns.
“Didn’t need it.” Pietro says flippantly, tossing the old bedsheets into trash bags in less than three seconds. Using about forty-two giant trash bags.
“Peter-“ Charles has a disappointed look on his face that makes Pietro stumble slightly on his way to the dumpster and back.
“-you didn’t need to steal the sheets. I can afford to pay for new sheets.”
“I know.”
“Then why did you steal them?”
“I don’t know.” Pietro fidgets, itching to leave. “I just wanted to get it myself.” Having to ask for money felt like the worst fate in the history of ever.
“I know you have an affinity for stealing. It’s not an easy habit to break but it’s truly not necessary to do so anymore.”
Pietro frowns at the ugly monster crawling around in his head “How do you know that I have an affinity for stealing?”
It’s that specific word. Affinity. He’s heard it before. A cop said it to him once, relating it to his kleptomania, spitting it at him as he tied the handcuffs on his wrist too tight. Leaving marks for days.
Charles doesn’t answer right away and Pietro immediately rummages through Charles' things in less then a second.
Pietro finds his file on his desk. His stomach twists and he’s in front of the professor in microseconds and pointing the rancid file at his face.
“You have my file.”
“I was only doing a background check. It’s our usual procedure. I do it for all of my students.”
“I didn’t see Wanda’s file? Jeans? Only mine. I checked.” Does Charles think he’s stupid? He’s not fucking stupid.
“It’s different with them.”
“How-“ in that second Pietro realizes the differences between him and the girls. Charles can’t go inside his house. He’s stumbling in the dark. “-You can’t read my mind.” That’s so fucked.
“You’re misunderstanding.”
“Am I? You can’t read my mind, so instead you read my file. You read school reports, police reports. The worst of the worst of what people have had to say about me and you decided I’m a crook. Is that it?”
“Pietro-“
“-It’s Peter to you.”
That’s a mouthful. He remembers him saying that. Like a dick. Because Charles is a dick. How can he forget that?
Charles lets out a breath “Peter, you are not a crook. This file told me a lot of bad yes but it told me a lot of good as well.”
Pietro doesn’t care what he has to say. He should just leave before he can sell his case. He doesn’t.
“You stole a lot of unnecessary things, seventeen jetskis seems a bit excessive. But you also stole diapers for your sister, a stroller, baby formula. For every dumb merchandise you smuggled there were two more you absolutely needed. My goal was not to analyze or gather intel behind your back to wish you Ill but simply to understand you a bit more as a person.” Charles’ gaze softens and Pietro is finding it very difficult to find that rage he had a few moments ago.
“All that file revealed to me was that you’ve been dealt a rough hand and have been given a grand disservice from the adults in your life.”
Pietro's chest feels too heavy for this earth like he should be sinking into the core.
“You are a wonderful son.” Charles doesn’t need to clarify which report he’s referring to.
“You are a wonderful brother.” Pietro thinks of the pink snow shoes he stole for Wanda when she was six because she kept slipping and sliding on the walkway.
“You are a wonderful friend.” He thinks of his friend from middle school whose skin was a little too dark for a white suburban school, whom everyone kept calling a particularly nasty word. He remembers the result of that. The way Pietro had tried to protect him and ended up with blood on his hands.
“You Pietro Django Maximoff are a wonderful, compassionate, strong and intelligent young man and I am so incredibly sorry that you have not been treated as such and that all these horrible things seem to happen as a result of that.”
Pietro changes his mind. Running away is a perfectly justifiable plan.
Yeah, maybe visiting his mother won’t be so bad.
Notes:
Cool. See you next time. As always, misspellings will be found.
Chapter 4: Friends Of Humanity
Summary:
There was a knock on the front door that startled both Miss Margo and him.
“Expecting company?” Pietro voices stiffly.
“I never am.” She moved to go to the door.
Another set of knocks and the doorbell for good measure. Miss Margo quickens her steps looking a bit agitated when she opens the door, top chain still on.
“Hello? Who’s there?” Her head covered the small opening in the door so Pietro couldn’t see who was knocking.
“Margaret Wagner, our apologies for disturbing your evening.”
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Pietro goes to see his mom when a series of events happen at the home she’s presumed to be staying in.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
He knows he’s blowing it out of proportions. Pietro tends to do that.
Charles says something genuinely nice and Pietro freaks out and runs to his mom like he’s ten years old all over again. Except it's not that dramatic considering besides his mom, Charles is the only person to ever say something like that to him.
David never pretended to love Pietro as his own. Never giving in to terms of endearment or giving any form of genuine pep talk that might be misconstrued as fatherly or loving. David never ever confused him.
Pietro always knew his place with him.
He was always going to be the bastard child for him. The permanent heavy baggage of the women he claimed to love. Something he had to put up with to be with Pietro’s mom. Something he had to deal with instead of love.
Anything and everything that ever came out of Davids mouth was critical and judgmental, cruel in a way only he could be. His stepfather had a way of turning it off though. Of twisting his face and softening his voice to make himself seem like a saint. Like a picture perfect person. A concerned new husband stepping up to raise a kid that wasn’t his. A caring step dad picking up his delinquent son from the sheriff's office, smoothly talking to the police to make them release Pietro to his custody. He can morph himself to seem more than he actually was. It took his mother far too long to realize it.
So yeah, Charles' words were nice. Too nice. Too genuine. Pietro felt too vulnerable in front of Charles and he ran away. Like he always does. Like he’s been doing all his life.
Okay, whatever. Sue him.
He’s gonna see his mom, and she’ll talk him back into the school. He’s basically already here anyway he just has to make a pit stop.
The first time Pietro Django Maximoff met Miss Margo the very first thing he thought was that she had really cool looking hair. He had been about fourteen years old, a freshmen in high school and his own curly hair had been fully gray and silver at that point but in a desperate attempt at seeming normal he would dye consistently brown every two weeks.
Her hair had gone ashy gray with age and was running down her back in intricate locs. She had colorful seashells in her hair that made Pietro think she was some sort of underwater creature. Her skin was a smooth brown and always adorned some form of body glimmer or glitter, and despite her age she didn’t have that many wrinkles, just the one beside her white eyes that creased when she smiled too brightly. Which was very often. She looked cool .
After he met her he kept forgetting to buy hair dye.
Miss Margo was blind, and some might consider this a factor to the colorful way she dresses but it’s not. Pietro has seen photos of before she lost her sight. From when she was a trapeze artist and her form of dress had nothing to do with her vision. Miss Margo used to work at a traveling circus and met all sorts of people and did all sorts of things. She’s tell Pietro Long riveting stories about her time in the circus and would allow herself to divulge in the words nearly just as much as she’d speak about God. She’d never go into too much detail about how she lost her sight but she always said that she found god afterwards.
The gold cross around her neck was always proudly displayed on her chest. Miss Margo welcomed his mom into her home when she needed it most. For that alone Pietro owes Miss Margo a debt. Even if she forces him to use up his Sunday.
But for now he supposes flowers would have to suffice. He hoped she wasn’t allergic to any particular flower when he went to The Token flower shop.
He slowed down, looking at the pretty potted flowers outside before walking into the store, the doorbell jingling.
The flower shop smelled like dirt and soil, and the first thing that Pietro sees is pale long arms and stained blue jeans carrying an overflowing basket of Daisies, one second away from dropping them.
“Hello, welcome in-“ the florist trips on literal air, not a pebble or rug in sight.
Pietro catches them before the flowers touch the ground and the employee, a blonde haired green eyed boy looks at him in embarrassment, face red like a ripe tomato.
“You dropped this.” Pietro hands him the seven or so flowers he caught midair and the florist grabs them gingerly, staring at him openly.
“Dirt on my face?” Pietro wipes his face with his jacket sleeve.
“No sorry,” the boy shakes his head, his bangs shaking with him. After a few more stumble my words he seems to finally be able to say “you’re- holy shit- you’re Peter Maximoff, aren’t you?”
Um.
Pietro takes a ginormous step back.
“You know that how?” Pietro thinks their might be another flower shop downtown but he can’t be sure. It might take him longer then he likes to find it.
“Me and my pa use to go to all your marathons. We thought a local might finally make it to the Olympics.”
Oh.
Pietros chest ached at that. His gut twisting as the knife plunged deeper into that particularly unsealed wound.
He forgets that people actually knew him. People rooted for him. Had his face on tshirts, his signatures on napkins. He wasn’t famous but he was known. Enough that when he was erased, stripped from any title or any trophies he might’ve won from the years competing that he wasn’t erased from people’s memories.
This kid, maybe a freshman in high school, had gone to all his games.
“You think you might start running again?” The boy smiles at Pietro hopefully.
Pietros is not allowed to anymore. Not ever.
“Nah, it was bad on the knees.” He says smoothly, picking up a bouquet of Lilies from beside the register. “Can I get these?”
“Yeah, sure, of course.” The boy puts his basket down and goes behind the counter. “This for a girlfriend?”
“No, no girlfriend. Just for one of my neighbors.”
“Oh, yeah? They like Lilies?”
“They love em’.” Pietro lies a lot. It’s a bad habit.
“I bet. You know Lilies symbolize purity and innocence. In religious iconography, they often represent the Virgin Mary, and are also often depicted at the Resurrection of Christ.”
Bible stuff. Sounds like the perfect flower.
“Miss Margo will love them for sure.” Pietro hears Charles' voice in the back of his head, telling him not to steal and he takes out his wallet begrudgingly.
“How much?”
“On the house.” He says and Pietro looks at him in surprise “you sure?”
“Yeah, you’ve already done me a great service, just by showing up here.”
Pietro likes free shit more than he likes stolen shit. Although stolen items are technically free, just less voluntary.
“Before you go though, can I get an autograph?”
Pietro smiles, “Of course.”
Muscle memory twists Pietro's wrist and the pen and paper wear his name simply.
He leaves the flower shop with a handful of lilies wrapped in pretty pale paper and a bit of a smile on his face. Puts the flowers on the inside of his jacket, zipper holding them tightly against him, not wanting the soft petals on the flowers to go flying once he goes into super speed.
It’s kinda hard to misplace Miss Margo’s house. It’s the only yellow house on the block, freshly painted that shade of piss when she moved in. It wouldn’t be too jarring if the roof tiles weren’t also a staining orange making her house look like an angry sun. Her rose bushes are perfectly wild and vibrant and her door a matte white with a wreath made of recyclable soda cans. The lawn had her signature cats dozing off, a black and white cat parked beneath her mailbox.
Her yellow and blue curtains were drawn, unable to see from inside but that’s more or less the usual style it wears.
Pietro takes a breath, securing his Walkman on his hip, giving the flowers a once over and knocking on the door three times. Pietro waits, biting the inside of his cheek and tries to peek through one of the windows when no one answers. No luck. The blinds are thick and he couldn’t see a damn thing inside. He’s about to knock again when the door knob starts jiggling.
Pietro jerks straight, fixing his hair. The door creaks open the little chain linking the door and the wall tightening. Miss Margo’s pokes her head into view looking directly at Pietro. “Hello? Who’s there?”
Right, she’s blind.
“Hello, miss Margo, it's Peter. Peter Maximoff.” She slams the door in his face and he startled back.
What the fu-
The front door jiggles a bit and then abruptly opens all the way, revealing big wide arms that pull Pietro into one large embrace .
Pietro holds the flowers away from his chest as he’s attacked by Miss Margo’s strong affection.
“Oh Peter, dear. It’s so nice to see you.” She chuckles to herself “well not see you but you know what I mean.” She squeezes him tightly, even lifting his whole body off the ground for a moment.
He forgot that miss Margo was a hugger.
“Come in, come in, I just made cookies!” She’s practically dragging him inside her home before Pietro could get one word out. An orange cat snuck in behind him just before she locked the door.
Pietro hadn’t ever actually been inside Miss Margo’s house before. It’s exactly how he pictured it. News paper clipping framed crookedly on the wall. Photos of her cats and of her family. The wallpaper was pretty butterflies and the carpet was worn and yellow but clearly cleaned regularly. The house smelled of freshly baked cooked. The deeper they got in the house the more he saw.
Different colored lamps, most likely thristed, a chunky purple couch with a velvet and fluffy aray of throw pillows. Crosses at every corner, incense burning in one nightstand below a picture of black Jesus. Different Knick knacks and accessories on every corner that only a blind woman would like.
“Take off your shoes please.” Pietro quickly toes his shoes, the nice silver sneakers with the white laces piling next to the entrance of the living room. His mother used to buy him a new pair of shoes each year, around the summer but when he hit puberty and after he got his powers she couldn’t keep track of all the sneakers or even afford to buy new ones and she more or less told him to figure it out. This resulted in him duct taping old shoes or stealing new shoes until they wore out and he eventually had to put duct tape on them. Rinse repeat. Over and over.
Hank developed and tailored these shoes specifically for Pietro and his power. Heat resistant, cold resistant, water resistant and made of thick rubbery material used for spaceship chairs. He gave them to Pietro one day just before his morning run. He said “one of my old pairs.” But hanks feet are gigantic and are weirdly shaped and no way he had them lying around. But Hank was acting like it was nothing like it wasn’t the first pair of shoes someone has gotten him since he was twelve.
Pietro started tearing up and Hank quickly left the room because emotions freak him out.
“Are those for me?” Hw frowns, not quite paying attention to what the older lady had been saying. She extends her hand looking blindly towards Pietro with a smile. “The flowers. Are they for me Peter?”
“How’d you know I had flowers?” Pietro raised his eyebrows.
“I’ve been faking being blind this whole time.”
“Gotta get that disability check somehow.”
“I’m always down for defrauding the government.”
“I know you are.” Pietro laughs extending the flowers to Miss Margo’s open hand. Miss Margo chortles her openly loud laugh before she responds truthfully.
“I smelled the fertilizer, I can hear the crunching of the paper around the stems.” She grabs the stems gently, smiling. She dodged the corner of the table, muscle memory kicking in as she scurries to her kitchen, reaching for a vase already filled with rotten flowers. She takes the old ones out, tosses them in the trash with perfect aim.
“What kind are they?”
“Lilies.” Pietro says watching as she drains and fills the vase with more water from the sink.
She plops the flowers in like she’s done it a million times and touches the petals with soft fingers. “My favorite.”
Fucking nailed it.
“My daughter's name was lilie. She actually named herself. I had her in the circus, no hospital, no doctors, no birth certificate, up until she was four I simply called her darling and one day I sat her down and I asked her what she would like to be named. She was a very smart child, very thoughtful and so I expected her to have to think about it, maybe take a moment to consider the very many options she had. But without a glimmer of doubt she said ‘my name is lilie.’ She loved the flower. Reginald, her godfather, the clown, had this act where he’d pull a flower out of his sleeve and it was a pink lily and she’d always get real close to it and every single time water would squirt out of it. Nonetheless Every Time she couldn’t resist getting close to see the flower.”
Her daughter's name was lily. Was.
“I’m sorry.” If he had known the damn flowers would be a sour topic he wouldn’t have bought them to begin with.
“Don’t be, she died a very long time ago. The flowers don’t make me sad, they just remind me that she’s in a better place now.”
Pietro didn’t ask how she died. First because it seemed rude and second because he was afraid to know the answer.
“Plus my heart was always meant to love lost children.” Miss Margo patted Pietros cheek as she walked past him, placing the vase in the center of her dining table.
“That’s why I have Frankie and Kurt.”
“Who?”
“My boys?”
“You know Frankie. He’s at school at the moment, he’s got a bit of a speech impediment but he’s quite the talker, he’s in the same class as your sister Wanda, he might have a bit of a crush on her though. She complimented the charms on his wheelchair once and he hasn’t shut up about it. Silly boy.”
Pietro has never actually met Frankie and he had no idea he and Wanda had a class together. Frankie being in a wheelchair explains the ramp on the porch though. And probably why Wanda was more than willing to play dirty when she was playing tag with Charles last week. Little shit doesn’t discriminate.
“And you don’t know Kurt. He’s my other foster son. I’ve had him for less than six months. He’s actually around your age, eighteen give or take. He’s just settling into the country. Believe it or not he was raised by the very same circus I used to work in. It was practically fate. He’s a bit shy so he doesn’t go out very much and he’s still practicing his English, so I’ve been homeschooling him. Which is plenty fine. I needed a bit of a refresher anyway. History books and such are all so informative. It’s so interesting to see how much the world has changed…and how much it hasn’t changed.”
“Right…” Pietro doesn’t know what to make of that. It was just another chapter in Miss Margo’s fascinating story. Although Pietro is a little bit distracted considering he actually just wanted to see his mother. “I’m sure you can tell me all about him after-“
“-I could introduce you two, he’s right-oh.” Pietro suddenly gets a whiff of sulfur. What the hell was that?
“Nevermind. I suppose not. Like I said he’s a bit shy. Maybe another time.”
“I’d love to another time. Really but if I’m being honest Miss Margo I’d like to see my mother. Is she present? Or…in the synagogue?”
Miss Margo's face forms an odd expression, her eyes blinking slowly “your mother? You must be confused, your mother isn’t here Peter.”
Pietro felt his heart bang against his chest, faltering in his step “what do you mean? She said she was staying with you.”
Pietro runs back to his conversations with his mom. She said Miss Margo. He’s sure of it. She hadn’t said someone else’s name. “She was. She stayed for a couple days but she hasn’t been here in about a month or so.” She fiddles with the cross on her chest.
“Why-“ Pietro can’t form a sentence. Why would his mom lie about where she was staying? She's called him multiple times. She called him just a couple days ago!
Although she did always somehow manage to say in every phone call “-do not come by here.” Was this why? She said it was because they were watching her, that it wasn’t safe but was she really just covering up her lie?
Pietro is going in circles in his head. “Peter. Sit down. You seem anxious.” Before he could protest, Miss Margo pulls out a sturdy wooden chair and practically forces him to sit down, running to the kitchen to pour him water.
“I don’t even know where she would be staying. I don’t understand why’d she lie.”
“Lying is a sin.” Miss Margo reprimands from the kitchen, she places the cup of water beside Pietro “although, it might’ve been for a good reason.”
“So lying is okay if it’s for a good reason?” Pietro doesn’t understand why he’s even adding to this fire, but he’s having a breakdown and needs something else to focus on before the room goes still and the air gets thin.
Before the whole world stops moving and he’s left alone.
“No, lying is never good even if it’s for a good reason. But god is a forgiving god and I think a little lie wouldn’t hurt his feelings too much.”
“Doesn’t seem like a little lie. How do I know she’s safe? How do I know she’s not out in a ditch somewhere or sleeping under a bridge or-“
“-she’s not walking around homeless Peter. You said so yourself. She’s called you. We don’t have public phone booths in this town. She’s somewhere safe, with access to a phone.”
“You don’t know that.” Pietro could check every house. He could, like, actually physically confirm if she’s in a house anywhere in this neighborhood. Why not add breaking and entering to the very long list of laws he’s broken. He’s done it before. He’s broken a man out of the fucking pentagon. It was easy. He can do a house. He can do a hundred houses. No sweat. He can raid every neighborhood until-
“-I’m not supposed to tell you this. Your mother made me promise not to.”
Pietros entire body was vibrating, the cup of water shaking in his grip so he had to put it on the table so it wouldn’t spill.
“Tell me what?”
“God forgive me.” She whispered under her breath, caressing her cross “she’s with your father.”
“What?” Pietro was running on autopilot. “My father?” For a split second he couldn’t even process that sentence.
“They let him out early, he came by to pick up your mother just a couple days after your house caught fire. She asked me not to tell you.”
David is out of prison.
“But he’s meant to be locked up for seven more months.” Pietro was fucking counting. He didn’t go a day without thinking about it. How many days left he had before his step-dad would get out the slammer and wreak havoc on their lives again.
“He got out for good behavior or something of the sort.”
For good behavior. What a load of horse shit. He shouldn’t even have that fucking option. Not him. Not for the stuff they locked him up for. He should’ve been locked up longer, not less.
This is so absolutely fucked.
“Why did she go with him? She shouldn’t have gone with him.” Pietro can’t seem to be able to breathe anymore and Miss Margo was forcing the cup of water onto his lips. Making him slow down to sip from it.
“Peter, he didn’t exactly give the impression that she had a choice, your step-father, I don’t pretend to know his character but he’s a very intimidating man.” Miss Margo rubbed circles on his back soothingly.
Pietro swallows the rest of the drink in one moment “He’s gonna hurt her.” His voice not his own.
“I don’t think so. She seemed to have something he wanted and she wouldn't divulge.” Miss Margo squeezed Pietros shoulders firmly.
Something he wanted? David never wanted anything he didn’t already have. He doesn’t care about anything. Or anyone. The only thing Pietro could think that David might want is money, or beer or…Wanda.
The only person David ever gave even a minuscule of care for was his own flesh and blood.
He wanted Wanda. And mom must’ve refused to tell him where she was. That’s why she didn't want Pietro to come. Why she never asked for specifics when she mentioned the school. Why she kept the phone calls short.
“She can’t be with him.” Pietro's heart aches at the idea of the two in a room together after all this time. He knew it would happen eventually. They’re technically still married. Technically still legally binded to each other. Eventually David was gonna get out, he just wasn’t prepared for it to be so soon. “He’s not a good person. He’s-“ a monster. The words catch in his throat and Miss Margo is petting his silver hair now, raking her fingers through each knot and humming softly under her throat. He doesn’t realize he’s been talking at super speed, his begging falling flat. Incomprehensible to Miss Margo’s ears.
Pietro was prone to panic attacks.
He had a few as a child but once he got his super speed it kick started the part of his brain that told him to freak the fuck out at all times and the panic attacks became a daily occurrence for years. Funnily enough running is what ended up helping. Running at regular speed he means. Training. Joining track made his anxieties level out. David going to prison may have also contributed to his overall chillness. When he won his first trophy he remembers floating on air for days. Feeling like his life was finally starting to make sense. Finally starting to be some form of normalcy. Like he could actually just be a regular dude.
That sense of calmness didn’t last very long.
His panic attacks didn’t really go away, he still had them of course just not as frequently. Rarely actually. Almost never.
And then he got his trophies taken away and was banned from running competitively ever again. Pietro became unbalanced again.
Pietro knew anxiety ran in the family. He got it from his mother who got it from her mother who got it from hers. Rinse repeat. Passed down from generation to generation and intensified for the next of kin.
“Your mother is a big girl, she will be okay.” Miss Margo says “I’ve been praying for her every night.”
Pietro sniffs rubbing at his wet face and feeling like a big stupid baby for crying in a strangers house like some basket case.
There was a knock on the front door that startled both Miss Margo and him.
“Expecting company?” Pietro voices stiffly.
“I never am.” She moved to go to the door.
Another set of knocks and the doorbell for good measure. Miss Margo quickens her steps looking a bit agitated when she opens the door, top chain still on.
“Hello? Who’s there?” Her head covered the small opening in the door so Pietro couldn’t see who was knocking.
“Margaret Wagner, our apologies for disturbing your evening.”
“Who am I speaking with?” Miss Margo gripped the four tighter, out of view from the people outside. “Are you the IRS? I told you people I won’t let you take money off my check for healthcare! It’s thievery! And I don't even need health insurance. I haven't been to the doctor In nearly ten years, and if God wants me off this green earth I’ll be damned to try and stop him.”
Miss Margo is on the outs with the IRS. Pietro finds that bit of information quite hilarious.
“No, sorry we’re not from the IRS, we're from the Friends Of Humanities association located in this district and we’ve been informed by multiple concerned neighbors that there might be a suspicious character being housed here.”
“Suspicious how?” Miss Margo, an older black Christian woman, was not one to beat around the bush. Pietro totally respects that. He also wonders by her death grip on the door frame how many times people have gone to her house because a ‘suspicious character’ was living in her house.
Miss Margo is one of the few black homeowners that live in this neighborhood, her house, besides the Maximoff residence, was one of the most frequently vandalized and Pietro knows that his house and Miss Margo’s are the two houses visited most by cops.
“Not much detail, just that the individual has a deformity of some kind and may be in cahoots with the devil.”
What the fuck? Pietro didn’t just mishear that right? What are these people on about?
“God bless, no. No devil here. All followers of Christ in this household. Well…besides Junior.”
“Junior? May we speak to junior?”
“It would be quite difficult but you can go ahead. He's the one currently pissing next to the mailbox, orange fur. Real devilish cat. He was run over by a truck last summer, lost the tip of his tail. Hasn’t been the same since, poor fellow.”
Pietro stifles a laugh. He knows they probably weren’t talking about a cat.
“Not a cat, Ma’am. Can we search your home? So we can be extra sure no Ill characters are in your home?” Pietro stiffens.
“No.”
“Pardon?” The man’s voice came out way less professional then he’s been attempting to be for the last several minutes.
“Do you have a warrant?”
“We have multiple eyewitnesses and numerous complaints.”
“Doesn’t sound like a Warrant to me. If you enter my home without one I’ll consider you trespassers and sue you do that I can afford health insurance.”
“You can’t sue-“
“Yes I can. My sister in law is a lawyer. She’s very good at what she does. She specializes in elder law. And I’m a disabled old blind woman who is being targeted by a terrorist group.”
“We are not terrorist and this has nothing to do with your disability-“
“-so it’s because I’m black,”
“This is not a race thing.”
“We can make it a race thing. I’ll also add being persecuted for my religious beliefs to the very long list of charges you've already accumulated.”
“We haven’t-“
“Get. A. Warrant. Pigs.” She slams the door shut right in their face and dies a quick cross motion on her chest.
“We’ll be back!”
“I already have my sister in law on the phone!” Miss Margo yells blindly at the door and a Pietro hears the retreating forms of multiple disgruntled men.
Miss Margo darts to the couch stuffing her hands between the cushions as soon as the men are gone.
“The house phone is to the left of the couch.” Pietro says helpfully and Miss Margo shakes her head, her seashells clinking together.
“I don’t actually have a sister in law. I’m looking for my stash.” She flips one of the cushions and dips the side of the form and quickly retrieves a ziplock bag full of money. Hundred dollar bills stacked up and rolled and stuffed between sofa cushions. She does that for the next three cushions coming out with zip lock bags full of various things.
Holy shit. Was she swindling money from the IRS?
“Here.” She hands the ziplock bags to Pietro who’s eyes nearly bulge out of his head in shock. Now that he has a better look of them he sees a passport and old grainy photographs and what seems to be a birth certificate “Uh…why exactly do you have this? And why are you giving it to me?”
“You need to take Kurt to where ever you took your sister.”
“Huh? Who’s Kurt?”
“Pay attention child. He’s my foster son, Kurt Wagner, super shy, homeschooled. We’ve discussed.”
“Have we? Not in great detail? Why am I taking this Kurt dude?”
“Because Friends of Humanities is a terrorist group against mutants. They weren’t here for you, they where here for him.”
Because Kurt is a mutant. He’s just like Wanda. Just like Pietro.
“He’s a mutant?”
“Yes.”
“And…that’s okay with you?”
“I use to work in the circus and when you’re in that sort of bizarre environment you get used to the unusual and you learn to even appreciate it. It didn’t deter me in the slightest how blue his skin was or what gifts he seemed to carry. I just knew that he was beaten and he was scared and they had him in a cage and he didn’t deserve to be in one so I took him.”
Fostering is starting to sound a little bit like kidnapping but Pietro kinda glazes over that since it sounds like he needed to be taken away from that shit situation.
“He has blue skin?”
“So I’ve been told.” She scurries past Pietro to the kitchen “Kurt! No need for hiding.”
She opens the kitchen pantry and Pietro frowns at the prospect of someone being hidden in there the whole time. Miss Margo whispers something in the pantry and someone whispers back so Pietro knows that She isn’t completely mental.
“He’s friendly. He’ll help you go somewhere safe.”
Pietro doesn’t remember agreeing to anything but he already knows before the cowering boy steps out of the pantry that he would definitely help. He couldn’t imagine not helping Miss Margo.
“Yes I’m sure.” Miss Margo mends and extends her aging hand to the boy inside. A blue hand with three fingers touches her hand and Miss Margo smiles as she slowly coaxes him out.
Pietro has about one second to school his expression when he sees a fully grown blue demon-looking boy stumble out of the closet, his long pointed tail straying behind him.
He has a tail. He has Fangs. He has claws. He’s blue. He knew he was blue but I guess he didn’t know. Didn’t believe it until this very moment.
He’s also scared. Big eyes never once looking away from Miss Margo’s comforting blind eyes. “Will you come with us?”
“I’ve gotta take care of Frankie.” The blue boy, Kurt, seemed to deflate at that looking away from his foster mom with a strained expression.
“Don’t be sad.” Miss Margo is blind but she must have a motherly instinct like no other “I need you to be safe. You are my family and I will do everything in my power to help you but this is not goodbye. Okay?”
“Not goodbye.” Kurt repeats and looks about ready to cry. “Can I hug you?”
“Don’t have to ask.” And miss Margo is already wrapping her arms around Kurt’s sides. He’s much taller than her, so he places his chin on top of her head and envelopes her in a hug as well, his tail lands around her shoulder gingerly.
A loud shout behind the door startled them apart and makes Pietro flinch.
What the hell was that?
Just as Miss Margo was about to ask what was wrong the window nearest to Pietro shatters open and a rock landed at his feet. Only missing his head because he moved swiftly away from harm. The rock made a loud clunking noise. Except it wasn’t a rock. It was a canister. A very familiar canister with smoke coming out of each end. Pietro in a panic picked up the canister, which burned and singed his hand, and chugged it out the already broken window. Okay, what the hell?
“Try to hold your breath.” Pietro says loudly, but he wasn’t quite sure if Miss Margo could hear him over the hammering of her door and Kurt looked so spooked he could only curl in on himself and scurry away from the broken glass on the floor.
Another window shattered. Another canister. Pietro chugs it out the window again.
“This is breaking and entering! The police are on the way!” Miss Margo moves one of her cat pictures on the wall to reveal a safe. She clicks in some numbers Pietro can’t see or pay attention to because another window is shattered and utterly broken and he’s chugging yet another Canister out the forsaken window.
Miss Margo has a fucking gun when he turns to face her again. How in the hell a blind woman had access to any lethal armory is beyond Pietro's knowledge and honestly, he isn’t even surprised in the slightest by this turn of events. He’s mostly confused as to why she stored a gun in there and not the money and passport she had smuggled in her cushions.
She cocks the revolver in her hand and aims it straight at the door. “Leave my property or I will break more than just one commandment.”
“Margaret Wagner we may not have a warrant to search your property but we have just been informed that a Peter Django Maximoff is in your home at this very moment and we do have a warrant for his arrest.”
Well, fuck. How would they know that? Pietro couldn’t possibly been seen by the neighbors he had barely been in normal speed for s minute since he’d stepped into the neighborhood.
“I don't know who that is! Leave!”
“Do not make this harder than it has to be.”
“You’re the one breaking my mahogany windows!” She fires a bullet and Pietro hears more then sees the bullet hit one of the assailants behind the wooden door. A bullet-sized hole is now visible in the door.
A loud grunt and a curse.
Followed by an outraged scream and the first swing of an ax on the wooden door. Then a flash of blinding light from the windows that made Pietro wince and a high pitched noise that made Kurt and him groan in pain. Disoriented Pietro tries to cover his ears, feeling the wet blood trickling down his face.
Irritated, he jumps out one of the windows at super speed. He spots three men just outside that window and one of them has a gloved hand on a canister, moments away from throwing into that very window again.
Pietro punches the man in the gut and makes the other two punch each other as he grabs the already smoking canister and aims it at another approaching man from the left.
He super speeds to the front lawn picks up two men and dumps them in a trash can in another yard three blocks away. He punches one man in the stomach making them fly off the porch.
He zips past two other men in superspeed making them jerk away at the force of his speed and to the two men breaking down Miss Margo’s front door with an axe he gives them mega wedges and snatches the ace away from their grip and hits one of them in the face with the hilt of the axe, knocking his teeth out and the other he flings off the porch and on to a pile of cat shit.
When he goes back to regular speed all of the Friends Of Humanity are on the ground incapacitated. Pietro grins and the front door opens.
“Peter? Where’d they go?”
“Unconscious.”
Kurt stares at Pietro from inside openly showing the awe on his face. “You where just inside.” He says numbly.
“I was, and now I’m outside.” Pietro zipped right in front of Kurt in superspeed, showing off a little bit but suddenly Kurt is also gone.
Pietro blinks in confusion and twirls around to face the door thinking maybe he missed him without realizing.
Kurt was outside, to left of where he had been previously. Half his body materializing out of thin air.
Holy shit.
Pietro goes back into regular speed and watches the smoke rush off Kurt and they both look at each other with matching grins.
“We are the same?” Kurt says and Pietro can’t contain the giddy laugh that erupts from his mouth.
“I run super fast.”
“I can travel anywhere as long as I can see it or have been there before.”
“That’s the coolest fucking thing I’ve ever heard.” Pietro goes to Kurt in normal speed feeling a bit too excited by the entire revelation. “Are you able to travel with other people?”
“Yeah if I’m not too tired.”
“Can you do it with other stuff? Like heavy stuff? Can you teleport with just for example a Pac-Man machine? Just curious.”
“What’s a Pac-Man?”
“Holy shit. What’s a pac-man machine? Are you serious? You need to go to an arcade or something. You’d love it.” Pietro doesn’t actually know if he would but Pietro does and he unanimously decided that they are in fact the bomb.
“I’ve never teleported anything heavier than myself.” Kurt says and Pietro laughs, grabbing his bicep “just means you need to bulk up.”
Kurt’s face goes a nice shade of purple and Pietro isn’t sure how color theory works on blue skin but that might mean that Kurt’s blushing. “Bulk up?”
“Yeah! If you get stronger you’ll be able to carry bigger things. Therefore you’d also be able to teleport them. Hank has me on this food regiment that’s got me gaining so much weight, but it’s just turning into muscle cause I run so much. He can totally make you something like that. It’ll taste disgusting though full warning.”
“Who’s Hank?”
“He works at the school.”
“Like a teacher?”
“No, not really. He’s a doctor. You’ll like him, he’s blue too.”
Kurt’s open his mouth to say something before Miss Margo is stepping out of the house. “Perhaps it’s unwise to be out in the open like this. Reinforcements will come so I think now is the perfect time to go.”
Kurt takes Miss Margo’s hands “what will happen to you and Frankie? I can’t just-“
“-don’t be silly, darling. Frankie gets off of school at 3 today. I gotta run some errands before I go pick him up and we’ll be right behind you.”
Kurt and Pietro look at each other in confusion.
“You’re coming with?” Pietro is still stuck on the part where she’s waiting for Frankie to get off of school.
Why not pick him up early?
“I just said that. Keep up Peter.”
“You want me to pick you up?”
“Of course. I don’t own a car. I’m blind.”
“Right, of course.” Pietro smirks “and you want me to take Kurt first?”
“Yes, exactly. You can meet me at the elementary pick up line at three forty five.”
“I know the one. Cool.” Everything is going kind of fast but Pietro still never got what he came here for.
“And my mom?”
“I don’t know where Magda is Peter. But I have a feeling she hasn’t told you for a reason.”
“Right…” Pietro will figure that out later but for now he turns to Kurt and grabs him by the waist and puts his hand behind his neck. The blue boy goes flush purple “What are you doing?”
“Holding your neck so you don’t get whiplash.”
“Whiplash. Has that happened before?”
Yes. Many, many times with many different people. “It’s just a precaution.”
“Okay.” Kurt relaxes under his touch.
“Okay. You might wanna close your eyes. Flies are a bitch at superspeed.”
“Right, so smart. Thank you.” Pietro tries not to think too much about being called smart again. He’s so easy it’s embarrassing.
“Back in a bit, Miss Margo.”
“See you soon, boys,”
Pietro puts on his goggles. He runs towards the X Mansion this time instead of away.
Notes:
Okay so I introduced Kurt really early on. Yes he’s already a teenager. Don’t think about it too much. Just go with it. :)
Chapter 5: VisionandSpeed
Summary:
“I can only begin to imagine how fast you’re going or how fast you can go with further training. Fast enough to phase through buildings, run through water even.”
“I can run through water.” Pietro takes off his goggles, laying them flat on his messy silver hair.
Hank's jaw drops. Kurt’s eyes widen and he bounces slightly in excitement “like Jesus?”
“What do you mean you can run through water?” Hank asks, pushing his glasses up his nose.
“I did it once by accident, I hadn’t even known I could do it until I did.” Pietro recalls with a shrug.Or
Pietro Maximoff adds to the very small student body of Charles Xavier school for gifted youngsters.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro was gone for less than two hours. One hour and thirty eight minutes to be exact. During that brief time not much had changed in Xavier’s school for gifted youngsters, except of course that the girls had become incredibly bored.
Wanda was in the middle of committing arson. Looking about three seconds away from successfully expelling a demon from the staticy surface of the living room's television. Jean was right beside her with the biggest mischievous grin on her round face, making the Tv float like a giant moving target practice, orange and red entangling around like braided hair.
Kurt and Pietro land right in front of the two gremlins. Right smack dab in the center of the open room.
“I’m back.” Pietro announces loudly.
“You were gone?” Wanda doesn’t stop her dip into madness as she looks like she’s about to pop a vein in her neck while in her attempt to destroy the television.
“Yep. Not long though. This is my new friend Kurt.”
“You’re blue.” Wanda says not even bothering to look away from her obviously far more important task.
“I am.” Kurt swallows thickly, looking way too anxious over talking to a nine year old twerp.
“Why?” Wanda asks annoyingly.
Kurt looks at Pietro with begging eyes.
“It’s his favorite color.” Pietro says sarcastically.
“It’s a good color.” Jean adds helpfully.
“Right.” Pietro throws a bone “and it really makes his fangs pop.”
“Fangs?” Wanda looks at Kurt’s expectantly. Kurt just stands there looking like a deer in headlight.
“Smile, pretty boy.” Pietro nudges gently and Kurt smiles shyly, his cheeks flushing purple.
“See?”
Wanda just stares blankly at Kurt.
“And he’s got nice yellow eyes.” Jean includes and Pietro nods. Jean is coming in strong with the assist.
“Yeah, it does suit him.” Wanda frowns and looks at Kurt quizzically before shrugging back into her task “I’ll allow it.” She says as if she has any say in the matter whatsoever.
“Thanks for your stamp of approval.” Pietro says sarcastically.
“Yes, thank you.” Kurt says not at all sarcastically. He’s such a nice boy.
“Where’s Charles?”
“Who’s Charles?” Kurt folds his hands together nervously looking to Pietro once again and Pietro sees Kurt’s tail wrap around his own body, coiling up like an anxious snake.
“He’s the professor.” Wanda says officially giving up on her mission to end cable. Jean gently places the tv back on its table.
“And he’s in his office, he’s in a bit of a mood.”
That makes Pietro pause “he is?”
“You should go see him.” Wanda says matter-of-factly.
“Maybe I shouldn’t actually.” Pietro doesn’t need reminding exactly where he and Charles left off.
“Where are your shoes?” Jean asks suddenly, voice just above a whisper. Jean is becoming more outwardly vocal and Pietro is beyond proud of the fact that she’s even speaking in front of Kurt at all, who’s literally a stranger she met less than three minutes ago.
“At his house.” Pietro points at Kurt who looks at him owlishly. “Mine?” He mouths silently. His shoes left carefully beside the front door on the wooden creaky floor of the house.
“Why’d you leave them there?” Wanda jumps at the question and the ringing in Pietro's big brother meter is starting to get loud.
“Because.”
“Because?”
“Because.”
“‘Because’ isn't an answer!”
“Because I forgot! Stop nagging me!”
Wanda pulls a face at him and Pietro might be older but he never claimed to be more mature. He flicks her nose and she scrunches her face in irritation and she slaps it away. “You can’t-“ her face fumbles slightly as she looks at the hand that just flicked her. “Your hand is burned.”
Pietro quickly pulls his hand away shoving them in his pocket.
“Why’s your hand burned?”
“Some stuff happened, got messy.”
“What stuff?”
“Stuff little kids shouldn’t worry about.”
“I’m not a little kid, I'm almost ten.”
“Yeah, cool, don’t care.” Not like he can stop her from-“I read Kurt’s mind.” That.
“She did what?” Kurt gapes and he should probably tell him at some point that he’s about to be living with three telepaths.
His thoughts and feelings are ripe for the taking.
“Who’s Friends Of Humanity?” Wanda looks at Jean, a deep rooted frown morphing her face.
Jean pulls on the sleeves of her shirt looking all sorts of apprehensive and Pietro decides to swoop in, standing between Wanda and Jean. Not because he’s afraid Wanda would do anything crazy but because he knows Jean is uncomfortable and the look on her face is making his stomach turn. Jean definitely has experience with Friends of Humanity. No doubt about it but Pietro won’t push.
“I have no idea.” Pietro answers gently and gestures vaguely with his hand “I should probably tell Charles to keep an eye out on them or somethin’.” He was saying that mostly for Jeans benefit so she knows it’s not being brushed off and also because those people are literal nut jobs.
Wanda shakes her head, grabbing Pietro by the elbows and pulling him away from Kurt and Jean and towards the stairs “We should go to Charles office right now since Hank is with him, Hank will heal you up real nice and quick.” Yeah Pietro remembers the way he gently soothed all of Wanda’s wounds the first day here and the many times afterwards.
“I’m okay.” Pietro lied, like a liar. The effect of running barefoot on pavement and grass and woody areas in superspeed resulted in burning aching feet and tiny hundreds of razor thin cuts on the flat of his feet. The burn on his dominant hand in which he had picked up the canisters, had begun to splinter and singe as a result of a clearly laced container. He shouldn’t have picked up those canisters with his bare hands and he shouldn’t have run with his bare feet. He knows he should let Hank help him. He just didn’t wanna see Charles right this second. Not after he freaked out on him and ran away. But-but also he was still mad at him. He doesn’t want to deal with that right now.
He hasn’t even gotten a second to breathe or think . It’s been a very busy day. He started with replacing sheets and now Pietros bringing home a new mutant and his family after briefly running away after Charles read his entire life without asking him and then telling him he’s like a good person or whatever In a very genuine way that Pietro couldn’t fucking deal with.
Yeah. He’s a disaster. Whatever. It’s been an emotional rollercoaster of a day and Pietro wants to take a nap.
“Liar.” Wanda huffs interrupting his thoughts, pulling him away from the other two mutants with amazing strength. He almost immediately realizes she's using her powers to help her pull on his clothes. His jacket tightening around him and gently tugging .
He followed her miserably leaving a startled Kurt behind with a curious Jean.
“You like cable?” Jean asks Kurt with a blank face.
“Never had it.” Kurt responds modestly and Pietro can’t hear the rest of the conversation before he’s already on the second flight of stairs. Wanda’s legs are much smaller than his; she's practically running while he’s taking large steps to keep her pace.
“Hank will make it go away. He’s really good at it.” Wanda has had a few scrapes since she’s been to the school. Just last week she took a tumble off the roof, trying to see if she was able to fly when she wasn’t asleep and scratched up her face and got a tooth knocked out. It was a baby tooth and it was the last one she had.
Ironically Wanda does not believe in the tooth fairy but we did manage to convince Hank that she did and made him dress up in a fairy costume to leave behind a dollar to replace the tooth under her pillow. Pietro recorded the whole thing in a hand held camera they had in storage and will be using it as blackmail sometime soon.
“He’ll give you the magic bandaid and you’ll be all good.” Wanda’s explanation to the tooth fairy not being real was because fairies wouldn’t specialize in human teeth; they'd rather be in nature far away from ugly civilization.
Because the fairy corporation is obviously not making enough profit off of human children’s teeth. They’d just bring the position down to the latter of creatures more qualified like a rat.
Pietro did not inform her that there was in fact a whole region of people who believed in a rat that collects teeth. He mainly tried to focus on the fact that Fairies in Wanda’s magical creature kingdom are the apex predator.
Solid points were made.
Wanda made a very colorful graph, it was very informative. She made Pietro and Jean take notes.
Unicorns being underneath the chupacabra sounded a bit incorrect but Pietro was not about to question her logic.
Anyway the “magic band-aid” is not magical at all. In fact it’s just a regular blue bandaid with a smiley face in the center which Hank claims that children love. Pietro doesn’t which “children” he’s referring to but Wanda believes that it’s magical because within minutes of applying the bandaid on her skin her bruises and cuts healed up. But this has nothing to do with Hank's bandaids and more to do with her powers and how they help her heal when she uses them.
Pietro lets her believe what she wants and Hank takes the praise wherever he can.
“I think Hank is busy with cerebro.” Pietro hilariously still has no ducking idea what cerebro even is but the thing must be massive if he’s been tinkering with it this whole damn time.
“No he’s not.” Wanda says plainly and Pietro hates that she just gets to know that. He can’t even billshit his way out of this. “He’s with Charles. Talking.”
“About what?”
“None of your business?” Suddenly she has morals when it comes to snooping? Jerk.
“I don’t wanna disturb, if it’s important.”
“ This is important.” sounds a lot like she’s saying He’s important which makes Pietro shut the fuck up real fucking quick.
The hallway is long but Pietro can see the door at the end of the hall, slightly open and leading to Charles’ office. Wanda clearly doesn’t see or care about the million alarm bells ringing in Pietros head telling him to not go through that door. Wanda is ruthless and Pietro has no idea where she gets it from.
Without stopping to make herself known, or knock or fucking even breath Wanda whips the door open with her mind and walks right in, Pietro being dragged behind her like a pouty shaken dog.
Charles and Hank abruptly stop in conversation jumping slightly as the door handle smacks against the wall with a loud clunk. Hank gives a quick look at Charles as the professor puts something blindly away in his desk through what seems muscle memory alone because he doesn’t even look at whatever he’s putting away or where he’s putting it in, his eyes immediately stuck on Pietro since the moment he’s entered the room. Narrowing and focusing on him like he’s meant to be observed and looked at.
“Pietro-“ Wanda cannot read a room because he immediately talks over Charles like she was the fault and not him “Pietro got in a fight and he got hurt.”
Charles looks at Wanda with a look of guilt that makes Pietro's stomach turn at what conclusion he’s jumping to.
“a physical fight. And I burned my hand by accident.” Pietro corrects quickly his cheeks flush red at the thought of Charles thinking he hurt his feelings . He would rather die than ever admit Charles' words affected his mental state at all.
“You what?” Hank exclaims, looking way too alarmed by what Pietro just said.
“How’s that possible? Someone was actually able to get close enough to burn you? You didn’t use your super speed?” Hank was beside him so quickly he would’ve mistaken him for having superspeed.
“I used my superspeed.” Pietro mumbles “would’ve been worse if I hadn’t.”
Pietro explains what happened, only after Wanda leaves the room. She’ll find out eventually, it’s hard to keep secrets from telepaths in this house. Unless it’s me who’s keeping it.
Hank and Charles are both openly concerned which only makes Pietro want to shrink away. Hank pulls a first aid kit out of thin fucking air and begins slathering Pietros palm with a weird smelling cream that made his hand sting at contact.
“That hurts.” Pietro whines like a dumb kid, trying to pull his hand away from Hank's care. Charles glares at Hank, as if that was personally his fault “Hank-“ Hank glares at Charles back, looking actually terrifying with the fangs and blue fur. “no shit it hurts. It’s infected.” He aims his irritability at Pietro instead looking between scolding and caring masterfully “You heal faster then most so it had time to get all nasty. You’re lucky it won’t leave too much of a scar.”
“But it will leave a scar?” Charles says and Pietro can hear the frown on his face. Pietro might melt to the floor with the amount of attention he was getting for a few scrapes.
“A very faint one. Shouldn’t be too bad just needs to replace the bandages and reapply the ointment every couple hours. Should be completely fine within three days.”
“That’s good.” Pietro says at the same time that Charles says “isn’t that a bit long? Three days?” He rolls his wheelchair a bit closer to the pair and Pietro tries not to stiffen too obviously.
“Actually the normal time would usually be around 21 days or more for a burn this severe. So three days is actually pretty miraculous.” Hank says pushing his glasses up his blue nose.
“Miraculous.” Charles repeats under his breath and Pietro thinks it’s finally over. He can leave now.
He was wrong.
“And his feet? Is there any infection there?” Charles isn’t talking to Pietro. He’s talking to Hank. Hank isn’t talking to Pietro, he's talking to Charles.
“Can we not talk about my feet?”
“How quickly are you able to supply him with new shoes?” Completely ignored.
“I already have an extra pair I was tinkering with.” Hank says and Pietro is both impressed by his foresight and touched that he even thought of making an extra pair.
“Can I get it in silver this time?”
“Sure.” Hank huffs “and your feet aren’t too bad just need to put the same ointment on them and regularly bathe and clean them in cold water.”
“Cool, are we done, can I go?”
“No, stay right here, I’m going to go get your shoes.”
“I can go get them. I’m faster.” Pietro says.
“It’s best you don’t go anywhere barefoot while in superspeed, even in the house.” Hank is darting out of the room before he could protest, leaving Charles and Pietro to their own Devices.
Was that Intentional?
Damn.
“Peter, may I say something.”
Double damn.
Pietro looks at Charles in the face for the first time since this whole mess. “I would prefer it if you didn’t. The awkward silence is quite soothing.”
Charles soldiers on.
“I believe I may have crossed a boundary for you earlier.”
“My intentions do not matter if it resulted in you feeling uneasy or hurt. What I did was out of line and unwarranted and I'm sorry. Deeply.”
It was a simple apology. The actual words “I’m sorry” actually came out of his mouth. Pietro heard them. It sounded like an apology. It felt like one. It is one. Pietro doesn’t know what to do with that.
What is he supposed to do with all the leftover anger in his chest, temporally squashed into his lung like ash. “I’m still mad.” Pietro says and Charles nods as if he expected as much.
“You can still be mad even if someone apologizes. Even if it’s genuine. It doesn’t make your feelings go away.” Pietro feels the heat behind his eyes and he takes in a cold breath that makes his lungs feel like ice cubes at a party. It’s pitiful to realize that Pietro has never actually been apologized to before. Not like this. Not when he was actually distressed. Not when he deserved one.
He’s heard plenty of half hearted Sorrys from Wanda after a badly executed prank. Or a throw away apology from his drunk mother. But not a real honest one.
Pietro didn’t even realize that fact until he heard a real one.
“Can you say it again?” His voice cracked and it made Pietro cringe but not back away.
“I’m sorry.” Charles repeats without hesitation, without question and with just as much conviction. “For invading your privacy and for using the knowledge I gained to make a point.”
“Again.” Pietro takes in a breath.
“I’m sorry.” Charles doesn't look away from Pietro, not for even a moment “for making you upset enough to leave. I should’ve realized how my words affected you.”
“Again.”
“I’m sorry. I went behind your back instead of just asking you. I was trying to rush a process and gather information I could’ve easily gotten from you.”
“Again.” Pietro can hear it in his own voice.
“I’m sorry Peter you didn’t deserve that level of distrust. From me or from anyone.”
“Again.” He’s going to fucking cry.
“I’m sorry for everything. I’ll try to be better.”
“Again.”
“I’m so sorry.”
Pietros wobbly voice and entire shaking body made him feel like one of Miss Margo’s purring cats. “I’m sorry for running away.”
“I’m sorry for making you run.”
Pietro doesn’t realize he’s planning on hugging Charles until he’s already doing it. He does it in superspeed, wrapping his arms around him, knocking his knee on the wheelchair and transferring all his appreciation and adoration into that single embrace.
For Charles it probably felt like sudden warmth and then an abrupt harsh chillness. He wouldn’t have been able to even process the fact that he’d been hugged. Too fast for him to even register it as one. Although Pietro sees the growing smile on Charles face and infers that the man might suspect Pietro's sudden lapse in sanity.
“It’s cool. We’re cool.” Pietro says in a super cool way like he doesn’t have red puffy eyes from crying at super speed.
Because that’s definitely not something he did. He’s not a baby. This is so chill. They’re both good. This is fine. Charles is chill. He totally did not just unravel him in seconds. Unintentionally mending something Pietro didn’t know was broken with a “I'm sorry.” That’s not what happened.
Don’t be dumb.
Pietro just likes giving random bursts of affection.
“I have the shoes.” Hank comes back in at the perfect time. A bit too perfect. Pietro isn’t convinced he wasn’t just hovering outside the door for the last several minutes while they talked it out.
“And I met Kurt. He’s blue.” Hank says matter-of-fact.
“I mentioned that, didn't I?”
“I don’t believe you did.” Charles says with amusement.
“I feel like that’s not something I’d forget.” Hank sasses.
“Me either.”
“Well you did and I just had the oddest encounter with the boy. I think he thinks I’m his father.”
“What?” Pietro laughed hysterically.
“Are you?” Charles asks the question so seriously that Pietros laughter gets louder.
“I am not!” Hank exasperates “When would I have had the time?”
“He’s my age so did you have a girlfriend around 19 years ago?”
“No.”
Charles gives him a look.
“We weren’t together!” Hank hisses “plus he would’ve been born before I’d even met her. Before I even finished my last doctorate.”
“Ah, that is correct the boy would be much younger if Raven had been the mother.”
“Who’s Raven?”
“She’s my sister.” Pietro knew the professor had a sister, he just hadn’t known what her name was. Or anything about her really. He doesn’t talk about her much. During one of their chess matches he had briefly described growing up with another mutant sibling as a way to relate Pietro and Wanda’s most recent discourse at the time. It had been short and sweet but left the professor looking somber so Pietro never asked further questions on her.
“You had a fling with the professor's sister? Dude!” Pietro is loving this slice of drama.
Hanks hisses af Pietro “we didn’t have a fling. We went on a few dates and then she left the school to be with someone else.”
Ouch.
“Because she was pregnant with your baby.” Pietro instigated. The timeline doesn’t add up. He’s completely fucking with him but bring horribly wrong is worth the look on Hanks face.
“She was not pregnant! I would’ve known, I’m a doctor!”
“I dunno Hank, would you? She can change form, she could easily hide a baby bump.” Charles is still in the game and has added to the fuel.
“Not you too professor!” Hank was distraught and Pietro realizes that nothing brings the mood up faster than messing with Hank “we hadn’t even done anything particularly intimate.”
“If you don’t want to be a father, we understand Hank. It’s a big responsibility. But I must say I see the resemblance.”
“Not all blue people are related, Peter.”
“I was talking about the little matching fangs. But it seems you have some personal issues with blue people.”
“Would you like to talk about your deep-rooted racism towards blue mutants? We are always ready to listen.” Charles does his best professor voice and Pietro has to go into super speed to laugh. It probably sounded like a split second of a high pitched whistle to them.
Hanks mouth makes a giant O and Pietro might actually just fall apart at normal speed into a mess of laughter. This is too much.
“I AM DONE WITH THE BOTH OF YOU!” Hank jerkily hands Pietro his new shoes and throws his hands in his hair to block out their mockery.
Charles and Pietro high five like a couple of school boys.
Pietro put on his new silver shoes and despite doctor's orders began to run around the school with them to feel them out. At some point he takes Charles card and goes to on atm and gets cash out and pays for the sheets he stole in cash, leaving the exact amount, with tax, inside the registers without waiting in the god awful line. Inventory will be a bitch for them but at least they have the money. He doesn’t tell Charles and he’s rich enough to not check his bank account consistently so he has no way of knowing.
He picks up Miss Margo and Frankie who are both packed with suitcases and suitcases of shit he didn’t think about carrying. This is gonna be multiple trips. It was. And he also hadn’t thought about the cats. He brought them too. All seven of them. “The others are strays and very territorial, they won’t want to leave the home base.” Miss Margo said and Pietro left it at that.
Frankie took little to no convincing in moving into the mansion the moment he was told that Wanda was there. “I wanna be where she is. She is my world.”
The fuck.
“Huh?” Pietro has to process his words for a second and then process that a nine year old child just said that about his sister.
“Like I said before. Frankie has a bit of a crush on little miss Wanda.”
“This isn’t a crush, mama! This is love.” Frankie proclaims like he’s said this on multiple occasions. The young boy seems nice enough. He’s a blond haired boy with blue eyes and pale skin. His face is round with baby fat and his silver and red wheel chair make him sit at about Pietros hip. He spots the colorful stone gems he has dangling from the back of his wheelchair and a squishy yellow heart charm that looks like something Wanda may or may not have one at one of the arcade stores he’s taken her to.
“I can’t wait to see her again. I’ve missed her so much. School has been so inbearable without her.”
“Unbearable.” Miss Margo corrects.
“Inbearable is not a word.”
“Buts it’s how I feel.”
“It’s not an actual emotion, the word you’re thinking of is Unbearable.”
“Define it.”
“Unable to be endured or tolerated.”
“Then yes. Undarable is correct. School was undarable.”
“Unbearable.” Miss Margo corrects again.
“Unbearalel.”
“Unbearable.”
“I’m finding this conversation unbearable. No offense. Can you two have it at the Mansion and not in front of the lawn a bunch of people just attacked.”
Several trips later and a tetanus shot on both feet, everyone is in the mansion. Safe and sound.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you Miss Wagner, I’m Professor Charles Xavier.” Charles introduced himself, extending his elbow for Miss Margo to take.
“Oh, You can call me Miss Margo, sugar.” She easily grabs his elbow, squeezing it gently. She’s a very short woman, just barely gracing past 4 feet and stands comfortably beside Charles.
“Of course miss Margo.” Charles begins his tour with Miss Margo, a teasing smile on his face “Peter has mentioned that you were homeschooling Kurt. Did you have previous experience in education?”
Pietro doesn’t recall telling him that but the last couple hours have been so crazy he wouldn’t be surprised if he was word vomiting.
“Well, yes and no, you see I was part of a traveling circus-“ Miss Margo and Charles are now too far away to be heard but Pietro assumes she’s beginning to divulge into her stories.
Pietro will not save Charles from them; he has bigger fish to fry. Fish being Frankie.
The boy's reunion with his sister was more than he expected. Wanda, unlike with her reaction to Kurt’s arrival, seemed to almost levitate towards Frankie. Actually pietro thinks she actually might’ve been levitating but he could be mistaken.
Wanda bounces down the stairs, the biggest grin ripping from her face “Vision!”
“Speed!” Frankie shouts back joyfully looking like he’s about to cry as he wheels quickly towards the edge of the stairs to meet her faster.
They collapse into a big hug with the both giggling and laughing like…well like little kids.
“Who’s vision and speed?” Jean appears from literal thin air looking between the two happy friends.
“It’s a game we play at school.”
Pietro listens into the description of this so-called game. The premise is Wanda pushes Frankie’s wheelchair at full fucking speed with a blindfold and Frankie is suppose to navigate as her Vision and tell her if she’s about to ram head first into a damn tree. This game , Pietro decides, is not a game and in fact a death wish for crazy people. Why was that something the teachers allowed them to do?
“for fucks sake, please just play monopoly or something.”
“Monopoly’s for cheaters.” Wanda and Jean say at the same time, like they had this exact discussion before without Pietro present.
“Okay psycho twins just don’t lose any limbs.”
In the days that followed Frankie, Wanda and Jean became a trio seamlessly. Jean unfortunately was the third wheel to the well oiled machine that was VisionandSpeed. With Wanda’s divided attention Jean became more quiet
again, although Wanda and Frankie never excluded her in anything Jean still drifted away.
This leads to Pietro thinking of a solution.
“Do you think I can come with you to recruit students?” Pietro suggested to Charles one day while in the middle of their chess game.
“Come with me?”
“I just…I’ve noticed you and Hank have been having a hard time recruiting. I thought maybe if they saw someone closer to their age with a cool flashy power they might be more inclined to join.”
“Did you just call me old?” Charles moves his bishop. “Is that the only reason you’ve suddenly grown interested in helping?”
Pietro shrugs looking out the run due in his office seeing a lake and trees that surround the area. An empty big yard. “I think more people will help. Jean needs to be around kids her age. Kurts never even went to a proper school before and even if she doesn’t admit it I know Wanda misses actually going to classes. She’s a nerd. This school needs to start feeling like an actual school and not just a big house.”
“I completely agree.” Charles smiles and Pietro moves his knight. “You can go with me in two days in Hanks place.”
“What’s Hank doing in two days?”
“He’s got a personal matter to attend to.”
“Okay, just you and me then.” He blocks his bishop and as soon as Pietro moves his piece he realizes his mistake. “Shit.”
“Check mate.”
Kurt and Pietro race. Hank says it’s to see the extent of their powers but Pietro thinks he was just getting tired of the lab. He needed some vitamin D and decent entertainment.
Hank has gotten better at not asking ten thousand questions, showing some semblance of self control but Pietro can tell he was going to burst into full scientist cardiac arrest when Pietro started running so fast that the grass was catching fire.
“I can only begin to imagine how fast you’re going or how fast you can go with further training. Fast enough to phase through buildings, run through water even.”
“I can run through water.” Pietro takes off his goggles, laying them flat on his messy silver hair.
Hank's jaw drops. Kurt’s eyes widen and he bounces slightly in excitement “like Jesus?”
“What do you mean you can run through water?” Hank asks, pushing his glasses up his nose.
“I did it once by accident, I hadn’t even known I could do it until I did.” Pietro recalls with a shrug.
“I ended up in Japan in the midst of The Omizutori Festival. Loud people and loud music, lots of dancing and amazing food and there was a fifty foot paper dragon with about twenty men beneath it, controlling it like a dancing puppet. It was probably the coolest thing I’d ever seen and the people were nice. I ended up staying there for three days. Technically it was because I was stranded though. I hadn’t known how to get back home and I didn’t know a lick of the language so I had to learn it pretty quickly to navigate myself back to America.”
“You learned an entire language in three days?”
“Well, I was in a more native state in the country. They spoke a more fluid dialect. Cantonese with a combination of Mandarin terms. I figured it would be easier to learn both Cantonese and Mandarin to get the most accurate directions.”
“You’re amazing!” Kurt gapes “learning English is hard enough I can’t even imagine.”
“It was just basic pattern recognition and I was twelve so it was easier to learn new languages.” Pietro wants to make sure Kurt doesn’t feel dumb for not easily picking up on English.
“You’re a genius.” Hank says still gaping.
“I wouldn’t go that far-“
“-no I mean it Pietro. You might be a genius. Have you ever been tested?”
”no?”
”that’s a travesty.”
“Thank you.” Pietro’s face was beat red.
“You were stranded in Japan for three days when you were twelve?” Kurt asks in such a soft gentle voice that Pietro had to do mental gymnastics to make that previous statement okay.
“Yeah, but it was fun. The people were mostly nice.” He shouldn’t have said mostly. Mostly Implies that not everyone was.
“You were twelve. Where did you even stay?” Hank questions suddenly.
“I stayed at some guy's house.”
Hank looks so alarmed that Pietro knows immediately that he’s said the wrong thing. “What guy? Someone you had just met?”
“They wouldn’t let minors in the hostels and the people at the brothels were handsy. So a college student said I could stay at his apartment near the festival.”
“And you just…went along with that?”
Pietro knew stranger danger. He wasn’t dumb, if he felt like he was in any actual danger he would've just ran out before the guy could do anything. The boy did stare a lot at Pietro but Pietro was a foreigner so that didn’t surprise him.
Although he will admit if his kid sister had told him some wild ass shit like that he would’ve freaked out too.
“He would’ve had to sleep on the streets which would’ve been worse.” Kurt comes to his defense easily before Pietro could even say anything. His voice gained a sort of protective edge that Pietro didn’t realize he'd earned. “The important thing is that he got back home safe. God bless his journey.”
Hank looked between Kurt and Pietro and seemed to be trying to work something out in his head “and you swear nothing…bad happened?”
“Scouts honor.” Pietro puts his hand on his heart.
Hank rolls his eyes “you weren’t ever a Boy Scout.”
“You’d know that cause you where?”
“As a matter of fact I was. You’re looking at a senior beetle scout from the 118 squad.”
“What is a Boy Scout?” Kurt frowns.
Pietro bursts out into laughter. In regular speed so Hank knows he’s making fun of him.
Hank ignores Kurt’s question completely “for your sake I won’t mention the stranded and in the hands of strangers part to Charles. He’d freak out.”
“Why?”
Hank gives him the deadest expression “because he cares about you.” He can hear the suppressed idiot in his monotone sentence.
“I mean why would you mention it to him at all?”
“Because he cares about you.” He repeats with exasperation “and we talk about you.” Pietro…doesn’t know how he feels about that. It’s an odd feeling to be thought about when he’s not in the room. To be perceived is weird.
“And all the others too.” Hank adds suddenly, quickly, as if he’s realized he’s said something weird. Something he wasn’t meant to say.
“But-what’s a Boy Scout?” Kurt repeats stubbornly.
Pietro laughs and he runs. Kurt follows behind him, sulfur and a puff of smoke left behind to hit Hank in the face.
Notes:
As always. Typos are a given. Enjoy :)
Chapter 6: Origins of Quicksilver
Summary:
In a flurry of motions, Pietro had been stripped from his sheep costume and adorned with shoulder pads and a helmet a bit heavier than expected.
What. The. Fuck.
Pietro was never doing anyone a favor ever again if this was gonna be the result. Pietro told everyone that could hear including the coach himself that he did NOT know how to play football. He doesn't know the rules, he doesn’t know the forms or anything specific at all about the dreaded sport.
“Run where no one is and if they throw the ball at you, catch it and run to the touchdown.” The coach yelled out in a rush, buckling Pietros knee pads into place and he wanted to throw a damn fit
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Pietro plays football very very briefly, he teaches Kurt how to drive, and he gets a X-Men: First Class summary via Charles Xavier.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro Django Maximoff never really had close friends growing up. The kids at his old school tended to stay away from the hyperactive speedster who always seemed to be on the wrong side of a punch. Funnily enough, the bold silver hair was only really a problem with his teachers who thought it was distracting to his peers, and towards the beginning of his hair transition when he tried to hide the grey streaks with ugly brown hair dye other kids gave him weird looks but after he fully embraced it most of his classmates just thought he was a rebellious teenager who spontaneously dyed his hair fully silver. Pietro was never mistaken for cool though. Rebellious. Yes. Outcast. Yes. A punk. Yes. but not cool. Never cool. That was of course until he was scouted. It happened like everything else in Pietro’s life: completely by accident.
He was at a football game. He was not playing the sport of course. He’s not exactly built for that type of impact and he was trying to decrease the number of concussions he got, not increase them. He had gone to the homecoming game simply because he had been asked to wear the Sheep mascot costume. The previous student who had taken over as mascot representative was hit by a car and hospitalized. Unfortunately, Pietro was assigned to give the studious peer his makeup work in the hospital and he proceeded to ask, more like beg, Pietro to take over for him in the homecoming game. Pietro couldn't look at his bruised-up face and his double casted arms and legs and say no to the poor bastard. So he agreed. But only for that game.
One game was all it took.
He’d never gone to a high school football game before that day and he was excessively disappointed. His school was losing to a whopping twenty-eight points, his costume reeked of sweat and cigarettes, and the popcorn he stole was stale as fuck. His team sucked ass which he knew far in advance before arriving at the game. The school was notoriously shitty at all sports. What he hadn't known was that the other team did not suck. They had high schoolers who didn't look like high schoolers. Pietro swears up and down that, all of them must have been on steroids or had enough muscle mass to bench-press a car. No way on Yahwah Green's earth were they high schoolers. Every single one of them had a beard and looked old enough to have kids. Pietro was grateful he wasn’t the one playing against them.
He was just a mascot.
He was only supposed to be a mascot.
But the other team were beasts. Monsters. It wasn't fair at all really. They had College recruiters on their side of the field. Clipboards and markers and ready beaty eyes all over the opponents and their best players so he knew why they hadn't pulled any punches but holy shit. It was brutal. Three players were down by the first quarter with severe concussions and one with a broken ankle that Pietro and half the cheerleaders could hear from the bleachers. One junior player had a mental breakdown and had to be escorted out of the field by his mother and another player straight up left when he saw the other team walk out of the bus.
The school's team The Sheep’s, much like their name, weren't very big in numbers and so when they kept losing more and more players as the game went on the coach became incredibly anxious. Pietro knew from being nosy in the teacher's breakroom that the football coach was going through a messy divorce with his cheating wife and had been threatened more than once to be fired from his position in the school. His life was quite literally falling apart. Pietro thinks this is why the coach was becoming just a bit too unhinged as the game proceeded. It was half-time when it happened. It hadn't taken much counting to realize they didn’t have enough players anymore to continue the game. Pietro isn't sure how many players were meant to play but one of the brunette cheerleaders had been talking about it very lightly beside Pietro. Looking sad that she might have to go home early after practicing all week. He jumped up and he did the practiced cheer routine with the girls, swaying and sashaying and doing all the twirls they threw into the songs. Maybe it was the backflip, or maybe it was the fact Pietro was simply there in his line of sight but the coach turned to him in a panic induced desperation and said “What size are you?”
In a flurry of motions, Pietro had been stripped from his sheep costume and adorned with shoulder pads and a helmet a bit heavier than expected.
What. The. Fuck.
Pietro was never doing anyone a favor ever again if this was gonna be the result. Pietro told everyone that could hear including the coach himself that he did NOT know how to play football. He doesn't know the rules, he doesn’t know the forms or anything specific at all about the dreaded sport.
“Run where no one is and if they throw the ball at you, catch it and run to the touchdown.” The coach yelled out in a rush, buckling Pietros knee pads into place and he wanted to throw a damn fit.
Pietro could’ve ran away before they could blink and be home without a care but now the cheerleaders looked overjoyed. And the bleachers that had started to dwindle in excitement looked entertained and Pietro is nothing if not an entertainer. So okay. Whatever. He put on the damn padding and he looked small but not any smaller than his…teammates. He looked like a shrimp compared to the other team. Like little leagues playing with NFL players. Some of those kids will literally probably be in the NFL one day. So he’s not exaggerating.
He hears the whistle that ends half-time and he prays to his lord and hopes that he leaves without any concussions.
They line up and the other team looks far more terrifying up close and he second guesses this decision once again. Okay. Okay. He takes a breath and they say some weird phrase Pietro's guesses he’s supposed to know but doesn’t and they scatter. Pietro runs.
He’s fast. Obviously. He’s a damn speedster. But he wasn’t using his super speed to run. He wasn’t that stupid. He was using his regular speed. Which he guesses is still unusually fast.
He went to a corner of the field where no one was at, getting there faster then anyone could process, and kinda just stood there hoping no one would throw the ball at him.
They throw the ball at him. Of course.
He does not catch it. Because again, Pietro can’t emphasize this enough HE HAS NEVER PLAYED FOOTBALL BEFORE. The ball flies right above his head and bounces off the ground and he thought that was that except the coach was yelling at him to grab it which confused him.
He doesn’t know how to play football.
He grabs the ball with urgency because now the yelling is becoming a bit insane.
“Run, Damn it!” The coach howls and Pietro does so only because the monsters are now coming right at him. Holy fucking shit they're coming right at him.
He runs.
Again.
He must emphasize he really just doesn’t know how to play football. Nothing at all.
He hasn’t the foggiest idea which side of the field he’s meant to run at. He just runs away from the big beasts chasing him and they go in circles because Pietro still has the ball and they keep tripping over themselves to try and tackle him but just when they get close he runs slightly faster.
Repeat. Over and over. The cheerleaders are screaming. Cheering. Everyone in the bleachers is standing up gaping or laughing or visibly staring at the mockery Pietro is making of the game.
Pietro keeps dodging concussions and he holds on to the ball for dear life because he's got no clue if he’s allowed to throw it or not and if he does he’s guaranteed to miss completely.
Again.
Pietro doesn’t know how to play.
At all.
He runs until he spots the coach pointing at the opposite side of the field in frantic waves and figures that’s the way he’s meant to go. And he runs the entire field, passes dozens of more players and when he gets to the end the bleachers explodes. Roaring and howling and the cheerleaders burst into a new cheer routine that had far too many flips and splits that Pietro couldn’t comprehend.
Is it over? Can he drop the ball now? He turns to the girls and sees that nearly half the players where on the ground, or out of breath or simply glaring accusatory daggers at him.
The kid that had a mental breakdown earlier came back with a popsicle and no padding. Pietro was more than eager to give him his own borrowed gear to him and push him back into the football field.
He let out a sigh of relief, when he no longer had to play. One point was enough for him.
Unbeknownst to him a recruiter had been observing Pietro in the field. While he usually seeks out football players he was also keeping a pair of eyes out for a runner for the track team at his own school.
He got a phone call the following afternoon after he got his information from the school. He kinda thinks that was illegal but he didn’t ask too many questions.
He told his mom. He thought it would be cool. As long as he didn’t have to catch anything.
He had to transfer schools. Which was fine. He didn’t really like his high school anyway.
When he transferred word about his stunt in the football field had spread and for the very first time in his life people thought Pietro was cool. He had people that actually wanted to talk to him. Hanging off of I’m like fruit off a tree. He didn’t mind all the attention, in fact he kinda loved it.
He understood why people wanted to be popular so damn bad all the time. Being loved is kinda awesome.
Because if his silver hair, which Pietro thought would be a problem for the school but it wasn’t, Pietro had gathered a bit of a nickname.
Quicksilver. It became a bit of a brand for him. “Just can’t ever dye it back to brown.” His coach said.
“Won’t be a problem.” Pietro grinned.
All he had to do was keep the grade point average to qualify for sports but because the school curriculum was actually pretty behind compared to his old school Pietro smoothed past the first school year with a high C without a care in the world. He ran everyday after school and on the weekend.
It was all he did. And he loved it. He was good at it. He was loved for it. He had friends because of it.
But of course all that was fake too. Pietro knew that deep down that Tommy from chemistry and David and Lewis from American literature weren’t actually his friends and just groupies. Digging their full nails into someone they thought would be successful. And pietro was successful. Until he wasn’t .
So at the end of the day when all is said and done Pietro has never had an actual genuine friend. At least not one his age. Not one that Pietro could see himself becoming close with. Not someone like Kurt Wagner.
Pietro didn’t wanna do the wrong thing or say the wrong thing. Or be weird. He didn’t want Kurt to leave and considering that’s literally the blue boy's power it’s kinda hard.
Kurt says he’s never seen a movie before.
“Miss Margo’s blind so she listens to movies on the radio.” When Pietro was briefly in their home he did note that they did not have a tv.
Pietro was more than happy to set up the tv in the biggest living room and run to the nearest dvd store. He was a bit too eager to make Kurt happy but he also was incredibly bored and was pumped to actually be able to do something.
“Not a lot of options at the store but I’ve got Wonka, The Godfather, Paper moon and the exorcist.” All pretty different genres for him to choose from.
“Not the exorcist!” Kurt pales his tail going protectively around his person and Pietro immediately tosses the dvd into the trash even though it’s a rental. Kurt’s reaction to the name of the movie was a bit odd but Pietro didn’t push the subject.
They ended up watching Wonka and even though Pietro had already seen it with his sister when it came out he was very happy to watch it with Kurt who made the experience ten times more enjoyable with his little gasps and awes and the constant happy swaying of his tail. Kurt particularly enjoyed the Oompa Loompas and the way they had bright orange skin and green hair.
“I wish I had green hair.” Kurt touched his own hair and Pietro for some reason thought that was permission enough to reach over and touch his hair as well. Brushing his fingers through his black curls not aware of how still the blue mutant had gotten. Pietro sees random streaks of blue in his hair when the light hits it at certain angles. “I like your hair. It suits you.”
Pietro catches up to his actions and feels suddenly too aware of how close he had gotten to Kurt and pulls away, taking his hand away from Kurt’s hair and wanting to kick himself in the face. Why did he do that? Hello? Personal space much?
Pietro is a tactile person. He touches everything. Especially things he shouldn’t. This, as he has recently learned, also includes other people.
The part of Pietro that always craved human contact usually only appeared around Wanda who reciprocated the hugs and cuddles and the overall touching. More recently he’s been this way around Jean as well but only when she instigates it. He knows she has problems with people suddenly touching her so he tries to tread carefully with her.
She’s similar to Hank in that way. He avoids physical contact with anyone and everyone and Pietro doesn’t push the man for it. Not when he has plenty from Jean and Wanda.
Pietro doesn’t know how open Kurt is to being touched. He doesn’t know him well enough yet but Pietro knows that he probably shouldn’t go around yanking on his hair to find out.
“I like your hair too.” Kurt responds back quickly “I think it suits you as well.” He smiles comfortingly at Pietro who had scurried away from the blue boy afraid of what his reaction was gonna be.
Pietro relaxes and morphs back to his side with ease. “We both got pretty awesome hair.”
The movie ended and Kurt had the biggest grin on his face “I think I want a Wonka chocolate bar.”
Pietro fell into laughter “don’t we all?”
He had to later explain that Wonka was in fact not a real person and that they couldn’t just go to a candy store and get a Wonka bar that would make them fly. Kurt was very disappointed.
Of course after that Pietro did end up finding out through Charles that Wonka was based off of a real person who also had a chocolate factory and killed children as a secret ingredient. He did not tell Kurt this horrifying information. He didn’t want him to suddenly hate the movie.
Pietro did return the movie the very next day though even though he had two more weeks with it.
Kurt mentioned he liked Pietros leather jacket and that afternoon Pietro finds a matching red one he thought he’d like. Kurt took the jacket from the speedster like it was holy, putting on the jacket slowly.
He looked at himself in the mirror and then looked at Pietro with watery eyes. “This is for me?”
“Yeah. Obviously. Red isn’t really my color.”
“I can have it?” Kurt’s voice was small and wobbly, his accent thicker than usual.
“Do you not like it?” Pietro still had the receipt so he could’ve just returned it.
“I love it.” Kurt clarifies and he actually is in fact crying. Pietro knows they are happy tears but still feels panicked and really wants to hug him but again, he has no idea if Kurt likes to be touched.
Pietro has never had a real friend before. Has he mentioned that before?
He doesn’t know how long one must know each other to be considered friends. Are they meant to talk more? Should they be spending more time together? Are they meant to have inside jokes? How long until someone is officially considered a friend?
How do you know when someone is your friend?
Do you ask them? Is that something that has to be clarified? Holy shit does Pietro have to ask Kurt to be his friend first or is it just meant to happen?
Is it supposed to be like a mutually known thing that no one ever addresses?
Pietro hates this.
Is Kurt his friend?
He’s asking himself this as he’s sneaking out one of Charles' many many cars out of his garage to teach the teleporter how to drive.
It was a rough start after Kurt and him put on their seatbelts and Kurt couldn’t get it to click into place. Pietro helped him. Kurt kept getting the brakes and the gas pedal confused and the car kept jerking to a stop and then quickly starting every few yards. They hadn’t even made it out of the driveway yet when Kurt asked “what’s a three point turn?”
“Let’s focus on go and stop before we start on the advanced stuff.” Pietro jokes and Kurt nods very seriously and focuses on the road as if Pietro was a teacher instructing him.
Pietro Maximoff as a teacher? That would be hilarious considering he hates school.
“No need to rush, just tap the gas gently, no need to throw your whole foot in it.”
Kurt tries again, the car starting to move slowly but smoothly and it’s slow enough that Kurt doesn’t hit the brakes in a panic every few seconds.
“I think I’m getting the hang of this,” Kurt says as he turns the steering wheel to slowly peel out of the driveway.
“Hell yeah, you are!” Pietro fistbumped “Soon enough we’ll be taking road trips to the beach!”
“Really?”
“Of course! Nothing but wind in our hair and water in our toes.”
“I’ve never been to the beach,” Kurt says. He tends to tell things to Pietro that accidentally make the speedster want to cry because it’s just so depressing. Never seen a movie? Never gone to the beach? Never learned to drive? Pietro doesn’t understand what he was doing before all this.
“More reason to learn how to drive then.”
“Thank you for teaching me, Pietro.” Kurt had heard Wanda calling Pietro by his given name and usually Pietro would tell him to just call him Peter but the way the teleporter rolls his Rs to say his given name made Pietro smile and he never corrected him.
It’s okay if Kurt calls him Pietro. He’s safe.
“It’s no problem.
“Did your dad teach you how to drive?”
“No. I kinda had to teach myself.”
“Teach yourself? Why didn’t Charles teach you?”
“Charles doesn’t drive. He’s paralyzed.”
“Doesn’t mean he doesn’t know how to drive.” Kurt shrugs.
“That’s true.” Pietro doesn’t know why Kurt brought up Charles but he doesn’t really question it because he’s so preoccupied with his own dilemma.
He thinks they are friends. Does Kurt think they are friends?
Pietro should really just ask. Better said than done.
A few minutes pass and Kurt starts to do a U-turn and drives over a bit of grass that will definitely be leaving an imprint.
“Kurtarewefriends?” Pietro blurts out in a long tangle of words. He used his super speed. Fuck. Kurt doesn’t even realize he spoke, that's how fast he talked.
“Kurt!” Pietro shouts a bit too loudly but he wants to make sure he heard his question because he doesn’t think he can say it three times. “Are we friends?”
Kurt looks at Pietro blinking owlishly at him. “Eyes on the road!” Pietro jabs slightly. Kurt nearly ran over a squirrel. He stops the car completely, putting it in park in the middle of the road. Totally illegal in a real life scenario but Pietro will let it slide.
“Did you just ask me if we were friends?” Kurt says not looking away from Pietro once.
“Yeah.” Pietro sucks majorly. “Are we?” No pulling out now.
Kurt opens his mouth and then closes it. Then he opens it again and blurts out “Pietro, you might be my best friend.”
Pietro gapes at Kurt. Because yeah Kurt could very believably be Pietro's best friend but Pietro being Kurt’s best friend is mind-boggling to the speedster. “Your best friend,” Pietro repeats a smile involuntarily marking his face.
“Of course!” Kurt beams sunshine right at Pietro and he doesn’t deserve that kinda happiness but he’ll take all of it.
“Okay. You’re my best friend too.” And Pietro feels giddy. Like some little kid in the playground asking his friend to be his friend. What a weird feeling.
Why is he like this? “You don’t have to say that just because I said that Pietro.”
“I can say what I want and I say you’re my best friend. So yeah. That’s law now.”
“That’s law now.” Kurt repeats with a smile.
Then his face sags “Charles says we’re in big trouble!” And right back to mischievous acts.
The car wasn’t banged or scratched or anything but Charles nearly blew a fuse shouting and hollering about how it was supposed to be in mint condition and how the paint color of the particular Ford car they drive was discontinued so he wouldn’t be able to fix it if they ruined it.
He was kinda mad but also Pietro couldn’t take him too seriously considering he had been aroused from his nap, his hair was disheveled, his clothes were wrinkled and he’d been wearing pink bunny slippers that clearly belonged to him, and were often worn.
“He seemed upset. Will you be okay?”
“Yeah, it’s chill. He’s just cranky from his nap.” Pietro doesn’t know why Kurt specifically asked if Pietro would be okay but he was kinda getting off the high of the revelation of them being actual friends to even connect that particular dot.
Pietro decided that to make it up to the professor he would cook dinner for everyone that day.
Frankie Wagner from Pietro's observation is someone who wears his feelings on his sleeve. like a superpower, he reveals them like a cool trick. Frankie is deeply infatuated with Wanda; on some level, Wanda shares that love for him too. Whether that be friendship or not is not for Pietro to decide but he is one of the very few people that Wanda has been able to open up to.
Perhaps it’s because he was part of her life before all this. Before this school. Before becoming a mutant. Before her life went upside down.
“He didn’t have many friends so when Wanda left he was incredibly sad.” Kurt disclosed to him as Pietro was assembling the bunk beds in the girls' dorms earlier in the evening. Kurt held the screws while Pietro did all the work but Pietro will still tell Hank that Kurt did most of the hard labor. Just to see the way Kurt’s face would grow panicked when Hank approaches him to thank him.
Pietro knows that Wanda trusts Frankie. But he supposes he didn’t realize exactly how much she did.
“Brother-in-law, can I ask you a question?”
“Only if you stop calling me brother-in-law.”
“Just practicing for the future.”
Pietro rolls his eyes “What’s the question, Frankie?”
“Since you and Wanda are Jewish does that mean that you only eat kosher meat?”
Pietro looks at the smaller boy in a daze, not at all expecting that line of questioning. In all honestly he is surprised that Wanda mentioned being Jewish at all. “We aren’t really strict about it, everyone’s different obviously. We mostly try not to clash dairies and meat as much as we can. We don’t eat pork.”
“No bacon?” Frankie gasped.
“Turkey bacon tastes the same.” He wouldn’t know actually cause he’s never eaten pork bacon, he’s straight up talking from his ass.
“Your dad isn’t Jewish but your mom is? Does that mean you’re only half Jewish?”
Huh?
“No such thing as half Jewish.” Pietro says quickly before adding “and my dad is jewish.” He’s never met his biological father but his mom told him they met at synagogue in the town she lived in at the time. A camp survivor just like her bonding over the loss of their people.
“He is? I had no idea!” Why would he? Frankie is giving him a headache.
“Is there a specific reason why you’re asking me these questions Frankie?”
“I wanted to make something special for Wanda. A Kneidlach?” He butchered the pronunciation but Pietro understood him.
“That’s just chicken soup with matzo balls.”
“They are my wanda's favorite.”
“I’m aware.”
“I think you should make it tonight for dinner.”
“Oh, is that all your Highness do you have any other request?”
Frankie shakes his head “I don’t have all the ingredients for Kneidlach.”
“Can’t you just run and get them?”
Pietro thought about it for a few minutes, a few seconds in Frankie-time. “I’ll do it. Only if you help.”
“Of course! If it’s food for my Wanda I’ll gladly help.”
“It’s Food for everyone . Not just Wanda. We need to substitute the usual olive cloves I put in the soup cause Hank is allergic.” He does NOT want to witness another allergic reaction from the blue man, once was traumatizing enough.
“Sir, yes, sir.”
And he zipped away to the grocery store.
Frankie was very eager to help but in the end, only managed to make a mess and spill half the soup. He pouted and looked about ready to cry when his wheelchair jammed suddenly and he dropped his deformed Matzo ball that he had been mushing on for ten minutes.
Actually-yeah Frankie is crying. His loud sniffles made Pietro's empathy meter ring in his head. The ringing tends to be louder when he hears crying children. That might be a bit of a trauma response for him. He’s not sure yet.
“Hey, hey, take a breath.” Pietro was kneeling in front of Frankie trying to meet the younger boy's eyes.
The boy becomes angry at himself and Pietro watches in horror as Frankie begins smacking his head harshly hissing and crying.
“Hey! Stop that!” Pietro grabs his hand but then he begins to do it with the other hand. Hurting himself repeatedly. Pietro grabs both of his hands, gripping them tightly away from the boy. “Stop it, Frankie. It’s okay. You can make another one.”
“But I wasted ingredients. I made you buy them and I wasted it.”
“It’s okay, it took me less than a second. I can get more. It’s not a big deal I swear.”
“It is a big deal. It’s supposed to be perfect for Wanda but I keep messing it up.”
“You haven’t messed anything up, kid.”
“But-“
“-it’s not gonna go to waste okay.” Pietro does his usual whistle and a gray cat materializes right behind Frankie. “The best part about matzo balls is that they are cat-friendly. It’ll be a good little snack.” The gray cat walks closer, sniffs the mess in the ground, and begins licking at the matzo ball cleaning it off the floor In seconds.
“It’s not a waste,” Pietro repeats soothingly watching as the little boy watches the cat, smoothing out his breathing slightly.
“At the end of the day, it all tastes the same.” He let go of Frankie’s hands feeling like it was safe to do so.
“I can help you with the next one and it’ll be perfect. Wanda will love it.”
“Promise?” Frankie wipes away a stray tear with their palm looking every bit the eight-year-old kid that he was. Pietro thinks that Frankie is a bit annoyingly obsessed with his sister but he doesn’t want the poor boy to be sad.
“Pinky promise.” He showed him his pinky. Frankie loops his smaller pinky around Pietros and he lets out a kiddish laugh that makes the speedster smile.
“Now we need to hurry up the process before the oven preheats.” And Pietro helped him with the next batch. The balls weren’t even or perfectly round but it didn’t matter. At the end of the day, he knew Wanda would love it. Pietro made a mental note to talk to Margo about Frankie’s sudden violent outburst. In case it has to be a deeper talk he has to have with Charles.
They had made enough soup and matzo balls to feed the whole mansion and still have seconds.
Frankie and Wanda laughed and ate and Jean threw a Matzo ball at Frankie when he wasn’t looking, resulting in him throwing one back. Charles stopped it before it became a full-blown food fight.
Jean was at his door that night, mute and wrapped around a soft blanket that she dragged from her shared room with Wanda.
She hadn’t said a word as she crawled into Pietro's side and dug her forehead into his bicep almost aggressively.
“Wanna talk about it?” Pietro asks hopefully.
She shakes her head. The two fall asleep with Pietro's humming. Humming a song he heard on Miss Margo’s radio.
The following morning, after a hefty breakfast Professor Charles Xavier lets him drive his baby. His child. His most prized possession. Not the one Kurt test drove but the one parked several slots over.
A beautiful yellow Chevrolet Camaro with soft seats and a lemony new-car smell that made Pietro not want to sit in the car at all in fear of ruining it. The professor had dozens of mint-conditioned cars in his garage which confused Pietro slightly because why was Charles driving a rental car when they first met? And why does he currently have more cars than students in his school when he can’t even drive them?
“Why do you have so many cars if you can’t even drive them?” Pietro is no good at sugarcoating and very bad at filtering his words.
“I wasn’t always paralyzed,” Charles says, fiddling with the glove compartment.
“Yeah but why do you still have them? Aren’t they just collecting dust? Haven’t you been paralyzed for a while?”
“One question at a time Peter.” Right, he’s talking too much at once.
“How did you get paralyzed?” That wasn’t even one of the original questions he asked but it’s what came out if his mouth. There was virtually no traffic, smooth roads, and street signs guiding his way to the new location. They were on their way to meet a potential student.
“It’s quite a long story.” Charles finds a pair of sunglasses in the glove compartment.
“Longer than the two hours it’s gonna take for us to get there?” Pietro lifts a brow.
Charles puts on his shades with an easy smile “Surely not.” and he begins his story.
He tells Pietro everything. From the very beginning.
Meeting Erik, meeting Hank, and creating a team together. The x-men. A split in philosophy. Erik’s rage and Charles' stubbornness. Charles tells Pietro about the evil man who twisted Erik up and made him the way he is and how all of it came to a boiling end at the beach with missiles, a heavy betrayal, and a bullet to the spine that paralyzed him forever.
Charles speaks of the events with a distant foggy look and Pietro couldn’t even imagine what he felt in those moments. Charles is recalling what seems to be a super traumatic event in his life and Pietro feels that ugly snake wrap around his throat making him feel icky for even asking to begin with,
“He took your sister?” Pietro knows that shouldn’t have been what stuck in his brain. So much was said But he could only think of Wanda. Angry and isolated Wanda, running into the hands of the first person who made her feel justified in those bad feelings. The thought of losing a sibling suddenly in that way feels too raw for Pietro to wrap his mind around.
“She made that decision herself. She would’ve left with or without Erik’s influence.” Charles says heavily like that was something he was still coming to terms with all these years later.
“She was the girl from the TV right? The one that saved the president?”
“Yeah, that was her. Raven.” Charles makes an expression Pietro doesn't catch fully with his eyes on the road “I suppose, she’s going by mystique nowadays.”
“Not a fan?” Pietro raises an eyebrow at him.
“I wouldn’t say that. I just can’t see her as Mystique the mutant hero. She’ll always be Raven, my little sister.”
“She can’t be both? Mystique and Raven? Hero and sister?”
“Yes.” Charles blinks “I suppose she can be both.” He looks contemplative. “I suppose I just don’t understand why she had to change her name at all.”
“She feels safer with a name like that. Untouchable. Names are important, you know. They hold power.” Pietro recalls a conversation with his mother. One about his own name. Another is about his grandparents. About how their names were stripped from them.
He thinks he kinda gets why Raven would want a new name.
“Is that how it is for you?” Sometimes Pietro thinks Charles is bullshitting about not being able to read his mind. He has a way of knowing exactly what crosses Pietro's mind without even much effort.
“Do you feel safer as Peter?”
“As safe as a mutant delinquent can be.” Pietro brushes off.
“You’re not a delinquent.” Charles rolls his eyes. Pietro gasps In dismay “I so am. What the fuck?”
“I’ve seen you hand sew a stuffed bunny ear back in place after one of Miss Margo’s cats ripped it.”
“So? I’m a hooligan. A rebel. A high-risk individual. I just didn’t want Frankie throwing a tantrum over his precious bunny.”
“I’ve seen you personally hand squeeze oranges because Wanda was sick but hates pulp in her orange juice.”
“I also don’t like pulp in my orange juice so…that juice totally could’ve been for me.” It wasn’t. Wanda had sobbed about how she only liked the way Pietro made orange juice and he caved instantly.
“Yesterday you were playing chess with Kurt and you let him win. Four times.”
“He was very good!” Pietro hadn't known that Charles knew about that. He had borrowed his chess board only for a few hours but he never asked the professor if he could use it.
“Peter, I taught you how to play. You most definitely let him win. Four seperate times .” Charles sounded scandalized by the whole concept of letting someone else win.
“Why would I purposely lose four times? for funsies?” Pietro scoffed.
“No, I think you’d let him win four times to make him happy. Because he’s seventeen years old and has never actually played a board game before and you wanted him to experience that properly. And that, my boy, is not delinquent behavior.”
“Yeah, well-I-um-“ Pietro abruptly presses the button on the car that plays music, his face red and glaring at the road like a pouty kid. The music couldn’t cover up Charles Xavier's boisterous laughter.
Fine, whatever. So he’s gone a little soft. Lost his edge a bit. That’s fine, cool whatever. Not a big deal. He’s still a loser. That won’t change.
They pull into a nice neighborhood. The houses all look the same, color-coordinated mailboxes and perfectly mowed lawns that look like what the color green is supposed to look like. The houses are symmetrical and fenced up in equal squares. Trash bins lined up and ironically spotless.
And every single house has a sign up in the front lawn of a man in a suit and a perfect American smile telling the world to vote for him.
Which is fine. Pietro isn’t big on politics, all the lingo and debates kinda go over his head and he gets kinda lost in the noise but that isn’t what makes Pietro stare at the sign for too long.
He knows the guy on the sign. He’s sat across from him during dinner. The few family dinners David had forced them to sit around the barely used dining table and polish out their never-used fancy china and use coasters that matched the table cloth.
He knows that face. He’s seen it sip wine and talk shop with his stepdad. He’s passed the mashed potatoes to that guy.
“Peter, you alright?”
“Yeah, yeah, I’m good.” Pietro shakes his head, trying to focus.
“Are you sure? You seem off.”
“Yeah, I’m good, just hungry and glad to not be driving.”
“Here.” Charles takes out a small palm-sized canister from his pocket and hands it to Pietro. It’s his meal boosters that Hanks has been making Pietro drink but in far larger quantities. Pietro tries not to think about the fact that Charles didn’t carry that around for himself.
“Thanks.” Pietro still hates the smell, although Hank has improved in it since the first batch. Charles rings the doorbell. It was a dramatic ringing bell sound that ground in Pietro's head. It was awful.
The door was opened by an older woman, her hair cut short in a bob and peppered in gray. She had big purple glasses that covered the majority of her face and smooth olive skin.
Charles begins his introduction. “Hello, I’m Professor Charles Xavier. I’m here to speak with Mr. And Mrs. Drake?”
The woman looks confused, looking between Pietro and Charles. “Quienes son ustedes?”
She doesn’t speak English. Charles puts his fingers to his forehead.
Pietro clears his throat and brushes off the old Spanish two textbooks in his brain from high school “Este es Charles un profesor de estudiantes superdotados.” He points to Charles who looks at Pietro with astonishment.
“Estamos aquí para hablar con los padres de Bobby. Ellos están en casa?”
“Salieron por un momento, pronto volveran a casa.”
Pietro nods, understanding that they aren’t home currently, regardless he asks if they could wait for them “Esta bien si los esperamos aqui?”
The older woman shakes her head, looking anxiously inside the home “no creo que quieran compania. Bobby está un poco enfermo.”
Pietro frowns and looks at Charles “she says they’re out and they’ll be back soon but we should leave cause Bobby’s sick and they don’t want company.”
Charles blinks as if still processing that Pietro can speak and understand Spanish “Yes, right-“ he clears his throat “it may be possible that his mutation is manifesting as an illness.”
“What’s his mutation?” Pietro questions suddenly.
“I won’t have a proper answer until I see him. It was a strong enough effect that it triggered cerebro even this far away.”
“Does he know we’re coming?”
“I was able to contact him briefly while using Cerebro but he seemed to be incredibly distressed at the time and unresponsive to my call.”
No shit, he’s probably terrified. Pietro knows he was. He knows Wanda was terrified when she got here and Jean told him…
“The day I got my powers my mother died.”
She was terrified. Pietro knows exactly how uncontrollable it all is at first, how overwhelming and life-altering it all feels.
“Nosotros podemos ayudarlo.” Pietro tells her they can help Bobby. That’s what they're here for to begin with. To help Bobby Drake.
Back and forth they talked. Charles patiently watches them chat from the side and eventually Gloria, the babysitter from Colombia, decides to let them in.
“I didn’t know you spoke Spanish.” Charles says in the brief moment that Gloria is leading them down the long hall, the walls bare.
“Yeah. I took a class in high school.” Pietro barely got a C in the class because the teacher detested him. Convinced he was always cheating, which he wasn't, he just found the class tedious and lame once he already knew the language.
“You continue to amaze me,” Charles says easily, unable to keep the fondness away from his voice.
“Aqui.” Gloria turns the corner to a different hallway that leads to two doors. Pietro noticed the temperature drop as soon as they turned the corner. Charles noticeably adjusted in his seat, clearly feeling the difference as well. One of the doors had the nameplate on the front written in blue and green cursive calligraphy.
BOBBY DRAKE
Gloria zipped up her jacket and knocked on the door twice. No response. With gloved hesitant hands, she touches the doorknob and twists.
“Bobby, tengo compañia.” She opens the door and Pietro can feel the chills running up his spine . He can see his breath lingering in front of him.
Holy shit.
It’s freezing.
“Bobby?” Finally being able to see inside the small bedroom Pietro noted immediately that the entire room was covered in a thin layer of ice. Frosted and snowy like a snowstorm unleashed inside the room. A little boy maybe eleven or twelve with blonde hair and pale freckled skin was crouched in the corner of his bed. The one g do oldest to the wall and farthest from the door.
His bed sheets were wrapped around him in piles attempting to warm him up but observing the ice cube tears falling from his eyes Pietro doubts it was doing much.
The boys' room was trashed, posters ripped from walls, chairs stabbed through with ice swords and desks collapsed from a force Pietro couldn't see. His toys are decorated on the floor. His school bag a ball of snow in the entryway of his room.
“Um, so my best guess is probs cold.”
Charles side eyes him “I’ve gathered that. Thank you, Peter.”
“You’re very welcome.” Pietro crosses his arms, shoving his hands under his armpits, and just rubs around his rib cage in superspeed. Causing a good enough body heat to keep Pietro warm.
It’s like the goddamn North Pole here. Pietro would know he’s been there.
“Do you wanna maybe…” Pietro points at his head. Pietro thinks this whole conversation would go far smoother if Charles just talked to him through his mind walkie-talkie.
Charles nods and he’s approaching the boy slowly with his wheelchair. Pietro doesn’t know what Charles said to make the boy look up in alarm. “No! You need to leave!”
“You won’t hurt us, Bobby. We’re here to help you.” Charles says softly.
“You can’t help me. I’m sick.” Bobby shakes his head, his blonde hair stiff.
“You not sick.” Pietro clarifies trying to make eye contact with the scared boy “you’re just cold.”
“I’m not cold. I’m hot.” Bobby says and suddenly Pietro can see the sweat running down his forehead, turning into little icicles as they roll down his forehead.
“I know I look cold but I feel hot. I’m sick! I can hurt you like I did my things so you shouldn’t come any closer.”
Charles talks to Bobby in his head. Pietro isn’t privy to the conversation which only bothers him a little. He wishes he could help.
Pietro can hear the parents' car though. He can hear the engine roaring to a stop and he knows Charles is busy settling Bobby down so he steps outside of the room. He steps outside of the house too, meeting the parents outside by the door. Knowing that a stranger in your house is the last thing anyone wants.
He leaves Charles inside to talk to Bobby, he can do this part. He’s positive. Kinda. Sort of. He’s about 50/50 confident. Most parents like him. Actually yeah, no. Most parents actually detest him. His hair, his vibe, his style, and his overall personality just scream bad influence on his parents and Pietro simply can’t help it. He purposely wore bland clothes on this trip. A flannel and t-shirt with jeans that made him look like a lumberjack. Hopefully, he looks like a respectable lumberjack. He stands up straight trying to present taller than he was. More mature. He had a beanie on his head to hide most of his silver hair and hopefully throw people off to his true identity because apparently, Friends Of Humanity is on his ass 24/7 for no reason.
A thin middle-aged woman comes out of the baby blue Volkswagen holding bags of groceries. She was decked out in layers of clothes and a ski mask on her head. Her plump husband pulls out of the driver's seat face flush red from the heat which is why it’s so off to see them sporting ski gear like they're going on a trip to Alaska.
They spot Pietro immediately. Looking so frightened that he feels he has to quickly introduce himself to ease their anxieties.
“Hi, I’m Peter.”
The dad pulls out a gun from his holster on his hip and aims it directly at Pietro in broad daylight. “We know exactly who you are.”
Of fucking course.
Notes:
Expect typos. :) Also I love the comment section, keeps me young.
Chapter 7: Recruiting IceBoy
Summary:
“But they're both blue.”
“Just because two people look alike doesn’t mean they are related.” Charles says easily.
“I know that!” Bobby Drake snaps.
“And just because two people don’t look alike doesn’t mean they aren’t related.” The speedster points out as well thinking of Wanda and him.
Bobby glanced between Pietro and Charles quickly.
*****
Pietro Maximoff nearly gets shot, saves the day, recruits more students and gets a phone call.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro is getting sick of his life being threatened. It’s genuinely starting to become a problem. Over a hundred thousand people die every single day which sounds like a lot but considering there are over three billion people on Earth that's less than one percent. The odds of Pietro Maximoff dying are very slim but as it so happens not non-existent. This is now the Third time in the last three months that Pietro has had a gun to his head. Is it meant to be a monthly occurrence? A running joke with the universe. He doesn't find it very funny.
“Can we not?” Pietro sighed. “In broad daylight is crazy.” But when has the sunlight ever stopped someone from threatening Pietro Maximoff’s life?
“You need to leave.” The father, a heavy-set man with blonde hair and a close-trimmed beard, spoke with a shake to his voice. Despite the clear nervous energy in his voice he held his weapon firmly in his hand.
His wife, long and tall, scrambled to get something from her purse. She pulls out a knife the size of her palm. Perhaps something she’d carry to walk to her car at night. Something to spook but not to maim. “We don’t want you people anywhere near our family.”
“You people?” Pietro frowns, folding the words in his mouth like dirty laundry.
“Our son is just sick, he isn’t like those other children.” The wife’s voice was high and thin, strained from wear and
her knife was tightly gripped in her hand making her bony fingers turn white.
Her wedding ring, a simple gold band caught the sunlight and reminded Pietro of his own mother's ring. Not the flashy gaudy one David gave her when he went down on one knee but the one she wears around her neck. A plain gold band with no diamond or pearl. No splash of anything fancy or personable. She was never without it. A token of a past she hates you divulging in. From Pietro's father. Simple but cherished and then hidden away afraid it would be seen.
Pietro had asked his mother about it once when he was too young to know better. “A reminder.” She told him. “To be aware of danger.”
Pietro thinks Maybe he needs that ring right now because his fight or flight instincts are not cutting it and danger seems to be in every corner he turns.
“Madeline don’t say a word.” The father silences his wife and glares at Pietro who still hasn’t moved from his spot in the driveway. “You can’t be here. We know our rights. You need to leave this instance.”
We know our rights.
Hadn’t Pietro said something similar just a few months ago? A gun also pointed at his head.
Pietro nods “We can leave if you want, but your son needs help and we can help him. We can take him somewhere that will help him control his powers.”
“You won’t be taking him anywhere! He’s our son!” The mom was frantic as she began to tear up, accidentally dropping her groceries on the ground.
Her groceries weren’t groceries at all. At least not all of them. With a soft thud, the bag folded over to show a stack of heated blankets and medicine.
Pietro sees the desperation in their action. They’re just trying to help their son. Pietro knows that.
“You’re terrorists. All of you. Everywhere you go disaster follows. Our family will not be the next tragedy.” The dad takes the safety out of the gun. Flaring his nostrils and thinning his lips.
Pietro reels, feeling the words kick him in the face.
Everywhere you go disaster follows. No truer words have been said but Pietro lingers on the word terrorist .
“I’m not a terrorist. I think there’s been some misunderstanding.” Pietro's mind is running. Jumping every scenario and speeding through every thought process.
“No there hasn’t! We’ve seen the footage. You took that poor girl and killed all those people in that house and your organization tried to cover it up with a fire.”
That’s woah wait hold on. What is she talking about? What the hell? Is she talking about Wanda? The fire at our house?
“You kidnapped that crippled family and left those bodies scattered in the street.”
Pietros anger rolled at the words crippled family but was unable to cut in as the woman, Madeline, kept raging.
“You burned down an entire synagogue and everyone in it because of one little boy with pointed ears.” Pietros gut dropped.
A synagogue was burned down? Which one? His mind raced and he thought of his mother, hoping that wasn’t the one she was in. Praying that wasn’t why she hasn’t called in the last week.
Fuck. What if- no. No. He would know if his mother was dead. He just would. He needs to trust that she’s okay and focus on the matter at hand.
Later on, Pietro would look into the fire and see exactly how many people had been lost to the flames and he’d throw up. The number would give him nightmares. He’d think about the melting flesh and the screaming and how the place of worship had been incredibly packed. It had been someone’s child’s bar mitzvah. A boy named Stanley who invited his friend from school to the celebration. His friend was named Kevin and he had inhumanly pale skin and long pointed ears like an elf. Over a hundred people died in the flames including every single member of Stanley’s family and Kevin who died from strangulation. The fire came after he had already died. That part In particular made Pietro's chest churn in anger and dread.
Any feeling of relief he might’ve felt about his mother not being in that particular synagogue was overshadowed by the dread he felt for mutants to be targeted in a place that was supposed to be safe. They should’ve been safe. Stanley should’ve turned thirteen in peace. Kevin should’ve enjoyed a mouthful of cake at his friends birthday party without the fear of getting hate crimed. Pietro was sick.
But Pietro doesn’t know about that yet. He’s still just in the driveway being told this information for the first time. Piecing the little information he did have into his brain.
“You’re a monster.” Pietro flinches at the words.
“You’re all fucking monsters. Friends Of Humanity is just an excuse to attack people that aren’t the same as everyone else.” The dad agrees and Pietro goes through the conversation in a loop in his head over and over.
What is going on? What the actual fuck are they on about?
“I’m not part of Friends Of Humanity. I didn’t kill anyone and Miss Margo and her kids are safe and-and I didn’t burn down a synagogue.” Pietro had to practically spit the last part out feeling disgusted that he had to clear up that last bit of information at all. The fact that anyone would do that let alone think he could, makes him want to cry.
“I’m a mutant.” Their faces shift slightly.
“Friends Of Humanity has been targeting me for the last couple of months. I swear to you. I am not with them.”
He hates that this is a conversation he has to have.
“Those people you-they killed. They were mutants too. If it’s true you've been targeted before How did you get away?” The dad voices his concerns looking to his wife for support. In the second he looks away from Pietro he superspeeds in front of him. He takes his gun and takes out all the bullets and puts them in Madeline’s pocket. He superspeeds back into his old spot and with the gun still in his hand the dad looks back at Pietro not noticing anything is amiss.
“I run fast,” Pietro says and the dad narrows his eyes at Pietro. “Check your pocket.” He told Madeline and she frowned, not taking her eyes off of the speedster.
She puts her hand in her pocket and her eyes widen as she feels what’s inside. She gapes at her husband and he looks back at her. “What’s the matter?” He asks with concern. She takes out the bullets from her pocket and shows him. He gasps and quickly looks at his gun that’s been in his hand the whole time. He shifts it in his hand, weighing it as if he could detect if it has bullets or not. His eyes dart to Pietro and he opens the gun up to reveal no bullets in the chamber.
“Holy shit.” He curses and when he looks up at where Pietro is, the boy is already beside him with a smile making the man yelp in a very unmanly way. “What the devil.”
“Not the devil, just a mutant.” Pietro corrects feeling a bit smug. He picks up Madeline’s bags from the ground and smiles at her as well “now that we’ve got that misunderstanding out of the way we should head inside. The professor is probably wondering where I am.”
“Who?”
“Charles.” Did the professor genuinely just not call them before making Pietro drive two hours to come here? “Xavier? School for gifted youngsters?” They looked at Pietro like he was speaking Spanish again.
Okay, so maybe that’s why Charles is having no luck recruiting students. Is he only contacting the mutant student and not the parents? Is he not promoting the school well enough? This might need to be a separate and far more longer conversation with the professor.
“He’ll explain.” Because like hell is Pietro doing the dirty work. Charles should’ve already called them. Doesn’t he know that parents probably wouldn’t be super chill about their kid talking to some old guy they’ve never met?
Charles later would scoff at being called an “old guy” stating he isn’t old at all but his reaction was much different at being referred to as “old man.” Pietro doesn’t get the difference.
He superspeeds into the house, putting away the bags of blankets and things they purchased most likely to subdue their son's power. Unsuccessful as they might’ve been it seems they were genuinely trying to help their son. Pietro can tell by that altercation alone that they loved their son, they’d protect him, and they’d kill for him. They’d whip out a gun they have no business owning and aim it at who they perceived danger to be. All to protect what they loved most.
Pietro can’t be mad at that. I mean he isn’t, you know, thrilled about his face constantly being target practice but he’s sure he’ll get used to the constant inevitable dread of death being waved in front of him at oddly awkward moments. He’ll get over it. It's cool.
“Your house is lovely by the way.” Pietro zips past Madeline and out the door to grab the actual groceries from the trunk of the car. He’s back inside with hefty bags of produce. “Are these Cork floors?”
“Oak.” Madeline says in a daze watching as Pietro unloads her groceries from her car in the time that it would usually take for Madeline to unlock the door. “You said you’re fast?”
“Very,” Pietro puts all the fruit away first, taking out a particularly bruised-up apple from the fridge and tossing it in the garbage disposal. “And your son is cold.”
“Very.” The husband says standing close to his wife still clearly very anxious around the silver-haired teenager. “Have you always…been fast?” Madeline gives him a sharp look and they talk silently with eye contact alone.
“I was born this way but I didn’t fully get my powers until puberty.”
“Did you show any signs before getting them? Because Bobby-he-he was normal. He wasn’t-“
“-he always ran cold.” Madeline interrupts gently “But never, never like this.”
“He was a normal kid. Did we do something-“ he clears his throat, clearly emotional, blinking back heavy tears “Did you…show signs when you were young? Was there any way of knowing?”
Pietro watches the couple play a game of hot potato. Questioning everything. They are eating themselves alive. Trying to find a reason. Trying to find something to blame for their son's condition. Trying to pin point where they went wrong. This reaction is how he expected his mother to react when he ran for the first time.
“When I was younger, before my speed kicked in my brain would run away from me and it made falling asleep really hard and school was hard and making friends was hard. Everything was just hard all the time. When I got my powers, it didn't feel like the world was as hard anymore, it felt like everything was finally catching up to me. Like I was finally out of a difficult level in Pac Mac. Everything just balanced out.” Pietros problems didn’t go away when he got his abilities of course but when he got them he could finally do something about it.
He could fight back. In his own way.
“I was never a normal kid so it wasn’t a shock to my mom. But-um…my sister Wanda-“ Pietros mind replays the day she got her powers, all that blood and gore fresh in his mind. “She was normal. She had good grades and she had lots of friends and she was happy and she didn’t show any signs of…of literally anything. So I suppose in that aspect I understand-“ Pietro clears his throat looking at the couple who was hanging on to his every word.
“-it’s scary. To believe one thing and it be wrong. Being a mutant is scary and you can’t change it but you can either let it destroy you and let it eat you alive or you can embrace it.”
Pietro thinks of Hank, who used some experimental drug for years to hide his mutation. Who hated who he was for so long that it drove him to a career path that could remedy it. If he wasn’t a mutant would he still want to be a doctor? A scientist? Would he still have studied mutations and spent half his life trying to find a remedy for something that was simply meant to exist? Pietro doesn’t know what would have become of Hank if he hadn’t been a mutant. He doesn’t know what Charles would’ve done or Wanda or Pietro. He doesn’t think Charles would've been nearly as okay as he is now without Hank at his corner.
“Is your sister happy?”
“What?” Pietros thoughts still tended to run away from him.
“Wanda, is she-is she alright? Is she happy even after-after getting her gifts?”
Pietro thinks of the nightmares she has nearly every night. She thinks of the panic attack she had just a few hours ago when he told her he’d be away for a couple of hours. Afraid he wouldn’t come back. He also thinks about how loud she giggled when Hank got a face full of flour when he interrupted a prank meant for Pietro. He thinks about the friend she made and the one she reconnected with. He thinks about how she cuddles on the couch surrounded by cats who cover her like a blanket. She thinks about how she learned how to use her powers to fly the other day and has been a demon ever since. But he also thinks about how every day she asks if mom has called and every day he has to tell her she hasn’t. He thinks of the bad and the good.
“I think she’s getting there.”
Madeline and her husband look at each other and seem to soak in each other's heads.
Pietro hears Charles' wheelchair before he sees him peek out from the hallway. “Hey wheels, you might wanna give a strong and inspiring speech soon.” Pietro lifts a brow at the older man and the professor shares a matching expression “Perhaps you should attend to Bobby and I’ll speak with the parents.”
“Yeah, let’s switch.”
Pietro went to Bobby quickly and was once again hit with crisp coldness. His spine prickled with cold goosebumps. Pietro stands beside the shivering boy who is now lying down on his bed with a warm towel on his forehead. The boy seems to try to take it away from his head every time Gloria tries to put it back on his head.
“Señor Peter-“ she stops herself when she sees Bobby's parents walk in right behind me seemingly not to talk to Charles at all. “Senor Thomas, como puedo-”
“-Garcia, thank you for coming on short notice. You can go home to your kids.” The husband, Thomas, says extending an umbrella and purse to the attentive nanny.
“Gracias por toda tu ayuda.” Madeline says easily and shares a kind smile with the nanny.
Gloria glances at Pietro and then strokes a sweaty piece of hair away from Bobby’s forehead and stands up. She takes her purse and umbrella from the man looking uneasy before suddenly embracing Madeline fondly. “Dios los bendiga.”
“Tù tambièn” and Gloria is scrambling away, stepping away from the speedster and walking out of the house.
“Gloria might need a raise,” Madeline says suddenly and the husband chuckles, nodding in agreement.
“Mom?” Bobby whines tugging the wet cloth away from him and brushing the warm blanket away from his body. “Mama?”
“Bobby dear, you need to stay under the sheets.”
“It's hot.” Bobby cries, the tears turning solid on his lashes before they can fall to his cheek.
“You’re freezing.” Madeline touches his forehead and winces “Not as much as before though. So it must be working.”
Pietro looks at Charles “He seems to have a fever perhaps as a result of his mutation appearing suddenly and his body wasn't quite prepared to suddenly have such a drastic temperature change. To us, he seems to be unnaturally cold but to him, it isn’t cold enough.”
“If he doesn’t break his fever soon he could die of hyperthermia.” So all around bad news.
“How do we break it?”
“You need to warm him up.”
“We’ve tried.” Madeline snaps at the professor and Pietro winces at the high pitchiness of her voice. “We’ve tried! Everything.” She repeats and Thomas has to hug her to calm her down.
“We’ve been trying for days to warm him up but nothing works, at least not as much as it should. He’s just too cold.”
“We bathed him in scalding water. We’ve put on the heater to the max, covered him with heated blankets, we’ve made him drink hot tea and nothing-” Madeline's words fumble and twist as she goes into a tangent sounding unhinged and exhausted and Pietro wonders how much sleep the poor women has gotten since the entire ordeal.
Charles and Thomas communicate with her, trying to calm her down trying to think of a solution and Pietro already thought of one.
Well, actually Hank already thought of one. Just last week.
The scientist was curious, testing some aspects of his powers. “Your body balances out your body temperature when you run. That’s why when you run you don’t… you know…catch on fire. Although even if you did your body would heal it almost instantaneously.”
“Yeah I figured.”
“Yeah, but that shouldn’t be the case when you superspeed with other people. The moment they went at your speed they’d probably explode or something.” Pietro did not need that visual.
“No one’s exploded yet.”
“And no one ever will. Because your secondary power is being able to control gravity and inertia.”
“Cool, what’s that?”
“It’s what helps you catch bullets without your fingers getting blown to bits. It’s why getting hit by a fly doesn’t feel like a car wreck to you when it usually would be for most people going that speed. It’s how you’re able to just pick people up and super speed with them without them turning into jelly.” Hank fidgeted with the clipboard on his hand looking not anxious but almost excited.
“You can momentarily extend your capacity to endure the speed force onto others.”
Pietro looks over at Bobby, the shivering boy looking right back at him and he reaches over the boy and grabs him by the shoulders and smiles at him “everything will be okay.” He tells him and the boy looks at him doubtfully. “I can help you endure.” Pietro says and he goes into superspeed.
He keeps his grip on Bobby and he doesn’t move but everything around him slows down to a halt. Charles stops talking, the clock on the corner stops ticking, Bobby’s shivering is halted and the snow particles in the air stop moving.
Pietro takes a breath and he wraps himself around Bobby like he would Wanda and he rubs Bobby’s arms up and down to create body heat. To Pietro it’s gentle and at a normal pace but he’s in superspeed. So in reality he is going inhumanely fast and his hands are a furnace. Steam rolls off the pair and the room becomes humid and wet as the snow begins to chop away and melt.
Pietro only does this for a few minutes at superspeed. It couldn’t have been longer than three seconds in everyone else’s point of view.
When Pietro stops the entire room is like a sauna and Bobby is looking at Pietro with awe. “You okay?”
Bobby nods numbly looking far too stunned to speak.
“Bobby?” Madeline’s voice broke through the fog and Bobby’s eyes slipped past Pietro and to his wide eyed mother. Everyone just stares at Bobby and Pietro for a few seconds in utter silence.
Charles' face looks so stunned that Pietro almost starts laughing but restrains only because Bobby’s parents look so relieved and anguished over the whole ordeal.
“Mom don’t cry.” Bobby pouts and that alone triggers Madeline to combust into tears and Pietro barely has enough time to move away before the frail woman is leeching onto her son and drowning him in kisses and affection. “Oh baby, I’m so glad you’re okay,” Madeline sobs, touching his forehead to make sure. Thomas caves as well and is abandoning the tough guy act almost instantaneously as he too wraps his arms around his son and wife.
The whole scene is very sweet and heartwarming and Pietro turns to look at Charles, maybe to give him a knowing smile or maybe to comment on saving the day Pietro doesn’t know because all thought processes leave his brain when he looks at the telepath.
Charles is looking at Pietro. Like really looking at him and Pietro doesn’t really understand how he knows but he knows that this particular stare is very different then the professor's usual stares.
“From now on I’m taking you.” He says, claiming him as a permanent tag-a-long. Matter of factly and with zero hesitance.
“Poor Hanks has been demoted?” Pietro jokes, not being able to be serious or else fear having an actual human reaction.
“He can live.” Charles says easily.
Madeline and Thomas Drake ended up not needing that much convincing in letting them take Bobby and enrolling him in school. They mentioned something about how he accidently turned his school's pool into an ice rink while some poor classmate was still swimming. His school reported him and that’s why the parents where do afraid that Friends of Humanities was around the corner ready to strike. Charles guaranteed his safety and the couple took that as best as they could.
Bobby on the other hand was not a fan of leaving. Now that he wasn’t in the midst of hyperthermia he was a lot more vocal and Pietro clocked his stubbornness from a mile away.
The kid only relented when his parents told him that Pietro would be able to help him with his powers. As if Pietro personally signed up to mentor Iceboy. Which he didn’t but I guess that’s part of the gig now.
Just because Bobby agreed to go to the school does not mean he was very happy about it. Not even a little. Bobby didn’t talk the entire two hour drive back to the mansion. Pietro saw him glaring at the back of Charles' head the entire trip. Pietro is sure his thoughts were rageful by the expression on the professor's face.
“Can we stop at Wendy’s?”
Charles makes a pained face. “What?”
“Can we stop to eat at a Wendy’s?”
“We’re almost home.” Charles lifts an eyebrow at the whining speedster whose leg has been bouncing nonstop for the last thirty minutes.
Pietro didn’t even question when Charles called the mansion home. Adding Pietro to that statement seamlessly. Home. Usually Pietro would’ve corrected him, or even realized the difference when Charles said it. The mansion isn’t Pietro's home. At least he didn’t think it was. Not consciously. But maybe subconsciously?
Maybe he got too comfortable too fast.
“But I’m hungry now.”
Charles without a moment of hesitation opened his satchel and pulled out a food canister from the bottom. “you had that there the whole time?” Pietro doesn’t know if Charles carried it around because he knew Pietro would complain about being hungry or because he knew Pietro had been too anxious to eat that morning. Either way Pietro feels a bit too seen in that moment and takes the canister quickly.
“Drink up.”
Pietro begrudgingly drank the liquid inside the canister, the flavorless pinkish liquid running down his throat. Hank had given him several different versions once he disclosed to him that the canisters tasted utterly rancid and he’d end up throwing it up some days because the taste was so bad. Hank was annoyed he hadn’t said anything for so long and honestly Pietro was stunned to know that Hank cared at all since the whole ordeal wasn’t necessarily a make or break kind of thing.
“Hank says it’s supposed to taste like a strawberry milkshake.” Charles says and Pietro was annoyed at Hank at first when he ended up telling the professor about his upset stomach after drinking the canisters because Charles seemed to hover around meal times, making sure Pietro actually drank the canisters and actually held it down instead of throwing up.
“It doesn’t. It Tastes more like old kiwi juice.”
“Old as in original? Like classic or old as in-“
“-old as in expired. Aged, rotten. Nasty as hell. Not one of Hank's best.”
“The peanut butter wafer one was pretty good.”
“Yeah but not nearly as good as the black licorice one.”
“That one was pretty good.” That was another thing. Charles tastes the food canisters too. Hank says it’s so he has a vast review of the taste. He thinks Pietro can’t be honest in whether certain food combinations taste good or not and so he recruited Charles to be his test dummy and the poor professor is the first to try the concoction of flavors.
What Pietro doesn’t know is that the professor actually volunteered to taste them beforehand once he was told that Pietro didn’t like them.
When they got to the Mansion Bobby reacted the same way everyone else did when they first saw the school. The yard was spotless now compared to when Pietro first got here with Wanda. The kids had spent a whole afternoon one day cleaning up the yard and creating a bonfire pit in the back yard near the lake. Pietro and Kurt had watched from the porch resisting the urge to help. To speed up the process. But Wanda said they wanted to do it by themselves as a surprise for Charles.
Charles was smiling when he saw it, the soft wrinkles beside his eyes crinkling with fondness as Jean and Wanda both revealed all the hard work they put in to fix the abandoned yard.
“Thank you, girls. You’ve done an incredible job.” Charles' voice shifted like he was trying to hold something back “it’s-'' he clears his throat “-looking outside hasn't been this lovely in quite some time.”
“You’re welcome, Professor.”
“No problem wheels.” Wanda had stolen the nickname from Pietro once she realized it was safe to use it at all. It was never okay to call David anything but his name, not if you didn’t want to set him off.
Pietro had tested it out enough to know that Charles didn’t mind the nicknames as long as it’s all in good fun. It was quite a relief.
Bobby stared at the cleaned and trimmed yard with something akin to excited awe just before he smoothed out his expression and went back to looking irritated and miserable, albeit a bit more forced this time.
“mutatis mutandis?” Bobby stumbles over the words.
“All necessary changes have been made.” Charles says.
Bobby rolls his eyes. Bobby hadn’t been thrilled when he was introduced to the total of four students enrolled in the school. When he met Kurt he visibly flinched, making Pietro want to throttle the child because it clearly hurt his friends feelings.
“Are you a demon?”
Kurt’s face looked small and sullen and he shook his head in response “no, no demon.”
“You look like one.” Bobby says flatly.
“Looks can be deceiving.” Pietro interrupts quickly voice a bit clipped, not wanting to hear what else Bobby was gonna say to the blue teleporter. “And that’s not cool to say to someone.”
“Okay.” Bobby mumbles and doesn’t say anything else. When he meets Hank his eyes widen but he doesn’t say a word, keeping whatever intrusive thoughts he has to himself until he’s out of ear shot.
“Is that the other blue guy's dad?”
Hank wasn’t far enough. He definitely heard that by the way his spine goes straight and he suddenly starts walking away much faster than before.
Well that’s gonna be an awkward conversation later.
“Nope.”
“But they're both blue.”
“Just because two people look alike doesn’t mean they are related.” Charles says easily.
“I know that!” Bobby Drake snaps.
“And just because two people don’t look alike doesn’t mean they aren’t related.” The speedster points out as well thinking of Wanda and him.
Bobby glanced between Pietro and Charles quickly.
“yeah I know.” He says much more calmly than when he responded to the professor.
Bobby makes jabs and comments throughout the tour. Pietro shows him his room.
“This one’s all yours.” He opens the door, no longer creaky and Ice boy peaks I curiously already preparing to hate it.
“It’s-“ Bobby bites his tongue “it’s really big.”
“It’s meant for four students. There used to be two bunk beds on each wall but we don’t need those for now.” Pietro can still see the scratches on the floor from where Kurt and him attempted to move the deadly contraptions.
“Probably won’t need them for a while, at this rate.” Bobby says. “The school will shut down by the end of semester and I’ll be back home with my traitorous parents.”
“The schools not gonna shut down,”
“You don’t have enough students enrolled,”
“ Yet . We will soon.” Pietro says confidently “and your parents aren’t traitorous. They just wanted you to be safe.”
“Seems like they just wanted to get rid of me.”
“Quite the opposite.” Pietro is glad Charles is gone when he says this next part “they held me at gun point because they didn’t want me to take you.”
“What?!” Bobby gasps, face going whiter than it already is and looking absolutely mortified. “My mom did that?”
“Your dad,” and that seems to shock him even more “my dad couldn’t hurt a fly.”
“He almost hurt something bigger than a fly. Just to protect you. They love you a lot and it did hurt them to let you go with us.”
“My dad.” Bobby was still stuck on that part “I can’t believe that.”
“It definitely happened. Not even four hours ago.” Pietro chuckles.
Bobby settled into his room with the two duffel bags full of clothes that he had. He made Pietro swear to go back to his house when he could to get his comic books when he realized he had forgotten them.
Pietro just smiled and ran back to his house in less than three minutes. Found his comic book box stashed in his closet. Left a school card with the house phone number on it on the fridge magnet and ran back to the mansion.
“Here ya go.” Pietro places the box on the dresser and Bobby’s eyes widen as he runs to the dresser practically beaming with joy. “No way. How’d you get them so fast?”
“I’m a Speedster, remember?”
“How fast can you go?”
“No clue.”
“So cool.” Bobby says in a giddy voice and then stiffens “I mean my comics!” He says louder “my comics are so cool.”
Pietro just looks down at the comic book he’s holding. The Flash.
“You’re welcome.”
“I didn’t say thank you.”
“I noticed.”
Bobby didn’t get along with Wanda. As a result Frankie hated his guts and Jean was far too antisocial to approach the Cold boy. He hated the short segments of lessons he received via Charles and Miss Margo. Hank was always too busy in his lab to grow any form of impression on the colder boy.
Bobby grew terrified of Miss Margo the moment she made direct eye contact with him when he tried to sneakily throw away dinner that she prepared.
Pietro figured the boy would eventually grow into the mansion like the rest of kids. Once more kids start coming to the school things would be better.
For all the kids.
By the end of the week they had two more students. Twins. In an over run foster home. Pietro was in and out of there quickly, practically kidnapping the neglected children while Charles convinced the foster family to let them go to his school. It didn’t take much convincing. Pietro gives the girls some Ho Ho’s he had stashed in the car, looking incredibly malnourished.
Pietro refused to go back in the house, afraid he’d do something drastic, like punch the foster parents in the face.
The twins, Sarah and Sasha were Wanda’s age. They settled into the room next to Wanda and Jean and blended into the noise of the school seamlessly.
Wanda later disclosed to Pietro that Sarah and Sasha were the same person split into two.
“They share the same house. Same decorations.”
Pietro thought Wanda was just being too critical until Jean told him the same thing. “I can’t tell them apart.” And as a telepath who reads minds, you not being able to tell one person apart from another seems like concern enough.
Pietro brings it up to Charles during their game of chess. “Alisha Whitley was the original mutant child. She has the ability to clone herself into at least 40 separate copies of herself.”
“So Sarah and Sasha are just copies of Alisha?”
“No. Well, yes. But the thing is that Alisha Whitley grew up in the foster system. She went through unimaginable horrors and as a result her mind fractured and split into different personalities.” Charles moves his knight “we call it multiple personality disorder. Usually when someone has this disorder they take over the host's body and take control. But because Alisha has the ability to create an entire new body she simply gave her altars their own to have,”
“So Sasha and Sarah aren’t real people?”
“They are. They have different personalities, different minds, different memories and different thoughts they are just combined. Linked together. A hive mind of sorts.”
“They live in the same house, but have different rooms.” Pietro concludes.
“What?”
“It’s the-“ Pietro realizes Charles wasn’t there for that conversation. “Nevermind. I get it. They are different.”
Sasha and Sarah don’t go anywhere without the other. Then one day Pietro spots one of them in the library, flipping through baby books touching the pictures with a big smile on her face. It wouldn’t have been weird if it hadn’t been just one. Only one. That hadn’t ever happened before. They never split up.
“Hello, Whitley?” Pietro still can’t tell the two apart, he supposes that’s the point. They are clones so trying to find differences is pointless. So he’s resorted to calling them by their last name.
Whitley looks up from her position on the floor. Criss cross applesauce and bundled between a bookshelf, surrounded by books.
“Having fun?”
He expects her to nod or smile like the Whitley twins tend to do when faced with a yes or no question.
“Hi Peter!” She lifts a book above her head. “you read this?”
“Hi.” Pietro repeats with a surprised smile. “You’re talking.”
“Yeah! I’m Suzy.”
“You’re Suzy. Not Sarah or Sasha.”
“Yep! I’m three!” She lifts her fingers showing Pietro three. Pietro sits on the ground next to her immediately. Criss cross applesauce. “Right, that’s cool.” Pietro says gently, trying not to show the spike of anxiety that just hit him.
The twins are now triplets and one of them is a toddler.
Okay, okay.
“Do you know where your sisters are?”
“They got tired.”
“Are they in their room?”
“No. Can you read this?” Suzy hands him a book with a cartoon zebra on the front cover.
“Then where are they, Suzy?”
Suzy pouts “they went inside. They’re tired and they can’t read to me when I’m outside. Can you read to me?”
“Inside? What does that mean?” Pietro connects the dots immediately, his brain catching up and running, running, running to the answer like it always does.
Sarah and Sasha are locked inside their house and they left Suzy outside. Recharging? For how long? Is it just one of them now? Just Suzy? One body? Or is there a second body somewhere lying unconscious, unreserved?
“They can’t stay outside forever. They try to but they need to sleep. The others get really scared of the outside.”
“But you aren’t.” Pietro can tell she isn’t scared. She’s frustrated because she doesn’t know how to read. But she isn’t scared.
“I like school.”
Pietro read her the book. Then he read another. He read five picture books total.
two weeks pass and Another student joins the ever growing school. Angela, whose very touch turns the surface into a forest. She smells like moss and she always has a flower in her hair, gloved hands covered in green tangled veins up her palm. Like roots sprouting from her fingertips.
At the introduction of Angela Sarah-Sasha begin to shake and Pietro witnesses the horrifying way their body splits into a third. Morphing and shredding. It looked painful. Terrifying.
As soon as the third Whitley becomes sentient and autonomous she approaches the new girl eagerly. “Omg I love your dress!”
Of course giving someone a compliment is an appropriate reason to go outside.
Angela’s face beams “thank you! My mama made it for me.” She twirls her skirt gently making the long flowery skirt sway cutely. “I’m Angela.”
“I’m Samantha. Can she make me one? I love it so much. I can pay her.” Then Samantha back tracks “Charles can pay her. I have no money. But he’s super rich.”
Charles later on that week established an allowance system between the students. In exchange for doing chores of course because “they can’t just think I’ll spoil them. They need to work for their money.” But Charles definitely handed Frankie a twenty when he put up exactly one dish away.
It’s been a two months now since Bobby Drake has been in the school and about half a dozen more kids have joined the halls.
Bobby still wasn’t getting along with anyone but Pietro was hopeful.
The phone rang and like clockwork Pietro answered it. “Sorry, he still doesn’t wanna talk to you guys.” Pietro tells Bobby Drake's parents, who call every morning at 7am just when they wake up and every night at 6pm just when they get back from work. Each time Pietro has to tell them that Bobby is refusing to take their calls.
They call the next day anyway, like clockwork.
“Is that how you greet your mother now Pietro?”
Pietro stills, a cold rush hitting him as the voice registers in his head.
“Ima?” He says above a whisper, sounding underwater.
“I’m sorry I haven’t called Pie.”
All at once his heart runs and his voice spills.
“Why haven't you called? Did something happen? Are you okay? Where are you?”
“Yes I’m fine, don’t worry.” Pietro could hear the stiffness in her voice.
“There was a fire in a synagogue are you-“
“I heard. I wasn’t there. I’m okay, Peter.”
“I know you’re with him and that you lied about it.” Pietro grips the phone tighter.
“I’m sorry.” Is she?
“Why are you with him?”
“It’s complicated.”
“It’s really not.”
“Peter, that isn’t why I called.”
“Well fuck me then I guess.” Pietro snaps and his mother scolds him “Pietro Maximoff watch your mouth! I called you for a different reason.”
“Okay, sorry.” Pietro mends because even though he’s mad at her for ghosting him for weeks he doesn’t want her to be mad at him. “What is so important that you had to stop ignoring me, ima?”
“Tomorrow is Yom Hashoah.” Holocaust remembrance day.
“Yeah I know.” Pietro says softly, feeling that ache in his stomach. He’s been keeping track.
“I just wanted to hear your voice.” Magda Maximoff has no idea what day her family died. She had been split from them, many families where. She knows they are dead and tomorrow is usually the day she mourns them. The day she set aside to shed those tears and pray for those that were lost. Men women and children. She was the only survivor in her family.
Pietro Maximoff and Wanda Maximoff are her only family left in this world.
“I miss you.” Pietro said and that broke her heart. “Wanda misses you. Her birthday is in a couple weeks.” Pietro grasps at the cord attached to the phone. Technically it’s seven weeks. Nearly two months. But a reminder is still needed. “Do you think you-“
“-I’m sorry Peter. I can’t. He….”
“Are you gonna finish that sentence Ima?” Pietro couldn’t hide his annoyance. This would be the first birthday that Wanda would have without Magda. “She hasn’t seen you since the accident.” Months. Too many to keep track of. “She asks about you all the time.”
“I love you. Tell Wanda I said I love her. Goodbye.”
She hangs up.
Notes:
Cool cool cool. You WILL see typos. Until next time. 🤍
Chapter 8: Visiting Dr Hank McCoy
Summary:
Dr Hank McCoy did the same thing to the speedster that he did to Kurt. He checked Pietro’s reflexes, awesome as per usual, heart rate, fast as fuck obviously, eyes kinda blurry, he might need to get reading glasses which is lame, and Hank rechecked his weight again, he’s gained fifteen pounds since he first arrived.
Which Hank said was good and seemed really proud about but Pietro felt nauseous at the idea. David would’ve hated it. He would’ve called him spoiled.
Then it came down to the X-Rays.
Pietro knew Hank was gonna have questions. Pietro knows he would’ve if he was in Hank's shoes.
*****
Charles and Pietro have a series of conversations. Kurt and Pietro get closer then ever and both have their physical check up with uneasy results.
Notes:
Trigger warning *mentions of abuse* not too graphic but stay safe ✌️
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
It’s been seven months since Pietro Maximoff first stepped foot on to the X-Mansion. Seven months since he saw his mom. Seven months since his sister got her powers. Seven months since Pietro first sat across Charles for a game of chess. Seven months and not once has the poor speedster won. He’s come close a few times. But he’s never actually successfully defeated the telepath. Today is no different. The defeat seems to sting more since it’s very clear that the professor is not focusing at all in the game.
“You’re killing me Wheels.” Pietro sighs, throwing his head back dramatically.
“What’s wrong?”
“You’ve been spacing out this whole game.”
The professor blinks “I have not.”
“Yes you have. Now what’s the matter?” Pietro crosses his arms defiantly refusing to even take his turn in this fraudulence of a game.
“Bobby is having trouble settling in.” Charles says evenly looking a bit dazed all over again.
“I’ve noticed.” Pietro zips to Charles' Snack cabinet and takes out a pack of Oreos, eating them all at once and settling back to the chair to look down at the chessboard. Focusing back on the game now, relieved that the professor was actually gonna talk.
“He keeps getting into verbal arguments with Frankie and is very distant with the girls. He hasn’t unpacked any of his things or made any effort to do any of the class work.” Charles leans back on his wheelchair. Pietro looks sideways at the chess board trying to figure out what defense Charles was playing. He can never tell until it’s too late.
“he even gave some lip to Miss Margo when he was asked to do chores.”
Pietro winces at that, moving his castle. Miss Margo's second language is whooping ass and even for a blind lady she has impeccable aim. Pietro has yet to fall victim to the back side of her shoe but Kurt has told him horror stories.
“I thought maybe being able to speak to his parents would calm him but he refuses to answer their calls.” Pietro is very aware of Bobby’s current disdain for his parents.
“He’s still pissed they shipped him off to some preppy boarding school with a total of ten students none of which he enjoys the company of.” Pietro says and Charles moves his bishop and blocks any further advances.
The professor nods “I was wondering if you could speak with him.” Pietro moves his king. Charles steals Pietro's other bishop right in front of him and the speedster gapes.
“How the fuck?” Pietro mumbles under his breath moving his king in a panic. He clears his throat turning back into the conversation “why me exactly?”
“He listens to you.” Charles says matter-of-factly. He says it with such sureness that it makes Pietro look up at the professor. Lifting a suspicious brow.
“What do you mean?” Pietro frowns at Charles, trying to figure out how he got to that conclusion.
“He respects you.” Charles says, again with way too much confidence. It throws the speedster off completely.
“Are you still talking about Bobby?” Pietro blinks “the one that can turn into a popsicle? Or did you recruit a different Bobby I don’t know about?”
Charles chuckles looking amused by Pietro confusion “he thinks you’re cool.”
“What?” Pietro exclaimed In alarm. Then realizing he was acting way too surprised he doubles back “I mean…yeah! Of course he does, I’m literally the coolest person ever.” Pietro clears his throat puffing out his chest “it would be weird if he didn’t honestly. But uh…just out of curiosity-why uh, why do you think that he thinks I’m cool?”
“Are we forgetting that I’m a telepath?”
Right. So if Charles says that Bobby thinks Pietro's cool that must be true. Okay, yeah, he's cool. So cool.
“Bobby thinks I’m cool.”
“Yes.”
“Are we sure about that?”
“Yes.”
“And that’s why you think he’ll listen to me? Because he thinks I’m cool.”
“Yes, you’re also the only person that can effectively cancel out his abilities so if it blows up in your face you’ll be fine.”
“Aha! So that’s the real reason!” Pietro exclaims “you sneaky bastard!”
Charles won the chess game and Pietro isn’t surprised. They reset the board for another game. Hopefully a much longer one.
“SInce I’m doing this favor for you I’d like to ask you for one.”
Charles looks at Pietro surprised. The professor tries and fails to not look too eager to listen. “what would you like Peter?” He asks gently.
“The Whitleys want two separate rooms instead of one to share. I told them I’d ask you about it.”
Charles blinks “that’s the favor?”
“Yeah, it’s cause-“ suddenly Pietro feels very anxious like he has to explain why the twins wanted separate rooms. “-A few of the alters are boys. Sebastian and Shane. They want their own rooms.”
Pietro took them shopping earlier in the week and they came back with several pairs of leather pants and band tees. If their sense of style was inspired a bit too much by the speedster, well Pietro wasn’t going to say anything.
“I see.” Charles says looking contemplative. “Of course, that seems perfectly reasonable. We have more than enough space.”
“Cool.” Pietro smiles not really thinking the professor was going to have a problem with it but nonetheless very relieved.
“How come they didn’t come to me?” Charles asks suddenly. “Did they think…” he pauses, gathering his thoughts “…that I would have a problem with it?”
“Not at all.” Pietro says flippantly, getting comfortable in his chair as he looks at all the pieces on the board. “I think they just find you intimidating.”
“Intimidating.” Charles repeats, looking very confused. And yeah, with his long wavy hair and soft pastel sweaters he looks more like a big teddy bear then anything even remotely scary. So Pietro understands his shock. The man makes it a point to look as comforting and as approachable as possible.
“If it helps I just don’t think they like men.”
“As far as I’m aware you are a man, Peter.”
“Yeah but I’m awesome. And you’re the headmaster. No one ever wants to talk to the headmaster.” Charles lets that sink in moving his first chess piece in the process. “That makes sense. They've grown a bond with you so of course they’d trust you enough to tell you when something was wrong.” Very technical.
“One day they won’t need me as a buffer. They’ll come to you willingly.” And he knows that’s true because Wanda and Jean already go straight to Charles with anything and everything.
The professor nods.
On that note Charles doesn’t hold back at all in the game and absolutely destroys Pietro. The speedster knew the older man was holding back but this is just ridiculously unfair.
That afternoon Kurt is in his room drawing on a sketchbook Hank got him. Hank said it was one of his spare lab notebooks that he never ended up using but Pietro definitely saw him put it in the cart yesterday when they went grocery shopping. If Hank is trying to prove that he isn’t Kurt’s father then he’s doing a pretty shit job at it.
Nonetheless Kurt has been absolutely obsessed with it. Drawing and coloring and writing silly notes and thoughts that he never lets Pietro see. Which he’s completely entitled to but Kurt always looks so happy while he’s doodling in it that Pietro's curiosity is killing him. Right now the teleporter is going absolutely feral with the band stickers Pietro gave him and is seemingly attacking the pages with them. He looks like-like a teenager having fun. Pietros happy. Even if he is a little jealous over not getting a notebook himself or being able to look inside to see what's so fun about it.
“Wheels thinks I should talk to Bobby.” Pietro has been trying to read a Latin book for the last several minutes but it’s achingly boring in every aspect of the word.
“How come?” Kurt sticks out his tongue in concentration.
“He thinks I’m cool or something.” Pietro says flopping down to the bed and throwing the book over eyes in pure exasperated boredom.
“You are cool.” Kurt says confidently. Pietro peaks over the book glancing over at the blue mutant feeling weirdly embarrassed over the sureness In which he said it.
Kurt Wagner tends to do that. He says nice things like it’s no big deal. It feels like a big deal.
“Dude you think Hank is cool. You have questionable taste.” Pietro jokes.
“Hank is very cool!”
“He’s not.” Pietro sighs over dramatically sprawling over the bed like a cat.
“He got me this book.” Kurt waves his book in the air like Pietro hasn’t been creepily aware of it since he’s had it. “He got me these shoes.” He jerks his feet from under the chair to show off his new kicks. “They are very cool.”
And they are. Because Pietro helped Hank pick them out earlier in the week when they went shopping with the whitleys. “They are sick.”
Kurt frowns scooching them under the chair self consciously “what?”
“Sorry, sick means cool. They are cool.”
“Oh.” Kurt smiles again easily “Either way I think it’s great that you’re gonna talk to Bobby.” going back to the original topic.
Pietro huffs “I didn’t say I was. I said Charles wanted me to.”
“So you’re definitely doing it.”
“Charles is not the boss of me!”
Kurt laughs. Like it’s funny. Like he was joking. Pietro was not joking. What the fuck. “He’s not!”
“Okay, I believe you.” Kurt says like he’s placating a child “but I think you will talk to Bobby anyway. Just cause you’re really nice.” Like Pietro said, Kurt just gives away compliments like candy and Pietro eats it up. Becoming full with the adoration. So, yeah, okay whatever , Pietros is gonna talk to Bobby.
“I think you might be a gaslighter Kurt.”
Kurt gasps “blasphemy, I’m nothing of the sort!”
“Are you sure cause I’m feeling very manipulated right now?” Pietro makes a pretend hurt face.
“If I swayed your decision it is simply coincidental.” Kurt smiles innocently like he doesn’t know what he’s doing.
“You're lucky you’re cute.” Pietro sighs, and he goes back to reading his book. The speedster doesn’t see the way Kurt's face goes a shade of purple at the compliment.
That night they had a big dinner. Miss Margo had quote on quote “slaved away in the kitchen for you starving children to eat good food.”
The thing is that the only people that actually like Miss Margo’s food are Kurt and Frankie. Wanda says it’s because they got used to it while living with her but Pietro doesn’t understand how anyone’s body can ever get used to the fiery pits of hell slivering down your digestive system.
Miss Margo can NOT cook. No one has the nerve to tell her. Bobby came close once and was practically tackled by fifteen Whitleys who materialized all at once to single-handedly spare Miss Margo’s feelings.
Because although Miss Margo can’t make anything humanly digestible she still becomes exceptionally happy when she cooks and she’s more than overjoyed when it’s her turn to cook for the school.
“I used to cook for the circus.” Miss Margo would boast “they loved it so much that they said having it everyday felt like a waste and that I should only cook on special occasions because that way they’d be able to appreciate it more.”
The circus definitely lied.
They were trying to save themselves. By lying. Straight to her face. Like lying liars.
“Sorry Miss Margo, Hanks got me on a strict meal plan. Only meal canisters for me tonight. I’d be happy to set the table for you though.” Pietro lied because he is no better than the circus.
“Of course dear.” She pinches his cheeks “you’re such a doll.”
The food looked…well for moral reasons Pietro will simply say that it looked unpleasant. Everyone made grim expressions but because miss Margo was blind she was none the wiser.
“We really do appreciate you cooking for us Miss Margo. We…” Charles is playing with his food looking distressed but keeping his voice light and kind. He doesn’t finish that sentence. Pietro doesn’t think he can.
Wanda has a stroke of genius “oh, no..” she says in the most fake voice Pietro has ever heard “I’m so sorry miss Margo.” She doesn’t sound sorry at all.
“What is it dear? Is something the matter? Is it cold?” Miss Margo’s clear eyes focus on Wanda’s direction.
“Unfortunately I can’t eat this because I don’t think it's kosher.” Pietro almost laughs.
“Oh don’t you worry dear. I didn’t forget about your religious dietary restrictions.” Wanda physically paled when Miss Margo brought out a large dish from the fridge. “I made this just for you my dear. Kosher and following all Jewish dietary rules. I made sure of it.”
Pietro does laugh this time. In superspeed of course because Miss Margo doesn’t realize the gold star entertainment she just invoked upon him.
Wanda glares at Pietro “I’ll make sure to save some for Pietro so he doesn’t miss out.” A threat. This isn’t over.
“You gotta eat it while it’s hot.” Frankie says practically destroying his plate, not even breathing just chewing and swallowing. Pietro doesn’t understand how the food doesn’t make him want to gag.
“Don’t forget the sauce!” Kurt smiles happily dipping his meat into an unholy color of liquid sauce that makes Pietro want to throw up.
“Who can forget.” Hank says weakly beside him and the Whitleys have become one person only, unanimously deciding that only one of the alters needs to suffer tonight.
Pietro sees Angela sneak some of her plate to the cats under the table and Bobby straight up doesn’t serve himself anything. Some of the other kids managed to eat small, very small portions of the meat and get full on the rice which is the only thing that seems remotely cooked correctly.
Much later, after everyone’s eaten their portions away miserably and are washed up and ready to sleep, Pietro is in Kurt’s room listening to music with the teleporter on his Walkman.
He finally manages to ask Kurt.
“How come you like Miss Margo’s food so much?” Pietro adds “you know it’s not very good.”
They were close to each other, shoulders almost touching each other, hovering in the same space so they could share the headphones. He can feel the vibrations in the air from Kurt’s voice when he talks “well...” Kurt speaks with his entire body “…before Miss Margo took me in I lived in the circus and most days more often than not I didn’t get to eat at all. Before Miss Margo’s house I hadn’t ever had a proper home cooked meal before.” Kurt presses their shoulders together and Pietro holds his breath “I guess anything is better than nothing at all. And miss Margo always gives it her all.”
“Yeah I guess that makes sense.” Pietro says softly, feeling light and floaty at the unexpected contact. “But you do know that it’s not like the best tasting food ever right?”
“Of course not.” Kurt says equally as soft, his accent thick “I’ve had your food before.”
Pietro melts into a puddle. He can’t handle this. How did he get lucky enough to have a best friend like Kurt?
“Right, well, I won’t tell Miss Margo.” Pietro jokes because that’s all he really can do without exploding.
He falls asleep in Kurt’s room that night listening to The Jackson 5. He hadn’t realized how tired he was or that he was falling asleep at all until he was abruptly woken up from his sleep with a scream.
“What the fuck.” Pietro gasps awake, alarmed and confused as to where he was. It registered a few seconds later that he was in Kurt’s room and that the heavy blanket around him wasn’t a blanket at all. While the teleporter is a respectable distance away from Pietros sleeping form in the small bed, his tail had other ideas. Moving and shifting to be laying on top of Pietro, clinging to the speedster in their sleep. Pietros heart was hammering a mile a minute so he didn’t have time to process the situation because of that scream. That scream was his sisters. He knows her scream anywhere.
He moved Kurt’s tail away, his only mission being to get to his sister. Once he knew Kurt wouldn’t wake up from his sudden movements he runs.
He’s in front of his sister's door in microseconds. Her scream was still echoing in his ear from moments before. Haunting his mind at every possible reason. He opens the door abruptly.
He sees Charles next to her bed in the dark and his mind reels, thinking the worst.
“What are you doing?” Pietro didn’t hide his fear from his voice.
Charles doesn’t seem surprised or alarmed that Pietro is here “Peter, my boy, I’m sorry we woke you.”
“We? What are you doing here?”
Maybe Charles didn’t detect the accusation in Pietro's voice or maybe he was just ignoring it because he was so focused on Wanda. “She was having a nightmare again, I just calmed her down.” Charles says softly, sounding exhausted.
Pietro paused. Focusing on what he sees and not what his mind is making up.
Charles isn’t hovering over Wanda, he’s sitting in his wheelchair beside her. The room isn’t completely dark, the lamp is on a low setting so as to not startle Jean awake as well. Charles isn’t doing anything nefarious or bad.
The telepath had his hand placed gingerly on the smaller child forehead looking like he’s gone through a nightmare as well. Eyebags prominent on his face.
“It’s not usually this bad.”
Pietro knows that Wanda has nightmares, he just didn’t know that Charles knew she had nightmares. Usually Pietros is there to comfort her through them, or at least that’s what he thought until he looks at Charles.
His wheelchair has a pillow on the back, a blanket covering his legs and his seat reclined slightly as if he has a habit of sleeping in his wheelchair. A habit of getting comfortable in this position beside her bed.
How many times has Charles done this? How many times has Pietro failed to notice that Wanda was having a nightmare? How many times has Charles gone to her room to calm her down, losing sleep for her benefit? Pietro watches as Charles hums under his breath, swiping the sweaty pieces of her hair out of her face while she sleeps.
Her face was smoothed away and pleasant and Pietro could see a soft smile on her lips “I gave her a happy memory.”
“Which one?” Pietro barely spoke, too afraid to wake her up from a good dream.
“You running in the snow, holding on to her and showing her how snowflakes form slowly. It’s one of her favorite memories.”
Pietro takes a breath, evening out his heart beat and remembering the memory clearly. It was a few days into winter, he had just stolen Wanda a new winter coat and David was out of town doing whatever the fuck David does and mom was inside making them hot chocolate with water. They had run out of milk, they had run out of a lot of things that winter but their pietro always made it seem like they had everything. Never letting Wanda know how much they struggled.
“She dreams vividly about the day she got her powers. About you dying. Getting shot.”
“I’m faster than any bullet.” Pietro says smoothly.
“But not in the dreams. You didn’t have your powers. You were slow.” Charles is looking at Wanda but he knows Charles is talking to him. Prodding and poking at a question he wants to ask. “You never told me that part.”
“Which part?” Pietro admittedly was very vague about that day. He had told the professor bits and pieces over time but he doesn’t have the full picture. At Least that's what Pietro assumed.
“About losing your powers. You never said you couldn’t dodge the bullets.” Charles almost says what he wanted to say. He could’ve died.
Pietro Maximoff would be dead right now if Wanda hadn’t killed those men. They both would’ve been.
He hadn’t told Charles that. He let Charles assume what he wanted and hoped he wouldn’t ask too many questions about why’s and what’s. It was hopeful. Too hopeful.
“Well, it doesn’t matter now does it?”
“Of course it does, Peter.” Charles looks away from Wanda and up at Pietro looking uncomfortable and confused “why would you think it wouldn’t? It would’ve been different if you hadn’t been in any actual danger. But you had. You felt that fear, you thought you were going to die. You almost did. That’s not nothing. That’s-“ traumatic .
“Well I’m fine. It wasn’t a big deal.” Pietro says with an easy smile. Just a bit forced.
“If it wasn’t a big deal you would’ve told me.”
“Why would I have told you if it wasn’t a big deal?” Pietro whispered loudly.
“It was a big enough deal for Wanda to have nightmares over it every night.” Charles jabs and Pietro resks over that information. “Every night?” Pietro had thought they had gotten better.
“She also has nightmares about the day your father was arrested.” Charles says stiffly “about what your mother did.”
The Speedsters memory hits a wall.
Pietros face went blank and before it became a whole thing the speedster said “I don’t want to talk about that with you.” A clean cut. A boundary placed. Charles on one side and David on the other. Far far away from each other. Never to cross paths. That night included. No worlds colliding.
“Okay. I respect that.” Charles Xavier said once before that he would try not to cross any of Pietro's boundaries. That he would try to not push him when he didn’t want to be pushed and Pietro drew a clear line. Clear as day. He doesn’t wanna talk about it. He said it. Done. “But I think you should talk about it with your sister. About everything. Because clearly, it’s affecting her as well. maybe more then you realize.”
Pietro pulls his eyes away from the professor and to his sleeping sister.
“I will. I just-“ Pietros nervous. “I don’t know how.” He doesn’t wanna bring it up after all this time.
Charles stays silent and for a long time Pietro thinks he’s gonna let the question sit unanswered in the air.
“You’ll know when it’s best.” He says eventually and they step out of the room.
The next morning he sees Bobby stomp on the ground too harshly and make the marble floor slippery with ice. Jean falls on her face and shouts when she hits her head against the wall. Pietro is by her side in a second. “You okay?”
“Yeah.” Jean says and Pietro goes to look at Bobby and he’s already gone probably to Math with Charles.
“Why’d he do that?”
“He’s mad at me.”
“Why?” Pietro couldn’t imagine any good reason to be mad at Jean.
Jean shrugs and picks up her stuff from the frozen ground.
She goes to class and Pietro considers talking to Bobby soon.
After lunch, Kurt Wagner discloses to Pietro his horrible experiences with going to the hospital in his early circus days. A handful of stories ending with him getting called slurs and exorcism attempts that sounded like products of a bad scary movie. The things Kurt told him made Pietro want to give him a big hug but he still isn’t sure if hugging is okay. Sometimes Kurt is okay with small touches but big ones make him nervous so instead Pietro just gingerly grabs his hand. Making sure Kurt sees him do it so he has time to stop him if he doesn’t want him to.
He holds his hand and strikes a deal with his blue friend.
“You haven’t gotten your check up with Hank yet?” He already knows the answer but he just needs confirmation.
“No, I haven’t.” Kurt looks fine at their joined hands chewing on his lower lip anxiously.
“If you do it, I’ll do it.” Which yeah, Pietro technically hadn’t gotten a physical from Hank yet and he was kinda avoiding it as well but for Kurt’s peace of mind he’ll take the loss.
“You haven’t done your check up either?” Kurt’s ears twitch and Pietro doesn’t touch them because he has self restraint.
He hadn’t purposely dodged the check up; it was mostly because Hank had been so busy and Pietro really didn’t wanna bother him. But cerebro is in full swing and all side projects Hank had in motion seemed to be at a good stopping point. Pietro knew that the full check up would most likely put things to light that Pietro kinda wanted to stay in the dark for a bit longer. Unfortunately Pietro Maximoff could no longer avoid the doctor's orders. Not if it helped Kurt go through this hurdle.
“Do you not like doctors either?”
“Not really. But I like Hank.” Pietro shrugs.
“I like Hank too.” Kurt says.
“I know.”
“You know?”
“You stare.” Kurt blushes a deep purple and Pietro smiles. Kurt went first and it wasn’t too bad.
The teleporter would pray under his breath, soft and peaceful hymns. He got skittish during the X-ray and Hank had to do it twice. He had an old broken bone that was set and healed correctly when he was Twelve. Something about a circus act going bad. Hank didn’t wanna push Kurt for details. Kurt has perfect vision and apparently can see in the dark which Pietro is super jealous of. Kurt held Pietros hand when Hank had to give him his flu shot and vaccinations. His finger nails dug into Pietro's flesh but he refused to pull away. When it was over Hank gave Kurt a blueberry lollipop.
“See? It wasn’t too bad.” Pietro teases and Kurt licks his Lollipop, still holding his hand even though Hanks has been done for several minutes now.
“You want me to stay?” Kurt looks at Pietro, eyebrows creasing together “I think I’m good, thanks Kurt.”
“Okay, I’ll be just outside then. Good luck Pietro.” Kurt gives him a thumbs up. Or at least his version of a thumbs up and poofs away.
Dr Hank McCoy did the same thing to the speedster that he did to Kurt. He checked Pietros reflexes, awesome as per usual, heart rate, fast as fuck obviously, eyes kinda blurry, he might need to get reading glasses which is lame, and Hank rechecked his weight again, he’s gained fifteen pounds since he first arrived.
Which Hank said was good and seemed really proud about but Pietro felt nauseous at the idea. David would’ve hated it. He would’ve called him spoiled.
Then it came down to the X-Rays.
Pietro knew Hank was gonna have questions. Pietro knows he would’ve if he was in Hank's shoes.
Hank's face had been completely neutral throughout the entire examination, just like a real doctor. Maybe because Hank is a real doctor? But a real Doctor wouldn’t let his face drop the way Hanks did when the screen was fully loaded.
Hank went still, glaring at the image Pietro couldn’t see. His scans are there, glaring right back at Hank mockingly.
“Peter…” Hank doesn’t look at him, he hasn’t looked away from the x-ray results in at least five minutes. “When you run are you in any pain?”
Hank always thinks of a solution. Of different factors. He tries to reason away questions he might have.
“Not really, why?” Pietro isn’t dumb. He knows why he’s asking. Pietro has broken bones. Quite a few most likely. Torn bones that were never set in a cast and never healed properly or correctly.
He can see that. Hank has eyes. He’s a fucking doctor. “Is the speed of your mutation not including your internal organs? Can your enhanced speed support your bones and ligaments or are they grinding and tearing every time you run?” Hanks eyes dart between image to image typing something on the computer looking just a little bit unhinged.
Pietro stares up at Hank who looks at him with confusion “are you in pain when you run?” He repeats again. “You must be.” He looks him up and down.
“No.” Pietro says evenly “I’m not in any pain when I run.” Pietro doesn’t really feel anything when he runs.
“You have 35 broken bones and what seems to be 17 hairline fractures all over your body.”
Pietro stays quiet.
“They’ve healed improperly, none of them have been treated at all? When was the last time you went to the doctor?” Hank looks angry. Pietro isn’t sure if he’s angry at him or at the situation. Maybe both.
Pietro shrugs. He couldn’t remember the last time he had gone to the doctor. Maybe to get a flu shot when he was a toddler? He doesn’t know.
“You can’t just not go to the hospital when you get a broken bone Peter.”
“I heal fast. Didn’t matter.”
“You healed wrong . In a couple years you could have joint problems, develop arthritis, puncture a lung, create blood clots, take a bad twist and become paralyzed. In a couple years you might not be able to run because your bones will be brittle and weak.”
“Okay, I’m sorry. I didn’t know.” Pietro lets out a breath feeling tiny. He hadn’t thought about not being able to run again. He hadn’t really thought about it at all. He was very much willing to ignore it all if he could. Pretend it never happened.
“I don’t want an apology Peter, I just need an explanation.”
“I was five when I had my first broken bone and we didn’t have any health insurance.”
“Peter-that’s one bone out of 35. A kid doesn’t just accidently do that. No one’s that clumsy I mean-“ hanks face is still, his blue skin twitching and he looks just a bit conflicted “-were you doing it on purpose?” Hank takes a deep breath “if your body can’t handle you running and it’s breaking your bones and you still do it that’s catastrophic Peter. That’s more than just negligence, that's self harm.”
Hank thought for just a split fraction of a second that Pietro was hurting himself. Every time he ran he was causing more and more pain. Hank thought he was breaking himself on purpose.
But he’s not allowed to do that.
The look on his face was so distraught and filled with so much empathy that Pietro felt sick to his stomach. The ringing in his ear became louder as his heart began to hit his rib cage. Pietro didn't want him to think he was hurting himself Everytime he ran. Pietros is afraid Hank might make him stop running. And that sounded like hell.
“I’m not. I didn’t-Those aren’t because-“
he doesn't want to hurt himself.
“-Peter. The only other explanation besides self mutilation is abuse.” He says it in such a crisp cold voice that Pietro feels the fear stab through him all at once. His rib cage concaving on itself becoming a cocoon of despair. Things were going south. Like they always tend to do when people get too concerned over the pitiful teenager.
“My step dad used to hit me sometimes.” He blurts it out. Like a balloon popping. Bursting out in quick motions.
Fuck. He hadn’t actually wanted to say that.
He hadn’t ever actually told anyone before. His mom knew but not because he had told her. He hadn’t ever had to say it out loud. Never had to speak it into existence. Maybe he thought it gave David too much power. Like, admitting his step-dad hurt him would somehow make it too real. But after all that Pietro just…says it. Blurts it out. Like an idiot.
He lets the confession leave his mouth. He gives David that title. Abuser. It can’t be unsaid. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Pietro is kinda surprised with himself. He’s also kinda pissed. And he’s kinda terrified too because Hank isn’t looking at him.
“Sometimes?” Hank repeats looking at the X-Ray intently. He can see the gears turning. “Peter. That’s-“
“-I’m a lot. David was never a patient man and I tended to piss him off. I’d get bad grades, get sent home cause I’d get into fights, I'd break things, id steal, talk back, I’d be too loud or too annoying. I’d set him off and it usually ended with a bruise or two.” And 35 broken bones apparently.
Pietro didn’t know what he expected Hank to do. What he wasn’t expecting him to do was for Hank to turn the screen around and face Pietro, fury in his eyes as he showed Pietro the jigsaw puzzle that was his skeleton. The doctor points at a broken bone, indistinguishable from any other in Pietros opinion. “That's a broken humerus. Broken on two separate spots. Partially healed and then snapped again. It’s near a broken artery which must’ve happened when your ulna and radius were snapped alongside the humerus bone. That level of pain is excruciating.” Hank's voice shakes and wobbles and he takes in a breath and lets it out quickly “this injury is over twelve years old. You were seven.”
Pietro looks away from the screen and Hank shouts “no! You look at me.”
He looks up at Hank, feeling the pressure in his chest, feeling that balloon swell up again. He hates this. He hates this.
Hank looks like he’s going to throw up and Pietro feels the same way “you were seven.” He repeats, like Pietro might’ve missed it the first time.
“I know,” Pietro mumbles. “I was there.” He says dully.
Hank shakes his head and points at another broken bone “broken femurs. Ten years old. You were nine. Another femur. Eleven years old. You were eight. Another bone, you were twelve.” He points at another on the screen looking so upset that Pietro felt his throat close up as Hank raised his voice. “another bone, another bone, another bone. You were ten, eleven, thirteen. Thirteen, ten, twelve, nine. Nine. Ten. Seven.”
“Okay.” Pietro chokes out wanting him to just stop already. He got it. He doesn’t need to keep doing this.
“Okay? Okay what Peter?” Hank raked his fingers over his head making it stand up. “Would it be okay to hit your sister?”
Pietro flinches glaring at Hank suddenly “excuse me?”
“If she’s annoying, and talks too much and gets into fights, and is overall just too much. If she steals and lies and is miserable to be around. Is it okay if I smack her around? Break a few of her bones to teach her a lesson?”
“No. And if you did I’d kill you.” And Pietro actually meant that which is terrifying.
“What about Jean? She’s a bit older, she should know better. Maybe a good hit to the head would do her some good?”
“You wouldn’t fucking dare.” Pietro would stop him. He could stop Hank. He could-
“Then why do you think it's okay when it happens to you? It wasn’t okay when you were seven, it wasn’t okay when you were thirteen and it isn’t okay now.” Hank begs, he pleads with Pietro and the speedster is openly crying, trying to catch up to his words.
“I-I don’t know. I’m just-“ Pietros eyes are drowning, feeling raw and broken and seven years old all over again “-I was- i was supposed to be strong .”
He wasn’t expecting the sudden hug.
Hank isn’t the touchy type so it didn’t even register in Pietros head as an option. But suddenly big blue fur was all around him and he was being pulled into the warmest, most coziest hug known to man. Hank should definitely be giving out more hugs, holy shit. “You are one of the strongest kids I know.” He says gruffly and Pietro melts. Sinking into his arms like marshmallows. Feeling that balloon swell up again.
“I'm not a kid.” Pietro says in a small voice that definitely made him sound like the littlest kid in the world.
Hank hugs him tighter “yes, you are. Kids are supposed to get bad grades, and get into fights and break things and be loud and be however they fucking want and I’m so, so sorry that he ever made you feel like him laying his hands on you was justifiable response to that. He didn’t fucking deserve you.”
Pietro is crying. He can admit to that only because he’s pretty sure Hank is too.
“You’re safe here.” Hank says “if he ever comes here…if he even dares-he won’t come anywhere near you. He’ll never be able to hurt you again.”
“You gonna beat up my step-dad Hank?” Pietro teases sniffling away snot and without missing a beat Hank says “I’ll break his legs.”
Pietro feels something swell “I doubt you’ll need to. But thanks Hank.”
“Anytime Pie.”
Pietro laughs, pulling away from Hanks embrace “you hear that one from Wanda?”
“I think pie makes you sound sweet.”
“I’m not sweet though, I’m cool and aloof.”
The blue beast fixes his glasses and turns his back to Pietro to click on his computer “sure. We’ll go with that.”
Pietro gasps “are you saying I’m not cool Hank because you’re one to talk.”
“I just dont think you’re as cool as you think you are. I mean you’re wearing silver leather pants right now.”
“DO NOT COME AFTER MY PANTS BRO!”
Pietro knows Hank wants to ask more questions but like a good guy he helps ease the suffocating tension and makes Pietro laugh. The speedster would’ve probably told him everything if he had. He would’ve caved. He doesn’t know how to feel about that. He doesn't like that he would’ve spilled every little secret to Hank at the drop of a hat. Every pain and hurt he’s ever felt he would’ve given to him and Pietro would’ve felt heard and understood.
He hates how much he trusts Hank.
It scares the fuck out of him.
He thinks maybe that’s how it would’ve felt with his older sister.
Pietro Maximoff had another sister.
An older sister named Anya. Born before he was even a thought. She died in a fire when she was only four years old.
His mom didn’t like to talk about it and Pietro didn’t like to think about it but if he did think about it, which he totally never does, he thinks that Anya would’ve loved playing pranks on Wanda too. She would’ve been cool. Cooler than Pietro. She would’ve bailed him out of jail and covered for him when he snuck out of the house, she would’ve listened to music with him, added to his infinite playlist of niche bands, she would’ve yelled at him when he was being mean to mom, she would’ve been strong and kind and compassionate and…alive.
In some twisted fantasy of his they still lived in that first house, with his grandparents that never died and his mom who was still sober, his father that he’s never met and his cool older sister Anya.
But the Fantasy is always just that: a fantasy. He knows it is because in this pretend world Wanda’s there too. Sitting at the dinner table coloring, permanently four in his mind. He sees her and he knows that the pretend world isn’t real. Because if Anya had lived, his mom wouldn’t have met David and Wanda wouldn’t have been born.
In this version of events Wanda wouldn’t be his sister but…he couldn’t just erase her. Not even in his imaginary world that he’s conjured up.
She’s always there. Always his sister.
That’s when Pietro usually snaps out of it. Because if he had to choose between having a dead sister and having an alive one then he’ll always choose Wanda.
No matter what.
But Pietro hopes that in some alternate reality somewhere where Anya is alive, that maybe she’d be kind of like Hank.
Kind and Stern and crazy smart. Someone Pietro would go to for dating advice. Someone that would’ve threatened to beat up his bullies for him as well, who’d help him mend scrapes, who would take jokes at her expense like a champ, who’d teach him how to ride a bike. Pietro thinks his pretend older sister would’ve been like Hank McCoy. Or he guesses he mostly hoped she would’ve been.
It’s the only excuse he has for growing this attached to the blue man. For thinking of him like family.
For feeling safe enough to utter David's name at all.
“Are you also aware of the piece of metal in your shoulder?”
Pietro's balloon pops.
“A what?” The speedster exclaims in horror.
Notes:
Typos will be found. I literally write this fic on the note app on my phone.
Chapter 9: Broken Glass And New Glasses
Summary:
“How was your check-up?” Pietro feels a phantom pain in his shoulder, one he knows isn’t real and all in his head. “It was good. Gonna need glasses.”
Kurt gasps a smile bursting out, enveloping his entire face “No way!”
“Yes, way. I’m gonna look so lame.”
“Glasses are cool.”
“No, they aren’t.” Pietro bumps his shoulder against Kurt’s.
“Hank has glasses.”
“Thanks for proving my point.” Pietro snorts and Kurt smacks his shoulder “Hank is very cool.”
“Hank probably paid you to say that.”
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Xavier's school for gifted youngsters settles into a routine and Wanda's birthday is around the corner. Pietro talks to Bobby and goes on an unprompted field trip.
Notes:
Sorry for not updating in a month. Here's a relatively long chapter as a treat. I'm considering doing a POV change for the next chapter. we shall see.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro Maximoff's maternal grandfather had lung cancer. During his long and troubled treatment, he was bedridden in the hospital for an extended amount of time. Unable to move and unable to live outside of the confinement of the sterilized hospital. His mother Magda Maximoff visited her father practically every single day. For months on end, she lived in that hospital. She breathed that hospital. Day in and day out for weeks and months. It was a slow slipping slide of emotions. The cancer was winning. He was dying. Slow and deadly. Sooner rather than later. In the end, it wasn’t lung cancer that did him in, it was the bomb that struck the hospital in the heart of Germany. A place where people come to heal and are slaughtered all at once.
The sterile air turned to copper and smoke. Germany became a war zone.
Magda has never been able to walk into a hospital ever since her father died in one. Her stomach turns, her heart pounds and her entire body shakes. she physically just can’t enter them without thinking of the screaming children on the pediatric floor. Or the smell of burning flesh or the taste of ash in her throat. She avoided going as much as possible during Pietro's childhood. Dodging and swerving any attempt at medical practices. She always passed along the trip to someone else whenever it was unavoidable.
She only told her son the real reason why she didn’t like them after she refused to go to the hospital when she was giving birth to Wanda. Mid-contractions had a full-blown meltdown after Pietro suggested calling an ambulance. Pietro Maximoff also wasn’t born in a hospital. The speedster was born prematurely in a large tent of a commune she had been traveling with for most of her pregnancy. Jumping from city to city usually in caravans. When his mother gave birth to him there was no epidural, no needles, and no medical professional, only an Indigenous woman, Taloa Lopez, who held her hand throughout the entire process.
Pietro came screaming into this world at a scary weight of 6 pounds and with a full head of brown hair.
They didn’t take baby Pietro to hospital for several days. Nearly a week if his mother's stories are true. Eventually, his godmother, the faithful Miss Lopez, strolled into a clinic with baby Pietro and they gave him a social security number and a birth certificate. Magda Maximoff didn’t personally take Pietro to the doctor until he was nearly four years old and got chicken pox. She had to step out into the parking lot halfway through the appointment, her excuse being a smoke break.
Magda didn’t have a caravan of runaways or a strong-armed Miss Lopez to guide her through her labor with Wanda. All she had was a scared ten-year-old son who had a broken arm and far too much nerves to do anything else but hold his crying mother's hand and call an ambulance.
Magda screamed. She cried. She begged Pietro not to call for help, to not send her to the hospital. She swore she cursed and she got mean and Pietro didn't know what to do. He didn’t know what he could do.
He was scared she was gonna die. He’d seen it happen in movies. Moms dying after having a baby. He didn’t want his mom to die. Not only because he loved her but because she’d be leaving him with David. Or worse. He didn’t want his sister to die. He knew David would get worse if his baby died. He’d be evil, far more evil than he was then.
He knew his mother would be mad when he called but he had to take the risk of her anger for her safety. Because he’s ten. Only ten. He didn’t know what else to do. The things that followed afterward are what made Pietro Maximoff hate hospitals as well. The day of Wanda’s birth was colored and stained ugly with memories he shouldn’t have had to witness. He didn’t like hospitals.
Hank McCoy is the only person, the only doctor Pietro has ever trusted enough to poke a needle in him without struggle.
When he got his vaccines as a child he had to be physically held down by three nurses because he kept biting and scratching the doctor who was trying to poke him. That's what his mother said. Pietro has to keep reminding himself that Hank specializes in mutant genetics. He knows what he’s doing. When he takes his blood he isn’t going to do anything weird with it. He trusts him. Nothing weird or bad will happen.
So it’s incredibly worrisome when the blue doctor tells him he has fragments of metal inside him.
“What the hell is it?” Pietro and Hank have been discussing the multiple chunks of metal inside Pietro's very thin body. A disturbing sentence he never thought he'd ever have to say in his entire life. And yes, you heard right. Multiple .
“I can’t be certain. There’s only so much I can see through an X-ray.”
Hank types on the computer. Showing a more detailed scan with muscle and tissue. “You see how the tissue has grown around it? The muscle on top is toned. It’s been there for a while. A couple of years at least considering your healing factor.” He points at another area near Pietro’s heart “that one too.” And then at one closer to his ribs “and this one too.” And then another in the center of his stomach. Scarily close to his lungs. Four pieces of metal. Even if Hank claims he can’t be sure, what they are is glaringly obvious. They are bullets. Pietro Maximoff has bullets inside him. He’s been fucking shot. He doesn’t know when or how but he has the bullets inside him to prove it.
“When could that have happened?”
“I don’t know. It’s…weird.” Wow, amazing.
“Thanks, that’s helpful.” Pietro sasses and touches his shoulder, where a supposed piece of metal is inserted. A bullet from a gun he doesn’t recall. He can’t feel anything off but he also doesn’t know what he’s supposed to look for. It just feels like a shoulder. His shoulder.
“It’s just…weird.”
“I got it the first time you said it, Hank.” Pietro exasperates.
Hank pushes his glasses up his nose and Pietro watches as he clicks on something on the computer. Zooming and unzooming the screen but nothing is much clearer than before. “There’s isn’t any damage around the wound.”
“I heal fast.”
“Yeah, but there is no evidence at all that it had shredded any skin or muscle at all. It’s just…there. With no proof that it ever wasn’t.”
“Someone can’t just be born with bullets inside them, Hank.” Pietro exasperates.
“I know that. And we don’t know if they’re bullets.” Hank sighs.
“I’m also pretty sure I’d know if I was fucking shot four times .”
“Again, we don’t know if they are bullets.” They are. They definitely are. “Also You didn’t know that you had them at all.” Hank points out cleverly and that makes Pietro shut up relatively quickly. “They aren’t causing any harm right now, and there’s no evidence that they will in the future.”
“Your advice is to what? Do nothing.” Pietro raises a brow at McCoy, feeling like maybe he’s the only one taking this seriously.
“My advice…is to stay vigilant. If something feels off or different, come to me and we’ll figure out a way to remove them with minimal damage.” Pietro would like to avoid any surgeries of any kind.
“Okay.” Pietro frowns and gives Hank a look “Can we not mention this to anyone? I just um-I don’t want it to be a whole thing.” He was talking about the bullets and the other stuff too. It’s just not a conversation he wants to have. Especially not with Charles.
Hank turns to the speedster looking very serious “Your medical history is completely confidential. It’s up to you who knows about it.”
“Yeah, for sure. But- you and Charles are like best friends, right? Don't you have like a special bond or whatever, ten years of solitude and all that?” Hank's nose twitches, something he doesn't know if he did intentionally. “Best friends don't have to tell each other everything.”
Hank faces Pietro fully “Your medical history will stay private. Unless I feel you are in any danger, what I have learned will stay between doctor and patient.”
“Okay.” Pietros trusts Hank. not because he's his doctor but because he's his friend. He thinks.
“Now let's check those eyes again.”
The speedster groans.
Video game arcades cemented themselves into society when Computer Space was released. Computer Space was the first commercially sold, coin-operated video game designed by Nolan Bushnell and Ted Dabney. Though the game was considered a huge failure at the time, the arcade game was revolutionary and formed the foundations of a new industry. Nolan Bushnell and Ted Dabney then became the founders of Atari, inc. and followed its success to the next year with the game Pong .
Pietro Maximoff had just gotten kicked out of his professional track team. Left high and dry with nothing to show for it but an empty trophy case and crippling self-doubt. He had gravitated towards PacMan because he needed a goal. His competitive streak was momentarily subdued by the yellow circular man-eating little dots on the screen. It kept him busy and It gave Pietro a goal. The speedster's only goal at that time was to go to the Olympics. That unfortunately was taken from him because of his stupidity and so then he needed a new goal. He found it. His new goal was to win at Pac-Man. To be the best at it. Then suddenly his goal was to break Erik Lensherr out of the Pentagon and he did that successfully too. Then horrifically all at once his next goal was to get his sister somewhere safe. He took her to the school. At the time Pietro would swear up and down that the school was nowhere near safe, with a few health hazards and violations in the yard itself. Not safe. But making the school safe became a goal as well. He made it safe. Then suddenly his goal of making the school safe turned into making the school…a school. A goal right after the other. Back to back to back.
Pietro always has a goal. Vague or laser sharp. His next one is a bit more difficult for him to succeed in.
He needs to talk to Bobby. It’s not a big goal. Not a big thing. It shouldn’t be. But it is. He thinks it might have to do with the fact that Charles asked him to. He doesn't want the telepath to think he’s a wimp. It shouldn’t matter what Charles thinks. But fuck-it might be weighing on his mind just a bit.
He hates this whole damn thing.
Bobby isn’t a scary kid. He isn’t a bomb ready to be set off. Bobby isn’t a monster. Bobby Drake is just a kid whose life has changed drastically. Surrounded by kids whose lives have also gone through the same ordeal. Confused and maybe just a little bit angry. Maybe even bitter.
Before this, his mother told Pietro via landline, Bobby was quite popular. He was surrounded by friends who liked him. Admired him. He made them laugh and he pulled pranks and he was an all-around sweet kid. Like actually a sweetheart. Twelve years old and playing Little League with his youth group, volunteering in soup kitchens, and running errands for their elderly neighbor for pen money. He was one of the popular kids. Bobby’s father spoke of his popularity in blanket statements. Vague and almost naive consideration but his mother was far more realistic. She said he wasn’t a bully but he was friends with them. “He was a prankster and made them laugh and he was fun but his friends always took it too far. Always wanting to target specific people, they confused pranking with harassment and they got mean…Bobby got mean too.” She went into detail about how the day he got his powers he had pushed some kid in the pool. A new kid from New Jersey, small for his age and soft-spoken. Defenseless and helpless.
Bobby hadn’t known the new kid couldn’t swim. Or maybe he had. Pietro wasn’t completely sure but he did know that Bobby's friends watched as the kid slowly drowned, begging and crying and Bobby was the one who dove in to save him. Bobby must’ve been scared. Something in his brain must’ve clicked into place, or his body truly decided to kick-start his powers at that moment because while he was grabbing at the drowning boy, the water around them became cold. It was only pure luck that Bobby got the kid out of the water before it crystallized into hard ice.
It was ruled as a freak accident. No one made the connection about it being Bobby’s fault. They sent him home with a cold.
Madeline Drake told Pietro that Bobby had been closed off and weird even before that.
Pietro has to talk to Bobby.
“ He thinks you’re cool.” That’s what Charles said but every time Pietro is anywhere near the kid he avoids him. He doesn’t look at him. He barely talks to him. When he tries to include him in stuff he declines or straight up refuses.
Pietro thinks Charles is confused. No way in hell does Bobby Drake think he’s cool. The kid can’t stand him.
Although Bobby Drake seems to hate Jean Grey the most. When she’s in the room he leaves with a huff. When he can’t leave he glares at her. Daggers of rage aimed at the mute redhead. Jean retreats into herself. Making herself quiet and small. Invisible. Like when he first met her all those months ago.
As a result, Wanda doesn’t talk to Bobby either. Some form of Sibling Law he didn’t get the rules to. And of course, because Wanda dislikes Bobby then so does Frankie because the damn fool is madly in love with her.
The Whitleys don't particularly socialize with anyone but themselves so they don't contribute or erase from the situation.
Bobby in all honesty gives off “I bite” vibes and everything and everyone seems to set him off.
“Bobby made Angela cry today,” Wanda says angrily. This is not a big feat. Last week Pietro killed a roach in her room and she went into full hysterics. Angela is an easy crier.
Nonetheless, he still had to ask “What did he do?”
“Said he didn’t like her tree puns.”
Her tree puns are actually hilarious. “Criminal.” Pietro gasps dramatically. “Her puns are so funny like you wood not believe.”
Wanda gives him a blank expression.
“Get it? Wood. Like the tre-“
“-I get it. It’s just not funny.” She says in a monotone voice. “It’s funnier when she says it.”
“Not true.” Pietro huffs crossing his arms.
“It’s her delivery. It’s just better.” Wanda says, suddenly a comedy critic.
“Lies. You just don’t think I’m funny 'cause I’m your brother.”
“I think you’re funny.” Wanda rolled her eyes looking at him like he was the nearly ten-year-old and not the other way around. “It’s got nothing to do with being funny, it's gotta do with Bobby being mean.”
“I’ll talk to him.”
“When?” Everyone thinks it’s Pietro's job to talk to Bobby. The speedster can't seem to catch a break ever. Even when he’s just trying to read a damn textbook on music theory.
“When I get the chance.” Pietro sighs, already getting a headache just thinking about it.
“Perfect!” She starts tugging on him. “He’s in the library right now. You should go now before the free period is over.” She leads him up the stairs and Pietro struggles half-heartedly.
“But I don’t-“ Wanda tugs on him more, pulling on his jacket, using his clothes against him, dragging him slightly. Fuck.
“-you said when you got the chance-“
“-not now. I can’t just-“ she turns her red eyes at me looking angry. “-Why not?” She screams and the wooden floorboards crack underneath her, the vase near the door that’s probably older than Charles flings against the wall and shatters into a million little pieces. A piece of glass slices through Pietro's jaw leaving a thin and sudden cut on his face.
Pietro and Wanda stare at each other in silence.
Wanda looks at Pietro in horror “I’m sorry.” Her voice shook “I-I didn’t mean to do that.”
Pietro touches his face, coming back with blood. He’s just a little bit stunned. Usually, he'd dodge it. Usually, he’s able to see things before they hit him but he was so focused on Wanda he hadn’t seen the vase shatter at all. Hadn’t seen the piece of glass until it was already cutting him.
“I’m sorry.” She repeats her eyes turning back to brown and her hair no longer defying gravity. “I-I’m so sorry Pie.” Her eyes begin to water and her voice becomes watery.
“It’s okay.” He says a bit numbly feeling a bit lost. “It was an accident.”
Wanda pops. The waterworks overwhelm her all at once. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” She’s making grabby hands at Pietro, small and fragile, and Pietros not completely sure why she’s so emotional about it. He’s been hurt before. He’s been hurt worse. Far worse. He goes to her, her hands wrapping reaching for his cut face and then retreating. Pietro grabs her hand and places it next to his cut cheek. “It’s okay.” He feels the tingling sensation of his ripped skin molding back together. “I’m fine.” Pietro knows his round is stitching back up, healing itself in seconds. He watches as Wanda watches him, faces filled with conflict. “All healed up,” Pietro says gently letting go of her hand.
“You heal fast.” Wanda says “When you get hurt, no one even notices cause you heal so quickly.”
“Yeah, that’s a good thing.” Pietro smiles.
Wanda frowns, blinking away her tears “No it’s not. When he hurt you, you couldn’t get help because there was never any proof. You would heal so quickly..,”
He doesn’t like that she’s thinking about that. She shouldn’t be thinking about that sort of thing. “Am I gonna end up like him?” The question, do pointed and do raw wrapped around his heart and squeezed. No. This is all wrong.
“No. No way.” Pietro squeezes Wanda’s arms trying to meet her eyes “You are nothing like your father.”
“We both hurt people.” Wanda’s lip wobbled. “I killed those men at the house. I hurt you with the glass.”
“No. Stop that.” Pietro shook his head, his mind racing for the right words “You hurt those people because you were scared, it was an accident.”
“No, I hurt them 'cause they hurt you.”
Fuck. okay. Let’s reroute this.
“You did it to protect me. Sometimes we gotta hurt other people to protect the ones we love.”
Wanda frowns “Aren’t you supposed to say that violence isn’t the solution?”
“Why would I say that? That sounds dumb.”
“That’s what Charles would’ve said.”
“So like I said. Super dumb.” Pietro jabs already hearing Charles's voice in his head scolding him for promoting violence.
Wanda doesn’t laugh at his stupid joke. She doesn’t even blink. “Have you been doing the exercises Charles suggested?”
Wanda nods, finally meeting his eyes “It’s just hard.”
“Yeah, I didn't think it would be easy. Jean has the same exercises. Maybe you can do them together?”
Wanda shakes her head and looks pensive, way too contemplative for an almost ten-year-old, Pietro puts a finger between her eyebrows, poking her gently “Why so stressed bug?”
She frowns, fiddling with her fingers anxiously, a habit she got from Jean “She-she gets stuck sometimes. I’m scared that if I go in with her we’ll both get stuck and there'll be no one to pull her out.”
Pietro soaks that information in, twisting the words up in his head and forcing the frown away from his face “I’ll talk to the professor about it, maybe he can be on standby from now on when you two do your exercises.”
“I love you.” She says suddenly and Pietro smiles at the sudden burst of affection “I love you too.”
Pietro lets out a breath, slouching slightly “I can’t corner Bobby." he starts "He needs to be the one to come to me. Otherwise, he won’t listen.”
“But how will he know that he can come to you?” Wanda says and Pietro thinks she may have a point.
Later that day he goes outside and finds Kurt Doodling under a big oak tree in the yard, one he vaguely remembers Charles saying is his favorite. Kurt’s Eyebrows creased together in concentration, tracing the paper.
“Hey, blue.”
“Hi.” Kurt looks up at him, his tail tapping the empty spot beside him. Pietro sits down, and the limb falls easily on his lap and Pietro leans back on the trunk trying to peak over at Kurt's mysterious notebook. The teleporter moves it so it's facing away from him. Pietro sighs and asks “Whatcha drawing?” He knows he won’t tell him just like all the other times but he asks anyway.
“Nothing.”
“Looks like something.”
“I’m just practicing.”
“Practicing what?”
“Nothing,” he says quickly.
“Can I see the nothing?” Pietro leans closer into his space.
‘No, you cannot.” Kurt leans back, his nose scrunching up adorably.
“How come?” Pietro slips a mischievous grin into his face “Is it naughty?”
“No!” Kurt snaps and Pietro flinches, barely. It shouldn’t be considered a flinch. Kurt doesn't yell. It just surprised Pietro. But Kurt softens slightly and takes in a breath. “You can’t see it. Not right now.”
Pietro nods relieved that Kurt didn’t bring up his little slip-up. “But I can at some point?”
Kurt nods eagerly “When I'm done.”
“Okay.” Pietro settles back into the tree trunk, holding on to Kurt's blue tail instinctively. A habit he’s embarrassingly gotten accustomed to while near the blue teleporter. Kurt doesn’t seem to mind, allowing the contact even when it’s inconvenient. Pietro still doesn’t know how much touching is too much touching but Kurt’s tail seems to be a safe choice every time. Which is convenient because it just so happens to be Pietro's favorite thing. Pietro nearly falls asleep there, beside Kurt, humming under his breath, fiddling with his tail.
“How was your check-up?” Pietro feels a phantom pain in his shoulder, one he knows isn’t real and all in his head. “It was good. Gonna need glasses.”
Kurt gasps a smile bursting out, enveloping his entire face “No way!”
“Yes, way. I’m gonna look so lame.”
“Glasses are cool.”
“No, they aren’t.” Pietro bumps his shoulder against Kurt’s.
“Hank has glasses.”
“Thanks for proving my point.” Pietro snorts and Kurt smacks his shoulder “Hank is very cool.”
“Hank probably paid you to say that.”
“He has not.” Kurt says “Hank doesn’t hang out with me.”
The speedster, usually, would’ve kept joking about it but the other teen had sounded so… disappointed.
“What’s that?” Pietro keeps the teasing in his voice. “You want some blue-on-blue bonding?”
Kurt ducks his head away from the joking speedster looking put off completely by the teasing “It’s not important.” His accent is thick. It's important.
Pietro drops the smile, catching the tension in Kurt's shoulders and the sudden heaviness of his tail. “If it matters to you…then it is important.”
Kurt’s ears twitch and his face goes through a quick succession of emotions all that Pietro sees in slow motion. He doesn’t realize he’s in superspeed until he’s right in front of Kurt hands on his shoulders and the blue boy is blinking up at him In surprise.
“You’re upset.” No shit Pietro. That’s a no-brainer. But why is he upset? “Is it something I said?” Pietro sucks at this.
“No.” Kurt shakes his head quickly.
“But you are upset.” Pietro says pointedly “You didn’t deny that. So what’s wrong?”
“Is it about your notebook?”
“No the notebook is good.”
“Is it the tree?”
“The tree is fine.” Kurt leans back on the trunk.
“My face?”
“No, your face is perfect.”
“Cute.” Pietro smirks “Is it about the checkup?”
“No, nothing about the check-up. It’s nothing. I’m completely fine,”
“You’re completely not fine.” Pietro frowns “You can tell me when something is bugging you. We’re friends. Best friends.” Pietro assumes most best friends share those types of things. He’s never had one before so this is all new territory.
Pietro might be a little insecure about the fact that he’s a bit inexperienced when it comes to friendships. He doesn’t know when he’s overstepping or being too much.
“If I’m the thing that’s bugging you, then that’s fine too. I know I interrupted your alone time. I can just go inside and bother Wanda instead.” Pietro rushes out “It’s okay if you want me to go.”
Boundaries. Pietro is bad at that too. He’s trying to be better at it.
“You are not bugging me.” Kurt struggles with the terminology looking like he ate something bad “I enjoy your company. It just seems-it appears that Hank does not enjoy mine.”
“What makes you think that?” Is Pietro missing something?
“Whenever I’m around he seems uncomfortable. I don’t think he likes me very much.”
Pietro shakes his head “I can talk to him if-“
“-no please don’t do that.” Kurt cuts Pietro off face flushing with embarrassment “I don’t want him to think—i —I do not wish to make this a thing.”
“Okay…” Pietro would be a hypocrite if he didn’t understand that. Didn’t he tell Hank the same thing about Charles?
“You promise you won’t say anything?”
“I swear I won’t.” And he doesn’t he was stuck in his own thoughts when he looked towards the pond. Frozen solid from Bobby’s latest tantrum. From the distance Peter couldn’t catch what they where saying but suddenly Jean was approaching him. Bobby physically became more rigid and irritated and he pulled his fist back mid swing and-
-Pietro catches it in his glaring down at the boy.
“What the hell are you doing?” Pietro snaps feeling red hot anger engulf him. Bad. Bad. Bad. He needs to calm down but his mind can’t seem to slow down enough to think about anything besides the fact that Bobby was gonna hit Jean.
Bobby flinches, looking up at the speedster in alarm. “What?” He snaps back.
“Why are you trying to hit Jean?” Pietros voice is odd.
Bobby goes rock still “I’m not.”
“Kid, I just saw you.”
Bobby’s face goes flush and angry “I’m not a kid!”
“He wasn’t gonna hit me.” Jean says behind him but Pietro doesn’t hear her over the rush in his head. “Well, big kids don’t hit little girls.”
“I wasn’t going to hit her!” Bobby yells “She was being a bitch and-“
“-hey!” Pietro interrupts him, his voice sounding a bit too harsh even to his own ears “You don’t call her that. Ever .”
“But-“
“-no buts. You’re angry. I get that. Try to explain it to me without calling people names. You’re smart, I’m sure you can do that.” Pietro finally realizes why he sounds off. He sounds like his mother scolding young Pietro for saying bad words in the presence of the rabbi. He’s only done it twice and the rabbi thought it was hilarious. The way his face went blank and voice clipped sounds like how his mother sounds when she’s pissed off. He hadn’t realized he picked that up.
Jean touches his arm. He turns to her and sees the disappointed look in her face and recoils mentally. Oh yeah, okay. Maybe he should calm his ass down too.
“I’m gonna head inside.” She says and doesn’t say anything else leaving the two boys outside to their own devices.
Bobby doesn’t meet Pietro's eyes looking at his shoes and fidgeting slightly. Bobby let out an exhale. Calming himself. Like Charles showed him how to do when his anger got the best of him. “She read my mind.”
Oh.
“Without even asking. What am I supposed to do with that? I have to share a room with a-“ Pietro can physically see him stop himself from saying something mean “-a guy in a wheelchair who’s obsessed with some girl .”
“My sister.” Pietro adds in quickly before the kid starts swinging out insults about Wanda as well. Pietro takes a breath too. Fuck. He needs to not sound like that. No wonder the kid never approached him. Is that how he sounds when he’s pissed?
“Y-yeah-your sister. And I have to go to classes where I can’t even slack off, I’m surrounded by cats, which I’m allergic to by the way, I can’t go to the pool or the lake without turning it into on ice rink and I’m living with three telepaths who can read my every thought without asking.”
“Charles won’t read your mind unless you give him explicit permission but Wanda and Jean are new. They barely have a grasp on their abilities.”
“That’s a shit excuse.”
“Quit the cursing.”
“You curse all the time.” Yeah, Pietro should get a handle on that.
“Okay yeah true. But I’m an adult.”
“Whatever. Just leave me alone.” Bobby moves away and Pietro stops him before he can get too far “I'm sorry.” Pietro says quickly hands up in surrender. “I said I’d wait for you to come to me and when You do I get all judgy. That’s my bad.” Pietro gets defensive when it comes to Wanda and when it comes to Jean. Those are his girls. “Just talk, I’ll listen. No sass.”
“I don’t wanna anymore.”
“I won’t say a word. I swear.”
“Not even to Charles?”
“Not even to the old man. I’m a perfect secret keeper.” Pietro taps his skull “impenetrable.”
“I-“ Bobby lets out a breath of air, foggy and cold “I haven’t been sleeping well. I keep thinking about…” he hesitates “when I got my-abilities-I um I hurt someone. He almost died because of me and I never got to say I’m sorry.” A conflicted expression crosses the younger boy. “I keep thinking about how when he got pushed in I just stood there. How I heard him screaming and I heard my friends laughing and I just stood there. Frozen in place. I remember seeing him struggle and my body wanting to move to help him-I’m a swimmer and, I could get him out easily- but my friends kept laughing and holding on to me telling me needed the practice. Like it was a game. Like he wasn’t dying. They were going to let him drown and I was gonna let them let him drown and I can’t sleep at night because all I hear is him begging for me. Him saying my name specifically. Pleading for me to be a good person and actually help him and in my dream just like In reality I hesitate. Because being a good person doesn’t come naturally to me. Every night I think about how worsthe worst human being alive and it’s all I think about all day every day and Jean knows that. She knows the absolute worst thing I’ve ever done and she- she hasn’t said a damn thing about it. She’s never brought it up because she’s a good person. Like actually. And I’m not a good person and I hate that she is. I hate that. I hate her. I hate her so fucking much.”
Okay, so that’s a lot to unpack. He was hoping for a crush-type scenario and not an existential crisis.
“Good people do bad things all the time.” Pietro says slowly “Just because you did one bad thing doesn’t make you a horrible person. Just because you hesitated doesn’t mean you’re evil, it just means you were scared. Everybody gets scared.” Everybody.
“It wasn’t just one bad thing. It was a bunch of stuff.” Bobby shakes his head looking distraught.
“Okay? I do bad things all the time. It doesn’t make me a bad person.” Bobby rolls his eyes and Pietro continues boldly “I robbed a bank once. Just to see if I could.”
Bobby’s eyes widened dramatically “You what?!”
“Yep. I returned all the money, of course, I didn’t need it, I could just steal whatever I wanted.” Pietro continues forward willing to reveal every bad thing he’s ever done in his life if it means Bobby would feel less shitty. “When I was in a foster home I stole food from my foster parents pantry-“ this was before he gained his abilities, less stealthy and far more liable to get caught “-I ate all the food, even the rations that belonged to the other kids.” He doesn’t mention the part about his metabolism already being incredibly enhanced. Or about the fact that he hadn’t eaten in days because he didn’t do dishes. “I once punched my middle school bully so hard in the face that he had to get reconstructive surgery for his nose.”
Bobby’s eyes go comically wide “What did he do?”
“Dressed up as a nazi for Halloween.”
“You’re Jewish?” Pietro would've knocked him upside the head even if he wasn’t.
“Yeah.” Pietro says easily “So is Wanda.”
“And Charles?”
Pietro laughs “No, I don’t believe he is. Man likes his bacon a bit too much.”
Bobby nods, looking pensive. “Did he get in trouble? The kid that dressed up as a nazi?”
Pietro's face forms a frown, thinking back on that time with disdain “I got expelled and he got to go home early.”
“You got expelled for beating up a nazi?” Bobby sounded scandalized and Pietro is a bit proud of the fact that he isn’t the only one that sees the injustice of that statement.
“I got expelled for not apologizing and for being in the hallway without a teacher's slip.”
“That's dumb.” Bobby scoffs.
“It was dumb.” Pietro agrees, crossing his arms.
Bobby’s eyebrows knit together “Well…I’m him.” Blue eyes meet brown “In this scenario. I’m the bully that didn’t get reprimanded. I didn’t get to apologize.”
Pietro takes a breath “Did you want to?”
“What?”
“Did you want to apologize? To the boy, you almost drowned.”
“Y-yeah but-“
“-Okay. Shouldn’t be a problem.”
“What?” Bobby looked off balance “wait- what do you mean? You can’t just take me to go see him. He probably doesn’t wanna see me or…” he doesn’t finish that sentence.
“We’ll never know until we try. We can go right now. ”
“Right now? Shouldn’t you ask Charles for permission?”
“Nah he won’t even notice we’re gone.” Then Pietro remembers the last time he left the x-mansion unannounced “ actually , yeah, I’ll ask him real quick. Stay here.” Pietro zips away from Bobby before he could protest and down a flight of stairs and into a long hallway in moments and knocks on the door before abruptly opening it anyway before Charles could answer.
“Professor-“ Pietro watches as Charles fidgets behind his desk darting his eyes away from something under his desk and back to Pietro “Peter? What did we talk about knocking?”
“I did knock.”
“In your speed or mine?”
Pietro grins cheekily “might’ve been mine. Whatcha hiding?”
“Nothing.” Charles says quickly sitting up straight in his wheelchair “you’re a bad liar.” Pietro teases walking towards the professor.
“It’s-its just…” Charles shoves whatever it is deeper into his desk and nods “it’s your sister's birthday present.”
Pietro stops short from his approach. Wanda’s present. For her birthday. Which isn’t for a while. He got her a present. The professor, a man whose only known Wanda for less then a year— is getting her a present. Something about it makes Pietro's insides vibrate with something unfamiliar. Something mushy and far too vulnerable for a random Wednesday afternoon.
“What is it?” The speedster asks in a far more softer voice than before feeling small and shy, like it was his birthday.
Wanda Maximoff doesn’t usually get presents from anyone but Pietro. David managed to miss nearly every single birthday she’s ever had therefore never bestowed her with gifts and while our mother was always present the most she could afford was to make her special birthday breakfast. It was usually up to Pietro to shower her with gifts. Stolen or purchased. It didn’t matter to Wanda. It never did. Her smile was always so big. This year would be the first time she’d be receiving gifts from anyone who wasn’t her brother. It was weird and it made the whole thing twist and curl in Pietro's mind. Overthinking and overly touchy. Too intense in a way Pietro didn’t want to be.
“It’s a surprise.” Charles says.
“Wanda loves surprises. I won’t tell her what you got her.”
“I’m not gonna show you Peter do not even try it. And you better not search my desk at super speed either or I’ll cut your allowance this week.” Pietro feels surreal in this moment. How is that a plausible punishment for Pietro now? In the past being punished implied being starved . Being beaten . In this weird upside-down version of his life that threat doesn’t even cross Charles's mind. The worst thing Charles can think of doing to Pietro is not giving him money for the week .
Pietro pouts “come oooooooon! I won’t tell just show me. My curiosity is literally killing me.” He doesn’t search his desk even though he could. He could find out before he could blink. He wouldn’t even know that he’d done it. But he doesn’t. Pietro stands exactly where he’s been in front of Charles desk. Respecting his wishes. Feeling the need to follow his orders because-well Pietro doesn’t really know why but he knows that he didn’t move from his spot.
“It won't kill you to wait a couple more days.” Charles smiles with only his eyes something Pietro wasn’t aware someone could do until he met Charles. “How can I help you Peter?”
“Huh?”
“You came here for a reason, no? Did you want to play another game of chess, I just put the board away but I can take it out again if you’d like to continue losing.”
“Haha, very funny.” Pietro is acutely aware that Charles doesn’t seem to mind Pietro bugging him. He was just with him. They had played a game of chess during Charles' break. Pietro was very much mentally aware that the professor wasted his lunch break to play board games with an anxious speedster.
“I was going to go on a field trip with Bobby. He’s tryna make amends with someone.”
Charles touches his chin “A field trip?” He looks at Pietro straight on “Is this about the talk I asked you to have with him?”
“Yep. Figured you should know before I head out.”
Charles nods “Will you be back before supper?”
“Probably.” Pietro thinks about the fact that it's Miss Magos night to cook “Maybe. I don't know. We’re playing it by ear. I'll call if we stay late.”
He shuffled with his pocket and took out a wad of cash from his wallet, handing it to Pietro with a knowing look “for Wendy’s.” Pietro hides a smile and takes the money from the professor's hand even though he has his own money. The professor looks him up and down “And please put on a jacket, it’s freezing out.”
“Okay, old man.” Pietro rolls his eyes.
Charles soldiers on “-Bobby should put on a jacket too, it’s gonna be a cold afternoon.”
“He’s impervious to the cold.” Pietro adds quickly and Charles just smiles “that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t button up.”
“Alright, I’ll tell em’.” Pietro is very eager to leave.
“Also before you go Hank told me you had your check-up with him a couple days ago.” Traitor.
“Ahuh.” Pietros alarm bell rang behind his ears and he briefly considered jumping off a high window or something. Hank said he wouldn’t say anything to Charles. Was that a lie? Why would he do that? Why would he say he wouldn’t and then go ahead and do it? Is Pietro really this gullible? Does Hank think-
“He said you need glasses.” Pietro's alarm lowers in volume. Fading into a quiet buzz. “Yeah, I do.” He says on autopilot.
Wheels takes out a small box from his satchel and hands it to Pietro gingerly. Pietro looks at Charles and then at the box, the noise in his head turning into a hum.
“What is it?”
“Open it, Peter.”
He does. They are silver goggles. Exactly like the pair he has in his pocket.
“They have your prescription.” Oh.
Pietro isn’t going to make this a bigger deal than it is. Okay, yeah, he was a bit embarrassed about needing glasses. A dumb thing to be worried about compared to the hundreds of other things he could be stressing about. His mom not calling in over three weeks. His sister having nightmares that shake the earth. His bastard stepfather getting out of prison. The mysterious bullets inside his body. His crippling need to swipe something every time he goes to the store. His unhealthy obsession with Kurt’s tail.
Needing glasses shouldn’t even be a blip in his radar.
Despite Kurt’s assurance that Pietro would not look like a complete nerd wearing glasses, he was still weirdly insecure about it. He doesn’t want glasses. He doesn’t like them. But goggles? He wears goggles all the time. He wears them when he runs. He has to. It won’t feel any different than his old ones. He’ll still look like his old self except now he’ll be able to see the world just a bit better.
Charles took all of that into account. Prescription goggles. It's a perfect solution. One that Charles thought of so that Pietro would feel most comfortable. It was such a seamless and thoughtful gift that Pietro couldn’t process it. Staring at the matching silver goggles in his hand, feeling his throat itch for words he couldn’t say for fear of saying something embarrassing.
“Hank says you should start using them right away. Especially if you’re going to run long distances in superspeed.”
Pietro nods, staying silent.
“It’s very important that you can see while running, especially at that speed.” it hadn't really been a problem. At least not one Pietro could pinpoint. He could see. He could see well enough. Just not…perfectly. Which he supposes would have become a problem eventually.
“Peter?” Charles rolls his wheelchair closer to Pietro probably trying to figure out why the speedster is glitching out.
“Are you alright?”
“I’m-“ Stop being fucking weird. “-thank you.”
Charles gives Pietro an interesting look “No need to thank me, Peter, you needed glasses so I got you glasses. Being able to see is essential.”
“Don’t let Miss Margo hear you say that.” Pietro jokes his face still hot.
“That woman is supernatural, she doesn’t count. Her not having sight is just evening out the playing field.” It was such an outlandishly funny statement that all the tension in Pietro's shoulders evaporated and he combusted into laughter. Holy shit.
Pietro puts on the goggles. The world around him came into focus. Slowing down, and becoming whole again. He breathes and he’s beside Bobby Drake once again, handing him a jacket which he scowled at but put on anyway.
“You ready?” Pietro grabs the back of Bobby’s neck and he runs.
Notes:
As per usual typos will be found. :)) The Funniest one I've found while writing is Charkes instead of Charles.
Chapter 10: A Confined Tornado
Summary:
“Please, Hank.” Charles’ expression showed ten years' worth of grief, ten years worth of hope, and ten years worth of pent up emotion all in one withering look. “I can’t do this without you. I won’t do this without you.”
A gun cocked and full, aimed at Charles's dreams, and its Hanks finger that’s on the trigger.
“We need to do this slowly.” Hank says.They don’t do It slowly.
———
Hank meets Charles. The school goes dark. Hank meets The Maximoffs and the lights flicker on.
Notes:
Holy shit I did not mean for this to be 12k but enjoy the POV change.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Dr Henry Phillip McCoy graduated at age 15 from Harvard University at the top of his class and by 18 he had six PhDs in chemistry, Genetics, Biophysics, Electrical Engineering, Computer Science, and Pathology and was widely renowned as a biochemist. So renowned in fact that despite his young age he was personally asked to work for the C.I.A. as a weapons designer, an honor not many can claim. He would be the first person to develop the SR-71 concept and the first person to pilot it.
Charles Xavier was the first openly mutant person he’d met in his 23 years of life. His father Norton McCoy worked at a nuclear Power plant which exposed him to high levels of radiation that affected his genes. As a result, Norton's son, Henry "Hank" McCoy, was born a mutant baby. Norton McCoy shared the same mutation as his son, hiding away his deformed feet his entire life and implicating that fear into young Hank as well.
“You will be known as a genius. Not as a freak .”
He knew that his father, a mild-mannered white-collared man, only wanted what was best for him. His words struck him and molded him to be the way he was. He was always careful. Usually. He tried to be. He was always too aware of the things he could and could not do. The limits he set for himself.
When he met Charles Xavier he felt that mold chip away. A telepath. So open in all regards. Pioneering a cause Hank had no clue even existed. One he desperately wanted to be a part of.
“You’re among friends now Hank. You can show off.” A gentle smile and Raven…her smile could jolt him into action even when they had just met.
So he took off his shoes. It was strange and weird and completely uncomfortable to do so in front of others. He could hear his father's voice yelling at him to stop. To put his shoes back on. To cover up.
“You’re amazing,” Raven told him and for just a moment he believed her.
He was infatuated with her. Some might even say he was in love with her. He would’ve moved worlds for her. He would have. He could have. Hank didn’t know much about love but he’s certain someone’s heart isn’t meant to ache like his after a heartbreak if it wasn’t love. His girlfriends in college were few and far between and were poor examples.
He couldn’t date properly when he was in college because he was only fifteen . One of his girlfriends, Linda Donaldson, was a dual enrollment kid the same age as him but they fell off because he was far too focused on school and she was more interested in experiencing college life. His second girlfriend was a woman named Vera Cantor who was far too old for the timid fifteen-year-old kid that he was. No one batted an eye at that. If anything he was seen as mature for dating an older woman. Even if she was old enough to drink and he hadn’t even gotten his learner's permit yet.
When Hank tells Charles Xavier about the twenty-four-year-old girlfriend he had when he was fifteen the professor looks at him like he was one of his students who just told him a traumatic story. It was not the Attaboy moment he assumed it would be from the man.
“You’re twenty-four right now aren’t you?”
“Yes?”
Charles gestures at his students. Fresh-faced freshman with braces and glaring acne on the cusp of puberty “If you ever thought of dating any of my students I’d have you arrested.”
Hanks' eyes widened his stomach, rolling. “They are children .” The thought made his head spin and thump.
“You were a child too,” Charles says evenly, a fire behind his eyes.
Hank doesn’t bring it up ever again. Neither does Charles even though Hank knows the professor went through a similar situation with an older girlfriend when he was far too young. Younger than he should’ve been. Neither men talk about it but the acknowledgement is there.
The Math teacher, Victor Glendale, gets drafted. Hank McCoy had to take over for him, teaching a bunch of first graders how to add and subtract.
“My PhDs aren’t going to waste.” he jokes to Charles. Later Two older students, Fraternal twins with the ability to breathe underwater, get drafted too. A pair of empty chairs follow their absence. Then another teacher. And another. And another. Older students and teachers left first… dying in a war that cared nothing for them. Empty chairs became empty classrooms. The school became smaller and smaller until it was nothing at all.
Hank waited to hear his number get picked. He listens to the radio for weeks holding his breath and hearing his father's voice grinding in his ear telling him to be a man.
Charles's number gets called. His birthday, clear as day. He’s disqualified of course. Perks of being physically handicapped. Hank hates the way he has to thank Erik for that. If he hadn’t betrayed them. If he hadn’t lost control and let those bullets fly Charles would’ve been drafted. He would’ve fought in a war. Hank doesn’t realize that fact at the moment but after a decade of being alone with his thoughts, he has a few thoughts on the matter.
That night Charles takes out his expensive liquor from the basement. Uncorks it and pours himself a cup. Then another. Then another.
Hank doesn’t stop him. He joins him. Drowning in each other's misery.
Hank waits for his number to be called. He knows before it happens that it’s going to happen. They say it’s random . They say it’s a draft. It could be anyone is what they say but Hank sees the pattern. It’s no coincidence that every single eligible mutant in their care was drafted. Random mutant birthdays. It wasn’t about luck but even if it was Hank knows deep in his gut that he was unlucky enough.
He hears it on the radio a few days later. October 11. It echoes in the ancestral mansion like a bullet in the air. He doesn’t cry. He cried when college acceptance letters came in for kids who no longer attended the school and got shipped to war. He cried when he was mentioned in their wills because he was the closest thing to family to them. He cried when he couldn’t have a funeral for the kid he mentored because all that was left of him were his dog tags. He didn’t cry when he was soon to join their fate. It was poetic almost to die the same way.
Selective Service Officers came to get him when he didn’t show up to post. Hank had packed a bag. He didn’t know what he would need. He didn’t know what he could take. It all happened rather quickly and something must’ve broken in Charles when he heard the younger man’s birthday being called. Or maybe it’s because Hank was the only one left. The only other soul left from the original class of mutants. When the men came to collect him Charles didn’t even let them get past the door. Meeting them at the porch with full authority.
“You can’t take him.” He told them. It wasn’t a question. Wasn’t a suggestion. It was a fact.
“Sir-“
“I said you can’t bloody have him!” Charles points the full force of his powers on them, bending their minds and twisting them in just seconds “he has bad eyesight. He can barely see two feet in front of him, let alone enemy soldiers.”
It was a lie. Sure, Hank wore glasses but not because he needed them. They belonged to his father. He wears the glasses as a memento or more of a reminder. Dr. Henry Phillip McCoy has perfect vision.
The soldier's eyes glaze over and they repeat what Charles says back to him.
“-barely see two feet in front of him, let alone enemy soldiers.” Robotic and stiff and they smile an overly friendly smile. “His services won’t be needed.” Charles' voice gains a layer of tension.
“His services won’t be needed.” They repeat and then they get in their shiny black van and drive off.
He doesn’t say a thing to Hank. Hank doesn’t say anything either. He unpacks his bag, which he had prepared somberly the day previous and he starts up dinner. They had spaghetti.
They don’t speak of it for ten years.
For ten years Hank McCoy lived in a big Mansion with a ghost. A carcass of a man he once knew. Slowly fading and aging into a drunken stupor. One drink became two. Two became four. Four became ten. Dark and cold. For years . Approximately ten years, three months, two weeks, and four days. Charles Francis Xavier’s light dimmed when Raven left, taking Erik’s side, and twisting a knife into the remaining X-Men.
It dimmed more when the war started, eligible mutant students being drafted one by one, educators becoming soldiers in a hopeless war, chipping away at their dreams—dwindling the school's number, taking all their warmth with them. The light dimmed. The warmth erased.
The spark flickered low when Banshee, one of his original students, and a dear friend of Hank, was taken. Poked and prodded. The best of us all, the happiest, the warmest, wiped away from them too soon. Fast and sudden. Painful.
They don’t talk about it. They don’t talk at all. For ten years.
It happened slowly. One tragedy after another. Again again again. Darkness looms over the school like a heavy shadow. Hank could not stop it. He could only watch as the darkness covered the school completely. Covered his friend completely. Until he was only a shadow of his past.
Hank could not fan the flames, he couldn’t prevent the spark in Charles from snuffing out.
All he could do was make it not so cold. Not so loud in the man's head. Hank's skin turned pale and white, blue fading away into nothing. He knew he could help the professor. All Hank wanted to do was help.
So he did.
He thought he was helping.
The moment the needle poked the professor's arm and the serum was inside his bloodstream the voices in his head went quiet. Dull and numb.
This is the exact moment Charles' flame went out completely . Hank remembers it so clearly. Remembers the way his face no longer looked like his face. The way his entire personality flipped inside out. How everything just went dark behind his eyes. The edges of his voice turned mean and harsh and the way he could walk now but could no longer care.
Hank killed the Charles he knew. He did that. He was trying to save him. Trying to make things better and in the process he erased his very essence. His very soul.
McCoy isn’t a spiritual man. He’s a man of facts and data and science but he knows what he did can only be explained as soul-crushing. An erasure of a person's very being.
The scientist doesn’t leave. He stays in the too-big mansion and lives in a cemetery of old students whose lives ended too soon. The weeds overgrow, the lights flicker off, and the phone line is shut off. He punishes himself. He watches solemnly as a ghost lives in the mansion. Taking up space that no longer exists.
His mother calls for the first time in four years. “Your father is dead.” Hank waits for the dread to settle in. It never does. “His funeral is on Wednesday. Will you come?” Her voice was the same. Scratchy and quiet from lack of use. She was a lady of few words. That was the only thing she had in common with her husband. A silent couple raising a silent child.
“How’d he die?”
“Cancer.” Hank hadn’t known he was sick. Knowing his father he most likely refused to tell anyone so he wouldn’t seem weak. “He didn’t suffer.”
“Lucky him.” Hank says stiffly “I can try and see if there’s any flights for Wednesday.” Hank knew he wasn’t going to go. He was only saying that so his mother wouldn’t cry on the phone. She always got so upset with him when he spoke badly about his father.
“He wasn’t perfect but he loved you.” His mother's voice was raspy, she smoked a pack a day, and he used to find it comforting but now he found it irritating “He just never showed it well.”
“I know.” Hank hung up. He didn’t go to his father's funeral. He poured himself a drink and he made a half-crazed toast with Charles who made some sad antidote about shitty fathers.
Hank writes essays, drafts experiments, researches studies, and works to the bone and it’s all for nothing. He fiddles with the channels and he creates and destroys and he tries to live some semblance of a life. But being happy, feeling fulfilled with his life… felt wrong. Like a betrayal. He couldn’t allow himself to feel joy not when the professor's life had abruptly stopped. Not when everything the professor has worked for has slipped through his fingers cruelly and unjustly.
He goes to the grocery store. Buys enough for the week. An excuse to leave the mansion the following week. He grabs the mail on Tuesdays. He organizes them by size. He feeds his frogs in the tank in his office, every morning and every night. He has a routine. A very dull and quiet one. The only conversation he’s had in the last year was with women asking for directions to the city and the very curt greetings with the same aged cashier who looks sick of seeing his miserable face.
They don’t get visitors. Not ever. The doorbell doesn’t even work anymore. It hasn’t been used in quite some time.
Logan is the first person to knock on their door in a very long while. Too long to count. Too long to think about.
“Can I help you?” Hank barely peaks his head out. Forgetting how one is even supposed to greet another human being.
“Yeah, what happened to the school?” Hank knew the stranger wasn’t from around town. Everybody around these parts knew what happened to this school. It hadn’t been a school for nearly ten years.
“The schools been shut down for years. Are you a parent?” If he is, he’s about to get the worst news of his life.
“I sure as hell hope not. Who are you?” Huh.
“I’m Hank. Hank McCoy. I look after the house now.” He ignores the broken doorbell the overgrown grass and the smell of mold. He lives in a house stuck in time.
The man takes off his glasses looking at Hank In surprise “You’re Beast?” He hadn’t heard that name since the X-Men. He hasn’t been referred to as Beast since the first class. “Look at you. I guess you’re a late bloomer.”
Hank doesn’t recall this man. But he doesn't think he would remember him even if he was a parent of an old student. He tries to close the door. But things don’t ever turn out the way Hank McCoy usually wants them to.
The events that followed after Logan’s arrival were otherworldly. Hank often wonders what would’ve happened if he hadn’t answered the door. If he hadn’t been there at all. If he had left a long time ago, if he was dead in Vietnam somewhere with a bullet in his head and Logan was met with a drunken broken professor haunted by voices and nightmares and no Dr. McCoy to help. Hank doesn’t dwell on it. He doesn’t allow himself to continue drowning himself with doubts. He’s had ten years of it already.
Charles was talking. It was a stupid thing to be happy about but Hank hadn’t heard his friend's voice in months . Nothing but quiet nights and silent mornings.
He wasn’t himself but he was still there. Present. Talking. Angry, agitated, a shell of his old self but still talking. Still actively holding a conversation.
Hank wanted to rejoice. He’s talking . He hadn’t heard his friend's voice in quite some time. He didn't cry, Instead, he explained. He tried to reason with Logan. Tried to excuse the professor's behavior.
“What the hell happened to him?” Charles's harsh rejection echoes in both their ears.
“He lost everything. Erik, Raven, his legs. We built the school, labs, this whole place then just after the first semester the war in Vietnam got worse. Many of the teachers, and older students, were drafted.” Hank hasn’t spoken about it since it happened. Letting it fester and rot away in their thoughts for nearly a decade. “It broke him. He retreated into himself. I-I wanted to help. Do something . So I designed this serum to treat his spine, derived from the same formula that helps me control my mutation.” One dose every morning. For years.
“I take just enough to keep myself balanced but…he takes too much.”
“I tried easing him back but he just couldn’t bare the pain, the voices.” He remembers Charles begging, itching for the fix that Hank got him addicted to.
“The treatment gives him his legs but it’s not enough. He’s- he’s just lost too much”
Charles changes his mind– his sister swaying his decision one last time for good measure.
Hank feels the light flicker for the very first time in a very long time. He has a goal. He has meaning again. His father, a strict man with high expectations for him, would've told him to leave the sad man behind. Cut his losses. To move on from this life that he built and destroyed with Charles. To become what he’s always meant to be. Better, more successful, and more renowned for his work. But he hadn’t. Hank could only imagine the voice of his father, angry and disappointed. Harsh in a way it always was with him. But Hank always found a way to never live up to his father's expectations.
They hatch a plan. And by “they” Hank means Logan and Charles. A bizarre and dangerous plan involving breaking into the most protected and reinforced prison and a new mutant.
They meet Pietro Django Maximoff. He wants to be called Peter so that’s what Henry “Hank” Phillip McCoy calls him. Hank knows good and well how it feels to be called something you don’t want to be called.
Peter Maximoff was dead in the future.
Their new friend Logan’s face said it all. The immortal man looked at the speedster like he was a ghost. Sad and heavy. A ghost. He knows that look because it’s the same look Hank gives Charles. But Logan’s expression Carries something tragic. He looked at Hank the same way. He assumed Peter and he shared the same fate. A traumatic end to a story witnessed by men he hasn’t met yet. Logan more or less confirms this later in their adventure. He doesn’t ask how he dies. A little bit scared to know the details.
Peter's powers were more flashy than Logan's and Charles's. Unapologetic and bold in a way Hank hasn’t been exposed to in a long time. The way he uses it so casually reminds him of Raven when she played Mystique, shifting and molding into different people in quick succession. Playful and childish in a way he never could be. Peter isn’t Raven.
“Why, he’s fascinating.” Hank has not been around another mutant besides the jaded Charles in nearly ten years. Charles' abilities were dulled and erased by his addiction. Hank asked a lot of questions. All the questions he couldn’t ask before. All the inquiries bitten back and kept flowing out of his mouth all at once. Ten years worth of curiosity poured out into one subject. It was too much all at once. Hank was too much all at once.
“We need your help, Peter.”
“For what?” Peter disappears and reappears right before his eyes and Hank is left there standing just a little bit excited to meet someone new. Someone different than Charles. Someone light and young. Like the children that used to overpower the hallways of their school. The ones long dead.
“To break into a highly secured facility and get someone out.”
“Prison break?” Hank can hear the smile on his face. “That’s illegal, you know.” The speedster continues playing on his Pac-Man machine and Hank wonders what it must look like in superspeed. If the game is any hard for the boy or if it’s just to waste of time. Hank has plenty of habits and things to subdue boredom. To waste time. He’s been wasting time for ten years. He was drowning in boredom.
“Uh…well only if you get caught.”
“So what’s in it for me?” Hank doesn’t know if Peter is going to help them. He doesn’t think they have a valid enough reason to make him go. They are strangers asking him to break the law.
Charles looks at the boy in exasperation, Hank couldn’t imagine Charles even expressing that much emotion two days ago. “You, you kleptomaniac, get to break into the pentagon.”
Peter doesn’t do things for the greater good. He doesn’t do it for villainous reasons. The deciding factor in all of this is boredom. Peter is convinced by the fun of it all.
“I’m Pietro.” The speedster says with faux casualness. “Pietro Django Maximoff.”
“That’s a mouthful.” Charles snides and Hank's heart sinks. It was very difficult for the young teen to introduce himself properly and Charles throwing it back in his face was a bit jarring and uncomfortable.
Logan gives Charles a disappointed look “Professor I think it’s time you sobered up a bit.” He had been nurturing a hangover ever since Logan arrived.
“Fuck you.”
“Charles!” Hank scolds, feeling a chill run through him. He hadn’t been prepared for Charles' crudeness to transfer over to children as well. He was a teacher for so long that it’s jarring to hear him act so brazen and rude in front of a teenager he just met.
“You can just call me Peter.” The speedster looked visibly put off by Charles' words. The telepath made no effort to apologize.
They broke Erik Lensherr out of the Pentagon. A horrifically easy feat to accomplish. Especially for an impenetrable prison. Hank hadn’t seen the man since the beaches of Cuba. Surrounded by missiles and a screaming Charles. Newly paralyzed and heartbroken.
Hank doesn’t pretend to know the extent of Charles' relationship with Erik. It would be naive to state that their past relationship was simply as coworkers, working towards a similar goal. It was more than that. Erik opened up to Charles, showing a vulnerability that Hank didn’t see from him and Charles lit up when Erik was around. They both became more . They always clashed though, even before everything, from the very beginning. Their morals were different, their views in life. Always so opposite and yet so similar it hurt them to be together just as much as it hurt for them to be apart. Too exposed and too seen and Hank didn’t understand how it all worked
He didn’t understand how they worked.
He just knows that Charles' heart had been heartbroken not only because Raven left but because Erik had too.
Erik Lensherr was a ticking time bomb. A disaster waiting to happen. He wanted to be as far away as possible from the man when he exploded but Logan claims that he’s crucial to the plan. But he can tell that something changes in Charles when he’s in the same room with Erik. The metal bender is not the only ticking time bomb. Charles could explode any second. Two bombs is far worse then one.
The air smelled of smoke and copper and he knew things would go south quickly.
Peter lightens the mood, interrupting and cutting the tension with boisterous talking. Loud and maybe just a little bit annoying but very much needed. It catches Hank off guard. He’s used to long stretches of silence. Awkward pauses. He’s grown accustomed to unspoken words and unmentioned tension. Knowing looks and whispered words instead of loud insistant conversation. But Peter's voice is fast and easy and Hank only catches half the words he spits out but it’s contagious. The kid was fucking contagious. Foul words and young slang that vibarted in the air like oxygen.
The windshield wiper smacks against the window with a thud and Hank flinches suddenly very aware of the word vomit that was splurging out of his own mouth. He was asking too many questions. Getting too excited by Peters excitement.
“I haven’t had a proper meal in ten years. Perhaps we should all stop somewhere for a bite.” Erik says evenly, clearly hiding his irritation.
Food. They get food. Greasy fast food. He hasn’t eaten out in over ten years. Even before the sparks dulled, Hank had been very particular about his diet even in his college days. Striving for perfection in every aspect of his life. Fitness and health were always emphasized in his household growing up. Maybe that’s why he parks the car and goes inside instead of the drive-through. He wants to experience fast food. Not just eat it. He wants to be inside.
They shuffle into tables, an odd combination of awkward humans. Strangers really. Pushing against corners and scraping chairs across sticky floors.
Peter bounces off of Erik and Charles easily. Like the game of ping pong he adores. Hank watches quietly. Easily entertained.
“Can I get a Sunday?” His voice tilts slightly like a child's. Begging for a treat to his parents.
“I’d like one too-” Erik Lensherr adds.
“-at least finish your fries before getting dessert,” Charles says instinctively at the same time, overlapping his words with Erik. Just because Charles hasn’t been around whining children asking for dessert in ten years doesn’t mean he’s forgotten how to respond to them. Hank takes that as a good sign.
Erik and Charles look at each other sharply.
Logan snorts, and Peter's fries are suddenly gone along with himself. Then the next blink of an eye Erik has a Sunday in his hands and Peters enjoying his own ice cream, back on his chair looking like the picture of Innocents.
Everything catches up to everybody else and Charles furrows his eyebrows at the cup in Erik's hand looking a bit jealous that he got one and not him. Did he want one? “I had money to pay for that.”
Ah, that’s the route he’s going.
“We just did a prison break. You have hang-ups over stealing?” Peter leans back on his chair casually, licking his ice cream like a cat.
Erik fails at hiding a smile and Logan lets out a snort that catches Hank off guard. He wasn’t aware that the gruff man could experience laughter.
Hank saw the blonde cashier turn to their suddenly very loud table. They are the only ones in the diner. Every bone in Hanks's body itches to leave suddenly. Begging to make his flesh stay creamy white and to make himself smaller. More forgettable. Unidentifiable.
“Say it louder why don't you? I don't think the cashier heard you.” Hank whisper yells at the group.
“The prison break was a necessity, stealing is not.” Charles rubs his forehead, stifling back a migraine probably troubled by the routy group.
“Whatever.” Peter shrugs and Charles stands up abruptly making it very clear who was the one giving him a headache. The speedster not so subtly moves away from the suddenly irritated man, looking stiff even though he has a cocky smile plastered on his face. Charles moves past the teen and takes out a wad of cash from his wallet. Xavier places it in the tip jar in front of the cashier and heads straight out the door and to the rental car. Cutting their time short.
“Guess that’s our queue.” Logan pats Peters' shoulder, doing so slowly and in his line of vision. The stiffness in the boy's shoulders goes away. They begin to head out.
Other trails behind.
“He better leave the tip in that jar,” Charles says irritably.
“You wouldn’t know if he did,” Erik says pointedly, and before they could evolve into arguments Logan takes out a cigarette.
“The kid wouldn’t steal tips.” The immortal man says with a sense of finality. “He’s just cleaning up.” He takes out a lighter and burns his cigarette.
They shuffle into the car and Peter follows shortly with a trailing Logan who looks like he'd rather be anywhere else. The drive wasn’t long. Only thirty minutes to the shuttle with their jet. Hank can already smell the refined leather seats and filtered air conditioning. When they arrive, while the kid is rifling through the jet with bursting curiosity the two clashing mutants dive into discussion.
It’s no surprise when Erik says “The kid should go with us.” Just outside of their plane.
Charles looks at Erik like he’s an idiot, albeit he has been looking at him that way since they’ve reunited “Absolutely not.”
“He can be useful.” It wasn't surprising to Hank that Peter's usefulness was all the metal bender saw in the boy.
“I don’t care how useful you think he’ll be. It’s too dangerous. He shouldn’t be involved in this any further.” Hank agrees but says nothing, knowing the professor's talent for passionate speeches about right and wrong.
Erik scoffs “Even if it helps us stop this war? You don’t think he’d want to fight?”
Charles glares at Erik and they fall into some odd back-and-forth argument. Jabs and retorts that are ten years in the making. Logan stands beside Hank looking at the two bickering pairs like he's already sick of them. Like he’s heard decades full of arguments and it’s the same of nothing and everything.
“Even now they’re still arguing over the boy,” Logan says under his breath but Hank has impeccable hearing and catches it anyway.
“Does this happen in the future too?” Hank has held his tongue and knows that he shouldn’t ask too many questions about things yet to come.
“Not this exact conversation but something similar. Pietro is…” Logan holds his breath “…a complicated man. He lived an entire life before he met either one of them. I’m hoping his story ends differently this time around now that he’s met them sooner.”
Hank doesn’t know the Peter Maximoff Logan knows. He doesn’t know what he knows. He can’t see what he’s seen. He can only determine so much from the little time he’s known the younger boy.
Peter was loud and excited and just a bit too warm for the coldness both Charles and Hank have become accustomed to. He’s fun and immature in a way that reminds him of Banshee. He’s young and he’s comfortable.
“Left these in the car.” Peter hands Hank his glasses, the ones he left carelessly in the rental car. He places them carefully in the taller man’s grasp.
He hadn’t even realized he had taken them off. “Thank you.”
“No worries. See ya whenever man.” He blows a bubble, chewing on a piece of gum for the better half of half an hour.
Hank thought that would be the last time he saw the eager speedster. The last time he would be bombarded with curiosity and unanswered questions for a long long time.
Things turn upside down in the jet and he’s glad that Peter wasn’t there to witness the adults implode on themselves. He wonders how the speedster would’ve reacted to being stuck in a metal contraption in the sky, unable to run away as it hurdles down from the sky to his death.
When he sees Raven he isn’t prepared to feel the punch of sadness. She wasn’t the same Raven he knew before. She was different now. Not gone completely but not the same ever again.
To no surprise from anyone, Erik Lensherr betrays them. Hank's skin turns blue and unrecognizable and his picture gets taken. A symbol of a monster he never wanted to be perceived as. He tries not to think about how In a couple of years his face would be in textbooks for the opposite reason he wanted.
A beast. A monster.
He stays awake at night thinking about the fear in those photographers' eyes. The shake in their aim, the grotesque tone in their voice. He was a monster and they knew it. He can hear his father's voice warning him of this exact thing.
“Should’ve kept better control, Henry. Now everyone knows the truth.” His father's voice hissed “You’re nothing but a monster playing dress up.”
Hank puts on his costume again. Skin melting back into pale crème, hair shortening and darkening to brown. Glasses sitting back on his nose. Warm sweater. Fancy customized shoes. No longer beast and now man. Just Hank. Normal Dr. McCoy.
Raven is in the wind. Again. Charles tries and fails to convince her to turn back. The professor uses his powers for the first time in five years. Hank had forgotten what it felt like to have his every thought exposed to the man.
Tensions collide at the Whitehouse. Sentinels aimed at a horrible future. One Logan is desperately trying to change.
In the end, it was Raven that changed the story. It was her mercy that flipped the script. Turned a cold nation's heart warm. She was the Hero. Sure, Charles’ voice in her head tries to convince her but in the end, she has full control. She could’ve killed the president and started a war. She didn’t. The world will remember how a mutant tried to kill the president and how another saved his life.
Charles let Erik go for reasons Hank could never understand.
“We can rebuild it. Better this time. Stronger.” Charles gestures towards the school. The mansion. A broken home filled with lost memories. He wants to reopen the school for mutants. He wants to try again. After ten years Hank is surprised he still has hope. The Charles he knew long ago, the one he thought was long dead, is resembling the paralyzed man looking up at him. Maybe he wasn’t gone, instead, he was just lost in that dark cold mind. No fire to help him see or to keep him warm. But still present nonetheless.
He can see that dream in his head. A school for mutants. Kids running around, studying reading, giggling, living peacefully. He can see it. He can graze his fingers on it, it’s so close. It wasn’t his dream. It never really was. His dream was to become someone great. To be extraordinary. To build and create. Hank thought creating and building a school was the best way to start his journey.
Instead, it froze him. Failure turned into a tragedy. He mourned. He cried. He bled for the school. He nearly died for it.
He doesn’t think he could do it again
“I already have a student who needs our help,” Charles says. Quick. He was too goddamn quick.
No time to think or breathe or hesitate. Charles is moving fast. But he’s newly sober so he’s trying to grasp at something good. Trying to stray away from his crippling addiction. Trying to stay busy.
He stopped taking the drug that took away his powers. Abruptly. The physical fatigue is present in his face. He’s going through withdrawals. He’s in no shape to open up his school again.
“Charles, we can't do this.” Hank tries to be firm but the spark of something bubbles inside him. He missed this. He missed this school so much.
“We did it once. We can do it again.”
“What makes you so sure it won’t fall apart like last time? We can’t just dive in and make the same mistakes all over again I can’t-“ Hank took a steadying breath “I won’t be able to fathom that type of heartbreak again.”
He wasted years mourning what they had. He mourned the family they had made, the students they helped before it all went crashing down.
“Please, Hank.” Charles’ expression showed ten years' worth of grief, ten years worth of hope, and ten years worth of pent up emotion all in one withering look. “I can’t do this without you. I won’t do this without you.”
A gun cocked and full, aimed at Charles's dreams, and its Hanks finger that’s on the trigger.
“We need to do this slowly.” Hank says.
They don’t do It slowly.
Hank can’t blame Charles too much since he didn’t force the parent of the mutant child to drive all the way here and drop off his child like she was a recycling bin. Charles attempted to settle the quiet Jean into the only clean dorm room in the mansion. She hadn’t said a word since she stepped foot into the premises.
“Don’t contact me. She’s your problem now. I want nothing to go with her.” Jean's father was dressed in a suit, well fitted and ironed, with a brown leather briefcase and slick back hair. He was dressed as if he was going to go to work right after this. Right after abandoning his child in a stranger's house.
“This isn’t an orphanage. You can’t just leave your kid here and fuck off.” Hank doesn’t curse often but It all just happened so suddenly and Jean looked like she was about to burst into tears before Charles took her away from the crass man. Charles Xavier called him yesterday informing him that the school would be opening up after the summer but neither of them was expecting him to drive all the way here and drop her off within hours of contact.
“Unfortunately that’s exactly what I’m doing.” The man says stiffly.
Charles was with Jean. Linking up in their weird telepathic way. Hank still has to get used to Charles being able to read his mind now.
“But we aren’t even open yet. We won’t be officially open for several months.” Hank tries to reason with the man.
“I’m sure you can handle one child. far better than me.” He’s out of the door, quickly. slamming the wooden door harshly.
It can’t be helped, Charles says in his head. Take a breath, my friend.
Hank tries to do just that but a few seconds later Jean's father is knocking on the door again. Repeatedly. Obnoxiously. Hank has to reinstall the doorbell immediately.
He knocks again. Hank twists the doorknob and opens the door irritated “Jesus Christ!” He shouts “You made it quite clear! Don’t-“ Hank abruptly stops talking as his eyes land on Peter Maximoff standing in the mansion's doorway.
His mind goes blank.
Peter smiles awkwardly, giving a little wave.
His mouth finally catches up “Peter! My apologies-“ he darts his eyes behind the speedster trying to see if Jean's father is still in the vicinity.
“-i thought-“ he clears his throat, it doesn’t matter what he thought, he brushes off the nonexistent wrinkles off the front of his sweater, wanting something to do with his fidgety hands. “What brings you here?” Hank realizes a split second after the words leave his mouth that he sounded rude “Not that it’s bad you came here, we just weren’t expecting company.” An understatement.
“We needed somewhere to lay low.” Peter says and Hank's eyebrows crease together in confusion “We?”
A small child maybe 9 or ten suddenly comes into view from behind the door “Hello.” She smiles awkwardly at Hank and waves at him, matching Peters introduction perfectly. Her hands are red.
Her hands are covered in blood.
Her hands are covered in blood.
Why the fuck are her hands covered in blood ?
Hank pushes the door open. “My god, come in. What happened?” He quickly ushers them both in and Peter darts away, wandering around the house at super speed. Quick gusts of wind blew around him.
“You moving?” Peter says from somewhere behind him, voice easygoing, slightly bouncy in his step.
“no, just updating some old textbooks. You gotta answer my question.” Hank adjusts his glasses, pushing them up his nose firmly. “What happened? Who’s the girl?” Covered in blood.
Who’s covered in blood? Charles pokes.
Some girl Peter brought. He pushes back at Charles. He feels the professor recoil. He might’ve accidentally yelled that in his head. He doesn’t understand volume control when it comes to mind reading.
“The girl can talk.” The little girl huffs glaring up at the scientist with a pout that makes her look exactly her age. Which must be no younger than nine if Hank had to guess. “I’m Wanda Django Maximoff.” She says matter-of-factly like a badge of honor.
Hank can’t hide the surprise he feels at the revelation.
Peter has a sister?
“You have a sister?” Hank voices the professor's question.
For some reason that didn’t fit the image of Peter Hank had in his head. Hank was an only child so for some reason he tends to forget that having siblings is an option. Not everyone is like him. Peter isn’t like him.
Although Peter doesn’t exude Big brother energy. He acts like he’d be the younger sibling. Like he soaks in all the attention of existing.
“Clearly.”
“You’re an older brother.” Hank repeats, he doesn't know why it’s so hard to adjust to that. He hasn’t known Peter Maximoff for very long. Not even a week since their first encounter.
“No, I’m older.” Wanda says sarcastically and Peter shares an exasperated look with her.
The attitude must be genetic. Hank can feel the smile on the professor's face.
“I can hear the resemblance,” Hank mutters “And why exactly are you bleeding on our floor, Wanda?”
“Nothing happened. She just fell, you know how kids are.” He hasn’t been around a child In nearly ten years but he knows no amount of roughhousing could’ve caused that.
He’s not dumb.
“This isn’t an injury from a fall.” Hank goes to the downstairs bathroom closest to the entrance and grabs the emergency first aid kit from under the cabinet.
He pulls out the chair from the next room and makes Wanda sit in it while he kneels on the ground in front of her. Her knees have cuts and glass embedded in them and Hank can only think of horrible reasons as to why that would happen and a fall is not one of them.
He’s gentle as he wipes her knees and her cut palms. Wanda winces and Hank tries to distract her “How’d this happen?” Plucks out a particularly deep glass digging into her knee. During the school's first semester all those years ago, quite a few younger kids got scrapes and he had established a healing song that made the kiddos feel better.
He doesn’t quite remember the song now.
“I fell,” Wanda repeats Peter's lie back to him. “Playing at school.”
Hank hasn’t had to deal with lying children for a perpetually extended period but he has dealt with an angry clumsy Charles. Who has lied to him on more than one occasion as to why he got hurt.
“Why does she have blood on her Peter?” Hank tries to sound calm, hoping to receive an honest explanation for the injury. If not he’s willing to ask again. And again. And again. Hank isn’t the only one that can be stubborn.
“Kids get a little rough at school nowadays. Not like how it was in your time.” Peter jokes, and evades the truth but Hank isn’t taking the bait. He can’t humor his way out of this.
Hank thinks maybe that’s his way of deflecting. Maybe no one’s pushed past the jokes before.
“I was pushed. I got angry so I pushed them back.” Wanda’s face scrunched up and Hank thinks of a million ways to respond to that. His mind fills in a memory of his father scolding him for standing up for himself.
“When you react like a monster, that's when you truly become one.” His father liked to throw around that word.
Monster. Deformed. Abomination. Freak. Mutant .
It was all the same to him. Something shameful. Something hidden away forever and never expressed outwardly.
Hank knew exactly what his father would say to Wanda.
Instead, the Scientist grabs the disinfectant spray off the first aid kit.
“I’m sure they deserved it.” Hank doesn’t meet either of their eyes, wiping down her knees and swabbing a gash.
I’m gonna pretend I didn’t just hear that.
Get out of my head I can handle this.
Wanda nods hopefully feeling a lot more comfortable, seeing he wasn’t going to scold her over it “They did. They’re bullies. Mom says bullies are just weak men trying to bring everyone to their level. They need to be put in their place before they think everyone is small and they can rule the world like fascist dictatorship.” Hank begins to wrap up her knees with thick bandages.
“Sounds scary,” He agrees, trying to smother away the amused smile from slapping onto his face.
“They were hurting Peter.” She said with a huff and Hank looked up at the speedster in alarm “They hurt Peter?”
The doctor scans the speedsters quickly, no longer distracted by the offensive blood on his sister's person and now catching the disarray of bruises and cuts on his body and clashing red blood against his silver outfit. Injuries from being held down. Hanks's stomach curls thinking of Banshee. Thinking of his corpse with the matching bruises.
Peter Maximoff was hurt and Hank realizes a moment later that he’s angry about it.
“I hurt them back,” Wanda says and Hank's lips form a straight line as he folds through those words. His skin was turning into an off blue and he took a breath to calm himself down. He can't let this get the better of him.
“It was an accident.” Peter defends quickly even though he shouldn’t have to. Hank wasnt angry at him. He wasn’t upset with either of them. “They were going to-“ He didn't finish that sentence. And Hank filled in the blank.
What were they going to do? Hank can only think of the worst. He thinks about the worst thing someone could do to another human being and he imagines it happening to Peter. To Wanda. To Banshee. He needs him to finish that sentence.
“They were being really rough. Wanda didn’t know how to control herself.”
Hank doesn’t believe him. He hadn’t believed him this whole damn time but that he believed.
“We just-um…needed somewhere to stay for a few nights.” Peter tries to sound aloof, something he could’ve easily convinced Hank of less than a week ago but now it’s dull and tired. “Because our mother would freak out if she saw us both banged up like this.”
Hank knows it’s all bullshit. He’ll ask more questions soon. But for now, he lets him have it.
“You’re more than welcome to stay as long as you’d like,” Charles says as he
approaches them. Hank watches in practically slow motion as Peter's face processes that Charles is in a wheelchair. The professor had shaved for the first time in months. His hair was washed, with some assistance from Hank and the fancy conditioner from the dollar store. He wore a soft sweater instead of his stinky wife-beater and satin bathrobe that Hank personally set on fire in the backyard where it wouldn’t touch anything ever again.
The world is a better place without that pit-stained monstrosity.
Hank hand-polished his shoes and Charles looked just like his old self again but with longer hair and a far paler complexion from not-so-subtle withdrawal symptoms.
“Fuck, man. Did that happen at the White House?” Peters eyes widen moving his face in superspeed so he doesnt quite settle in any emotion Hank can discern.
“Charles, you shouldn’t be down here. What if Jean needs you.” Hanks anxiously added letting Peter settle in his shock. Jean hadn't said a word since her father dropped her off. Most likely even before that. Mots likely trauma induced selective mutism. Hank has about half a dozen theories running around in his head.
“Jean is settling in just fine. She’s already made a friend.” Charles smiles at Wanda “She’s on the third floor, second door to the left.”
Wanda smiles widely “Thank you professor.” and darts up the stairs excitedly taking two steps at a time.
Hank grimaces, hoping her cuts wouldn’t scrape with the sudden movements.
“Jean is a telepath, like me, she’s been communicating with Wanda since the moment you set foot in the neighborhood.”
“You’re a telepath?” Peter eyes widened. “you’re crippled now?”
Hank shouldn’t be surprised that Peter has no tact. No subtlety.
Charles laughs and begins to shift his wheelchair closer to the boy “This happened a long time
The boy tenses up slightly when the professor gets close. Slightly enough that Hank doesn’t think even Peter realizes he’s done it.
Charles tries and fails to read Peter's thoughts. Ann interesting predicament. The only time someone has been able to successfully shut out Charles is if they are telepathic or if similar to Magneto had headgear to to block him out.
The longer Peter is here the more of hanks curiosity is peaked.
Peter is hungry. Hank assumed Charles is as well considering they unintentionally missed lunch to settle Jean in.
“Yeah, I didn't have time to make a snack before I ran for my life.” Peter says and Hank and Charles share a concerned look.
Charles looks startled “pardon? Did something happen?”
“No, I was joking.” Peter laughs and he did not find it particularly funny.
“He’s clearly lying.” Hank rolls his eyes.
“Peter my boy what happened? Where you attacked?” Charles slips in a term of endearment Hank has never heard him use before. It was weirdly domestic for a boy he’s only known for less than a week.
Peter manages to smooth talk his way out of the in depth conversation. Hank can only watch as Peter scrounges up the bits and pieces of food they had in the kitchen to make a pizza. Quick and fast. Faster than Hank can even think.
He’s remarkable. Charles projects. Intentionally or unintentionally Hank doesn’t know.
“We have paper plates under the sink.” Hank says instinctively wanting to help in some way. The good cutlery was in storage somewhere, it has been for several years.
No it’s not. Charles says stiffly and Hank doesn’t understand why the professor is suddenly so tense about it. He doesn’t understand until he sees the empty bottles of Whiskey in the trash in next to the door. They weren’t there two seconds ago.
Were you drinking that today? Hank aims his accusation at Charles irritated and face hot. Peter saw that. It was under the sink. In hands reach. Wanda could’ve found it. Jean could’ve taken it.
Are you drunk right now? It would explain Charles weird behavior around Peter, although Hank hasn’t known Charles to be a soft drunk. The withdrawals could’ve loosened his tolerance.
I’m not drunk. I barely had a glass. Charles' confirmation only made Hank's blood boil.
You said you’d be better.
I am better.
You’re drinking.
Is that illegal now? In my own home?
There’s children here now. This isn’t just your house anymore. It’s going to be a school.
Obviously I didn’t know Wanda would be arriving so abruptly or else I wouldn’t have thought of drinking.
“You seem different.” Peter starts, he doesn’t even know the half of it. “Besides the wheelchair I mean. You seem less…assholey.” That’s one way of putting it.
Charles clears his throat “I’m sorry if I came across as callous before. I had been going through some bad…years. I’m just now starting to get better.” He still has lots to go.
“If you’re just now getting better, is it smart to start teaching again?” Hank is surprised by how much he agrees with that sentiment. If it was up to him Hank would get him completely clean first.
Peters face blurs. It’s like looking at an unfocused picture, with only vague visible outlines. Hank thinks the boy might be going into superspeed as he’s in thought. He wonders if the boy knows how he looks when he goes into super speed while standing in place.
A confined tornado.
“Pietro…” Charles doesn’t call him Peter and Hank thinks the speedster is gonna comment on it. He doesn’t. “Who’s David?” Charles finishes.
Who?
Peter stiffens “I thought you said-you said you couldn’t read my mind.”
Hank lifts a brow at the professor, also surprised.
“I can't- my apologies. I shouldn’t have asked. Your sister was just thinking of him.”
Hank wonders what Wanda must’ve been thinking about.
“David is her dad.”
Her dad. But not his. Wanda is Peter's half sister. The little nuggets of information fit into his brain next to everything he’s learned about the silver haired boy. They have different dads. Was David the one that raised him? Does Peter not have a dad? Does he know him?
“Why does she call him David in her head?” Hank asked, not baring to stay silent in the matter.
“Because I call him David. She’s a little copycat.” Hank has no siblings. He doesn’t know what it would feel like to want to be like your older sibling. He doesn’t get it.
“Is David not your father?” Charles asks pointedly and Hank nearly face palms at how dumb of a question it was. He has very limited questions to ask on the very sensitive question and he wastes one with a stupid obvious answer. Idiot.
Do not scold me on question decorum Hank. It’s unbecoming.
The kitchen was insulted with black smoke. Hank subdued the fire and decided on ordering pizza instead.
Double Cheese deep dish pizza and pepperoni thin crust pizza. A side of twisty garlic bread. They eat together in the same room for the first time in a decade. It was an adjustment to get use to the chaos that was The Maximoff Siblings ®. Clearly able to entertain themselves with nothing less then permanent markers and an obscene amount of shaving cream that was stolen from Hanks bathroom. Playful pranks and comfortable teasing one can only do with a sibling. Wanda caem out of her shell. Sharing in the teasing smiles and sharing the small universe taht was the two siblings. Two became three and a star was added to the constellations.
I need your help Hank.
Hank isn’t use to abruptly hearing the proffessor in his head anymore so he drops his tools on the ground in a fright when the man speaks.
My apologies. The clutter must’ve echoed into the professors study which is the room next door. Hank is in the professors office in seconds catching his breath and looking at the professor in alarm.
“What’s wrong? Has something happened.”
The proffessor straightens his back looking a bit embarrassed “nothings wrong Hank.”
“But-” Hank narrows his eyes at the man in the wheelchair “you sounded urgent.”
“Well…it wasn’t. I just needed some help getting my board from the top shelf.”
Hank frowns following the finger pointing at the bookshelf “what? Your-“ his chess board. The chess board he hasn’t touched since Erik left. The one the metal bender bought him when they went into town together one day as a surprise. Wrapped delicately in blue wrapping paper he clearly folded himself and a letter Hank doesn’t dare look at but always makes Charles want to get absolutely wasted . “-board. Don’t you want to use the one in the library?”
The one Hank cleaned just this morning with a rag and polish.
“No? I’d like this one but I can’t seem to reach it. If you could be so kind as to fetch it for you?”
Hank sighs, not even going on his tiptoes to grab the collapsible chessboard.
“Did Jean want to play?”
“No, I’m going to teach Peter.” Charles jokes. Hank laughs.
“That wasn’t a joke Hank.” And Hank watches in confusion as the man wheels away from him to the door.
“Have you met Peter?”
“Yes, I have. He seems very tense. I’m hoping a game of chess will help him relax.”
“I don’t think you know this. But chess is actually very stressful.”
“No it’s not you just play it wrong Hank.” Maybe Hank us a little annoyed that he hadn’t offered to play with him instead. It was silly. But Charles has never played a game of chess with him. He’s never asked but Peter is here for less than four hours and is getting a personal game with the professor’s personal chess board.
“I’m not sure he even knows how to play.”
“I have a feeling he’ll be a quick learner.”
Peter and Charles played chess. Wanda and Jean played floating checkers and Hank stayed in his room tinkering away.
Hank was perfectly used to being alone. What he wasn’t used to is the static of the tv being used in the upstairs living room. He was unused to the laughter in the hallway and the extra food in the fridge. He didn’t know how to handle the suddenly very loud and very close Maximoff siblings. Or the less loud Jean Grey.
So he tries to focus on other things.
There are 360 calories in a 10 count hohos package. 360 times 50 equals 18,000 calories. If Peter Maximoff can eat 50 packages of Hohos as a meal that must mean he needs more. Approximately 3 times as much. 54,000 calories. Plus any snack or craving in between meals. 75,000 Calories a day.
Hank has much to do.
“It tastes like my dirty laundry.” Peter tells him after a while of trying his first batch of drinks.
Hank was a bit sutprised that it had taken him that long to say anything. Charles reveals to him later that Peter didn’t want to hurt his feelings. Hank understands Peter a little bit more.
He tries again.
“This one tastes like grass that’s been pissed on by a dog.” Peter grimaces but finishes the rest in one huge gulp, used to suffering through meals and Hank tries again.
“This one tastes like all the vegetables I hate.” He pinches his nose as he finishes off the drink.
Hank smiles. At Least it tastes like food. That’s an improvement.
“This one tastes like wet cement.”
Hank frowns scribbling in his notebook trying to calculate his misstep.
“You know you don’t gotta do all this work for me. I can just eat whatever.”
“You’re incredibly malnourished.” Hank tells him seriously. When he weighed the speedster he was small. Too small for his age. He burns more calories than he consumes and he doesn’t nearly eat enough or eat enough of what he does need to be healthy.
“I don’t feel malnourished.” Peter says sassily, his jumping around the room in superspeed but falling back into his regular spot, the topic clearly making him jittery. “I feel fine.”
“Your body is used to starving. That’s why you feel fine, but you’re thin. Too thin...” Hank says uneasily. He does miss the way peters face goes red in embarrassment or the way he avoids his eyes now. “I know I don’t look big but it doesn’t mean I’m weak or…small. I can handle myself just fine.”
Hank is mildly concerned by the fact that his response to being called thin is replaced in his as being called weak.
“There’s nothing wrong with being thin. But you don’t have enough iron or calcium or even protein in your body.”
“Blah blah blah, all that sounds friggin’ dull and like far too much work for little old me.” Peter crosses his arms.
Hank understands that Peter doesn’t want to be a nuisance to him. He understands . Peter is just a kid.
“I’m a scientist.” Hank says imstead “I like to experiment and solve problems. Even small things like this. It keeps me busy.”
There. Done. Now Peter will think he’s the one doing him a favor instead of the other way around.
“Boredom can be a killer you know.” He adds and Peter laughs and nods and Hank thinks maybe he bought it.
“I’m bored all the time.” The speedster says in jest.
Hank also had a tendency of not eating. A while ago, before any of this, before the xmen and before he joined the CIA he was a poor college student and he would go days without eating anything that’s Andy out of a vending machine. He made meals out of Funyun bags and twizzlers and non-carbonated sodas.
When he lived with Charles the last ten years he was the one to make meals. Quick and easy meals for nourishment instead of enjoyment. Enough to keep them both alive. Cooking was never his strong suit.
When he was young his mother would cook for hours, mixing seasonings and flavors together and she would present her hard work to them with a timid smile and a stained apron. His mother loved to cook and he loved to help. Whisking eggs or cutting vegetables. She was so precise with her measurements, her cuts and slices to the exact degree following the recipe to the letter. Taking great detail and effort in making the meal a perfect creation. A perfectionist at heart.
As he grew older, about four or five Hanks thirst for knowledge became known. Advanced well above his age and suddenly he wasn’t useless to his father anymore. Hank's father forced him to take a step away from the kitchen, away from his mother and forced him to focus more on his studies. He ate his meals in his room in between study sessions instead of the dining table.
Evers since then food was simply a task. Something he had to have to survive and not to enjoy. His father tainted even that .
Peter cooks like Hank's mother. Not the actual process of course. His meat isn’t perfectly cubed or perfectly measured and seasoned. He isn't clinical or procedural about it. Peter's food is made for enjoyment just like his mothers. He doesn’t quite know what to do with that information because Peter and his mother couldn’t be any more different.
When Hank locked himself in his study for weeks, trying desperately not to relapse back into his medication he tinkered with cerebros headpiece-
“You’re not touching my beautiful hair, hank. Don’t even think about it.” Charles told him when he suggested it would work better if he had shorter hair.
-Hank realized a side affect of going cold turkey was that he was absolutely famished. Just as the thought crossed his mind he suddenly smelled something with his enhanced sense of smell. Just outside his door. Like a miracle there was food just sitting on the floor for him to take.
Had Charles suddenly learned how to cook? No. It looked far too well cooked to be anything from the man.
He doubt the girls even know how to turn on the Oven let alone cook something this heavenly.
Heavenly was the only word Hank could use. The moment he bit into the fluffy bread he nearly died. It was more than just good. It was criminal.
It was sinfully good and Hank never wanted to eat anything else. He doesn’t know if he’s being dramatic because he’s quite frankly starving or because it genuinely is just that delicious. Both. Certainly.
He leaves a note, a thank you, with the empty dish outside not really expecting anything to come of it. He was not prepared for Peter to take it as an invitation to single-handedly feed him every single day. Different things every day.
Spicy. Bitter. Sour. Smokey. Tangy. Honey. Juicy. Greasy. Salty. Peppery.
Hank gained seven pounds before he finally felt well enough to leave his depression room.
“Hank?” Wanda is standing outside the hall in a white sleeping hound that makes her look horrifying in the dark night.
“I’m just putting my dish away.” He needed an excuse to leave his room, he hadn’t realized he was going to be met with another human being so immediately.
“You…are blue.”
“That’s correct.”
“You weren’t blue before.”
“That’s correct.”
“But…you are blue now.”
“That’s correct.”
“Like the Smurf cartoon.”
“That’s…correct.” He’s a bit stunned to be compared to a smurf.
“Okay.” She sighs as if this entire conversation was a huge hassle for her and then she simply walks away without another word.
“She’s so moody lately.” Peter says suddenly right behind him and Hank screams and stops his plate. Peter catches it before it falls and shatters on the ground. “Didn’t mean to spook you. But I was very loud running up here.” Peter looks him up and down.
“You do kinda look like a Smurf.”
“I DO NOT LOOK LIKE A-“ Hank did later on end up reading a Smurf comic and was severely bummed out to see that they were in fact blue little gremlin type creatures.
If he secretly only ever used the Blue Smurf mug Wanda got him when Charles started giving the kids allowances then it’s nobody's business. His coffee just tastes better in that mug for some reason.
“Why do you have this?” Hank looks at the unstapled papers in the professor's night table.
“It’s nothing.” Charles says as he grabs the stack but not before Hank reads the title page.
Pietro Django Maximoff
Well…Why does he have that?
“Don’t look at me like that.” Charles says stiffly. Hank wasn’t aware that he was looking at Charles at all. “He has a public record. Anyone can look at it. I’m not doing anything wrong.”
“You’re not fooling anyone with that excuse Charles.” Hank crosses his arms “you shouldn’t read that.” He says point blank.
“He doesn’t-“ Charles stops, thinking through his next words “he doesn’t talk to me. I know nothing about the boy except that he doesn’t want to go back home and he has a sister who’s also a mutant. I know nothing.”
“He also helped us when we asked . He came here because it was safe . He cooks in our kitchen because he cares that we’re eating. He plays chess with you because he knows you like it, not the other way around. Anything you need to know about the boy you will learn eventually, at his pace. This isn’t the way to do it.”
“I can’t read him. I can’t ever tell if he’s upset or tired or happy. I can’t see past what he shows me on his face and I never know what he needs or if I’m being too pushy or not pushy enough.”
“You sound like a-“ Hank doesn’t finish that sentence. Not even in his head.
“It’s okay to care about the boy. But this is gonna blow up in your face.”
“He won’t find out.”
He did find out. Peter was loud. He could hear him from his study. He could hear the quiet confession in Charles' tongue and it was too much even for Hank. He wasn’t surprised when he found Charles later in his office with a flask full of whiskey.
“He ran away.” Charles took a sip of his flask and Hank tries not to be too judgmental about it.
“What if he never comes back?”
“He will. He just needs time to cool off.”
“What if he doesn’t want to come back.” Charles shakes his head. “You didn’t see the way he looked at me.”
Hank knows exactly the way Peter probably looked at Charles. Not because he saw him but because he heard him. He heard the hitch of his voice rising to a blazing degree and the anger and hurt in his words that could qualify as pure betrayal. He heard it in the way he had to catch his breath between outbursts. Like every sentence was another balloon popping. He can imagine it perfectly because it’s the way he spoke to his father the last time they saw each other. Like years of hot air filling up and popping in one disastrous experience. Peter yelled at Charles like he was an angry child yelling at his father.
Charles’ sentiment afterwards is what made Peter run. Younger Hank would’ve killed to have his father say the things Charles said to Peter. If Hank had to theorize, which he is excellent at, he would have to assume that Peter has never been spoken about so kindly before. Like he was something other than what he perceived himself to be. ‘A loser’ as he proclaimed proudly on multiple occasions.
Peter doesn’t do well with unexpected kindness. Hank wonders why that may be.
Charles takes another swig of his alcohol “you care about him.” Hank says.
“Of course, I’m a very caring person.”
Hank rolls his eyes. Sure, let’s go with that.
“Don’t know if you haven’t noticed but apparently not many people care about Peter Maximoff. His dad is-god knows where-his step-dad is on a first name basis which is never good and his mothers been mentally clocked out even before he got here.” Henry gestures at Charles’ tipsy ass “unfortunately it seems you are the only semi-adult person that seems to care about his personal well-being and you go and fuck it up by invading his privacy.”
“Are you not a semi-adult person as well Hank?”Charles lifts a brow at Hank.
“Not the point.” Hank huffs “I’m not the one that invaded his privacy. You’re the one that has to apologize. Not me.”
“I know- but what if he-“
Charles and Hank abruptly stop talking, jumping back in alarm when the door handle smacks against the wall with a loud clunk.
Don’t let him see it. Hank thinks towards him.
Charles puts the flask in his hiding place without looking. Without tearing his concerned eyes away from Peter.
“Pietro-“ Charles starts to say before Wanda was talking over him
“Pietro got in a fight and he got hurt.” Hank scans Peter with his eyes and is alarmed to see him barefoot and disheveled.
“a physical fight. And I burned my hand by accident.” Peter corrects quickly, looking like a pouty child.
“You what?” Hank exclaims maybe a bit too loudly.
Peter explains what happened, only after Wanda leaves the room. Hank and Charles are both openly horrified which only makes Peter look smaller and smaller as the story progresses. Hank pulls a first aid kit from behind the bookcase and begins slathering Peter's palm with an infection ointment. He tries to be careful. Scared to do any more harm.
“That hurts.” Peter pouts, trying to pull his hand away from Hank's care.
Be careful.
I’m being careful Charles. Chill out.
“Hank-“ the professor starts and the doctor glares at Charles refusing to let him question him anymore.
“no shit it hurts. It’s infected.” He aims his irritability at Peter “You heal faster then most so it had time to get all nasty. You’re lucky it won’t leave too much of a scar.”
“But it will leave a scar?” Charles asks like he’s about to burst. Full of concern.
“A very faint one. Shouldn’t be too bad, just needs to replace the bandages and reapply the ointment every couple hours.” Hank uses his doctor voice. The one he used on concerned parents asking about their child’s care.
“Should be completely fine within three days.” He’s never had to use that voice on Charles before.
“That’s good.” Peter chirps at the same time that Charles says “isn’t that a bit long? Three days?” He rolls his wheelchair a bit closer to the pair and Peter gets stiff, his hand tensing around Hanks.
“Actually the normal time would usually be around 21 days or more for a burn this severe. So three days is actually pretty miraculous.” Hank says.
“Miraculous.” Charles repeats under his breath.
Tone it down Charles.
“And his feet? Is there any infection there?”
“Can we not talk about my feet?”
“How quickly are you able to supply him with new shoes?”
“I already have an extra pair I was tinkering with.” Hank says and he leaves knowing the two have much to talk about.
Dick.
Talk to him!
They talk, and fires are squashed. Peter looks more relaxed and Hank is glad he didn’t have to talk charles off the ledge. It was becoming obvious that Peters opinion of Charles affects the man. He doesnt understand. Not really.
He meets Kurt. Blue skin and wagging happy tail as he looks up at Hank like he was someone important and-fuck.
Hank McCoy suddenly gets it.
Notes:
Hank lore is my favorite.
Chapter 11: Boyfriends and Birthdays
Summary:
“Why’d they choose the coolest picture of you?” Bobby gapes at the screen.
“It’s probably the only one they didn’t erase from the records.” Pietro says off handedly and he can hear the news now. Loud and clear.
“-wanted for assault, murder, breaking and entering, Arsen, kidnapping, harassment, fraudulence, human trafficking, property damage, and conspiring and aiding a terrorist.”
What. The. Fuck. “How in god's green earth did you manage to do all that?” Bobby yells in horror.
*_*_*_*_*
Bobby makes amends, Pietro is on the news.
Notes:
Typos and grammar mistakes are part of my charm. Im gonna give you some Kurt/Pietro crumbs. Cool? Cool.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Bobby Drake throws up all over Pietro's new shoes, smelling rancid in every way describable. “That was god awful.” The younger boy dry heaves, face red and eyes watery from coughing up his breakfast all over the hospital parking lot.
“I warned you, you might feel a bit dizzy.” Everyone always has the same reaction to Pietros superspeed. Everyone except for Wanda who’s grown accustomed to the high speed travel.
“A bit dizzy?” Bobby scoffs “I feel like my entire soul left my body and came back discombobulated.” He points at the goosebumps on his arms waving it in front of Pietros face frantically. “Discombobulated. That’s a pretty big word.” Pietro smirks, taking off his prescription goggles.
“Shut up! It was like jumping out of a flying plane without a parachute into an ocean of killer sharks.”
“Aren’t all sharks, killer sharks?”
“Not the point!”
“Just saying I’ve never met a friendly shark before.” Pietro shrugs.
“Have you ever met a shark?” Before Pietro could say a response Bobby shoots him a withering glare “exactly! You haven’t!”
So he doesn’t like the super speed, got it. Pietro tries to think of another way to get back to the mansion after this if superspeed is no longer an option.
“Now I’m gonna smell like vomit when I go see him.” The young boy whines wiping his mouth with his long sleeve.
“If it helps you didn’t smell all that good beforehand.” Pietro smirks.
“Fuck off.”
“Just saying you should shower more. You’ve got serious B.O.”
“Just shut up! You’re so annoying.” Charles says you think I’m cool. He could say that. Pietro doesn’t but he’s very tempted to rub that information in his face. He decides to be the adult in
this Situation instead. Because he is. He is an adult .
“So what are you gonna say to him when you see him?”
“I don’t know.”
“Did you wanna maybe rehearse or…”
“No? I’m not gonna rehearse—-can you shut up.” Bobby’s patience with Pietro was decreasing by the minute. “Shutting up isn’t my thing.” Pietro gestures towards the hospital entrance.
“You gonna go in?”
“Me? You’re not coming with me?” Bobby freezes and nervously looks at the speedster and Pietro has never seen a human being switch their attitude up so quickly “you promised you’d help me.”
Bobby has sad puppy eyes. Pietro didn’t know that. Now he does. They are unfortunately aimed full force at him. Damn. “I don’t really like hospitals.” Pietro starts, looking briefly at the entrance sign on the door wrinkling his nose at the vomit stuck on his shoe.
“Please Peter.” Bobby begs. “I don’t wanna go in alone. Plus I'm a minor nobodies gonna let me go visit. You gotta come with. Pleaseeeeeeeee. You don’t gotta be in the room, I just need your help getting there. Please .”
Pietro's vision is getting blurry just looking at the door but Bobby’s voice rings true in his ear. Okay. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Okay. Cool. He can do this.
“Okay.” Peter barely gets the words out before Bobby is sighing in relief “thank you.”
Pietro collects the rare thank you like a delicious cookie and puts it in a jar in his brain for him to look at later.
The speedster slightly dissociates when he gets inside the building and he’s not sure if it’s because he’s suddenly been hit with a pounding migraine or because the lights are too bright and the wall too clean for his eyes not to unfocus on or because he can’t stop thinking about the last time he stepped foot in a hospital.
“Can I help you?” A middle aged nurse looks at the two boys, wearing blue scrubs and sporting cropped blonde hair that she has braided back in butterfly clips that Pietro thinks Wanda might like. She smiles politely at Bobby who disregards her completely and forces Pietro to talk.
“Yeah, We’re here to visit-“ Pietro realizes he doesn’t know the kids name and slaps Bobby’s arm to answer for him. “Romeo. His name is Romeo Hernandez.”
“He was admitted here a few weeks ago. We’re his cousins.” Pietro immediately regrets the relation as the nurse raises a brow at their very pale white faces. “We’re a blended family.” He says smoothly and with the full confidence of a boy who could just superspeed away from trouble.
“Right…” she looks down at her computer “is that Hernandez with a Z or an S?”
“Z.” Bobby says.
“He’s in room 13B on floor four. Visiting hours end in one hour.” She says plainly and goes back to her word search. The speedster fights back a migraine. He swears the white walls are getting closer together.
Bobby is moving before Pietro can say otherwise “we only have an hour so we gotta be quick.”
“We can always super spe-“
“-WE will NOT be doing that again.” Bobby points at his arm as if to remind Pietro again “goosebumps. Literal terror.” Pietro himself feels literal terror just being in this building but he wasn’t going to bring that up to Bobby Drake.
Elevator it is. He can do this. Just one step at a time.
As they go up the elevator he’s reminded of the Wonka movie he watched with Kurt. A magical elevator that goes anywhere. His blue friend had gasped and laughed and glowed with happiness as he watched the film and Pietro thought of his bottled laugh as he went up the elevator. He tries to distract himself so he doesn’t think too deeply about mean doctors and rough needles and tight handcuffs. He thinks about Kurt instead. He thinks about their attempt at making the Wonka bars the following weekend after watching the film. How Kurt’s face lit up when he tried the first batch of chocolate Pietro made. “It’s amazing! This is my favorite.” He proceeds to say that about every other batch after that. This one is his new favorite. The next one was his new favorite. Each he claimed was simply better then the last but Pietro knew that it could taste like straight up garbage and Kurt would still manage to eat every little piece. Pietro watches the numbers on the elevator achingly tick away. Too Slowly. He takes a shaky breath. He thinks about his sister roller skating in the front yard with her scraped knees and scraped palms always getting up no matter how many times she falls. Giggling when Pietro would fall on a pile of wet leaves and jumping on top of him for good measure.
Pietro swallows the lump in his throat and looks at Bobby who is frozen in superspeed looking impatiently at the elevator doors.
Pietro thinks about his mom fixing his collar before picture day, smoothing out his brown curls and pressing her pomegranate lipstick on to his forehead. He remembers wiping it away and her laughing at him softly as she attacked him with more staining kisses. He thinks about sitting in a Wendy’s booth surrounded by more mutants than he’s known his entire life and feeling like he wasn’t alone for the first time in his life. A cold Sunday, melting and dripping between his fingers. He thinks about Hank accidentally turning all of his whites blue and walking around with a baby blue lab coat for two weeks.
Pietro watches the number above the elevator click to the next. He presses a hand against his chest trying to even out his breathing.
He tries to think about Jean. He remembers looming her hair into two intricate braids, flowers Wanda picked out decorating her red curls and the way she smiled at her reflection. He recalls her giving Pietro a big hug and pulling away like she thought she would be punished for showing affection. He remembers tugging her back in for a warmer hug and holding her there until she was suddenly crying. He remembers wiping away her tears and telling her it was okay. Pietro didn’t ask why she was crying. She didn’t have to explain.
Pietro remembers Frankie getting his own custom made aprons so that he was matching with Pietro. He remembers showing him how to cut on the board correctly. Fruits and vegetables being sacrificed in that endeavor. He remembers watching him press his whole face against the oven just to see the food slowly bake. Pietro laughs at the boy and he throws a dirty spatula at the speedster in a huff.
Pietro looks at Bobby who shares that same impatience in his expression. He takes another breath.
He remembers winning at chess for the first time. The hilarious realization that Charles was a sore loser. Pietro felt accomplished knowing he had actually finally won a game of chess against the telepath. The look of shock on the professor's face when Pietro was gaining traction and killing his defense. “You won. Fair and square.” He says, sounding very much like he was being held at gunpoint. “Aha! Suck it, Wheels!” The speedster exclaims as if he hadn’t lost about 200 times before that.
Pietro remembers the strange expression on Charles' face too. Like maybe he was happy too.
“Best two out of three?” He was a sore loser.
Pietro takes another breath as the elevator door opens and he super speeds out of it and is fine the hall clutching the wall in half a millisecond taking long deep breaths. Bobby came to his side hesitantly “I didn’t think you were claustrophobic.”
“I’m not. I just…really hate hospitals.” Pietro waves him away “I’m good. Gimme a sec.”
Bobby fidgets “he’s just down the hall.”
“Yeah? You know what you're gonna say yet?”
“Kinda?”
“Good luck. I’ll be out here.” Fighting off a panic attack.
Bobby nods “you gonna be okay?”
“Yeah, I’mma be good. Just go talk to your Romeo.”
Bobby’s face goes flush red “shut up. He’s not my anything.”
“Whatever. Stop dragging this on. Go talk to him.”
“Okay, God!” Bobby takes a breath and moves down the hall at an achingly slow pace even in Pietros eyes.
He watches him peak into a door. And then He’s inside a room. Three doors to the left. Pietro sits in the chair nearby, still catching his breath, the white walls looking shaky.
He needs to get the fuck out of here.
Trying to remember happy things can only help so much when trying to fight back an anxiety attack.
His mom used to sing to him when he got like this. Polish words soothing his mind. Magda Maximff would massage his hair and hold him tightly until he was human again. When he got powers. That stopped. Her song never reached his ears, too slow to ever register in his panic state and when he shook it was so fast that if she got close to embrace him she would get hurt. No more hugs. No more songs.
“Are you okay?” Pietro blinks up at a tall man wearing scrubs, his face sunken in and exhausted. The man looked like he went through a war zone and barely lived to tell the tale “probably better then you.” Pietro says quickly his voice coming out a bit on the fast side but still legible to the human ear.
“I don’t know about that. You look like you’re having a panic attack.”
“You a doctor or something?” Pietro stairs at a spot of blood on the corner of the man’s sleeves. Big and bright.
“Nurse.”
“Good for you.”
“You get checked out already?” He pulls out a stethoscope and puts it on Pietros chest just above his heart.
“I'm not a patient. Just here with a friend-my cousin.” Pietro breath hitches when the boy gets closer trying to listen into his heart beat.
“Your friend slash cousin?”
“Yah. That.”
“Ahuh.” The man looks Pietro up and down then wipes them puts the stethoscope back on Pietro chest, this time going under his shirt. “And where exactly is your cousin slash friend?”
“With our other Cousin slash friend.” Pietro watches as the man’s brows furrow and he tries to listen to his heartbeat. Pietro no longer freaking out and now realizing it’s a bit alarming how easily he had let him get this close to him. He doesnt know this guy.
“Are you dead?” The man looks at Pietro with a haunted expression.
“Not yet.” Pietro grins.
“You don’t have a heartbeat.” He states pursing his lips in a grimace.
“I do, it’s just really really fast. Undetectable by human ears.” Pietro explains easily, shooing the man away gently.
“Human ears.” The man repeats then his eyes widen “you’re one of them . A mutant.”
Pietro shrugs “yeah, sure, and?”
The man stands up abruptly “you shouldn’t be here. This hospital doesn’t take mutant patients.”
“Like I said-I’m not a patient. I’m here with my cousin.”
“You can’t be here.” The man says urgently. “If any of the staff finds out you’re a mutant they’re in the legal right to call the authorities.” Ouch. Brutal.
“Aren’t you technically staff? Are you going to report me to the authorities?” Pietro stands from his chair as well and the man takes a step back in uneasiness. “You could try. I would stop you but you could try.”
The man stands up straight, his face becoming steely “no. I have nothing against…your kind. But my colleagues aren’t nearly as graceful. They won’t hesitate to report you and your cousin .”
Pietro lifts a brow “right. Well-we won’t be here long.” Pietro moves super speeds around him and into the room Bobby Drake went in. Not thinking twice on what the nurse's reaction would be. When he agreed to go with Bobby so he can apologize to the boy he hurt so that he can make amends he was expecting tears. Maybe yelling. If things went south he was prepared to split up a fight and monitor the interaction if needed. What he was not expecting when he entered the room was for the two boys to be laughing. He hadn't ever heard Bobby laugh before and was incredibly startled when he heard the seemingly innocent sound for the first time.
“Hate to cut this short-“ Pietro saw Bobby flinch, taking a big step back from the other boy “-I thought you said you’d wait outside.”
“Yeah, I did.” Pietro looks between the two boys quickly trying to figure out what he’s missing. The boy was tall for his age. All arms and legs and tan skin and shaggy dark hair that was overgrown awkwardly and not in an intentional way. He was in a hospital bed but looked like he was already on the right said of health. He looked at Pietro with a surprised smile.
“I was just making sure everything was going okay.”
“Yeah, whatever, just give me a second will you? Jesus.” The boy next to him put a hand on his arm which only made Bobby look more on edge “it’s alright. He’s Peter right?” He has a thick accent. A twang of two different languages fighting for dominance.
“Yeah he’s Peter,” Bobby mumbles and avoids Pietro's gaze. They couldn’t have been in this room alone for longer than twenty minutes. How on earth had Pietro even been brought up during those twenty minutes?
“Thank you for bringing him.” Romeo says a kind smile on his face as he gives Bobby a side ways look.
“No sweat.” Pietro is in fact very sweaty and had just stopped having a freak out over being in a hospital not too long ago.
“Take care of him for me?” And Bobby scoffs “I’m not a baby. I can take care of myself.”
Romeo barely spared the pouty Bobby a look “he can be stubborn but he’s not a bad guy.”
Pietro is very confused. This is not how he thought Romeo would react to seeing Bobby at his bedside. He expected anger and hate and annoyance or maybe even fear but he was just…super nice? Like to the point that it’s confusing.
“Yeah, I knew that. Bobby’s actually just like a fluffy pit bull.” Pietro pretends he is not confused simply because he figured he’d berate Bobby with questions later.
“I’m not a dog.” Bobby exclaims irritably. “He’s more like a shaking pomeranian.” Romeo says with a teasing smile.
Once he saw the picture in his head he couldn’t unsee it and the speedster bursted into laughter not even a second after the joke was made making Bobby protest even louder.
“As fun as this has been, we really do have to go.”
Bobby frowns and Romeo hands him a piece of paper, putting it in the pocket in front of his shirt. “That’s my house number. They're releasing me tomorrow.”
Nice.
“But I-“
“-it’s okay. You gotta go.”
“But we just got here.” Bobby looks at Pietro and the speedster looks at him guiltily “unfortunately I’ve gotten myself into a bit of a situation and we gotta leave the premises as quickly as inhumanely possible.”
Bobby’s eyes widen and gestures at his goosebumps once more and Pietro nods somberly. He looks like he’s gonna throw up again.
“It’s alright Robert, you can call me tomorrow.”
Robert? What the fuck? Government name and everything? Holy shit he has so many questions!
“Only if you don’t mind.” Bobby is suddenly very shy and a shaking Pomeranian suddenly appears in his head. Truly so accurate. Romeo might be onto something.
“Of course not. My mama will be happy to hear from you too. She’s been worried about you. She’ll be sad to know she missed you.”
“Tell her I’m sorry.” Bobby says with uncertainty in his voice “you can tell her tomorrow when you call.”
Bobby nods and Pietro gets the impression that he didn’t want the speedster to watch him when gets close to Romeo for a hug so Pietro turns around stealing about twenty cotton balls and cotton swabs. He smuggles a pair of bright purple scissors compulsively and then two seconds later goes back and takes the matching pencil case.
He faces the wall, staring at the poster for CPR and only turns around when he feels Bobby’s hand tug on his jacket signaling his readiness for speed travel.
“You ready?”
“Not really,” Bobby blanches and Pietro feels his neck tense when he grabs it.
Pietro runs.
They stop by Wendy’s.
He orders a kids meal for Bobby who glares at him the entire time while eating the tiny slices of apples and dipping on his miniature cup of soda.
“Thanks for letting me go see him.”
“No problem Robert .” And Bobby makes the stinkiest stank face imaginable. “Ugh you suck so bad.”
“Charles says you think I’m cool.” Pietro blurts out accidently even though he swore he'd never bring it up.
“What the hell? No I don’t!” Bobby’s entire face goes pale and he throws his limited french fries at him. Pietro doesn't dodge the fries even though he could, Letting the salted potato smack his cheeks aggressively.
“Sure, whatever you say. Although you do tend to lie as it would seem.”
“What are you on about?”
“Romeo. You said you weren’t friends. That you pushed him down the pool. That you wanted to make amends. That’s not what it looked like from my end.”
“I never said that we weren’t friends.”
“Um….it was implied.”
“I said he was a new kid. But we knew each other before he transferred school. We had Football camp together and–his mom was my nannie.”
Garcia! Holy shit no wonder he looked so familiar.
“Okay so you guys were friends. Are friends. So what was the whole deal with the pool thing? You pushed him or you didn’t?”
The plot was thickening.
Pietro was a bit too invested in this tid bit of drama. It just reminds him of the tele novelas he started watching with Teresa. Teresa was a thirteen year old Spanish speaking mutant who had only been with them for three weeks but got him hooked on the weekly airing of a telenovela about a singer songwriter whose family works for the mafia. It was too mature for the thirteen year old to be watching but Everytime he goes to tell her she shouldn’t watch it he gets trapped into the show's vortex all over again. Teresa and him have a betting pool consisting of a total fifteen dollars a two weeks worth of dishes on who we think the main character is gonna end up with. Teresa thinks she’s gonna end up with the nice cowboy that owns the popular bakery and wants to settle down but Pietro thinks she’s gonna end up with the widowed producer with the three year old daughter and a heart of gold. It’s a fifty-fifty chance.
Bobby’s friendship with Romeo isn’t nearly as interesting as the “will they don’t they” Teresa and him have been witnessing on screen but it’s still very entertaining.
“I didn’t push him but I didn’t stop my friends from pushing him. I took too long to save him and he got hypothermia and was in a medically Induced coma for a week.”
“And he got amnesia.” Pietro gasps dramatically.
“No, moron. And he should hate my guts. I wasn’t a hood friend to him. When he moved schools I pretended not to know him and I let my friends be mean to him and he got hurt. He got really hurt and he still forgave me. He gave me his fucking number so I can call his mom to tell her I’m okay.”
“Sounds like he doesn’t blame you for what happened.”
“He should. I treated him badly. I was a shit friend.”
“You didn’t push him. You saved his life. He’s grateful. He’s allowed to feel grateful.”
“He shouldn’t. He should be angry at me. His mom, she-she was taking care of me, he was in the hospital in a literal coma.”
“If I remember correctly you where in pretty bad shape too,”
“ yeah but Romeo’s her son. I’m just some kid she gets paid to take care of cause my parents can’t be around all the time. I’m nobody,”
“You’re not nobody. Don’t be dumb,” Pietro sips on his soda “she cares about you. Clearly just as much as her own. Did it ever occur to you that she might love you like a son?”
“but I’m not her son.”
“Just cause she doesn’t have your blood doesn’t mean she can’t love you like you do. Families form from all sorts of bonds.” Bobby soaked that in. Pietro is feeling pretty wise right about now so he eats the rest of his burgers.
He’s scoring some major big brother points right now.
“Is that you?” Bobby says in alarm.
“Huh?” Pietro turns towards what Bobby is looking at. The public tv near the corner of the Wendy’s is displaying the news and Pietros face is on it. An old picture from when he was a runner he didn’t know they still had flashing across the network.
“What the fuck?”
“What are they saying?” Bobby finds the remote and raises the volume while Pietro is watching in confusion. The picture of him was in his uniform, drenched in sweat and staring off camera looking weirdly menacing and a trophy being placed in his hand. The trophy was cut off. They zoomed in on his face a bit and you can only see the trails of sweat and the flush on his cheeks. His sweaty silver hair half up in a scrunchy that actually belonged to his mother. It was his last race. He knew he was going to get axed right after it so he looked pissed off and angry. Out of context he did look like a delinquent.
“Why’d they choose the coolest picture of you?” Bobby gapes at the screen.
“It’s probably the only one they didn’t erase from the records.” Pietro says off handedly and he can hear the news now. Loud and clear.
“-wanted for assault, murder, breaking and entering, Arsen, kidnapping, harassment, fraudulence, human trafficking, property damage, and conspiring and aiding a terrorist.”
What. The. Fuck. “How in god's green earth did you manage to do all that?” Bobby yells in horror.
“I very much didn’t. I don’t even know half the shit they're talking about.”
“BUT YOU KNOW THE OTHER HALF?”
Pietro shrugs still not over his shock at seeing his face on tv “mutant assailant was last seen in Saint Justice Hospital conspiring with another unknown mutant. If seen please report to your local authority. You can call 82-“Pietro stopped listening and threw away his zevel in the trash compartment. The need to go pronto.
“Someone reported you? Is that why we had to leave the hospital?”
“We gotta go.”
“But-“ he makes eye contact with the cashier who suddenly looks very panicked, clearly listening to the news as well.
“-no buts. We’re going back to the mansion. Now.” He grabs Bobby and he fucking runs.
When they get back to the mansion everyone’s already settling into sleep. Jean and Wanda are cuddling and Bobby goes to his room and Pietro spirals just a little bit before he goes to Charles office, seeing that the light was on so he was still awake.
Although he had been in mid conversation with Hank. A very heated one at that.
“He’s settled in Poland.”
“I didn’t fix cerebro so you could stalk Erik. Why can’t you just let him be? Hadn’t he done enough?” Charles was keeping tabs on Erik?
Why the hell would he do that?
“I needed to know. For the last ten years I knew exactly where he was. Ten levels down in the pentagon. This was the first time I didn’t know if-“ Pietro stepped on a loose floorboard and he mentally curses.
“Peter?” Hanks voice rang in the room and Pietro was kinda impressed that he knew he was him by his footsteps alone.
Pietro decided to bite the bullet and open the door sheepishly. “Didn’t mean to eavesdrop. Just curious if you’ve seen the news?”
He tells them what happened. Charles assured him that he was safe here. “I think it’s best if you didn’t go with me to recruit students.” Charles says hesitantly “you’ll be at risk of being recognized. For your safety I think you should keep it local for a while until this settles down. I’ll pull some favors and get your face off the news.”
Pietro tries to keep the hurt off his face when he says he can’t come to recruitments anymore. It was kinda their thing. But he gets it. It’s a safety thing. He knows that. He’s allowed to be sad about it though. “Yeah I get it. wouldn’t be very good for a wanted criminal to be the face of your school.” Pietro throws out jokingly even though it felt like he was being stabbed.
Charles has gotten scarily well at reading Pietros quick micro expressions because he’s grabbing his hand gently, sitting on his wheelchair in front of him with warm eyes “you aren’t a criminal. You’re a good kid. This will pass.”
Pietro avoids his gaze because it feels like too much “you’ve quite literally read my file Charles. I am a criminal.” That’s just the things they know about. He’s stolen so many things. Broken so many different laws just because he couldn’t get caught. In this version of his life he was the bad guy and Charles knows that.
“I shouldn’t have done that.” Charles says not daring to let go of his hand, probably knowing that if he did he’d just super speed away “I know I said it before. But you must know that what I did was wrong. You aren’t your past, you aren’t what they are saying in the news. I know you. I’ve gotten to know you the hard way. You are a good kid.”
“I’m not a kid.” Pietro feels like he’s had this conversation before, roles different and voice bigger.
“You are to me. You’re mine. I won't let anything happen to you.”
Pietro-well fuck. He’s not trying to be stupid. He knows Charles probably doesnt mean it in the way that it sounds but-fuck. Charles doesn’t want to be his-okay, okay. Shit. His eyes hurt. He might cry in a really cringey little kid way that will embarrass the fuck out of him later when he thinks about it. He needs to stop freaking out. He needs to stop being so fucking stupid.
“This will all work out.” Charles begins “I’ll take care of it.” I’ll take care of you was the silent promise. Pietro doesn’t know what to do with himself. He’s usually the one taking care of things. Taking care of his mom. Taking care of his sister. Taking care of himself. He doesn’t know how to let someone else do it. He doesn’t know how to emote properly.
“Okay.” Pietros voice is just above a whisper. He’ll learn. Only because it’s Charles. “How-how was dinner?” Pietro clears his throat, hating how much his voice was cracking. Hank and Charles give each other a look.
“What was that?” Pietro watches Hank step out of the room awkwardly.
“You missed quite the night.”
“What happened?” Pietro is suddenly more anxious than he was before.
“Well…without going into too much detail. Your sister seems to have gotten a surprise visit from Aunt flow.”
“We don’t have an aunt flow.”
Charles expression twitches “it’s her first shark week.”
“Is that what Miss Margo cooked? Shark? Sounds illegal. Sorry I missed it.”
“No.” Charles sighs “your sister is becoming a young lady. Her body is changing-“
“-gross-“
“-Peter Django Maximoff I am trying to tell you that your sister got her first period and you are making it incredibly difficult.”
Oh.
Oh .
Oh no!
Pietros eyes widen “did you-“
“-she came to me specifically.” Charles says looking like he’s having flashbacks “while I’m very touched that she felt she could come to me when it happened I was not..,well versed in giving that sort of talk. I tried my best but I had to hand her off to miss Margo.”
“I’m so sorry.” Pietro feels the second-hand embarrassment.
“Don’t be sorry. I’m mostly surprised that your mother hadn’t told her about it before. She hadn’t a clue what I was saying when I was speaking with her.”
That tracks. His mother was never the one to explain things. She liked for them to learn things naturally. She never taught him to swim; she just waited for him to stop drowning. She never sat pietro down to give him the talk. He just figured it out the hard way. She never showed him how to cook, she just left the ingredients out so he could figure it out.
“Thanks for helping her. This kinda explains her mood swings lately.”
“She has been having a lot more nightmares as of late.”
“You help her during her nightmares.”
“Yes, I do.”
“You shouldn’t be surprised that she came to you. She trusts that you would always help her.” Wanda isn't easily won over. Not when it comes to grown ups. If she trusts Charles then hes in it for life. He doesn't tell the telepath that, pietros sure he's figured that part out already.
Wanda doesn't have many good role models. Pietro doesn't consider himself a very good example, considering his face is in the news right now.
A few days later Teresa announces that the telenovela they are watching wasn’t renewed for another season and suddenly Pietro's world is crumbling all over again.
“How can this be? This is a travesty.” And he’s being so serious. He is fully invested. He made tshirts . This was criminal. “How can they cancel it? It’s at its peak.”
“One of the cast members came out as mutant.” Teresa says her broken English makes the news sound devastating.
Pietro blinks and something in his stomach twists. “They canceled a show because a mutant was involved in it?”
Teresa shook her head her ponytails swinging behind her head “It's not confirmed but apparently they were just going to fire her and replace her but the cast refused to continue the series without her.” Pietro's head spun.
“Who was the mutant?”
“The actress that played the evil mom. Apparently in real life she’s actually super nice and was kinda like everyone’s actual mom on set. Everyone loved her.”
Pietro thinks there’s something so wholesome about loving someone enough to sacrifice your livelihood over them. To say “fuck it.” And stand by them. In a perfect world it wouldn’t be a problem. The show would keep going. In a perfect world Pietro wouldn’t have to pick another show to watch every Saturday night at 6pm.
“Everybody loved her and they still canceled the show.”
“Yeah. I guess…she didn’t wanna hide it anymore. Ever since The Mutant Hero saved the president on the news a lot of people have been revealing themselves. Coming out of hiding.” They shouldn’t have had to hide to begin with.
“That’s…good then.” Pietro settles “still bummed about the show though.”
Teresa sighs “yeah me too. One more season and Jennifer definitely would’ve gotten married to Thomas.”
Pietro rolls his eyes “ugh no way. She would’ve left him at the altar and ran away with Christian.”
Teresa and him go into an entire debate. Which Pietro decided he won. Later on the watch the latest episode and anytime the villainous mom would appear on screen he would feel sad.
Bobby was hogging the phone. Finally getting the nerve to call Romeo. He was on the phone for two hours and Pietro nearly yelled at him to get off cause he was expecting a call.
His mom is gonna call today. Tomorrow is Wanda’s birthday and he feels it in his bones. She’s gonna call. But the call won’t go through if Bobby’s hogging the phone line.
“They blurred your picture on the news.” Wanda says with a bounce to her step. “Oh yeah? Great, I hated that picture anyway.” He tries to pretend like he was anxious about it the whole time. Charles pulled some favors and was able to take his picture out of the news but not the report itself. They are still looking for a silver haired mutant.
“You’re the only one that hated it.”
Pietro frowns looking up from his comic book, the one he smuggled from Bobby’s room when he was in class. “Who else saw it?”
“Jean and Ashley saw it on the tv and Kurt definitely saw it too.”
“What do you mean he definitely saw it.”
“I read his mind so I know he saw it cause he keeps thinking about it.”
If Kurt saw him on the news and was uncomfortable then that’s probably why he kept thinking about it. Is that why he hadn't seen him all day? Has the teleporter been avoiding him?
“Is he…upset?” Kurt is catholic, He reminds himself. His morals are far better then Pietros and more then once the speedster has stopped himself from impulsively stealing something at the grocery store because the blue mutant was with him.
Which is probably why Charles always assigned the two to go grocery shopping together. So Kurt would keep Pietro in line. Clever bastard.
Kurt might have some feeling over Pietro being a “bad guy.”
“Stop panicking. He just thought you looked really sweaty in the picture.”
“What?” I mean he was running in the picture so he was sweaty.
“Yeah, something about you being hot.”
Pietro froze. “What.”
“He said you looked hot.” Pietros face goes warm and he stares at his sister in shock.
“He said I looked hot.” He must be misunderstanding her.
“Yes.” Wanda nods sitting on the couch “You did look sweaty and gross.”
“He said I looked sweaty and gross or he said I looked hot?”
Wanda shrugs “what’s the difference?”
Pietro suppresses a grin “what did we talk about reading people’s mind?”
“But he was being so loud about it.” Wanda exasperated, throwing her body to the side of the couch dramatically. “Pietro this- Pietro that-he’s always thinking about you so loudly I can’t help but listen.”
Pietro can’t stop the smile from escaping “oh yeah?” Usually th idea of being perceived outside himself is a strange thing but knowing it’s Kurt only manages to make him really fucking happy.
“It’s so annoying.”
“We’ll he is my best friend.”
“I don’t think about Jean that much. I don’t think anyone in the face of the planet thinks about a person as much as Kurt thinks about you.”
“Jeans your best friend? Not Frankie? He must be heartbroken.” Pietro teases easily.
“Frankie’s my boyfriend.”
Pietro's smile drops. “Excuse me?”
“Jeans my best friend. Frankie’s my boyfriend.”
“Boyfriend? He’s not your boyfriend! You’re too young to have a boyfriend.”
Wanda rolls her eyes at him “I’m ten now. I can have a boyfriend.”
“you’re not ten yet and Ten is still too young! You can start dating when you’re thirty.”
“No fair. You can have a boyfriend and I can’t?”
“I don’t have a boyfriend.” pietro says with his sass level to the max.
“Whateverrrrrrr.” Wanda wails.
“I’m gonna kill him.” Yeah, definitely.
“You can’t!”
“Yes I can. It would be so easy. I could just forget he’s allergic to cinnamon when I make his pancakes tomorrow.”
“You can’t do that!” Wanda smacks his arm and Pietro dodged her next attack “I love him!”
“Gross.” Pietro can believe that Frankie loves Wanda but the other way around makes him want to tear his hair out. Just a few months ago boys had cooties and now she has a boyfriend?
“Frankie’s my boyfriend now so you gotta be nice to him.”
“I'm literally always nice to him.” Pietro may have learned the cinnamon thing the hard way. He got to his epipen in time.
“Pietro be serious.” Wanda glares at him and Pietro needs to remind himself that she’s not four anymore. She's turning ten now and that brings in a whole new set of problems. “He values your opinion.”
“I’ll…try. To be nicer.” He will try .
Charles’ face when he tells him is exactly how Pietro felt. “Isn’t she a bit young to start dating?”
“How old where you when you started dating?”
“I had my first girlfriend when I was seven. But I was very mature for my age.” Doubt it. “We broke up during second period gym class when I didn’t pick her for volleyball.”
“A true betrayal. She deserved better than that Charles.”
“It was a low blow.” Charles jokes “but Frankie is different. I mean—I knew he liked her. Anyone with eyes and ears can tell he does but I wasn’t under the impression that Wanda even considered him anything else then a friend.”
Pietro wishes his mom called today. He was hopeful but she hadn’t and he knew that she would have the perfect words to say to Wanda.
“Apparently she loves him. I don’t see why. He’s just some scrawny little smcmuck. I could squish him without even trying.”
Charles nods “I’m sure it won’t last.”
It does. Neither of them knew that but Pietro likes to complain that the two of them jinxed it by not knocking on wood after praying for their downfall.
How was he supposed to know that they loved each in every universe?
“I fear I might be missing Wanda’s big party tomorrow.”
Pietro stops chewing on his bag of chips looking at the professor in confusion. “What do you mean?”
Charles looks remorseful as he says “there’s…an old friend who needs my help. He seems to have gotten himself in legal problems and needs me to be at his court mandated hearing. To speak on his character and such. It was all very last minute and I much rather be with you and Wanda celebrating but…” Charles grasps for words that Pietro already has.
“…he needs you. I get it.” And he does. Sure it’s gonna be a hit for the party considering the student to adult ratio is off balance now and Wanda will definitely note his absence.
“He was an old student. Young and bright but after the school shut down. He went down the wrong path and I’m just trying to get him back in the right one. He hadn’t done anything violent he was just in the wrong place with the wrong people.”
“You don’t have to convince me Charles. I know you wouldn’t bail on Wanda’s party for some random guy. He’s your student . I get it. Seriously.” Probably one of the few students that are still alive. He knows that must be an extra punch for Charles as well.
“You think Wanda will be too upset?”
“She’ll have a full day of activities to distract her from your absence.” He had planned the whole day meticulously just like he did every year. From dusk to Dawn. He had done it to distract her from the fact that their mother wouldn’t be present. It would be the first birthday without their mom and he knows Wanda knows it and he is determined to make her forget that with a pact schedule and far too many sweets and presents to entertain her with.
Wanda’s birthday tomorrow will go perfectly without a hitch.
Notes:
I’m very excited to write the next chapter.
Chapter 12: Ten Minutes Away
Summary:
Most of the kids fell asleep halfway through the movie. Wanda was the only one that made it to the end credits her eyes droopy and head bouncing trying to fight back sleep.
“Just go to sleep Wanda.”
“Mom didn’t call this morning.”
Pietro holds his breath.
“You’ve been looking at the phone waiting for her to call. You wouldn’t do that if she had called already.” She lets out a yawn.
Perceptive little gremlin.
*****
Wanda’s birthday is in full swing. Pietro gets a gift, Frankie makes a surprise cake, and Hank has pink eyebrows.
Chapter Text
When Wanda Maximoff's first birthday came along Pietro was only eleven years old and he loved being an older brother. She was his whole world. When Wanda cried at night he was by her side before his mom. When she needed a diaper change, he plugged his nose and he changed her. When she needed a song he sang, when she needed a kiss he kissed and when she laughed it was more than likely he was the one making her laugh. He loved being a big brother. He was made for it. What he didn’t love was Wanda’s dad, David. A constant gray cloud in Wanda’s perfectly blue sky. He wasn’t there for Wanda’s first birthday. Not for birthday the waffles, or for the doggie park, or when they opened the presents she won’t remember opening or for the cozy movie in the living room with all the lights off. David was sitting on the inside of a Jail cell for drunken disorderly waiting for Magda Maximoff to bail him out the next morning.
But that was fine because Wanda had Pietro and Magda to keep her company. Mom made waffles and put extra whip cream on top, a smiley face with M&ms and syrup. Pietro always ended up cleaning half the waffles off the floor and her face but he just laughed and took too many pictures that would later haunt Wanda. They took her to the dog park and she waved at every puppy she saw. Pietro took her to the grocery store on Main Street to get a free cookie from the clerk who was always sweet on their mama. They’d eat sugary candies all day and at the end of the night Pietro and her watched movies surrounded by blankets and pillows in the living room.
Every year it’s more or less the same. Waffles in the morning, Playing outside in the afternoon, watching Movies at night and an unholy amount of sweets in between that.
Sometimes It was just Wanda and Him, and other times it was all three of them. On two rare birthdays she had her whole class come over for a party and playing outdoors in the afternoon became a day at the zoo with a bunch of rowdy seven year olds.
But always, without a fail, they had their mamas waffles in the morning. The thing about this tradition is that it’s their moms recipe, the one she never writes down.
“When you have kids I’ll tell you the secret ingredient.” She told him when he asked a few years back. She was always so protective over it and he knew it was because it was a recipe her mom taught her and had been passed down by generations.
The waffles are also always done before either of the maximoff kids are awake and so Pietro has never actually seen her make them before. The only science of her cooking espionage being dirty dishes and a dirty apron. So now he’s covered in flour, staring at a batter he’s pretty sure has too much of something or just completely missing something. He’s also coming to the realization that he forgot the waffle maker had been broken. Teresa had used it earlier in the week and had confessed to him that she had zapped it and it blew a fuse. She had been pretty freaked out about it and while the speedster was comforting her telling it would be okay that it was just a waffle maker Pietro had unfortunately actually…I forgot to replace it.
Even if he could find a functioning waffle maker they wouldn’t taste the same. They wouldn’t be the same because their mother didn’t make them.
He looks at the phone dangling on the wall. He stares and waits for it to ring. He knows his mom knows what day it is.
He tries not to think too much about it when the phone doesn’t ring like he hoped.
“Wanda’s waffles are looking a little pancakey.” Hank comes down from his mental hibernation. Pietro knows damn well he hadn’t slept a peep, too invested in whatever trinket he had working in his room to actually catch any rest. He’s crawling from his cave for more caffeine and has caught Pietro's failure at making anything resembling waffles.
“Unless you have a waffle maker hidden away in your room this is all I’m gonna be able to make.”
“What happened to the one we had?”
“Broke.”
“How? It was brand new!” Pietro knows that. He was there when they bought it.
“I dropped it In Superspeed. It’s Crushed to smithereens.” Pietro lied. Not because he wanted to but because Teresa has a confrontational problem. He thinks it has something to do with her mother but she doesn’t like to talk about it and he doesn’t like to push. He just knows that Teresa and Drew were both genuinely freaking out when he caught them trying to toss it.
“Why didn’t you just come to me? I could’ve helped you?” Pietro had told the two girls who were refusing to meet his eyes. Holding each other in preparation for who knows what.
“We didn’t want your da-“ Teresa flinches at one of the cats meowing down the hall and looks around just a bit spooked “-is the professor here?” She says in a quietly panicked voice.
Pietro frowns, shaking his head “yeah, he’s grading papers in his office though.” He doesn’t even have to lie. He knows Charles' schedule like the back of his hand.
“Is he why you didn’t tell me?”
Teresa looks at Drew desperately and the shorter girl fidgets as she speaks in quick succession “we didn’t want him to get mad at us. We knew that if we told you you’d have to tell him and we knew he’d be mad so we tried to fix it but we only made it worse and now we’re gonna get kicked out and we’re gonna go back into the foster system and get separated again.”
Drew and Teresa are best friends. They had run away from their respective foster homes and met up afterwards at a homeless shelter just outside of Indiana where they used to live. Pietro can only assume they had been foster sisters at some point but then something must’ve happened to have them be split up into separate Homes. They had been pretty beat up, emotionally and physically when Pietro and Charles found them. Teresa and Drew aren’t biologically related. No DNA or blood linking them together at all. “We’re soulmates” Is what Drew explained. Meant to be together. “Sisters in our past life.” Is what Teresa claimed. The two had no similarities at all.
Drew had short straight blonde hair and Teresa had long curly brown hair. Drew was short and Teresa was tall. Drew was pale and chubby. Teresa was brown and thin. Drew wore pink Teresa wore black. Drew wasn’t a mutant Teresa was.
Teresa was who they originally traveled to find all those miles away but Drew refused to leave Teresa’s side. Teresa had a panic attack at even the thought of leaving Drew behind.
It was an easy solution to take both of them. Separating the two hadn’t even been a possibility and Charles was eager to take the girls away from Indiana. Indiana was a rare place to find Mutants apparently.
“Why is that rare?” Pietro had asked at the time.
“Mutants just aren’t typically born there.”
“Why?”
“Because of the Supreme Court case Buck v. Bell.” He says easily.
“What’s that?” Usually Pietro would pretend to know, too embarrassed to admit he didn’t know something. Especially something that is meant to be common knowledge. He didn’t pay much attention in school and it shows at times like this. History wasn’t his thing but it is Charles’ and the professor never makes him feel stupid for not knowing things. Never makes him feel dumb for asking questions when all his past teachers would.
“It’s a eugenic legislation.” And because Pietro’s face probably revealed that he didn’t know what that was, Charles simply prattles on in his definition like it was nothing like it wasn’t an inconvenience. “Eugenic is the practice or advocacy of controlled selective breeding of human populations to improve the populations' genetic composition.”
To improve the populations’ genetic composition.
A chill ran down Pietro’s spine. That sounds familiar. Scarily familiar.
“In 1927, the US Supreme Court case Buck v. Bell set a legal precedent that states may sterilize inmates of public institutions. The court argued that imbecility, epilepsy, and feeblemindedness are hereditary, and that inmates should be prevented from passing these defects to the next generation.”
“Thats-“ fucked up.
“This legislation has evolved to not just inmates but the population of Indiana. It’s at the discretion of the doctor of course but more likely than not any deformity or mutation has been erased.”
Hence the no mutants being born their thing.
So Teresa was special. Not because she was a mutant that lived in Indiana but because she was a mutant despite living In Indiana.
She wasn’t going to be thrown back out there because of a broken waffle maker.
“Okay, woah, pause, rewind.” Pietro puts a hand on Drew’s shoulder and goes down to her eye level making sure he’s looking right at her blue eyes “Charles won’t be kicking anyone out. He’ll give you both that whole ‘I’m not mad I’m disappointed’ speech and he’ll make you both do dishes for two weeks and assign y’all extra homework. That’s it. Also whatever you say to me, stays with me. If you don’t want to tell anyone then I won’t. I’m on your side. Hell I’ll even help you get rid of it if you like, but it’s seriously not a big deal. Charles won’t be mad. You two aren’t going anywhere I promise.”
“You swear he won’t be mad?” Teresa holds Drew’s hand, the matching bff bracelets clasping together as they did.
“I pinky swear. “
They hook their pinkies and Teresa sniffles back baby tears that make Pietro's heart clench. He hates it when the little ones cry. He thinks he hates it most when Teresa cries because her tears turn to acid. Burning her skin with every roll of a tear down her cheek. They heal within minutes never truly leaving scars but she still feels it and Drew feels it in her fingertips when she wipes them away from her friends face.
“Also! that waffle maker was like twenty bucks. I can easily just buy another before he even realizes.”
He didn’t.
He should be forgiven for forgetting to actually buy a new one when that was the conversation that came after the event. Punching him in the stomach Everytime he thinks about how scared the two girls had been at getting in trouble.
“You could always run to the store.”
“I could but-“
“I smell waffles!” Wanda yells as she stomps down the stairs barefooted.
“-she’s got the nose of a hound.” Pietro finishes and Hank snags a strawberry from his bunch and pours himself some more coffee into his Smurf’s mug.
“Happy birthday Wanda.” Hank steals the first happy birthday right from under him and Pietro gapes at the betrayal. “Happy birthday Wanda!” He says louder than the blue man.
Wanda smiles and jumps Hank from behind practically tackling the giant man. It’s only a miracle that he doesn’t spill his coffee. Pietro might have something to do with that. He knows how much the blue man likes his mug.
“It’s my birthday!” Wanda gushes as if we hadn’t just said that. “yep and as the birthday girl we get to do whatever you want no questions asked ALL day.”
“Within reason.” Hank adds quickly, looking a bit nervous. Pietro makes a face from behind him he couldn’t see and Wanda giggles. Wanda doesn’t make a big deal about the not-waffles, only asking for more m&ms and a tower of whip cream that makes pietro feel a bit bad for later Wanda.
The other kids start rising from sleep and Hank crawls back to his room and abandons him after giving Wanda her small wrapped present and promising to be down before the movies tonight.
Around her third serving of Pancakes Wanda glances at the phone. She’s expecting their mom to call just as Pietro expected her to call. Just as Wanda opens her mouth to talk, Pietro claps his hands together gathering the attention of all the kids “I have a surprise!” He refuses to let Wanda be sad for even a second today.
So their mom hasn’t called. Maybe she will later tonight. So Charles couldn’t braid her hair today like she wanted. Pietro is the original hair braided in the family to begin with.
“I bought hair dye!”
Twelve eyes widened and suddenly fifteen more stood in the kitchen as Sebastian and Shane popped out of their sleep as well.
He takes out the three bags full of multicolored hair dye from under the sink and places them on the table. “Washable of course. Any specific colors?”
“I want red!” Wanda shouts.
“Can I have a blue streak?” Bobby adds.
“I would like a blue streak as well.” Kurt lifts a finger and Pietro raises a brow looking at the blue streak that’s already in his hair “er- maybe silver then. To match you.” Kurt says instead his fangs showing when he smiles.
Pietro smiles back cockily “if you’re obsessed with me just say so.”
Kurt’s cheek turned purple and Pietro wasn’t prepared for the hurtle of kids who also wanted silver hair.
“We can’t decide on a color. It can’t be too girly but if it’s blue the girls will throw a fit.” Shane says.
“How do you feel about purple?”
“I dunno…” Shane looks hesitant and Pietro shrugs “it’s the color I’m getting.” This seems to change his mind completely.
“okay, yeah purples perfect.”
Pietro starts with Wanda, her body bouncing with excitement. He doesn’t scold her when her excessive movement makes hair dye drip onto his clothes leaving a blob of color on his silver outfit.
He works the silver hair dye onto Kurt’s scalp, brushing out the streaks together gently. The blue boy hums under his breath as Pietro takes care of him.
Bobby was the genius that wanted his entire head of hair a dashing green color that looks like broccoli. “Why are you taking so long?” Bobby whines and Pietro has enough self control not to yank his ear in retaliation.
Everyone had hair dye on their head. Even the kids who were more hesitant in the beginning. Pietros hair took well to the purple and he looked a bit strange with the dark purple streaks on his silver locks. Miss Margo dyed the tips of her locks rainbow colors looking way cooler than any of them combined.
“Better not leave the dye lying about for my babies to get into.” Miss Margo warned “If any streaks are on my kittens furs ill personally have words with Charles.”
“What's he gonna do?” Pietro laughs, cleaning the floor of any mess as he speaks.
“He’ll be a good father and discipline you for giving me lip.” Miss Margo chortles and Pietro dodges the smack of her cain on his calves. Damn.
Bobby peaks his head into the room “Pietro your sisters starting a cult please help.”
“Coming!” it didn't even occur to Pietro until after he was unveiling the fire hydrant from the closet to stifle the flames on the third exploded tv that Miss Margo might have the wrong idea about Charles and him.
It was while everyone’s head was soaking wet from their wash and brushing their newly painted hair that Wanda decided to ask the question Pietro had been dreading.
“Pie?” Wanda’s voice pulled the speedster out of his thoughts. “How’s mama?”
He knew she’d ask but he still didn’t have any way of answering without straight up lying to her face.
“She’s fine.” Pietro hadn’t heard from their mother in two weeks. “She misses you. She misses us. Says to tell you she loves you and happy birthday.” Liar liar liar.
“She called?”
“Yeah, earlier this morning. I’m sorry I didn’t wake you.” Pietro lied again, feeling the anger bubble inside him but smothering it down his stomach with placating words. He brushes her hair, the teeth of the brush jerking on the knots on her hair.
“It’s okay.” Wanda says, sounding like it wasn’t okay at all.
And then She asks “is mama mad at me?”
Pietro stops combing through her hair and he jerks to look at her in alarm “what? Why would you think that?”
“I haven’t seen or heard from her since the accident. I wanted to tell her I’m sorry that we left her behind.”
Pietro feels like the shittiest brother in the world. Why hadn’t he thought that she’d feel guilty? Why hadn’t that ever crossed his mind? Wanda doesn’t talk about the accident. Pietro was delusional enough to think it was because she didn’t think about it often.
He was so stupid sometimes.
“She’s not mad at you. And leaving her behind wasn’t your choice, it was mine. Mama had to take care of some things and couldn’t come with us.”
“She was with Miss Margo. Then she wasn’t. Where is mama now?”
Of course she knew that. He doubts Frankie could keep a secret from his girlfriend even if he tried.
“She’s safe.” Pietro lies again. He doesn’t know that she’s safe. It’s why it’s killing him that she hasn’t called. “Okay?”
Wanda lets out a breath giving Pietro a hard expression “okay.” She pulls something from her bag, a blue gift bag with white and silver paper stuffing.
“I have a present for you.”
Pietro blinks “it’s your birthday not mine.”
“Your birthdays too far away and I wanna give it to you now.” She extends her gift bag to the speedster who takes in gingerly looking a bit pale.
“Is it a bomb?”
“No.”
“Poison?”
“No.”
“A bloody knife linking me to a crime?”
“No.”
“A hungry snake?”
“Just open it!”
“I’m now convinced it’s a hungry snake and I don’t want to open it.”
“Stop being a jerk and Open it.”
“Mkay!” He pulls out a picture frame from the bag and his breath hitches.
His eyes scan the frame as if expecting it to change the second he looks away.
The picture was from right after his first race. He remembers his mom making an effort to be there with Wanda in the stands, cheering him on with hand made posters.
He was so happy that day and it shows in his face as he crowds around his mom and sister as some stranger takes the picture. Next to the picture, pinned gently in a way to not cover up the actual image is the participation ribbon he had received.
He hadn’t gotten a trophy, everyone who participated got a ribbon and a free lunch. The makeshift marathon was for charity and simply to test out how much progress he had made with his coach. It was a tester. Not really a race but it was important to Pietro.
He hadn’t known that Wanda had this picture or that she had the ribbon. Or more like stole it since he could’ve sworn the authorities had taken all of the evidence of him being an athlete from his house. They had been thorough in erasing any evidence from his running career.
“It’s from your first run.” Wanda says as if Pietro wasn’t getting teary eyed just looking at it. “I know you were really sad when they took all the pictures from when you used to run but Hank helped me find this one.”
Hank helped her.
“And I had the ribbon hidden in my room. I knew it was still there so I had Kurt help me get it from the house.”
Kurt did what?
“Did you know that the house was on fire?”
“Yeah…” He had seen the damage when he smuggled his pac man machine into the mansion.
“I was able to find it though! But it got a little crispy.” She points at the very small corner of the ribbon that seems to be singed off. It was barely noticeable.
“It’s perfect.” Pietro isn’t going to cry.
“Don’t cry.” Wanda says boldly.
“I’m not!” Pietro chokes out his voice hoarse.
“You’re so emotional.”
“So? Is that a crime?”
“No, I guess not.” She blinks her eyes going red briefly and smiles widely “Frankie made a surprise birthday cake!”
“Not much of a surprise if you know about it.” Hank says as he enters the room nursing an empty coffee mug and pink eyebrows that Pietro doesn’t remember doing for him.
Wanda isn’t even listening to either of them anymore as she runs to the kitchen with loud footsteps and a herd of children dashing behind her in excitement.
“She says you helped.”
“Only a little. Had to track down your old coach. Tough guy to locate.”
They probably paid him a handsome amount of money to pretend he never knew him. He’s vacationing somewhere far away with the family happy to forget the boy that made him rich.
“You didn’t have to.”
“Have you met your sister? She was very insistent.” Hank says and pushes his glasses up his nose with his paw. “It’s a very nice memory.”
“Just wish i had more.” Pietro cant help but let out the sadness leak into his voice feeling like all the hard work h eput into his running career all be forgotten and erased because he fucked up and was himself for less then a second.
“You know I was an athlete too.” Hank looks at the picture in Pietros hand.
Pietros feels a joke bubbling up “You? An athlete?”
“When I went to Bard College I became a very beloved football player.”
“You’re shitting me.”
“I am not shitting you. They called me Magilla Gorilla.”
“Shut up.” That's hilarious.
“I was very talented. But like you-once they found out I was different they more or less forced me to stop playing. They didn’t have a word for what I was yet. Not a publicly known term. They just knew that I was different and they didn’t like it. I know it’s not the same as-as your thing but I get it.”
“you get it.” Peter nods thoughtfully.
“I was around the same age as you when you started running.”
Pietros brain restarts “you where playing college football at fourteen years old? Is that even legal?”
“Probably not.” He lifts his pink eyebrows and Pietro snorts no longer bothering to take the blue and pink seriously “When did you sneak down here to get your eyebrows dyed?”
Hank huffs “I didnt. I took a nap.”
Pietro bursted into laughter “Holy fuck dont you have like a million locks in your door?”
He thinks maybe Wanda was able to attempt a lockpicking trick, maybe Jean if she had the patience but the two had been in Pietros line of sight all morning. “It was kurt. He managed to get through an entire eyebrow before I awoke and at that point I would've looked ridiculous with only one pink eyebrow.”
If Pietro Maximoff hadn’t already claimed Kurt Wagner as his best friend then he would have at that very moment. Only Kurt could get past his fortress of locks and only Kurt could get close enough to touch Hanks eyebrows and only Kurt had strong enough Puppy dog eyes to convince Hank to let him finish.
“I love him.” Pietro is bursting into laughter, feeling himself shaking in superspeed unable to contain the joy in his body.
“You’ve been a horrible influence.”
“Don’t pretend that you’re not a proud papa.”
“He’s not my kid.” Hank sighs like he’s had this exact conversation a million other times. He probably has.
“You never know.” Pietro teases looking down at the picture remembering that Kurt had some part in that as well.
“I do know. He isnt. I took a DNA test.”
Pietro whips his head up towards Hank again face gaping “You did what?! when?!”
“Couple weeks ago. Just to prove a point.” Hank frowns and Pietro couldn’t hide the grin slipping from his face “don’t need to sound so disappointed hankie-boy.”
“I’m not!”
“Sure!”
“It was a long shot and it was stupid.” Hopeful, not stupid. Pietro realizes maybe a bit too late that the topic was actually upsetting Hank and not jokingly hurting Hank. The speedster retreats quickly scrambling to lighten the mood “Frankie made cake. You want some?”
“Is it edible?”
“Probably, I’ve been teaching him how to bake the last couple weeks,” months actually but Hank doesn’t need to know that.
“You can save me a slice, I still have quite a bit of work to do. I only came down for more coffee and to make sure none of the kids have started baptizing the cats again.”
“Ok. I’ll leave a slice by your door.”
They sang happy birthday. Loud and pitchy like he imagined all birthday songs being sung by pubescent kids would sound like. Pietro sang his song too-Frankie joining along as well.
“Hayom yom huledet,
Hayom yom huledet
Hayom yom huledet le‘Wanda!”
They sang the rest of the song perfectly. The words practiced and warm and Frankie barely butchered any words. In anticipation of Wanda’s birthday Frankie had approached the older brother in full confidence as always “Brother in law?”
“Don’t call me that.”
“Even if it’s true?”
“Especially if it’s true.”
“Can you teach me the Hebrew Birthday song?”
“You want to learn it?”
“If you can teach me, yes, brother in law. I’d like to wish my love a happy birthday in her words.”
Frankie wasn’t a quick learner. He was relentless in his practice but he grew frustrated with himself becoming fussy with himself, defaulting back into destructive.
“Take it slow, Frankie. I’ll be singing with you, so just follow my tone and you won’t mess up.”
And that’s exactly what he did. Even if he missed a word Pietro drowned it out with his own clear tone. Wanda despite her claiming otherwise is a very emotional girl and was already holding back tears halfway through the song.
Frankie cuts the cake for her and Wanda stares adoringly at the boy in question. Pietro was a bit terrified by how much she was willing to give him. That much adoration shouldn’t be given away so easily. Frankie was-he was easy to love and Wanda was taken by him. Pietro would forget later, a brief sad picture in time but in that moment as Frankie gave Wanda a slice of cake like she was the stars in the sky and Wanda smiled at him like he was the moon he saw them older.
Wanda wearing red staring at Frankie and Frankie with red skin staring right back, tears in each other's eyes.
It was a quick flash of dread. Of a memory that hasn’t and probably will never pass. Pietro was blinking back tears, pretending it was from happiness instead of irrational fear.
“Can we leave a slice for Charles?” Wanda asks Pietro looking at the dwindling cake. “I know he’ll be out late with his old student but maybe if he gets home early we can eat it together.”
“Course, red.”
Pietro cuts an extra big slice of cake for Charles storing it in the fridge and he cuts another, slightly smaller slice for Hank wrapping it up in cling wrap to leave at his door. It was a delicious cake Frankie really outdid himself.
Bobby volunteers to wash the dishes with Pietro which was a bit of a surprise but not unwelcome. The kids go outside and play with the chalk, jump rope and bubbles that Pietro had stashed away for the day. They can see the kids playing from the kitchen as they both effortlessly work together and put away dishes.
Pietro glances at the phone on the wall for the seventh time today, waiting for that wretched call from his mom. Hoping that she was able to get away from David long enough to give them a call. That she bothered to remember what today was.
“They're holding hands.” Bobby says suddenly and Pietro pulls away from his thoughts about his mother. “What?” Pietro looks up and looks out the window expecting to see maybe Wanda and Frankie being all kissy face and having to pull a big brother and separate the two children. He hasn’t seen them kiss but he’s positive that’s intentional on their end trying to avoid his wrath.
Instead of Wanda and Frankie he sees Teresa and Drew holding hands.
Bobby makes a face, his face pinched and uncomfortable. “Why would they do that here?”
“They’re just holding hands.” Pietros hands are soapy.
“Yeah but they’re both girls.”
Pietro gives the younger boy a long look and he keeps hearing Charles' voice in his head telling him that Bobby respects him, that he looks up to him. “Girls can hold hands.” Pietro doesn’t think Bobby has much experience with girls. He’s still pretty young and doesn’t seem to connect with anyone really. No matter how much Pietro tries.
“Boys can hold hands too.” He adds, thinking of Kurt and Him, comforting each other after a bad nightmare. Grasping for something whole and real.
Bobby visibly stiffens “no they can’t. Isn’t that wrong?” He wasn’t making a statement, he was asking a question. Hesitant and nervous.
Pietro frowns trying to find the right words not wanting to fuck up this conversation “no, i don’t think it’s wrong. It’s normal to want to be close to someone.”
“But…”
“But?”
“You don’t think it’s unnatural? For two boys?”
“Unnatural? like running faster than the speed of sound or making the room go below zero just by sneezing?” Pietro doesn’t realize he shouldn’t use Bobby as a comparison point. The boy puffs up like a blowfish and accidently shatters a plate with how cold his hands got and he slices his hand with glass.
Fuck. “Careful, kid.” Pietro grabs a hand towel quickly and goes for Bobby’s hands trying to stop them from bleeding. Bobby jerks them away from Pietro, his face going flush. “I’m fine!” His voice cracks.
“You’re not fine. Let me help you.” He pulls Bobby to the side where he knows Hank keeps the first aid kit and Bobby is fussing the whole time. He puts a wrap around Bobby’s hand thankful that he didn’t need stitches.
“They are friends.” Pietro speaks clearly, not wanting the conversation to end on a four note. “Friends hold hands. Even…if they weren’t just friends it would be okay if they held hands.”
Bobby just stares at him like his words aren’t clicking and Pietro doesn’t know if he can change his mind on this. It’s not something Pietro is well versed in. Not something he’s ever had problems coming to terms with. Bobby is from a drastically different household than him. What his parents taught him is not what his mother taught him.
“The moment we start judging each other for what we are is when we truly become divided.” That’s what his mother told at a very young age regarding all things in life. Pietro has always applied that logic to everything, including things regarding who people love.
His mother always had the right thing to say at the wrong time. She had impeccable words but horrendous timing.
“I don’t-“ Bobby cuts himself off looking a bit uncomfortable and that’s the last thing the speedster wants “I don’t wanna talk about this anymore.”
“Okay. No problem.” Pietro amends quickly, handing the younger boy a bottle of blue bubbles. “You wanna join the kids outside?”
He nods, looking relieved that Pietro dropped it.
Later that day when all the kids' energy was zapped away from running around and eating shit all day Pietro piled the living room with blankets and pillows. With the help of all the eager children they made a blanket fort and curled up near the tv. It was getting later in the day but not quite the time they usually put in the movie so instead pietro and Hank told Ghost stories.
Hank had come down just around the time they had collected all the blankets and was now a burrito of hello kitty wool. He looked funny and Kurt took pictures of the blue man in that state of fluffiness. Miss Margo was listening intently to his story, just finishing telling one of hers. She was surrounded by her hurdle of cats Laying on top of her like a blanket and Kurt Wagner snapped a picture as well.
Kurt had been snapping pictures with the professor's old camera. Charles had said he wanted to look at them later, not wanting to miss out on any of the party activities. Kurt had been more than willing to lug it around all day to snap rare candids of the children.
“Hey pretty boy.” Pietro sits beside Kurt who was sipping on his hot chocolate inside the blanket fort the old camera beside him. Heavy and ancient looking. “Hello, Pietro.” Kurt smiles at the speedster, his tail falling on to pietros' lap instinctively.
“He’s very good at telling stories.” Pietro whispers at Kurt leaning close so he could hear him. His hands find the top of Kurt’s tail brushing it and cradling it in his lap, already second nature to the speedster. A bit of an impulsive reaction by that point.
“Yes, very good. Very scary.” and he does sound a bit spooked so it doesn’t surprise him when the blue boy reaches for his hand.
Pietro lets him. He wanted to prove a point to Bobby who was within eyeshot but also because the doll Hank is describing sounds like the one Pietro had found in one of the rooms when he was first cleaning the mansion that first week here. It’s gotta be the same doll currently sitting in a storage container in the basement. He might be getting into the story a bit too much.
Hopefully it doesn’t actually have murderous intent.
“Heard you helped Wanda with her present to me.”
“It was nothing.” Kurt’s accent was thick.
“It wasn’t nothing. Thank you.” Pietro squeezes his hand.
Hank finished his story and all the children looked like they were going to piss their pants except for Wanda who was grinning like a demon the entire story. “Another!”
“Nope! Time to watch the movie.” Pietro says quickly and everyone sighs in relief.
Most of the kids fell asleep halfway through the movie. Wanda was the only one that made it to the end credits her eyes droopy and head bouncing trying to fight back sleep.
“Just go to sleep Wanda.”
“Mom didn’t call this morning.”
Pietro holds his breath.
“You’ve been looking at the phone waiting for her to call. You wouldn’t do that if she had called already.” She lets out a yawn.
Perceptive little gremlin.
“I’m sorry, red. Is that why you’re trying to stay up?”
“No.” She mumbles “was hoping Charles would be back by now so we can eat the cake together.”
Pietro chuckles “you can eat it with him tomorrow. I’m sure it’ll taste just as good.”
Wanda hums under her breath, already falling asleep on his shoulder as he tries to pick her up from the floor. He steps around sleepy children and dodges a snoring drew from the corner of the fort and places Wanda firmly on the couch surrounded by a forest of stuffed animals and mutant friends to keep her company for the night.
Pietro kisses her forehead and she whines when he pulls away making grabby hands at him as he stands. He caves and lays down beside her, the couch being big enough for them both to fit comfortably against each other in a cuddle.
He always falls asleep better with other people and before he knows it his eyes are dropping and he’s abruptly awoken by the phone ringing several hours later.
It’s two in the morning according to the clock near the door and he curses under his breath untangling Wanda off of him to answer the phone.
“Hello?” He says groggily into the receiver.
The caller didn’t respond. Leaving behind soft sniffles. He could recognize his mother's voice anywhere even if she’s whispering.
Even if she’s crying.
“Mama? Is that you?” He asks quietly, his chest aching to hear her voice.
“Why are you crying?” No response. Pietro desperately grasps for something to hold her there. “Are you hurt?”
“Mai where are you? czy on ciÄ zraniÅ‚?”
She lets out a shaky breath and Pietro can’t tell if she’s hurt, if she’s wincing or in pain. He can’t tell and it kills him that he can’t just come get her. He doesn’t know where she is. Doesn’t know where he’s keeping her.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t call yesterday.” Couldn’t not wouldn’t. Pietro has to believe that she tried everything in her power to call Wanda on her birthday.
“It’s okay.” Pietro says quickly, breathlessly “I can get her now. Wanda will be happy to hear from you.”
“Don't wake her, it’s late.”
“Mom, she's not even ten feet away from me. It’ll take less than a second. She won’t mind at all she’s-“ Pietro swallows back the bite in his voice “she misses you. She thinks you’re mad at her.”
“I’m not mad at her. I just can’t talk for long.”
“But-“
“Just tell her I love her and that I’m sorry I couldn’t call. And that I hope her tenth birthday was amazing.”
“It was. I couldn’t make your waffles though. Are you sure you don’t want me to wake her up?”
“Pure Amaretto extract.”
Pietro blanks “what?”
Magda Maximoff lets out a breath “the secret ingredient in the waffles is Pure Amaretto extract instead of vanilla extract, half a cup of brown sugar and a few teaspoons of cinnamon whisked together.”
Dread consumes Pietro. There’s only one reason his mom is telling him this. “You can make them for her next year.”
“You can make them for her instead.”
“No- Mai. Your scaring the fuck out of me what do you even mean by that? Where are you?”
“Good bye Pietro,”
“No! No goodbye. Where are you? I can come get you, Mama, please.”
“Don’t make this harder Pietro.”
Pietro wants to scream at her more but then the line cuts and he’s listening to static.
He stares openly at the receiver in shock for several minutes. Or maybe seconds. He’s not sure if he fell into superspeed in his shock. He feels his soul get zapped back into his body when the phone starts ringing again. In alarming speed Pietro answers the phone.
“Mom?” He says immediately his hope is clear in his voice.
“Er…nah this is Thomas from Froggys.”
Huh?
“I think you got the wrong number.”
“Yeah no sorry. Some British guys been here since five and he’s kinda all fucked up and we took his keys from him. A card with this number was the only thing in his wallet besides his ID and debit cards so I figured you might wanna pick him up. We close in an hour.”
Pietro stares at the phone, still mildly confused “You mean Charles?”
“Yeah that’s what his ID says. You gonna pick him up?”
“I-um- yeah I can pick him up.”
“Good cause he’s pretty drunk. Definitely shouldn’t drive.”
It felt like cold water was dumped on him, his body going rigid. Charles is drunk.
“Froggys is a bar?”
“Bar and karaoke. We got live bands sometimes. Even selling some sandwiches and chips now. We’re tryna spice things up a bit. Get some new customers in.”
Pietro does not give a fuck about their rebranding.
“I’ll be there in two minutes.”
“Damn that’s quick as fu-“ Pietro Maximoff hangs up.
Fuck, okay.
Pietro hadn’t known where Froggys was so he kinda had to locate a map from Hank's room. That took less than a second in superspeed. Frantic and a bit shaken by the phone call from his mom and then The immediate whiplash with Charles.
He’s okay. He’s fine. He knows where Froggys is now. It’s not even ten minutes down the road. Although it rubs pietro the wrong way that the professor was only ten minutes away and he hadn’t just gone home.
He didn’t dwell on it. He couldn’t. He had to go get the professor.
He was in the empty parking lot in less than a second. The open sign flickers off and the music from the inside comes to a roaring stop. Probably starting on their closing.
He goes inside and nearly runs back outside by the smell alone. It was definitely a bar. A shitty one at that. No amount of fancy cushions and cover up pictures on the walls can disguise the smell of moldy liquor on the ugly carpet.
“You Thomas?” Pietro asks the tall brown man in the front of the bar.
“Damn. Two minutes really means two minute huh?” Thomas says and waves him over to a side room “your dads a routy drunk. Tried to start a fight with one of my bartenders.”
The first thing he notices is that Charles is walking. “He started it!” The professor snaps and clutches his extremely large and nearly empty bottle of vodka.
“Enough yapping. Your son is here to pick you up.”
“I’m not his son.” Pietro says stiffly but Thomas was already walking away to mop the floor behind the bar.
Charles Xavier looks at Pietro Maximoff for the first time since he got here and has the decency to look embarrassed, wiping away vomit that was clearly on his shirt.
Pietro grimaced at the sight, feeling his head start to pound.
“I didn’t ask for you to come.” Charles says.
“I know. But I did.” Pietro says evenly wishing he hadn’t gone at all. It would’ve been better to let the phone ring instead of watching Charles stumble to get up on his two feet.
“You shouldn’t be here.” Charles says like a damn hypocrite.
“Neither should you.” Pietro bites. “You said you were helping an old student. What happened to that?”
“I was. Didn’t go well. Now I’m here.” Charles takes a swig of the vodka bottle, a little bit of it rolling down his chin.
Pietro takes a breath, stifling back the anxiety of seeing a drunk Charles completely disregard him. Pietro needs to get him out of here without Charles causing another scene.
“You could’ve just gone home.” Pietro doesn’t know when he started considering the mansion home. Maybe it was when he had more clothes there than his old house did. Or when he brought the pac man machine to decorate his room. Or when he was given a spare key to the door. Or when he stopped locking his bedroom door at night. He was safe there and Pietro supposes that’s all it really takes for it to be his home.
“Needed a drink. Can’t do that at school.” Pietro is at least giving him some credit for being aware enough to know not to drink at the school around students. He just kinda wishes he didn’t have to drink at all. Really wishes he didn’t fuck off domewhere only ten minutes away from the mansion because he needed a drink.
“You missed a pretty good cake. Wanda saved you a slice.”
“Why?” Charles scoffs and the way he said it with such annoyance made Pietro have to take a deep breath to calm the protective anger that just punched through him.
Sober Charles wouldn’t dismiss Wanda like that. Pietro knows that. But drunk Charles is a dick and a stranger to Pietro. He doesn’t know this version of Charles as vividly. He doesn’t know how to respond properly.
“Because Wanda thought you might want some. Considering you couldn’t be there for her birthday.”
“I was busy. She knows that.” Charles rolls his eyes and Pietro doesn’t punch him. The speedster is very proud of himself for not immediately clocking Charles upside the head. Even though he wanted to because Wanda was devastated. Even if she pretended she wasn’t. She couldn’t get a phone call from mom and she couldmt eat cake with Charles. She was being a good sport about the whole thing but she missed them both very much last night and Charles just doesn’t care.
“She wanted you to be there. She stayed up late hoping you’d come home early and have time to share a slice.”
“She shouldn’t have stayed up late.” Even drunk he’s mumbling about curfew.
“Clearly.” Pietro grits “you hadn’t even thought of her at all. They said you’ve been here since five.” They were halfway through monopoly at five. He could’ve been there for the round of jenga. He could’ve helped Miss Margo play hide and seek. Instead he was ten minutes away in a bar.
“Not everything is about her.” Which felt like a giant fuck you to Wanda and that didn’t feel fair at all.
“It kinda seems like nothing is ever about her. She has one day that is about her and you didn’t even bother to be there.”
“I told her I wouldn’t be. Not everything has to have a huge conversation. I’m not her fucking dad.”
A pause. Pietros brain scatters for just a moment, his face going blank and still.
Oh. Well. Fuck.
That had some kick to it.
Pietro fucking despises drunk Charles. He already knew that. He had just forgotten how much of a fucking prick he was.
“Right.” Pietro barely recognizes his own voice, feeling like he’s having an out of body experience. “Cool. I'm gonna take this away from you now.” All at once Pietro takes the Vodka bottle from Charles' grasp and in that quick movement Charles swings his hand towards Pietro to slap him. -No towards the bottle. To grab the bottle. To take it back.
But In that quick second Pietro can’t tell the difference.
Charles' face morphs into David’s. David is Charles and Pietro visibly flinches away from the man, dropping the bottle on the ground and shattering it into a million pieces. The speedster is in a frenzy, fear pumping through him like second nature “I-I’m sorry.” He sounds unlike himself, small and scared of the larger man and Pietro is acting so stupid. He’s shaking and his brain is filled with bees as he’s kneeling over to pick up the shattered pieces of glass. Which is dumb. He shouldn’t do that. He’s not wearing gloves. Why is he so fucking stupid?
David in the last three seconds seems to have found momentary sobriety as he looks at Pietro in stunned horror. “Peter what are you-“
Pietro hisses as glass digs into his finger tips and David is next to him tugging at his shoulder to stand up and stop picking up glass off the floor. “Peter, son, you’re gonna hurt yourself.” Pietro recoils. He hates that David called him son in this moment. It feels vile in this way. He had never claimed the speedster as his son before and for those words to be thrown at him while he’s piss drunk feels cruel and hollow.
“Don’t call me that.” Pietro hisses at him, jerking his elbow away from his step-dad. “I’m not your son.” He snaps at David.
No, not David. Charles.
David isn’t here.
This isn’t David.
This is Charles.
“Peter…” Charles takes a breath looking clear minded for a split second looking like he wanted to touch him but far too afraid of his reaction if he did “I would never-“ hurt me? Fuck off. He doesn’t need this.
“-actually, I’m gonna go. You were right I shouldn’t have fucking come. I’ll get Hank to come get you.”
Pietro thinks it might be a bit of a dick move but he doesn’t care. He does what he does best and he runs away. Like he always fucking does when things get to be too much.
It’s the only thing he’s good at.
Notes:
Typos will be found. Tis’ only human unfortunately.
Chapter 13: Your Trauma, My Trauma, Our Trauma
Summary:
Hank rubs his eyes looking out of his body completely “did you just say that Charles is at Froggys?”
“Yeah.”
Hank stands up abruptly, making the blanket fort collapse slightly before Pietro catches it in superspeed, not wanting any of the kids to wake up from the rustle.
“I’ll go get him. You shouldn’t see him like that.” Hank cuts off a yawn and looks like murder as he’s slipping shoes onto his feet. Too late. Pietro saw and he left.
Hank pats him on the shoulder half heartedly and goes to leave but seems to fully become conscious at that moment, lasering in on the speedsters face. “Have you been crying?”
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Pietro gets emotional whiplash over and over and over again.
Notes:
Gasp* another update ??? I know, I know. Ive outdone myself, truly. I’ve updated some tags you might wanna take a little looky look.
I will be doing a time skip eventually so that we can get to Apocalypse. Erik is currently Adding to the population instead of decreasing. He’s in his milf Lumberjack era right now and that’s simply canon to the timeline so he’s MIA in this story for now.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro gets to the mansion and wakes up Hank. The blue man was not happy about it. Blue hair disheveled and bad breath “what?” He yawns awake looking beyond dead inside. It was a known thing to not wake up Hank before 8 in the morning and to never talk to him before his cup of coffee but Pietro broke both those rules.
“You gotta pick up Charles.” Pietro says stiffly.
“What?” Hank repeats in his half asleep stupor.
“You gotta pick up Charles. He’s at Froggys.”
“What time is it?” Hank hasn’t even opened his eyes yet.
“I don’t know. Late. Early?” Pietro says in a clipped voice.
Hank rubs his eyes looking out of his body completely “did you just say that Charles is at Froggys?”
“Yeah.”
Hank stands up abruptly, making the blanket fort collapse slightly before Pietro catches it in superspeed, not wanting any of the kids to wake up from the rustle.
“I’ll go get him. You shouldn’t see him like that.” Hank cuts off a yawn and looks like murder as he’s slipping shoes onto his feet. Too late. Pietro saw and he left.
Hank pats him on the shoulder half heartedly and goes to leave but seems to fully become conscious at that moment, lasering in on the speedsters face. “Have you been crying?”
Pietro nods not feeling the energy to lie.
Hank blinks owlishly, looking like a teddy bear as he fully faces Pietro, pausing in his movements, still slow from sleep “did you wanna talk about it?”
Hank is a saint for even trying to have this conversation before he’s fully awake and cognizant.
Pietro shakes his head “not really.”
“Later?”
“Maybe.”
Hank nods pushing his glasses up his nose “okay. I’ll be back in a few.” He leaves to go get Charles and Pietros chest feels heavy. Like a weight had settled there and made it its home. It’s always been there, just as heavy and just as present but it’s shifted and made a mess of what was holding it still.
Wanda is seemingly having a nightmare. Pietro allows the distraction of something else to take over him. He goes to his sister, bees nesting around in his head, getting busier the closer he gets to her.
She winces and shuffles and looks near tears, her small face scrunching up in pain. He goes to wake her. Shaking her gently, wanting to pull her away from her nightmare. “Wanda? It’s alright. It’s just a nightmare.”
“Pietro?” She whimpers and Pietro feels his weight lean and turn and shakes her more, feeling dread consume him. “Yeah it’s me red. You gotta wake up.”
Her eyes dart open, blazing red, with a gasp and she reaches her bare hand against the speedsters arm.
The room goes completely dark.
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Pietro is slow. He didn’t see it coming.
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Five bullets hit his body. He falls to the ground.
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Pietro Maximoff wakes up and he’s hiding under the bed, tears staining his cheeks and his small hands clutching a stuffed bunny against his mouth to cover up his cries.
He needs to be quiet. He doesn’t understand why but he knows he has to be quiet and that he can’t get out from under the bed. He needs to be very very still.
He is.
She is?
This isn’t him. It’s her. It’s Wanda. His sister. Small and shaking.
His hands are not his hands. And this bed is not his bed. Pietro is not sure exactly what’s going on but he stays perfectly still as loud clanking footsteps enter the room, the sounds vibrating on the wooden floor and making his stomach turn. Not his stomach. Her stomach.
Another pair of frantic feet followed the angry ones. Fast and heavy. “You can’t just come in here!”
“This is my house!” The other voice spoke and Pietro knew it was David. He knows David's angry voice.
“This is my moms house. Not yours.” Pietro remembers this conversation. He remembers telling Wanda to hide. To not make a sound. He hadn’t known where she had decided to hide. He hadn’t knwo what room she had decided was safest.
“This is my house.” David repeats “It’s under my name, the bills are paid by my pension, I pay for all the food and all the things in this house. This. is. my. house.”
Pietro is Wanda. Or he supposes he’s seeing these events as Wanda saw them. He knows that the person speaking to David is him. Younger him. Screaming and yelling every chance he got. Not letting the man take a single word from him that wasn’t true. He hated this man with a passion. And he hated Pietro right back. Equally destructive forces clashing with the other.
“You don’t provide for shit and you haven’t paid the bills in months. Your fancy pension is barely enough to pay for two bills. And this house is under both your names or have you already forgotten?” Young Pietro never sugar-coated anything with David. Pietro told him nearly every time he saw him just how little he thought of him. And David did the same.
“Because your bitch of a mother forgot how good I am to her. Figured a couple months of paying her dues would set her straight. But now she’s got it in her head that she can do this by herself when she’s clearly drowning with the load of her ungrateful children.” Pietro feels Wanda squeeze her bunny and scrunch her face at his words.
They both had been showering at school by that point. Sneaking into their respective Gyms early in the mornings to use the showers. They couldn’t afford to turn on the AC so they left windows open and when it got cold they wore jackets inside, layered like the North Pole. Pietro stole groceries. He stole batteries for flashlights so they'd be able to see at night in the house. He stole what he could and bribed and sweet talked whoever he could and as much as he could.
For months. But it was worth it because David was gone. But that was short lived.
“Great. Awesome. We don’t have running water cause you wanted to be a toxic piece of shit. Fuck you.”
Wanda flinched as she heard a crack of lightning. No, not lightning. A slap, a face cracked in two. “Do not speak to me that way. I am the man of this house and you will speak to me as such.”
“You’re not a man, you’re a weak little bitch.” Lightning strikes again and the feet shuffle and scuffle and he hears grunts and glass breaking and items being thrown and he hears a scream.
“Fuck you!” He hadn’t known Wanda was in the room. If he had he wouldn’t have been so openly aggressive. So loud in his anger.
“Piece of shit!”
She hears something guttural and animalistic. Something you hear in movies. Deep in your chest, crawling out like a beast. It rings in her ears and Pietro hates that this is how she saw it. Half crazed and scared.
“I hate you.” David spits at young pietro like he was the root of all his problems. “This is all your fault.”
Wanda was shaking, he felt her chin wobbling and the ache in her chest. He wants to hug her but this is something he can’t change. Physically he couldn’t control her movements, couldn’t stop her from doing a damn thing. He was a pair of eyes cohabiting a memory.
“You’re a stupid worthless low-life who’s done nothing but cause problems for both your mother and me.” Lightning- “You’re the reason she kicked me out of my own damn house. You couldn’t fucking take it like a man. Grit your teeth and bear it how you're supposed to.” Pietro remembers David having his hands around his throat, pushing and trapping him down to the bed and he remembers he could’ve superspeed away but he hadn’t because he was touching him and some stupid part of him didn’t want to actually hurt him. He was Wanda’s dad and he knew that if he hurt him, actually hurt him, he wouldn’t be able to stop. He was glad that Wanda couldn’t see that part. From this angle all she can see is boots and feet and loud angry words that sting even her.
Pietro can feel how afraid she was. He can feel exactly how terrified she felt in this exact moment. He can hear her thoughts racing, he can sense her confusion. Her panic and how much she wants to get out from under the bed and help younger Pietro. He’s glad she didn’t, that would’ve been a disaster.
Pietro has always hated David but he knows that Wanda loved him, that was her dad. Seeing your dad like that, hearing him like that must’ve been a shock to the system.
She’s heard Pietro and him fight before. Of course. But nothing violent. He hoped she hadn’t seen anything violent at least. He always tried to stop physical altercations in front of her. She was so young. She still loved her dad.
He knows that Wanda saw good versions of David. That he wasn’t completely horrible to her all the time. He had good moments. He bought her presents and watched movies with her and braided her hair but that love was always conditional. And it was twisted. And sick. He’d pawn the presents later for a couple bucks worth of beer, he’d sit down to watch a movie and get bored and change it to the game, and if he braided her hair he’d do it simply for praise. For that beaming smile she always gave him when he did something right. Rare and pretty.
David’s version of love was never extended to Pietro. Not fucking once.
“Where’s my daughter?”
“You’re such a shit ass father you don’t even know it’s a school day?”
Lightning strikes again and Wanda moves and he knows she’s afraid of thunderstorms.
“Fuck you! She’s at scho-“ a grunt interrupts his string of curses.
“Todays her birthday. I want to see her.” Followed by a kick to the groin. It was the first time he remembered. The first time he bothered to make a fuss about seeing her on her birthday.
This fight was a storm to her. Lightning after lightning. Blow after blow. Rain shattering and words shouting into the void.
Wanda hates thunderstorms.
It was all so confusing and quick and young Pietro was just trying to get David out of the house. Away from Wanda. Away from his mother.
He thought David was gone for good. He had lowered his defenses and he was caught off guard by his presence.
This is when the memory starts getting foggy, time lapsing slightly as suddenly she’s out from under the bed and beside a bloody Pietro.
Young Pietro's hair was between gray and brown, and red from splotches of blood and Wanda was next to him on the floor shaking him, her small trembling hands jerking him awake. From this angle young Pietro looked small. He was small. Thin. Young Pietro snaps into consciousness and he feels the relief young wanda felt. He felt the love and the sadness that was taking over her. He wishes she hadn’t felt that at all.
Past Pietro jerks away from Wanda’s touch instinctively which makes her grimace and back away. He looks around his breath ragged and short. Lips split, both eyes bloody and a gash on his cheek that he still has a small scar from because he kept picking at it even after it healed.
“Pie?” When she was young she couldn’t roll her R’s and when she was learning how to spell Pietro's name she thought it was pronounced like the food Pie. “You’re bleeding.”
“Are you okay?” Young Pietro touches Wanda’s hand gently and his hands are cold. He hadn’t realized back then that his hands were like ice cubes. Like a dead corpse.
He feels Wanda’s chest burn and then The eventual tears bursting out of her eyes and the gut wrenching sobs ripping from her mouth. Her vision was blurry and hot.
Young pietro wraps his arms around Wanda so quickly he must’ve used his speed to do so but he can’t quite remember if he did or not. He does remember his body hurting as he forced his shoulder to extend and his dislocated wrist to bend at her waist.
“I’ll call the police.” Wanda says and young Pietro shakes his head “no don’t do that. You gotta call mom.”
“Why? You’re hurt. He hurt you.”
“It’s okay. I’m okay. Just call mom. We can’t call the police.” He can’t hold a phone. He remembers how much pain he was in. Every inch of his body was bruised.
He should’ve let her call the police. But by this point he had gotten beaten so many times he knew exactly what they’d do. They’d tell him he needs to press charges. That they couldn’t do anything if he didn’t. No matter how bruised or how damaged he was they couldn’t do a damn thing unless he told them who did it. That’s what they always say, pretending they didn’t already know who it was.
There was one police officer, a fresh faced rookie with a gentle voice who was the very first policeman to come to his front door. He was the first person to ever patch him up and clean his wounds properly and the officer told him he should tell him who it was that left him all bloody and he would make sure they paid. He was ten. He wanted to tell him but his mother had just told him that she was pregnant. He was going to have a little sister and she needed her dad. She needed David.
Officer Bishop had good intentions but Pietro knew talking would lead to problems. So he stayed quite. Told him he fell. The second time around he told him he got in a fight at school. His excuses became more elaborate and insane and Eventually he stopped asking all together. And eventually he stopped coming at all. Replaced with another mean faced cop who never patched him up or even bothered to ask questions about his bruises.
“You’re bleeding real bad.” Wanda whispers.
Young Pietro shakes his head “it’s okay, I’ll heal quick.” That was another thing that came to play. Even if the cops came, by the time they did all evidence of any harm would be gone. Blurred by his mutation. His healing mutation started when he was around twelve years old and David punched him in the face for not buying him beer. He was twelve. He couldn’t buy beer but David wasn’t a very intelligent man when he was angry or drunk. The black eye turned bruised and yellowed out and then completely healed by the end of the day. Each time he got hurt he would heal faster and faster.
“Dads gone.” Wanda told young Pietro. At this point Wanda still called David dad. He can hear the stumble in her voice when the word dad comes out of her mouth though. Like she can’t quite wrap her head around the fact that david was her dad. That her dad did that to young Pietro's face.
He looked brutal. He hadn’t seen it when it happened. His face was already healing by the time he got to the bathroom mirror. But He realizes now why Wanda had been freaking out back then. It looks bad. Really really bad.
“Yeah he’s gone.” Young Pietro says “you did a good job at hiding.”
“I know all the good spots.” Under the bed is not a good hiding spot. But he hadn’t known that that’s where she was hiding.
“I know you do. You’re too good at hide and seek.” Young Pietro rubs out the blood on Wanda’s hand with his shirt. She got it from his head wound.
“It's all my fault.” Wanda sniffles and his Vision blurred, her eyes watering with suppressed tears.
It was so odd seeing everything from this point of view. Young Pietro looks so much smaller from Wanda’s eyes.
“It is not your fault, why would you even think that?” Pietros voice cracked. He had been going through late stages of puberty, his voice cracking every other sentence.
“Yes it is.” Wanda isn’t stopping the tears now and young Pietro is wiping tears from her cheek faster then their falling.
“No it’s not. Don't say that.”
“I’m the reason mom kicked him out. I told her that he was locking your door at night. Dad said it was because he doesn’t like it when I go in there because I’m too big for sleepovers. but he has sleepovers in your room. I see him. I hear you crying. I told mama you were having nightmares and that dad wasn’t letting me help you and she got really angry. And scared.” Wanda confesses “I didn’t know he was hurting you pie. I thought he was helping you. Mom got really really angry and she was saying a lot of bad words and crying and that was four months ago and he’s been gone that whole time but you still cry at night. I hear you.”
She hears him. Pietro remembers feeling like she had punched him in the face. He remembers wanting to throw up because she heard him. Every. single. night. She heard her dad—she heard Pietro getting—he wanted to throw up.
He remembers he felt so much shame. The thought of his little sister witnessing that, seeing that, hearing that and not even realizing what was going on. It filled him with so much dread and he hates that David managed to do that. He managed to make Pietro feel bad for being wronged, he was a victim and he felt embarrassed. Ashamed. He felt gross. Like some kind of pervert.
Pietro blocks it out. He thinks his mind tries to protect him from what was going on by erasing most of what happened to him. Of what David did to him at night.
Sometimes if Pietro's lucky he forgets completely. He pretends the worst thing he’s ever done to him was beat him.
“He got himself kicked out. You had absolutely nothing to do with that. You did nothing wrong. You hear me?” Young Pietro, and older Pietro love fiercely. He will always think of his sister above himself, he will always comfort and protect her over himself.
“I did-“
“You didn’t. David is in the wrong. You did nothing wrong.”
Wanda full on sobs now, wrapping her hands around him and young Pietro flinches and hisses in pain but hides it pretty well considering older pietro-or he supposes younger wanda didn’t seem to notice.
“You didn’t do anything wrong either.”
“I know,” young Pietro doesn’t believe that but older Pietro does. He never asked for any of it.
“I’m gonna call mom.” Wanda says and she’s pulling away and going to the door. Her small feet carried her to the distance.
The door weirdly enough looks nothing like her bedroom door. It doesn’t look at all familiar but he opens it anyway, Wanda’s hand twisting the handle and as the door cracks ajar a flashing, blinding light takes over his vision.
Pietro is walking out of a school bus.
Rows of children ahead of him. He’s all the way at the end of the line of kids waiting to be let into the public pool.
Where is he? His body stays rigid and stiff as he stays in line, no matter how much he wants to step out of line to look around. He's wearing blue and yellow swim trunks, a yellow pool shirt and blue-purplish sneakers. He’s fiddling with a floaty and he’s definitely supposed to be going to the pool.
Pietro doesn’t know how to swim so he’s never gone to the pool before, it’s also why he was so terrified of running on water again in case he failed miserable and drowned to death instead.
“McCoy stay with the line!” An uptight looking teacher shouted from the front of the line.
McCoy. He’s Hank right now. Okay. Good to know. Now he just needs to figure out why he’s Hank right now. And why he was Wanda earlier.
Preferably soon.
The line drags but eventually everyone’s inside the pool and checked in with the teachers and Pietro is under the impression that this is a school field trip. To the public pool. The kids in this class seem to be much bigger than Hank though. McCoy couldn’t be any older then seven and these kids were full on middle schoolers.
Pietro vaguely remembers Hank boasting about being a prodigy. Something about being the youngest graduate in blah blah blah. Something nerdy. He assumes that means he’s skipped a couple grades. He figured that much but he supposes he didn't really realize how weird that would’ve been. To be the youngest in your class. To always be the youngest.
“You gonna get in, kid?” One of the middle school girls twists her neck at Hank, her ugly face pulled into a sneer that unsettled Hank “you do know how to swim right? Without floaters?”
“Y-yeah! I know how to swim, I'm not a baby.”
Pietro is also in fact not a baby. He does not know how to swim and he is not at all tempted to do so by this mean girl's taunt, although it seems Hank definitely is.
He shuffles his feet and after a long dragged delay he toes off his shoes.
Pietro realizes why he hesitated almost instantly.
Hank's feet are weird.
His mutation started with his feet. He remembers he told him that. He sees it. Pietro hears an intake of breath and a burst of laughter and feels Hank stiffen.
“What the fuck is that?” A red haired boy exclaims from the pool chair.
“Ew, are those his feet?”
“Why do they look like that?”
A series of complaints and insults hurled his way and Pietros became angry on Hank's behalf. He can feel Hank's unfiltered internalized disgust over himself and the burning behind his eyes that indicates he’s about to start crying.
“Henry McCoy, put your shoes back on.” A male teacher said and the voice made Hank jump to put his shoes on, tripping over himself and falling into the water.
He’s freaking out for about ten seconds before he’s quite literally plucked out of the pool like a flower off a hedge. Rough hands dragging him out of the pool and away from the other laughing children. Soaking wet, shivering, and only one shoe on.
Secluded from public view the male teacher pushes them to the wall angrily, scraping hanks elbows. He throws a towel roughly at Hank. “What the fuck did I tell you?” The grip he has on Hank's skinny wrist is concerning. Painful.
“I’m sorry dad. I just thought since we were at the pool I could swim.”
Dad. Well-fuck off.
“Don’t use that tone with me, Henry.” Pietro doesn’t like the way he says his name. Like he’s mocking him.
“I didn’t mean to have a tone, I'm sorry.”
“Don’t talk back.” He digs his nails into Hank's forearm, leaving moon shapes on his skin. Pietro thinks Hank might be having a visible meltdown. He feels his chest hurt and his heart thumping but he’s not moving, not even a little. He’s completely still. Like an immovable statue.
“God you’re so smart how can you be this fucking stupid. You can’t follow simple instructions?” His forearm is bleeding now, salty pool water soaking into it. Older Hank would be throwing a fit about bacteria and infections. But young Hank is completely silent in the presence of his dad.
“You don’t get to go to the pool. You aren’t like those kids. You aren’t a Normal kid.” Pietro doesn’t like this guy at all. In the back of his mind he tells himself that if he ever met Hank's dad he’d knock him right in the nose.
“I just wanted to swim.” Hank sounds so young when he says it. He’s seven years old. Younger than Wanda.
“I’m only going to repeat myself once Henry. You can be a normal kid or you can be better. You have an opportunity to be amazing, to go far and become something more important than any of those kids can be. But you must be perfect to achieve that. Do you understand? You can’t have any flaws. Intellectually or physically.” He looks down at his one bare foot. Hard on the physically. “Mistakes like this, they can end your career before it even begins.”
He’s fucking seven. Why the fuck is he talking about his career?
“You can’t be a charity case, that won’t get you far, not as far as I know you can go. Your deformity will only cause a hindrance. You will be othered by all your colleagues and you will be known as a freak instead of a genius. You will be known for your deformity and not your intelligence. Is that what you want?”
Hank is looking at the ground. No, not the ground. At his feet. Pietro's stomach turns and he feels dread as Hank looks at his own fathers feet. He’s wearing the same designed shoes as Hank. They look large, too big for a guy like him but Pietro can only guess. He can only jump to the conclusion that he got his mutation from his father. That he speaks from experience. That In his own fucked up way he’s trying to do right by Hank. He feels the crumbling of Hank's face, straining to keep it emotionless and Pietro doesn’t think his father is justified.
“No, I don’t want that.” Hank says hoarsely.
“Then go to the bathroom. Dry yourself up. And cover up your fucking feet.” Hank nods and his father lets go of his wrist finally and it’s all bruised and ugly looking but Hank doesn’t even hesitate to grab the towel from the ground and go to the door behind him connected to the public restroom that’s part of the pool.
The mirror on the wall next to the toilet is dirty and just a little bit cracked at the edges but no dim lighting can hide the face looking back at him.
Hank fucking McCoy. His face is chunkier, adorning baby fat, his posture small and fragile. His hair was wet and buzzed short. His face was pale, so pale that the faded bruise around his neck looked gaudy. The bruise looked like a large hand wrapped around his throat. Pietro has seen that handprint on his own skin before.
He felt cold. Hank looks down at his bleeding forearm and Pietro feels like he understands the blue man a little bit more.
“You are one of the strongest kids I know.” That’s what Hank told him while he sat in his lab getting his check up and Pietro wished he could tell little Hank the same thing. He wishes he could tell him that his father was wrong. That he became extraordinary, that he became better and kinder than most people and that his mutation didn’t hinder that but enhanced it. He wishes he could tell him that but he has no control over anything that happens, this is a memory. Something that’s already happened and he can’t change anything. He can only sit back and watch as it unfolds.
Although he has no idea why this is happening. Not a damn clue. But he’d like to leave now.
Hank opens the door and a blinding light hits him. When he opens his eyes again Pietro is in a colosseum surrounded by people. Hundreds of eyes on him. Gawking and oohing and aahing. Pietro feels his body lock up and anxiety rush through him as he’s pushed to the center of the stage dropping harshly to the ground on his blue hands. Blue hands he’d recognize anywhere.
Kurt rises from the ground and he pulls on his ragged shirt so it’s showing less skin. “Do your dance schlampe!” Slut. The word makes pietro want to recoil and Kurt actually does.
“Ich habe gutes Geld bezahlt!”
I paid good money.
“Stop crying demon!”
He’s not a demon.
“Show us your scars!” Over and over. Words blurred together, faces became one. Men women and children. All of them looking at Kurt like he’s meat in a market.
Kurt with shaking hands takes off his shirt. Then he takes off his pants. And then he takes off his underwear. Kurt stood naked and bare in front of ridiculing strangers. The audience laughed and gasped and Pietro feels the rush of shame hit him and he wants nothing but to be able to put Kurt’s clothes back on. To scream and yell at these evil people and to run as far away from here as possible with Kurt safely in his hands. Kurt whispers a prayer under his breath. Quiet and desperate.
Kurt begs in German, words wobbly and uncomfortable to hear. The older woman holding his life in his hands who watches him with a stone cold expression and a straight back only glares at his pleading. Pietro sees flashes of cameras, kids laughing and squealing at a naked Kurt. “The boss says you stole from him.” A Thick accent Pietro couldn’t pin point.
“I didn’t! It was my money.” Kurt isn’t the type to steal. Too good and kind.
“Stupid boy. Whatever is yours is his. You are his property. Your money is his money. Your body is his body. You need to make up for the money you used. One way or another.”
Pietro is starting to realize why Kurt never uses the money Charles gives him when they go out. Never buying anything for himself.
Kurt told him about how bad the circus was to him. He told him about the things they used to make him do. Kurt never went into detail though. He would get all small and his tail would tighten around himself and Pietro never forced him to say more. He knew what it was like to relive bad memories and he never wanted Kurt to feel like he had to tell him.
He told him pieces. Nothing this graphic. Pietro suspected something sexual but never something like this. It felt different experiencing it from his point of view. Feeling what he felt. Thinking what he thought.
He thinks this is it. He thinks this is all there is to life. Nothing beyond the circus, not for him.
The thought of Warm and kind Kurt thinking this was all he deserved, all he would get to have twisted something in Pietros gut.
Whenever he gets out of here he’s gonna hug Kurt. And he’s gonna hug Miss Margo for saving him.
“The bidding starts at 3,000 thousand dollars.”
Pietro feels the bile crawl up his throat and when he hunches over to vomit he isn’t surprised by the booing.
“Number two! Can I get a 3,500 thousand? Number seventeen! Can I get a 4,000 thousand? Number two! Very persistent. Can we get a 5,000 thousand? 5,000? Thirty two! Alrighty can we get 5,500 thousand? Once again lucky number two!”
It kept going. Tediously higher and higher until it reached five digits. Pietro could never concoct this nightmare scenario. He could never imagine being sold off like meat, like property. He feels angry but it was overshadowed by Kurt’s fear, shaking his body that’s still exposed to everyone’s eyes.
“65,000 thousand! Can I get 65,000 thousand on the night crawler? Going once? Going twi-“
“-100,000 thousand dollars! I’ll take him.” A women’s voice soared over each voice in the function. Confident even with the tinge of a forced accent in her voice.
Like she was trying to sound like English wasn’t her first language but it definitely was.
The auctioneer made an exaggerated face “oooh money bags over here! Can anyone top 100 grand?” Everyone’s faces looked perplexed and annoyed.
“Going once? Going twice? Sold to the pretty blonde American.” Clearly the auctionist clocked the fake accent as well.
In a whirlwind of motion Kurt is pushed and pulled and grabbed at in all directions and Pietro wasn't sure if he was the one freaking out or if it was Kurt.
They were taken to a room. They finally get to see who purchased nightcrawler. During the entire ordeal Kurt hadn’t lifted his eyes from the ground. Too scared and too stunned to even lift his gaze upon his potential owners.
Now he’s face to face with the women who won him at an auction for a 100,000 dollars.
Pietro recognized the face. He knew exactly who this was and that only confused him further. What the hell is Charles fucking sister doing buying Kurt at an auction?
He’s seen her picture in his room. Seen the blue version of her on the news. Her face plastered on posters and tshirt merchandise.
“All yours. You have four hours with him. We don’t provide protection, or toys, and any marks or damages left on him should be reported on before return.” The guard woman spoke as if she was renting out a car and not his best friend.
She hands Raven his chains and what seemed to be the keys and a remote. “If he gets mouthy this is the control for his collar.” Raven doesn’t take her eyes away from Kurt even for a second her face is completely blank. Emotionless and scary and Pietro feels the fear Kurt felt. He was preparing for the worst. She doesn’t even acknowledge the older lady who simply smirks at Kurt like she’s happy to be rid of him for the next couple hours.
Pietro memorizes everything about the circus lady. The limp in her step, the scar on her eyebrow, the exact shade of green her eyes are. He memorized the curve of her cheek bones and the crack in her teeth and exactly where the birthmark on her shoulder is. Pietro scans her and commits her to memory. When this is over. Pietro is going to find this lady and he’s going to hurt her.
The moment the lady is gone, door turning shut behind her Raven's entire face crumbles. She’s fumbling with the keys as she’s frantically unchaining Kurt from his shackles and he doesn’t move. He doesn’t speak. He’s frozen in his place. A soldier waiting for a command.
Pietro doesn't understand what’s going on and neither does Kurt.
Raven takes off her jacket and covers Kurt’s naked body with it. “Are you hurt?”
Kurt is numb as he shakes his head “I’m not damaged.” He says like he’s merchandise and Raven looks exactly like how Pietro feels.
Like she’s three seconds away from raising hell.
“I’m gonna get you out of here Kurt.” She scans the room around her, clearly searching for something.
Kurt stiffens “how do you know my name?” Kurt’s voice is slow and his accent is thick like he isn’t quite used to speaking English but also just isn’t used to speaking in general.
Raven blinks “I know a lot about you. I’m your-“ she swallows her face seemingly contorting into something uncomfortable “I was sent to help you. I was told about this particular circus sex trafficking mutants and freaks and was sent down here to bust it.”
“Bust it?”
“Yeah, do I look like I carry 100,000 dollars cash? In about ten minutes they’ll figure out I duped them and try to come and get you.” The door starts to wiggle and Kurt is feeling the sudden panic of being in danger all over again.
“How far can you teleport?”
“I don’t-“
“-this isn’t time to be coy Kurt. I know you can teleport. How far can you go? How does it work?”
“As far as I can see. Or if I’ve been there before.” Raven grabs Kurt’s hand, firmly but not harshly. “Take us out of here.”
Kurt uses his powers and suddenly the atoms around them shift and change and he's staring at a large pool.
A boy is struggling to swim, screaming for help. There’s other kids around him, twelve or eleven. Laughing at the drowning boy.
He knows what this is. Bobby has told him about this day. It’s one of his worst days. The day Romeo was drowning, the day Bobby Drake got his powers.
Bobby was being help back by his friends.
Pietro was feeling whiplash jumping. From person to person like this. He needs a second to fucking process.
Bobby was cursing at his friends, yelling and screaming at them. “Let me help him! He can’t swim! Please!” Pietro didn’t know about this part.
Bobby always says he stood by and did nothing until the last second. That he eventually overcame his doubt and helped him but it looked like he was fighting his friends from the start. He was trying to save him but they wouldn't let him.
“Let him struggle for a bit more. I’m sure he can hold his breath for a really long time.”
Bobby was strong. But he wasn’t four boys a grade older than him strong.
“Must be why he’s such a good cocksucker.” Another boy taunts and Pietros blood boils. No, not his blood. Bobby’s blood. Bobby’s so angry and scared and he must be desperate because he jabs his fist at the older boy's groin and he collapses immediately. He fights off the other two boys. Literally pulling hair and biting. Using every dirty trick to get the fuck away from them and get to Romeo.
And Pietro gets the desperation of it because Romeo is literally begging. He’s crying and choking on water and breathless and he’s crying Bobby’s name like he’s the only person that will care to save him.
It was gut wrenching and horrifying and Bobby is fighting tooth and nail and He dives into the water. Romeo was already at the bottom of the pool by the time Bobby got into the freezing cold public pool.
Pietro can feel the adrenaline rushing through Bobby’s body, the anguish and fear and anger completely enveloping the boy's entire being. A volcanic emotional disaster.
The water got colder. Fast.
Bobby’s fingertips touched Romeos and he finally had him. Dragging him to the top through sheer will alone. Just when he gets to the top...thin ice blocks his way out.
Pietro feels the horror crush his body. He knew that Bobby’s powers manifested here. He just hadn’t realized it was while he was still inside the pool. Slowly drowning beside his friend.
Bobby screams, air bubbles reaching for the thinnest part of the ice, desperate for the surface. He punches that exact part. His fist sting.
He punches again. More pain shooting up his arm. He punches over and over again until the ice cracks and the pool is stained red with blood. His knuckles cracking open with torn skin.
He lifts Romeo above water and the water around Bobby becomes more solid while he’s still inside. He can’t move his legs or his hands or his head. He can’t move at all.
He’s stuck and he’s cold. Bobby passes out in a block of ice that used to be the pool thinking that Romeo died.
When Pietro opens his eyes he’s in a car seat in the back seat of a family car. His parents-no not his parent- sat in the front singing joyfully to the children’s song playing on the car. Big smiles and loud unapologetic laughter.
Whoever he was now was young, legs swinging under his car seat and clutching a stuffed red dragon. Simple thoughts ruling his head. He was happy. Which was a drastic change from the horror show Pietro has endured so far.
What the hell has even been going on? How the hell is any of this happening? The last thing he remembers is Wanda screaming. She was surrounded, Pietro thinks. By monsters. He thinks.
He can’t seem to focus on it for too long. The body he's inhabiting, the memory he’s experiencing, is shifting. The snow outside was pretty to look at and his eyes stayed glued to the snowflakes sticking to the car window.
“I love you.” His mom says adoringly. No-not his mom. “I love you too, babe.” His dad says. No- Not his dad.
Pietro whines and his parents turn to look at him with matching smiles “don’t be fussy we love you too Franklin.”
Franklin.
Frankie.
Frankie has his moms face and his dads hair color. Pietro doesn’t know what to do with that information. He doesn’t have much time with that information before the car is suddenly turning over and he hears screaming. Pietros head is pounding, his head hits the roof, his car seat must not have been fully strapped in.
Frankie is crying. Even worse he’s stuck in his car seat facing his father. The man died with his eyes wide open, staring right at Frankie with dead eyes and a bloody face covered in glass.
He stayed like that for a long time. It was cut to a few minutes but Pietro knows that he must’ve been there, looking at his dead father for hours.
Then the world turns and he thinks the car is crashing again. But he’s in a hospital room. He can’t feel his legs and the hospital gown is too big for him. He’s too small, too tiny.
“Mama?” Frankie looks over at his mom who is beside his hospital bed leaning over him with a drained face. “I’m here Frankie. Its gonna be okay.”
She has multiple stitches on her face and a cast on her leg and on her arm. She looked three way to hell but she was alive.
“I can’t feel my legs mama.” Frankie sniffles and Pietro can feel him try to move them. He can feel him try so damn hard.
“It’s okay.”
Frankie shakes his head. “Mama I can’t move them.” Is she not getting this?
Pietro doesn’t understand why she looks so calm. Why does she keep looking at Frankie like he’s an art painting she’s trying to decipher.
“It’s gonna be okay.”
“Dads dead.”
Her face darkens “I know. He loved you so much.” She fluffs Frankie’s pillow.
“Mama?” She’s tugging on his pillow.
“We’ll be with him soon. You won’t have to miss him for very long. It’s gonna be okay.” She has his pillow and Pietro realizes whats going to happen before Frankie does.
His mother shoves the pillow in front of his face and Frankie struggles. Scared and confused, Pietro suddenly realizes why Frankie doesn’t sleep with pillows.
He had noticed how the pillows in his dorm were always lined against the wall furthest from his bed every morning when he went to wake up the kids for class. He hadn’t thought much of it. He just thought it was Frankie being his usually weird self.
Frankie is seeing black spots. His mother is suffocating him and-and-suddenly the pillow is away from his face and a concerned nurse is hovering above him putting an oxygen mask on his mouth.
His mom was tackled to the ground but she was kicking and screaming before they put a needle in her neck. Frankie watched all of it.
“You’re okay now kid,” the nurse says as he breathes into the oxygen mask and Pietro knows that Frankie doesn’t believe her.
Frankie can’t be more than four here. Pietro didn’t know how Frankie lost his legs. He didn’t know what happened to make him go into the foster system and eventually end up with Miss Margo. He didn’t know any of this and he kinda wishes he hadn’t.
This is private. All of these memories have been bad. Given to him without permission. It feels vile to simply sit back and watch them unfold.
Pietro doesn’t catch a break. The room around him stirs and shifts and it goes quick.
Memories fly past his head, too quick to process any of them only catching glimpses of pain and suffering.
A starving child selling their body for a warm place to sleep for the night.
Quick quick.
Two siblings trapped underneath a collapsed house, scared to move.
Quick quick.
A Drunk father tortures their wife and forces their son to contribute.
Quick quick.
A mother selling their youngest daughter to human traffickers.
Quick quick.
Broken glass and heavy fists.
Quick quick
Screaming, crying.
Quick quick
Hundreds of horrible memories come at Pietro, too quick for even his fast brain to catch.
“Pietro.” He hears his sister's voice and he’s shrouded in darkness, the pain and suffering too overwhelming for him to see.
“Pietro Maximoff.” His sister sounds different in this place wherever this is but he knows his sisters voice.
He takes a blind step forward into darkness.
“I used to have a twin.” He can almost hear her clearly now. He reaches forward his fingers grasping something in the darkness.
He doesn’t hesitate to grab whatever it is. He pulls and he’s being propelled forward.
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Everything slows down again. Too slow. Almost stopping completely.
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He doesn’t know what’s going on or how he got here. One second he was suffering and the next he was in a picture perfect living room. Sitting between very soft cushions.
He looks up at a dark haired woman who watches him curiously.
“Who are you?” He asks, leaning away from the women.
She smiles, wide and malicious. “I’m Agatha.”
He doesn’t like that smile at all but he also doesn’t want to go back into whatever hellscape he was just in.
“I’m Ralph Bo-“ his ears begin to ring. Loud and obnoxious.
“Pietro listen to me!” A familiar voice echoes in his forcing him to stand from the couch abruptly.
“You know you look a little bit like the silver haired speedster who died.” Agatha smirks her fingers turning purple, her aura reaching for him.
“Pietro don’t listen to her. You need to come home now.”
Ralph shakes his head tripping over himself trying to get away from Agatha's weird smoke tentacles.
“I don’t think I’m supposed to be here.” He says to her and she only nods in agreement.
“I can’t do all the work I need you to run.” The voice says loudly.
Ralph doesn’t really understand it but he knows he can trust this voice. He’s in danger and he needs to leave. Like right now.
“Run, Pietro, run!” Ralph runs out the door and he gets chewed up and spit out again.
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Pietro wakes up screaming in the Mansion. A million sufferings crammed in his head.
“It’s okay, it’s alright, love, I got you.” Charles' voice interrupts his panic, his gentle hand touching his forehead.
“Just breathe with me, Wanda.” Charles says inhaling deeply in practice.
Right, okay. So he’s Wanda again.
Wanda’s brain is loud and frantic but she manages to focus on Charles' voice and follows his directions.
Wanda breaths in. She breathes out. Pietro follows the same movements in Charles. Inhale, exhale. Over and over for ages. Until Wanda is calm and loosening her grip on Charles' hand.
“Are we feeling a bit better?” Charles says kindly to Wanda placing a stuffed bear beside her that must’ve fallen on the floor in her panic.
“A little.” Wanda shutters and Charles looks conflicted “would you like me to get Peter?”
Pietro can feel Wanda shake her head and tries not to be hurt by that. “I don’t want you to wake him up.”
Pietro would’ve gladly lost sleep if it helped Wanda. He wonders if she knows that.
“Okay.” Charles nods slowly and eventually pulls his hand away from Wanda “If you need me I’ll just be in the room down the-“
“Don’t go.” Wanda’s voice wobbles grabbing the professors sleeve before he can go too far. “Can you stay here Professor?” She quickly adds a “Please?”
Charles' face crumbles a bit and Pietro realizes that Wanda has the professor wrapped around her finger if one simple please is willing to change his mind.
“Okay. I’ll be right here Wanda. Don’t you worry. Just go to sleep.”
“You promise you won’t go anywhere?”
“I promise I won’t move.”
Charles' drunken words repeat suddenly in Pietros mind.
I’m not her fucking dad.
But he acts like he is. The trust that Wanda has in Charles to protect her while she sleeps, to be there when she has nightmares is clear as day.
Wanda closes her eyes and Pietro opens them and he’s back at school standing up.
That memory wasn’t bad. It was actually kinda nice.
“Its a happy memory.” Wanda says right beside him and Pietro jumps in alarm.
“Wanda? What the hell was that?” He looks at his sister who is currently wearing her old school uniform and carrying her Mickey Mouse book bag, hair in pigtails.
“You were in a different house. Not mine. I had to think of a strong memory to pull you back in. Charles says that positive memories are just as powerful as negative ones.”
“What?” Pietro hasn’t caught up, his brain fuzzy and cramped. He looks at his sister and it’s all off and strange.
“You broke into my house when you tried to wake me up. You were inside but then You went to someone else’s house. In a neighborhood not from here.”
“I’m in your head?”
“No, not anymore. We are in yours now. I think.” Wanda frowned “i've never been able to see it with the lights on before. Must’ve gone through some remodeling. It used to be our house.”
Pietro looks around the mansion seeing furniture that doesn’t belong and pictures on the walls that don’t match any of what they have in the school. Low volume Rock music playing in the distance.
“We’re in my head?” He repeats.
“Yeah.”
“Why does it look like The School?”
“Our houses take the image of where we’re most comfortable.” Wanda says easily.
Pietro refuses to acknowledge that the room they are currently in is where the professor's office usually is. He’s not gonna think about Charles right now when he’s still mad at him.
“Why are we in my head?”
“I had to push you out of mine. But I got all turned around and we ended up in yours.”
“Right. So the nightmare fueled memories where all yours? How did that work?” He’s trying to joke about it but he’s definitely traumatized. There’s only so much a non-telepath can see before losing it.
Wanda looks a bit sad “when I sleep I can’t control my powers all that well and my mind wanders. Sometimes I end up peeking through everyone’s windows.”
“Every night?” Pietro can’t fathom the idea that Wanda has been experiencing that for months.
Wanda shakes her head “just some nights. Charles is usually here to help me but he must’ve not come back home yet.”
Pietro swallows thickly. If he hadn’t been so upset when he went to pick up Charles the telepath would’ve already been home and could’ve helped Wanda. But he pushed Hank to get him instead so now the only adults that could’ve helped her are MIA.
Great. Way to go Pietro Maximoff.
“He’ll be here soon.”-Ish. He doesn’t really understand how time works here. Has he been here for hours? Days? Seconds? He can’t use his superspeed not even if he tried. Everything was so weird in his head. “He won’t be able to help us. Jean either.”
“What? Why not?”
“We’re in your head remember? Telepaths can’t penetrate your mind. It goes too quick.”
“But you’re here.”
“I don’t know. It’s all pretty confusing. I just know we need to go through the doors. It’s the only way to get to the exit.” Wanda grabs his hand gently. Pietro is a little scared to see what's behind that door. It has four locks and a Do Not Enter sign duct taped on it.
“Pie?” Her fingers twists around Pietro and he looks down at her somberly, just a bit scared “what’s behind that door?”
“I don’t know.”
“Must be important to be locked away like that.”
“Must be bad.”
“Maybe. Or it might be a happy memory.” Pietro sincerely doubts that.
“Do we really gotta go through it?”
“Yeah. But we can go through it together. It will be less scary. It usually is when Charles is with me.” Pietro really wishes Wanda would stop mentioning Charles when he’s so pissed off at him.
“Okay. Together.” He tightens his grip on her, afraid to let her go. Afraid he’ll be alone when he goes through the door.
He unlocks the first lock. Then The second. Then the third. The walls shook and the picture frames twisted in warning. Pietro lets out a shaky breath and he unlocks the fourth lock and before he could change his mind…he opens the door.
A bright light takes them both.
Notes:
I’m having too much fun with all these Wanda Vision references. Sorry for any typos.
Chapter 14: Got a secret. Can you keep it.
Summary:
What’s on your mind?” Wanda twists her head curiously at him.
“You could just read my mind.”
“I’d rather you just tell me.” His thoughts are cloudy and gray and his door is open but the screen is in front of it.
“I’ve been having bad dreams.”
Wanda knows that. She has his bad dreams too. She has everyone’s bad dreams. Collecting them like cursed objects. But this is different from what she’s already seen.
“I’m dead in my dreams.”
“You die?”
“No, I’m dead. But I’m moving, and talking and I’m older.”
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The last six months from the youngest Maximoff siblings point of view. Pranks going too far. Family secrets being hidden in dreams and a bit of Charles lore.
Notes:
I liked filling in the time from Wanda’s Point of view. I liked being able to build up Wanda and Charles relationship without Pietro being involved. I had to pump the breaks a bit cause the chapter was getting a bit long but it will be back to our normally scheduled program next chapter.
I hope this extra long chapter makes up for not updating for a month. :))
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Wanda Django Maximoff got off the yellow school bus fully dreading the walk home. Stuffed inside her book bag was a detention slip from her teacher Miss Dotty. Fourth grade was hard enough without the mean smelly Miss Dotty. The lousy teacher smells like dirty socks and always has something bad to say about Wanda and her friends. Frankie says he sees her stealing from the offerings at his church whenever she attends so Wanda knows she’s mean and a thief. Wanda also bit her hand when she tried to take away the food Wanda’s brother had made for her at lunch time. That was probably the bigger reason for the misconduct detention letter and not Wanda calling her a big ugly thief.
Or maybe both things can be true at the same time.
But she deserves it. Miss Dotty doesn’t like Pietro for some reason. As a rule anyone that doesn’t like her brother she automatically thinks is a böse.
Her brother Pietro makes and packs her food for school and He walks her to the gate and the bus stop and he shows up to the parent teacher conferences instead of her mama and he goes to all her art shows and talent shows and miss dotty always has a ugly stank face when he’s around. She very pointedly told Wanda “a parent has to sign the detention slip, not your half-brother.”
Wanda doesn’t like it when people specify that Pietro is only her half-brother but she especially doesn’t like it when Miss Dotty says it because she makes it sound dirty and wrong and the last time she did Pietro was in earshot and started a fuss.
“Your mama must get around.” Miss Dotty had thrown out like bait in water and Wanda hadn’t known what she meant.
“Around where?” She looked up from her macaroni necklace, the one displayed in the art show. A bit tired from the long eventful day. Pietro Maximoff is beside Wanda so fast that he must’ve used his speed to get there “Excuse me? Whatcha say?”
Miss Dottys face goes an ugly red but she flares her nostrils and juts out her chin in defiance “I’ve heard some rumors is all. About your mother and her looseness.” Wanda looked between Pietro and Miss Dotty and knew that her brother was about to do something drastic- “one bastard child is bad enough but two bastard children is quite telling.”
“Bastard children? For fucks sake what are we in the 1800s? Why do you give a shit?” Pietro glares at her, his hands coiled securely around Wanda’s school bag, trying to hold himself back.
“You said bad words.” Wanda taps his elbow, he doesnt even look at her.
Miss dotty smiles “Ive heard about your activities as well, Mr. Maximoff. If that is the type of example Wanda has at home no wonder she is the way she is.”
“Youre out of fuckin’ line.” Pietro snaps.
“I’m just making sure Wanda isn’t living in a unstable household with a bunch of-” Pietro covered her ears and Wanda doesnt hear the rest. She sees angry faces but no noise. Pietro drags her away and they go home.
Pietro had been upset the entire rest of the day.
Now weeks later Miss Dotty has given Wanda a detention slip.
The letter burns a hole in Wanda’s book bag and when she gets home she sees cars parked in the front she assumes mama is having some of her synagogue friends over again. Once a month they meet up at each other house and gossip but theyve only come to the maximoff residence one other time. Wanda is a bit relieved, hoping her mama would be in a good mood after and won’t be too angry about the detention.
Wanda walks In quietly, tip toeing through the door as to not disturb her mamas friends.
Its gonna be okay. Maybe Pietro will let her play in his PAC MAN machine and he can fake their mamas signature somehow. She’s seen him do it before but Wanda thinks Miss Dotty may have caught on to the forgery. When she gets to the front door it was open though, which is bad because flies will get in the house and mama doesn’t like it when she has to swat them before cooking dinner. Wanda walks in, floorboards creaking and she sees her brother getting held down. They force her brother's head to the side and inject a needle into his neck like they do in scary movies to the monsters.
But it’s all wrong because Pietro isn’t a monster. What is going on?
“You little piece of shit. You deserve everything you’re getti-“
“What are you doing to Peter?” Wanda interrupts, eyes wide and horrified. Her brother is too fast, too clever to be caught so easily and she doesn't understand why he's standing still, why he's not moving away.
“Who the fuck-“
“Wanda, leave right now!” Pietro uses his big voice, the scary one he uses on David or Miss Dotty when hes really mad but his face looks nothing like how his face usually is when he uses that voice. He looks scared. His face looks all flipped around and upside down, like a wet marker drawing. Weird and droopy.
Wanda will not leave without getting some answers. “Who are you people? Why are you hurting Peter?” Wanda always asked the most questions in class. Miss dotty calls her a know-it-all but Mister Lewis calls her a genius.
“We’re just playing a game, don’t worry.” Wanda sees her mama in the kitchen on the ground and she sees blood and she sees guns and she sees a lot of angry and bad men in her house and she doesnt think this is a game. Pietros games are usually fun. They are always fun. This is not fun.
“Why are they hurting you?” Wanda’s voice is wobbly and she promised herself she wouldn't ever be a witness to Pietro getting hurt again. Not after her dad- after David.
She can't be quiet. She won't be quiet. Not ever again. She stands firmly in her place.
One of the men aims a gun at her head and Wanda’s eyes widen and Pietro thrashes, but he doesn't move like he usually does. He doesn't become sound and air. He's not fast like he alway is and Wanda doesn't understand why. Why is the moving?
“I don’t like this game.” Wanda’s face feels hot with tears but shes not a baby. She’s just overwhelmed and confused.
There’s a word for that. Wanda can’t remember what it is.
Either way it’s normal to cry.
No matter what Ryan from Social studies says. It's okay to cry. Pietro says it's okay to cry. Mama says it's okay to cry. Wanda knows it's okay to cry, especially with a gun to her head.
Especially with a gun to her head.
“Stop that! She’s got nothing to do with this!” Her brother winces and coughs and Wanda smells burnt flesh and the handcuffs around his hands look weird.
“Mutation is genetic. Right?” Wanda doesn't know what he's talking about.
“She’s not a mutant. She doesn’t have powers.”
Powers? Like the man on the TV? Wanda isn't like him. Pietro isn't like him either. He can't move things without touching them. He can only move fast.
These people are so dumb.
“Can’t really take that chance, can we?”
“She’s not my sister.” wanda holds back the retort she's about to say because while she's usually offended when other people don't think they are related this is a very serious situation and Pietro sounds scared. “She’s not a mutant. She’s just my neighbor's kid. I tutor her sometimes after school.” Pietro pushed the words out and the men looked contemplative.
Thats a new word she learned this week.
Contemplative.
An adjective.
Thinking thoughtfully.
“Even so. Can’t have any witnesses.” the bad man was done thinking thoughtfully.
“Should've just done homework at home.” Another ugly man aims a gun straight at her.
Pietro looks scared so Wanda gets scared too. She doesnt like guns. She doesnt like them at all. But usually she’d be gone. Pietro would usually save her. He’s faster than Bullets but he’s not moving. He hasn’t been moving fast at all. Allowing fists and punches to hit him without dodging. Without running.
“Guns are only used for hurting or controlling.” is what Mama always says and Wanda is becoming aware of which version is being used on her.
Pietro jerks and screams and Wanda knows it's okay to cry but she doesn’t want to die. Are they going to kill her brother too? Or will the Guns be used to control him.
She doesn't want her brother to die. She doesn't want to die either. She never got her mom to sign the detention slip.
“Please, please, don't do this!” is the last thing Wanda hears before she hears the gunshot. Loud and cutting the air.
Boom.
Wanda has never heard a gunshot before. She thought it would be quieter, she didn’t know her ears would ring this loudly. Wanda's heart barely skips a beat and the bullet reaches her and stays right between her eyebrows. Her stomach burns. Hot and hot and hot like a warm drink slowly being dumped all over her.
Everything is so loud. The birds, the trees, the air, the static on the tv, her brother's harsh breathing. She can feel it all, enhanced and modified to her eyes and ears. It's so loud and so overwhelming.
The world is still moving, just not the bullet. Plucked from time and dangled in front of her like a cookie.
A red glowing strand wrapped around the bullet that looks like a string.
holding it in place like yanking string.
She cant focus on it. Not really. Not when everything is getting so loud and so angry.
She hears voices. Big and small.
Too many to focus on. Too many in her head. Ugly and angry and scared and she can't- she screams. She was trying to hear something that belonged to her.
She lets out a blood-curdling scream that makes her throat hurt and makes everything in her body burn and freeze all at the same time. The voices get quieter and the windows shatter, the tv fries, the light bulbs blow up and a million pieces of glass fly everywhere. Wanda doesn't want Pietro to get hurt but she can't focus or think or even breathe without it hurting and she just wants all these people gone from her head, she wants them all to be quiet.
They are all quiet.
Mute.
Forever.
Wanda is surrounded by dead bodies. Her head no longer clouded with noise.
“Holy shit.'' Wanda isn't allowed to curse but she does anyway because...Holy shit.
She's falling to her knees and breathing harshly. The voices are all gone but now her house is broken. Covered in blood. Drowning in iron. Glass dug into her knees and palms and she has an ache in her back that makes her want to cry.
She hurt all these people?
She-no-she didn't mean it. She didn't wanna hurt anybody. Not really. She just wanted them to be quiet. To stop hurting her brother. To leave her family alone. Why does everyone always want to hurt her family?
But now she’s the one hurting. She hurt all these people.
“Wanda…Wanda.” She hears Pietro more than sees him. She can't see anything really past her tears, her vision spotty and shaky and when she does feel him trying to touch her she panics and pushes him away not wanting to hurt him.
She doesn’t want to hurt him. She doesn't want to be like David. Pietro wraps around her like a warm blanket. Different from the hotness she felt before. Better.
“It's okay.” He soothes, his serious voice gone and replaced with his nicer one. A sifter one.
“I killed them.” Wanda hiccups, her tears overwhelming her, consuming her entire face. She hears the voices coming back. From farther away. From around the neighborhood. Angry, confused, horrified. She pulls on her hair hating all the voices hammering inside her head.
“Hey, Stop that.” Pietro speaks softly, gently prying her fingers off her scalp and combing her hair with his fingers just like he’s done every time her head gets too loud. But usually it's too loud from her own voice. From her own thoughts. All her. Now it's everyone else's and she can't hear her own.
“You didn’t mean to.” Pietro begins swaying back and forth with her and she can feel his sadness. Small and far away.
“What's wrong with me?” Wanda asks desperately, avoiding looking at all the bodies on the ground.
“Nothing is wrong with you. You're just special. Like me.” Pietro is special. He's very fast and not everyone's big brother is fast like her big brother.
“But I’m not fast.” Wanda doesn't understand the comparison at all.
“No, you're something completely different.” He kisses her head and she doesnt want to be fast or different, or anything. She just wanted it to be quite and now it is. But now shes different and that doesnt seem fair at all.
“I don't want to be fast, or special. I don't want to be like you.” She liked how she was before.
“I know. I'm so sorry.” Pietro squeezes her closer to his chest. “What do we do now?” She can feel people coming. She can hear the siren before she can hear them
Pietro says “we go somewhere safe.”
And they do. Wandas brother knows a lot of weird people in weird places.
Mr Hank is very nice. He is very tall and kinda looks like her old third grade teacher Mr. Lewis who liked to clap his hands a lot and sing when he taught. Mr Hank doesn't sing but he does have cool glasses and nice organized thoughts.
“How’d this happen?” Hank asks after he has to take out tweezers to pluck out a particularly deep piece of glass off her calf. It hurts a lot but Wanda doesn't cry. She’s done enough crying for today.
“I fell.” Wanda repeats Pietro's lie back to him. “Playing at school.”
You're like me? The girl upstairs asks.
Yeah, I think so.
Mr Hank doesn't look convinced. “I was pushed. I got angry so I pushed them back.” Wanda says and Hank grabs the disinfectant spray off the first aid kit.
“I’m sure they deserved it.” He wipes her cut and it doesn't hurt. It usually hurts when the nurse does it. Hank is like a magician.
“They did. They’re bullies. Mom says bullies are just weak men trying to bring everyone to their level. They need to be put in their place before they think everyone is small and they can rule the world like fascist dictatorship.” Hank wraps up her knees with thick bandages.
“Sounds scary,” Hank says and Wanda nods in agreement because it was.
“They were hurting Peter.”
Is peter your brother? Jean asks suddenly.
Yeah hes the best.
I can’t hear his thoughts.
Hank looks up at Pietro “they hurt Peter?”
Hanks thoughts are more organized. Calm. Wanda likes Hank's thoughts. Hank wants to help her brother. He is a good doctor. Very good.
“I hurt them back,” Wanda tells him and Hank's lips form a straight line as he folds through those words. His skin was turning a weird color. Kinda blue.
His thoughts turn twisty and loud.
Oh no. hes angry. Maybe wanda shouldn't have said that.
“It was an accident.” Pietro defends quickly before Wanda could say anything. “They were going to-“ kill him. “They were being really rough. Wanda didn’t know how to control herself.”
Are you okay? A new voice says in her head. British.
Yeah, Mr. Hank fixed me up.
Very good dear. I'll be right down. Wanda has only heard a British voice on the radio. It's a very silly accent and it makes Wanda want to copy it but she doesn't want to be rude.
That was the professor. Jean tells her.
Pietro is still talking, still explaining, but Wanda only hears a little bit outside of her own head “-our mother would freak out if she saw us both banged up like this.”
Oh. They left mama.
I hope she won't be too upset about the blood stains on her carpet, it’ll match the dark spot on the kitchen floor.
“You’re more than welcome to stay as long as you’d like.” She hears the British man and he is in a wheelchair like Frankie, only bigger and gray. Kinda boring looking. It doesn't have the yellow stone like Frankies does.
The British man, the professor, had long hair and blue eyes and he looked like a British man. He is the most British looking man she has ever seen. Except she has never seen a British man so she has no example but if she did…. He is it.
British man. How funny.
“Fuck, man. Did that happen at the White House?” Was the professor not british before? Was he keeping it a secret this whole time? Why was he at the White House? Does the white house not like British people?
I’m not actually british. Im american. I got my accent from my mother, who was british. The professor clarifies.
This was not amusing to Wanda. She was blind sighted. Her prime example of a British man is now eradicated.
That's a big word. Not-british man says.
It means to destroy completely or put an end to. Wanda recites proudly.
Very good. He says and Wanda smiles to herself. Only Pietro compliments her when she gets her vocab words right.
“Holy shit.” pietro repeats.
Hank doesnt think the professor should be away from Jean.
In case I blow up again. Jean tells her.
“Jean is settling in just fine. She’s already made a friend.” Charles smiles at Wanda. “She’s on the third floor, second door to the left.”
Wanda smiles widely, her teeth showing “Thank you professor.” and Wanda darts up the stairs excitedly taking two steps at a time.
Jean was very cool, and her hair was pretty.. She talked a lot too. In her head.
“Your dad seems like a shit face.”
Jean starles a laugh out loud.
You said a bad word.
So? It's the truth. David was a shit face too. He's not around anymore.
Jean laughs and they talk for a good while in their heads.
Pietro is usually really good at making food but he burnt the pizza. He inhaled some of the smoke.
“Peter, are you okay?’ Charles is by his side in an instant closing the oven door and turning it off completely Hank runs out to get a fire extinguisher from the closet. Wanda mourns the pizza.
“Yes, I'm cool. I’m fine, just a bit of smoke in the lungs, nothing crazy, nothing dangerous.”
“My science teacher actually said that inhaling smoke is actually super bad for the lungs.” Wanda paid attention during that lesson.
Charles pats Pietro's back, looking panicked. “She's right, maybe you should sit down and drink some water, my boy.”
Hank orders pizza and they eat it relatively quickly, hurtling boxes into recycling bins and washing dirty dishes.
Wanda usually has a little stool to stand on when she does dishes so she can reach the sink. She is still too short to comfortably maneuver around the sink.
So instead she helps drying the dishes.
“Professor Charles how come you live in a house so big?”
“It was my parents' home it was given to me in their will.” Charles puts down the book he is reading on the porch.
“They died?” Wanda feels bad for asking. She knows she’s not supposed to ask if people’s parents are dead.
“A long time ago. We weren’t very close.” Charles doesn’t sound convincing not even to Wanda. He sounds melancholy.
Melancholy.
That’s another vocab word.
She’s been Killing it with those all day.
Wanda always feels better when Pietro hugs her. He’s like a furnace with arms. Wanda kinda hopes she’s a furnace too only because Charles looks kinda sad. Wanda hugs the professor, placing her head on his shoulder. It was more like she was draped over him with the wheelchair in the way and since he was so much bigger than her she looked like a little monkey on top of a tree.
Nonetheless Wanda considers it a win when the professor placed a gentle hand on her back. Patting it awkwardly.
Like he’s not sure how hugs work.
“I’m sorry for asking Professor. That wasn’t very nice.” Wanda knows never to ask adults about their parents. She learned that from her mama who never liked to talk about Opa and Oma. It made her sad. Pietro told Wanda when she was young that they died way before she was born. Before he was born too. That they were taken from mama too soon by bad people and that’s why mama doesn’t like to talk about them.
“It’s quite alright, genuinely.” Charles' voice is choppy and he’s patting her hair like she was a doggie at the park.
Wanda pulls away, giving him a toothy smile, feeling very calm and comfortable around the man. “So you got this big ole house all to yourself.”
“Not all too myself. I shared it with my sister…for a time. Before she left.”
“You have a sister?” Wanda’s always wanted a sister. She knows that she had one. Before Pietro, there was Anya.
“Yeah, I do.”
“Is she pretty?” Wanda tries to imagine someone resembling Charles.
“The prettiest.” Charles smiles. “She was actually around your age when she snuck into my family's homes to steal food. I had never met anyone like her before but I knew that she would always have a place here.”
“Is that why you made this place into a school?” Wanda wouldn’t know what to do with a big house like this. If she could she would share it with her brother. “For your sister?”
“Yeah, and for kids just like you.”
“Like me?”
“Mutants.”
“What’s a mutant?”
The professor seemed to falter “your brother never…well…I guess the simple answer is that some people are born with a mutation. Sometimes these mutations result in extraordinary gifts and abilities. Reading minds, or bending metal, or shifting form or running fast.”
“Like my brother!” Wanda realizes, excited to have a good example. Nobody runs as fast as her brother. He used to run slow when he was racing at school but now he doesn’t do that anymore.
“Exactly. Everyone here has something truly special and one day this place is gonna be filled with a lot of mutant kids and they're gonna grow up and they're gonna use those abilities to change the world.”
“That’s a lot of pressure. What if they don’t wanna change the world?” Her mama always said it was good to ask lots of questions. Miss Dotty always hated her constant chatter. It was nice to know that Charles wasn’t getting annoyed with her flow of questions.
“Id be happy with them simply being apart of the world.” Charles says with a kind expression.
Apart of the world. “That sounds nice.” And then another question popped into her mind “What is Hanks mutant?”
“Mutation.” Charles corrects.
“Mutation.” Wanda repeats with his accent feeling silly for doing it but egged on by the amused expression on The Professors face.
“Simply put, he is extraordinarily smart.”
“Me too! I have 96 in math and 88 in history. I’m second highest in my grade level.” Her report card will probably get mailed to the house next month. She wonders if mama will be able to see the good she’s been doing in her classes.
Charles smiles, looking very impressed. Good. He should be. “That’s very good Wanda. You are an incredible student.”
Wanda glows in the praise. She would’ve liked her mama's praise instead but Charles will have to do for now.
“Not too good though.” Wanda says remembering the detention slip still in her bag.
“What do you mean?” The professor adjs curiously and all his attention is on her, fully and thoroughly and Wanda is a bit nervous.
“Well…” Wanda huffs avoiding the older man’s gaze “I did get a detention.” Wanda isn’t sure why she caved so easily. Charles' face doesn’t change, he doesn’t pull a dissatisfied look like mama does when Wanda does something bad. Maybe that’s why she keeps talking,
“I never got my mama to sign the slip and it’s gonna be on my permanent record now.”
“A detention slip? Whatever for?”
Wanda feels embarrassed about it now. A bit shameful. Is Charles gonna think that Wanda’s a violent kid? That she just hurts everyone when she’s upset?
“I don’t wanna tell you.”
She’s pouting a little bit, but it’s alright she’s feeling a bit sad.
“That’s alright. But I am gonna have to see it.”
“Why?” Wanda exclaims maybe a bit too loudly.
Charles chuckles at her like she cracked a joke. She did not. “I’ll have to sign it. I can fax it to your school and get your transcripts sent to me.”
“Only a parent can sign it. Miss Dotty was very strict about it.”
“How exactly will this Miss Dotty know if I was or wasn’t your parent?”
“Miss Dotty-“ Wanda falters. Miss dotty has never met David. She doesn’t know how he looks or what he sounds like. She doesn’t know his name or what his signature is. “-oh. Well I guess you’re right. Okay. You can be my dad.”
Without a thought Wanda goes to the living room where she left her book bag to go get her detention slip. If she had waited even a second or had looked at Charles when she had thrown the flippant statement out she would’ve seen the exact moment his brain stopped working.
When Wanda came back to where Charles was, paper in hand, his face had been a bit pale but otherwise she hadn’t detected a difference in the not-British man.
Charles signs the paper “you bit her?”
Wanda’s face goes a bit red. She had forgotten miss dotty had written it down on the slip. Along with wildly false accusations.
“Yeah, it was only her hand though.” Charles frowns and Wanda is quick to plead her case “I won’t do it again. I promise.”
“You’ll never see her again so I’m sure that promise won’t be hard to keep, dear.” Charles signs the paper with an expensive looking pen.
“I’m not a bad person.” Wanda knows bad people. David was bad. Sometimes mama was bad too. She doesn’t want to be anything like him. She doesn’t really wanna be like mama either.
“I know you aren’t.” Charles says “I could never confuse you for anything other than good.”
Wanda smiles big and proud. She likes Charles a lot.
The following days Charles and Pietro had been playing a game in his office. With horsies and knights. Charles tried to explain the rules to Wanda but she quickly got bored and played with Jean instead. Jean and Wanda invaded the second pantry. Conquering the snacks and subduing them in the big lumpy couch. Jean ate too much candy and got a stomach ache. Wanda wishes Frankie was here. She misses him a lot.
Wanda doesn’t talk a lot. But she thinks a bunch which is super helpful, she’s older then Wanda. Already twelve and She has pretty hair and
She has nightmares. Wanda’s always had them. Messy thoughts turning into messy dreams. Bad bad things Wanda never wanted to think about. She doesn’t like it when it’s bedtime. It’s only gotten worse since she’s gotten her abilities.
Night time is the worst.
That’s when everyone has the least control over their mind. Nighttime is when she sees Hank being hit with a belt by his disappointed father. Nighttime is when she sees Jean cutting her arms and watching herself bleed. Nighttime is when she hearts thunder strikes and earthquakes that shatter minds. Nighttime is when all the bad things happen.
The first week after Pietro and Wanda arrived at the Mansion she had Pietro to soothe her dreams. His calm quiet overlapped her like a blanket. It was perfect.
Then Wanda had the bright idea to bunk with Jean. Who had the same fate as her when it came to nightmares.
“It’s alright Wanda. I’m here.” Charles' voice pulled her out of her head, coaxing her to stop diving farther into despair.
“Let me inside your mind.”
And Wanda did. She doesn’t know how she did but the very moment Charles' presence was in the nightmare she was pulled into a quiet place. It felt strangely familiar yet completely new.
“Charles?” Wanda felt the professor close by but couldn't see him. “Behind you.”
Charles was walking. He was taller than Wanda expected. Taller than David.
“Charles!” Wanda is beside him grasping his hand in comfort, feeling the floor move and shift below her feet. “Where are we proffesor?”
“We are nowhere and everywhere in your mind. An empty room. When you feel scared you can go in here and you can think of something happy.”
“Something happy?”
“Yes. Anything at all. Trust me. Can you do it?”
“I think so.”
The room shifts and swirls and she’s back home. Her real home. The dining table isn’t long and everlasting like the one at the mansion it’s small and quaint and made of recycled wood that has about seven cuts and dents on it from over the years. She’s sitting on the table with her mother in front of her with a big smile. Wanda was pouting. Her bike helmet beside her.
“You did so good Wanda.” Her mother looked tired but her smile was big.
“I fell.” Wanda sniffles, small and pouty.
“But you got right back up and tried again.” Her mai amends massaging Wanda’s hair calmly.
“And I fell again. And my tooth is gone!” Wanda shows off her missing front tooth. Her mother pouts dramatically, playing up her sympathy “oh Yeah? Good job. Now you have one less cavity.”
“I don’t have cavities!”
“Your breath would say otherwise.”
“My breath doesn't stink!”
“Sure does. A real stinky face.”
Wanda giggles and screams as Magda Maximoff makes kissy faces at Wanda tickling her and purposely making her giggle and hiss at her mother.
The room looks different. Brighter but blurrier then she remembers. The memory only focusing on her mom and her and not the messy dishes or creaky floorboards or the bruises on her mothers arms.
The memory was happy from far away but the more she focuses the more bad she sees. The broken picture frame, the empty fridge and the bruise around her mothers wrist in the shape of a hand print. Wanda had been blind to it before. Oblivious to the bad stuff. Forgetting it and fixing it in her mind.
Charles squeezes Wanda’s hand looking thoughtfully at the scene. “Sometimes our mind blocks things to protect us, it’s okay if you can’t remember. Think of a different memory, an easier one. Happier.”
Wanda focuses and tightens her hand on charles hand. She scrunches her eyes shut and when she opens them again shes at the same kitchen with the same dented dining table but Pietro is in front of her this time, stirring a mug of hot coco, hair pulled back with some hair clips that belonged to her.
“Pie!” wanda is small and has to stand on a stepping stool to reach the table. Pietro makes a face and sprays whipping cream on the two matching mugs and gives Wanda a wide eyed look “open up?”
Wanda opens her mouth wide and Pietro sprays on unholy amount of whipping cream in her mouth.
“Pietro Django Maximoff, you did NOT just do that.” their mother said from the living room looking properly scolding. Pietro gasps dramatically “oh, oh! Mamas mad. Gotta run.”
“Run!” Wanda wraps her arms around pietro and the memory blurs into superspeed. They end up on the roof giggling to themselves and Pietro hands her a mug of hot chocolate, hand firmly keeping her in place so she doesn’t fall off the roof. Wanda tries to look at Pietro more. To focus on his face or focus on what he’s wearing but isn’t able to move away from what she did before.
“Pie?”
“Yeah?”
“I love you.” Wanda smiles, warm and adoring and Pietro looks at her fondly messing up the tangle of curls on her head. “Oh yeah? Guess I love you too.” Pietro takes a sip of his hot coco and whip cream ends up on his nose and it make Wanda giggle loudly.
Wanda is pulled from her sleep and is relieved to see Charles still beside her, holding her hand.
“You’re here.” Wanda shouldn’t be surprised. He’s always there. Always quick to her aid.
Wanda has more nightmares. Charles is always there to help her. A calm voice and kind gesture, ready to heal her mind.
Somehow, someway, in his odd way Frankie Wagner finds her. Wanda couldn’t be happier. She meets Kurt for the first time. Frankie has talked about his foster brother constantly since he’s arrived and he missed to mention that his brother was blue. Which seems important. But I guess not to Frankie.
“How's school been without me?” She asks Frankie innocently.
Wanda wants him to say it’s been horrible. That he missed her and that it’s not the same without her there. That everyone misses her and that Miss Dotty was fired and is crying herself to sleep. That would be ideal.
“I’ve missed you so much.” Frankie looks close to tears and Wanda understands the sentiment. She missed him too. “You can’t go away again okay?”
“If I did you’d just follow me.”
“Yeah, I would.” Frankie’s mind is always open. He was always vocal about his love for Wanda. But now she knows he means it. His mind is open and even if she wasn’t actively trying to read his mind she can hear him loud and clear. David had always said I love you to her mom. Easy. Like a habit instead of a feeling and Wanda wonders if she had her abilities back then if she would be able to tell if he meant the I Love You or if it was simply something he said so Magda would say it back.
Wanda Maximoff has only ever said I love you to three people and one of them ended up being a horrible person so the telepath is a bit weary but with Frankie there is no question. No doubt in his mind.
I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her I love her
Constantly chanting in his head when he’s around Wanda. Wanda had never said those words back to him.
Then on a whim “I love you too, you know.”
Frankie looks at her in surprise. “What?” Barely looking like he’s breathing. Wanda is kinda surprised too. She didn’t think she could say it so easily. But it’s Frankie. Everything with Frankie is easy.
“I love you too.” Wanda says confidently, straightening her back and looking Frankie in the eye.
Wanda never lied when it came to saying I love you. Once that honor has been given it would be hard for it to be taken away. She wasn’t sure before but now she knows.
“You mean it?” Frankie looked completely thrown off.
“Yes, of course. You make everything better.” When she had a cast in her arm for a month and couldn’t play during recess he sat beside her in his wheelchair. He gave her his secret stash of candy and they went through the whole bag together cracking jokes and stories in the sun. Wanda barely realized she was missing out on four square, too busy trying to one up Frankie in her elaborate story. It was the day they met and ever since then Wanda stood beside him. Even after her cast came off she would drag him to go play with the rest of the class. Forcing a game of basketball or simply running at full speed with his wheelchair into a herd of gossiping classmates. He was her best friend. Her favorite person in the whole world.
“I love you too.” He replies shyly. “You are my favorite person in the whole world.” He says and Wanda wonders if he could read her mind too.
She smiles, “I know.” And she kisses his cheek and he looks like he’s about to explode. “But I’m not ready for a boyfriend yet.”
“It’s okay.” Frankie says with ease “My love is everlasting. I can wait. I’m gonna marry you one day.” Which only makes Wanda laugh. Marriage is for old people.
“Don’t laugh! I’m serious!”
“We’re too young to get married, silly.” They are only nine years old.
“Yeah but we can get married later. Like when we’re big. Big like your brother.”
Wanda thinks about that for maybe a second “okay. That sounds nice. You’ll have to get my brother to like you though. He’s gonna be your brother in law.”
“Brother in law.” Frankie says in awe. “Brother in law.” He repeats. “Yeah I can do that.”
Wanda smiles “how about your dad? Shouldn’t I get him to like me too?”
Wanda’s smile falters “my dad?” She imagines a scary zombie creeping in through the window.
“The professor?” Frankie looks completely serious when he says “your dad. Shouldn’t I get his approval too?”
Oh. Okay.
Wanda understands now.
She looks in his head. Just a little peak into his memories. She sees what Frankie sees when she watches Charles and Wanda together. It’s nice. It makes sense.
Charles in Frankie’s mind is Wanda’s dad. They have similar powers. They look kinda alike if you squint. Charles takes care of Wanda and Wanda adores Charles. She Looks up to him. Like a dad. It makes sense in Frankie’s mind. It makes sense in Wanda’s mind too.Wanda settles on that information. Shifting it in her head. Folding it into her thoughts. It would’ve been easy to correct him. It would have been easier to tell Frankie that Charles isn’t actually her dad.
Except…Wanda Django Maximoff is a prankster at heart.
She adores a well executed prank. And all the pieces of a good miscommunication gag are on her lap. Ripe for the taking. Easily woven into a good laugh. A great prank.
She wonders how fast and how far the joke would go. “My dad already likes you.” Calling Charles her dad felt nice. It rolled off her tongue too easily. That should’ve made her a bit nervous.
It didn’t.
“He does?” Frankie was already too happy about it.
“Yeah. Of course. What’s not to love.” But Wanda knows that Charles calls Frankie “the boy” in his head when he refers to Frankie. It doesn’t sound endearing or fond. Quite the opposite actually but Frankie doesn’t need to know that.
A few days later Wanda recruited Dr. Hank McCoy to her well oiled prank.
“So I just gotta pretend that Charles is your dad in front of all the new recruits?”
“Yep.” Wanda was still getting used to Hanks blue fur, she keeps wanting to brush his hair but he already scolded her for braiding a tangle into his arm last week.
“Sounds like this will have absolutely no repercussions or emotional damage to any of the real life people involved.”
“So you in?”
“Definitely. I’m so in. But only if we somehow convince everyone that Peter is his dad too.”
It would be a bit harder but not really. It’s believable. Wanda and Pietro are siblings. It wouldn’t be too far-fetched to include him into the equation.
“Easy peasy.” It was not easy peasy.
She decided the more vague she was the better. Maybe Charles is her real dad. Maybe he’s her stepdad. Maybe he adopted her. She never clarifies. She never has to. Everyone jumps to their own conclusion. Everyone is very good at jumping to their own conclusions.
Everyone knew Pietro was her brother. No one assumes he’s her half brother so they assume they both have the same dad. Charles.
Then Bobby starts asking questions. The cold boy is very nosy.
Bobby Drake has a crush on her brother.
“You gotta keep that to yourself.” Jean tells her when she mentions it to her.
“Why?”
“It’s a secret.”
“A secret? How come?”
“Sometimes people don’t like when boys like boys.”
“People here?” Wanda frowns, getting a bit defensive even though she doesn’t particularly like Bobby.
“No. Not here. But Bobby doesn’t know that.”
So she keeps it to herself but it makes Bobby Drake extra curious about her brother.
“How come you didn't live with Charles before?” The cold boy asks curiously.
“Before what?” Pietro was only half listening, painting Wanda’s nails taking up majority of his brain capacity.
“Before he opened the school. How come you didn’t live with him before?”
“Why would I? He didn’t even know I existed.” Which sounds like Pietro is a long lost son. Wanda wonders if he does know about the joke or if he’s genuinely always that aloof with his responses.
But Pietro is not in on the joke so of course he spills on them having different dads. It’s troublesome at first but vagueness is the key. Pietro is unintentionally vague even in that response.
“Mama Margo isn’t my blood but it doesn’t mean she isn’t my mom.” Frankie explains easily, always having her back even unintentionally. The rest of the students follow quickly to that conclusion.
But again. She never clarified if Pietro is the one related to Charles or if she is. Or neither. Wanda loves the chaos of it all. She definitely likes the fact that her brother has no clue. It feels like she’s pulling one over on him. Wanda feels very adult and very cool having this big of a secret in her pocket. He keeps somehow almost finding out and then just…not.
It’s been months.
The joke is getting a bit out of hand and Wanda is certain Charles knows by this point.
The other kids go to her “can you ask your dad if we can have Ice cream after dinner?”
Or
“Do you think Charles can give me a room closer to the bathroom?”
Or even
“When will the professor finish grading my paper?”
Suddenly Wanda was the spokesperson of the students. Every question aimed at Charles is aimed at Wanda as if she would know. It was a strange sort of power to say “yeah he says it’s fine we can have ice cream.” Or “he says he won’t be done till this afternoon.” A weirder thing that it came so easily to her.
She recalls Sally Hummings who was Wanda’s old Principals daughter at her previous school. Blonde Pigtails and a big mouth that snitched on every person who ever made her mad. Wanda wonders if it went to her head…being the principal's daughter. Wanda doesn’t think it will go to her head being the principal's pretend-daughter. Even if it is fake.
She’ll be humble. For sure.
Charles had seemed…distracted the last couple of days. His mind is closed off to her so she can’t tell why. He had gone into cerebro. He says it’s like a magnifying glass for his brain. Widening his abilities further. He showed her the tubes and the funky hat he has to wear and she saw the glare he gave Hank when he suggested he could shave his head. Wanda giggles making Hank smile and Charles glares at the both of them accusingly. It would be funny to see Charles with no hair. The professor used cerebro and when he came back out he was sad.
Wanda saw glimpses of a pretty man with a prickly beard, somewhere far away, and a pretty woman with long brown hair, sitting at a bar. Clinking glasses and smiling somberly. Hesitantly. It was a brief scene in Charles' head. Wanda could feel his sadness but she could also feel his happiness.
Wanda. It’s private. Charles shut the door of his mind and Wanda gets whiplash as she suddenly feels nothing at all.
Sorry, Professor. I didn’t mean to. Wanda had only felt his somberness and was curious. It hadn’t even been a conscious peak into his head. Completely by accident but they had been happening a lot more lately.
Pietro says she just needs to practice but the more people that join the school the more minds she’s exposed to and the more thoughts she has to remember to push out.
“Speed?” Frankie is knocking at her shared room with Jean. “Can I come in?”
“No boys allowed.” She points at the hazardous drawn picture of a boy stick figure on the door. A giant X on top of it. Funnily enough Charles had been the one to draw it and the stick figure did look a bit like Frankie.
Frankie blinks up at the picture in surprise as if he genuinely hadn’t seen it before. Frankie’s mind was a storm and Wanda’s joking smile faded slightly at his thoughts “But I won’t tell anybody. Come in, vision.” She opens the door wider with her mind, practicing the wobbly control she has.
Frankie nods and rolls through the door fitting himself between Jean and Wanda’s bed perfectly.
“What’s on your mind?” Wanda twists her head curiously at him.
“You could just read my mind.”
“I’d rather you just tell me.” His thoughts are cloudy and gray and his door is open but the screen is in front of it.
“I’ve been having bad dreams.”
Wanda knows that. She has his bad dreams too. She has everyone’s bad dreams. Collecting them like cursed objects. But this is different from what she’s already seen.
“I’m dead in my dreams.”
“You die?”
“No, I’m dead. But I’m moving, and talking and I’m older.”
“You’re not dead though, you’re alive.” Wanda pokes Frankie’s hand, physically making sure he’s there with her. Good.
Frankie’s eyes widened “Yeah you said that in my dream too.”
“I was there?”
“Yeah, you were older too. Everything was really different. Weirder. It was really scary.” Wanda frowns and hugs Frankie “It’s just a dream.” She says easily.
“None of it is real. You’re alive. You’re here with me at the X mansion. Nothing's gonna hurt you here.”
Wanda was wrong about that. She didn’t know she was.
The next week Frankie is sick with the flu and it’s just Wanda taking fourth grade math with the professor.
“Proffessor?” He’d been trying to teach her an equation. The dashes and dots become funky in her head.
“Yes, love.” Charles makes it very hard to beat the father daughter accusations when he calls her love and dear as easily and as frequently as he does. She doesn’t call Teresa love. He Doesn’t call any of the Whitleys dear. Only Wanda.
“Why don’t you have any children?” It had been a thought that she had kept in her head for a while. Charles is good with children. He’s good with her. Good with the older kids too. Charles is good at playing board games and great at setting the table to fit family dinner. He’s awesome at scaring away any monsters in closets or in her mind. He’s there. Constantly. Firmly. Charles would be a good father. Wanda might even say he'd be an excellent father but she doesn’t have a very good examples of those.
But he has no kids. None that Wanda knows of. Charles falters in his writing looking surprised at the sudden line of questioning “I suppose it was never in the cards for me.” His back was facing her now so she couldn't see his face.
“You don’t want any kids?”
“I-“ Charles hesitates, when he turns around in his wheelchair he looks sad, a bit scared. “I don’t think I’d be a very good father…if I did have children.” He looks right at her when he says it, testing, cautious. Well…Wanda has some things to say about that.
“You are.” Wanda confides “you’re a very good dad.”
Charles swallows thickly looking like he—oh. That’s not- “listen Wanda I-“ She tried to look inside his head, even for just a moment, just to see what he was feeling, but she was pushed back. Door locked shut. Tightly. And safely away from an overbearing nine year old.
She hadn’t thought that the professor would be upset. Wanda wasn’t trying to be cruel with her line of questioning. Or with her prank. Maybe she wasn’t thinking at all.
It’s been months and people have made enough comments and suggestions for him to have realized, surely. Charles is a very smart man. He must’ve figured out who the original culprit was. Guaranteed.
She didn’t think he’d be so upset. Maybe Wanda isn’t as smart as she thinks she is. In all the scenarios in her head she hadn’t thought that the proffesor would be upset about being thought of as a dad.
“I’m sorry.” She squeaks out, feeling frantic and maybe just a bit scared.
“Wanda-“
“-I didn’t mean to make you mad Professor. I can-“
“-Dear please-“
“-I can tell them to stop. I can fix it.” Can she fix it? How many misunderstandings does she have to untangle?
“Tell who? Fix what? Wanda what are you talking-”
“-please don’t be mad professor.” Wanda’s eyes sting.
“Wanda.” Charles says evenly and he must be livid because he’s trying to hold himself back. David used to do the same thing. He never liked to hurt Wanda so he would hold it in and then let it out on Pietro. The only thing that stopped David from hurting Wanda was that she was his blood.
What’s stopping Charles here? He wasn’t her blood.
“I am not mad, Wanda.” Charles’ says and Wanda doesn't believe him, she can see it. Even if he’s locking away his mind she can see it for herself with her own eyes. “I was just…sad.” Charles hesitates but pushes on, gently grabbing Wanda’s hand.
“Why were you sad?” Wanda says in a small voice.
“I don’t have kids. I would’ve liked kids. Maybe. I thought that perhaps you had been-“ he doesn’t seem to know how to continue, scared to say exactly what Wanda knows he wants to say “-you were just having a bit of fun. And it was fun. For a bit. To pretend that I was something more to someone like you and Pietro. But I can’t be your dad Wanda. You need someone better, I’m too broken-too worn out.”
“You don’t want to be my dad?” Wanda pulls her hands away, head twirling thoughts.
It was so out of nowhere. Or maybe it wasn’t. It felt very justified. Wanda was a bit heartbroken honestly. She hadn’t meant to sound so…emotional about it. It was only meant to be a game. But now it doesn't feel very fun. It felt like she was being rejected. And she never even asked him to begin with which was worse.
She had just assumed he would be alright with it. And he wasn’t. He isn’t. He doesn’t want to be her dad.
She hadn’t realized he wanted him to be. But now that she does she wants to cry.
Charles takes in a shaky breath and he seems to be trying to stay calm and reasonable “Wanda you already have a father.” No. She doesn’t. None of this is reasonable.
“Why can’t I have you instead?” Her voice quiet and small. She feels small. She feels dumb.
“That’s not how that works, sweetheart.”
Sweetheart suddenly sounds mean. Kinda like Miss Dotty but Charles isn’t Miss Dotty. He’s supposed to be better.
“Why not? Why can’t you be my dad instead. Don't you love me?” Wanda grimaces, feeling hurt and overwhelmed. Maybe she’s wrong. How can she be this wrong? “You do love me right?”
Charles face crumbles looking like a melted painting “of course I do. I love you so much.” And she believes him. “But Wanda…you have a father. At the end of the day I can’t-I can’t replace him. I wouldn’t be a very good replacement.”
They run around in circles. Wanda doesn’t like it. She doesn’t like that she has to keep explaining it to him. That he keeps side stepping and avoiding. She doesn’t like that he doesn’t want to be her dad. Doesn’t want the title of dad or her at all.
“Okay. Fine. Whatever.” She kinda sounds like her brother when she says that.
“Whatever?” Charles sounds foreign, like he doesn’t know that word.
“You won’t be my dad. Then I won’t be your daughter.” Wanda says angrily. Bitter and sad and she thinks she might hate Charles a little bit. But she doesn’t. She loves Charles. That’s the worst part. She pinched her face together, trying not to cry, Feeling very stubborn and very indignant. She wants to cry. She wants to scream.
“Wanda I didn’t mean to upset you. It’s difficult to say but in the end you’d just be replacing one drunk for another.”
“You’re not like David.”
“Yes, I am.” Charles doesn’t know about David. Wanda avoids dreaming of him, about everything regarding and That Night. She avoids thinking about him. Charles doesn’t know that David was foul and crueler than he could ever be. That he hurt them. That he did bad bad things. David hadn’t been Wanda’s father for a long while. Wanda hasn’t had a dad in a long time and that’s not gonna change apparently.
“You deserve better than a drunk.” Charles says sincerely and she doesn’t like that logic at all.
She deserves better but she gets nothing at all? Wanda doesn’t think that’s fair at all.
“May I be dismissed?” Wanda wants to cry but she doesn’t want to cry in front of the professor. Maybe before she would’ve but not when he’s the reason she wants to cry. “please?” Her voice cracked. She was the only student in this class. No one else was here but she isn’t a bad student. She isn’t a bad kid. No matter what Miss Dotty says. Charles was still her teacher and this is still a classroom.
He hesitates. “You’re dismissed.”
Wanda leaves the classroom with tears in her eyes and her chest heavy and she was so embarrassed by the whole thing that she closed herself off in her room skipping dinner that night.
Charles left a plate of food by her door but didn’t come in. Hovering but never even knocking on the door.
Wanda wishes he had.
“Are you fighting with your dad?” Kurt asks the next day. Everyone had been welcoming the newest students into the mansion. Teresa and drew. They had a bad night as well. No one batted an eye at Wanda’s mood.
“No.” Because Charles isn’t her dad. He made that loud and clear.
“Pietro?”
“No.”
“Frankie?”
“No, I’m not upset, okay. Just drop it.” Wanda sounds upset. Even to her own ears. She pulls her stuffed cat closer to her. The one that Pietro gave her a few months back when he came back from recruiting.
“Can I sit?”
Wanda sniffles but doesn't say anything against it. Kurt sits beside her and Wanda hands are heavy with Kurt’s tail seemingly looping themselves around her hands. “Pietro usually plays with my tail. Helps him relax.”
“It doesn’t bother you when people touch your tail?”
“It doesn't bother me when the Maximoffs do it.”
Wanda smiles and Kurt’s tail does make her feel better. Kurt pulls out a sketchbook and he sketches. Long sharp lines and wonky circles. It’s difficult to draw with only three fingers. He manages.
“Can I talk instead?”
Wanda shrugs.
Kurt strokes his chin, as if thinking of a conversation topic “Hank made me take a DNA test. He thinks I didn't know what it was but I did.”
“What’s a DNA test?”
“It’s when they take a bit of your spit and test it.”
“Gross.” Wanda wrinkles “why’d he do that?”
“He thinks he’s my dad but he’s not. I know who my dad is.” Kurt says it casually like he didn’t just drop a juicy morsel of Kurt gossip “i just don’t know how Hank is gonna take it. Finding out he’s not my dad.”
“You know who your dad is?” Wanda isn’t gonna let him smooth past that statement like it was nothing. Kurt is an orphan. This is something everyone knows. Miss Margo is his foster mother. Before her he lived in the circus. Anything before or even during that time is a bit of a blur but Wanda knows he was an orphan. She knows. “Yeah. I met him a while back.”
“Then why did you look at Hank like that when you first got here?”
“Like what?” Kurt frowned.
“Like you thought he was your dad!” Wanda laughs.
“I did not!” He gasped.
“Yes you did. Everyone was cracking jokes! Even Pietro.”
Kurt’s eyes widen and then he takes a breath “well…I didn’t realize I had acted that way. I was trying to be very nonchalant. I just- I never met somebody else like me before. With a physical mutation. Pietro's silver hair is Not really a comparison point to Blue fur.”
Wanda nods. Trying to understand that in her own way. She hadn’t physically changed when she got her powers. Her hair didn’t change colors, she didn’t grow fangs or grow big or small. She didn’t have whiskers or get sharp claws. She was completely the same but was totally different.
“He’s been really nice to me. I didn’t grow up with my father so I’ve never had someone treat me like that before. It’s really nice and I’m afraid once he finds out I’m not his son he’ll treat me differently.”
“That sounds really complicated. Maybe you should talk to him about it?”
“I could never! I’d be way too embarrassed.” His face flashes purple, he hides his face behind his claws, bashful.
“Okay then maybe you can do what I do?”
“What’s that?”
“Shove it in your bad emotions room and lock it away forever. Until you die.”
Kurt peaks between his fingers and looks at her in alarm “are you sure you don’t wanna talk about it?”
“No way.”
That afternoon Wanda catches Hank watching Kurt from the other room. “Watcha lookin at?”
“Nothing.” Hank jumps and Wanda grins.
“Doesn’t seem like nothing.”
Hank ruffles and huffs and settles in the same gaze again “he’s just different with him.”
Wanda looks over at Kurt who’s currently sketching in his book, swatting away at Pietro who’s trying to peek over his shoulder. Full on smiling and giggling. Her brother was happy with him. “Pietro?”
“No. Kurt. He acts like a teenager.”
“He is.” Wanda raises an eyebrow but then stops immediately when she realizes that she’s gotten that habit from Charles. The professor raises his eyebrows a lot and Wanda had picked up on it instinctively.
“Yeah, but most of the time he acts older. He’s not always this…carefree. It’s nice. It’s good to see.” Hank fixes his frames “he’s been through a lot. Way more then any kid should go through.”
“Isn’t that everybody?”
Hank looks at Wanda “what do you mean?”
“Everybody’s been through a lot. I can see it. Locked doors and black rooms filled with bad things. Cracked windows. Cold hallways. Bad. Everybody has a lot of bad.” Wanda wishes she didn’t always see the bad stuff first. She wishes she could meet new people and not know something bad about them. Something sad or scary.
Wanda misses her mom and her soft sweaters and watery laugh. She misses going to her old school with Her old friends. She misses her crowded classes and her bus stop. She misses walking to school and sometimes she even misses Miss Dotty. It was a weird thought to have just then. But it was a thought nonetheless.
“Does the bad ever stop?” Hank looks at her. His thoughts are usually organized. Reasonable. Cause and affect. Wanda knows it’s because his entire life has been one cause and effect. Wanda knows too much about Hank. Too much about Hank's dad. Wanda thinks that Hank is what Pietro would’ve been like if David had been Pietro's dad. If Pietro actually cared for David’s opinion then he would be like a version of Hank. Stuck in time. Finding answers to problems that don’t exist.
“No. It’s always there. Always louder than everything else. But…” Wanda thinks about the whitleys. A giant mind. A building of thoughts and memories all trapped in one body. They were like an apartment building. Memories building off of each other. conjoined yet separate. She thinks about how some rooms are closed off, bolded up and cold. Despite the vastly different rooms and different personalities inhabiting them she thinks about the soft carpet in each room. Shaggy and comfortable. She thinks about how each personality combines and melts and adjusts to each other. She thinks of the picture frame in the center of their minds. A woman with a butterfly on her nose, smiling and surprised. A good memory surrounded by everything bad and dark.
A small light at the end of the tunnel.
“…Everyone has something good. Even something small.” Wanda looks up at Hank.
Hank looked at her with open surprise “when did you get so smart?”
“I’ve always been smart.” Wanda says smugly.
Hank thinks deeply. His brain is like a web. Connecting one thing to another. Running in circles trying to find an answer. “You can go, you know.”
Hank gawked “I was here first.”
Wanda shakes her head “I mean the school. You don’t have to stay. The professor is going to be okay. He won’t be upset if you go.”
Hank stills, looking down at his mug like he’s still trapped in the last ten years. Hank was alone for a long time. Even when Charles was here he was alone. “Charles still needs me…You guys still need me.”
“Yeah, we do.” Wanda can’t imagine this place without Dr McCoy “We’ll miss you. But you shouldn’t stay just cause you feel like you have to. NASA offered you a job. You can’t turn down NASA.”
“I could turn down NASA.”
“But you shouldn’t. Don’t you wanna see the stars?” Wanda always liked the stars.
“I wouldn’t be going to space, I’d just be studying it.” Wanda isn’t actually sure what NASA does but she knows it’s a big deal. She knows Hank is throwing away a big deal.
“But instead you’d rather gloom in your room?”
“I’m fixing Cerebro.”
“You’ve fixed cerebro. You’ve been stalling. I know it. You know it. Charles knows it.”
Hank sighs looking away from Wanda, “Pietro isn’t nearly as confrontational as you.”
“You should take the job. Do something more with your big brain.”
Hank looks at Pietro and Kurt again, watching with sadness.
I’m gonna miss him. Hank whispers in his mind.
We have a phone. Wanda tells him and she knows he won’t decide now. That he’ll take a while to weigh his options, consider his cause and affects. He’ll find answers to problems in his head and run in circles for a bit longer before he makes a choice.
It’s okay.
That night Wanda's dreams turn away from her classmates and morph into her own. Dreams turned into nightmares.
Wanda was six and on stage with her class. Humming to a song they had practiced all week for the talent show. Her eyes searched for her Mom. They searched for her dad. They landed on Pietro, pointing the family camera at her and grinning up at her encouragingly. Afterwards he gushes over her telling her how she stole the spotlight even though she was in the back row and had no solo.
“Where’s mama.”
“She couldn’t make it.”
“And papa?”
“He’s the reason she couldn’t make it.”
Wanda didn’t have time to be sad, Pietro didn’t let her be upset, instead he declared that they would be going out for celebratory dessert.
“You got me a present?” Wanda looks at the gift bag in her hands. Her father had just come back from a trip and was in a relatively good mood.
“It’s Christmas. Of course I got you a present.” Wanda wrinkles her nose and looks at her brother in question. He was standing stiffly beside David a cut in his lip and arms crossed defensively.
“We’re Jewish David. We don’t celebrate Christmas.”
David rolls his eyes and Pietro pointedly avoids looking at Wanda “well I’m not and Wanda’s only half Jewish so she can celebrate Christmas too.”
“That’s not how that works.” Pietro scowls “if you wanted to give her a present then give her a present.”
“I didn’t ask you how it worked Peter. I’m telling you how it is. It’s a Christmas present.” He flits his eyes towards Wanda a fake smile smoothing his face “don’t you wanna open your Christmas present Wanda?”
She feels small and confused and Pietro nods at her, permission granted and received. She can open it and he won’t be mad. Wanda looks down at her gift bag and slides it over to her dad with a determined expression. “It’s okay. I don’t need any presents.” Wanda manages to add “I’m just glad you're home.” She placates, not wanting to step on any toes. Her dad was easily angered and Wanda was trying to avoid a fight.
He didn’t like her rejection. His face flashes with something evil and by the time Wanda had stood up from the table he was grabbing her wrist, shoving the present back in her hands. “I didn’t raise you to be selfish.” By the time the words had left his mouth Pietro was already in front of him and Wanda was securely placed in her room through superspeed.
Pietro cursed and her dad cursed right back. By the time Wanda came back out her dad was gone, taking the money from the money jar and Wanda’s present in his person. Wanda tried not to cry when she saw her brother's bloody face. The bigger bruises fading away within minutes into a weird ugly yellow color but not completely gone.
“Did you want the present?”
Wanda shakes her head and Pietro looks like he wanted to say something but didn’t.
“If he wanted to actually give you a present he would just give it to you without the excuse of a holiday or birthday. Your dad should give you a present because he wants to.” Pietro looks like he’s about to run and grab the present anyway. Snatch it from her father and give it to her anyway.
“It was probably something stupid.” Wanda says and Pietro eventually nods looking a bit conflicted.
Wanda never found out what the present was. She never gets the chance to ever again. After that day Her father never presents her with a gift.
Then her dream shifts again to her father screaming at her mother. Beer bottle in hand and her mother frozen in place standing straighter than she usually does. She remembers Pietro telling her to hide in her room when he got like that. He wasn’t here. Pietro wasn’t here to protect them. She didn’t know where he was and her mom wasn’t moving. She didn’t look like she could move. “Go to your room, lock the door and cover your ears.” That’s what Pietro always told her to do but she didn’t this time because David broke her door. She can’t go to her room and lock the door if she has no door.
“What is Wanda gonna think? Seeing her whore of a mother going out everyday and doing fuck knows what? What kind of example is that?” David swings his bottle and some of it spills on the ground.
“I’m just going to the synogogue.” her mothers voice was stiff.
“The synogogue my ass. I know you meet your little criminal boyfriend and you fuck him like the easy slut that you are. Opening your legs to anytime that gives you even a little bit of attention.” David slaps Mom across the face, the sound vibrating up Wanda’s spine like thunder.
Magda Maximoff barely stumbles looking directly at her husband “David, you sound belligerent. I haven’t been cheating on you. I haven’t done anything.”
“You’ve been unfaithful before. I know you have. You can’t hide that from me. Wanda is-“
“-Wanda is yours! She is your child! She is your flesh and blood. She is no one else’s. I-I have been unfaithful before. I’ve been a bad wife, I’ve relapsed in my judgment but there is no doubt that Wanda is yours.”
David scoffs his face inches away from her mother, spit from talking so aggressively hitting her mother in the face. She doesn’t flinch, she stands perfectly still. “I’m not a damn fool. I knew that you cheated. I just wanted you to admit it. At Least now we’re even.”
Her mothers face flashes with something “No, we’re not. Me fucking my ex who I haven’t seen in years is not the equivalent of you-touching him.” Her mothers eyes are watery and yet somehow still. She looks settled. Decided. What has she decided?
“Is that what this rebellion is about? Peter? He told you I touched him? He’s a liar and a slut just like his mother. Soon Wanda will be the same.”
“You will do nothing to Wanda.” Her mother growls.
“I haven’t done anything at all. Pay the fuck attention! I just said I didn’t touch him. I roughed him up, I slapped him around. He needs the discipline. He acts like a damn child.”
“He is a child. He’s fifteen. And you’ve been doing things to him for a long time David. You’ve hit him, and you’ve touched him and you’ve fucked him. You were suppose to act like his father and instead you ruined him. You won’t ruin Wanda too. I won’t let you.”
“What makes you think you can do anything bitch? Not that I’m admitting to a damn thing you just said but why now do you suddenly think you’ve got some fucking will power to stop it?”
“Because I’ve been practicing.”
“Practicing wha-“ Wanda’s mom pulls out a steak knife that she had inside her sleeve and she stabs David.
David winds his hand back, bottle in his grasp and swings. He’s too slow. Wanda’s mom stabs him again. Again. Again.
She hears the crack of his knees hit the ground and he spits blood and folds over and Magda Maximoff stabs him in the throat, his head hits the table and then he collapses on the floor with a thud and a squish. Blood spreading all over the floor.
Oh.
Mom killed dad.
Wanda pretends she didn’t see it happen. She goes to her brother's room and she locks the door and she covers her ears and she pretends it didn’t happen.an hour later when her mother comes to Pietros room and finds her crying she pretends it’s because of the yelling and not because it finally stopped.
She pretends she doesn’t notice the dark spot on the kitchen floor. Pretends the crack on the table was from a roller skating incident and not David’s head. She pretends they’ve only ever had three steak knives. When Pietro comes home Magda sits them both down and explains that David has been taken away by the police. Wanda pretends that’s the truth. She pretends that she didn’t see her mom kill him in the kitchen. Wanda is great at pretending. She cries and Pietro comforts her but he looks relieved. And she is too.
“What did they charge him with?”
“A number of things. Mostly abuse.”
Pietro looks anxious “do I need to talk to the police?”
“No. That won’t be necessary.” Magda says confidently. Wanda is surprised by how easily she lies. She’s surprised by how real it sounds. If she hadn’t seen it with her own two eyes she would’ve believed every word her mother said “I’ve taken care of everything.” Truth.
“How long will he be away?”
“A long time.”
“How long?”
“Five years.” She lies again. “But you won’t see him again. I’ll make sure of it.”
Wanda pretended David was in prison. But she knew he was close. In the backyard just below the tree her mom planted the day after he died. She pretended not to see the dirt underneath her moms nails or the way she always stares at the tree with a far away expression.
Wanda pretended until she couldn’t. Until she just forgets completely.
Until one day, just a bit over a year after the event, she’s eight and during a very bad thunderstorm Wanda looks at the tree in her backyard. Crooked and ugly like veins. She looked long enough to see lightning strike the ground and spread the sky with light. If not for the sudden brightness of the night sky she wouldn’t have seen the hand shoot up from the roots.
Wanda clutched her stuffed animals and saw piece by piece, limb for limb as a man dug himself out of the tree. As the man cracked his neck back into place and stretched his back like he was getting off of bed. This man looked an awful lot like David. No longer dead. No longer buried. One foot in front of the other David walks away from the house and Wanda-
Well-
How is she meant to process that? Her dead father who nobody knows is dead is actually no longer dead. A zombie.
Wanda wakes up screaming like she has been the one being stabbed. She wakes up screaming like she was the one to wake up from the dead. Tears in her eyes, face flush and David's name on her throat. Grasping at a zombie.
“Go away! Leave me alone!” Wanda whines at the creature next to her bed. Claws reaching for her. Snarling lips. Claws that turn into hands, a snarl that turns into a frown. A creature that turns into a man.
“It’s me. I’m here. I’m here. Take a breath love.”
“Dad?” Wanda can’t see, not really.
She doesn’t know if she’s still dreaming or not. “Yeah, it’s me Wendy. It’s Charles. I got you.” His claws that are just normal hands reach her hand, looping his fingers around hers gently, comforting her in the way that he always does.
“You’re here?” She chokes out clutching his hand.
“Of course. I’ll always be here. Are you alright?”
“I don’t know.”
“That nightmare, was that- just a nightmare or did that actually…” Wanda doesn’t know. She was seven when David went away and she always hated the tree in the backyard. She doesn’t know if that was a dream or if that was actually how it happened. She tends to misremember things about her childhood. Tends to block things out and change them. Hank says it’s a trauma response but Wanda can barely remember any of the trauma unless she’s asleep.
“- i want Pietro.”
Charles let’s out a startled breath “you want Peter? Not me?”
“Not you. I want Pietro.” Wanda doesn’t have time to think about whether that’s mean or not because Charles is out of the door moments later. He comes back in less then a minute with a sleep deprived Pietro at his tail.
“Pie.” Wanda wobbles and Pietro is practically sleepwalking as she goes to her side, nudges her slightly to scoot over and lays beside her. Without even a word he’s wrapping his arms around her and cradling her in his arms. Wanda melts and warms beside her brother. “Sleep.” He croaks, sounding like he is beyond tired but still wanting to comfort her “my mind is quiet.” He says and Wanda sighs in relief.
“Okay.” Wanda looks past his arm and at Charles who watches the scene with a unique expression on his face. His mind was blocked from her so she can’t tell if it’s a good or bad expression.
The Maximoff siblings fall asleep in a pile and wake up just the same way. Drool and eye crust dressing their faces.
“Any reason why Charles said you wanted me instead of him last night?”
Wanda shrugs.
“I love you. It didn’t bother me, It was just surprising. You usually prefer to let Charles help you. Is there a reason why you wanted me this time?”
Wanda shrugs.
“Is there a reason why Charles looked hurt when he said you asked for me instead?”
Wanda huffs.
“So there is a reason. Are you mad at the professor?”
“No.” Wanda snaps.
“That’s a yes then.”
“I don’t know what Hank is talking about. You’re plenty confrontational.”
“He said that?”
“Yeah.”
“Don’t change the subject.”
“Very confrontational.”
“I am when it comes to you. I’d fight demons for you.” Pietro says truthfully and Wanda knows he’s telling the truth. “I know.” He has fought a demon for her.
Wanda thinks he might’ve gotten it from mom. But everything is still a little fuzzy.
“Do you want me to fight Charles? I don’t, like, want to. But if I had to, I’d hate it but I’d do it. I’d fight the fuck out of him. It would be easy. He’s super slow.”
“I don’t want you to fight Charles. I’m not mad at him.”
“Okie dokie but I can get away with it. Just remember that.”
It was about two weeks of this before Charles stopped teaching in the middle of class. “Frankie you're dismissed.”
“We’re in the middle of Fragmentation theory.” Frankie frowns, table covered in pencil shavings.
“We’ll finish it next time. Just head out. I need to speak with Wanda.”
Wanda avoids looking at Charles and at Frankie feeling cornered after two weeks of blatantly ignoring the man.
Frankie says “I can stay.”
Wanda shakes her head telling him to go. Frankie rolls out of the classroom hesitantly and Wanda watches him go.
“I want to start off by saying sorry.” Charles voice brings her back to the classroom.
“Dear,” he cuts himself off “Wanda.” He fixes it and she isn’t sure if she likes that he did. “I’ve been thinking a lot about what happened. Our conversation wasn’t something I was prepared for…I didn’t say the right thing or do the right thing and I’m sorry for being insensitive.”
“Making you cry is never something I want to do.”
“I didn’t cry.”
“In front of me. You didn’t cry in front of me. I’ve been trying to think of a way to make it up to you but…” Charles takes out a box. Perfectly wrapped with red paper and a white bow that makes Wanda smile at how gently made it looks. “…I’m a bit rusty in taking care of other people.”
“A present? For me?”
“Yeah, a gift.”
Your dad should give you a present because he wants to. That’s what her brother said and Wanda took that to heart.
“For my birthday?” It’s a bit early, but it is just three weeks away.
“No. Just cause I want you to have it.” Charles places it gently on her desk and Wanda barely waits a second before she snatched it and starts pulling at the ribbon. Soft and expensive. She almost doesn’t want to break the paper but it’s unavoidable as she tries to unwrap the small box.
When she open the lid of the small black box her eyes catch on jewels and she immediately closes the lid again in shock. She jerks her head towards Charles m, eyes wide. Spine straight. He’s only smiling nervously at her.
“Is that-“ she cuts herself and opens the lid again. She snaps it shut again, face going red from shock.
Holy shit.
Language. Charles laughs.
She opens the lid and stares at the long skinny silver necklace with a giant ruby in the center.
“Is that a real ruby?”
“Why would I have a fake one?”
“Why do you have a real one?”
“It’s a family heirloom.”
“You-“ Wanda stumbles over her words “-you’re giving me a family heirloom?”
It’s phrased as a question but Wanda knows it’s a statement. She can see the initials of its previous owners on the parchment below the necklace. Names and dates going back three hundred years.
Rebecca Anne Xavier
Angelique Anne Xavier
Theresa Anne Xavier
Marie Anne Xavier
Marie Anne Xavier 2nd
And then
Wanda Django Maximoff
Written in permanent Ink on a piece of paper that looks older then historical documents. It should be in a museum not in the sweaty hands of a nine year old Jewish girl.
“It’s from my fathers side of the family. It’s meant to be passed down from father to daughter but my father never had any daughters. Just me. So it’s been sitting in a crypt collecting dust.” Charles lifts the necklace from the box, Wanda had been too afraid to touch it.
“Red is your favorite color so I figured it was better to actually be worn by someone who’d appreciate it.” Charles moves the hair away from Wanda’s shoulders and puts the necklace around her neck. He fidgets with the hook for a few seconds before he gets it in correctly.
It’s a little bit on her. A little too long but it doesn’t bother Wanda. She’ll grow into it.
“Are you sure you wanna give it to me? I’m not…family.” Saying the word daughter felt like talking with chalk in her mouth.
“I’ve never been more sure about something in my life.” Charles' voice is sweet and warm and Wanda looks up at the professor because she wants to see what expression he’s making to make his voice sound like that.
His mind is open. She looks inside for just a moment.
She sees a baby in his arms, gray and still. Born without a breath in the living world. Charles is crying, singing to the unhearing baby and kissing its cold forehead. “My sweet Wendy.”
The name Wendy is so close to Wanda that the telepath pulls away from the memory and jerks out of her desk to wrap her arms around the professor. Close to tears.
He holds her tight. Tighter than usual. Like she might slip away.
She had asked him why he didn’t have kids. I suppose it was never in the cards for me. He said. Back turned away from her.
An attempt had been made. He did have a daughter. He wanted kids. He was supposed to give this necklace to a different little girl. A different daughter.
You won’t be my dad. Then I won’t be your daughter.
That’s what she had said all those weeks ago to Charles. It’s only now that she realizes how pointed those words had been. How cruel they must’ve been to the professor who lost a daughter.
“I’m sorry professor.” She cries into his hair, feeling small and stupid and mean.
He rubs her back, soothing and soft “I’m sorry too, dear.”
They stay like that for a long time. Hugging each other in a classroom filling in the empty space left by other people.
Notes:
Charles actually does have kids in the comic books. Canonically his daughter’s name is actually Xandra. The name Wendy came from a typo of Wanda’s name. Also when Charles, Hank, Erik, Logan and Pietro went to the Wendy’ fast food establishment Charles was definitely fighting demons.
In the earlier chapters I hinted that David might have the mutant gene. He does. The concept of David never actually being in prison to begin with literally came to me while writing the dream sequence for Wanda and i was like Holy Shit!!!! I couldn’t go to sleep until I finished. It all fit together so perfectly.
Wanda using Past tense when she mentions David is intentional. She’s confused. She doesn’t know what’s going on.
If you see any typos I apologize. I did write this over a series of weeks in between studying for exams. I’m incredibly sleep deprived. ;)
Chapter 15: The Living and The Dead
Summary:
“You know if your moms picked out a name yet?” The nurse asked softly after a few moments, letting Pietro have his little freak out.
“Yeah..” Magda Maximoff had a list of names tucked between pages in a book next to her bed. The list was long and hadn’t shrunk in the last month. She had about thirty four boy names. She only had one girl name. “Wanda. Wanda Django Maximoff.”
“That’s a beautiful name.”
It was.
———-
Pietro hates David but he loves his family.
Notes:
Trigger warning for *Rape* and Sexual Assault. David is mentioned a lot in this chapter….that deserves a trigger warning in itself.
a/n: my apologies for the late update. I went on vacation and got sick. I feel better now.
Obviously you will see typos I was half delirious while writing the last third of this chapter.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The first time Child Protective Services came to Pietros Django Maximoffs house he was seven years old and his mother Magda Maximoff wasn’t home.
“Is your mother around?” A tall woman with Ginger hair tied in a bun smiled at Pietro not unkindly. Tired eyes peering past the door through her square glasses. A clipboard was on her manicured hands. She had a blazer and long dark pants. Too many layers for the amount of heat that was terrorizing the city that summer.
He hadn’t any clue where his mama was at the time. Sometimes Magda forgot things, simple things that anyone would remember. She’d forget Where she left her keys or Where she bought her jacket from or at What time her favorite show started or even Where she left her Kid. She always remembers in the end. She left her keys next to the cigarettes. She bought her jacket at Ross. Her favorite show starts at six. Her kid is at home. Alone. Sometimes it took her too long to remember.
Pietro shook his head at the lady who looked sweaty and a bit uncomfortable in the outside humidity.
He let her inside.
He climbed on to the stepping stool to reach for the glass cups on the cabinet and he filled up the cup with water to give to his guest. He rarely had guests but he assumes that offering them water when it’s so hot outside is customary.
Officially Magda Maximoff was charged with child neglect and endangerment. Pietro didn’t feel particularly neglected or In any form of danger, he had leftover kosher macaroni in the microwave and had cartoons on in the tv to keep him company but the ginger lady who came inside his house didn’t think The Aristocats movie was a proper babysitter substitute and the burnt macaroni was not a good bribe for the already judgy civil servant.
Before he knew it Pietro was taken from his house and plopped into another. Too small beds far more freaky than his and a shared bathroom with three other kids in the same mind frame as him.
They put him in a foster home for three weeks. The foster family Pietro had wasn’t very nice to him but they weren’t even particularly nice to their real children who actually tried to help pietro settle into the guest room that was once a dog room. He wishes he could recall exactly what thing they did that made his seven year old brain think they were mean but he couldn’t. It could’ve been that they didn’t like The Aristocats or that they didn’t like how he ate his food or maybe something equally as stupid as him not liking curfew. It was stupid. It could’ve been worse. It will be worse. But to his seven year old mind being told he couldn’t see singing animated cats on the tv twenty four fucking seven was a crime against humanity. He was dramatic. When he finally saw his mom again she hugged her so tight she started crying. But maybe it was for a different reason. Pietro didn’t ask, he just thought it was because she missed him. He missed her too so he stuck to her like glue for days after.
During that time Magda’s immigration status fluctuated. Green card holders must follow all federal, state, and local laws, as well as the laws of their state of residence and local jurisdictions and according to New Jersey police and child protective services Magda Maximoff was accused of Child abandonment.
Suddenly The Maximoff family was at risk of being deported. The year was 1961 and Germany was in the middle of the Berlin crisis and The United States Government wasn’t feeling so hot about the Jewish residents that fled to their country. Shit was in the balance. Thin fucking ice. And it was all cracking underneath them. Of course he had no clue about any of that, he was seven. As far as he knew he had a long sleepover at a stranger's house and then he was back with his mom in his house like normal. It was business as usual. But it wasn’t. Pietros Mom wasn’t sleeping and she was barely eating and alcohol was her primary medicine.
“Peter.” Magda Maximoff had started calling Pietro -Peter- even in the privacy of their own home. He wasn’t used to it yet. His face buffering to recall the name as his own. “I want you to meet someone.”
She gestures at a man he’s never met before. He’s tall with blue eyes and long brown hair that was combed and gelled back. He had a bit of a scruffy beard and a very clean three piece suit. He looked like he was the boss of somebody. Like he had a big person job doing big people stuff making big people money. The man smiled at Pietro, looking down at him like a giant. Pietro doesn’t smile back, only staring at the taller man with open apprehension.
“This is my friend Mr. Strucker.” Magda gestures towards him, smiling shyly and Pietro can already tell something was weird. Something was off. His mom doesn’t have any friends. Not any he doesn’t already know about.
“Mr. Strucker, this is my son Peter.”
“Good to put a face to the name.” He extends his hand towards him as if he’s about to close on a business deal. Pietro puts his hand on Strucker's hand, the size difference between them feeling ominously humorous. He shakes it twice and Pietro feels like he was bonded for life, chained to the devil. Like maybe this actually was a deal for his soul and he just gave it away without a fight.
Idiot.
Magda smiles at Pietro comfortingly, her honey eyes being the only form of comfort he felt in that moment. Mr. Strucker lets go of his hand and the young boy retreats easily, searching for his mothers embrace. His immediate discomfort around the man should’ve been hint enough. “Mr. Strucker is a lawyer. He’s going to help us stay here so we don’t have to leave.” His mother says soothingly.
Pietro nods slowly. “Why would we have to leave?”
Magda strokes her sons hair out of his face looking a bit heartbroken “well-“
“-your mother is under hot water after you let the police report her for child abandonment. I’m here to make that go away. Win her case.”
Pietro shrunk a bit at the implication that this was his fault. That he let the police do anything. He may be seven but he wasn’t dumb.
“Mr. Struckers here to help us.” Magda says amiably and his eyes shine with something. Pietro back then mistook it for compassion.
“Magda, please. Call me David.”
The two of them easily became entangled with each other. Sneaky touches and lingering looks when Pietro was around but he knew that Mr. Strucker- David- wasn’t just his moms lawyer. He stayed later then he should. He brought food when he came. He gave his mom back rubs when she was winding herself up.
He was good to her. Magnanimous to Magda.
For a time.
Pietro wonders if it’s ethical for a lawyer to be dating their client. He wonders if it’s normal for a man to start kissing a woman but have his eyes on her son.
It was a weird sort of slow realization. A moment here. A moment there.
A slow turn. David seemed to only tolerate Pietro, like he would prefer if he wasn’t there at all. But other times he almost seems to thrilled to be near the seven year old. He stared a lot. Especially when Pietro didn’t have a shirt on. He made any excuse to touch the boy. He patted his back, touched his arm, and squeezed his shoulder. Each touch lingering too long. Too rough.
Pietro got used to wearing shirts in the house. He got used to avoiding looking at them when they kissed to avoid accident catching his eye. He got used to dodging David’s hands. It will pass. Magda Maximoff has had a lot of boyfriends over the years. She’s only introduced three other boyfriends to her son before and only when it was getting serious. This was the first time she had introduced a boyfriend before they even started dating. It was all moving pretty quickly. Fast and sudden. Big moves in little time.
Usually Pietro didn’t like his moms boyfriends.
Pietro hadn’t liked Thomas. That was his moms ex boyfriend from the synagogue who was a widow. He was an intrapreneur which Pietro now realizes was code for jobless. Thomas had dated his mom for nearly six months before he was introduced to him. He was four and called the man a stinky face. Because he smelled like he was a dumpster diver. Apparently he was. His mom had a bad nose so she couldn’t tell that he absolutely reaked. She found him digging into their trash for spoiled cheese that she had tossed and she broke up with him on the spot.
The second boyfriend the hyperactive kid had been introduced to was Steven. Steven was older than mom, sprouting grays in his head and when he smiled his eyes wrinkled with age. They had dated for three months before Pietro found them making out in his moms car when she was picking Pietro up from school. Pietro didn’t like Steven because Steven was married with kids and he went to school with those kids and they sucked majorly. Pietro thinks he’d suck majorly too if his dad was a cheating whore. He told his mom and she broke up with him shortly afterwards with a hearty slap to the face.
“Men suck, baby.”Magda declared afterwards combing through her sons browns locks. She forces him to look at her, twisting him forward at eye level. “Promise me you won’t ever cheat on a woman, Pietro.”
He knows she’s serious because she uses his real name in that tired voice of hers. “I won’t cheat on anyone, Mai.”
“Anyone huh? That’s good to know. You’re a good boy.”
Magda’s third ex boyfriend she had introduced him to was a biker with brown tattooed skin and bulging muscles that looked like party balloons. His name was Randall and he was actually the only ex boyfriend of his mom that he liked. Randall had been dating his mom for nearly seven months before Pietro met him. He was big and scary looking but he always brought Pietro cookies when he came over to see his mom. He worked at a bakery and he always gave him the Kosher sweats. He was benign, talked to him like he was grown up and not like he was a baby.
Pietro called him dad once. His mom swears that it wasn't the reason but he broke up with her shortly after and Pietro never saw him again. He swore to never get attached to his moms boyfriends after that. Not to Steven. Not to Thomas. Not to Imar. Not to Carmen. Not to Freddy. Not to Tyron. Definitely not to David. Pietro never called anyone dad again. He definitely never called David dad. Never even thought to.
“We’re getting married.” Magda Maximoff had only dated David for two months when she told him and Pietro thought she was joking. It wasn’t a funny joke but humor wasn’t Magda Maximoff expertise.
“Why?” Pietro couldn’t hide the disgust in his voice. Pietro hadn’t told his mom that David didn’t like it when he locked the door to his room. He got angry when he couldn’t get inside but pretended he wasn’t when Pietro got scared by his yelling.
“If I’m married to an American it would help me with my green card…And we like each other and he’s good to you isn’t he?”
Seven year old Pietro loves his mom.
He wants her to be happy but at that point he would’ve preferred it if she married stinky face Thomas or became Steven’s second wife rather than her marrying David. “Yeah. He’s…nice.” Pietro could barely believe it when they went to the court house. Married within the week.
It happened quickly. David moved in within the month, his things cluttering the house and he kept changing everything. Replacing his moms things with his own. The comfy and worn couch was replaced with a slick black leather couch that he owned. The miscellaneous picture frames around the walls were replaced with additional clashing pictures that made the walls look like the sketchbook of a crazy person. The fine china was put away in storage replaced with his shiny new plates and kitchen utensils that matched with each other too perfectly. The soft greenish rug in the hallway was rolled up and put in the garage because David did not like taking off his shoes when he walked around the house and the rug kept getting dirty.
The Maximoff House was being taken over and Pietro wants to cry when David hogs the Tv and prevents him from watching The Aristocats.
Everything takes an execrable turn when Magda Maximoff gets fired from her job. One moment she is a secretary at a dentist office and the next she’s jobless. Five years down the drain because of budget cuts.
Suddenly David was the only one paying bills. The only one buying things. The only one with power. David is nice about it at first if not just a bit annoyed. He hides it well, stiff comments and low jabs that would sting for a while. He was sharp with his words. Only his words. Until it wasn’t just his words.
The first time David slaps Magda Maximoff Pietro flinches with her, his toy slipping from his hand and on to the floor. He apologizes almost immediately. Quick to beg. His mom was quick to forgive. Desperate to forgive. Their marriage was the only thing keeping them home, keeping them together in America. Thin fucking ice.
David hits her again. Drunk and irritable and Pietro doubts he remembers. His mom does, she had the bruise to prove it.
The first time Magda complained about something tedious in the house but being done he was quick to yell and Magda was quick to yell back. David didn’t like when his mom talked back. That afternoon Pietro finds his mother black and blue on the kitchen floor crying and David nowhere to be seen.
Pietro was seven when he saw his mom cry for the first time. She was a rock to him. Resilient and strong. Until she suddenly cracked. Broken down into dust. She was curled up on the kitchen floor barely able to open her eyes because of the bruising. Pietro was seven when he realized if he was annoying enough, if he was bad enough, if he was in the way enough that David would hit him instead of his mom.
So that’s exactly what he did.
Pietro had a broken nose for his picture day at school. His mom didn’t buy the picture that year, tossing the order form in the trash with the rest of the garbage. No funky magnets with his bruised face to plaster on the fridge. No stickers with his abused face to decorate notebooks. No mugs with his beat up skin to collect dust in his cabinet. She didn’t want the reminder. Neither did Pietro.
Although the ugly picture was put in the yearbook. He didn’t know that because he didn’t ever get the yearbook. He never did. He looked like a bad kid. He looked like he got into fights and lost them. Bruised and mean looking. Pietro cried for weeks when he found out the other kids had been avoiding him because they thought he was a thug. Black eyes and Chipped tooths not doing him any favors. He shouldn’t care. It shouldn’t matter. It was a dumb thing to be upset about. Out of all the things, a stupid picture in a stupid yearbook shouldn’t be the thing to make him cry.
“You’re a good boy Peter. They’ll come around.” His mother didn’t see it. She didn’t see the shift in how they looked at him. She thinks the other kids are gonna simply learn that he isn’t all bad.
But they didn’t. His face kept getting in the way of David’s Fists and Pietro was labeled the Violent kid every time he walked into school with a bruised eye or broken lip.
Pietro was treated like a bad kid so he became a bad kid.
He was eight when David got so drunk that he went into his room instead of his own. Maybe he thought he was his mom. Maybe David was confused or turned around. Maybe-or Maybe he wanted an excuse to crawl into Pietro's bed. Maybe him being drunk was the only way he would have an excuse. The only way to claim deniability. He was a lawyer after all.
Pietro didn’t know what was going on. He didn’t-he hadn’t known what David was doing. He didn’t even know what sex was.
He just knew it was wrong. If doing something makes you cry then it's probably bad. David was gone when he woke up and Pietros sheets were sticky and covered in blood.
Pietro maximoff was Eight when he started doing his own laundry. Washing his own sheets. He was eight when he had his first kiss. He was eight when he had sex. He was eight when he gave his first blow job. He was eight when he lost his last baby tooth.
He was eight. He shouldn’t have been eight but he was.
He didn’t tell his mom. He didn’t have to. She saw David leave his room in the middle of the night far too many times to count. She started drinking. She drank until she forgot that she ever saw a thing. She started going to the synagogue more regularly. Praying and crying and Pietro doesn’t know what she’s praying for but it must hurt a lot.
Denial was a strong thing.
Pietro Django Maximoff was nine when he had his first crush. A chubby girl, with curly hair and chocolate eyes. Robin was the only girl in his elementary school that talked to him despite his bruised knuckles and big loud mouth. A little black girl new to town and oblivious or maybe indifferent to his “thuggish” behavior and as the only Jewish boy in the school their teachers paired them off together. The token diversity kids that no one wanted to sit next to so they sat next to each other.
Solidarity was a strong origin for friendship.
The first time Pietro realized he thought Robin was pretty was when she smiled at him when he got an answer right in class. Pietro smiled back, his face flushing with the praise. When he realized he had a crush on her it was like he was punched in the stomach. No butterflies. No goosebumps. No giddiness. He was scared but he didn’t understand why.
She asked him out, he said yes, his rib cage becoming drumsticks, looking equally as bashful. They held hands under the table. They laughed and joked and It was satisfying to like someone. It felt good. Robin laughed at his jokes and doodled on his arm like scrap paper. Little drawn butterflies and flowers accompanied the bruises. It was a good distraction.
But then Robin tried to kiss him.
Which-that’s fine-that’s normal. Boyfriend and girlfriend’s kiss. Except most boyfriends don’t have panic attacks when their girlfriends try to kiss them.
He couldn’t stop seeing David. The man tainted everything with Robin. They never stood a chance.
“Do you want to break up?” She asked one day. Maybe she thought he didn’t like her? Maybe she thought he didn’t want to kiss her. He did. He just always tended to freak out when she got too close. Confused and frustrated. Robin was nice, gentle, so maybe she was just tired of seeing him so upset. She was kind in that way…never asking about the cuts and bruises but drawing little smiley faces near them to distract him. “Yeah.” Pietro doesn’t want her first kiss to be with a boy who hates to be kissed, who fears to be known. Pietro thinks Robin is too good for that.
So Pietro gets his first heartbreak at nine years old.
“Plenty of fish in the sea.” His mom says comfortingly, placating his sadness over the loss. Pietro looks at her black eye and the half empty bottle of wine in her hand. “Plenty of fish in the sea.” He tells her as well. She looks away from him.
Yeah, well. Maybe he’s allergic to fish. Maybe the smell of fish makes him want to throw up.
When he was nine Pietro went to the synagogue alone. He knelt and he clasped his hands together and instead of praying, instead of speaking to the man upstairs, he cried. A waterfall of salty tears ran down his round cheeks and it was so overwhelm and painful as he attempted to take a full breath.
Places of worship are the only place where it’s socially acceptable to have a panic attack. He cried for hours, shaky breaths matching shaky vision. They spoke the Tanakh. They sang hymns. They raised their hands in group prayer. The cantor began and ended each chant in Hebrew. Pietro cried. He cried and he cried until his salty tears turned into a baptized river. He left the chapel sluggish but clean.
Pietro was nine when he found out what the word rape meant. He was nine when David pulled at his hair enough that he had to get a buzz cut. Trimmed short and ugly in a way that made him avoid mirrors.
He was nine when Robin moved away. A sad wave goodbye to him on her last day before she’s driven away from the school parking lot. Pietro doesn’t wave back.
Pietro was ten when David got arrested for the first time. Something small and minor. He’d be locked away for a month, maybe two. Pietro felt relaxed for the first time in a long while. A full breath finally leaving his lungs.
“You don’t have to bail him out. You can leave him there.”
“Peter I can’t do that.” Magda had already ransacked the house to find any spare cash to use for bail. Cushions flipped, piggy banks broken.
“Yes you can!” Pietro was furious, already too angry to have a proper conversation with his mother. He hated how much effort she was putting into trying to get him back in their house.
“Do not raise your voice at me Pietro.”
“Oh now I’m Pietro?”
“Enough. You’re being rude. I’m bailing David out and that’s final. He’s done so much for us and he-he isn’t perfect but he’s trying. We can’t just leave him there.”
It was the worst thing she could’ve said to the already agitated ten year old. Face flushed and chest beating like a drum.
“Yes we can! He can stay there and we don’t ever have to see him again!” That wouldn’t have worked. Pietro knows that now. He wouldn’t have stayed gone forever. It was just hopeful thinking. A ten year olds pipe dream.
“We can’t do that-“
“-why not?” Little Pietros whole face was red with anger and hurt. So much anger in such a small body. Barely Contained.
“Because he’s my husband. He’s your stepfather. He’s-“
“-I hate him!” His words angry and vibrating in the room. Interrupting his mothers big speech felt like he was finally taking back control. “I wish you never met him, I wish you never married him, I wish-“ he said the only thing he thought was justifiable. He said the real thing he wanted to happen. He said the truth. “-i wish he would just die.”
“Pietro Django Maximoff take that back right now. How can you even think-“ Magdas own face was flushed red too, angry and irritated by a ten year olds temper tantrum. Pietro interrupts. “-we can go. You and me. We can be gone before he comes back.” He has a bag. He calls it a go-bag. Not a very large go-bag but it has everything he thought he needed as a scared ten year old trying to run away. He had it in his closet at the bottom of his laundry basket and everyday he picked it up and everyday he put it back down. He constantly thought about his mother. He couldn’t leave her alone with David. Everyday he worked himself up to pick up the bag and everyday he settled himself back down, forcing himself to put the bag back down.
David was his boogey man and Pietro couldn’t let him devour her. Not if he can save his mom.
“Oh Pietro…” Magdas voice was sympathetic and sad and twisted up in his brain “I can’t leave. Not now.”
“Why?” Pietros crestfallen face was spreading into his voice, cracking and shivering in his throat like falling rocks on concrete. His mothers eyes melted like warm chocolate and her long lashes brushed her cheeks like a broom. She touches her stomach, somber and tired. “I’m pregnant.”
The room went silent. The words seem to echo in his head like a declaration. Pietros entire face dropped. All the expression on his face erased in a single sentence. Gone.
This was the moment Pietro lost all sense of self. Two words. Gluing his legs to the ground like cement.
“You’re going to be a big brother and David is going to be a father. He’ll be kinder with a baby. It’ll be his own flesh and blood.” His mom was hopeful and Pietro was ready to poke holes in her theory. To pull on the untethering string that was entangled in her heart.
“He’s a monster. A baby won’t change that.” Pietro is wise enough to know that David would never change.
“Pietro this wasn’t exactly planned but-“
“-I don’t want to be a brother.” Pietros words had been charged with rage and sadness and he hadn’t really meant most of it. Whenever he thinks back to this conversation, to this argument, he cringes at these words. “I don’t want you to have his baby.” Ten year old Pietro doesn’t know what an abortion is. He doesn’t really know what he’s implying or saying he just knows that a baby would mean they can’t runaway. It means David would be a permanent fixture in his life. Forever. No take backs. “He doesn’t deserve a baby.”
In no version of reality does David ever deserve anyone as good as Wanda Maximoff. Although that isn’t what young Pietro was concerned about. Not really.
“I’m sorry.” Magda says and Pietro can only say things that he knows will hurt, things that will haunt him later for years. Things he will deny he ever said.
“I hate you. I will never forgive you.” Pietro isn’t even looking at his mom when he says those words. He’s looking at her stomach. Cursing at a fetus that isn’t even born yet. Already damning a child yet to breathe the air he breathes .
This is the day that Pietro Maximoff gave up on trying to runaway. The day all hope for a life without David vanished before him. Because of a baby. Because of Wanda. He resented her before she was even born.
Pietro was ten years old-nearly eleven when he heard his mother curse for the first time. He was ten when she screamed and cried and sounded like she was dying or something worse then death. “Don’t you dare call a fucking ambulance Pietro. I’m not going to a damn hospital.” Hissing right at his face, enraged and young Pietro is more scared of his mother dying then he is of her anger.
Magda Maximoff has a visceral reaction when it comes to hospitals. Fear and rage and grief all wrapped into one place. Pietro maximoff often tries to forget this happened. He tries to forget how exactly this day went.
The day Wanda Maximoff was born his mom was filled with so much fear and rage that she would’ve preferred to have died bleeding in David's ugly leather couch than to step foot into a hospital. Baby be damned. David was absent so all the brunt of her wrath was aimed directly at her ten year old son.
Pietro was scared of losing his mom. Selfishly, he had no concern over the baby, Wanda, but was only afraid that if his mom died the only person he'd be left with in this world would be David.
“Fuck you! I fucking hate you!” His mother was not his mother. Sweat and blood and curses in her mouth, damming her one son, it didn’t feel like her. It didn’t sound like her. He pushed it far away even back then. Pietro became small and he shook beside a furious mother. Venom in her tongue.
The ambulance could be heard, the siren echoing in the house like a bomb dropping and she was unconscionable.
The richoches of screaming and crying broke Pietros heart and as the Nurses and doctors strapped his mother down as she struggles Pietro feels his worst panic attack trickling In.
“You’re hurting her!” Pietro follows the doctors past the ‘no guest allowed’ sign at the hospital face covered in sweat and eyes wide with horror at the scene.
A nurse looks at Pietro, the only nurse to properly look at him since they’ve arrived at the busy emergency room “She’s hurting herself. And the baby, we need to strap her down so she doesn’t hurt herself or anybody else.” They tighten the straps around her wrist to a painful angle and Magda Maximoff looks like a woman possessed. Thrashing and screaming profanities.
“Take the kid away.” One of the nurses yanks little Pietro's hand away from the bed frame that was keeping his mother hostage.
Stubborn and scared he stayed in his spot and refused to go quietly when nurses began to drag him away from his pregnant mother.
The day Wanda was born an earthquake shook the earth like a baby rattle. It caused dozens of car accidents and the crumbling of many family homes that scattered the coast of the city. Pietro would see later in the news that dozens of people died.
Pietro Maximoff to this day has no idea what curse was put on the Maximoff family to have such bad luck. The ground shook. The hospital emergency lights flickered and the shelves’ content collected on the ground. The earth spun until the walls began to crack and the ceiling began to split. If Pietro didn’t know any better he’d think it was in his head, a panic attack sneaking its way into his day, but the floor genuinely shook and the startled expressions of the staff couldn’t have been imagined.
Nurses run down the hall looking frantic “she’s bleeding too much! We need hands!”
Pietro tries to pull away from the nurses holding on to him. He bites and slaps and punches his way out of captivity. A police report would later say that he was a danger to the staff, leaving two nurses with cuts and bruises and a nasty concussion.
He refuses to stop fighting and they put him in a wheelchair. The ones meant for psychos. He saw it in a movie once. He’s not meant to be in it. He’s not a mental case. He’s not a serial killer or a crazy person, he just wants to see his mom. They strapped him down and Pietro remembers the bruises on his wrists for days afterwards. He remembers the untethered fear he felt when they started wheeling him away, away from his mother who looked like she was dying. He remembers feeling useless and scared and like he messed everything up by doing the ‘right thing’.
In that moment as they wheeled him away the roof caved in. Collapsing into the emergency hallway like a giant foot on a ripe pumpkin.
Pietro had the tendency to over explain things in his head. To simplify things that aren’t meant to be simple. Too imagine things as other things. David is the boogey man. The bus is a dragon. The hospital is a pumpkin. Big things become small things and it makes things more bearable.
Pumpkin seeds scatter the hospital floor. Gooey and lumpy and smelly.
Pietro blacks out. When he wakes up the first thing he asks for is his mom.
“She’s still sleeping.” A nurse had told him but Pietro found her room regardless. He knew that she wouldn’t be happy about waking up in a hospital.
Pietro calls a taxi to come pick them up, using his own money to pay for the fair and he manages to get his half unconscious mother out of bed and on to a wheelchair to roll her out of the hospital. It was difficult for him to do it by himself, all of the nurses advised against it but Pietro refused to let his mom wake up in a place that would make her panic like she had the night before. He got down the hall, barely strong enough to pull the wheelchair down the twisted and rubble filled hallway before he was stopped.
“Aren't you forgetting something?” An older nurse smiled knowingly at Pietro and the young maximoff boy looked at her with a twisted expression, confused. “No?”
The nurse, pink scrubs and tight rows of her curls on her head raised her tinted eyebrows at the young boy and points at the window on the left wall. Past the window was a room revealing rows of baby’s in cradles, a rainbow of skin tones and pink and blue hats with sleeping faces snuggled in their confinements.
Pietros face drops with the realization.
He had been so focused on getting out that he forgot why they came to begin with. He has a baby sibling now. They are in that room right now. Someone in that room has his DNA and it makes him want to run away faster.
“Don’t you wanna see your sister?”
Sister. He hadn’t known if he would get a baby sister or a baby brother. He hadn’t cared to know. His mother wanted it to be a surprise and Pietro refused to even acknowledge the fact that he was going to be a brother half the time. He has a sister. She’s in that room.
A part of Pietro considers telling the nurse that he doesn’t want to see her. In fact he wants to tell her that he doesn’t want her at all. He could leave his sister here and never claim her when the hospital calls. He could. His mom is asleep. He could leave. The baby can be gone and he wouldn’t even care.
He doesn’t care. It’s just David’s baby. Anything that belongs to David is bad. Evil. He doesn’t want a sister that belongs to David.
He wants to tell the nurse this. Instead he says “I guess.”
Pietro stubbornly walks into the room, gazing at all the swaddled babies in the room, lingering in each baby girl trying to decipher which one is the most evil. He couldn’t tell which one was his sister.
“You must be the brother.” Apparently she hadn’t been in any of the cradles she was being rocked by another nurse who had walked in just as they had entered.
“She’s as healthy as can be.” The nurse smiles and all Pietro can see of his sister is whisks of brown hair and Pietro already wants to leave. “Here you go.” The nurse bends and extends the baby.
“No, I don’t want to-“ before he could protest, a baby was in his arms.
Pietro blinks. Startled at the weight in his arms. Are baby’s meant to be this light? He looks down at the infant. His sister.
He looks at her, like really looks at her, and he can’t look away.
Oh.
She doesn’t look like David at all. She looks like his mom. Her eyes, her complexion, her hair, her ears. Something shifts. Clearing his mind. The little human in his arms goes from being The Baby to His Baby. That’s his sister.
Holy shit he has a sister.
He’s holding his sister right now.
She’s so tiny. “Is she meant to be this tiny.” His voice wobbles. Thirty seconds ago he would’ve wished death upon her. He wouldn’t have cared if she was a bit skinny, he wouldn’t have even blinked.
But suddenly nine months of pretending she doesn’t exist is kickstarting his guilt trip. He has a little sister now. Did he ever make the crib in her room? He can’t remember if he ever bought the diapers his mom asked him to get before she was born.
He can’t- “she’s a bit smaller but nothing out of the ordinary. She’s perfectly healthy.” The smaller nurse commented, her glasses reflecting off the warm lights in the room.
Pietro wants to cry as he holds his little sister in his arms. “She’s going to be okay?” His voice wasn’t coming out how he wants it to. He feels like he’s moving so slow and he feels so emotional and confused by what he’s feeling.
He didn’t want a sister.
But he supposes now he does.
He changed his mind.
It was a swift kind of flip. Like the moment he really saw her, the moment she was safely in his arms a switch clicked in his head. He was no longer an only child. It was something he was supposed to have been realizing. He had nine months to come to terms with it but it was only until she was here, in front of him, in his arms that it finally made sense to him.
He’s a big brother now. He thinks maybe he’s fine with that now. She looks like his mom. The baby giggles, his sister looks up at him with a smile.
He knows baby’s can’t actually smile, it’s a reflex, maybe she’s gassy. But it didn’t matter.
Her smile looks like moms smile.
Okay.
Okay.
He takes in a deep breath and pulls her closer to him, firmer and more secure.
Okay.
He’s a big brother now. Nothing bad will ever happen to this baby. He’s hers now.
“You know if your moms picked out a name yet?” The nurse asked softly after a few moments, letting Pietro have his little freak out.
“Yeah..” Magda Maximoff had a list of names tucked between pages in a book next to her bed. The list was long and hadn’t shrunk in the last month. She had about thirty four boy names. She only had one girl name. “Wanda. Wanda Django Maximoff.”
“That’s a beautiful name.”
It was.
David had wanted a boy. Something in the back of Pietros head was almost happy that Wanda wasn’t. Out of spite. Magda had vetoed the name Andrea immediately after David suggested it.
His mother gained consciousness in the taxi drive home. Pietro barely noticed, too focused on looking at his sister's sleeping form.
They got home and Pietro was on autopilot. Magda was in and out of consciousness for two days.
For two days Pietro Maximoff took care of his sister. She cried only once when she was hungry and slept equally as long as his mother.
Pietro changed her diaper. One, two, three, four times before he realized they needed to buy more. His mom breast fed her and Pietro made food on the stove for the two of them.
Pietro Maximoff had to adjust. Despite David he had to figure out how to fit his sister into his life. He had to protect her.
“She only stops crying when you hold her.” Magda frowns as she hands her infant child to her ten year old son.
“She’s used to me.” It wasn't meant as a jab at his mother. He had been the only one to properly hold the baby for the last two weeks. His mother was on bed rest and David was nowhere in sight. Pietro was used to her and Wanda was used to him. “Wanda się do ciebie przyzwyczai.” Pietro soothes.
“Your polish is getting choppy.” Magda says instead. Her face is still holding the frown.
Pietro rocked in the rocking chair. Feeling warm and safe and he hadn’t realized how much love someone can have for another person. It was jarring. It felt strange to think about him just a month before he had been dreading Wanda’s birth. He hadn’t wanted her home and now it seems like he’s the only one taking care of her.
His mom had gotten sad after giving birth. Drained for weeks afterwards. Unable to hold long conversations. Only showing face when David would make an appearance for a couple days before fucking off.
Then one day Pietro came from school and found a full dinner on the stove, his mom was moving around cleaning and cooking with a jittery aura.
“Davids here.” She says simply and Pietro knew the bubble had popped. He found his stepfather in Wanda’s room sitting in the rocking chair holding his daughter. Pietros sister. He wanted to rip her away from him but instead he just watched David while he sat and looked at his sleeping daughter. He didn’t rock on the rocking chair. He just sat on it, too big and wide to properly look comfortable in it.
“She doesn’t look like me.” David says and Pietro watches something dark pass through David’s face and the boy fumbles for a remedy. “Moms making dinner. Chicken. Your favorite.”
David rustles a bit and it wakes up Wanda who immediately bursts into tears. David refuses to let Pietro hold her which only makes Pietro more anxious.
It’s like that for a while. Tense and awkward and thirty days after Wanda was born Pietro took her to the synagogue for her public naming. Her name would be announced and a prayer for his mothers health is spoken.
“Blessed are you, source of living water, who revives the soul of all living.”
The words echoed in the large ancient building and were repeated by the mass. His mother wasn’t present, David had kept her busy all morning and it left the ceremony all up to Pietro.
He knew that she wanted to be there. It was tradition for her to be there but David was David and things happened.
“When the angels visited Abraham and announced the birth of his son Isaac, Abraham greeted them by washing their feet, symbolic of their status as honored guests. Today we will greet Wanda Django Maximoff as our guest of honor, by washing her feet.”
Water was poured over the infant's feet, gentle and warm and Wanda looked at ease as the water tickled her.
Her Brit Banot was concluded when a tallit was wrapped around her. The prayer shawl had belonged to his mother, who got it from her mother who got it from her mother. It was the only thing she was able to save from her past life. Before the camps. Before any evidence of her family and culture was burned to ash. The only semblance of a family heirloom of sorts. It was used during Pietro's naming ceremony and it was used during his older sisters as well.
The Rabbi led the chapel in a farewell prayer and song and everyone eventually left after greeting his sister and sending their own personal prayers over the infant.
“Is something bothering you young Pietro.” The younger boy had barely realized the shal had gone empty leaving the Jewish leader and himself alone with his resting sister.
The mans voice was soft, rarely rising above a casual stroke of a whisper.
Pietro has a sneaking suspicion that Rabbi Stanley knew about David.
Although he was a timid man he often made efforts to keep Pietro at the synagogue for longer when he knew David would be home. He was Always asking if his mother was coming or if the two would like to join him and his wife for dinner. They never obliged.
“No, sorry, I’m good. I’m fine. I should get back home.”
“Would you like to help me set back the chairs? It shouldn’t take too long but I have bad knees.” He knocked on his knees lightly with his wooden cane smiling quirkily.
“Yeah…okay. I can help. But I gotta head home right after.”
“Of course.”
And they moved the chairs against the wall. Rabbi Stanley began wiping the tables down as well and Pietro followed his lead as well. Then he began dusting past the window sills and the younger boy picked up a duster as well. He ended up staying for an extra two hours.
Suckered into cleaning the chapel completely. It was only when Wanda began to rustle awake that they came to a stop. Rabbi Stanley went to the back room before coming back to Pietro.
“Thank you for your help Pietro. I have this for you. As a thank you.”
Pietro blinked up at the older man looking a bit puzzled when he placed a cassette player in his hands. Shiny and silver. “I can’t-“ he blinks down at the machine in his hand “I can’t take this.” He tries to hand it back to the man but he shakes his head.
“It’s been in the lost and found for a while now. Used to belong to a kid around your age but his family moved away. You can have it. It won’t be any use to anyone in a musty box in a storage room.” But it was spotless. The cassette looked new, not a single nick or smudge on its surface.
He also knew that technology in the synagogue was strictly prohibited. Not heavily enforced but strongly implied. The idea of someone leaving it behind seemed careless but the idea that a seventy year old rabbi would go out of his way to buy it at all felt more unlikely.
“But i-I don’t have any music. I don’t even know what music I would play.” Just as Pietro said it he recalled a music store a few blocks from the grocery store. He remembers passing it. He feels a little numb. He wonders if Rabbi Stanley could’ve bought a cassette player there.
“I’m sure you will figure it out, kid. You’re smart.” And then he just smiles “music is a powerful tool to have.”
Pietro looks at the silver cassette and feels his chest inflate with something like happiness. But it’s dumb to feel happy about cheap metal. He shouldn’t be this caught up about it.
But it hadn’t just been Wanda’s naming day it had been Pietros Maximoffs birthday. He is now eleven years old. It had caught him by surprise that morning. Getting dressed in his best outfit, practicing his naming speech as he briefly looked at the calendar. It had barely registered to him. Barely made a blip in his brain. His mother hadn’t mentioned it, neither did David but that was no surprise by the argument that had unfurled between the two.
He couldn’t remember the last time he had gotten a gift on his birthday. He couldn’t remember the last time he got a gift at all.
“Thank you. I’ll take good care of it.”
“I know you will.”
He went to the music store right after and purchased a pair of headphones but pocketed two tapes. He listened to The Rolling Stones for the first time on his eleventh birthday.
He was eleven years old when his sister started teething. Eleven years old when she cries for hours at a time. He was eleven years old when he had to steal diapers because David spent all their money on booze. He was eleven when his hair started sprouting random grays. He was eleven years old when he got a growth spurt. He was eleven when he began to starve. Constantly wanting to eat but never having food to actually consume. He was eleven when David bolted the pantry doors closed so that Pietro couldn’t eat any of the food without his permission. Pietro was eleven when he realized he wasn’t supposed to be able to count his rib cage. He was starving and graying and he didn’t understand what was happening.
“Your body’s just changing. It’s normal.” His mom said and David looked at Pietro as if he hadn’t noticed. As if he hadn’t touched all the parts that had been changing. Pietro looks away from them both feeling strange in his own body.
He thought it was normal. He thought that it was all standard, normal puberty stuff. That’s what his mom told him. That’s what David said.
He was talking too fast at times. Hyper and fidgety. More than usual. Enough to be sent to the front office more than once. He was living up to expectations. He was always hyper. Always moving faster than others but it seemed to become a problem now. Because now it felt like everyone else was just going slow.
He listens to music, and his panic over it all eases slightly. He wonder if this is what Rabbi Stanley meant when he said that music was a powerful tool.
He wouldn’t get to ask though because Rabbi Stanley passes away. Cancer. Pietro wonders if the real reason why he kept asking Pietro to help him clean up the synagogue after the service was because he genuinely just couldn’t do it by himself. Too sick and too stiff. Dying slowly. Pietro threw up when he found out.
Rabbi Stanley had his funeral in the synagogue the very following day after his death. Buried, unembalmed and enclosed in a simple wooden casket. The service was was led by a rabbi from another location, a close friend to Rabbi Stanley. He led them in quiet prayer, barely able to contain his own tears. They followed the Hearse into the place of burial in silence.
They lowered his casket and buried him beside his sons grave. Pietro. His sons name was also Pietro. He had died only a year before. He had only been a year older than Pietro.
Rabbi Stanley’s son had died at twelve years old. His name matched Pietros. And when Pietro looked closer at the boys tombstone he realized they shared the same birthday as well.
With horrifying clarity Pietro realized where the cassette player had actually come from and why it had looked brand new. It belonged to Stanley’s son. His dead son. With pietro's name and Pietros birthday. Maybe he never ended up giving it to him. Maybe he had and he couldn’t really use it before he passed.
Maybe Rabbi Stanley wanted to help the maximoff so badly because it was like a do-over for him. Maybe he saw something in Pietro that the younger boy hadn’t realized. He missed it. Maybe it meant something different for Rabbi Stanley when he gave him the cassette player. Maybe it meant something different to him when he said his given name so gently every time. Like a prayer. Like a plead. Maybe.
So many maybes and Pietro and in true Pietro Maximoff fashion didn’t have enough certainty. He’ll never get to know.
He feels almost cheated on. Rabbi Stanley didn’t actually care about him because he was a good kid he cared about him because he thought he was someone else. Because he was getting something off of it. Using him to deal with his own grief. It made Pietro feel like…well not good. Like that’s all he’s good for. To be used.
He doesn’t ever ask Rabbi Stanley’s wife why he hadn’t told the community he was dying. Pietro doesn’t go to the shiva. He doesn’t go back to that synagogue. Not ever again.
Pietro wants to throw away the cassette player. He almost does. He throws it in the trashcan in his kitchen. Even going as far as to throw old ketchup packets on top of it. One minute later he’s frantically pulling it out of the trash bin looking incredibly remorseful. He wipes the ketchup off the surface of the cassette player and apologizes profusely to no one at all.
When his mother asks about the shiva he lies and she nods to herself, clearly also affected by the rabbis passing.
She never talks about it again and in return neither does Pietro.
Pietro was eleven years old when he realized that he felt different then everyone else because he was.
Pietro Django Maximoff was eleven years old when his sister started to crawl. The day his sister started to crawl was the very same day that the eleven year old Pietro got his powers.
The light consumed the room and as if they had always been there Older Pietro and Freshly ten year old Wanda split into the memory.
The day Pietro got his powers. Locked away behind an opened door.
Notes:
I read every single one of your comments. They make my day. Thank you.
This story will be long. I’m trying to cover the ten year gap between Xmen days of the future past and x-men apocalypse. I’m planning on including things from WandaVision as well. Things will be different from the movies and the show.
We will see Erik before the events in x-men: Apocalypse. A time jump will happen in a couple chapters. Nothing crazy.
I’m fully aware that The Aristocats movie didn’t come out until the 1970s and doesn’t line up with Pietro being seven. Just use your imagination, I loved that movie as a kid.
Chapter 16: Forward and Backwards again
Summary:
“Don’t go.” Kurt barely says, his voice already melting into the clouds. Pietro lets him fall towards him, letting the blue boy lay his head on his lap as the speedster leans his back against the wall. He adjusts Kurt’s blanket so that it covers his shoulders as well.
“I’m not going anywhere, blue.”
He doesn’t think he can. They are trapped in here for the foreseeable future.
“Promise?” Kurt lifts his pinky and he wonders how many times he’s seen Pietro do that with the little kids for him to think that was how all promises were made.
“I pinky promise.” Pietro loops his cold pinky with Kurt’s and the teleporter falls asleep just like that—with there fingers looped in a promise.
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Pietro unlocks a memory and wakes up to a shit show.
Notes:
Sorry for any writing errors or typos. I’m thinking of changing the point of view next chapter so you see what happened while Pietro was MIA.
Thank you for the comments, I love to read them.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ever since Pietro Django Maximoff got his powers, time has been something he had plenty of. “Time is a social construct.” Some people say that but Pietro knows it’s true. Time is completely and utterly at his disposal. He’s got nothing but time. Nothing but seconds dragged onto minutes dragged onto hours.
Sometimes Pietro feels like he has too much time. Too much to spare. Too much to meddle with. So he does the little things to keep himself busy or else he’d lose his mind. He plays Chess with Charles, a long and slow game nearly every single day for however long it takes. He hand washes the dishes and hand dries them because he has the time. He braids Wanda’s hair and Jeans hair and Drew's hair and anybody’s hair that wants to be meticulously braided. He counts the students every morning and counts them every night. He has plenty of time to watch the sunrise every morning and fall every single night. He makes breakfast, and he runs laps around the school and Pietro Maximoff still has thousands of hours in his day. Hours stretched into minutes stretched onto seconds. He does the small things and the big things. He mows the lawn and waters the plants and teaches Kurt to parallel park. He watches tv and eats junk food and plays video games and does everything he can to pass the time.
What’s an hour to a man with an infinite amount of seconds? What’s a day compared to a lifetime?
But before he had hours to spare and days to splurge, Pietro had minutes. He had seconds. Regular minutes and regular seconds that didn’t stretch too much or too far. Before he was Quicksilver. Before he got his super speed he was just a little Jewish kid taking care of his crumbling family. His mom. His sister. That’s all. To the best of his capabilities.
He missed moments. He lost time. He was too late for things and didn’t have time too think or breath. When Pietro Maximoff was eleven years old he had no time at all and everything happened far too fast and was far too heavy.
“We’re back at the house.” Wanda observes looking at the slight difference ten years made to their now burnt down house. The walls had a different, brighter paint to it then the faded green that was barely visible in the later years. The furniture was arranged slightly differently, small Knick knacks gone from the walls and shelves. It looked the same but different in a very off kilter way.
Pietro and Wanda had just walked through the creepy door in Pietros mind and landed right back to their childhood house. Pietro doesn’t want to think about the fact Wanda doesn’t refer to the house as home anymore. He doesn’t want to think about why he doesn’t either.
Pietro holds on to his sister's hand even though they’ve safely entered the memory already. He’s unsure of what is happening and he needs the physical reassurance that she’s safe. “Is that me?” Wanda looks down at her younger self. A toddler. Not even a year old. Playing with a squishy ball that Pietro most definitely stole. He remembers knabbing it as he was getting the grocery’s rung up and feeling a hit of endorphins pulse into him.
His impulse for stealing started early. Becoming less of a bad habit and more of a necessity in the later years.
“Looks like it. She’s got your big ass forehead.” Pietro pokes her forehead mockingly and Wanda scoffs rubbing her forehead “it’s my birthday! You can’t be mean on my birthday.”
“Is it still your birthday?” It’s been a very long twenty four hours. He isn't quite sure how time works in the mind. Has it been minutes or hours? Has it been days? How long have Wanda and Pietro been stuck in each others weird vortex mind thingy? Pietro doesn’t have an answer.
“It was morning when I got back. Definitely the day after your birthday at least.”
“Got back from where? Where did you go?” Wanda had asked casually but Pietro point blank refused to think about the whole Charles thing. Mostly because it’s still fresh and also because they are in his mind and he’s afraid he’ll accidently trigger the memory and he’ll end up having to hear Charles say those things again.
“Nowhere, just went for a run. Got a bit angsty.”
“You’re lying.” Wanda pouts.
“Boo, stop cheating.”
“I’m not cheating if we’re literally in your mind pie. I can tell when you’re lying now.”
“Now I know how everyone else feels.” Pietro bemoans.
“Now you do.” Wanda agrees with a funny face. “Where are you?”
“I don’t think I’m here.”
Wanda points at her baby self “well it’s not my memory. You gotta be here somewhere if you have this memory.”
Pietro hums, understanding that logic. He looks around the house barely catching the ruffle of brown curls, sprinkled with gray streaks, climbing down the family kitchen.
The door suddenly opened, harshly and smacking against the door frame. Wanda and Pietro both flinch as David stumbles into the house. The door had nearly hit baby Wanda and Little Pietro was rightfully upset about it.
“What the hell! You coulda hurt Wanda.” Little Pietro huffs, clambering to set the grocery’s on the counter.
“How’d you get that food?” David had ignored the younger boy's accusation.
“I bought it.” Little Pietro spat. He’s never seen his face when he gets this way, agitated and hollow. It doesn’t look good on his young face.
“With what money?”
“My money.”
“Have you been stealing from me you little shit. I was down a few dollars this morning. Did you take them from me?” David snags the box in pietros hand harshly making. They both mutually glare at each other. “To buy this shit?”
“That’s baby formula. For your daughter.” Little Pietro always liked to make that distinction. He now realizes it wasn’t out of bitterness but out of fear. Because Wanda doesn’t look like David. He didn’t want him to forget they are related. He didn’t want him to treat her the same as him.
“He looks different.” Wanda says quietly, looking at her father strangely.
“He’s drunk.” Pietro clarifies, not able to look away from baby Wanda as she stares at the open door.
“I know. But He sort of looks like Charles.” She says and Pietro does a double take. Tugging at that particular string like a toy. Oh.
David looks like Charles.
He hadn’t really put too much thought into it but the moment Wanda said it he couldn’t unsee it. Blue eyes, longish brown hair, short trimmed beard, a long slope to his nose. Pietro can even swear that he’s seen Charles wear that exact tie. It was a disturbing comparison to have. To see someone he—-cares about—-in someone that’s hurt him so badly.
He didn’t look like him. Not really. But he kinda did. They had similar things. Things that made Pietro's chest hurt just a little bit. Things that made Charles’ addiction feel like an echo of something else.
He wonders what Wanda must feel. Pietro wants to ask but his mouth doesn’t seem to want to speak. Eyes trailing back to baby Wanda. Paralyzed as he watches her from a distance. Unable to properly do anything.
“Are you sure we can’t change anything?” Pietro asks numbly, feeling like a million miles away.
Little Pietro is shouting something and David is hissing and all Pietro can focus on is that this was the first time Baby Wanda started to crawl.
Babies usually start crawling between seven to twelve months old. That’s what the home nurses said when they stopped by the house. Clipped voices and cold tones. Distant from the family in ways Pietro never understood. Wanda was only six months old when she started to crawl. Already ahead of the curve. Always rushing to those landmarks. Too fast and too early. That’s why little Pietro hadn’t thought to scold David about closing the door. That’s why no one paid attention when little Wanda began to crawl her way towards the open door. Eager and chunky and wide eyed at being able to move without assistance.
“There i go.” Wanda says to little Wanda, only half joking but Pietro is realizing which memory this is.
This is the day Pietro got his powers. Baby Wanda takes a minute to maneuver around the porch, past the front lawn in a relatively normal pace. Fast for a baby though.
“Stealing is a punishable crime Peter. Don’t you know that? You can go to jail. You know what they do to little boys in jail? Little boys that look like you? They bend them over and break em’.”
“You’re disgusting.” Little Pietro screws up his face dodging David’s hands as they attempt to clasp around his wrist. “I gotta feed Wanda.”
“Don’t pretend you’re doing this for Wanda.” David glares down at Little Pietro and if Pietros fingers weren’t itching to go outside, to go to baby Wanda, then he would’ve been equally as irritated by the scene as current Wanda is. Pietro can only watch in horror as baby Wanda manages to crawl her way of the house and into the lawn.
“Everything I do is for Wanda.” Little Pietro gets slapped in the face, he can hear the smack bounce in the room but Pietro refuses to look away from the baby that is clearly in danger.
“We can’t change anything?” Pietro asks again before he really knows he’s speaking.
“No.” Wanda was staring at the scene in front of them, probably the thing little Pietro was focusing on at the time but big Pietro knows better. He knows that ten seconds from now a driver is going to swerve into the street, unstable and dangerous and will barrel right into baby Wanda. Only six months old.
“What’s wrong?” Wanda grips pietro's hand tightly managing to rip her eyes away from the violence in front of her and gaze up at her brother in worry “you're scared. What’s wrong?”
Fuck.
“I remember now.”
Pietro can’t look away as the very truck he didn’t know he hates until this second, barreled down the street, full speed and honking his horn. Pietro can't use his powers here. He tries to run to baby Wanda. A fruitless attempt at changing her fate.
When Pietro tries to pick her up off the ground his hand fazes past her. A mirage in a solid memory. Unchanging and cruel. In normal speed he could’ve gotten her he realizes. If he hadn’t picked a fight with David he could’ve still saved her.
He could’ve ran even without his powers he could’ve saved her.
The car comes closer, immovable and harsh and the last honk is what alerts little Pietro to the scene. Wanda’s eyes widen as she watches her younger self get toppled over by a truck.
Crushed and killed. It happened all so fast. Yet in slow motion.
Wanda screams bloody murder. Frantically she grabs on to Pietro, tears in her face. This is the exact same thing that Little Pietro did. Wanda and little eleven year old Pietro scream in high pitched unison at the blood bath.
He realizes now why he had blocked it out. The blood. The gore. The pain and agony he felt at failing. At not doing the one thing he was supposed to do. At watching a child die.
“No! No! No!” Little Pietro felt all the guilt and all the sorrow and Pietro now remembers what comes next.
He knows how this plays out.
He watches in breathtaking horror, never seeing it from this point of view, as Little Pietros body shook. Faster then it should. Faster than he’s ever been even in Pietro's super speed. He remember now why he was always too afraid to push it. Too scared of how fast he could really go. He remembers feeling his skin boil but seeing it is a whole different feature.
He was a fucking storm.
Little Pietro brown curls went away almost instantaneously. Silver grays overcame his face, and his skin turned paler as he ran.
Not forward.
But backwards.
The room shifts and the scene moves back to the beginning. Wanda and Pietro watch in amazement as Little Pietro sticks his head out of the pantry, faster this time, head a full silver and before David could barge into the room like before, leaving the door open, eleven year old, freshly mutated, Pietro Django maximoff locks his stepfather out.
“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.” Little Pietro repeats it over and over and over and he’s rocking in a corner too afraid to pick up Wanda because his hands are shaking and they won’t stop.
They shake like blades on a blender, fast and deadly and little Pietro doesn’t know how it works—he doesn’t understand that he won’t hurt Wanda.
All he knows is that he already had and he refuses to do it again.
“I don’t understand. What just happened?” Wanda still had tears in her cheeks, looking at her brother having a very clear mental breakdown.
“I saved you. From the truck.”
“How? I don’t understand? Did that happen or not? “
“I don’t know. I think so. It-it felt real. I remember...Smelling your blood. Being afraid of hurting you. I remember being stuck like that for a long time but I-i didn't realize it was because I had seen you—fuck!.” He remembers the day he got his powers like a movie. Watching it from someone’s point of view. Polished and clean and horrific in a way that most mutant coming out moments are. He recalls it like it was someone else telling him the story. Like he told himself enough times that it wasn’t real that suddenly…it just wasn’t.
Pietro had blocked it out completely. Erased and altered in his brain.
Pietro doesn’t realize he’s being hugged until he heard Wanda’s voice whispering in his ear. “Thank you for saving me Pietro.” She says gently, and her arms are too small to fully wrap around Pietro but he melts into them regardless. Becoming almost like putty in his sisters arms.
“I’m so sorry.” Pietro hadn’t realized the weight of those words coming out of his mouth. If unveiled another dam of tears.
Pietro feels like he’s been crying a lot lately.
“I’m so fucking sorry red. I should’ve-I should’ve closed the door. I should’ve seen you leave I-“
“-You weren’t the one to open it. You're not the one that’s supposed to worry about me leaving. You didn’t do anything wrong. You saved me.”
“I killed you.”
“You saved me.”
“I killed you.”
“You didn’t. You saved my life. I’m alive. I’m right here.”
“You died. I saw you.” Six months. She hadn’t even made it past six months. How could he forget something like this? How can he forgive himself?
“I’m not dead Pietro.” Wanda pulls at Pietro, forcing him to face her, to look her in the eye “you saved me. I don’t know how you did it but you saved me.”
“I don’t know how I did it either.” Pietro didn’t even know that he did anything to begin with. The day he got his powers always felt like a vague memory. Something only recalled in fragments. He remembers being afraid to touch Wanda. He doesn’t remember why he kept crying, why he kept going into panic attacks, he just knows that it was bad.
Pietro thought maybe he had hurt Wanda. Maybe that would explain his fear of touching her, of holding her even out of super speed. He assumes that eventually he got over that fear. Forgave himself in some way. But he didn’t really remember. Not really. His mind, in some fucked up way of protecting him, decided to compartmentalize the memory. Away and gone from sight, trapped behind a locked door.
He didn’t know. And now he does and he can only see small broken limbs and a crushed skull and blood. So much fucking blood that Pietro found a new example of the color red.
“I’m so sorry that happened to you Wanda.” Pietro holds his sister because it’s the only thing he can do. Wanda was shaking too. She did just see herself die. Anybody would be shaken after that. He doesn’t know what to do. Baby Wanda is crying and eleven year old Pietro is crying too, shaking to the point that he can’t be seen and everyone is visibly upset.
The room shifts and Pietro curses under his breath. Wanda refuses to let go of pietros arm. Not even for a second.
They are in the living room. Magda is beside eleven year old Pietro on the couch, a bottle in one hand and her other hand combing through her son's hair.
He looked like he hadn't slept, his hair is completely silver now. Magda Maximoff gently holds her son but is unable to shake the discomfort from her face. “You know Pietro, my kochanie, I once knew a man who was special just like you.”
Little Pietro rubbed his baby tears and sniffles up a storm and refused to face his mother. He hadn’t told her what had happened. He hadn’t told anyone. She had simply found him panicking in a corner phasing in and out of sight in superspeed, half the house was destroyed and in shambles from his frantic running and Wanda was left on the floor crying with a dirty diaper. David had passed out on the front porch and little Pietro couldn’t pull himself out of superspeed to pick Wanda up from the floor without fear of hurting her.
He felt like the world around him was going insane, melting into madness, too slow to even fathom and then too fast all at once. He thought he had lost his head. Falling adrift into madness. Alone in a bubble of his own creation.
“You did?”
“Yeah, he could control metal. Move it with his mind.”
“How?”
“He was born with something special inside him just like you.“
Pietro digested that information with as much grace as any kid would and made a face. “And where is he now?”
Magda didn’t respond, gazing sadly at her son “some people don’t like when other people are different. They try to make them bend to their rules and if they don’t bend they break.” Magda looks deeply at her son.
“Which one was he?”
“Neither. He did the breaking and the bending. You’re a lot like him. You’re strong.”
Little Pietro fell silent.
He feels those words cool around his neck tightening like a noose. He doesn’t know who his mom thinks he is but unbreakable seems like the farthest thing from the truth. Unbending? Strong? It feels like a lie.
“I love you.” Little Pietro mumbled out even though he felt like dying, even though his mind was mush and his heart wouldn’t stop skipping in his chest.
“I love you too.” Magda says with heaviness in her voice.
Wanda looks at at eleven year old Pietro and he could only imagine what she could be thinking. “Was it the man on the tv?”
“What?” Pietros voice was hoarse.
“The man that mama knows who can control metal. Was it the man on the tv? The one that tried to kill the president?”
Erik fucking Lensherr.
“I don’t know.” Pietro had thought about it briefly when he met the metal bender. Bumbling and eager to make a connection. Making small meaningless conversation with the freshly out of prison mutant. “It would be crazy if she did though.”
The odds of his mother knowing the man that attempted to kill two separate presidents of the United States of America is pretty slim. The odds of Pietro Maximoff meeting the same exact mutant is also pretty fucking slim. And bizzare.
Pietro adjusts his palm on Wanda’s palm, feeling a cold sweat hit him all at once.
Baby Wanda starts to cry and her screech bursts the scene in half shifting the room again to another memory.
“Give me a fucking break,” Pietro groans his head pounding. Why can’t he just take a breath between memories? Maybe a small pause?
“I feel like-“ Wanda tightens her grip on Pietro's hand. He looks down at her in alarm, catching the hitch in her voice. “What’s wrong?”
“I don’t-I-“Wanda blinks rapidly “-i think I’m waking up-“ her eyes glow red.
“That’s good. Isn’t it?” Pietro is relieved that they won’t be in here much longer.
“No, Something’s wrong. I don’t-I think something happened.”
“In here?” Pietro looks around the collapsing memory feeling panicked and overwhelmed but that isn’t necessarily new.
“Out there.” Wanda shakes her head and clutches on to Pietros hand frantically, both hands clasped. “We’re separated.”
“I’m right here.” Pietro says not quite knowing what’s going on or how to help her. The room is shifting. It’s been shifting a lot longer than it has before. It gets loud. The vacuum running in the air like oxygen.
“No! Something is wrong Pietro! We’re waking up but its too early-they are forcing us to wake up.”
“Who’s they? Whose making us wake up? Charles?”
“No, he’s not here. I don’t know where he is. I can’t see him. I can’t see anyone. I can’t feel anyone.” Wanda looks scared and now Pietro is catching up. If she can’t feel anyone that means no one is there or—no.
“Fuck-“
“-we’re going to wake u-“
“-I’ll be right there when you are u-“
“-I love you pie-“
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Pietros flesh gets torn in half.
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It’s stitched back together again.
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Fuck.
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When Peter opened his eyes again he couldn’t move. He was staring straight at a white light and a loud beeping noise made his heart beat faster at every beep, beep, beep.
What the fuck? Is he dead?
He thinks he might be dying, as he’s looking into the bright looming light just before his last moments and instead of the expectant relief he felt only fear.
He didn’t wanna die.
Then he saw the face of an Angel. He had brown eyes and tan skin and he wasn’t an Angel. Pietro wasn’t dying. Pietro was in a hospital bed. He tried to move but every part of his body refused to do so.
The not-Angel smiled at him and it didn’t look evil. “Hello, Mr. Maximoff, nice of you to join us.”
Pietro can’t respond, his tongue itching to do so but completely still in his mouth. Why can’t he move?
This isn’t a hospital room, this is a surgical room. The air smelled stale and thin and Pietro couldn’t move because his wrist and his legs were strapped down to the bed. No, not a bed. A table.
He was strapped down to a cold table looking at a not-Angel.
“I’m so glad you’re awake for this part. It’s not nearly as enjoyable in silence.” He wore a dirty lab coat and Pietro thought of Hank and his spotless white Coat, always so cautious to keep it clean. This man's lab coat was covered in blood. Pietro doesn’t know if it’s his or not. It probably is. Although he doesn’t remember, which happens to be a running trend as of late.
“How attached to your lungs are you?”
Physically? Very attached. His mouth was numb. Pietro doesn’t know how this sociopath expects him to respond.
“Right, well, don’t you worry. We’ve already got a fresh new one just for you.”
The beeping became erratic. Pietro only then realizes it’s a heart monitor. His heart monitor. Because he’s in a surgical room about to be cut open by a crazy man.
Holy fuck is this real? Is he in another memory? Is he still asleep or is this actually happening?
“This will hurt.” The man pressed the scalpel onto his sternum and Pietro doesn’t really feel the pain when he punctures his skin but he definitely feels it when it slices down his chest, gliding through flesh like pizza.
Fucking fuck!
Pietro squirms and hisses and he can’t move and all he can really do is scream with a still mouth. Wordless screams, that echo in the room and make a smile grow on the devil's face as he continues to cut into Pietro like he’s just flesh and muscle.
Why is this happening? What is going on? Tears are burning his eyes and runs down his face into the hard table.
Pietro passes out.
He wakes up again mid-procedure and he sees his lung in a jar connected to tubes, still pumping and the man’s hands digging and scooping into his insides like two day leftovers. Pietro screams bloody murder and falls back into unconsciousness moments later.
Pietro wakes up screaming, his head pounding like a church bell. His body hurts and his chest feels like a million splinters. He feels vomit crawl up his throat and huddle back down to his stomach like a game of peekaboo. Pietro is in so much agony that he can barely peel his nearly naked body off the cold concrete ground. He profusely sweats which makes him sticky and gross.
He doesn’t know where he is. He’s not at the mansion. He knows the mansion. He knows all the rooms, all the crooks and all the crannies. He’s searched and dusted and cleaned all the rooms on every floor. He knows every single one, even the ones he’s not meant to know about. He knows the mansion like it’s his home. He’s lived a lifetime there in such a short time. He isn’t in the mansion. He would know.
Also-more horrifically—-
—-Wanda isn’t with him. The ache in his chest triples. Where the fuck is his sister?
Where the fuck is Wanda and who the fuck was that guy?
“Welcome back, Peter.” A familiar voice spoke, hoarse and delicate and it made Pietro flinch even though she was quiet with her words. The room was bursted in light. Bright hospital-like lights that made his eyes squint, and his head pound even more than it already was.
Pietros eyes located a Whitley from across the room, curled in on themselves and staring unblinkingly at Pietro, deep bags underneath her eyes and pale sweaty skin to rival his own. An empty cement room with no visible door. Empty except him and the unnamed Whitley.
What the hell is going on?
He attempts to get up from the floor with a groan and hiss. “You’ll pull on your stitches.”
He settles on sitting propped up against the wall slipping his hand under his shirt and feeling the grooves on his skin, cuts and bumps of what seems to be hazardously threaded stitches.
“Why do I have stitches?” He asks outloud because he isn’t fully convinced he isn’t still in his head. Trapped in another memory he doesn’t remember. Maybe this whole thing is another hellscape that belongs to someone else.
“They had you for a long time.” Whitley says numbly and Pietro feels sick and he can literally feel his pulse through his shoulder, loud and fast “who’s they? Where are we?”
“They came at night. They took all the mutants and have kept us here in this room for several days.”
Days? Pietro has been out of it for fucking days?
“I don’t remember. I-“ Pietro clamped his mouth shut when he realized that Whitley looked about three seconds away from crying, crinkled chin and watery eyes that stare into nothing. Fuck. Shit.
Pietro takes in the heavy set of bags and sweaty face that looked pale and sickly and the shake to her hands that never settle. This was more than the result of a couple days adrift. This was something else.
Something he’s only seen once before when the Whitleys slept in different rooms for more than a day and didn’t morph at all. The first sign is usually a bit of sweating. By that point they are too tired to stay separated and tend to blend back into one body.
From the looks of it. They aren’t all there. From the extent of the damage that Pietro can see he figures maybe one or two alters are gone.
He doesn’t know what the consequence of distance is but if it’s any worse then what it looks now he doesn’t wanna see it.
“How many of you are gone?” He asks quietly, feeling the dread seep into his bones. He’s memorized almost all their names. He’s played Pac-Man with Sophie, he’s pulled pranks with Samantha, he’s talked about boys with Sky, he’s braided each and everyone of their hairs. He couldn’t imagine losing any of them.
“Sebastian and Shane never merged. They are stuck.”
The boys. Pietro knows them. He’s spent time with the boys. He’s bought baseball cards for Shane and taught Sebastian how to skateboard. Two alters. Two boys. The only boys. Two minds with no tether. No way of coming back to their girls.
Sebastian and Shane are the protectors. Without them the other alters are left unprotected and in danger. Shane and Sebastian were born as a result of trauma. All the alters are. It was a way for the original host to cope and Shane and Sebastian are the skeletons of the original creator. They endure so the others don’t. To them, it’s their duty. They are, in all ways that matter, the older brothers to a herd of sisters.
As an older brother Pietro knows exactly how they must be feeling, not knowing how their sisters are doing. The guilt must be eating at them, leaving a hole in the center of their mind. Scared and probably just as sick as the girls. Pietros knows they are because that’s exactly how he feels right now. Thinking of Wanda. Thinking of Jean. Thinking of all the mutants that were under his watch.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t awake to stop it.”
“There’s nothing you could’ve done. There were too many of them. Too well planned and…”
“…And what?” Pietro doesn’t know what he thought the rest of that sentence was but he would’ve never guessed what she actually said.
“Miss Margo is gone.”
Pietro flinches, his mouth snapping shut. He doesn’t need her to repeat it. Not really. He knows what she means. But-
“She-she tried to save as many of us as possible. Hank and Charles weren’t there and she couldn’t save everyone.” She rubs her eyes “they only wanted mutants. They didn’t touch Frankie or Drew. They wouldn’t have killed her if she didn’t fight so hard to save us.”
-She would’ve been home, pruning her garden surrounded by her cats, homeschooling her foster children. She would be alive. And now she isn’t.
Pietro liked miss Margo- is the thing, but Miss Margo, who cooks like death, and laughs with her shoulders, and dresses like she has a costume on every single day, is dead. Pietro is reminded of Rabbi Stanley. His death was just as upsetting and sudden and horrible and Pietro can’t help but think about the fact that she wouldn’t have been in the mansion at all if Pietro hadn’t come to her house. If he hadn’t knocked on her door with fresh flowers and smelly shoes then she would’ve been alive.
Pietro thinks of Kurt. He thinks about how another parent is gone from the teleporters life. He feels that shroud of darkness around his head. The thought of how Kurt must be feeling is the reason he asks “and Kurt? Is he okay?”
Whitley looks at him, lips forming a straight line as she flicks her head behind Pietro “i don’t know. I-“ her eyes drop and her back straightens, brows lowering.
This is someone else now.
“-These stupid fucking collars won’t let us multiply so we only got one body to talk through.” Sylvia hisses. Her thick New Zealand accent bouncing off the cement walls. Pietro suddenly looks down at the heavy collar around his neck, just now realizing he’s wearing one. That explains why he’s not healing fast. Or at all. He’s never actually had to deal with pain to this degree since his mutation surfaced. He’s never needed stitches.
Is this how it usually feels when people go through surgery? Did Pietro go through surgery? It feels like he did. Is it bad that he can’t remember any of it? Just weird painful flashes. Damn. It probably is super bad that he can’t.
“Sylvia who was I just talking to?” He had been so out of it he forgot to even ask.
“None of your beezewacks fuckface.”
“Chill out, man! At least she was actually answering my questions you’re just straight mean.”
“It was Alisha.”
“Alisha as in-“
“-The original host. Yeah. She rarely comes out.”
“-why did she go back in?”
“-it’s about to be our turn. And she can’t be the one on the line when they get us.”
“Your turn for what?” Pietro tries to stand up again but only groans and winces as the muscles around his stomach pull at his stitches. Fucking hell.
Fucking fuck that hurts.
She winces “for whatever they did to you.”
Pietro throws up all over the cold cement floor and as if to kick him while he was down the collar around his neck rang electricity through his entire body. So did Whitleys. They both gasp and scream at the sudden jolt.
“What the fuck!”
The wall behind Whitley melts. Dropping until their was a human sized hole in the center. A large man in a black outfit dumps a body on the floor with a thud and a stiff man in a lab coat followed behind him with a clipboard. His heels clock against the cement floor.
“Who the hell are you?” Pietro hisses, trying to stand but another jolt hits his collar that makes him collapse immediately. Fucking shit.
Neither responded. The doctor pointed at Whitley who’s expression turned blank and her trying to pull a brave face hurts Pietro's heart more than it should. The man in black steps forward to grab her and Pietro stands up, ignoring the ache in his bones and the threat of electricity in his skin, he moves as quickly as he can in this state. “Please, she's just a kid.” He stands between the two, preventing the dark man from taking her.
The doctor looks up sharply, his cold eyes familiar in a way that confuses Pietro. “Nobody is just a kid.” His voice was like a snake, smooth and slippery in a form that rubs between his ears and grabs him with nasty talons.
Pietros grimaces “you won’t get away with this.” He wishes he could show more confidence in his declaration.
He is very aware of how much they’ve probably already gotten away with. He thinks of the homes they’ve raided, the mutants they've taken with no pullback from the government.
“They already have.” The man in black says.
Pietro notes that the man also has a collar around his neck. Hanging more tightly around him to the point that it looks seared into his skin and his eyes never meet Pietros or Sylvia’s, emotionless and stoic. His face marks a giant M on the side of his skull that looks burned into his flesh.
Some people break and bend.
“I think your friend may need some help.” The man in black gestures at the slump body he had just dropped on the floor. To pietros horror he realizes that it’s Kurt. He was wearing a blanket that covered up most of him so Pietro hadn’t noticed him under all the bandages.
While he was distracted by this revelation The man in black grabbed Sylvia and Pietro jerked forward to grab her but in his sluggish state it was easier to predict his moves. No superspeed to block or aim any attacks. “We’ll be okay.” Sylvia says and she couldn’t quite hide the fear in her voice. That fear grabbed Pietro and gave him the willpower to practically throw himself at the man in black, the man in the lab coat perfectly safe behind the hulking man.
That’s when the electricity struck him once again. By the time the buzzing around his head stopped they were gone and the wall was smooth and spotless, no evidence of any breakage at all.
Fuck. Pietro didn’t care. He touched the wall as if maybe it would melt under his hands as well. It didn’t. He slapped it and ran his palms through it, pushed and jabbed and punched and clawed at the grooves until his fingernails bled. Desperate and terrified of what they were doing to Sylvia. Terrified that they might be doing the same thing to Wanda.
“Yosef?” Kurt’s voice is the only thing to pull him back, sluggish and dripping with a thick accent.
“Kurt, baby.” Pietro is by Kurt’s side scarily fast for a guy with no powers. “It’s me, it’s Pietro.”
“I’m sorry Yosef! Please! Stop I’m sorry!” Kurt cries, thrashing and jerking. His tail curled around his body protectively and tears shed behind his closed eyes.
“I’m not Yosef. You’re not at the circus. You’re with me. You’re with Pietro.” Pietro desperately wanted to say that he was safe. That he had nothing to worry about but he wasn’t. Pietro had no idea where they were and they are currently the least safe they have ever been.
“Yosef, I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.” Kurt cries and Pietro feels another ache in his chest, he hates that Kurt thinks he has to ask for forgiveness at all.
“You did nothing wrong Kurt. Yosef was a bad man.” He’s gone. Pietro has to remind himself that Kurt’s demons aren’t ones he can fight for him. Yosef is a bad man. Kurt has told him enough, and if a peak into his nightmare was any hint at what kind of shit he put him through then that man deserves to be six feet under ground. Dead and rotting.
“I can’t-I don’t want to-please.” Kurt’s voice falters and Pietro holds his hand face crumbling at the boys pleads “you don’t have to do anything, blue. You don’t have to do anything ever again. Just rest. Please just rest.” It felt like a promise, an oath. One Pietro doesn’t know he can guarantee.
Kurt stops fighting, stops whining in his sleep and his eyes open slowly, a bit foggy “Pietro?”
“Yeah that’s my name, don’t wear it out.”
Kurt sits up and leans close to him, suddenly wrapping his weak arms around the speedster, letting out a wet laugh. “I thought you were dead.” He sobbed and Pietro wraps his arms around him too even though it hurts to move at all.
“I’m glad I’m not. Are you okay?” Pietro touches Kurt’s face, more to inspect for any bruises or swelling but also because he just wanted to feel that he was actually there. Present and with him.
“I’m not doing great.” Kurt says honestly and Pietro wipes the tear that snuck past Kurt’s cheek. “Did they…do anything else to you? Besides—cutting you.” Pietro looks at the jagged stitch running down Kurt’s bare chest. It was the first time he’s seen Kurt shirtless and it’s the first times he’s seen the dozens of cuts and scars scattering his ribs and stomach, not just the giant one slashing the center. Old ones. Pietro looks away respectfully, wrapping the blanket more snuggly around his friend.
Kurt shakes his head but says “I don’t think so. At some point I just passed out from pain.” His eyes drift, looking heavy.
“It’s okay, you can sleep.” Pietro adjusts himself into a sitting position.
“Don’t go.” Kurt barely says, his voice already melting into the clouds. Pietro lets him fall towards him, letting the blue boy lay his head on his lap as the speedster leans his back against the wall. He adjusts Kurt’s blanket so that it covers his shoulders as well.
“I’m not going anywhere, blue.”
He doesn’t think he can. They are trapped in here for the foreseeable future.
“Promise?” Kurt lifts his pinky and he wonders how many times he’s seen Pietro do that with the little kids for him to think that was how all promises were made.
“I pinky promise.” Pietro loops his cold pinky with Kurt’s and the teleporter falls asleep just like that—with there fingers looped in a promise.
Pietro looks down at his thin shirt and sees the patch of dark liquid soaking the front of his shirt.
He hopes he can keep that promise.
Notes:
David and Charles are NOT related. I don’t want anybody to be confused I’m just implying that they look similar, like, if you squint. For angsty purposes.
Brings it back to when Pietro briefly thought Charles was David at the bar and in the beginning of the story when Pietro had to kept calling him
“not-David” in his head.Wanda’s a bit more perceptive than Pietro.
Chapter 17: The Amazing Nightcrawler
Summary:
“Not many people in the circus liked me. Only Dolly.”
“Who’s Dolly?” Pietro adds to the conversation in small doses.
“She was another mutant. She had spikes for hands so they didn’t put her with the other mutants.” Kurt got a far away look on his face, his bruised up face making Pietro pay close attention to how he hugs himself in a self soothing way. “Everyone was always so afraid of her because she was so prickly but most of the time she just wanted a hug.” Pietros mind supplies him with the image of the scars all around Kurt’s stomach and back. It felt like a rock dropping in his stomach.
The only form of comfort Kurt Wagner ever got was like a slice of a knife and he welcomed the pain with an open heart and a grateful smile.
—- or——
Kurt and Pietro meet some other mutants. They keep warm and they talk until one of them is due for another round of torture.
Notes:
Pietro is a conspiracy theorist. Confirmed.
Also the timeline is purposely vague. You’re not suppose to know how long they’ve been captured because they themselves have no idea how long they’ve been captured.
Sorry for any typos. Enjoy reading <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro maximoff blames Hank McCoy for how absolutely hungry he is right now. Not only did the well meaning scientist feed him high calorie food he also got him used to eating it consistently. The little pudge on his stomach is proof enough of how much his health and eating habits had improved. He got less headaches and he could run for longer periods of time without craving any food. Usually that would be a good thing except now Pietro Maximoff after seemingly a few days of not eating is absolutely famished. Starved actually.
“A hundred and forty two. That’s five more pounds then last time.” Hank McCoy had told him, writing the new numbers on his annoyingly noisy clipboard. Pietro hadn’t thought he was underweight before but the way Hank's face had grown ashen pale the first time he weighed him still haunts him. He had been used to counting his ribs and seeing the gap between his thighs. He didn’t know anything was wrong. He thought the slight constant rumbling in his stomach was his ADHD and not his stomach begging to be fed.
Hank nearly force fed Pietro all the food in the house when he told him about the rumbling. “I know the meal replacements don't taste good but it’s just to bring up your metabolism and keep you stable. I’m really glad you’re still taking them.”
When he tells Charles about it afterwards he smiles softly at Pietro “I’m really proud of you.” He says and Charles' approval gave him a bit of a dopamine high for days afterwards. Pietro kept replaying the words “I’m really proud of you” like a chorus in one of his favorite songs. Sticking in his head like an ear worm. Now the speedster is regretting getting his body used to a high calorie count because he suddenly has absolutely nothing to work with. Pietro is fucking famished. He’s also really fucking cold.
Pietro has grown accustomed to the cold in the last couple of months. He was used to Bobby’s fits and tantrums that ended in indoor snowball fights and icicle sized holes in windows. Pietro was used to Bobby’s anger changing the temperature of the mansion and the drastic imbalance of the occasional indoor snowstorm. Pietro has been woken up more than once by the clattering of jeans teeth and had grown accustomed to doubling up on blankets when he put the kids to sleep. It was an adjustment but not necessarily a problem for the speedster.
It wasn’t that Pietro couldn’t feel cold, it was just that it didn’t affect him as much considering his body moves faster than the speed of sound and works over time at all times to keep it warm and pumping. His body is a damn furnace--eternally warm and cozy. Bonus points: it's great for cuddling.
As long as he has his powers of course. Which unfortunately he does not at this current moment. The metal collar suppressing his abilities made it hard to forget that.
It was cold in the doorless cell, their breaths marked the air around them and Pietro could see a fresh layer of ice forming on the wall. His body vibrates and maybe if he had his silver jacket it would be more bearable but that was taken away and he was left behind with cold bare arms and thin clothes that had no form of protection from the elements.
Pietro knew this was probably another form of torture. His skin burned with cold and his insides felt like ice cubes being crushed. A disgusting icee of organs and blood. The collar around his neck was heavy around his neck and weighed him down.
“Did you know-“ Kurt’s voice sounded like a beacon and Pietro turned to him, desperate for the distraction. “-that in the circus I had to wear a collar just like this.” Kurt fitters a bit with his own metal chain.
He did know that. He saw it during his very invasive dream jumping. “Maybe they sell mutant suppressant collars at Costco or something.”
“Who’s Costco?”
Pietro fights back a grin “it’s a store. They sell things in bulk.”
“They sell mutant items?”
“No-that was-I was making a joke. I was kidding.”
“I don’t get the joke.” Kurt frowns.
“I-nevermind. It wasn’t really funny.” Sometimes Pietros jokes go over Kurt’s head and usually the speedster is willing to explain the punchline to the blue boy but the ache in his stomach and the coldness in his stomach, along with the stretched stitches in his abdominal and arms—made it so that he was a bit too antsy to have the patience to do so. “Tell me about the circus. Or anything.” He just wants to hear Kurt talk—his voice is soothing and warm and the only thing keeping Pietro sane currently.
“In The circus we’d travel to cold places and our trucks and trolleys weren’t very weather resistant so we’d all kinda just stay in one truck so it would be warmer since our bodies created a natural heat. The kids usually paired up and tried to stay warm that way.” Kurt speaks and a puff of cold air circle around his mouth.
“Who’d you pair up with?” Pietro rubs his palms together trying to create some form of body heat and Kurt just shakes his head. Pietro can see it now. A group of circus performers pairing off for warmth and leaving poor Kurt all by himself shivering in a corner.
“Not many people in the circus liked me. Only Dolly.”
“Who’s Dolly?” Pietro adds to the conversation in small doses.
“She was another mutant. She had spikes for hands so they didn’t put her with the other mutants.” Kurt got a far away look on his face, his bruised up face making Pietro pay close attention to how he hugs himself in a self soothing way. “Everyone was always so afraid of her because she was so prickly but most of the time she just wanted a hug.” Pietros mind supplies him with the image of the scars all around Kurt’s stomach and back. It felt like a rock dropping in his stomach.
The only form of comfort Kurt Wagner ever got was like a slice of a knife and he welcomed the pain with an open heart and a grateful smile.
“She was a good fighter.” Kurt says with something heavy behind his eyes. He’s thinking about the cage where the circus had them fight in. Kurt has told him about how they made the mutants hurt each other. He never goes into too much detail and Pietro never pushes. “I hope she’s okay.” Kurt slips out, his voice barely above a whisper—he hadn’t meant to say that part out loud.
“I’ll be your pair.” Pietro wants to break the sadness that’s overwhelming Kurt and he doesn’t know how to do that when they're in such a shitty situation. Hungry, freezing and bleeding. “I’ll keep you warm.” Pietro was already beside him scooting impossibly close to the teleporter, joining him in his space. Joining him in his sadness instead of making it less.
“I-I don’t-“ Kurt cuts himself off, his voice becoming mush when Pietro's warm breath hits his shoulder blade, his skin equally as exposed as his.
“It’s alright.” Pietro wraps one arm around Kurt’s stomach, the other around his shoulder, sitting behind him and keeping his back warm.
“Is this okay?” Pietro was going slow. Kurt is looking at him like a deer in headlights, startled by any quick motion. A week ago he would’ve let Pietro hold him but a week ago they weren’t in a place where they needed to keep their guard up. The speedster is a tactile person and equally as touch starved as his blue friend. Pietro doesn’t want him to feel uncomfortable so he treads carefully.
“Y-yes. It’s okay.” Kurt’s teeth chattered and the blue mutant wrapped his arms around Pietros' arms as well, rubbing them and soothing the cold away very very slowly.
They melted into each other. “Mama Margo’s dead.” Kurt says suddenly into the dark room and he feels him take in a shaky breath.
“I know. I’m so sorry, baby. I know she means a lot to you. She’s-“ Pietro can’t seem to regard Miss Margo in the past tense. “She’s a fucking force. It doesn’t seem real at all.”
Now that she’s dead Pietro realizes he can’t remember if he ever thanked her for taking in his mom when she didn’t have to. He suddenly realizes that he kept postponing that knitting lesson with her. He recalls that he never actually did tell her how much he appreciated her time and her banter. Pietro thinks the thank you’s and I’m sorrys are pretty useless when the other person is dead. He feels sick and he’s been holding back tears for what seems like ages; trying desperately not to upset Kurt who is taking it far worse than him.
“She told me to hide. I didn’t listen-I-“ Kurt lets out a shaky breath that sounds like paper being torn in half “-it was my fault she died and now I can’t ever tell her how much I love her. I can’t tell that to me she wasn’t just my foster mother. She was my hero.”
“She knows. Trust me even if you never told her she knows that you love her. She loves you just as much.”
Pietro thinks of the bouquet of Lilly’s that made Miss Margo smile and the way she defended her home ferociously and how she in the same breath defended Pietro even though she was only his neighbor. Insignificant but still worthy of her help. She was kind. Maybe one of the kindest people he’s ever met.
She collects lost souls. Isn’t that what she said?
Kurt cries. Fuck it—Pietro cries too.
Pietros actually hiccuping, like some three year old with bruised knees after rough housing at the local park. He bites the inside of his cheek, trying to suppress the overwhelming grief he feels but it’s a lost battle. Like Pietro's entire stupid life. Hopeless in every shape and form. He cries not only for Miss Margo but for Kurt and for Frankie and for six month old Wanda who never got to live. Because hell—he was trying to forget about it and move on because shits getting real right now but he just can’t.
Everything has gone to absolute shit.
“When I was in the mind prison thing with Wanda I saw her die.” Pietro spits it out like it was poison in his mouth. He had told Kurt yesterday about the memory jumping he did with Wanda’s gifts but didn't go into detail about the memories he saw. It felt still too surreal and trippy to think about. Too painful and invasive to speak them outloud.
“But Wanda is alive.” Kurt says. “She wasn’t taken with the rest of us. She’s back at the mansion with the professor and Hank. She’s safe and they're going to find us.”
Pietro nods, relieved to have the reassurance- once again- that his sister isn’t in any danger. Wanda is with Charles and he would never let anything happen to her. He knows that much.
“Any day now.” Pietro reaffirmed. “They’ll find us any day now.” He’s been saying “any day now” for days and the more time they stay here the less confident he is by that statement.
“Tell me something good.” Kurt asks quietly— his voice drowsy and tired. Pietro hums and tries to think past all the bad in his mind—something good he can say so that Kurt goes to sleep and doesn’t have nightmares.
“I think I know who your mom is.” Kurt turns his head, craning his neck and his nose brushes against Pietro's jaw accidentally making the speedsters pulse skyrocket. “My mom?” Pietro can feel Kurt’s breath on his neck. Goosebumps run up his arm.
Okay, calm down. This is okay.
Pietro rushed out the next sentence to cover up the sudden flush to his cheeks “when I was memory hopping. I saw the lady that saved you.” Pietro looks Kurt in the eye, turning his face downwards slightly and Kurt is staring up at him with big yellow eyes that droop slightly. Kurt’s so fucking cute, Pietro can’t stand it.
“The lady that saved me.” Kurt repeats his words slurring together slightly like he really is on the brink of sleep. Poor thing must’ve been trying to stay up to watch over Pietro. The speedsters' wounds were very touch and go for a while there.
“Yeah, I’m pretty sure that was Raven. The professor's adopted sister, I’ve seen a picture of her in his room. And she’s also mystique.”
“Mystique?” Kurt mumbles.
“From the news.” Pietro clarifies.
Kurt just hums his eyes closing softly “I don’t watch the news.” Pietro blinks and thinks about how much sense that makes. Kurt wouldn’t have recognized her on the tv as the woman who saved him because she was in her blue form but also because Kurt Wagner apparently didn’t watch the news. Airing on every news channel was a new anti-mutant debate and another law or legislation being passed or overturned. Mutant acceptance has been at an all time high but mutant rejection and segregation has been implemented as well. One good mutant doesn’t account for general fear of the unknown. The public saw a display of mercy but they also saw a display of destruction. Things have hit the fan since the day of the White House incident. Kurt Wagner doesn’t know how much good Mystique has done.
“She’s a hero. She saved the president. She saved you. I think she might be your mom.”
Kurt stays silent but rubs circles around pietro's arms which are still wrapped around him.
“It’s just a theory of course but she must’ve had you before Xavier opened the school…the first time around. I don’t know how she would hide a pregnancy from Charles but I mean she’s a shapeshifter so she probably just, like shifted into a non pregnant person—“ Pietro feels like he’s telling Kurt about an insane conspiracy theory.
He sounds fucking mental.
Meanwhile Kurt just nods and listens like he’s listening to one of the kids tell a story that has no plot and makes no sense and is eighty percent of them just ranting nonsense. “—you have the same eyes.”
“Just because someone looks like someone else doesn’t mean they are related.” Kurt says and Pietro recalls a similar conversation with Bobby when he first arrived at the mansion. “And the color of our eyes aren’t that similar.” Kurt says gently and opens his eyes lazily as if to show him.
As if Pietro doesn’t have Kurt’s eyes memorized by heart.
“I meant the shape of them. They wrinkle at the ends when you smile. Hers do too.” He can only see the smiling face of Raven framed in a faded picture next to Charles bedside. It was something he couldn’t pinpoint right away but now that the connection was made in his head it seemed obvious.
Or completely off the mark.
“Yeah, they do.” Kurt says with a content smile and buries himself deeper into pietro's arms, looking properly exhausted. “Thank you.” He says “I hadn’t realized we had anything in common.” Sounding genuinely pleased.
Pietros eyes widened a fraction “so you believe me? That ravens your mom?” He’s surprised by his trust in him but he’s also surprised by how well Kurt is taking the news.
It’s not everyday someone tells you you’re related to a very famous mutant.
“No.” Kurt sounds groggy “ravens not my mom.”
“But you just said—“
“—She didn’t give birth to me.” Kurt says easily.
Another piece fits into the string of theories in Pietros head.
“—is she…your dad?” It makes sense in a way. She’s a shapeshifter. She can be anyone.
Kurt nods into his chest letting out soft tired breaths “myeah-thinkso.” His words glue together-choppy.
“Then who’s your mom?” Pietro voices out loud feeling a bit insane. He has a million and one questions but only voices that one.
“Margo.” Kurt mumbles out just before he is completely clonked out. Pietro just sighs and adjusts his grip around Kurt’s person. Eventually they both fell asleep just like that. Tangled in each other like their one singular person.
When Pietro woke up seemingly hours later the two had been wrapped around each other shamelessly. Kurt had curled himself smaller and was flushed against his front, at some point twisting to be facing Pietro, his legs tangled with his and his arms leaching onto Pietro's ribs, one of his hands slipping underneath his shirt. His tail seemed to have gathered interest on Pietro's leg. Wrapping around the limb like a sleeping snake.
It didn’t feel weird. He knew Kurt was asleep and didn’t have any full control over that particular part of his body. Even when he was awake Kurt’s tail reacted to things differently then Kurt did.
Pietro once saw Kurt’s tail take the tv remote and hide it from Kurt himself. The poor blue teleporter looked for it for forty minutes while Pietro was laughing his ass off.
The room made a loud siren sound that pierced his ears and made all the sleepiness evaporate in a second. Kurt jerked awake and was in immediate fight or flight mode ripping his body away from Pietro and standing up in alarm. Hands balled up in fists and tail still holding on to Pietro. The speedster patted the tail gently and it eventually loosened its grip on his ankle but was still on high alert even before the voice came booming from the walls.
“Hands on the wall.” It said simply and they must’ve hesitated too long because the electricity around their necks buzzed and Pietro cursed.
“Hands on the wall.” The voice repeats.
“Fuckers!” Pietro hisses “alright! give us a literal second.” and they both place the palms of their hands against the wall looking at each other with unease.
“What goi-“ the wall began to melt beneath their fingers and enveloped their hands and arms and within seconds swallowed us while. Pietros heart went straight to his ass. What the actual fuck. He was part of the wall. He was the wall and suddenly he’s being spat out on the other side of the wall like they where there the whole time.
Cold and wet and yet completely dry and warm. It was all very uncomfortable.
“Am I having a mental break?” Kurt mumbles and Pietro snorts. Kurt gives him the stink eye “I was just a wall.” He says fully in distress.
“Yeah, me too. It was weird.”
“I’ve never been a wall before.”
“It would be weird if you had been, blue.”
“I didn’t like it.”
“I wasn’t a fan either.”
“I didn’t think you were ever a fan.”
Pietro let’s out a unintentional snort “No- that’s not what I meant I mean-“ Pietro abruptly stops talking when his eyes meet another. They aren’t alone. Not that they ever were. But he can see them now.
They seemed to be in a lunchroom type area. Long strips of table and chairs chained and bolted to the ground and- One, two, three-other people in the room with equally as famished expressions and matching restraining collars.
“Another blue one?” A girl with floor length pink hair slits her eyes towards Kurt, tan skin and purple freckles on her nose like girly constellations. She’s about three feet tall with a beaver tail.
“He doesn’t look very strong.” A boy with yellow eyes and black spiky hair jerked his pointy chin towards Kurt. His muscular hands bounded in front of him with a weird metal contraption.
“He is.” Pietro's voice was like ice. He steps in front of his best friend protectively and Kurt’s tail curls around Pietro's ankle. He watches as every eye in the room darts to that contact. A small girl- maybe three feet tall, with a beavers tail and two gaping teeth protruding from her mouth - lets out a delighted squeal.
“How lovely. They know each other.” The boy sitting on top of the table glares at them-he was missing a hand and he had a scar running from the top of his bald head all the way to his chin and because the brute is shirtless he sees two scars on his chest, like an unfinished autopsy. That sounds morbid.
“I love his tail.” Beaver girl says, a slight lisp to her voice. She smiles devilishly “I want it.”
Oh, okay.
Fuck no.
“His hairs cool.” Bald guy says touching his own hairless scalp in wonder. Pietro has a bad feeling in his chest.
“Where are we?” Pietro interrupts feeling more then a little claustrophobic by another room without doors.
“The kibble room.” The bald guy says, not taking his eyes away from Pietros hair.
“The kibble room? What the fuck? Why is it called-“ Kurt’s tail tightens at his leg instinctively and Pietro looks at him in alarm. The blue boy looks like he’s gonna throw up. The tubing above the lunch table shook suddenly and from the vents above the latch opened and all at once dirt began to pour out of it and clutter onto the table. No, not dirt. Kibble. Pietro has fed enough of miss Margo’s cats to know what kibble looks like. To know what it smells like.
All three mutants- Pietro assumes they are mutants- began to scoop big chunks of kibble with their hands and eat it. The boy with clamped hands simply created a pile with his arms and ate it off the table—like a dog.
They're being fed pet food like they're not even human and they just eat it like it’s normal. Like it’s a damn treat.
Kurt begins to moves towards the lunch tables like a robot and Pietro is so startled by this turn of events that he follows him as well. He tries desperately not to make a face when he sees Kurt take a handful of the chunky kibble and put some in his mouth. Pietro is surprised by how easy Kurt made it seem. Like it wasn’t the grossest thing ever. Like he’s—
Kurt has definitely eaten kibble before.
“Before Miss Margo’s house I hadn’t ever had a proper home cooked meal.”
That’s what Kurt told him not too long ago.
“I guess anything is better than nothing at all.” If the comparison to miss Margo’s food was literal dog food then Pietro would also prefer the devilish food prepared by the blind lady. No competition. And It all comes to Pietro now. Watching his best friend chow down on kibble like he was once treated like an animal. He feels gross and sad and horrified and everything all at once but he doesn’t judge Kurt when he offers Pietro some of his kibble. Looking small and genuine. Pietro is so hungry. He’s so fucking hungry he can feel his stomach eating itself. Fuck. Shit. Fuck.
Is kibble really better than Nothing? Kurt can eat Miss margos food with a smile on his face. He can eat kibble without complaint. Kurt is far stronger than anyone gives him credit for.
“I don’t want any.” Pietro forces himself to say. He can’t stand the idea of proving these people right. He isn’t an animal. He doesn’t deserve this.
“Please eat it.” Kurt looks at Pietro with a tired expression when he speaks. “It doesn’t taste that bad.” Kurt lies. For his benefit. But it’s a lie nonetheless. Kibble can’t possibly taste good.
“It’s not the taste I’m against.” Pietro frowns, watching the others grab another handful of kibble like candy.
“It’s all they're going to give us. Please. I don’t want you to be hungry.” Kurt says with such genuine concern that he remembers that Kurt was there when he forgot to eat for a whole day once and passed out near the lake. It was the same day Charles volunteered to try the meal canisters as well. As a way to motivate Pietro to not skip meals perhaps. Kurt never made it a big deal but he was the one that found him face down on the dirt and it’s no coincidence that every meal time Kurt decides to sit beside Pietro. After that it was “isn’t this rice good? Try some.” Or a more subtle “I'm full, can you finish my plate?” Because Pietro hates to waste food. Kurt knows Pietro has shit metabolism. He knows that Pietro has a weird on and off relationship with food and he doesn’t ever make him feel bad for it.
But right now Kurt can only do so much. “Please, Pietro.” Kurt says gently and Pietro caves almost instantaneously not wanting to see that worried look on his blue friend's face.
Pietro takes some off the table and just barely puts some in his mouth, feeling more than a little crazy for doing it.
“I like his purple streaks.” Bald guy says like he isn't in the room. Like Pietro is a celebrity on the tv and not standing two yards away from him. Pietro forgot about the purple streaks in his hair from Wanda's birthday. Kurts own silver streak has long faded and only shows as a reminder of how long they've been in this awful place.
Pietro chews on the kibble– it felt like rocks in his mouth and was hard to swallow.
They eat in silence.
“Hands on the wall.” the ominous voice says again.
All five of them put their hands on the wall like the good obedient animals they are. Pietro is glad Wanda isn't here.
They are back in their room and it feels smaller somehow and they both let out deep breaths.
“What was that about?”
Kurt wipes his hands on his pants and lets out another breath “I knew him.”
“Who? Bald guy?”
“Estevan.’’
“How do you know him?”
“Circus. They use to pair him up with dolly a lot.” Kurt says with a uncomfortable expression. “Wasnt dolly a little kid?”
“Yeah. she was seven.” and Estevan is probably in his mid twenties. Pinning a kid with a grown adult is kinda vile and doesn't sit right with Pietro. Nothing that damn circus ever sits right with pietro. “She was the one that took his arm.”
“Damn.” Pietro said out loud. “She’s definitely a fighter.” A bit proud.
“But he isn’t a mutant.” Kurt’s says seriously “or at least he wasn’t a mutant before.”
“Maybe hes a late bloomer?” Pietro tries to recall something Hank said “sometimes it takes something traumatic for the mutation to appear. Like with Wanda.” Or Pietro himself. But he’s not gonna think about that right now.
“It’s just really weird.”
“I mean…what other explanation is there?”
Kurt stays silent deep in his head. Pietro gets stuck in his own head as well. He voices a thought that’s been creeping into his head since they’ve taken the Whitleys. “Next time they go through that wall they’re going to take me.”
Kurt shakes his head. “I won’t let them.” Which was an empty sentiment. They have no real way of escape. No real way of how to even get out of this room or how to defend themselves without their powers.
“If anything happens to you I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.” Pietro start by saying but Kurt glares at Pietro—looking offended, “and how about you? you think I want them to hurt you? You think I’ll fare any better?”
“I think you’ll be alright.” And Kurt flinches like Pietros slapt him in the face.
“You’re so mean sometimes.” His face contorts and he looks like he wants to simultaneously hit me and hug me tightly. Like he’s fighting against his politeness to say something rude.
"I’m not-“ suicidal. “-Thrilled about it. I mean I don’t want to get tortured, Kurt. But if one of us had to…”
“You won’t make it another round of torture pietro! They stitched you up all wrong and they had you for days last time. You need more time to recover. If you die, who will sing Wanda to bed. Who will play chess with Charles or annoy Bobby or cook with Frankie or make Jean laugh. Who will be my bestfriend? I can’t just not have a best friend Pietro! I-it was so empty before I had you.” Kurt is full on having a panic attack now pacing the floor irritably and Pietro regrets saying anything at all.
“I’m sorry.” Pietro reaches for Kurt but the blue boy nudges his hands away with a broken expression. “Take it back.”
“What?” Pietro lets out a breath feeling off balance.
“Take it back.” He repeats firmly and Pietro let’s out a breath wiping a hand down his face.
“I can’t exactly stop them from torturing me, Kurt.” Pietro has no say in the matter.
“Then say you won't provoke them.”
“I won’t provoke them.” If it erases the look on Kurt’s face right now then he’ll say anything. Kurt doesn’t look convinced. As if sensing the shift in the room the walls begin to cave and melt and the man in black drops in, wearing a new black leather outfit that seems weirdly sexual especially with the metal collar around his neck. A different doctor stepped into the room as well. He had glasses perched on his nose and he had blonde hair perfectly gelled back. Something about him seemed unsettlingly familiar. Pietro can’t quite pinpoint it. Kurt immediately stood in front of Pietro and it took everything in Pietro to let him.
“I want the fast one.” The Doctor said simply and the speedster watches a switch flip in Kurt’s head.
Pietro would never categorize Kurt as intimidating. Not to say he isn’t strong—he’s seen him wrestle off half a dozen school kids off his back— he’s very strong. He just sings too much Abba and wears too many soft sweaters to be considered anything other than a sweetheart in Pietros eyes. If you had asked the speedster ten minutes ago he would have told you that Kurt didn’t have a single scary bone in his body. Ten minutes ago Pietro didn’t see the Kurt he sees now: baring his fangs and slamming the man in black against the wall and keeping him up there like he was a little kid and not a 200 pound man who can literally kill them both. In this altered reality Kurt was the one to be feared. He was the dangerous one. It reminded Pietro that Kurt actually does know how to fight. He’s fought for survival for years and He’s won. Kurt is a fighter and a damn good one.
“You won’t be taking him anywhere.” Kurt’s accent slipped through his tongue thick and rough and Pietro knows he’s currently staring at the infamous Incredible Nightcrawler. Kurt’s soft edges sharpen and his muscles flex and his face darkens like an angry Angel. Righteous and dangerous. Kurt is strong and he’s protective and Pietros Django Maximoff is all kinds of fucked up in the head because he finds the sight of his best friend all swanked out and protective to be stupidly hot.
Now is seriously not the time to be checking out Kurt’s biceps but where else is he supposed to look? Kurt’s tail grabs at the mans collar as well
Pietro shakes his traitorous little thoughts away and let’s out a breath. “Kurt they can still—“
Their collars buzz and pietros is on the floor coughing a lung. Kurt is on the floor as well fresh tears in his face. The man In black…is also on the ground catching his breath. Which is weird. Why would they punish him as well?
“—do that.” Pietro finishes, still catching his breath. Kurt’s tail reaches for Pietro in the mix of electricity and Pietro feels the comforting limb swoop around his waist protectively.
“Just grab him.” The scientist huffs In annoyance, eyes boring into Pietro.
“Just hold on for a bit longer!” Kurt shouts as a set of hands grab onto Pietro and drag him away. The room they take him to isn't one he recognizes. Small and compact. They strap him down easily onto a metal table that looks like it’s connected to a tanning bed. Pietro watches as the blonde man takes notes on his little clipboard. He checks the little knobs and buttons on the machine. He writes something down and then Pietro sees him close the tanning bed door on him. Pietro has barely six inches of space in front of him and feels dread bubble in his stomach as he hears the crackling of the machine turning on.
It wasn’t a tanning bed. He wasn’t coming out of this with a sun kissed glow. No fucking way. He was burning. Sling broiling and Pietro realizes suddenly that he has his powers. His healing factor is coming to his rescue. Except it’s working slower than usual and the burning sensation on his skin feels like it’s going faster than the healing process. He keeps burning and healing-constantly in a series of breaking and mending. He can’t get out of the machine. For some reason his hands won’t phase through the flimsy cuffs or shatter the non-tanning bed glass. Pietro also realizes that now that he has his speed back he has time.
And time is the enemy of pain.
It feels like he’s been burning for hours-breaking and bending-screaming his lungs raw and crying hot tears. But it’s probably only been minutes. It’s been almost nothing at all and it feels like Infiniti. It feels like hell. He closes his eyes once he realizes his eyes are blurring. Becoming dry from the heat and Jack of moisture. His tears turn to Vapor the moment they are shed.
His throat is raw and Pietro maximoff tries to think of something happy. He hears Hanks solid voice in his head—telling him to take deep breaths. But he can’t breath without feeling like he’s inhaling lava.
Pietro grasps at something. Anything. He thinks—he thinks—he thinks of Charles.
Pietros fractured mind supplies him with a long car ride. Charles on the yard with a singular yellow balloon with a smiley face attached to his wheelchair handle.
He held a faded little whiteboard while the children presented him with new little tricks they developed.
They called it a Talent Show but Pietro knows it was actually so Charles could see how they had developed their gifts. It started to backfire when Drew instead of presenting her abilities in a cool way decided to start straight up breakdancing.
Pietro couldn’t stop laughing. It took another turn when Frankie began to do magic. He had a whole set up with a top hat and a rabbit—that may or may not have peed in his pants pocket—Margo even taught him a cool trick with a coin. It was actually pretty impressive and Pietro still doesn’t know how he guessed the right card he had Charles pull from a deck. Charles kept rating each talent and hilariously just kept giving everyone a ten writing the two digits in big blotchy fonts on the whiteboard.
Burp the alphabet? (They forgot H) Ten!
Beat boxing on the spot? (It was mostly spit) Ten!
Doing a cartwheel perfectly? (It was mostly rolling on the grass) Ten!
A cool drawing of a cow. (Pietro only guesses it’s a cow) Ten!
The professor would wave around the whiteboard with the numbers in praise as if he was ever going to give them anything less than a perfect score. The children hollered and giggled and had such a good time. Pietro remembers Bobby smiling too, making the air a bit colder so that the kids can see the small snow petals fall from the sky: a nice rate moment from Bobby. Pietro remembers the sudden snowball that smacked dead in the face. Pietro recalls the coldness of that day and how he swirled around trying to find the culprit of the attack only to find Charles Xavier’s hand still extended from his miraculous throw.
In a flurry of vengeance Pietro practically buried the professor in snow. His fingertips stung with cold and his face strung tight with a stretched smile. He tries now to remember that cold. Or at least he tries to remember something that isn’t hot. Burning hot. Anything that can pull him away from the scorching pain his skin is enduring currently. Ripping and mending his flesh.
Any day now.
He wishes Charles was here.
Just as that thought crosses his mind Pietro sees a familiar hand hover above the little claustrophobic window above pietro's head. Then he sees Charles blue eyes looking through that very window.
Notes:
This chapter was meant to be longer but I felt bad for not updating in a month.
I loved reading everybody’s comments.
Chapter 18: The Imposter
Summary:
Pietro Django Maximoff feels like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders when he sees Charles Xavier’s face behind the small window. He lets out a gasp at the first taste of fresh cold air and he can’t stop himself from pulling the other man into a bone crushing hug.
“You’re here.” Pietro says in disbelief feeling a strange set of dejavu wash over him.
Charles hugs him back “of course I am, son. I was fighting tooth and nail to get you back.”
Pietros face goes flush and completely misses the fact that he’s implying he only came for him.
——or——
Charles Xavier comes to the rescue. Again, again, and again.
Notes:
Typos will be found.
I wrote this so fast I’m shocked.Slightly related news. I watched Deadpool and Wolverine (no spoilers) and I’m now seeing a sickening amount of Cherick edits on all my social media. (Your honor they are in love) You can thank the editors of those videos for how quickly I wrote this chapter. :)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro Django Maximoff momentarily forgets that he’s pissed off at Charles. In this moment his complicated feelings towards the telepath are overshadowed by how fucking relieved he is to see him. As the days had passed with no sign of help the speedsters' hopes had begun to dwindle. But he’s here. Charles is here to save him and Pietro is so relieved and so horrifyingly happy about the development that the second Charles lifts the death contraption of the tanning bed, face pinched in concentration, Pietro is wrenching him forward into a hearty bear hug, tears brimming his eyes. He doesn’t even feel embarrassed that he didn’t use his superspeed and that he’s hugging him at regular speed so he can definitely feel him breaking down on him.
“You’re here.” Pietros voice was hoarse from the screaming and Charles’ arms wrap firmly around him as the speedster practically goes limp on the older man, unable to stay stable in his spot. “Of course I am.” Charles says and pulls away from Pietro—cutting the hug short. Charles scans his face which Pietro is fully aware has gone pale and sickly in the time he’s been here.
“We need to go now.” Charles pulls him up from where he’s sitting on the tanning bed table, his shackles loose and unbuckled, Pietro doesn’t know when he did that. Pietro is a bit fuzzy when he stands and when he reaches for Charles' arm to stabilize himself—the Professor stills, and looks at him weirdly. Pietro manages to stand up straight by himself and when the Professor goes to the door in a rush Pietro stumbles behind him but not before asking.
“H-how did you get in?” Pietro asks, suddenly feeling completely off. Like the axis of the world is slightly off by a centimeter to the left.
“I’m a telepath remember? I have my ways.” He jokes and Pietro lets out a breathy laugh even though it’s not a particularly funny joke.
“And Wanda?”
“She’s good.” Charles says peeking through the door window looking down at his watch impatiently. Pietro doesn’t even remember their even being a door there but he was also drugged out of his mind and in incredible pain so he might not be remembering things correctly.
Pietro frowns “Did she get hurt? Kurt Said she didnt but-“ Kurt would never say anything bad if he knew Pietro would be upset.
“She’s fine.” Charles looks him in the eye when he says that “don’t you trust me?”
Pietro startles a bit by the seemingly pointed question “I mean-yeah of course I do.” And the speedster actually means it. Which is surprising not only to the speedster but to the professor as well who looks at him with a slightly surprised expression before he covers it up with a kind smile.
Charles nods slowly “right, of course. Then you gotta trust that your friend is safe and sound.”
Charles goes to open the door and—
“My friend?” Pietro stops dead in his tracks.
Charles stop moving completely as well, his back turned to him. He suddenly stands up straighter, letting out a sigh.
Pietro was so overjoyed, So relieved, that Charles was here that he hadn’t even realized. Charles was walking. And he’s using his powers? That shouldn’t be possible.
A chill ran up Pietros spine.
Charles turns around and his face is completely blank “I always forget…is Wanda the sister or the red head? I always get the two telepaths confused.”
This is not Charles. Even his voice is different. His mannerisms are stiff and he-he doesn’t know who Wanda is?
This is wrong. This is all wrong
“Who the fuck are you?” Pietro stares at the imposter feeling scared and angry all at the same time.
Charles lifts a brow and does a weird theatrical gesture that seems so unlike Charles “I’m Charles Xavier. World famous telepath. Rich. Beloved. And apparently- what? Your my kid or something? Is that it?” Pietro feels the heat rush through his body all at once feeling the anger overcome the fear.
“You're not Charles.“ Pietro glares and this imposter looks at Pietro with Charles‘ eyes and Charles face and he looks at him with sick curiosity. “Interesting. So he is. That’s something I can work with.”
“I don’t know what kinda fucked up game you’re playin’ but it’s over.”
“Incorrect.” He says boredly which only makes Pietro more pissy.
“Fuck you.” The speedster hisses.
“Wrong dad, hot shot.” And the speedster swings on him before he realizes he’s going to. The imposter dodges it easily. Blocking and moving away from his fists like he knows where he’s going to punch.
“Alright. Just gotta tweak it a bit but I think next time ill nail it.”
“What the fuck are you talking about?”
“It took me so long to figure out who you’d trust. I thought the blue guy would definitely convince you but my accent was a bit rusty and you clocked me almost immediately.”
“What are you-“
“-talking about? This isn’t the first time I’ve been in your head kid. Been doing this little loop for a while now. We even got all the way to the mansion one time before you realized.”
“How-“ Pietro's mind buzzed and he really can’t- he just doesn’t understand what this guy is even saying.
“-how many times have I impersonated someone you care about to get a bit of information? Probably twice as many times as we’ve had this riveting conversation.”
Okay.
“I’ve only impersonated Charles a couple times now but…” fake Charles takes a step towards Pietro and he jerks back “…seems to be doing the trick though.” Fake Charles smirks, something cruel and sharp. “I’ll have to play on your daddy issues next time. I thought David Strucker was a gold mine but Charles Xavier too?” Fake Charles laughs and pushes his long hair away from his face. Pietro realizes the changes in Charles' physique. His hair was longer, and he had a bit of facial hair like he had when he first met him. It was like they were impersonating Charles from before this year. With limited knowledge on him and an old dated photo. A mirage of the real thing.
“Why are you doing this?”
Fake Charles rolls his eyes and when he steps forward he pulls out a dagger the size of his arm.
The world goes dizzy and Pietro loses his balance and the dagger pierces painfully into his gut. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. He’s being placed back on the damn tanning bed. Fake Charles is tightening the cuffs around his wrist like he likes to see Pietro squirm.
“It’s alright. You won’t even remember this. See ya in a bit.”
Fake Charles pulls the door closed And suddenly he pulls out a knife, and Pietro screams. He screams—skin boiling.
He wishes that the real Charles was here.
Just as the thought came a hand peaks over the small window of the tanning bed and Charles blue eyes look down at him with concern.
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Pietro is so relieved that Charles is here he forgets he’s pissed off at him. He pulls him into a hug and lets go of a sob that crawls up his throat. Charles hugs him back.
“You're here.” Pietro's voice cracks embarrassingly.
“Of course I am. I wouldn’t just leave you here, son.” Pietro doesn’t even feel some kind of way when he calls him son because he’s just that fucking happy to see him that any form of stanfoffidh pride he had over being regarded as his son is thrown out the damn window.
Because he’s here. And he’s warm and he’s safe. Charles pulls away from the hug and Pietro barely registers that he hadn’t used his superspeed to hug him to begin with. Usually he’s feel too bashful to hug him for that long. But not today. “How’d you manage to get inside?”
The place was locked down. Covered with security and enough power restraints to prevent at least a dozen mutants that he knows of from using their powers.
“It’s a long story. One I will gladly tell you when you’re safely out of this hell hole.” Pietro nods in agreement because all he wants is to get the fuck out of here.
Pietro was about to ask about Wanda.
“And yes, Wanda is safe.” Charles beat him to it.
Pietro startles “how’d you know I was gonna ask that?”
Charles lifts a brow looking at him in amusement “I’m a telepath remember? I can read your mind, kid.”
No you fucking can’t. Pietros eyes dart down and he registers that Charles is walking.
“Not mine.”
Charles blinks. His concerned face morphing into one of annoyance “Damn it that must be a new record or somethin’.”
Pietro stumbles and he’s all dizzy and he’s being stabbed in the chest like it’s normal. He’s lying back down on the tanning bed. His wrists are tied up tightly and he’s screaming because he’s burning hot.
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He told Kurt any day now but he doesn’t even know what day it is. He feels his skin boil and sting and suddenly like a beacon a hand touches the window above Pietro's head. Pietros eyes immediately gravitate towards Charles' concerned blue eyes and he feels the wind get knocked right out of him as he opens the tanning death contraption.
Before he could even process the overwhelming joy he felt, momentarily forgetting just how pissed off he was at Charles, the older man grabs his by the shoulder and pulls him into a hug. Pietro doesn’t even consider not reciprocating it, his heart heavy and jumping out of his chest all at once as he wraps his arms around the man's face full of tears.
“You're here.” Pietro gasps between his tears and Charles squeezes him tighter. “I couldn’t possibly leave you here for a single moment longer.”
Pietro knew that. Deep in his bones he knew that Charles would have tried everything within his power to find Pietro. Even though Pietro is aware that he wasn’t the only mutant to be taken from the school the speedster selfishly hoped that he came to specifically save him. Charles pulls away and Pietro wipes at his face feeling embarrassed that he was the only one crying. “Come on, son. It took a very long time to find you and we only have a few moments to leave.” Charles helps Pietro off the table and he stumbles a bit to get his balance. He starts to tug him towards the door before he’s fully stable in his own two feet and Pietro nearly falls flat on his face. Fuck. He wishes he had his powers. That healing factor would definitely save some time right about now.
He feels a swell of irritation at being rushed but understands that they have limited time. Even if he has no idea why they are in a time crunch.
“Come on, Kid. Wanda is waiting in the jet.”
Pietro looks at Charles in alarm “she’s what? Why the hell would you bring her here?” She should be as far away from this shit fest as possible. Charles shouldn’t be practically handing her over on a silver platter to torturous nut jobs that want to kill mutants. That’s so irresponsible.
“She wanted to help find you. She’s a very strong mutant.” Pietro just stares at the professor like he’s grown a second head. like he switched personalities all the sudden.
“She’s ten. It doesn’t matter if she wanted to help—you should’ve kept her safe at home.” Pietro doesn’t even try to correct himself when he calls the mansion home. It goes undetected. “She barely has a handle on her abilities why would you ever think—“ Charles is staring at him blankly.
“Charles wouldn’t put Wanda at risk like that.” Pietro steps away from whoever the fuck is in front of him.
“Didn’t know she was ten. I’ll know that for next time, thanks dude.”
What the fuck.
Pietro is dizzy. He’s being stabbed in the heart. Or at least that’s what it feels like.
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His skin is a layer of fire. Crisp and boiling. He sees blue eyes and he hugs the arms they belong to.
But that's not Charles.
The world spins and a dagger pierces his chest. He forgets again. Burning hot.
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Pietro Django Maximoff feels like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders when he sees Charles Xavier’s face behind the small window. He lets out a gasp at the first taste of fresh cold air and he can’t stop himself from pulling the other man into a bone crushing hug.
“You’re here.” Pietro says in disbelief feeling a strange set of dejavu wash over him. Charles hugs him back “of course I am, son. I was fighting tooth and nail to get you back.”
Pietros face goes flush and completely misses the fact that he’s implying he only came for him.
“How did you manage to find us? This place is like a damn fortress.”
“I had to pull some strings. Only managed to get fifteen minutes inside though so we have to go kid.”
“Okay yeah of course.” And Pietro lets him get dragged off the tanning bed. Charles fixes the wrinkle on his shirt in a weird form of affection but Pietro doesn’t say anything. Of course Pietro can’t help but ask about his sister. “Is Wanda okay? Kurt said she didn’t get hurt but he wasn’t there towards the end.”
Charles smiles at him reassuringly “she’s safe. She’s back home waiting for you. Come on.” He walks towards the door——
He’s walking.
“You’re not using your powers?” Pietro turns his head at Charles, watching as the man reaches the door knob hastily.
“Why wouldn’t I be using my powers Pietro?”
“It’s Peter.” Pietro corrects instinctively and can only recall the last time Charles said his given name. Drunk and walking in a bar-belligerent and stupidly passive towards Wanda’s feelings.
Charles frowns at him. “Pardon?” His face twitches unsettling.
“You don’t get to call me Pietro.” Pietro doesn’t wanna hear Charles say his real name in a place like this. These people know his real name but hearing it from him when he feels so tense makes him anxious. “No offense.”
Charles nods slowly “my apologies, won’t happen again.” Which sounds a bit half assed but Pietro doesn’t wanna fight right now so he lets him drag him forward towards the door with gentle hands. Charles leads him out the door in a rush and it’s a long badly lit hallway. Red alarm lights flash in the walls like a bad scene in a movie, echoing in his ear.
“Where’s all the security?”
“I’ve taken care of them.”
“How?” Charles can’t possibly be using his powers. Pietros eyes darted to his two fully functioning legs.
Charles’ voices turns agitated “Jesus Christ why do you always ask so many fucking questions?”
Pietro flinches at his tone but otherwise glares at the man “cause last time I didn’t ask any questions I ended up releasing a fucking mutant terrorist from prison. Does Erik Lehnsherr ring a bill?” Pietro still remembers hearing the number of casualties that day. He remembers every name uttered in the toll.
Charles stares at Pietro like he’s said something surprising. Like he’s said something he didn’t personally orchestrate and witness with his own two eyes. “That explains that I suppose.”
“Explains what?”
“I was trying to figure out why they needed you under the Anesthesia for this long. But if you managed to do that? your powers could be a real breakthrough in the program.”
“That’s-“ Pietro shuts the fuck up. He stares at Charles and feels the sinking feeling in his gut grow.
This is not Charles.
“What anesthesia?” Pietros voice filters into the void.
Charles sighs “your mutation kept healing you before they could get anything useful. But by suppressing your mutation they weren’t able to see how it worked. The regenerative properties in your DNA is remarkable but kinda a hassle to deal with so this was the solution.”
Pietro looks down the endless hallway. Forever long-never ending. He swallows thickly “what exactly is this?”
Charles hums “It’s supposed to keep you calm. If we give you the illusion of being safe then your body won’t fight the blade that’s currently being pierced into you.” As if to prove a point, Pietro feels a phantom pain in his abdominal.
“We curated a realistic scenario. it was supposed to be painless. Humane even which is more than you deserve. As long as you followed the script everything would’ve gone without a hitch. But you never follow the fucking plan.” Charles pulls out a dagger and Pietro feels sick.
“So none of this is real?” Pietro stares at the dagger that looks very real.
“In a sense. We’re mostly in your head but I’m in control.”
Right, okay.
“So you’re not real. Nothing in here affects you?”
“I am real just not exactly corporal. I can stab you just fine.” He points his blade at Pietro and the speedster throws caution in the wind and runs straight at him.
Pietro grabs the man’s blade that he’s dropped on the floor in the tumble and Stabs him in the leg.
“Mother fucker!” Fake Charles exclaims in Odin and swings his leg back and connects it with the speedsters head.
Pietro bangs his head harshly on the floor.
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Charles punches Pietro in the face making a cracking noise as his fist connects to cheek. Pietro jerks to the side as he’s hit blood stinging his mouth. “What the fuck?” He gawked and Charles just shrugs flexing his fist. “Honestly I just wanted to. You’ve kinda been a handful.”
“What?” Pietros head spins.
“This one doesn’t even count so whatever.”
He stabs him in the gut and Pietro falls in pain. He hits his head on the way down.
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Pietro Maximoff is happy to see Charles. The moment he opens the tanning bed he reaches for a hug only to be interrupted by Charles’ rambling who barely pauses to greet the speedster.
“I mean honestly this is better then that other guy they have in here. That guys brain is all sorts of fucked up. Alive for two hundred years but somehow he’s got nothing up here to work with.” Charles touches his temple and Pietro is still trying to catch his breath from the horrific pain he was experiencing just moments before.
“Wheels, what the fuck are you on?” But he might as well not have spoken at all with the way the The professor was pacing up and down the room like he was a mental patient.
“This whole damn thing Is fucking pointless cause you apperently don’t know how to chill out and you don’t know shit about nothin’. And even worse you apparently know Charles fuckin’ Xavier like the back of your goddamn hand so any time I do something or say something even slightly out of character you figure me out and I have to start from square one.”
“What?” Pietro feels like an echo. “I don't even know what you’re talking about.”
“I know. That’s even worse. Because you’re working with nothing but still figuring it out. it's so annoying.”
Is Pietro being annoying? He doesn’t even know what Charles is talking about. “Sorry?”
“Yeah I know. This isn’t the first time we’ve had this conversation Peter.”
“Oh. I don’t remember.” Pietro blinks groggily and Charles just nods.
“Yeah I know.” Charles hits him in the head with the hilt of a blade that Pietro had no idea he had. His head pounds and echoes like wet footsteps.
Charles stabs him in the chest and Pietro kinda just lets him. So much for a rescue.
His skin burns.
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Pietro doesn't know if it was because he received not one not two not three but four whole concussions or because his mind was already fragile to begin with but when he gets put back inq the tanning bed and his skin starts boiling—he doesn’t forget.
He doesn’t wake up in the tanning bed this time. He wakes up strapped to a table in a new room with medical equipment all around him. Their changing the setting. It wouldn’t be the first time.
All at once he gets all the different versions of Charles. All the different versions of this exact rescue. Pietro sees himself and feels himself get stabbed over and over again. He hears the relieved “you’re here.” Tumble out of his mouth like a gullible Schmuck and every “son.” And “kid.” spill from the imposter like a manipulative prick. Pietro screamed. Not only because he was frustrated but also because he was in so much pain he could barely think.
He feels the panic of this whole thing finally settle into his bones.
He sees the hundreds of times he’s been manipulated by a Charles imposter but also he sees the hundreds of times he’s been manipulated by a Kurt imposter. And a Hank imposter. And horrifyingly enough a David Imposter. He recalls everything like a faraway dream or like a movie he’s seen but didn’t fully pay attention to.
He zeroes in on one specific loop. One where he seemed to have caught on but didn’t say anything. Playing along for as long as he could. He wishes he had done that more during the redos but each loop Pietro would always call out Fake Charles on his bullshit or Fake Hank or Fake Kurt and definitely Fake David. He was a stubborn fucker and only one of those times he made it out of the fucking lab. It was a Fake Kurt that got him the farthest.
“Come on Pie. I’m gonna get us outta here.” Imposter Kurt said gently. Pietro had felt so safe and had trusted that version of Kurt. He thinks maybe the reason he went along with it is because he kinda hoped that Kurt would save the day. It felt the realest. The rawest in a way and he kinda hates that he let himself get tricked by it.
“I’m gonna get us outta here.” Fake Kurt repeats looking at Pietro in the eye and the speedster was so convinced it was him. Why would those eyes lie to him? “I love you. You trust me?” Kurt says and Pietro feels so angry now thinking back on it because Kurt does love him. He knows that. so he trusted him.
“I love you too blue. I trust you.” And Pietro meant it. He loves Kurt so much that he didn’t even think he would end up being an imposter. He was a bit stupid. A bit hopeful.
Pietros only upside to that particular memory is that Fake Kurt—trying to portray a realistic escape that wouldn’t tip Pietro off—actually ended up showing Pietro how to escape.
He memorized it. He recalls every turn and every code switched on the doors. Pietro remembers how they got out. He can do this. He can do this. He can do this. He can do this. Fuck.
Pietro had only realized it wasn’t Kurt because his accent kept slipping and he swore. He swore so much that it actually rebooted his damn brain and knocked him breathless.
“I swear to god this better fuckin’ work.” Fake Kurt punched in a code on the door that Pietro memorized immediately. It’s that sentence alone that tripped Pietro up because Kurt is Catholic. And one of the commandments tattooed on Miss Margo’s body was— Thou shall not take the lord's name in vain. So unless Kurt got super flexible on his beliefs since he last saw him or that is not him. He hadn't got to go very far in that version of events but Pietro knows more now. He was working with no knowledge and now he knows what to expect.
Anyone can be fake. Anyone that he sees can be an imposter.
The shackles around his wrist were heavy and hot. Pietro squeezes his eyes shut when he dislocates his thumb. Something he saw in a movie once. One he saw with Kurt—Munching on popcorn and holding hands underneath the blanket. When he hears the crunch of his hand Over the humming of the machine he hopes he dislocated it and didn’t straight up break his hand. He lets out a scream of pain but otherwise continues on his quest of freeing his hand. He slips his wrist past the cuffs with much force and pain.
“Okay-you got this.” Pietro speaks under his breath trying desperately not to fuck this up. His entire body aches and hurts but despite this he manages to contort slightly so that he can reach his free raw hand into the medical table in front of him. He could practically hear Hank's voice screeching at him about not blindly touching medical tools. He actually finds comfort in that when his hands twist around a scalpel. Okay. Okay. Okay.
He’s tearing into something. He can feel the Fresh stitches in his arms pulling but he could care less as he grabs the scalpel and puts it in his pocket for now. He dislocated his other thump to get out of the other cuffs.
He briefly thinks about the movie where the characters decide to saw off their arm instead of cuffs. He kinda wants to throw up at the memory but instead decides to focus on the crack of his thumb. He wiggles it free with a hiss but otherwise no complaints. Just as hes about to literally dislocate his foot to get out of the leg cuffs—-because he’s mentally exhausted and basing his entire escape plan off an action movie he watched with Kurt once on a random Tuesday afternoon—the cuffs unclamp themselves.
Fuck okay. So the loop is definitely starting up right now. He’s on borrowed time. Any second now Fake Charles is gonna walk into this room and see that he’s already started to save himself.
Now that he’s free Pietro gets off the table—woozy immediately and leaning on the surgical desk to gain balance as quickly as possible. Fucking shit.
He feels like his chest has been ripped apart and put together again. Very possible scenario. Pietro is not gonna think about it. Sounds like a great plan. Okay, cool. Okay.
He hears alarms ringing. He thought it was in his head but he realized it’s coming from outside. The flashing red Lights inside the room as well is a nice touch. Very realistic. The red flashes contrast with the pale stained room that feels clean in a dirty way. It makes his reflection in the spotless marble floor look covered in golden fire. Pietro pushes his hair back only to realize his hair has been cut. He feels the little wisps of a really short buzz cut and Pietro actually feels feral over the Unexpected loss.
He feels uneven in his steps as he ignores the insegions across his chest and arms and leg and where ever the fuck else. He lets out a shaky breath. He sees the wall melting—well More like crunching in on itself. Cracking under pressure but it was loud enough to give Pietro a split second to gather himself.
Pietro sees Charles‘ Blue eyes- sunken in and a bit hollow as his eyes meet Pietros.
“Peter.” Charles' voice cracks like he’s finally taken a full breath.
The words “you’re here.” Want to tumble out his mouth so badly it’s actually pathetic. He knows it’s the script. He’s not fucking following it this time.
Instead Pietro runs—in normal speed since he still has the ratched collar on—-right to Charles. Every other version Pietro gives Charles a hug. He’s relieved to see him. Overjoyed. Thrilled even. But this time all Pietro feels is unbridled rage. Instead of a much needed hug Pietro grabs him by the shirt and harshly slams him against the wall pressing the collected scalpel against his jugular.
“I’m not falling for your shit again asshole.” Pietro hisses at the man breathing harshly and using all his force to keep the imposter stuck against the wall.
Fake Charles swallows thickly and the scalpel touches skin briefly drawing blood. It’s the only indication that the man is even a bit startled because his face isn’t matching the trembling in his hands. Fake Charles looks like he’s vibrating—shaking—and his face looked pale as paper and the bags under his eyes looked dark. “You’re okay.” Charles speaks the words like it’s a prayer. A wish granted. The imposter's gaze scanned Pietro for injuries— to play up his act. This isn’t the first time he’s pretended to be concerned for his well-being. This isn’t the first time he’s done a good job at pretending to be Charles.
It took him a while—or maybe he got a more recent picture—but he finally got his hair length down right and the little wrinkle between his eyebrows is pretty spot on. It’s kinda terrifying how accurate this fake Charles Is. Especially since Pietros got a blade to his throat.
“You’re here.” Charles speaks—voice shaking and the relieved smile that erupts from his face doesn’t even look plastered on. Pietro makes the scalpel scrape tighter against his neck. Charles doesn’t even seem to flinch, completely committed to making this redo convincing. To make it seem like he was actually worried he wouldn’t be here. Like he actually thought he wasn’t okay. Like he’s actually relieved that he is.
Pietros gotta hand it to him. He’s a great actor.
“That's my line.” Pietro snaps at him feeling righteous anger boil in his gut.
“I’m so sorry it took me so long to find you Pie.” Pietros face visibly hardens at the nickname.
“Don’t fucking call me that.” He tries not to sound like a damn toddler when he says it but he kinda feels ridiculous. I mean-what was his plan? This fake Charles is the only one that has control here. The only one that can let him out. He had no control here even if it seems like he did with a weapon in his hand.
Fake Charles just keeps staring at him. “What? Did you run through Your damn script?”
“Are you hurt?”
“Are you fucking joking?” Pietro can feel the skin graphs—can basically feel how much they took from him. Pietro is less Pietro than he was before. “I’m fucking broken.” And he isn’t even just talking about this last batch of unique torture. He’s talking about Wanda. He’s talking about how irrevocably fucked in the head he is. He thinks about the panic attacks he used to have as a kid. How they got worse after he got his abilities but he never knew why. Because his mind has a shitty way of blocking out all the bad stuff. Of erasing things about himself that he’s supposed to know.
He thinks he might be having a panic attack now? His chest hurts.
“You are not broken. You’re going to be okay. I’m-I’m gonna take you back home.” Home. Pietro wants to go back home so bad. He misses his sister. He misses the nameless orange cat that sits in the bottom of Pietros' bed when Pietro is away. His room is probably covered in cat hair.
Pietro flares his nose trying to swallow back his emotions “I’m not going anywhere with you.”
“Peter please listen to me son—“
“—stop it! You don’t get to use his voice to call me that.” Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Fake Charles looks so crushed that Pietro almost feels bad. “Peter-“ Pietro feels the pressure in his chest. He winces and fakes Charles darts his eyes behind Pietro In alarm.
“Charles.” A voice warns from behind him and Pietro knows that voice. The speedster can feel something move inside him.
“Stop it. You're hurting him.” Charles scolds and Pietro realizes he’s not having a panic attack.
“He’s hurting you.” The man corrects and Pietro can hear the tension in his voice; the unfiltered anger that lifted a stadium.
Pietro Django Maximoff had forgotten about the metal bullets in his shoulder. The metal bullets that are now being shifted around inside of him, ripping tissue and muscle.
Pietros gut drops when he makes the connection.
Pietro also sees a dozen metallic fragments from the wall hovering in the air and aimed threateningly at the speedster.
“He's just confused, Erik. Please. Stop hurting him.” Fake Charles~~real Charles?~~ pleads to the Metal Bender whose Dooming speech still echoes on the tv even months later after the incident at the white house. Pietro tries to focus on the sound of Charles' voice.
“Make him put the scalpel down Charles.” Erik’s voice reflects his anger and Pietro is a bit unsettled by the whole scene.
Is this…is this real? The imposter has never brought in a second person. He’s never used Erik Lehnsherr in any of his scenarios. The metal bender wouldn’t have any sway on the speedster—Pietro barely knows the man. He’s actually kinda terrified of him and he would do the opposite of relax him.
Pietro loosens his grip on Charles letting out a cough and chest twisting as he sees the professor's wheelchair not even a yard away. In none of the redos does Charles actually have his wheelchair. Pietro considers the fact that not many people knew about Charles' paralyzation reflecting on the fact that he lived as a hermit for ten years and could walk—even if he stumbled drunk in his step—for all those years.
Pietro was so ready to fight that he had practically dragged the professor out of his wheelchair to pin him against the wall who he is now realizing Is completely falling limp against the wall without his support.
Oh. Oh fuck.
He turns His head away from Charles in a daze and looks at Erik—just barely avoiding a rebar to the neck.
“Charles. Make him let you go.” Erik is growing a stubble and his attire is far more relax than it was a few months ago. No helmet. No cape. No creepy monologue that will turn humanity against mutants. He kinda just looks like a regular dude.
Erik’s eyes don’t leave Pietros hand—the one holding the scalpel against Charles neck. Pietro is only now realizing that the scalpel probably isn’t made of metal, hence his lack of control of the situation.
“I can’t.” Charles says. Erik’s face hardens. Pietro let’s out a painful gasp as the bullets in his shoulders twists.
“Why not?”
Charles glares at Erik “stop it Erik! Stop hurting him!” And Pietro can’t focus at all—he feels far away and he looks back at Charles with hesitation.
“I-is it really you?” Pietro is almost desperate for it to be true; for this Charles to be his Charles.
“Yes, it’s me. It’s Charles. I swear to you it’s me, son.” His voice is so warm and Pietro doesn’t know if someone can fake it that well.
“Prove it. Tell me—“ Pietros' mind frantically searches for something “tell me something only the real Charles would know.”
Charles doesn’t give himself even a moment to think—blurting out the first thing to pop into his head.
“It’s your birthday today.” And it knocks Pietro straight the fuck out. Because his birthday isn’t public knowledge. He wasn’t born in a hospital. The date on his birth certificate is the wrong date but—but—that would mean that Pietro Django Maximoff has been here for a fucking month.
It means he’s twenty now.
“I don’t know what day it is.” Pietro says quietly, slightly embarrassed but also very tired. He can’t prove if what he’s saying is right. Or wrong.
Charles looks like he’s holding back tears “okay, Okay. Fuck. I’m sorry. Okay,I-Just—okay-“ the telepath starts to stumble through his sentence and it almost sounds like something Pietro would say. Like something he’s picked up from Pietros nervous ramblings. The incessant use of OKAY like ‘um’ and ‘Uh’ fillers in a sentence. In the end that’s what convinces Pietro that this is the real Charles. That this one was his.
Pietros drops the scalpel with shaky hands and with desperate hands wraps his arms around Charles middle and pulls him into a broken hug—letting out an unhinged laugh. Charles hugs him back without hesitation and Pietro breaks down “I-I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry-“ Pietro can't seem to stop crying his eyes out. Charles tightens his grip on Pietro instead of pulling away brushing his fingers through the speedsters' very short hair affectionately.
“It’s okay, I’m right here. I’ve got you. I’m so sorry.” Charles voice melt into his ears and Pietro feels all the fight in him drain from his body.
“Charles. Peter. I hate to cut this short but we need to get out of here before the protesters storm the building.”
Protesters?
Pietro helps the professor back to his wheelchair only half listening to his ‘Im sorrys’ and ‘it’s okays’.
“We need to get Kurt—and the Whitleys. they looked so bad last time I saw them. A-and there’s other mutants here. I don't know where they are keeping them—“
Charles touches his arm, settling him “—we’ll get everyone out. But right now you need to go with Erik.”
“You’re not coming with me?” Us But Pietro isn’t really focusing on Erik.
“Hank has the Jet out back. Erik will take you with him.”
“But I don’t wanna leave you.” Pietro refuses to look at Erik—knowing that the fear he has for the man will definitely show on his face if he looks at him now.
“I’ll be right behind you.” Charles says, his voice serious.
“Come on, kid.” Erik’s voice coaxes him and the speedster gives Charles one last look—a moment passing between them—before he Picks the scalpel off the ground and follows Erik Lehnsherr down the hall with shaky legs.
Notes:
The way I surprised even myself with this one. I was having too much fun.
The imposter clocking Pietros Daddy issues immediately was my favorite part to write from their scenes.Funnily enough the entire inspiration for this chapter was The Good Place tvshow.
Pietro saying the exact same line every single time he sees Charles in every single version is actually so special to me. Then cut to the part where the first thing the real Charles does when he sees Pietro is make sure he’s okay. Real dad moves here.
I missed Erik. I know you guys did too.
Thanks for reading. Until next time :))
Chapter 19: Golden Blood
Summary:
”We are the future. We are the ones who will inherit this earth. And anyone who stands in our way will suffer the same fate as these men you see before you.“ Erik sounds like he’s declaring something. It’s similar to what Pietro imagines war decrees to sound like.
A cry for vengeance or justice—the two muddle together and all Pietro can think about is how this is going to fuck everything up.
“Today was meant to be a display of your power. Instead I give you a glimpse of the devastation my race can unleash upon yours.” He separates them. Pietro thinks that’s what might scare him the most. The distinction between mutant and human. The separation. One or the other. Pietro can’t be a human and also be a mutant. It makes everything in his skin crawl and he feels sick.
——or——
Pietro is stressed. Hank is stressed. Charles is stressed. Erik is emotionally constipated. (Who isn’t?) Pietro is running on adrenaline and vibes alone.
Notes:
I swear I don’t usually post this fast.
The amount of times I’ve made this poor boy have a panic attack is criminal.
Spoiler Alert this Author doesn’t know how to hack into computers. I’m not a hacker. I don’t hack. Thank you for understanding.
Enjoy reading. O7
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The Speedster didn’t usually watch the news. It had actually become a bit of a rule in his house that he wasn’t allowed to watch the News Channel Live after the bridge incident of 1966.
When Pietro was twelve years old—his Mutant powers still relatively fresh— Pietro's mother had turned on the television to the news channel which had been showing a car wreck live on the George Washington Bridge. Five cars toppled over and one leaning precariously on the edge of the slim bridge. The car was balancing hazardously and was tipping over into the ocean below and the firefighters had just arrived to assess the situation. There was a little girl and a mom still in the car. Pietro Maximoff watched the moment from the dining table—feeding Wanda her solid foods in small “here comes the train” doses. The timer near the bottom of the screen felt like a ticking time bomb and it might’ve been because Pietro felt a bit rebellious or because he wanted to stretch his legs or maybe it was because the little baby girl was around Wanda’s age but before he even processed the thought he was standing on the bridge. Twelve year old Pietro was a little bit over his head and whenever he thinks back on this he feels horrified at how recklessly he had shown his powers on camera. He was maybe on screen for three human seconds. He was spotted near one of the flipped cars and in the next blink of an eye he’s gone and the mom and baby were safely inside the emergency vehicle as the camera pans onto the car; going off balance and plummeting to the ocean.
Pietro is back home next to his sister in half that time; hair a bit blown out and face flush from the seemingly unnoticed act of rebellion.
He would have gotten away with it if they hadn’t done the victim interviews.
Where a flustered Young Mom wept on camera “One second I was in my car about to fall into the water and the next I’m in the ambulance holding my baby. I can’t explain it. It was like a miracle.” The media passed it off as hysteria and then mass hysteria when the firefighters confirmed that she was in the car as it was falling.
Pietros mother rarely yelled at him in anger, but that day she yelled—leaning into hysterics as she’s halfway crying and begging. “I just wanted to help.” Pietros earnest response only made his mother clutch onto him in a tight warm hug that hurts him when her nails dig into his ribs “don’t ever do that again.” She squeezes his arms.
“Please don’t ever be that reckless again.” His moms voice grew in pitch.
“I won’t.” But he was. That’s a promise he couldn’t keep. It felt almost too easy to get away with things and no matter how good his intentions are at the beginning they always end up with him doing some crazy stunt—for example: Robbing a Bank in broad daylight and then returning the money the same day.
Stealing an obscene amount of jet skis and selling them to frat guys for double the price.
Breaking into the Turtle Back Zoo and releasing Freddie The Panda back to the wild.
And most recently—Breaking out a known terrorist out of the pentagon.
Not his best moment. Definitely not gonna haunt him for the rest of his life.
Point of the matter is that Pietro Django Maximoff is kinda Impulsive. Also he doesn’t watch the news. Not ever. Because of the bridge incident. And because most of the time it’s depressing. So he usually watches races on the tv or cartoons if he’s with Wanda—and when he’s by himself if he’s being honest. Not the news. Not ever.
Not usually.
Except of course for that day. The day Erik Lehnsherr decided one president wasn’t enough and wanted to make it everybody’s problem. Pietro didn’t even mean to break his moms one rule when it comes to the tv. He was meant to be watching cartoons with Wanda. She had curled up on his lap and was talking a mile a minute over the actual cartoon and Pietro was only half listening to the actual program when suddenly it flickered and was showing a different broadcast. Pietro heard Erik’s voice and was pulled away from Wanda’s story to stare in horror at the man he had shared a meal with days before. He sat next to him in the car. He stole a Sunday for him. He called Pietro crazy. That same man is dropping a stadium on the white house on live television like he’s a caricature villian in a cartoon. He couldn’t stop staring, couldn’t move even though he knew he should change the channel—Wanda shouldn’t be watching that—Pietro shouldn’t be hearing what he’s saying.
“You built these weapons to destroy us. Why?“ Erik Lehnsher speaks to the camera, demanding answers to questions he doesn’t actually have. The hunks of metal machines tower over the cowering crowd of people and Pietro realizes with a turn in his stomach who that’s meant for. He can’t quite describe what’s he’s feeling, his skin is all tingly and hot.
Despite Pietro's turmoil he keeps listening—-“Because you are afraid of our gifts. Because we are different. Humanity has always feared that which is different.” Pietro can’t look away from the screen. He feels his heart race—like he’s movin in superspeed but he’s not. He’s sitting completely still on the carpeted floor.
“Well I’m here to tell you, to tell the world—you’re right to fear us.” Fuck. Pietro’s shaking. That’s what he’s fucking feeling. He’s scared.
”We are the future. We are the ones who will inherit this earth. And anyone who stands in our way will suffer the same fate as these men you see before you.“ Erik sounds like he’s declaring something. It’s similar to what Pietro imagines war decrees to sound like.
A cry for vengeance or justice—the two muddle together and all Pietro can think about is how this is going to fuck everything up.
“Today was meant to be a display of your power. Instead I give you a glimpse of the devastation my race can unleash upon yours.” He separates them. Pietro thinks that’s what might scare him the most. The distinction between mutant and human. The separation. One or the other. Pietro can’t be a human and also be a mutant. It makes everything in his skin crawl and he feels sick.
“Let this be a warning to the world. And to my mutant brothers and sisters out there I say this: no more hiding. No more suffering. You have lived in the shadows in shame and fear for too long.” Pietro liked the anonymity of it. The wave of mystery his presence had to the people that crossed his path. He likes that there wasn’t a name for it. He wasn’t a mutant. because up until a few days ago—according to public knowledge—there was no such thing as mutants. Up until a few days ago Pietro was just a weird kid who was really fucking fast. Now he’s a mutant and he’s got a damn target on his back.
“—Come out. Join me. Fight together in the brotherhood of our kind. A new tomorrow —that starts today.” That’s a call to arms. Pietro can practically feel the earth shifting under his feet, clearing the air for something new.
For three whole minutes Pietro didn’t take a breath. The events that immediately followed after Eriks Lehnsherrs grand speech was astronomically bad and also good. The other side of the coin. A bad mutant and a good one. Colored in black and white for all the world to see.
“Mai? Why are you crying?” Wanda’s voice bled into his ears, far away and distant from how he felt in that moment.
Pietro did this. This was all his fault. He let that man out into civilization because he was bored. He felt sick.
Magda Maximoff turned off the tv—unplugging it from the wall completely. Wanda whined about not being able to see cartoons and Pietro was still staring at the blank television screen, his face deathly pale.
“Pietro? Are you okay?” The speedster doesn’t know if his mother asked the question or if it was his sister.
A couple days later—after Erik recklessly outed mutants to the public as enemy number fucking one—Friends Of Humanity came to Pietros home and tried to kill him and his family. According to Erik, according to Friends Of Humanity Wanda was no longer human because she’s a mutant. A change had been made and it couldn’t be reversed. Not ever.
Pietro hates the separations. Hates the permanent terminology of it.
Pietro is reckless but he thinks Erik Lehnsherr with his angry words and rageful actions might be just as reckless as him. Erik Lehnsherr was the person that started this. Pietro Django Maximoff knows though that deep down that the real person that started this was the speedster himself. For breaking him out of the pentagon which resulted in a series of horrible actions.
A horrible domino effect that will serve as guilt trip material for the speedsters conscience for decades to come. Charles has told him that it was all for the better. That these things needed to happen to prevent a worse fate but Pietro couldn’t disregard his hand in all the bad. He couldn’t see the good in all the bad. Not like Charles. Charles sees the grey, he sees the good in the bad and Pietro just can’t move past all the dark.
Charles trusts Erik. He’s not afraid of Erik like Pietro is.
The Speedster doesn’t trust Erik like he trusts the Professor. Unfortunately Pietro doesn’t seem to have a choice at the moment. Charles’ said to follow Erik and he trusts Charles enough to follow the metal bender even if Pietro is literally shaking with nerves.
The older man walked at a fast pace and usually it would be too slow for the speedster but his collar is still suppressing his powers and his legs aren’t moving as fast as Erik. He’s also still injured, stitches tugging at him as he forces himself to match the man’s pace.
Erik reached a door and stops abruptly in his descent. Pietro barely stops himself from colliding with his back. The door has a passcode and Pietro was about to tell him he knows the code but then the man twists his fingers and the metal lock clicks and ticks until the door opens. Right. Erik doesn’t need a code. Or a key. He is the key.
Erik opens the door wide with his powers and Pietro silently enters behind him, refusing to have his back towards the man. They enter what looks to be a computer room. There was about two dozen computer screens all across the room, chairs and tables flipped, a large crack in one of the screens that covers the center of the room and paper work skewed all over the room like the people working here left in a rush. Which is probably what happened.
Erik soundlessly goes to one of the Computers and puts a flashdrive on the importer and leans into the keypads and quickly begins to type on the board—logging into the computer like it belongs to him and not a terrorist organization.
Do all terrorist have the same password?
Worlddomination1!
Or
Worlddomination123!
“What are you doing?” Pietro quirks his head to look past Erik’s shoulder and look at the screen he’s working on.
Pietros eyes adjust to the German words on the screen and his eyes widen as Erik begins opening different eyes files and looking at what looks to be mutant autopsy files.
“Who’s Dr. Klaus Schmidt?”
Erik’s back stiffens and it’s so discreet that Pietro barely notices, but he does. “A very terrible man.”
“A Nazi.” Pietro corrects as he reads the words on the screen. His chest was beating like a damn drum against his rib cage.
“Are Friends of Humanity working with Nazis?” Pietros can barely swallow what he’s saying. What the fuck.
Erik turns to look at him slightly surprised “you can read German?”
“Yeah? Obviously.”
Erik just blinks at him very rudely and nods to himself “obviously.” He repeats “well in that case—you should log into that computer and help me.”
“Help you with what? What exactly are you doing? I thought we were heading out?” pietros eyes frantically scan Erik feeling off kilter in every way.
“Trying to get as much information as possible before the swat team comes in and confiscates it all.”
“The swat team?” Pietro exclaims “there’s a swat team?”
Erik nods, focusing on the screen “Charles made sure as many people as possible knew what was happening here.”
“Why?”
Erik doesn’t answer him and Pietro just withers in silence. “Why?” Pietro repeats again because he hates silences and he’s so on edge he feels like he’s going to explode.
“Public outrage. He wanted everyone to care about what happened here so it doesn’t happen again.” Erik looks like he’s biting his tongue. “There’s news channels, reporters, protesters, swat teams, even the damn Julianna Project knocking down the doors to this facility as we speak.”
“Who’s Julianna?” Pietro asks numbly.
Erik shrug “some actress started a mutant children rights foundation. I don’t know the schematics of it.” He looks at Pietro with piercing eyes “will you help me or not?”
Pietro finds it hard to say no to the man. Maybe because he’s, you know, a murderous mutant. He types on the computer next to him as Erik feeds him the password. He feels a bit woozy as he leans over the keyboard but he refuses to tell Erik. Although Pietro must’ve accidently groaned out loud at some point because Erik abruptly stops typing and looks at the speedster with something that Pietro confuses for concern. But there’s no way Erik Lehnsherr gives a fuck about whether he’s wounded or not; so Pietro really must be hurt in the head. Concussed definitely.
“Hank said you had enhanced healing.” Pietro feels a woosh of something like embarrassment at the thought that Hank was talking about him to Erik. “The collar kinda stops that from happening. Can’t really use my powers with it on.”
Anger unmistakingly crosses Erik’s face as he glares at the heavy collar around his neck. “Why didn’t you say that before?” Erik takes a step away from the computers and is standing in front of Pietro with a fierce look and—
—Pietro flinches away from the man. Terrified of the metal bender but also immediately mortified by his bone deep reaction. Eriks face goes blank for a moment and Pietro can name the exact things he sees in Pietros body language. The death grip he has on the scalpel. The paleness to his face. The shake in his hands. The stiffness to his back. The way Pietro won’t look at anything but the man's eyes blown wide and eyebrows raised to his hairline.
“I won’t hurt you.” Erik’s eyes smooth into something gentler and Pietro lets out a trembling breath and looks at him in disbelief “you literally threatened my life like ten minutes ago.”
“That was different.” Erik says with complete seriousness like he was simply relaying the weather forecast.
“Different how?”
“You were going to hurt Charles.“ Erik says honestly and Pietro sees something he probably wasn’t supposed to see. A connection he wasn't meant to process.
Erik cares about Charles.
It wasn't something revolutionary. Nothing crazy. Pietro cares about Charles too, despite everything. It was simply observed and understood in that span of a second. It wasn’t a jarring revelation, simply just an observation. Maybe just a bit weird. Considering the last time he saw the two together they weren’t exactly each other's biggest fans. Pietro still thinks about the solid punch struck across the metal bender's face in that elevator reunion.
“Okay.” Pietro says stiffly, letting out a shaken breath. He has to trust that anyone that cares for Charles wouldn’t hurt the speedster.
Erik’s eyes wandered to the collar and he places one of his hands on the metal contraption and the other securely on his shoulder—fingers firm and steady. Pietro doesn’t even connect the fact that Erik doesn’t actually have to touch Pietro or the metal to control it. The heavy hand on his shoulder wasn’t so that he wouldn’t move or so that he could touch the metal directly; it was because Pietro was hyperventilating. When Erik breathes in Pietro breathes In too and when Erik breathes out Pietro goes along with him. Erik was anchoring Pietro to his lungs and the oxygen entering them. In. Out. In. Out.
He hadn’t even realized he was having a panic attack until it was over and Erik was tossing the collar into the ground like it was trash.
Pietro lets himself over analyze it later but for now he moves on. They continue to Download the files from a terrorist Nazi organization like it’s a game of Ping pong and not a federal crime.
The German sentences blend together and Pietro Feels his body become warm and even again. Gaining its ability to heal itself; albeit a bit slower than usual because of the extent of the damage.
Pietro thinks the seconds are melting too slowly and that maybe it’s time they start to get a move on. “Should we-“ when Pietro looks at Erik’s screen he sees the Whitleys autopsy. “-no.” He stands beside Erik and practically pushes him to the side as he frantically scrolls the screen in front of him.
The Whitleys are dead.
He doesn't know if all of them followed after. Sharing a body has its complications, especially with a mutant.
“Fuck.” Pietro curses and there’s so many autopsies. Boys. Girls. Scrolling back years. Decades. His eyes glue to the words ENHANCEMENT and IMPLANTS and EVOLUTION and TRIGGERED MUTATION like it’s a horror scene. Piecing together the plot twist before it’s revealed on screen.
A video plays On the screen like a jump scare. A man with half a burned face and Seafoam eyes shakes uncontrollably. Jerking and kicking and splitting in half until suddenly there’s two of him. One in far better shape then the other but Two of him nonetheless.
The copy moves when he moves but when he goes to touch his copy it melts to the ground in a pile of mush like a disturbing plate of bone and jello.
The video cuts off there.
“That’s Whitleys power.” Pietro feels like he’s losing his fucking mind all over again. This is so much worse than what he thought they were doing.
“They—“ Pietro feels bile crawling up his throat. “Fuck.” He throws up on the floor. His stitches are pulling as he tips over to throw his guts out.
When he's done heaving, full body bent over, his head swirls like a used paint brush hitting water. His mind swims in the dirty water and he thinks he might be drowning.
“I thought they were torturing us to kill us. Not to make brainless versions of us.”
“People are easier to manipulate than machines. People can be molded—machines can be used against them.” Pietro knows that’s true. The sentinels program was a giant spit to the face for them.
Pietro feels sick. Like a million ants crawling up his skin all at once.
“Was she one of Charles?” Erik barely gets the words out before Pietro is superspeeding to the computer and turning it off—forever–with a flimsy metallic chair across the digital screen. A million fragments scatter to the floor.
A bit of a tantrum but well deserved and much needed after the fucking month he’s had. After what he just learned.
“I think its best we leave now.” Pietro wipes the bile that was still clumped around his chin with the bottom of his shirt. With his superspeed Pietro catches Eriks eyes as they dart to his briefly exposed abdominal, littered with bruises and stitches and who knows what at this point. Eriks face stays completely neutral despite the momentary flash of torture shown on the speedsters skin.
“Yes, its best you see a doctor soon.” Erik’s voice comes out stiffly and he takes the flashdrive from the computer and leads the way past the door. They take two left turns–the splintering sirens finally turned off and left with only the red flashes of light every few seconds.
Pietro was caught completely off guard when the bald guy–Estevan–jumped out from the ceiling like a damn spider monkey and collided with Erik in a dramatic meeting. The other man from the kibble room, the one whose hands had been clasped in front of him, had fixed his gaze on Pietro and his very dangerously sharp hands were now bare of any coverings and reaching for Pietro. They looked like sharp blades from the elbow down and already looked stained red.
Fuck that.
Pietro goes into superspeed and dodges the blade man’s attack. He pushes Estevan to the side like hes air and holsters up Erik by his arms, holding on to the back of his neck as he flashes the fuck out of there. He runs out of the building, he passes the main road, and passes the dark green woods. Pietro abruptly stops moving once he reaches a lake, digging his heels into the dirt floor and collapsing onto the ground in pain. Fuck, fuck, fuck. Its one fucking thing after the fucking other, isnt it? He can barely stay awake as he sees blood pooling from his ripped stitches.
When Pietro Django Maximoff was in the seventh grade his science teacher, Mr. Wilson taught his class about blood types and how a child receives one of the three alleles from each parent, giving rise to six possible genotypes and four possible blood types. They had been discussing the topic for about two weeks.
”Much like Eye Color, Blood types are passed down from parents.” he said with the excitement of a first year teacher. The fresh out of college teacher showed the herd of over hyper thirteen year olds how to check which blood type they were. The school provided the class with Blood Type Kits and Pietro had felt queasy just thinking about it. His mother ingrained in his brain that being identified by Blood or DNA Or Genetics was only asking for trouble.
The instructions were simple.
“Prick your finger. Use the lancet that comes with the kit to prick your finger. You must apply blood to the card. Place drops of your blood on the card's sections that contain antibodies and observe the results. Look for areas where the blood clumps or spreads out. You can match the results with your classmates' examples.”
“I’m B positive!” One kid declared high fiving his friend who had the same results. Pietro rolled his eyes like a moody teenager.
“A Punnett square can be used to determine the possible combinations of genes and blood types.” Mr Wilson rattled on like a robot and thirteen year old Pietro just stared at his kit in boredom.
“Pete?-“ Pietro had told Mr. Wilson he went by Peter not Pete but the man was a bit tone deaf when it came to names. He called Pietros ex-girlfriend Rachel by the name Raven for six months before she transferred away from his class. “-are you confused by how to do it?”
Some of his classmates snickered at him the word ‘stupid’ uttered somewhere in the back like a brand. Pietro glares at the teacher, feeling his face got hot “No, i'm not confused. I just don't wanna do it.”
“It’s really not hard you just have to–’
“-i know how to do it i just dont want to!”
“Pete, its for a participation grade. You need to do it. You specifically.” Mr. Wilson had already sat him down about his grades previously and had even elected to talk to his mom twice now about it and the school year just started. Mr. Wilson tends to bring it up at inopportune times that always sends a wave of whispers and shame to flow through pietro.
Pietro thinks Mr. Wilson is a piece of shit, so he refuses to do the assignment out of spite. He never does figure out what his blood type was.
The Maximoff boy doesn’t remember getting to the Jet but he must have at some point because the first time his eyes stutter open his ears are popping and Hank is yelling at someone out of the speedsters immediate sight.
“He’s losing too much blood!”
“We ran out of O negative!” Charles panics and Pietro can barely tell who’s speaking because of how loud the jet is and how loud the blood is rushing behind his ears.
“Already?” A voice he doesn’t recognize said.
“Kurt was crashing.” Hanks says off handedly “but that blood wouldn’t have helped him.” Hank says with an edge of panic.
“Whats his blood type?”
”It’s RH-Null.” Hank says like it’s some cosmic joke. In the back of his wonky mind Pietro can hear Mr Wilson talking about how Rh-null is The rarest blood type in the world. Fewer than 50 people on earth are known to have that blood type.
Pietro hadn’t paid much attention to the lesson but the phrase “Golden Blood” had stood out to him in a way that horrifies him now. Because golden blood could donate to anyone but not the other way around.
“I’m RH-Null.” Erik says suddenly and Hanks eyes widen but Erik calmly begins to roll up his sleeve, revealing an array of numbers on his wrist.
“you are?” Hank stumbles out before shaking his head and quickly grabbing a needle.
“You don’t like needles.” Charles says suddenly and Erik makes some intense eye contact with Charles. “It’s fine, Charles.”
He’s Definitely getting brownie points from Charles for that one.
Pietro closes his eyes and doesn’t open them again for a while.
He dreams of trucks driving at full speed at someone he loves. Sometimes Wanda. Sometimes Hank. Sometimes Jean. Sometimes the version of Anya he has in his head. His mind mixes them together. A freshly baked hell.
The next time he wakes up it’s a bit less chaotic. Pietro is wrapped in an itchy blanket and his face feels cool under the air conditioned room.
“He just needs to sleep. There’s nothing else we can do but wait for his abilities to kick in.”
“You need to sleep as well, Hank. You haven’t taken any rest since we got them back.” Charles’ voice gravels and it rubs Pietro's head funny.
“I-I can’t. Kurt just finally got stable and Pietro isn’t responding to the new medication at all and we have a dozen more mutants we didn’t account for and I’m the only medical doctor-I can’t just- what if something happens?” Hank sounds so tired and his voice was so strained and worn. Pietro wants to give the poor blue Smurf a hug. He hopes someone else has given the blue man a hug at least.
“If anything happens I’ll wake you. It’s like you said. Nothing else you can do but let them rest. We have a long flight. You must rest as well my friend.”
Pietros eyes fall heavy and he’s blurry once again. The third time he wakes up he’s in a different room. The lights are dimmed slightly so they aren’t too bright when he opens them. The blanket wrapped around him is softer then the last, warm and fluffy and Pietros mouth is all sticky and nasty from a long sleep. He twists his neck to see Charles sitting beside his bed in his wheelchair. His head is draped over one of his arms which is leaning on the edge of Pietros bed, hunched over to hold Pietro's hand as he sleeps.
Charles is holding his hand. Safely secured in his sleep.
No not his hand—his wrist. He has his fingers on his wrist. Checking for his pulse and he fell asleep just like that, making sure Pietro's heart was still beating. Like he was afraid it would stop if he removed his fingers from his pulse. The speedster must’ve made some sort of noise of surprise because suddenly Charles was blinking awake and then jerking up in alarm—eyes darting frantically before landing securely on the younger boy. Charles lets out a shaky breath and relaxes slightly as he smiles in relief at Pietro “how are you feeling Peter?” His gaze is unflinching.
“Kinda shitty.” Pietro rumbles out, voice hoarse and thin from rough use. His throat itched and he was so thirsty he felt like a desert lived in his Mouth. “Really thirsty. I feel like a desert.” He smacks his lips and endures how crusty they are. Charles grabs the small cup of water on the table next to his bed and tugs the pink plastic straw to fit into his mouth without complaint.
“Hank has you on some new medication. It’s pretty strong so you might feel a bit loopy for a moment.”
Pietro sips all the water and let’s out an unintentional burp, blowing his eyes wide in surprise at himself. Charles doesn’t even scold him for being so gross and instead places a cool towel over his forehead. Oh, Pietro does feel a bit hot. It’s really hot here. But now it’s cool so it’s fine.
“That’s nice.” He melts under Charles reposeful touch. “Medicine doesn’t work on me.” Pietro says suddenly and follows the trail of tubes from his arm to the small beeping machine near behind him. Is he part machine? He wasn’t prepared to be part bionic.
“Hank was working on a new serum.” Charles says as he shifts the blanket around Pietros leg to actually cover him fully.
“Like the one you used?” Pietro asks drooping and then catches on to that line of questioning. The beeping of the machine behind him starts going faster. “Why would he give me that? I don’t—do I still have my powers? I can’t-“ Pietro feels the panic settle and the drugs are so strong he can’t stop the flow of words dropping out of his mouth in frantic succession. “I want my powers. I like my powers. You can’t have them!”
Charles quickly puts a hand on his shoulder to try and calm him “Peter, no. I worded that wrong. it’s just medicine—“
“—i don’t want the serum. I don’t-“ Pietro thrashes and he moves so slow it makes his heart clench. His monitor goes insanely fast though. Super fast.
“-It’s not the serum. I would never let Hank use that on you. Not ever. I’m so sorry for worrying you. Peter look at me—“ Pietro jerks towards Charles and the professor begins to wipe tears away from his face which is weird since he wasn’t aware he was crying. “—you have suffered a great ordeal and the last thing I wish to do is cause you more distress. Many things have been taken away from you.” Charles looks so sad when he speaks, so melancholy in a way that makes his whole face watery. or maybe Pietro's vision is a bit blurry. Didn’t he need glasses? He thinks he remembers having glasses. “Pieces of you were stripped away without you being able to fight back and I will never allow anyone to take away any more of you.”
Maybe it was because the drugs where really fucking strong or because it’s something he wasn’t prepared to hear again but it opens him in half and he’s practically transported to the week after David was taken away. Behind bars for an unforeseen amount of time. His mother had told him something similar.
She had barely spoken on the matter of David’s arrest since it happened. Any evidence that she felt anything about his absence was the amount of time she would sit outside in the back porch and stare at their sullen tree—a half built clubhouse beside the newly planted tree that David had started while he was in one of his ‘good dad bonding’ kicks with Wanda and then abruptly abandoned after he had a deplorable week at work and forgot all about it.
“Peter. Pietro.” His mother had started off the conversation softly, and the speedster had assumed she was charging up for a scolding since they finally mailed the report cards from school and he was barely scraping by with Ds. Pietro had looked up at his mother with much anxiety.
“Your stepfather—David…he’s…in prison.” She says testingly. It wasn’t what he had been expecting to hear from her. Pietros nods slowly. “I know.” It had only been two weeks but he was counting down the days.
“He was a bad man.” Magda says and then quickly corrects “He is a bad man.“
“I know.” Pietro says gently and can’t meet his mothers eyes. He knows exactly how much of a bad man he was.
“He took things from you. Things he shouldn’t have taken. Things I shouldn’t have let him take. He took things from me too. He—“ Magda clears the emotion from her throat “-David was a monster and he made us his victims.” She shakes her head and she grasps Pietros hand into hers “He’s going to be gone for a long time but—but no one can know what he did to us.” Magda makes sure to look her son in the eye when she says the next part. “You can’t tell anyone what he did to you. You can’t tell anyone where he is or why he isn’t around anymore.”
Pietro feels like pressure is being put on his shoulder, weight being shoved down by his own mother. He feels something close to anger or maybe disgust. Or a combination of both.
He jerks his hands away from his mothers grasp allowing anger to overshadow the rest of his emotions. “What the hell are you talking about?” Pietro hisses feeling his face go hot and he feels shame and betrayal soak through him “why are you still protecting him even now? He’s a fucking monster!”
“I’m not protecting him, Pietro. I’m protecting us. You don’t understand—“
“—like hell I don’t understand! You want me to stay quiet. To pretend he never did anything to me—to us. To keep shut like a good little boy. He used to tell me the same thing—don’t tell your mother about this—your mom won’t be happy—she'll be so ashamed—you can’t tell anyone or you won’t see her ever again—“ Pietro spits out the words like it was years of pent up guilt because it was. It was stuff he never expected to tell his mother. Not after everything. He never thought he’d tell anyone. Not like that. Not in so many words. “Hes a fucking—“ he falters with the word because even back then he couldn’t put a name to it. The word Rapist felt too real. The word abuser felt too suffocating. “—he's a monster. He deserves to be treated as one. To be known as one.”
Pietro practically explodes getting a second wind “for fucks same Mai. He’s in prison! I’m pretty sure the authorities are aware that he's a criminal. ICE is probably gonna take us away any fucking day now.” And that’s another thing Pietro had been more than a little bit worried about. He was counting the days before ICE came to split them up. He knew that they would. They try to keep families together but sometimes, most of the time, parents and children get separated.
They would split them apart. Pietro hadn’t been able to eat or sleep despite the relief of not having David around because he kept waiting for the other shoe to drop.
“Immigration and Customs Enforcement isn’t coming.” Magda lets out a faltering breath like she’s amping herself up for something. She takes a sip of her drink—hard vodka with lime. “Why wouldn’t they be?” Pietro exasperates “your husband is in prison.”
Magda shakes her head “no, he isn’t.” She takes another sip of her drink. A bigger sip.
Pietro stares at his mom like she just spat in his face “what?”
“He isn’t in Prison. He’s dead.”
It was like glass breaking but inside his head. Like a slow motion car crash with a three month old Wanda at the end of it. He blinked. Buffering like a computer.
“What are you talking about? No he isn’t. He’s in prison.” Pietro feels like his mouth is cotton “you said—you told me they put him away.” He can’t be dead. Pietro would know if the bastard was dead.
“I lied. David is dead and you can’t tell anyone because then they’ll take us away.”
“Are you joking?” Pietro just stares at his mother. “Like, are you being so serious right now?”
“Peter. David is dead. Nobody knows. You can’t tell anyone.” She repeats it like it’s a chant, like it’s a motto he should know.
“Did he have a stroke or something? A heart attack? How the hell is the asshole dead, mom?” He smoked a pack a day, chugged beer like a damn machine. It could’ve caught up with him.
His mother stays quiet and her eyes trail back to the tree in their backyard staying there for a few moments. Pietros gut drops.
“What the fuck.” Pietros body shakes and he feels like he can’t breathe “you did not bury him there. Please tell me you didn’t bury David in our fucking back yard. Mom holy fuck.”
No. This is all wrong. What in the fuck.
“Yes.” She says evenly “I killed him for you. For us.”
I killed him for you. The words felt heavy.
She says them like it’s nothing. Like David was nothing but a cockroach under her foot. Like it didn’t shake Pietro to know his mom was capable of killing a man. That someone killed another human being for him.
It makes him feel A bit crazy and maybe just a bit like he’s the monster.
“How can-“ Pietro can’t even breath right. His breaths come in short takes and his chest clenches and tightens. He’s having a panic attack.
“Pie.” Pietro hears his sisters voice clearly. Too clearly actually. Like she was in his head. He feels his sisters hands blindly grasp him wrapping around him like a blanket—heavy and comforting. He lets himself be consumed by his sister. Allows his brain to melt and buzz.
His sister— six years old, almost seven —stares up at him and he swears her eyes are lighter than usual. Redder. “You've been crying?” He asks between gasps and she nods slowly. “Yeah, David went to prison. It was sad. But he was a bad man.”
“He didn’t. Mom—“ he probably shouldn’t tell his sister that their mom was a murderer. That could do horrible things to a developing little girl. “Mom did something bad to him.”
“No. He went to prison. He’s gone.” Wanda says and when she speaks its outloud but it’s also in her head.
“He’s gone?” Pietro stares at his sister confusion overtaking him.
“He went to prison. You can’t tell anyone. It’s a secret.” She says poking her fingers into his cheek. She's so small and little, especially when she tries to be big.
“He went to prison. It’s a secret.” Pietro repeats.
“David is in prison.”
“Davids in prison.” Peter agrees.
“It’s a secret.”
“It’s a secret.” Of course.
“You can’t tell anybody.”
“I can’t tell anybody.” He never will.
Wanda smiles brightly her eyes back to their normal color and Pietro smiles back at her. “You like the tree?”
Wanda wrinkles her nose “no, way. That trees creepy.”
Pietro chuckles and turns to his mother who’s staring at the both of them with a weird expression.
“Mai? What’s wrong?” Pietro asks his mother.
Magda looks at her daughter for a moment too long, something in her eyes shifting before she looks at her son. “Nothing at all. Everything is perfectly fine.”
Pietro is completely befuddled out of his mind, his head concussed and broken and absolutely fucked with and feeling lethargic and frazzled, when he gets hit with the manipulated memory like a damn rock to the head.
————
—-“you’ve been through a huge trauma and you’re gonna need time to adjust.”
Pietro stares at Charles and the professor is still trying to calm him down but the speedster is freaking out for a completely different reason now.
“I already knew Wanda was special.”
That’s what his mother said on the phone when he told her what Wanda had done at the house.
Pietro can’t believe that Wanda had her powers back then. He can’t believe that she had taken that memory away from him. Does she even remember doing that? Is that even how it happened? How is that even possible?
Pietros can barely breathe when he asks the question “Charles?”
“What’s wrong, Peter?”
“Where’s my sister?”
“She's with your mom.”
Pietros heart stops. “What? Why?”
Charles frowns “She’s her guardian?”
Wanda’s with mom.
And if David Is dead then—-
“Who was with my mom?”
“Nobody was with your mother, Peter. She picked her up alone.” Charles opens his mouth to probably say more when a man runs into the room. A handsome all-American looking boy with dirty blonde hair and jingling dog tags stood in front of the door addressing Charles with familiarity.
“Professor, Beast is gonna make an emergency landing.” He cocks his head to the side his blue eyes landing on a conscious Pietro who’s just openly staring at the man. “Welcome to the world of the living, Speedy.” He smirks and his face morphs into something prettier and less ruggish. Oh.
“Thanks, dude.” Pietro says numbly feeling like he’s having an out of body experience. Who the hell was this guy?
As if suddenly being able to read his mind Charles regards the man by name “Thank you for telling me Summers. Do you mind telling the others?”
“No problem boss.” He knocks his knuckles against the door frame in a lucky gesture and moves out the door and leaves to what Pietro assumes is tell other people about Hank's emergency landing.
The second he was gone Pietro turns to Charles with wide eyes “Who was that?” Pietro whisper shouts in his direction. Charles raises an eyebrow at the young speedster. “That was Alex Summers. He was one of my old students from when we first opened the school.” Charles takes a sip of water from Pietro's cup.
“He’s fuckin’ hot.”
Charles spits water out all over Pietros bed. “Charles!” The speedsters whines.
“Jesus Christ, Peter! Are you trying to kill me?”
“Not currently! What the hell man! why’d you spit at me? Not cool!”
“Alex summers is a 30 year old army vet.”
“And he’s got a smirk that can end wars. Your point?”
“Peter he’s ten years your senior.”
“I didn’t say I was gonna do anything! I’m just saying he’s hot. I can’t say he’s hot? He’s hot! It’s not a crime.”
“In some places it is.” Charles jokes.
“Okay and? I have functioning eyeballs. Guilty. Arrest me. I find a hot guy, hot. Sentence me to life. No parole.”
“I wish I could bleach my ears. I’m absolutely horrified by what you're saying right now.”
“Okay Charles. I know what I’m talking about. That man is fine as hell. He looks like he can be a super model or somethin’.” And Pietro knows his mouth is running ahead of him because he’s loopy and a bit drugged out from Hanks medicine but he can’t help the bubble of laughter that erupts from his mouth at Charles' disgusted face.
“You have horrible taste in men.” Charles says as if he wasn’t just saying Alex Summers was one of his first students. The original class. One of the first X-Men if Pietro isn’t mistaken.
“Better than you.” Pietro goes into full theatrics throwing his hands in the air “oh! Erriiiiik but you don’t like big scary needles.” Pietro mimics in a fake British accent that makes Charles gawk at him. Pietro throws his head back in a faux swoon “don’t worry about it baby. Anything for you.” Pietro makes his voice deeper and pretends to roll up his sleeve in a thuggish manner.
“He did not say that!” Charles exclaims his eyes wide “And I do not sound like that, lord.” and a horrified smile spreads on his face at the blatant teasing Pietro was pushing down on him.
“He practically consummated the marriage with eye contact alone.” Pietro babbles.
“My word, you’re worse than Alex.”
“Oh Alex is in on it too? He’s hot and has eyeballs that function. It’s a win win.”
Charles places his head in his hands looking absolutely mortified by the teasing. “You two are going to be a headache.”
Once pietro's laughter settles he asks the first question to pop into his head “was Summers the old student you were helping on Wanda’s birthday?” Mentioning Wanda’s birthday—hinting at their fight—even suggesting the day they all got kidnapped by nut jobs was like being dunked into a cold bucket of water.
Charles takes in a breath—all the amusement from the brief banter suddenly sucked away from him in a second. He shakes his head “no, he wasn’t.”
He got this anguished look on his face, he wears it like a second skin. Like his face was created to hold unmeasured melancholy.
“What went wrong that day?” Pietro swallows thickly, feeling the new dose of medicine dripping into his blood as they speak. Giving him courage to ask the questions he otherwise would have avoided asking.
He wonders if this is why people do drugs. If this is how it feels to have no impulse control over yourself. Even the very little that he had.
He doesn’t know if he likes it.
“What happened that made you go straight to the bar and get absolutely shit faced? If it wasn’t Summers then who was it?” On Wanda’s birthday of all days.
“Do we have to do this now?” Charles asks with a faraway look.
“I don’t think I’ll have the courage to ask again. To be honest.” Pietro pulls on the thread on his shirt. It wasn’t his shirt. He doesn’t know who it belonged to but it was soft and well worn. It smelled like vanilla and chocolate.
“I’ll tell you. Just not now.” Charles says like it’s a guarantee. Pietro Can’t help but be disappointed and his face must show it. Charles lets out a breath and holds his hand for what seems like the millionth time. “I don’t want you to forgive me.” He says suddenly.
“Not while you’re like this. Not for some sad story–that I’ll definitely tell you about at some point just not now—I want you to forgive me because I’ve changed and because i'm doing better and not because you got kidnapped and horrible things happened to you.”
“Bold of you to assume I’d forgive you at all.” Pietro snarks with no real malice, his head falling sideways in the bed.
Charles just smiles despairingly to himself like Pietro cracked the most unfunniest joke “you will. I know you. You forgive too easily. Especially when it comes to me.”
It’s not something anyone’s ever told him before so he’s a bit winded by the observation.
“I don’t want you to forgive me until I’ve earned it. Okay? Until I’m—until I’m better. Until I’m sober.”
Pietro clings to that last word. Sober. Like it’s a new word. Like it carries power. New and scary. “You’re not sober?” Pietro doesn’t even know what he wants him to say.
He knew he wasn’t sober before. He knew he had his secret little stashes of alcohol around the school. He recalls accidentally finding a flask full of vodka in one of his carved books. He never said anything. He let the professor have his vices. He knew how to live with people who were only half there and half way through a bottle. Davids a drunk. Magda’s a drunk. Pietro thinks if he could consume alcohol like they could he would be a drunk too. Although this medicine Hanks got him on is kinda doing the trick.
Charle’s sobriety had only been a background issue in Pietro's head. He hadn’t witnessed him drink. He hadn’t seen him drunk, inebriated out of his mind. He hadn’t seen his biting edges on full display since the man recruited him to commit a crime. He hadn’t seen it again—not like that— until Wanda’s birthday.
“I’m not.” Charles confesses. Peter looks at the Telepath and he sees so much in the man and he hates that he feels hopeful. He hates how much faith he has in him. It’s suffocating him. “But you will be?”
“Yes.” Charles says immediately and Pietro knows he shouldn’t get his hopes up but he does.
“Do you promise?” The speedster lifts a pinky, the IV and tubing coming up with it. He knows he shouldn’t make him promise. He knows it’s only setting him up for failure. For heartbreak.
But it’s Charles.
The telepath loops his pinky around the speedsters without hesitation.
Notes:
The Julianna Project is a reference to the mutant telenovela actress mentioned in the earlier chapters. I was kicking my feet when I wrote that.
Spoiler alert in case it wasn’t obvious the unnamed mutant that attacked Pietro has Dolly's hand blade mutation. (Dolly is Kurt’s old circus friend)
Canonically Erik has O negative blood. Let’s disregard that and pretend he doesn’t. It’s for the plot. Thank you.
I know flash drives aren’t a thing that exist yet. I’m going to pretend that they are because I’m a bit Lazy. Cool.
ALSO Erik’s hold being firm and Charles’ hold being gentle is my form of poetry. Sometimes I forget I’m a writer, that like actually writes shit. It’s crazy.
Lastly, of course, typos will be found. Because unfortunately I’m human. :))
Chapter 20: Safest Form Of Travel
Summary:
“I need you.” Pietro says frantically and Erik stumbles and stares at Peter in confusion. “Peter you shouldn’t be up.”
“Yeah, I know.” He grabs the back of Erik’s neck. “What are you doing?” Erik stiffens like the speedster is about to snap his neck.
“Holding your neck so you don’t get whiplash.” Pietro is getting a weird sense of dejavu.
He superspeeds them both to where he found the hole on the jet and goes into normal speed, the oxygen around them thin and cold.
()()()()()()()()
They attempt to get back home in one piece. Pietro meets a new mutant and reunites with some of his family.
Notes:
Kitty Pryde has entered the Chat. She is the vibe she is the moment.
Featuring Erik unknowingly being a concerned dad./Spoilers/
Pietro: no.
Kurt: no? I was gonna say no but why did you say no?
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
They had to make an emergency landing because the Canadian Authorities flagged their jet and required proper identification. Proper identification was given via Charles Xavier mind bending stamp of approval and they were on their merry way with little delay and extra fuel to help fly them all the way home to Washington. It’s smooth flying from there.
It was supposed to be smooth flying from there.
Pietro couldn’t stay still for the life of him though. His foot bounced on the soft gurney and is moments away from digging a hole into the material. The speedster has run through the drugs that had been keeping his pain at bay and also mellowing him out and left behind is his usually anxious and hyper self.
“You shouldn’t move so much.” The girl that had been sleeping in the cot in the same room as him stirred and shifted to face the speedster. Her Brown pupils meet Pietro's brown.
“The blue furry guy worked real hard to stitch you up.” Her accent was thick and prominent in her Rs. She had been laying there seemingly the whole time. Patched up and unconscious for the foreseeable future.
“Who are you?” Pietro didn’t mean to sound so on edge when he spoke but he’s alone in a room with a strange girl he knows nothing about. Considering what’s happened in his life recently he thinks it’s okay to be a bit unsure towards strangers.
“I’m Katherine. You’re Peter right?”
His eyes never leave her brown ones.
“How do you know that exactly?” He can’t quite keep the accusation out of his voice.
“You and your dad were kinda loud earlier. Couldn’t help but overhear.” She says sheepishly—standing up straight from her cot. Pietros spine goes rigid and his face goes warm as he looks towards the door to make sure there’s no one else to witness this conversation.
“Charles isn’t my dad.” Pietro feels embarrassed just saying it, clarifying it. For some reason his traitorous mind supplies him with the memory of his moms Ex boyfriend Randall and how affectionately Pietro had called him dad before he abandoned them. Pietro really prefers if Charles didn't hear Katherine’s accusations. It would be better for Pietro's heart.
“Seems like he is.” She says with dark furrowed eyebrows that link in the middle like caterpillars.
“Well he isn’t.” Peter snaps and he watches her expression grow just as rigid, spine going equally as tense at his tone and that’s when he fully looks at her, taking in just how young she actually was. She couldn’t be more than thirteen. A child. Barely older than Jean.
Pietro needs to take a damn breath and calm his traumatized ass down.
“Sorry.” He says in a calmer voice letting out a sigh “It's complicated.”
“No need to explain.” She slouches in her cot and fiddles with her arm brace, her neck all black and purple. “I know a thing or two about complicated.” Her head is also shaved, patchy and purposeful. It makes it difficult to hide the bruise running up the side of her face. Her young face, bruised and hurt remind him of himself. Staring at himself in the mirror after a bad fight with David, hands bloody.
“That looks pretty bad.” Pietro says sympathetically trying to catch any other injuries she might be hiding. Which is ridiculous because Hank is thorough and there’s no way he missed anything so no way Pietro will find something he missed. This is just Pietro once again being overprotective over a child he doesn’t even know. Over someone he sees himself in. He wants to look away from her but can’t.
His body relaxes into his bones again and he tries to convince his mind that Katherine isn’t a threat. She’s just injured. She’s thirteen. And she’s probably just been through hell just like him. Pietro repeats these facts in his head so he doesn’t forget it. So that he doesn’t use that scary voice again.
Harmless.
Injured.
Afraid.
It helps him see her as she is and not as what he thinks she is.
Harmless. Injured. Afraid.
Katherine looks down at herself as if she hadn’t noticed her state of being and simply shrugs “it’s not too bad. You on the other hand look horrible.”
Pietro fake gasps “me?” He gestures at himself dramatically “this is nothin’. I’ve been through way worse.” For once he’s lying. This might actually be the worst he’s ever been. No amount of beatings from David could possibly trump this amount of pain.
Katherine watches as the boy groans to sit up on his bed despite all the pain he was in.
Pietro knows he shouldn’t move. He knows Hank went through so much trouble to make sure he stayed on this side of the living but Pietro can’t stand lying down for much longer. He feels a headache forming.
“You really shouldn’t move so much.” Katherine says hesitantly.
“Kinda impossible for me.” Pietro jabs.
The seconds had started to turn into minutes and minutes into hours and it was only a matter of time before Pietro did something bad like actually fall asleep. He had done so earlier, briefly, and it simply resulted in a fresh set of nightmares that his brain conjured up from its recent abuse. Not very fun. “I need to see how Kurt is doing.” The speedster said absentmindedly. It was the only thing he could really allow himself to think about.
Wanda was out of his control. His mother was another mystery he couldn’t solve. Kurt is the only concrete thing he has. The only thing—person—that he can feel and see and touch that might make this a bit better. He needs to see that he’s okay. That he’s safe and sound.
Charles hadn’t said anything about the blue teleporter and during his brief loss of blood he recalls Hank saying Kurt was stable. But that doesn’t mean he’s okay. He needs to see that his friend is okay with his own two eyes. To feel him under his hands. It’s the only way he’ll know.
“Kurt is the angry one right?”
“No.” Pietro frowns being pulled back out of his head like a ball on a string. Short and abrupt.
“With the tail?”
“…Yeah.” It was a bit strange to hear someone describe Kurt as angry. It would never be how Pietro would describe his blue best friend.
Protective. Kind. Strong willed. Never angry. Not ever angry. Although he saw flashes of it before they split. Baring teeth and sharp claws that dug into sensitive flesh like an animal. Pietro saw that flash of nightcrawler in Kurt and had ignored all the red flags that told him he was dangerous.
The real Kurt isn’t dangerous. Not to Pietro. Never to Pietro.
“I was with him when they found us. Him and the small one that cries a lot.”
“Drew?” Pietros heart clenched.
“Didn't catch her name. Some of her hair grew vines and leaves.”
“Angela.” Pietro corrects with wide eyes. He had no idea Angela was even captured from the X-mansion. He didn’t know who was taken and who wasn’t. Kurt only had a vague idea and therefore Pietro also only had a vague idea.
“She cries a lot.” Katherine stares at the wall behind pietros head, locked in her own head. “I thought it was because she was sad. Or scared. But the more she cried the shorter her vines got.”
Pietros heart sank. He knew that she was only trying to make it harder for them to take anything from her. Her vines are nearly indestructible. If they somehow managed to cut off any of it they would be indestructible as well.
“She needs to consume water for them to grow. If she cries or sweats she’s losing hydration so they shrink.” Pietro explains easily.
“They didn’t put the collar on her?” He asks off-handedly.
“I think they thought she was harmless. They learned pretty quickly how wrong that assumption was. They put a collar on her after her first round.”
“Yeah, she’s a badass.” Pietro was the one to scoop up Angela from the police mutant defense department. She was infamous for her chokeholds, her earthy hair wrapping around her opponents like a noose until they would pass out. She used her services with the police to detain and restrain mutant criminals. She was only twelve when Pietro found her, and the rage Pietro felt at the idea of the police department practically purchasing a child to do their dirty work made him want to break their noses and swaddle her in warm blankets. Instead he allowed Charles to conjure up a deal in exchange for Angela's safety. She held Pietro's hand the entire drive back to the mansion and was crying the whole time. But her grip was strong.
She thought Charles and Pietro were bad men. For weeks afterwards she would sit outside in the sun, charging up. She was expecting to fight. To join an army instead of a school. It took so long to help her realize she was safe. That the school wasn’t a trap or a trick. It was real. It was shelter.
It’s going to take a much longer time now to prove that point once again.
“she’s tough. They both are.”
“Was he-“ Katherine cuts herself off, her long lashes dropping and she settles with her words “was Kurt blue when he got there?”
It almost makes pietro laugh. Almost. Until he realizes the implications of that question. He remember the video he saw of the Whitleys powers being given to someone else. He knows exactly how possible that scenario is. Even if it makes him want to scream.
Pietro swallows thickly “yes.” He says firmly, meeting Katherine’s eyes “he’s always been blue.”
Katherine nods shakily “okay. That’s-yeah-that’s good. I wasn’t sure.” She glares her nose and Pietro tries to decipher all the intricacies in her expressions “sometimes they change people and they don’t come out looking the same. Sometimes they—they changed them completely. Gave them things or took things away. To be unrecognizable.”
Pietro opens his mouth to respond but is abruptly jerked to the side as the Jet suddenly makes a quick turn to the left.
Flying is the safest form of travel. The odds of dying in a plane clash are 1 in a million. Pietro is about to beat those odds because he is probably the unluckiest man alive.
Pietro Django Maximoff has never ridden on a plane, let alone a jet before. He’s not sure how the experience is supposed to go but he’s almost certain that the jet suddenly being hit by a propelling object mid-flight is not protocol. Or at least he hopes it’s not protocol.
Pietro hears a loud boom and then he hears screaming. He’s not sure it isn’t him screaming but he can’t exactly hear himself anymore with the high pitch ringing in his ear.
“Fuck shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck shit-“ like a panicked mantra Pietro curses like he might not be able to in a few minutes. “-don’t panic!” Pietro shouts at Katherine.
“You’re literally panicking more than me!” Katherine yells back, holding on to the wall for support. He holds onto the railing on his makeshift gurney bed and when he goes into superspeed he only manages to panic more because he sees that theirs a giant fucking hole on the side of the jet and how the hell is he suppose to fix that? He swears and stomps his feet irritatingly and he knows that being in superspeed isn’t good for his recovery at this moment but when he panics he runs.
Pietro runs. That’s literally his whole gimmick. But there’s nowhere to run now. He can’t jump off a jet. He’s not suicidal. He needs to think of something. He needs to do something. He needs to—-he needs Erik to fix the damn hole.
Yes, perfect. That’s what he’ll do. Yeah, okay. That should work. Fuck.
Pietro is passing through each room in the jet trying to find the one inhabiting the metal bender.
Fucking hell how big is this jet?
He finds multiple mutants all in a state of frenzy. Frozen midair and some even in mortal danger as they are about to be hit in the head or stabbed by multiple debris. He adjusts them accordingly in his panic darting his eyes around for any stray danger. He makes sure to gently place an ice pack over one kid's eye who was hit with a jerking elbow.
He spots the metal bender walking out of the cockpit, his shoulder connecting with the wall harshly as the jet is jerked around in chaos. Pietro slows down to see the grimace of pain cross the older man’s face. Familiar in a way.
“I need you.” Pietro says frantically and Erik stumbles and stares at Peter in confusion. “Peter you shouldn’t be up.”
“Yeah, I know.” He grabs the back of Erik’s neck. “What are you doing?” Erik stiffens like the speedster is about to snap his neck.
“Holding your neck so you don’t get whiplash.” Pietro is getting a weird sense of dejavu.
He superspeeds them both to where he found the hole on the jet and goes into normal speed, the oxygen around them thin and cold.
“Fuck.” Erik growls as he stumbles in his long legs like a baby giraffe. “You need to warn people before you do that.” He looks like he’s gonna throw up. He doesn’t.
“Sorry, yeah, my bad.” Pietro helps him sit up, momentarily forgetting that this man is a fucking terrorist and could snap his arm in half if he wanted to.
“C-can you fix the hole, man?” Pietro holds on to his arm, mostly because he thinks he might fall into the massive hole if he doesn’t and also because everytime he uses his superspeed he feels like screaming in agony. He really shouldn’t have moved.
“Have we been shot?” Erik glares at the offensive rip in the jet stumbling towards it with calculated steps. He notices Pietro's death grip on him and stills in his spot ”you should be resting Peter.” Which is a crazy thing to nag him about after finding out that they’ve been shot at mid-air.
“Kinda impossible when we’re about to die.” Pietro bemoans and gestures at the gaping hole on the side of the jet. As if it’s hard to miss. “Can you fix it?”
“I can.” Erik uses the hand that pietro isn’t holding on to and raises it at the hole. Erik does what he does best. He fucks shit up, consequences be damned.
Instead of mending the hole Pietro hears a crash. Another boom and he jerks his face towards Erik with alarm. “What the hell are you doing?” The jet drops downwards and the air feels thin and cold and Pietro hates every second of this.
“Fixing it. Whoever shot at us will have some trouble doing so again.” Pietro hears screaming and the jet itself is being upturned because of the hole and Pietro wrenches his arm away from the metal bender feeling nauseous.
“Stop it!” Pietro yells over the loud booming and Erik doesn’t even make a gesture that he’s heard him. “Erik, seriously, stop it! You can’t do this right now. You can’t hurt them.”
“You sound just like Charles.” Erik says like it’s an insult, which rubs Pietro all sorts of wrong.
Pietro grabs Erik by the shirt tugging him away from his view of the other plane in superspeed, slamming him against the jet wall in his own fit of unhinged anger. “You can hurt them in your own fucking time but right now we’re literally plummeting to our deaths. I know you don’t care about those people but how about the kids in this jet? The injured mutants you helped save. It would be for nothing if you let your rage win you over.”
Erik looks at him with a perfectly blank expression “if we die it would be because of them. They are the ones that decided to shoot at a peaceful jet carrying injured children.”
Pietro understands Eriks is the thing. His logic is faulty but it’s not illogical. He gets why he feels the way he feels. In a different time he would’ve felt sympathetic. Maybe if he wasn’t in incredible pain. Maybe if he wasn’t in a metal jet falling from the sky. Maybe if he didn’t just go through the most traumatic thing he’s ever gone through. Well…maybe if none of that where true he would be a bit more lenient. A bit more compassionate. A bit more gentler.
But right now that is not the case. Pietro can only see a problem and a solution. And the solution is not being very cooperative.
Pietro feels like he’s someone else entirely when he narrows his eyes at the known terrorist and says with his entire chest—”there are people in this jet that I care about. People I will do anything for. If you don’t Fix the damn hole, I swear I’ll push you out of this jet and say it was a fucking accident and no one will even doubt me.” Which is a straight up threat. An empty one of course because Pietro would never do that—-maybe. At this point in time Pietro could be capable of anything. The words still send a string of panic up his spine because the person he’s threatening is Erik fucking Lehnsherr but he doesn’t back down. He thinks he might’ve lost his mind or something. Pietro Django Maximoff has officially lost his shit.
Erik looks like, well for maybe just a second, Erik looks a bit impressed— which Pietro is sure he’s just imagining. Why would he be impressed by Pietro threatening him? “Charles would stop you.” He says with no real intention in his voice, simply stating a fact.
Pietro doesn’t even hesitate to respond with biting words “he can’t stop me from doing a damn thing.”
Erik and Pietro stare at each other. The words between them marinating like the salty ocean on a open wound. He feels it before he sees it. The air turns thick and warm. The screeching and crunching of metal twisting around the gaping hole squeaks and echoes in his ear like a used saw.
Erik is mending the wall. Fixing it while keeping his eyes on Pietro. Like the speedsters threat was a real one and not Pietro being overly confident. Overly zealous.
The jet stabilizes and the alarm in Pietros head soothes, the speedster lets out a breath and Erik gets a far away look. A look Pietro knows people get when they are talking to Charles.
“There’s hope for him yet.” Erik says out loud with a smirk on his lips that makes him look less terrorist-y. “I am not your walkie talkie Charles.” Erik says suddenly.
They have a back and forth Pietro can’t hear and Erik sighs before looking at the speedster “Charles says he’s very impressed by your quick thinking but that he would appreciate it if you went back to your room to rest.”
My room? Does he mean the jets medical room? Why does it sound like he’s grounding Pietro?
Pietro smiles, amused by Erik’s reluctance in quoting Charles but also in the professor's clearly concerned words. “Yeah I will.”
Erik glares at the wall near Pietro and shakes his head stubbornly “I’m not saying that. Don’t-“ Erik huffs and rubs his forehead like he has a headache. “Alright! For fucks sake.”
“What's wrong?” Pietro frowns and Erik looks uncomfortable “Charles says-“ he cuts himself off and rolls his eyes before looking Pietro in the eye. Seeming to relax a bit he continues to speak with a tight voice “Charles says he’s very proud of you, son.” Son. Pietro darts his eyes away from Erik’s piercing ones. His face goes warm.
“And to refrain from threatening one of his oldest friends even if he deserves it.” Erik’s face contorts into a weird expression. “Which I didn’t. By the way.”
“Debatable.”
Erik sighs and rakes his hand through his hair. “You both are such nuisances.”
“Thanks.”
Pietro goes back to his room in the jet.
“Where did you go?” Katherine screeches and with her good hand throws her yellow pillow at Pietros face. Or what would’ve been Pietros face if she had good aim and the pillow didn’t land flatly at his feet. “One second you were here and the next you were gone!”
“I can move fast.” Pietro assures “I have superspeed.”
“Oh. I thought…I thought you weren’t real.” Katherine says lightly but the speedster detected the ounce of anxiety in her tone.
“I’m definitely real.” Pietro says slowly. “Are you?”
“Yeah, I’m real.” Katherine barely blinks and Pietro sits on his bed slowly, watching her run through hoops in her head. Like she thinks she might still be in the facility. Like Pietros, a made up person in her head and not a real living dude right in front of her. Katherine and Pietro are at a stand still, suspiciously looking at each other and eventually Katherine nods. “Okay, yeah. I’m not creative enough to think up a whole person.”
“All the people they used against me I already knew.” Pietro says easily and Katherine nods—her stomach rumbling like a storm.
“You want my gelatin?” He jiggles the red gelatin cup beside his bed. He doesn’t think about the fact that Pietro got the Gurney while Katherine is stuck in a weird shaped cot in the jet. Favoritism for the win.
Pietro ends up settling back down in his bed after Katherine goes into full discourse about why red colored food isn’t vegetarian because the red dye is made of crushed beetles. She also goes into detail about how Gelatin has a thickening agent derived from the skin, bones and connective tissues of cows and pigs.
It was almost like Katherine was keeping him hostage in the room with blurbs of random conversation. He feels annoyed before he realizes she probably hasn’t had someone to talk to in a long while.
When they landed the oversized jet it felt like Pietro could finally take his first real breath. Pietro looks through the small window near his bed and sees the mansion from the odd view of the dock.
The Mansion looked exactly the same. Which feels wrong in a way because the students going inside aren’t the same. They probably never will be. How can the school still have perfectly green grass and trimmed bushes and the students gain trauma that they’ll have to hire a therapist to deal with decades down the line.
It felt unfair on many levels. Wrong in a sense. Especially since Wanda wasn’t with him. He’s never been away from his sister for this long. A spontaneous trip to Spain for eight days was the longest he’d ever gone without seeing his sister. But even then he had called the house everyday. He hasn’t heard his sister's voice in over a month.
“You guys live here?” Katherine said in awe as she peaks through the window.
“Yeah. This is the school.”
Katherine just stares at the mansion with big wide eyes and Pietro smiles at her astonishment. He remembers feeling the same way. He remembers walking through the gate and feeling like a fish out of water. Frantic and desperate for a decent place to stay and landing on the footsteps of a billionaire's home. It felt like a haunted house, with ghosts of past students still evident in the rooms. Now instead of Pietro feeling haunted he feels warm. Like he’s finally home. Like he can finally take a breath. He wasn’t expecting that breath to be cut in half as he gets a visit from Erik.
He wasn’t mentally prepared to see Erik again so soon after landing—and threatening his life in fear of death—-but he’s the one to enter the room after the jet settles on to the ground.
This is a lot of Erik Lehnsherr that Pietro did not sign up for.
“Peter.” Erik trails his eyes towards Katherine “Miss Pryde.” Katherine barely spared him a quick wave as she continued to stare at the school like it might disappear before her eyes if she looks away.
“Hank wanted me to tell you that you’ll be staying in the med-bay instead of your room until you’ve recovered.”
“I feel fine.” Pietro frowns and barely registers how weird it is that Hank asked Erik of all people to relay that message to him.
Erik fixes him with a look that makes Pietro clamp his mouth shut “You aren’t.” He says simply. Matter of fact. Two words. A statement. Undisputed.
“Right. Okay. Thanks.” Pietro stumbles out and scratches his elbow, his IV twisting uncomfortably around his arm.
When Erik doesn’t leave Pietro just stares at him awkwardly. “Um, anything else or….”
Erik clears her throat “yes, well I wanted to apologize for earlier.”
Pietros eyes widen. “What the hell?”
Erik barreled on like Pietro hadn’t said a word “I won’t apologize for defending us but I will apologize for not prioritizing our safety better. I work alone and don’t usually have to concern myself with the people around me.”
This is not how Pietro thought this was going to go. Actually Pietro had no idea Erik was capable of apologizing at all. This all feels a bit surreal. Shouldn’t Pietro be the one apologizing? He was the one that threatened his life. Forced his hand. Although Pietro doesn’t actually believe Erik can be forced to do anything.
“Did Charles tell you to say that?” Pietro suspects that Charles may be listening to this very conversation as well. Eavesdropping through the terrorist's mind or Even looking through Latherines eyes as this conversation unfolds.
“Maybe. Doesn’t mean it’s untrue.” Erik says easily, not denying or confirming his suspicion but staring a bit too intently at the wall beside Pietro's head.
“Right. Well alright then. Consider yourself forgiven or whatever.” Pietro says quickly, forcing himself not to go into superspeed.
Erik nods minutely and is about to leave again very abruptly when his eyes catch on to something on Pietro's bicep. A tattoo that he had gotten at sixteen in someone’s garage. Impulsive and permanent.
A small Jewish star that is so faded from bad aftercare and pure forgetfulness was pierced in the middle of his bicep. His mother had thrown a fit about branding himself—about declaring something like that to strangers. Her paranoia tended to filter into fear and she practically dragged him to a qualified tattoo parlor to get a cover up.
After a very heartfelt speech and straight up refusal to cover it up Pietro left with an additional Tattoo and a teary eyed mom at his side. He got the word MOM in big blocky letters on his arm and the star was centered on the O. It was subtle and almost unnoticeable over the glaring MOM tattoo in your face. But Pietro knows it’s there. Anyone else would simply think it’s part of the design.
Anyone except for maybe Erik fucking Lehnsherr. He of all people would zero in on the Jewish symbolism on his body. Impulsive and permanent.
An indescribable expression stutters through Erik’s face before it disappears.
“I’m genuinely sorry this happened to you Peter.” And of course…why would Pietro assume Erik was looking at his random tattoo when his entire arm is puzzle pieced together. A burn mark from his elbow to forearm exposed for all to see and a skin graph exposing muscle tissue up his arm. It was all very painful and attention grabbing. The speedster suddenly very much wanted a different shirt. A shirt less exposing of his injuries.
“It’s all good, man.” Pietro says quickly his voice coming out high pitched and awkward and he must’ve shown his discomfort in his face because Erik looks away when he speaks again.
“I hope you have a speedy recovery.”
“Sure thing. Always speedy.” Pietro says awkwardly.
Erik leaves and Pietro lets out the breath he had no idea was trapped in his lungs, holding him hostage in place. “Is he your dad too?” Katherine blurts out like an air balloon.
Pietro jerks up. “No! For fucks sake. Not everyone is my dad, dude.”
“Whatever, dude. I’m just calling it how I see it.”
“Get your eyes fixed.”
Katherine shrugs and shows off a dopey grin on her face that reveals two pointed canines. “You kinda look alike. If you squint.”
“If you squint.” Pietro repeats in disbelief “you really do need to get your eyes checked.” He throws his Gelatin at her face which she screeches at in dismay.
——The moment Pietro spotted the quick wisp of a blue tail, the speedster was on his feet despite the anguish his body was screaming into his bones.
“Woah dude. Is something wrong?” Katherines voice is far away but the question still sticks to his head like glue. No. Nothing is wrong. It’s right. Finally.
Pietro only had eyes for the blue teleporter who fully came into his heavy view. Like an Angel finally reaching home.
The moment Kurts yellow eyes meet Pietro's brown it was like everything mended just a bit more. Fucking finally. Kurt’s entire face shrinks away from the deep lines between his eyebrows and the hardness to his face melts into smooth skin. “Pie.” Not a question, a prayer under his breath and his blue friend didn’t even give him time to go into superspeed before he’s teleporting the extra six feet and is wrapping his limbs all around the speedster like he’s a damn spider monkey. Sulfur staining the air, Kurt’s lips smack his cheek, watery and sloppy as he continues to affectionately attack his face with wet frantic kisses and blessings under his breath between each parting of his lips against skin. Like Pietro might disappear if he feels unloved for even just a moment. “You’re okay!” Kurt sobs and Pietro wraps his arms around him and rubs his back in a gentle gesture “I’m okay, baby. Are you okay?”
Kurt’s ears twitch and he nuzzles his nose into the dip between Pietros shoulder and neck giving a small peck there that sends a lightning strike through Pietros spine.
“I thought they killed you.” Kurt barely says, his accent thick and choppy like he’s trying not to cry, his snotty nose rubs on to his neck and Pietros heart breaks just a little bit because he knows that might’ve been the case in any other scenario. Pietro almost died. Kurt almost died.
“No way. I’m unkillable.” Pietro says lightheartedly and Kurt squeezes him tighter and it hurts his bones but Pietro refuses to let go of him. It was like Kurt had refused to relax the entire time they where on the jet and is now finally processing that they are okay. His body was flush against Pietro, holding him like he’s a jacket protecting him from cold.
“Kurt you aren’t supposed to teleport in your condition!” Hank is trailing behind the teleporter and then when he sees that Pietro is up from his bed he exclaims “you aren’t supposed to be up, peter!”
It was the first time he’s seen Hank without drugged out eyes and Pietro is hit with the realization that he’s fucking missed him. Pietro is dragging himself and Kurt towards Hank at lightning speed, bracing the back of Kurt’s neck for whiplash and reaching around him to grab at Hank's arm. Pietro sees Kurt’s tail latch on to Hanks other arm affectionately and suddenly they are pulling Hank into a very awkward, very tangled and very heartfelt group hug.
“Holy shit man, I’ve missed you so much.” Pietro doesn't cry. He’s cried enough in the last couple hours to last him a lifetime but he doesn’t judge the older man when he wraps his blue furry arms around the both of them and holds them there for eternity. Shaking and vibrating like he might explode into tears at any moment.
“I’m so glad you two are back home.” He says earnestly and Pietro squeezes his arms.
“You still have a bit of pink on your eyebrow.” And Pietro doesn't know what’s worst. The fact that Hank has been so busy trying to get them back that he didn’t consider his appearance at all or that he was so off his whits end that he didn’t take the four showers it would’ve taken for the temporary color dye to wash off.
“You-“ Pietro watches Hank's eyes dart to his shaven head and then away quickly “-don’t.”
Kurt doesn’t either. His hair met the same fate as his. Cut short before it’s time and probably in a weird ziplock bag somewhere. Pietro refuses to think about it. Even though every time he glances at himself in the mirror he feels like jumping off a The damn jet and killing himself. Kurt rakes his three fingers through his bare skull and winces as it touches raw flesh.
“Kurt let me see that.” Dr. Henry McCoy says immediately, pushing his glasses up his nose. An anxious habit that he never grew out of.
“It’s fine. I’m fine.” Kurt digs his face in Pietros neck and Pietro has to physically force himself to stop holding the Teleporter against him. He tugs him away and gently touches his little hair before the teleporter winces, placing his feet on the floor gingerly.
“You’re not fine. Hank needs to take a look at that.” Pietro doesn’t need to look at Kurt to know that he’s glaring at him “i don’t want to leave you.”
“I’ll be right next to you, baby.” Pietro calms and feels all of Kurt’s warmness soak through him.
“You both were just tortured for a month straight. You BOTH need to get a full check up. Blood tests, CT scans, X-rays. All the bells and whistles.” Hank interrupts and Kurt and Pietro give each other a sideways glance that only serves to piss Hank off.
“I’m serious! You two almost died.” Hank shouts and then realizes that they aren’t alone in this room. Katherine has been watching this whole interaction in silence. Moving her head like bouncy balls as she turns to face the individuals speaking.
Hank's face, similarly to Kurt’s, turns a flushing purple. Both of them are suddenly embarrassed to have an audience. “You’ve all been through great trauma.” Hank overcorrects in a panic and Pietro suppresses the snort he wants to let out.
“Do we have to do it now?” Kurt huffs gripping the speedster arm like he might consider leaving and Pietro feels relief that he isn’t the only one being ridiculously clingy.
“As soon as we settle back into the school.” Hank compromises “but I’m looking at that cut in your head now.” He says evenly. Hanks protective streak was reading its head and Pietro is kinda amused to find out what Katherine’s thoughts are on the whole dynamic. He can feel her eyes watching them. Observing the found family like a scientist collecting data.
“But I don’t-“
“-blue come on. Imma be right here.” Pietro says and Kurt’s aversion to doctors has gotten drastically worse. For good reason. But Pietro can tell that it’s affecting Hank to see how against it Kurt is. The blue beast is trying not to show the sadness in his face at being pushed away by someone he cares for but it’s kinda impossible for Pietro not to notice. Hank carries his emotions in his eyes and he’s always more showy around Kurt.
It’s a conversation for another time.
Kurt ends up needing stitches. Pietro holds his hand and Hank talks the whole time to distract Kurt from the pain. It helps to hear his voice. For both of them.
“How’s Jean? Is she okay?” The last time the speedster had seen her she was floating in the living room make shift fort beside Wanda. It wasn’t a good last memory.
“She’s quiet. Has been since everything happened. Bobby’s been checking in on her.”
“Bobby? Bobby Drake?”
“I’m as surprised as you.”
“How’d that happen?” They had made a bit of a breakthrough when Pietro helped him make amends with his friend but he had still held resentment towards Jean. Less animosity than before but definitely not close to anything resembling friendship. “I mean—last I checked Bobby would rather be anywhere she isn’t.”
Hanks just nods “usually I’d agree but—“ the blue man tells the story like he’s still surprised by the whole series of events.
Bobby Drake hated the school. He hated the professor for forcing him to come and he hated his parents for allowing it to happen. He hated his classmates and he hated his classes. Bobby Drake was a very angry little boy and hated a lot of things about his situation and everything that comes with it.
Despite all that hatred Bobby Drake was the first to fight the intruders. Protecting Frankie from a fatal blow to the head and hiding the younger kids away from danger. He fell into the role of protector naturally and instinctively.
When the school he hated was in danger he fought fiercely to protect it. To protect his friends. Students he didn’t even realize he considered his friends until bad men tried to take them away.
Hank tells hem that Bobby Drake had been the one to save Jean while she was in her comatose state-her body left vulnerable and alone. He didn’t leave her side once—protecting her like he didn’t hate her. Like she was someone that deserved his protection. He shielded her from danger.
Hank told them with a hint of surprise in his voice but Pietro knew that Bobby Drake would never let anyone bully any of his friends, not ever again. He learned that lesson with a splash of pool water and a heartfelt talk.
Pietro was only surprised that he continued his display of kindness instead of putting up a front.
“He protected Frankie?” Kurt asks owlishy like that was the only thing his brain hooked on. “Frankie’s okay?” Kurt is blinking away tears and Pietro squeezes his hand.
“Physically, yes. Frankie is okay but he took the loss of you and Misses Wagner pretty badly and with Wanda gone he hasn’t exactly been in a great state of mind.”
“But he’s alive?” Kurt's face scrunches up and his bottom lip quivers. Pietro had no idea he was even worried about that. He hadn’t even considered that Kurt might think Frankie was dead. His heart breaks for him a little.
Hank puts his tools down and looks at Kurt square in the face “Your brother is very much alive and he’s very eager to see you and-“ Hank looks at Pietro “-his brother-in-law.”
“You're married.” Katherine exclaims like she’s cracked the case.
Pietro rolls his eyes “no, nobody is married.”
“My brother wants to marry his sister.” Kurt says “probably will someday.”
“Over my dead body.” Pietro huffs.
“Oh.” Katherine sounds disappointed. “So you two aren’t—y’all are kinda like… brothers then?”
“No.” Pietro And Kurt say at the same time. Pietro and Kurt look at each other in alarm.
“No?” Kurt searches his eyes. “That was a quick response?” And Kurt is trying to sound lighthearted but Pietro is only hearing alarm bells in his head.
“You said No too.” Pietro says easily and looks away from Kurt’s pondering eyes. “Plus we’re best friends.” The speedster included in his defense.
“Right.” Katherine says slowly. “I meant brother in laws. Not like literal brothers but whatever.”
“No one is married.” Hank says absently and Pietro nods in agreement. Quick to move on from this topic. ”Yet.” Hank adds.
“Not ever.” Pietro glares at the blue doctor and Kurt just frowns.
“This is officially the most confusing conversation I’ve ever had. Can we please go inside the huge mansion?”
“Yes please.” Pietro sighs.
“I wanna see Frankie!” Kurt adds.
“Alrighty then.” Hank claps his hands together in emphasis. He looks between the speedster and the teleporter and smiles gently. A strange feeling overcoming him as he watches his family come back together again.
“Let’s go home.”
Finally.
Notes:
Thank you for your patience!!
This chapter is a bit choppy but I wanted to give you something. I had lots of fun writing interactions between Erik and Pietro and I loved introducing Katherine/aka Kitty Pryde as a nosy traumatized teenager. She’s thirteen in this fic because she was thirteen when she was introduced in the comics.
You will find Typos and grammar mistakes. Enjoy. <3
Chapter 21: A Daughter, A Lover, A Mother
Summary:
The doctors said it was lung cancer. Her father, who never smoked and never drank, had bad lungs. Going to college was forgotten and all funds were given to her fathers treatments. Open house came and went. Long forgotten in the black cloud of cancer. They tried every experimental drug, every prayer, every oil-ritualistic medicine that they could think up—they did it all. When it came down to it he was simply just too far gone. The cancer got him quick, taking all the warmth in the house with it.
The funeral preparations sucked up the rest of the funds they had stashed away and they buried Jordan Wagner next to his grandfather and great grandfather. His plane stone was grey and his bones decomposed underground-rotting like worm food.
Margaret had never seen her mother cry. Not even at the funeral. Her children wept and crumbled under grief and she stayed strong, shouldering her children’s pain like a saint.
Margaret has never seen her mother cry. But she did hear her.
Like a battle cry.
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The adventures of Margaret Wagner. Finding passion, finding love, and losing it all at once.
Notes:
There is sexual content in this chapter. All consensual but it’s there. I don’t think it’s too explicit but just in case this is your warning.
There is a trans character in this chapter who is referred to as a drag queen but she is not.
Margaret Wagner is 25ish when she joins the circus. I do time jump a lot in this chapter so I’m sorry if it gets confusing.
This chapter got way too long so I had to cut it into two parts. This is the first part of Margaret’s Story—-the second part will be the next chapter which I’ve already started writing.
As always, typos and grammar mistakes will be found. Thank you for reading :))
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Margaret Wagner loved the Bavarian circus that came by her town every year. Just when the air turned crispy cold and the trees began to frost. It was her favorite time of year. She loved the smell of the food and the feel of the cheaply made hot chocolate burning her throat. She loved the bright flashing colors and the loud laughter and jiggly music that played past the tent for all to hear. She looked forward to spending the very little money she could save from the year to buy a ticket from the too tall ticket booth man and clambering to the first available seat on the cold benches closest to the stage. Eager to watch the performance that has had her mystified since she was old enough to walk. Old enough to crawl really.
Margaret wagner was the daughter of Jordan and Phoebe wagner.
A preacher's daughter in a little town in Maine. Her parents were simple people, living simple lives. Living in the place they were born and raised and feeling content.
“Nothing better than a good steady routine to shape character.” Her mother used to say every morning as she poured her the same oatmeal in her breakfast bowl.
The same bowl, the same oatmeal at the same time. Church on Sundays, Bible study on Wednesdays. Prayers at the dining table and a prayer before slumber. Margaret was the youngest of nine children so routine was needed for the household to function. A prayer for each child.
Margaret had always been the black sheep of her family. Disturbing the routine at every chance, changing the flow of things as they happened.
A disruptor of peace. Her father used to call her a firecracker, her mother used to call her a brat. Both things were true.
“Lord help me, one of these days one of them elephants is gonna knock your teeth in and you’re gonna be in a world of trouble.” Her mama crows like she does every year when Margaret drags her father to the carnival that they can barely afford to go to.
Margaret was nine when she memorized the acrobatic dance routine. She balanced on the falling tree trunks around her home, light feet tip toeing in sync in her head. In love with falling on her face and scraping her knees and fumbling and stumbling until it aches. She fell in love with practice and bleeding and absolutely nailing it after so many falls to the head.
Margaret loved her family. Her family home was accompanied not just by her parents and siblings but by her cousins and aunts and uncles. A big house for an overflowing family. A big family that also—despite her recklessness and flaws—-loved her dearly.
Her family was her audience as she performed her tricks and twirls and they where her biggest fans. They loved her despite her tantrums, despite her oddities. They loved her enough to save money.
Enough to eat oatmeal every single day for breakfast just to save a couple bucks. They loved her enough to notice her mind along with her talents long before even she did.
“A genius. My baby girls a genius. Thank the lord.” Her father framed the straight A report card like it was an acceptance letter to Harvard. Like it was a Nobel Peace prize. Like it meant something that a black girl was smart in a small town in Maine. Like it was important that it was his girl that was smart. His daughter.
“A 91 in gym? How do you get less then a 100 in playing? All you do is play?” Her mother had scolded her answer, always seeking perfection in everything. “Forgetting your gym clothes is unacceptable, Margo.” Despite her huffing she made sure to iron her clothes every night, prim, pressed and folded in her bag before she leaves the next day for school. She never forgot her gym clothes again.
On her next report card she got a 100 in gym. “Now we gotta see how we can raise that 95 in English.” Her mom complained and then assisted. Helping her study through out the day even when it felt like a hassle. Even when most days her mothers back hurt and her hands cracked. She gave her children oatmeal every morning because it was all they could afford and they scrounged and saved and ate just enough to not be hungry but not enough to be full.
She made sacrifices, cold water and thick blankets in the winter. Discounts and food stamps holding their hands and sewing kits for each pair of dress shirts and hand me down slacks.
For her children she made sacrifices. Big and small.
“She knows how great you are.” Her father had assured her, gentle in his demeanor, always the one to balance out his wifes harshness with his softness “she just knows you have to be perfect to be given a chance.”
“What if I can’t be perfect?” Margaret Worried.
Her father smiled and kissed her forehead “my sweet butterfly, you already are.”
They had saved money for college. Six siblings and she was the only one they had saved money for. She wanted to cry.
Despite her mother’s words and doubts she had actually believed in her.
Margo wanted to be a dancer.
“A doctor would be better.” Her mother joked “but a dancer with a degree would suffice.”
It was as simple as that.
Six siblings and they all decided to pitch in as well. Little Thomas, Big Joey and Penny sacrificing their own little piece voluntarily. She had enough money to go. Years of starving, of mending old shoes and buying on sale, years of favors and extra shifts and extra prayers and they had enough.
They had enough to put Margo into the best dance academy in the country.
But then Jordan Wagner, her dear old father, got sick. It happened suddenly. They where celebrating. They bought cake. It was the first time they had ever purchased a cake from a store instead of making it from scratch. A small splurge to celebrate Margaret getting accepted into the dance university.
One coughing fit turned into another turned into another and another until blood was splattered into his hand at the rickety dining table.
The doctors said it was lung cancer. Her father, who never smoked and never drank, had bad lungs. Going to college was forgotten and all funds were given to her fathers treatments. Open house came and went. Long forgotten in the black cloud of cancer. They tried every experimental drug, every prayer, every oil-ritualistic medicine that they could think up—they did it all. When it came down to it he was simply just too far gone. The cancer got him quick, taking all the warmth in the house with it.
The funeral preparations sucked up the rest of the funds they had stashed away and they buried Jordan Wagner next to his grandfather and great grandfather. His plane stone was grey and his bones decomposed underground-rotting like worm food.
Margaret had never seen her mother cry. Not even at the funeral. Her children wept and crumbled under grief and she stayed strong, shouldering her children’s pain like a saint.
Margaret has never seen her mother cry. But she did hear her.
Like a battle cry.
Just after dark, when all the children slept and all the movement in the house dulled. Margaret heard her mother cry in her room, her fathers side of the bed untouched. Her sobs echoed in her head like a bouncing ball shaking in her skull. Phoebe Wagner lost the love of her life. Her husband, The father of her children, and her very best friend. Margo has never heard a sound so gut-wrenching leave another human being's mouth. Not at the diagnoses when her sisters cried, not when her father started regularly getting nosebleeds, not when he did his last sermon, not when he died in a hospital bed, and not at his funeral surrounded by everyone that loved him.
Only after. Only in the dead of night, where no one can hear her cries, or hear her agony does Phoebe Wagner fully allow herself to break down into hysterical tears. One after the other. Cracking under her voice.
After that day her mother wasn’t quite the same. Missing a piece of her that made her edges softer and made her smile linger.
Margaret saw what love could do to someone. And she saw what it could do when it was taken away. When the love you had was suddenly gone and far from reach. Leaving behind someone broken.
Margaret doesn’t go to the dance university. She goes to community college and stays close to home. She gets a degree as a teacher and becomes a substitute teacher. For a while that kept her secure but not many people wanted black teachers teaching in mainly white schools. So the job was limited. After a peaceful protest over Banned Books at schools became violent towards her she was arrested and got her teaching license revoked. She got a job at a flower shop. She learned about herbs and seeds and fertilizer types. She loved the smell of the bouquets and the wet dirt that grew more than itself. She loved the job. It was soft and it was peaceful. She just didn’t like the people. An older lady, a friend from church, had given her the job but was oblivious to the demographic that lived in that side of town. The customers that came in either ignored her or paid far too much attention to her to feel not targeted. After a few too many complaints from less than progressive costumers Margo was laid off.
She got a job as a farmers hand, good with her hands and strong enough to huddle animals. She had the job for maybe three months before the helper boy tried to get frisky with her and she had to smack him silly. It was unknown to her that he was the handler's nephew. She was fired instantly. No questions asked.
Eventually she gets a job at a black owned salon in the city, a 45 minute drive from her family home but she likes the long drive. She likes the quiet in the morning. It helps her think. The location of the salon is more booming with diversity and she rarely gets any looks. Her coworkers are kind- if not just boring conversationalists.
This is the job where she meets her.
“I want it to be different, yah know?” The brown woman sat in her shampoo chair, big lashes and curling acrylics. She wore heels and skin tight clothes with leopard prints.
“More different then this?” Margaret touched her curls, her choppy fro with red tips making it look like fire. It settles something familiar in Margaret’s stomach. Something old she thought she buried away with her scraped knees and dance university dreams.
The other ladies in the salon looked at the eccentric women with apprehension but Margaret only smiled. “How do we feel about braids?”
“I said different honey, not basic. I wanna be the main attraction not some pretty girl on the street.” She smacks her red lips seeming frustrated “can you do that? Can you make me look—- like I’m meant to be looked at?”
Margaret feels something shift. A little fire in her eye. “I’m gonna make it hard for anyone to look away.”
The ladies eyes widen, with something like joy- Margaret had forgotten what that looked like for a while. “You will?”
“I won’t do you wrong.” And Margaret loved a challenge. She also, equally enjoyed making others happy. It was why she danced as a child in front of the porch with big clunky boots and frilly dresses, and why she had talent shows with sock puppets and banana peels and laughing contests with her cousins that left them all crazy eyed and belly aching. She loved to make others smile.
With lots of extensions and hours of weaving and dying hair Margaret had nearly finished her masterpiece.
The shop had closed hours ago but Margaret refused to leave the client with half finished hair so she stayed after close.
When she was finally done braiding her hair with bright rainbow extensions, each strip of hair a sparkly color that contrasted the other, Margaret twisted and styled the hair half up and half down, the hair nearly touching the ground and the hair that was up twisted and shaped into a crown with four points. It looked jarring and insane and Margaret couldn’t look away as she presented it to her client.
“It-“ the client, who had stayed perfectly quiet and still through out the entire process, looked at her long and colorful design and smiled “it’s stunning. I just-“ she takes her long fingers through her hair, looking a bit lost for words. “I was hoping for something a bit more-“
That’s when Margaret turned off the lights so that the full picture could be seen. Her hair glowed in the dark. Rainbow stripes leaking out of a golden glowing crown like a mythical creature.
“-like that?” Margaret finishes her sentence.
The client looks close to tears, her long purple eyelash extensions fluttering in the dark like butterflies. “You’re amazing.”
“It was my honor.”
“No, dear.” The lady, this client who she’s known for all of one day turns to her and braces her shoulders like she’s someone truly precious and looks her dead in the eye without any shame “you gotta listen to me. You have a talent. Do not waste it here.” She gestures at the small shop, long since closed and turned off for the day. Bland chairs with simple colors and normal hairstyles and it all feels a bit too dull compared to this woman's personality. Too little for someone so much.
Margaret is irrevocably in love with her.
“Thank you.” Was all Margaret could say. She took her money and her generous tip and she went home and tried to forget about the lady with the butterfly lashes and rainbow hair that she made glow.
It was hard. It was kind of the highlight of her day. Of her week actually maybe even the highlight of her year. She tried to forget nonetheless.
It was a bit pointless. Especially when she came back two weeks later with her friend. A tall thin lady with short ear length hair. This lady, who’s name she never did catch, brings her friend to do her hair as well. “She’s a genius, I swear by it. Aren’t you darling?” Margaret basically beamed at the compliment, feeling lightheaded and excited and confusing it for hunger. She hadn’t eaten anything on her lunch break.
“It’s a disaster! Nothing she can do.” The friend had a thick accent Margaret couldn’t place “my last muse cut it. She was too loose with the scissors. Nothing can be done.”
She had enough hair to attempt extensions but Margaret could see from the way she constantly brushed the little bangs that she did have away from her face that she most likely didn’t particularly like long hair. The problem wasn’t that it was short-much like her original client- it was that her hair was boring.
“I can fix it.” Margaret says and pulls out a hair razor. They both stared at Margaret with wide eyes.
“You trust this girl?” The friend looked at the previous client in horror.
“Baby, my hair glows.” And that was enough to convince her friend to put her hair on the line.
She trims the sides of her head, keeping the middle part longer all the way to the nape of her neck like a small Mohawk. She carved snowflake designs on the shaved parts of her head and dyed her already blonde hair a striking white and her Mohawk with frosted blue tips.
“I look like a fucking snowman.” Margaret couldn’t tell if she liked it or not, not until she suddenly started full-on grinning and jumping up and down like a little girl at a playground.
“I love it, love it, love it!” She kisses both of Margaret’s cheeks in a flurry of joy and Margo can only smile at her clear satisfaction with her job.
“I’m Deja by the way.” My original client from two weeks ago says, her perfectly sharp nails touching Margo’s hand and shaking it politely.
“I’m Jessie.” Deja’s friend says shamelessly checking herself out in the salon's mirror.
“I’m glad you came back.” Margo couldn’t stop thinking about her.
“Me too.” Deja says “I couldn’t stop thinking about you.” She says and Margo thinks she’s reading her mind for a second, her own face warming.
“She kept talking’ about this greaaaaaat hairdresser she found. Kept talkin you up like crazy I thought she was eating your shit with how much she was kissin your ass.”
“Girl hush up. I had every right to flaunt my girl.” My girl.
“Ain’t complaining. My new hairdo looks killer. The rest of the circus should get there fresh kicks from her.”
Margaret is following everything with alarming ease. These people, Deja and Jessie, work for the circus. An old memory cleared itself in her mind and she felt that warm feeling in her stomach again.
“Ever think I just wanted to keep her for myself?” Deja scoffed her soothing voice curling around the edge.
“You can’t! It would be like a crime! She’s too talented to only do your hair.”
“I let her do your hair…”
“Cause I’m your best friend, you queen.”
“Don’t call me a queen, you fairy.”
“Says the magician.”
“Says the magician's assistant.”
“Go back to clown school.”
“Bitch.”
“Slut.”
They burst into giggles, like old friends and not girls who just said heinous things to each other.
Margaret is relieved that the one other hairstylist here this morning is out on a product run and not privy to the language being spoken.
“She’s right, you know.” Deja looks back at Margo who can’t stop staring at her like she’s magical.
“That you’re a slut?” Margo’s mouth runs away from her.
Deja let’s out a surprised cackle. Jessie snorts “exactly.” Her friend says.
Margo’s face goes warm.
Deja smacks Jessie’s arm “yes, of course I am but I meant the part about you being talented. Have you thought about what I said, dear?”
Only every single day since she’s said it.
“About moving on to bigger and better things?” Margo lifts a conspiratory eyebrow “as if that’s something that’s actually possible.”
“Come with us.”
“Come with you?” Margo furrows her eyebrows.
“Come with me.” Deja says instead and Margaret wants-she just wants.
“Where?” What is she even saying?
“The circus. Join us.”
Margaret laughed. She laughed loudly until it hurt her stomach. “I’m serious. It can be part time if you want. Just while we’re in town. See how you like it.” Deja hasn’t stopped looking at her with those eyes. Big and fluttery.
“I can’t just—-Join the circus.” Even if she really wanted to. Even if it makes the little dancing girl inside her happy at the mere idea.
“Why not? What’s stopping you?”
“My-“ her siblings are grown. She was the youngest of the lot. Her older siblings take care of everyone else- their grandparents and their mother.
“-I have church.”
In the end it was her fathers church that truly grounded her to this town. The small building brought her comfort every Sunday and every Wednesday night. The church her father built, brick by brick. The one he preached and taught at. The one that he raised his children in. It felt like the only real look into his fathers eyes. Now that he’s gone from this earth. The only thing he left behind besides his children. The only thing to bring a smile to her mothers face every Sunday.
“There are churches all over the world, doll.” Jessie says and Margo shakes her head.
“It’s complicated.”
“Here.” Deja hands her a card, glittery and fluorescent with a number. “Just think about it.”
“We’re set up at the mall center.”
“I know where it is.” Margo says. She use to beg her family to take her to the mall just to go to the circus on the last day that they performed because that’s when tickets were cheapest. She remembers going and she remembers exactly when she stopped begging her family to go.
“I hope to see you.” She’s says gently and Jessie gives her flashy wave before they both head out of the store.
Margaret Wagner goes to church that Sunday for guidance. Or maybe as a reminder. Perhaps she needed a bit more convincing to stay put and be with her family.
She sings in the choir, her voice booming and moving the chorus of voices. She sung until her voice was raw and strained. She listened to the pastor—her fathers old apprentice since before he built the church—and she wrote her notes and clapped and praised the word. She prayed for guidance. For a sign from God to not stray from the path she’s been given.
It was a bit presumptuous of her to assume god all mighty would take time from his busy schedule to send a message her way but she was a bit desperate and more then a little bit tempted.
“Something bothering you Miss Wagner?” Pastor Richard asked, his bushy eyebrows creasing together in worry. No matter how many times he tells her to just call her Margo—he refuses. Even when she was just a child he would still regard her as Miss Wagner which only got confusing when she had three other sisters and they all shared the same last name.
“Did you always want to be a pastor?” Always straight to the point.
“No.” Pastor Richard said as he sat beside her on the front row. “I wanted to be a rockstar.”
Margo looked at the older gentleman in surprise. “You did?”
“Yeah, I played the guitar. I had a band. We made a few songs. Even got picked up by a record label.”
“What happened?”
“Took one look at me with my brown skin and my thick accent and said I wasn’t good for the brand. It was either they cut me from the band or we weren’t gonna get signed.”
Margarets eyes widened. “They fired you from the band?”
Pastor Richard laughs and shakes his head “nope. No way.” He points at the church band packing up their equipment from the stage, leather jackets and heavy crosses around their shirts, the only consistent band the church has ever had all consisting of older white men. “Those guys are my family. They stood by me and when my dream changed they changed with me.”
Margo watches the band settle their things, moving seamlessly with each other. Their instruments tucked away and secured into their cases.
“And your real family?”
Pastor Richard just smiles kindly. “I grew up with them. I’ve bled with them. When I was homeless, they gave me a bed. When I was hungry they fed me. When I cried, they cried with me. They are my family. Family isn’t black and white. It isn’t just blood.” Then…almost like he knew what she was struggling with he continues. “My family supported my dreams. Even if it was different then what they imagined. They still come every Sunday to support me.”
He leans in close to Margo to whisper conspirately “even if the drummer is an atheist.”
Margo nods, laughing under her breath, deep in her head. “And you?” Pastor Richard asks.
She looks up at him in question. “What did you want to do when you were young?” He asks.
She barely thinks when she responds. “I wanted to go to the circus.”
“Then you should go.” Richard says simply.
“I can’t.” She shakes her head. He has no idea what she’s telling her to do. He has no idea what has been troubling her.
“They are in town. You should go. I know your father loved to see them.” And it was only the mere mention of her father that made her walk to the mall pavilion the following night.
“It smells nice.” Her mother said beside her, her voice lacking any usual coldness. Margaret had mentioned going to the pavilion to see the performers and her mother had made an expression she hadn’t seen in a long time. Something mixed with fondness and sadness.
Margaret had always dragged her family to go see the circus-for years her father would take her and her siblings and her mother would always stay home. Every year she’d make an excuse. She didn’t like the noise. She didn’t like the crowd so she preferred to stay home while she had the house to herself. Margo thinks her mother might have some feelings about the circus as well. Like maybe her mother was sad that she never went while her husband was still alive.
Margo watched as her mother stopped at every booth-her first time seeing the art and the magicians performing. Margaret saw her Mother light up for the first time since her fathers death. Like a wide eyed child her mother let herself be taken in by the tricks and flight of hands the magicians showed. Oohing and aahing at every successful deception. Margo watched in awe as her mother purchased two caramel apples and gave Margo her own without fuss.
She was fascinated by her mothers reaction.
“I bought us tickets for the freak show.” Her mother said. “Although I’m not very fond of the name. It sounds rude.”
“I’m sure they don’t mind.” Margo was simply surprised that her mom voluntarily spent money on tickets. It would take begging before. Literal hands and knees and chores for months before she’d let her dad buy tickets.
When they entered the tent it was like electricity. The environment was like a wildfire, sending everyone’s heart aflame. It was exactly like she remembered it. The large drums matching the tempo of the fire dancer quite literally setting the stage on fire.
Margaret couldn’t suppress the smile that matched her mothers, marking them as a mother daughter duo.
An elephant bedazzled in jewels and a man dressed in purple on his back- pranced into the center of the scene in sync to the trumpets and drums. Perfectly choreographed and practiced to perfection.
Margo’s eyes widened when the man stood with one leg on top of the elephant's back with perfect ease and did a flip still on top of the giant creature. He swung his legs and then he jumped high enough to catch the rope attached to the ceiling meanwhile dancers surrounded the elephant in fluid movements.
The performance of limbs and flips and luck seemed to go on for a long breathtaking moment and just when Margo believes the man won’t be able to catch the rope— he doesn’t.
Gasps and screams and just when he’s about to hit the ground he hovers there propelled upwards into the sky like an Angel and the crowed claps in thunders.
“Welcome my friends and foes alike. A round of applause for our freak show!” A booming voice came from behind the curtain. In a flurry of applause and laughter a gang of diverse individuals overcome the stage. Margaret spots Deja like a magnet, eyes trained to her rainbow hair and the way she moves to the beat like a snake.
Later that night, after the boisterous events of the carnival they went home and her mother made dinner. She cooked her fathers favorite meal and served a hearty spoonful to all the members of the home. She bummed under her breath, a tune from the carnival, one her father often sang as well after a long day at the event.
It was like for just a moment her father was back in the house, a warmth spreading the room like a hot fireplace finally lit after a cold winter. “I see why he liked it so much.” Phoebe spoke while Margaret helped her with dishes.
“The food?”
“The carnival, dear.” Phoebe scrubbed the plate with a soft smile—a smile she hadn’t seen in so long Margaret momentarily thought she was dreaming.
“He always seemed to happy to go with you. I always thought it was so silly. Your father used to say-“ phoebe thinks deeply “he used to say that he could see you in them. That they had the same sparkle as you. I always thought he was just being fanciful like he always was.” She hands the wet plate back to her daughter, meeting her eyes “but it’s true. It’s like looking through a window.”
Phoebe Wagner loves her daughter deeply. And like most mothers she was a bit rough around the edges but in the end she had an intuition. Like all mothers do. An intuition that her baby bird wanted to fly out of the nest.
What kind of mother would she be to clip her wings just as she’s learning to fly?
“You used to love dancing.”
Margaret looks away with shaky eyes, feeling caught. “That was a long time ago mama.”
“After everything that happened. i was in my own grief. In my own head. I lost sight of you. of all of my children. I didn’t even realize you had stopped dancing. Your father loved it when you danced.”
Margaret blinked away her misty eyes “its alright mama. Life happened—I can’t dance anymore. It just reminds me of papa.”
Phoebe scrubs the plates silently. A long break in the conversation before she speaks again—looking out the window as the moon sparkles in the distance. “I think that’s why you should keep dancing baby. He lives in all of us but you most of all. That carnival it made me realize just how much I missed—Your father is the love of my life. Forever and always. When he died a piece of me did with him. I can’t ever get that back but you—you have a piece of him I never had. You have his eyes. His smile. You have his heart. His spirit. You are the most like him out of all of my children.”
Her mothers words repeated in her mind for days. It felt like permission. It felt like justification. She felt hopeful in a way she hasn’t felt since she was accepted into the dance academy.
She goes to the Carnival the next day. She can’t afford the ticket so instead she sneaks in via Jessie’s assistance. “Deja’s having a hair emergency.” Jessie lied smoothly to the security “this is her stylist.”
The security guard looked them both up and down and eventually let them through after Jessie whispered something in his ear that made his face go hot red.
“Alrighty honey, Deja’s tent is right here. I’ll keep watch so nobody asks no questions.”
“Thank you.” Margaret stares at the funky mirror outside her tent and grimaces, pulling her skirt down.
“Baby girl, trust me you look hot.” Jessie grinned as she peaked her head over her shoulder revealing a gold tooth she hadn’t noticed before.
“I’m not trynna look hot.”
“Just a happy coincidence then.”
“Who’s this sweet thing?” A heavily bearded man walks past the tent looking Margaret up and down like she’s a meal to be ravished.
“Shove off, you redneck. She ain’t here for you.”
“She’s one of Deja’s unicorns? I don’t get the fad for drag queens but if it’ll get me laid maybe I’ll wear a dress or two.”
“Shut the fuck up, Hansel. Everyone knows you look fugly in everything regardless.” Jessie flips him the bird and the man walks away with is hands up in surrender. She looks back at Margaret who was listening to discourse with mild interest “don't listen to Hansal. He’s an old shit. Deja will be happy to see you. she’s been talking you up to everyone.”
“She has been?” Margaret blushes her face hot and smiley, shy with her affections. “Nice things?”
“Great things.” Jessie nudges her towards the tent—giving her two thumbs up.
When Margaret steps into the small tent she catches Dejas eyes on the mirror near the bright light on the makeup table, a giant cot and dresser next to it filled with intricate outfits. A chest full of props used as a chair.
Dejas eyes grow big and a surprised smile grows on her face as she swings around to face Margaret—long legs swing past the chest easily. “Deary you came!” She’s up on her long feet in a instant coming to the other girl like she was greeting an old friend. She pulls her into a hug and as Margaret wraps her arms around the taller woman—pressed against her completely—that’s when she realizes.
“You-“ Margaret Wagner falters slightly, understanding suddenly. “You’re a man?” Margaret asked curiously, not pulling away but Deja pulls away and meets her eyes, with caution but not fear. “Only physically.” She says and straightens her back, trying to appear taller—braver. “But I’m no less a woman than you.”
Margaret thinks that over, adding that to the pieces she already knows about the marvelous women. She belatedly realizes she’s never seen Deja without a thick choker around her neck. She has different colors that match with every outfit and it’s only now after receiving this information that Margo realizes it’s to cover up her Adam’s apple. “Hansel called you a drag queen.”
Deja let’s out a puff of air from her cheeks looking properly annoyed “Hansel is a damn poppet and he ain’t know left from right. He thinks the real me won’t sell tickets so he colors me in drag. He’s a damn buffoon.”
“He is.” Margo agrees, holding her hand. “Your performance was amazing.”
“Thank you dear.” Deja squeezes her hand kindly but then retreats them quickly—looking a bit anxious “you really didn’t know?”
“How would I?” Margaret scans the woman’s face as if maybe it would give her away. Her features were not masculine in nature, but her androgynous appearance is overshadowed by her makeup and lashes and long beautiful hair. Deja looked so beautiful that Margaret didn’t even question it.
“I thought you realized the first day we met. When your coworker made an excuse to not do my hair?” Is that what had happened?
“I didn’t.”
“I sat in your chair for a very long time dear how could you not even realize?”
“I was a bit distracted.”
“By my hair?”
“By you. You are meant to be admired not analyzed.” Margaret was never one for being subtle.
Deja smiled looking properly smitten “Margo dear you truly are something else. It doesn’t bother you at all?”
Margaret puts a hand over hers, stepping closer to the taller woman once again. “nothing to be bothered by. You are stunning.”
Deja and Margaret stood close to each other, practically breathing each other's air. “You are like the moon.”
“Cause im huge?” Was that a dick joke?
“Because you’re the brightest thing here.” Margaret corrects.
“Only with help from The sun.” Deja touches her cheek gently “will you be my sun?”
Margaret helped Deja glow. With her hair and with her spirit. It felt almost like fate bringing the two together. Magnetized to each other like gravity forcing the two yo collide.
Many of the circus members assumed that Margaret and Dejaunae had been dating since they met. Jessie had assumed they had hooked up that night. The two had stayed in that tent the whole night. Talking for ages. Giggling like school girls between periods.
But in reality it was a slow and steady Slope for them. They didn’t share there first kiss until a month into their travels after Margaret had gone through the whole acrobatics routine without stumble for the first time since she was seven. She had been so happy that she had run up to a clapping Deja—cheering on her in the sidelines—and had planted one right on her.
Margaret and Deja tried to keep it a secret. Sneaking kisses and holding hands underneath the shared tables. They’d cuddle in Dejas private tent and whisper sweet things to each other when no one could hear. They kept up the secret until they had realized that everybody had assumed they had been dating to begin with. A pointless endeavor that nobody believed.
It was actually more shocking to the circus that they hadn’t been dating the whole time.
Patrick the head clown looked the most shocked, his clown makeup looking extremely hilarious in context to his disbelief. “I literally saw you wipe ice cream off Dejas mouth and lick it off your fingers while making direct eye contact with her. It was very traumatic. It was like the first week you got here.”
“I thought Deja was the forward one.” Jessie whistles lowly.
“There were children around. I had to fight back a homophobe.”
“Thank you for your service.” Deja said sarcastically, wrapping an arm around Margaret easily pulling her in to sit closer together in their bench.
Deja and Margo made love for the first time under the stars in a rooftop in Spain. Sweaty and warm all at once. “Am I your first girlfriend?” Deja asks curiously.
“No.” Margaret smiles. Deja kisses her palms, like she’s a flower inhaling her completely. “Here I thought you were a proper Christian girl.”
“I am! I’ve just always liked beautiful things. Beautiful people. That can’t be helped. And you?”
“I’ve never been one to be picky.” Deja smiles at her.
“But you do have a type. Jessie said so.” Margo muses kissing Dejas neck sweetly as they lay in the fluffiest blanket they could find.
“Am I your type?”
“No way, babygirl, you’re one of a kind. There’s nobody else like you.”
They loved each other quickly. They traveled the world and the more distance they covered the more love Margo felt.
She had never been in love before. She never realized how much someone could love another person before. It was jarring and beautiful and everything and nothing like she imagined.
They made love in every state they traveled. Their affections never seem to run dry.
It was bound to happen eventually. It happened seven years down the line.
“I’m pregnant.” Margaret says after throwing up her lunch.
“You’re pregnant.” Deja repeats like it was a new word in her vocabulary.
“We’re pregnant.” Margo says wiping the vomit off her mouth with annoyance.
The biggest smile known to man erupted into the stunning woman. Even after seven years Dejas' smile still shakes Margo’s lungs, stealing her breath. “We are? I-“ she fell short suddenly nervous “is that-are we happy about this? I can’t tell from your expression, dear.” Deja crouched down next to her love like it wasn’t a filthy bathroom floor.
“We can do whatever you like beloved. We can get rid of it or-or give it up for adoption or we can be parents. It’s whatever you want baby but you gotta say something cause I’m freaking out.”
“Baby-“
“-I’m sorry, yeah. Shit I know abortion is like a morally gray area in Christianity. I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that-“
“-baby-“
“-I’m just kinda trynna wrap my head around it-“
“-my love take a breath. You need to-“
“-I just didn’t think this would happen-“
“-Deja!” Margo snapped touching her face so that she’s looking at her properly. “I’m not getting an abortion. Not because I’m against it but because I know this is a miracle.”
“I’m supposed to be infertile. My meds-“
“I know. Dear, I know.”
“I wanted kids but—because of who I am I never even thought…I thought it was out of the cards for me.”
“Yeah, well it’s not.” Margo smiles at her like she’s her whole world “we’re gonna have a baby.”
“I’m gonna be a mom?”
“Yeah.” Margo gushes and kisses her love deeply.
The pregnancy had more than a few scares. Margo had to stop dancing for a time once she started showing. Margo wrote to her family once they stayed at a location for longer then a week. Enough time to get a letter back from her mother and all nine of her siblings demanding the baby be named after them.
When Margo had her first contraction she believed she saw God. Or perhaps it was simply Susan the mime but she truly believed someone was watching her and giving her that extra push to not give up. It was a painful labor. In the middle of a Canada winter outside in a barn surrounded by elephants and pigs like she was giving birth to Jesus Christ himself. It truly felt biblical but she definitely broke public peace with her outcry’s and poor Deja got the brunt of her death threats.
“I can’t believe you got me fucking pregnant!” Margo was cursing like a damn sailor and Deja was taking it like a champ. “I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you!” Followed by Dejas frantic “imsorryimsorryimsorry! Promise I’ll never do it again!”
“This sucks so bad!” Margo was in so much pain and agony being ripped in half and she just knew that this big headed child was gonna take their time coming into this world.
“Just keep pushing! You almost got it.” Jessie was a mid-wife in another life which Margo found hilarious at the time but is evidently very grateful for now.
“I see a head. Full head of hair!”
“Gets it from me.” Deja jokes and Margo bites her damn head off with a series of cuss words. “They got their big fat head from you asshole!”
“Breath Margo. Just breath with me.”
When Margo heard crying she wasn’t convinced it want hers. It wasn’t until she felt a small weight settle on her chest that she realized she had finished giving birth to a whole fucking child. a baby girl with her Dejas eyes.
“How dare she look like you. I carried her for nine months.”
“She’s beautiful.”
“Yeah, no shit. She looks like you.” Because Deja was nothing if not beautiful even in Margo’s after labor haze.
“I think she looks like you. She has your pointed ears.” Dejas gently taps the infant's ears like she still hasn’t processed that it’s her child. A baby.
“Holy shit we have a baby.” Dejas eyes glossed with shiny tears and Margo just stares down at her baby girl swaddled in a homemade unicorn blanket that Rocky from concessions made. He had spent over two months crocheting it and stabbed about two pedestrians to finish it in time.
Margo takes back her previous statement. This is the first time she realizes how much it feels to love someone completely. This child is her love. This child is her world. The sun and moon surround her–shining only for her.
Deja took to motherhood like a fish on water. Margo stumbled slightly—struggling with being a perfectionist and being a mother; a role that requires messiness and chaos.
It was a bit unsettling to realize that she was just a little bit like her mother in that regard. Wanting things to be perfect for one’s child is what all mothers want. It was a trait she hadn’t realized she had taken from her own mother.
They raised Lilly in the circus and she easily became the happy mascot everyone came to see. A lion tamer taught her how to tie her shoes. Clowns taught her how to Read. Acrobats taught her how to swim. She was a wild child like Margo. But she was kinder, gentler.
“I love you my Lilly.” Margo kisses her kid goodnight like she does every night for the past seven years. Deja tucks her in and sings her a song. Her voice had hushed crowds and settled animals but tonight it whispers a lullaby only for her daughter's ears. A gift only she can give.
“I love you too mama.” Lilly snuggles close to her stuffed animals and Deja blows on the candle wick candle near the cot. “I love you sweetness.” The two mothers tip toe out of their family trailer with large coats to cover their cold bodies.
“I feel a bit guilty leaving her here to go out.” Margo always felt anxious when she was away from her child. If she didn’t have her eyes on her she won’t actually know if she’s alright.
“Babygirl please. We haven’t gone out and had fun without baby drama since before we had Lilly.”
“Not true, I recall a certain French horn player just before Lilly’s second birthday.” Margo smiles knowingly bumping her shoulder with hers.
“He was amazing with his mouth.” Deja agrees and pulls her in close by the hips, stealing each others warmth. “And the pretty blonde tourist in Germany with the most perfect breast.” Margo adds “that was around Christmas.”
“Halloween.” Deja corrects “she was dressed up as a priest.”
“A nun.” Margo corrects “I had to go to church the next day and avoid eye contact with actual nuns. It was traumatic.” She shivers at the thought and Deja only laughs, trailing her fingers down her arm. “It was anything but traumatic last time I checked.”
“I just don’t feel like leaving her alone. She’s having nightmares again and I-“
“-Honey, she hasn’t had a nightmare in over a week and she won’t be alone. Jessie has agreed to sacrifice her last free day in Spain so that we can fish for a good time.”
“She knows the scary monster song?”
“She memorized it.”
“And the clown lullaby?”
“And her nighttime prayer. She’s got it on lock baby. So just come out with me and let’s get laid.”
Margo thinks about it for maybe two seconds before Dejas coy smile convinces her instantaneously.
The two women go to Charlotte's Treasure in the center of Spain. Reminiscing on their first sexual encounter together there in that very rooftop. Long after hours and in the cold night under the stars.
They sit at the bar and lean close to each other in the dark lighting of the bar.
“I love that lipstick on you.”
“You should. It’s yours.”
“We have good taste.” Deja winks and sneakily touches her knee with hers.
They sit just like that. Existing in each other's orbit but never quite touching each other the way they want. Teasing each other with almost contact but not quite. Even after all these years. Nearly fifteen years together, seven years raising a child, and they still gravitate towards each other.
The bartender puts two napkins on the counter and places two beverages in front of them. “Drinks from the man in the blue tie.”
Margaret, never one to be subtle, turned her neck to look at the fancy suit. A white man with brown eyes looked directly at her before looking down at his drink shyly. ”he’s cute.” Deja says looking at him with eyes she’s too familiar with.
Margaret is only a bit surprised when he stands from his group of friends, all white men with collared shirts and pressed slacks, and begins to approach the circus act with measured confidence.
“He’s a bit young ain’t he?“ Margaret turned to Deja with a raised eyebrow and the woman gives her a wolfish smile. “Not the youngest we’ve caught.”
“We were younger then too.” Margo twirls with her free drink.
“Youth is a social construct.” Mr. Blue tie says behind her. She pulls her eyes away from her love and lands them on the man. Deja does the same, crossing her legs in a way Margo knows shows off how long they are.
“You here on a school field trip, dear?” Margo teases, playing with her drink.
“Vacationing with my brother.” A vacation to Spain. So he’s definitely rich. He should stay as far away from Margaret who barely has a dime to her name. Or better yet he could keep buying her and Deja drinks until he’s just as dirt poor.
“And your friends?” Deja twirls her hair, out in loose curls around her head, highlighted in bloody purple—looking over at the group of men with fake interest. They don’t usually go for more than one partner. They always share. The other men didn’t look interested in getting lucky with a pair of circus characters.
Margaret isn’t naive to the looks the well dressed men are giving her or their blue-tied friend. While this particular bar is known for welcoming all people from all walks of life and all sorts of backgrounds, a home beacon for the circus freaks that need a good drink once in a while whenever they are in town, it doesn’t stop individuals who aren’t as open-minded from coming inside.
All are welcome. Unfortunately means ALL are welcome.
“They aren’t really my friends.” Blue-tie says not even looking in their direction when they try to coax him back to the table. Away from the freaks in hot pink leather leotards and Big fur coats.
Margaret smiles, a bit on edge but not daring to show it. She's a very talented performer, she knows how to be confident when the crowd is booing. She takes a sip of her drink, the one generously paid for by him- it’s sweet and fruity. A colorful combination of flavors. Not the usual drink men pay for her. She Leans close to him, hearing the obnoxious whooping and hollering from his table, she schools her expression. She sees Deja bite her lip from the corner of her eye.
“What’s your name dear?” Margo touches his arm, barely a touch but enough to make him look like he was on cloud nine.
He’s not experienced. Not if a little touch was enough to get him this excited. Not if he’s desperate enough to shoot his shot with the only two black girls at the bar. With big stilettos and big hair and big hips. The very bar that currently holds many other conventionally beautiful women that are much prettier and much younger than them.
“R-Ronnie. Ronnie Xavier.” Margaret couldn’t tell if it was a fake name or if he was just nervous.
“Well Ronnie what’s a pretty thing like you doing in a place like this?” There are far nicer and far better places to drink than Charlottes Treasure. Not that Margaret could go into any of those places. Spain isn’t as progressive as one would hope. Black folks aren’t exactly welcomed in whatever establishment they please.
“Hopefully you?” He says with no flare, like he’s heard someone else say that line before. Margaret laughs “maybe in ten years, when you grow into this suit.” She smooths the wrinkle in his blazer, pressing firmly into his chest.
“You’re not that much older than me.”
“I’m forty.”
“That’s doesn’t bother me.”
“And what if it bothered me?”
Ronnie smiles and suddenly he has a crease between his brows, and his smile lines deepen. In a blink of an eye he was maybe Fifteen years older. “Do you prefer me like this?”
Margaret has seen many incredible things in her life. Dogs jumping over hoops, women balancing on ropes ten yards off the ground, quick changes and slight of hands. She’s even seen real magic. Real life miracles. A woman walking again after fifty years after Margaret’s father laid his hands on her in prayer. She’s seen it all. Almost all. This would be the exception. Deja puts her drink down on the table. As if she thinks she might be tipsy from just two tips.
“I think I prefer you as you are.” Margaret says openly staring at the man in front of her feeling truly mesmerized for the first time In quite some time. It was like a circus act she’s yet to crack. A magic trick she needs to focus on to understand.
“I don’t think you would.” He says meekly and Deja touches his shoulder, long fingers slipping under his sleeve like a puppet master. Ronnie looks at her and his face goes hot red looking between the two as if he’s just now realized what trap he’s fallen into. “You have no idea what we’d be okay with, sugar.” Deja layers in that charm thick, leaning close to his ear to speak and touching his chin so that he’s looking at Margo fully as she speaks again “we’d love to see you completely.”
In the time that it took them to drag the poor pup into the alley way—Margaret kisses his lips, and he kisses back with a surprising gentleness. He’s shaking like it might be his last kiss. Or maybe it was his first. She leans into his ear “you kiss like a woman.” which was an interesting take on her part. Margo has no idea what exactly about how he kissed her made her think it was feminine.
They fell into bed together—checking into a fancy hotel that Ronnie said his brother had been staying at. In between groping hands, Margaret enjoyed how the man would lose control of his faculties. Margo liked to be in control but tonight she was docile, allowing Deja to take the reins on how the night went. Ronnie was simply a consensual player in their little game of cat and mouse. A sweet little thing with shy wandering hands and suppressed moans he was too embarrassed to let out before Deja took him in her mouth.
One eyebrow was darker then the other. One eye a different color. Skin patchy and all sorts of shades. His mask had been falling until he came undone. Literally. Deja was sucking cock and the next she was eating pussy.
Pecs turned to breasts and his hair became longer, redder. His skin is a scaly blue. Margaret’s fingers danced on his skin and she kissed him in his true form without shame. But once the man realized he had changed fully—without his knowledge— he flung away from both of their naked bodies, shifting back to his original mask. “I-I’m sorry.” Ronnie said breathlessly.
“Nothin’ to be sorry for, dear.” Margaret slipped her hand up his chest and kissed his bare shoulder looking up at Deja with big round eyes.
“You can be who you are.” Deja agrees kindly slipping her hands through his locks of hair. Margo thinks Ronnie looked better as a redhead but doesn’t voice the thought.
“I-I don’t—“ Ronnie stammers through his sentence face scrunching up like a stress ball. Margaret rubbed circles between his eyebrows soothingly kissing beside his eyes gently.
“Sweet thing, relax.”
It was a far more interesting night than any of them expected. Ronnie shifted between man and woman-between blue skin and Pale porcelain. At one point he had even turned into Deja. Long legs and bare skin.
“I’m not kinky enough to want to fuck myself.” Deja laughs lightly—and only gestures at Margo to continue the adventure for her, sitting on the armchair naked and observing.
It was a weird sort of thing. To be watched and to be fucked by the same exact person. With familiar hands but unfamiliar motions.
It was a good night for all of them.
They went their separate ways and the couple only thought about the night during foreplay.
Ronnie Xavier was just a fun night after a long couple months of lilly having nightmares and the chaotic management switch amongst the world renowned circus.
Then Margo missed her period. At first she thought she was going through early menopause which was the exact same fate her grandmother had around her age. It would explain Margo’s mood change and why she is suddenly craving high iron foods.
It was barely a thought. Then her feet began to hurt. She was in a bit of denial at that point and disregarded the pain as The result of too many nights dancing in the stilts.
“You’re pregnant.” Margo tells her when she wakes up throwing up her dinner from the night before.
“I’m not. It’s menopause.”
“It’s not. Your tits are massive.”
“You calling me fat?”
“Never. You’re carrying my second child. I could never call you fat. Not if I want my head on my shoulders.”
“I’m not pregnant.” Margo repeats through gritted teeth and is already getting Horror flashbacks to her horrible labor experience.
“You wanna buy a home pregnancy kit?”
“And spend a fortune on something that’ll be useless in two hours? and only has a 80% accuracy? Fuck no.”
Margo stubbornly refused to believe she was pregnant until she started visibly showing. She had bursted into tears and Deja had stroked her head and gave her a good long hug “it’s alright, baby.”
“I can’t believe you got me fucking pregnant again you jerk.”
“Technically I think it was that Ronnie lad. All my swimmers are pretty much useless. Lilly was a miracle baby remember?”
“Oh God.”
“Blasphemy Margo.” Deja faked gasp “That’s not like you. Putting the lords name in vain.”
“I’m very emotional right now Deja do not test me.”
She raises her hand in surrender but smiles so fondly at her love that Margo only lays her head on the taller woman’s shoulder as she cries. “What are the odds of ever seeing that Ronnie boy ever again?”
“Slim to none. But no worries I’ll step up and take care of the bastard child, like he’s my own.” Deja says with a whimsical voice that pisses Margo off cause she’s so damn happy “-Because he’ll probably look like me.”
Margo scoffs “Shut the actual fuck up. I swear you’re on thin fucking ice. This baby’s head better be regular sized.”
Deja and Margo told Lilly a few weeks later when it was more then a little too difficult to hide the baby bump.
Lilly laid her head on Margo’s stomach trying to hear her sibling inside. “How big is he?”
“We don’t know if it’s a boy or girl yet, Lilly.”
“A grapefruit.” Deja says even more giddy with this pregnancy than she was with their first. She’s been telling Everyone that’ll listen that she has a little grape baby. It’s adorable. And annoying.
“It’s definitely a boy.” Francis the psychic says as she waves her fingers at Margo’s stomach “I sense a masculine aura.”
“I always wanted a boy.” Deja says “a boy and a girl. Just like my parents.” Almost like an afterthought Deja adds humorlessly “after I transitioned of course.”
“I never wanted kids.” Margo doesn’t know why she says that just then. It was an old thought. She has a kid. A beautiful seven year old girl with a big smile and colorful clothes that adores her kisses And all her circus friends. Margo also loves her baby even if it’s just a grape. Everytime she eats she feels comfort in knowing that her baby is eating as well. What her past self envisioned is not important because it isn’t what she feels anymore. She loves her family.
She hadn’t known that that night would be the last time she would be with her family again. She hadn’t known that her offhand comment about not wanting kids would come to haunt her when their trailer was caught on fire. Attacked in the dead of night by men with guns and gasoline that hated the freak show just a bit too much. Hated them so much they wanted them gone. Forever.
Margo has never been afraid of fire. But she’s also never been drenched in a gallon of gasoline surrounded by flames.
God blessed her with the gift of forgetting. She doesn’t remember the fire. She just knows she was in pain. Her eyes burned and when she opened them after shutting them closed harshly it was still dark.
When she woke up in a hospital. It had been quite some time. She had been in a coma for two months. She was burned to hell, blind and heavily pregnant. She felt her protruding belly with her shaking fingers and when she spoke she wasn’t even sure there was anyone in the room to answer “my baby. How’s my baby?”
“The size of a very large papaya.” Hansals voice was familiar but jarring in her state. Why is he here? Hansal could care less about Margo. He would never visit her in the hospital.
“Lilly. I meant Lilly. Where’s Lilly? Deja?”
Margo could hear Hansal clear his throat—the heart monitor beeped loudly “There was a fire. They didn’t make it out.”
Margo’s entire world collapsed. Her moon shattering just above her. Her light flickering off as she’s shrouded in only darkness. “No.”
“Many circus members perished in the fire but mainly-“
“-the freak show.” Margo spat “don’t pretend to be sorry, Hansal. You hated us. You tried to discontinue our special numerous times.” It was no secret that Hansal had it out for the freaks in his circus but they made most of the profit. So many people came to the circus to view their act and that couldn’t be erased, not even by Hansal who’s the nephew of the owner of the circus.
The Sixty year old man had waited until his uncle's deathbed to make him sign over the circus to him just a few months ago. He had been going through a power trip ever since and has threatened to fire every member of the freak show at least twice in the last month alone. He was a conniving prick.
“I didn’t do this though.” Hansal says pointedly “the freak show made too much money. I’m a good business man.”
“You’re a con artist. You got my family killed. You-you sent us to a location that wasn’t safe. You fired our security on our last relocation. This wouldn’t have happened if they were still here.”
“The what ifs aren’t important anymore. I’ll let you rest.”
“Are they all dead?”
“Yes.”
“Why am I alive?” Margo sobbed, glaring at darkness and wishing she had been able to go with her family.
Hansal doesn’t say anything for a while and Margo thinks he might’ve left until he speaks again “one second you where in the tent and the next you weren’t.”
Margo shakes her head “people don’t just teleport in the middle of the night Hansal. I was with my family. I was in bed. I felt the flames. I could feel-“ Margo can’t properly breath and she feels a tightness in her stomach.
Fuck.
She hears footsteps and shuffling and her bed is being shifted so that she's laying down flatter. “She’s having contractions.”
“But it’s too early.”
“She’s only seven months pregnant.”
“It might be the stress.”
“Is she gonna lose the baby?”
“We’ll try to save it,”
“The baby can’t die.”
“How far apart are her contractions?”
“She needs to be sedated.”
So many voices overlapped and so many things are happening that create so much noise. She can’t focus or calm down and she’s scared. She wants her Deja but she’s gone. She wants Jessie but she’s not here. She wants Lilly but she’s not here. She wants her family and all she has are these strangers she can’t even see.
“I don’t want to be sedated.” Margo says but already feels the mask cover her mouth and nose and the gas fill in her lungs. She loses herself pretty quickly.
She wakes up in incredible pain. She thinks maybe she’s dead and has gone to hell because it’s only darkness but remembers that her vision is gone.
Her gingers reach her stomach instinctively and can feel the difference in her body.
“Misses Wagner, good evening,” is it evening? It feels like it’s perpetually nighttime forever.
“Where’s my baby?” She cuts to the point quickly, feeling frantic and crazy. After she gave birth to Lilly she had her in her arms within minutes but now she couldn’t feel her baby in her arms. She can’t feel the baby at all.
“I’m so sorry to tell you miss Wagner but you gave birth prematurely and we simply did not have the tools or resources to keep the infant stable long enough for it to take its first breath. I’m very sorry for your loss.” Margo is dead. She must’ve died. She must be in hell. She must have done a heinous sin to have ended in this fate. How cruel can God be to have taken her family completely. To not even give her baby a chance to live.
Margaret Wagner was devastated. She was also blind. In any other occasion she would’ve demanded to hold her baby–even if it was a lifeless corpse. Maybe if she hadn’t still been grieving the loss of her daughter or the loss of her love or the loss of her family. Maybe if she hadn’t been blinded in the attack she would’ve seen the look of disgust in the doctor's face when she was telling her the news. Maybe she would’ve seen her rubbing the cross dangling around her neck like she witnessed something unholy.
“It’s for the best.” The doctor says cruelly “being a single mother isn’t easy but to also be disabled would’ve been too much of a burden. This is a blessing.”
No. It wouldn’t have been a burden to raise her child. She knows it deep in her heart. This is not a blessing. This is a punishment.
“Was it a boy?” Margo could barely get the question out. Gluten for punishment.
“Yes ma’am.”
Deja wanted a boy. She wasn’t lucky enough to see him and Margo wasn’t lucky enough to give him life. Every part she had of Deja is now gone along with her.
She was supposed to have gone with her. She was supposed to be dead.
God did not bless her with death. Instead he punished her with life.
Notes:
I didn’t mean to make it this sad. I had the basics of Margaret’s story in my head but once I started writing it down I felt compelled to write more.
Also Spoiler!!!
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Margaret Wagner is Kurt’s Bio mom.
Chapter 22: The Making of a Family
Summary:
The circus fire was deemed a tragedy. The plot of land they inhabited during the fire is covered in ash, flowers, and cards of condolences that Margo couldn’t see. They had the funeral and memorial service while she was in a coma—months ago—so she didn’t even have the chance to mourn with her family's loved ones.
The Twin clowns had sisters and a dad in Brazil. Did they make it to the funeral?
Francis had a daughter in college, she traveled to pay for her tuition. Who will pay for her education now?
Carla had a husband in deployment. Was he able to take leave?
Jessie had a sister in Texas, with nephews and nieces who expected her at their graduation. Will her seat be left empty?
So many people are dead. She can’t tell which cross is for who, she can’t read which names they bare. She can’t see anything. Not even the place they died.
“This one.” Her mom says gently stopping her from continuing down the line. “It’s covered in Lilly’s.”
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Seventeen-ish years of Margaret Wagner being kind of a mom to every mutant child ever. Through love and loss, Miss Margo makes a new family.
Notes:
16k is too many words. My bad. Margo is nosey so this chapter we learn a lot of things about other people that we otherwise wouldn't from Pietros POV. Also For clarification, Margaret has no idea that Ronnie and Raven are the same person. She has no idea that Charles and "Ronnie" are siblings.
I'm aware that Charles and Margo "met" in Chapter five but I thought it would be funny if they just pretended to meet each other for the first time as like a long elaborate prank. If you go back you can see that they are overly friendly with each other and that Charles purposely calls her "Miss Wagner" even though Pietro never told him her last name. Also the fact that Charles knew she was homeschooling Kurt even though Pietro never told him that.
Also in Pietros POV he describes Margo as really old but she maybe only in her late fifties or early sixties. I attribute this to Pietro thinking anyone older then his mom is ancient. lmao.
Also foreshadowing Charles' alcohol problem and connecting it to him grieving and also his 'party animal' persona in X-men First Class.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Once Margo has full function of all her faculties and she feels like she can ask for a phone the first thing she does is call Phoebe Wagner. Her mother was still alive and kicking and was at her bedside within two days, taking a train and three buses and a long plane ride to get to where Margo was. She was like a superhero, coming to her aid.
“They're all dead mama.” Her mom holds her, 80 years old and still strong as a bull. She rocks Margo to sleep like she’s six years old again and she lets her cuddle her because she feels like she might fall apart if she’s alone for even a moment.
“She was the love of my life.” Margo cries into her mothers lap and doesn’t even realize that technically that was the first time she had told her mother she was in love with a woman. Margaret Wagner never was subtle with her attractions and Phoebe Wagner was never one to turn a blind eye.
”I know a thing or two about losing the love of your life.” And that was something Margo never wanted to relate with her mother. She never wanted to experience the grief her mother felt when they lost Jordan Wagner. Her father was her mothers greatest love and she had the misfortune of living longer than him. Margo has the same fate. Living too long.
Maybe God has forsaken them both.
The circus fire was deemed a tragedy. The plot of land they inhabited during the fire is covered in ash, flowers and cards of condolences that Margo couldn’t see. They had the funeral and memorial service while she was in a coma— months ago —so she didn’t even have the chance to mourn with her family's loved ones.
The Twin clowns had sisters and a dad in Brazil. Did they make it to the funeral?
Francis had a daughter in college, she traveled to pay for her tuition. Who will pay for her education now?
Carla had a husband in deployment. Was he able to take leave?
Jessie had a sister in Texas, with nephews and nieces that expected her at their graduation. Will her seat be left empty?
So many people are dead. She can’t tell which cross is for who, she can’t read which names they bare. She can’t see anything. Not even the place they died.
“This one.” Her mom says gently stopping her from continuing down the line. “It’s covered in Lilly’s.”
Margo falls apart all over again.
She goes to her childhood home and sleeps in her too small bed that feels Uncomfortable compared to the cots she had grown accustomed to. Everything was so quiet here. So different then the home she had created within the boisterous circus.
It took a long time for Margo to come to terms with the fact that she was blind.
She would wake up and forget that she wouldn’t see anything when she opened her eyes. She had to learn how to walk without knowing if she’s stepping on a rug or the corner of the stairs. Most days she stayed in bed. Drowning. She barely spoke. Barely ate. Barely existed as a person.
Her sister Janet called. Two cities over with her husband and kid. “I’m sorry to hear about Lilly.” And hearing her say her name was so painful.
“Mama said you’re expecting.” Margo says, choking back the bile that crawled up her throat. Her baby and her sisters would’ve been so close in age. Practically siblings.
“Yeah, I am.” Janet was short with her answers, clearing not wanting to bring up her pregnancy after Margo had just lost her child. “Is it healthy?” Margo pushes on.
“Y-yeah. He’s healthy.”
He.
It’s a boy.
Just like hers.
“Right that’s—“ Margo really tried to hold on as long as she could “-that’s amazing Janet. I’m really happy for you. I gotta go.” She hung up and she cried for days After.
”it’s time to go to church.” Her mother said one Sunday morning and the words sent a guttural reaction through Margo’s body.
“No.” It was clipped and harsh and never in a million years would Margo speak to her mother in that way but the idea of praising a God that took her children felt like dancing on their graves.
“No?” Her mothers voice is still the same even after all these years. “In my house we go to church. Every Sunday.” She says matter of factly.
“I don’t want to go.” while Margo was traveling these last few years she’d go to church when she could. Not every Sunday but enough Sundays to still have that Habit. “I don’t want to speak with him.”
“Margaret.” She can hear how much she’s trying not to be too harsh on her grieving daughter. “God did not take your family away. It was those small minded men. God gave everyone free will and unfortunately that means free will to do bad things.”
Margo doesn’t say anything. She stays in her mind staring at darkness or maybe it’s a wall…she’s not sure. Everything feels like nothing ever since she’s woken up. Empty.
“Maybe He made a mistake.” Margo spits out.
“Everything—“
Margo jerks up from her bed with anger boiling in her veins “—if you’re about to say that everything happens for a reason I beg you to hold your tongue because NOTHING could have justified what happened to me. Nothing.”
“Ill pray for you.”
“Don’t bother.” Margo lays back down in her bed feeling drained and like a shell of herself.
Days blended into weeks and poured into months. It was an entire year before Margo learned to walk with her cane and adjusted as she should. It was an entire year before she stopped crying at the mere mention of her dead family.
Her siblings had come to visit throughout that year all in different variants of concern. All nudging her to take a Sunday to visit the church with their mother. Each attempt was met with harsh silence or irritated responses.
Margo believed in God. That’s what is making the transition so difficult. She had believed God to be a kind and just lord but she sees now that is not the case. For years she had been praying to a man that allowed her family to leave her too soon. That is the thing she could not stomach. She’s afraid that entering the church and hearing the blessings and the praises in the congregation would send her to a spiral. She fears she wouldn’t be able to pull herself out.
She refused to go to church. Stubborn and angry. Her mother always asks her. Always offers. Margo always refuses.
“A foster child is coming today you need to clean out your brothers room.” Her mother said one random Tuesday.
“What?”
“You need to clean out your brothers room.”
“Why?”
“For the boy?”
“What boy?”
“Benjamin.”
“Do I know a Benjamin?”
“Not yet. You’ll be meeting him in about two hours. He needs the room closest to the bathroom.”
“What? Why?” Margaret was going in circles.
“He’s potty training?”
“is he a dog?”
“Heavens no. Dogs are far too messy. He’s a four year old boy.”
Margo takes a deep breath “mom.”
“Yes?”
“Please explain to me why exactly a four year old boy named Benjamin is going to be staying in this house?”
“Im fostering him.“
“Since when?”
“Since this morning when CPS called to place him in my care?”
“Since when—“ Margo rubs her forehead, feeling a bit insane and overwhelmed “how long have you been fostering kids, mom? How has this never come up.”
Phoebe Wagner sits beside her child and the bed dips slightly. She sighs—winding up for a conversation. “After you left I was all alone in this big house—“
“-mom I’m sorry-“
“-don’t be sorry. I wanted you to go. To fly wherever your wings took you. I didn’t want to hold you back. Your siblings… they visited as much as they could but they had their own lives. Your grandmother…she passed and I had no one to really look out for anymore. It was so strange to not have anyone to take care of so I volunteered at church to foster a child in need. A special program. It was meant to be a one time thing but I had such a knack for it.“ Phoebe Wagner sways in her spot slightly—seeming deep in thought “I’ve only fostered a few kids and only as a last resort. When kids come to me they have nowhere else to go. I don’t call—they call me. Last time they called was two years ago for a sixteen year old boy named Sami Chan. He was nonverbal and would get into fights at school. Now he’s about to graduate high school top of his class with a group of great friends and I had a piece in that just like he had a piece in helping me too. In the end these kids always come to me during a time that I need them as well.”
“That’s—“ Margaret doesn’t really know how to respond to that, she’s both surprised and not surprised that her mom voluntarily asks to take care of kids that aren’t hers. “—really admirable mama. It is. I just…I don’t think I can handle being around a kid right now.”
“That’s too bad because Benjamin needs a home and I’m giving him mine whether you like it or not.”
“Mom!”
“I understand that you are grieving but so is that baby. You can’t truly be selfish enough to want to turn away a wanting child who needs a place to stay. I didn’t raise you like that.”
It was almost comforting to know that her mother can still guilt trip her into submitting to her cause.
Margaret Wagner set the table for lunch—setting up a high chair that she hadn’t known her mother still had.
Benjamin was blind. He was born that way.
It was pretty difficult to complain about things when a child never did. Benjamin was all giggles and jokes and his feet squeaked with the feel of rubber shoes against wood floors. He stuck to Margo like she was his personal walking stick and she didn’t have the heart to pull away. Benjamin was blind but he saw in other ways.
A month after Benjamin’s original arrival at their home Margo heard a knock on her bedroom door. Small and light. Definitely Benjamin’s shy fist. Nervous to wake her.
“Bennie?” Margo had adopted the nickname subconsciously in the last couple of weeks. She can’t remember if she heard her mother say it first or if she had simply taken it upon herself to call him that.
“Mango?” Benjamin had trouble pronouncing his Rs and had began calling her Mango instead of Margo. She found it incredibly endearing.
“Are you alright?”
She heard his little sniffles and his little padded feet and assumed he was making his way over. “Monster.”
Margo ignores the ache in her chest “a monster? In your room?”
“Up, up.” Margo can only assume Benjamin wants to go up to her bed and can’t reach by himself. She bends over carefully and feels for his shoulders. She picks him up from the armpits and places him beside her. “Your room. Safe.” He says easily and she feels him snuggle close to her.
“Yeah, of course. Monsters don’t go in my room. They're scared of me.” Lilly use to be afraid of monsters in her room too. It was always better if she played along and acted as if it was real.
“Sure?” Benjamin’s voice shook, clearly still afraid of whatever spooked him in his room. Her mother hadn’t told her much about his background so she has no idea why the small child has so much trouble sleeping.
“Yeah, I have a song. They don’t like it.” Margo pulls the blanket over Benjamin, hoping that she covers him completely.
“Song?” Benjamin wraps his little fingers around her hand and she nods even though he can’t see her. “Yeah, a song that keeps all the monsters away.”
She isn’t fully aware of what she’s about to do until she starts to sing. Deja was the one that usually sung it. She had the voice for it. Margo’s voice was rougher around the words, her octave slightly lower then Dejas. The words came to her suddenly—instinctive and easy like her old routine with her kid.
The realization that she’s singing this song to a kid that wasn’t hers makes her falter towards the end, voice hitching slightly as she realizes that she’s actually crying.
Oh.
She tries to stop, desperately wiping at her face but it’s like a cracked bottle, once the hole is big enough nothing is gonna stop the water from flowing.
“Mango sad?” Benjamin’s baby voice only made her cry harder. Mango feels his little hands touch her face, squishing her soft cheeks like a basketball. “I get Fefe.” Fefe instead of Phoebe.
“I’m okay, I’m okay,” Margo can’t stop crying though and her voice shakes and Benjamin touches her eyebrow, feeling the groove between her brow bone and the wrinkle between her eyes, showing signs of age. “Fefe is awake. I hear her. I get Fefe.” But her mother is in her bedroom in the opposite side of the house, in no way can Benjamin possibly hear the older woman rise from this far into the house.
Although Benjamin does tend to hear things he shouldn’t be able to. Last week when they walked the neighborhood he knew a dog was gonna pass by from two blocks away, cooing and asking if he could pet it before they even came across the panting creature.
He must’ve left at some point during her breakdown. He must’ve climbed out of her bed and walked out the door and gotten her mother. He must have gotten over his fear of the monsters because before she knows it her mother is being dragged into her room. Phoebe wraps her arms around her crying daughter.
“It’s alright. I’m here. Just let it out.”
Margo cries like her mother. Like the night her father died she cries like she has the weight of her sadness in her tears. But while Phoebe cried in private Margo is fortunate enough not to be left alone in her misery.
“Today would’ve been her birthday.”
“I know.”
“It’s just not fair .”
“I know, baby.”
And she cried harder. Her voice echoed the walls, shaking the room like earthquakes. If any monsters hide in Benjamin’s room surely they would’ve been scared by the beast shaking the walls on her behalf.
“Kisses, better.” Benjamin, ever the sweet boy, places a small peck on her left knee, the closest place he can reach from the foot of the bed. “More kiss. Better.” He kisses the Same spot and rubs it with his little fingers like it’s a boo boo. It melts her.
“Thank you for the kisses Bennie.”
“Better?”
“Yeah, I’m all better. Thank you.” She sniffles away the last bit of her tears and pulls him into a hug which he giggles into.
“I’m sensing a slumber party.” Phoebe says and Margo is so surprised she doesn’t protest when her mother pulls out her extra blanket and curls all three of them into a queen sized bed like they are tiny burritos.
Benjamin goes back to his parents two weeks later. His mother had been in a car accident and had gotten amnesia and his father, the only living family member had been overseas fighting in Afghanistan. He had gotten out of deployment once the news of his wife’s condition was reported to him and he tracked down his son as quickly as he could to the Wagner home.
“Bye bye Mango. Bye bye Fefe.” Benjamin kisses and hugs them both. “No crying.” He says and Margo can hear him get in his car.
“No crying.” He says and Margo already is. She doesn’t get how he can always tell when she is. She’s not very loud about it. “Love you mango! Love you Fefe!” He shouts through the open window-the car was already moving away.
“I love you too.” She says quietly and she somehow just knows that he hears her.
It was a happy ending that not many had but it still made Margaret sad to say goodbye.
“It’s part of the job, dear.” Is all that Phoebe said to her daughter's dampened mood.
Four months later two children were dropped off at their house. Siblings. Rose and Court. The name Rose is so similar to Lilly that Margo can barely speak to the child without getting breathless. The two children are Thirteen and six.
Seven years apart.
That’s the age gap that would’ve been between her children as well.
“They come to me when I need them the most.” That’s what her mother had said just a few months ago. Margo thinks that theory might ring true.
This had been their fourth foster home in the last year. They are having trouble finding living family members who are willing to take in both girls. They had a physical deformity. Margo doesn’t know exactly how they look like but she can hear the harsh whispers when she takes the girls to the park.
“She has Satans mark!” A woman barked at Margo when her kid wanted to play with Court. A friendly game of tag that ended abruptly with shouting and cursing from the parent's side.
“She’s six.” Margo’s eyes narrowed “She doesn’t even know what you’re talking about.”
“She walks the path of evil. Born like the devil's children.” The woman was delirious and Court had cried the whole walk back home and Rose had a protective hand on her sister—clearly fuming. “Margo, Am I evil?” The six year old asked at bedtime. Her sister scoffed from her side of the room. Snuggled into her sheets. “You’re not evil, court. That bitch doesn’t know what she’s talking about.” Rose snaps and despite the language Margo agrees.
“Sometimes when people see people that look different it’s easier to be judgmental instead of curious.”
“Is it because of my horns? I cover them up.”
“You shouldn’t have to.” Rose says into the night “we shouldn’t have to hide what makes us different. You shouldn’t hide your horns. There’s nothing wrong with them.”
Eventually Margo asks her mother. “How do they look like.” They had been staying with them for over three months and Margo was trying not to push but it felt like she was missing things because she was blind.
“They look alike. Both Albino. White hair. Court has Pale blue eyes. Rose has grey eyes. Court has two horns protruding from her skull, barely visible, mostly covered up by her curls. She wears bows in her hair and hats mostly. Rose’ horns are cut at the knubs. Her previous foster parents cut them off. They are growing back slowly. She has a shaved head so you can see them more clearly.”
“Thank you.” Margo thinks of blue scaled skin and fire red hair and settles into her head.
Margo braids Court's hair the next day. It was the first time she had touched someone else’s hair since Deja.
“They are going to look at you no matter what.” Margo says, recalling Dejas words to her when they first met at the salon. “Might as well give them something good to look at.“ she braids a familiar tangle. Beads and colored feathers that she hopes looks good against her pale complexion.
“Margo’s own hair, which she had neglected to do anything with since her accident was braided by her mother, covered in swatches of colors and little seashells that the girls collected after a trip to the beach.
The two girls had stayed with them for nearly two years before they found a distant cousin that was willing to take them both in. Two years.
“We’ll call when we land, Aunty Margo.” Rose had grown from a thirteen year old middle schooler to a freshmen in high school. Fifteen now.
“You better, or else I’ll think the worse.” And Court—Now eight years old wrapped her arms around Margo without warning “Im gonna miss you mama Margo.”
At first it had given Margo whiplash to be referred to as mother after losing her children. It was also a strange development that Rose had considered her an aunt and Court had considered her a mother instead even though they had lived here for the same amount of time. Margo assumes it’s because rose knew her mother, she had a relationship with her before everything happened while Court barely had any memories of her biological mother. In the end Margo was happy to be connected to them at all.
“I’ll miss you too, dear.” She kissed her horns and pushed Roses’ hair out of her face.
Another kid didn’t come knocking at their door for another year. It was getting harder for her mother to move around, though. Her hip was busted and she had just gotten surgery on her knee.
Jane, their social worker, had knocked on their door personally. A bit desperate for housing.
“His mother went to prison. A non violent offense. Won't be out for a year.“ Jane has always dropped off the children that come to stay with them.
“It’s really not a great time to be fostering another kid.” Margo begins but her mother interrupts “You can’t turn him away.” Margo could feel her Mother's glare at the suggestion.
So Margo let little ten year old Harry make himself at home. What Margo hadn’t known at the time was just how influenced Harry would be by her mother. Practically overnight the kid had gone from throwing hissy fits to leading dinner prayer with her Phoebe.
He went to church with her mother, something she still refused to do even after all this time. Margo’s been tempted to go more than once. Every time Sunday crawls she gets dressed and the moment she steps outside the house, feeling the sun on her skin, she hightails it back inside. It’s compulsive at this point.
She’s afraid of entering a church and getting angry. She’s afraid of her own anger towards everything and everyone even now. After all these years.
“Take your time dear.” Her mother kept her in her prayers like she’s had since the beginning.
But Margo doesn’t go. She stays home while they go to Sunday mass. Margo flips on the radio. Her version of Television now. She plays with the knobs and she flicks it on the channel she knows plays worship music.
Exposure therapy. She thinks maybe if she gets more use to it, she’ll adapt better with the real thing. One small step before taking the leap.
Once upon a time she used to go to Sunday church and Wednesday church. She was the church girl. But now she can barely listen to the music without flipping to the next channel in a panic.
But now she’s doing it on purpose. She flicks it on, raising the volume as the latest song comes to an eventual end. It’s maybe the last twenty seconds of the song. An old chorus she recognizes from her fathers church.
Margo is shaking. Her fist clench and she raises her hand to the knob to change the station impulsively when the next song filters in.
The voice halts her. Margo stares blindly at the darkness that always surrounds her now and she can see this person so clearly in her eyes. She can practically feel her. This voice, singing this song, sounds like her sweet Deja. It’s so jarring and beautiful and unexpected that Margo listens to the whole song and feels something open inside her. A door she didn’t know she still had the key for.
The song filled her with warmth and she knows that logically the singer isn’t Deja. Her beloved is dead and this singer is most likely someone who just really sounds like her. But it’s enough of a similarity that it feels like a warm hug. Like Heaven to her ears.
It feels like Deja is talking to her, opening up the heavens and speaking to her directly in the only way she knows how. The song was written so beautifully and sung so angelically that Margo forgets herself. She barely registers the end of the song. And it’s over before she realizes.
“How was church?” Margo asks her mother for the first time in years. She had been humming the song under her breath the entire day. Feeling light.
“It was very good. Harry joined the church choir today, they needed another boy.”
“I have practice on Wednesday and then we perform on Sunday.”
“I can’t wait to hear it.” Margo says easily and doesn’t miss the way her mother goes quiet suddenly. “You’ll be joining us next Sunday?” She asks quietly, like she doesn’t want to jump to conclusions.
“Yes, I will. I can’t miss Harry’s big performance.” And that was that.
Harry sang beautifully. Everyone else was a bit pitchy but not everyone can sound like a prepubescent boy.
“I’m glad you joined us, Margaret.” Her pastors voice was just as she last remembered it. She’s mostly surprised he still works at the church—he must be in his early eighties by this point.
“Couldn’t miss Harry’s first performance.”
“Will you miss his second?”
“Don’t know yet.”
“I noticed…” her pastor took a breath as if contemplating something “..I noticed you don't ask questions anymore.”
“Pardon?”
“Before? You would question everything. We could barely get through the scripture before you would ask for clarification or dissect it. You always had so much to say but not now.”
“I didn’t want to be a nuisance.”
“It’s not a nuisance. Having questions I mean. Doubt is essential to Faith. If you believe without doubt then it’s not really faith.”
“I know that.” It was the same thing he had told her when a church member had complained about her asking so many questions during service when she was young. “but it’s different now. I’m different now.”
“Yes, I know. I’m so very sorry for your loss. You and your family have been in my prayers.” It’s what everyone always says and she knows they mean well but it makes her heart ache every time.
“My family is dead. No need to keep them in your prayers. It won’t help anymore.”
“Your right. My apologies you are correct. But…is your mother not your family? Is Harry?”
“It’s not the same.”
“Does it need to be the same to still be family?”
Margo thinks about it.
Harry's mom gets out of prison early on probation and gets partial custody for a few months. Eventually partial custody turns into full custody. She’s good to him. She’s a good mom, has her flaws, but she’s working on them everyday to keep her child.
“Thank you for taking care of my kid.” Harry’s mom says shaking her hand firmly. Margo’s hand feels tingly at the touch and Harry’s mom gasps and then pulls her into a sudden hug “I’m sorry.“
“Sorry for what?” Margo hugs her back easily, a bit confused but simply letting the random affection soak into her.
”I’m a psychic. Sometimes when I touch people I can see snippets of their future.” Harry’s mom says and Margo nods like that’s a normal thing.
“Right, so you saw mine?” Margo concludes.
“Yes. He’s going to be okay.” Her voice sounds distant and Margo stiffens.
“Who is?” But Harry’s mother just shakes into her hug pulling away abruptly “They come at night. They know the professor isn’t home. They timed it perfectly so that it’s up to you to protect the children. No Jean. No Wanda. No Peter. You fight. You bleed. When you hear singing that means It’s over.”
Margo blinks and frowns trying to piece all of that together “I don’t know who any of those people are.”
“I’m sorry, I don’t either. I only get a few minutes before.”
“A few minutes before what?”
“A few minutes before you die. I only see the future from a few minutes before they die.”
“Do I save them at least?” Margo says hollowly.
“You save as many as you could. You save Frankie but Kurt is taken.”
Margo feels distant and somehow present in this moment. “Is it avoidable?”
“No. The future is set. I’m sorry.”
And that’s that. Margo tries to not think about it. Phoebe and Margo get Christmas cards from them every year with small updates. Margo sees him grow through words on paper, Phoebe tells her he has the same smile. He’s taller. It makes Margo smile when she feels the crispy thick letter in the mailbox each year. They use the same textured envelope so that Margo could tell the difference. Harry was always thoughtful in that way.
Phoebe Wagner passes away in her sleep on her late husband's side of the bed, hand extended like she was embracing him. At least that’s what the paramedics said when they checked her body.
Margo knew it was coming, she had prepared to lose her but still felt that grief hit her when she finally did leave.
“Your mother left specific instructions on her will.”
“Shouldn’t my siblings be here for this?”
“Your siblings have already been notified. Your mother was very specific. She divided her assets equally and split them amongst her children. But the house specifically she left for you.”
“She did?” Margo blinks as if that might clear her mind a bit. “My mother hated this house.” It belonged to her father before, a family home. Her mother hated the color, hated taking care of the animals, she hated the smell, hated the window light, hated every little detail about it. Her keeping it after all these years was only to please her late husband.
“Not this house. This house will be sold and its assets divided amongst your siblings. You will be taking ownership of her other house.”
“Her other house? My mother doesn’t have another house.”
“Her family home in New Jersey. Two story home with upgraded fencing and balcony. Three rooms, two bathrooms. Open floor plan. Very modern. It was given to her by her mother—your grandmother—in her will. She was renting it out to a couple. They have been informed of the situation and have already moved out. These are the keys.” He places them in her palm. Cold metal keys that she feels the grooves of.
“A secret house.” Margo laughs, alarmingly calm “My mother never seizes to surprise me, even when she’s gone.”
“She left this letter for you as well. In braille I believe.” He places the braille paper in front of her and Margo hears the shuffling of his papers and briefcase. “I’ll leave you to it.”
Dear Margaret,
The house smells like smoked firewood. The mailbox is the shape of a dolphin and the house is painted the ugliest shade of orange that I know you’ll find endearing. The backyard has an apple tree and the neighborhood is infested with cats that seem to adore the bushes in the front lawn. I hope it feels like home. I hope you create a family to live in it with you. A family you choose. I love you. Don’t come see me too soon.
With affection,
Mom
(P.s. I signed you up for a special fostering program and put that house as your new home address so you can’t wimp out)
Phoebe Wagner was a stubborn lady.
Margo took everything she owned. She filled her luggage with Knick knacks and clothes and all the letters she’s received from Harry, Benjamin, Rose and Court. And all the other children her mother has helped. Important reminders of what her mother wanted.
Her new neighbors weren’t as open minded as her old ones had been. Nonetheless she walked the pavement and knocked on each door. She introduced herself to her new neighbors. Receiving silence or scoffs or slurs. Some didn’t bother opening the door.
She knocked on the last door. She will continue her introductions the following day but she couldn’t quite handle anymore slammed doors to the face.
He hears a creak. She thinks no one will answer and she turns to leave.
The door opens and Margo smiles brightly at whoever has opened the door, hoping that she’s looking at them in the face.
“I’m not supposed to answer the door to strangers.” It’s a small young boy. Margo lowers her gaze to where she thinks he might be instead. “I'm not a stranger. I’m your neighbor. I live two blocks over. The big orange house.”
“The one with the cats?”
“The very one. Is your mother home? I’d like to introduce myself.”
“Yes.” He says quickly “but she can’t come to the door. She’s busy and you can’t come inside.” The lie was quick, practiced. Like he’s had to lie to adults before.
“I suppose that’s alright. Do tell her I stopped by though. She can come for tea at any time.”
“Okay.” He’s on edge as he speaks like Margo might try to muscle her way inside. “Why do you have that stick.”
“Helps me see where I walk.”
“Oh. Okay.” He says quickly and Margo can practically feel him holding himself back from asking a million questions.
“I’m Miss Margo.” She takes her hand out showing him her palm. Like a startled dog that needs to sniff first.
The boy hesitated before placing his small hand in hers. “I’m Peter.”
No Peter. That’s what Harry’s mom had said.
Margo smiles kindly “Nice to meet you, Peter.”
“Nice to meet you too, Miss Margo.” He says politely and she nods at the small child before turning around to leave.
“I like your dress.” He says like it’s bursting out of him.
“Thank you.” She doesn’t know what color it is but she knows it’s two different materials, the texture is soft and knitted and sways when she walks. “A clown made it for me.”
“Cool.” She can hear his smile.
Margo eventually did meet Peters mom who knocked on her door fiercely the following morning “I don’t want you speaking to my son.” She had started her speech before Margo could even fully open the door.
“Okay.” Margo says simply trying to look in her direction but not really knowing if she’s looking at her face or the space next to it.
“He’s six. He shouldn’t be opening the door to anybody let alone strange neighbors I’ve never met.”
“I shouldn’t have spoken to him without your knowledge or without you present.” Miss Margo mends easily. She wonders if Peter has already gotten an earful from her mother and this is round two for the woman, a calmer version of her anger. “Sometimes children don’t listen to their mothers until it’s too late.”
This seems to placate the other woman “Yes. He never listens to me. He’s so stubborn even at such a young age. He thinks he’s all grown up and he isn’t. He’s small—he’s just a little kid.”
“People do horrible things to little kids. I know that better then anyone?”
“You have kids?”
“Not anymore. I take In a few strays from time to time.” She extends her hand to the mother. “I’m Miss Margo.”
For the first time since she’s moved to this suburb town in New Jersey another adult has shaken her hand. It was progress.
Miss Margo invited the mother inside and that’s when she learned that Magda Maximoff mixed honey with her tea. A slow sipper.
They talked for what seemed like hours. Maybe the full morning and pouring into the afternoon and they talked about religion. They talked about love. “I just want a father for Pietro. My last boyfriend. I thought he was it but he freaked when things got too serious. Poor Peter got attached and now I’m afraid to introduce him to anyone I see.” Margo notes the name change between Peter and Pietro. Margo wonders briefly if she even realizes she’s doing it.
“Dating while having children is like dating with children. if the shoe doesn’t fit both it’s not gonna work out.” Miss Margo says wisely although that has never been a problem for her since her greatest love had been the one to bless her with children.
“More importantly I just—I don’t want Pietro to feel like he’s missing something by not having a father figure in his life. He has these moments where he’s so much like his father and I wonder if maybe If he had someone different to guide him he would be happier.”
“You don’t think he’s happy?”
“I think he worries. Too much like me in that way.”
“Is his father not in the picture?”
“No, no. Not in anyway. He’s out there doing whatever angry people do and my son is as far away from him as possible.”
“So you split in bad terms.” Margo sips her tea and she’s no gossiper but Magda is pretty loose lipped for a woman with heavy burdens.
“He’s the reason my daughter is dead. I don’t want to ever see that man again.”
Miss Margo placed her teacup down on the coaster feeling her face stiffen at the words, processing the mothers grievances. “You had a daughter.” It wasn’t a question, simply an observation “I am so sorry for your loss Magda. I know how it feels to grieve one’s child I wouldn’t wish that upon anyone.”
“It was a long time ago.”
“But it feels like yesterday.” Miss Margo mends and she can hear the other woman take a sharp breath. “She died in a fire.” Miss Margo feels like she’s back in her own fire. Set aflame and burning with her family. Pain surging through her body before darkness takes her.
“Anya was targeted by the people my ex husband targeted. He was a vengeful man and he hunted men that were equally as vengeful. We grieved differently. He wanted to kill the men that hurt our baby and I-i just wanted him to not become a monster. In the end he made the decision to leave—to hurt them and I made the decision to not be there when he came back. I found out I was pregnant two weeks later. I swore It would be different with Pietro. He’d get to live without suffering.”
“Sounds like you had to do what you had to do.” She thinks of the fire that hurt her family and the fire that took them away and she can understand the fear and the need to run–to escape the danger that caused it.
Magda Maximoff leaves Margo’s home a bit tipsy and with a to go boxes. “You sure you don’t want to eat here?”
“Couldn't waste all this food in one sitting.” Magda says easily and Margo lets her go.
She settles into her new home. She feeds the strays. She names a few. She hums to the radio and eats the same oatmeal she ate every single day growing up. She feels content in her routine. She finds a church near the bridge. Small but welcoming.
“Miss Wagner you cannot put these rainbow flags in the porch.” Teresa from the neighborhood home society tells her for the third time. Margo just blankly stares at her.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“The rainbow flags. We can’t allow them in the neighborhood. We have children that walk this street.”
“If rainbows are corrupting the children then they simply shan’t look at the sky after it rains.”
“Do not be smart With me Margo, you can’t live here if-“
“-you can’t take this house. I own it. I’m no renter. This is all mine. Also—in case it has passed your inspection I am very much blind. I cannot tell the difference between the American flag and the rainbow flag so perhaps stop harassing me.”
“You can’t keep using your blindness as a scapegoat-“
“-it’s a pretty good scapegoat.”
“Please just take them down.”
“Of course. No need to fuss.” Margaret Wagner hires someone to paint her fence rainbow colors.
Margo would have given money to see the look on Teresa’s face “Are the colors not up to code?”
“I have been very lenient with you, Miss Wagner. I want to speak to your husband. Does he know what mess you are making to this home?” Teresa huffs.
“The only man in this house is Jesus Christ and Mr. Whiskers. You can speak to them but Jesus is a silent listener and Mr Whiskers doesn't speak the language.”
“I will report you to our neighborhood watch committee.” Teresa fumes.
“Go for it I’ll report you for harassment of an elder.” Margo says smugly.
“You’re forty six. We’re the same age!”
“You don’t act like it!” Margaret slams the door on her face. It was a bit childish she’ll admit but it brought a youthful step to her walk each morning seeing how angry it made people.
Turns out Margo likes pissing people off just as much as she likes making them happy. Who knew?
She listened to the radio, worship music humming through the station. It’s not the same groove they had back home but it’s still just as beautiful. Margo eventually found a channel that does daily sermons, the pastor's voice was deep and soothing. Margo thinks he’s a black man but that just might be wishful thinking. Black pastors are a dime a dozen in her hometown but in New Jersey it almost felt like she was the black sheep of the whole city.
The man spoke with a swing to his voice that Margo considered southern and that’s the only tell she really had of his origins.
She barely hears the knock on her door.
Margo maneuvers through her home and reaches her door swiftly.
“Teresa! If that’s you I’m not taking down the Halloween Decorations, I don't care that it’s December.” In all honesty Margo forgot where all the decor was and truly has no idea if any of them are still left outside. She’s far too prideful to ask the help of her neighbors who all seem to resent her.
“This isn’t Teresa. I’m Jill from CPS? Am I speaking to Miss Margaret Wagner?”
“Oh.” She unlocks the doors and bolts, extra quickly and open the door with a smile “that’s me. You can call me Miss Margo.”
“Ah, yes, well, hello Miss Margo. I’m here for a house inspection.”
“You got a kid with yah?”
“No, not currently. We have one on que for you but we do have to check your home for any safety hazards.”
“I ain’t got any mold or nothing. I checked. Not with my eyes of course but with the inspection folks before I got the house.”
“That was quite a bit ago.”
“Six months or so. Everythings running good. The water pressure is garbage though.”
“Yes, well it’s all just procedural stuff. We do it with all our new foster parents. It’s for the safety of the children.”
“Sounds reasonable. Come in, love. I’ve got tea on the stove.”
She hears two sets of footsteps. “Does your friend take it with honey?”
Jill is quiet for a minute. “Sugar is fine.” Says the new voice. A man. It’s more difficult for Margo to discern age from just voices but she’s getting better at it. He’s maybe late twenties. Early thirties.
“Take off your shoes. I don’t want you dragging dirt in the house. It’ll take forever for me to notice.”
She moves around a sitting cat in her hallway. The kettle screams and she pours the tea one at a time. Setting the cups on the table, hoping the two guests are sitting where she thinks they are.
“We have some questions as well we would like to ask you, Miss Wagner,” Splendid.
“Please, Miss Margo is just fine, dear.” Margo looks in the direction of the voice, hopefully not staring at a wall. She takes a small sip of her tea. “Where’s Jane? Shes my usual visitor.”
“She’s taking a sabbatical.”
“Finally taking that much needed vacation? Good for her.” Margo smiles to herself.
“Right.” Jill clears her throat. “ Miss Margo first things first are you aware your house has been vandalized.”
“How so?”
“Graffiti. Toilet paper, eggs.” Jill sounds uncomfortable.
“I’m sure that’s all true. I’m blind so I’m unsure how that would affect me. Unless the eggs start smelling then I might be concerned for my cats.”
“Is vandalism, normal in this neighborhood?” The mans voice spoke.
“I wouldn’t know. As I just stated I’m quite blind so graffiti has no relevance to me.”
“And do you—“
Margo interrupts the interview process which seems more like an interrogation. “—my apologies. I didn’t catch your name.” She asks the nameless man.
“Right, sorry, how rude I should’ve introduced myself. I’m Charles Xavier, I’m a student at Colombia university. I'm currently shadowing Jill King for the Child psychology program I’m currently in.“
“A student at thirty? You’ve taken higher education very seriously I see.”
“I’m not thirty. Yet. I’m twenty seven. And I’m working on my PHD.”
“PHD for what?” Margo asks curiously.
“Oh, god.” Jill sighs. “Don’t get him started—“
Charles voice responds eagerly “—it’s good you asked. I have a Doctorate Studies in Genetics biophysics and psychiatry. Currently I’m working on my PHD in Biological Anthropology. You see I believe that advanced mutation is currently happening in our young—“
“—he’ll just keep talking if you let him. So please interrupt.” Jill says sourly, like she’s fallen victim to one or two of these talks.
Margo shows mercy “Charles, dear, why would a PHD student need to shadow a CPS worker?”
“It’s for the program I’m starting.”
“Would you like to tell me about it or will Jill be fighting a headache.”
Hill just sighs deeply again. “I fear it may never go away.” Jill takes a dip of her tea “you put salt in my tea.”
“No I didn’t.” Margo says quickly and then turns to Charles expectantly. She hopes she did at least. “So? What are your plans, handsome? Save the world?”
“No, to save the future. To help the next generation.“
“Anyone in particular?”
Charles hesitates and Jill pipes in “we want to start a mutant foster care program. The goal is to receive mutant children of any age and to be able to house them in specific homes with other mutant children.”
“Have you not been doing that the whole time?” It hadn’t passed Margo’s notice that every Foster child in her care over the years has had something special about them. Different or rare in their own way. Jane had explained it as targeted fostering but Margo knew that the real reason was because no one wanted the weird kids.
“Yes but eventually we want to introduce those very mutant children to other non mutant children in the foster system. We believe that early exposure to mutant individuals will cause a quicker acceptance in the younger generation.”
“This sounds lovely but why foster children? Why not do this program in schools instead?”
“I’d love to start a school one day, for the gifted.” Charles says easily “but the fact of the matter is that most mutant children are in the foster system. Abandoned or orphaned or taken away from their families for things they couldn’t control. Simply for who they are.”
“Also we tried schools but they refused to even acknowledge that mutant children even existed so that was kinda a null attempt.” Jill sounds bitter when she says it. “Statistically there is no evidence of an abundance of mutated children in the foster system. There also isn’t any study or non-theoretical evidence that this program would work. We only have three documented children who have mutations and are in the fostering system, they are all in rural countries and only one of them even gave consent to go on record. It’s all circumstantial and it’s hardly feasible for a whole program.”
“You sound like a non-believer.” Margo muses at her doubts.
“In the contrary it was my idea.” Jill sighs like she just revealed a deep shame “Charles was crazy enough to fund it. But all that Time and effort is going down the drain if all the houses we go to aren't viable homes or keep rejecting the program if they are.” She sounds like she’s at the end of her whits.
“It might have to do with the fact that four out of five mutants with drastic physical abnormalities are more likely to have criminal records and or violent misdemeanors.“ Charles voice speaks the statistic like he’s had to say it before. “Foster families are more hesitant in taking in a child with a physical mutation in case they are violent. There are many studies on it.” Charles says.
“But not any on mutants in the foster system…” Margo observes.
“We’re aware that it sucks.” Jill says.
“So who’s the kid?”
There’s a pause. “We still have to check to see if you’re the right fit for the program.”
“I am. And if I’m not I will be.”
There’s an in take of breath. A hesitant pause “miss Margo, we in no way want to pressure you into fostering mutant children if you’re not comfortable or able to we understand that in your predicament-“
“-I have a house.“ Margo interrupts “I have two spare rooms. I have a stable income and a steady beating heart. Most importantly I’m willing. If a child…any child at all needs to stay in my care they will be welcomed without question.” She reaches for a hand. She assumes it’s the young Charles Xavier. Margo feels close to this man. He is someone important and even though she has no way of really knowing that—she wants him to know she’s being sincere. “why is this important to you Charles?”
“Mutant children are the most neglected children by both their parents and the foster system.”
“But why do you care?”
“Ive seen twins be born and only one of them is taken home because the other child had the face of an ogre.” Charles responds to her question in a huff, like nobody’s ever pushed passed the first immediate reply.
“Thats not it.” Margo can feel he’s holding something back. Something that clouds his mind, something heavy that he carries with him.
“Jill…why don’t you finish the inspection.” Charles says curtly.
“You sure?”
“Yeah, I’ll stay here with miss Margo for just a bit.”
Margo heard Jill shuffle out of the kitchen. She faces Charles fully “something weighs on you.”
“You are much more perceptive than one would assume.” Charles says reluctantly “I dont have a reason for wanting to do this program besides knowing it’s the right thing to do.”
“that’s not it. There’s more.” She squeezes his hand. A comforting gesture.
“There’s nothi-“
“-you’re grieving.”
Charles falls silent. His shoulders stiffen and Margo nods to herself. “I know a thing or two about grieving. I’ve done quite a bit of it in my life.” Margo prods, nosey at heart, and wanting to hear the truth. “Who have you lost Charles?”
She was mine for less then a day. The words came to her mind like he had spoken them but he hadn’t said a word.
“A day is enough to love someone.” Margo says simply and the man seems to become small within her hold. His charm, his confidence seeming to cloud around his mind as she continues to question him. It wasn’t an intentional thing. She hadn’t meant to make the man smaller. She was seeking the truth. In whatever form it was sent. “A lover?”
Charles doesn’t need to respond for her to know she was wrong, his body shakes like he can barely hold himself up, she tightens her grip on his hands, steadying him. “A child.” Margo corrects hearing him release a breath. “Was your child a mutant too?” It didn’t seem to trip Margo up that Charles was a mutant. One of many.
Yes . Charles says in her mind like he’s afraid to say it out loud. To make it true.
“A physical mutation?”
Yes . He seems to stumble even in his mind, his thoughts flashing back to a memory that Margo couldn’t see. She was blind even in her mind and in his memories but she could feel how he held his child. She could feel the weight of her in his arms. Small and light. Too light. Too small. And still. Unmoving.
Dead.
Margo can feel the grief he felt, the love and the sadness and he can feel the anger. He was angry at the doctors. They must have done something. Or maybe they didn’t do anything at all. Maybe that was worse. The lack of action towards a mutant infant. Margo doesn’t know the specifics, she can’t piece it together through this memory alone but she doesn’t need to.
Before Margo could hesitate she was pulling Charles Xavier into a hug. “I’m so sorry, dear. She would be so proud of you.”
Charles hugs her, a quiet comfort amongst the two adults. Margo can hear Jill enter the room and then abruptly leaving the room once she finds the two entangled.
It was only two days later that Jill stopped by with a child. “No charles today?”
“He had other matters to attend to but he sends his wishes.“
“Would you like a heart to heart as well?”
“I prefer if we didn’t.” Jill says meekly “hugs are not my thing.”
“Understood.” Margo muses “tea?”
“Maybe next time. I’m not in the mood for salty tea this evening. Thank you.”
“Missing out.”
“Not really.” Jill quips and hands her a stack of papers with her gloves hands.
“What’s this?”
“It’s Katya’s File. It’s in braille. She’s got an extensive record. She went to juvvy so there’s a lot to read. She wears gloves. Like me. Doesn’t take them off. It’s part of her whole—mutation thing—got no clue what it is though.”
“Okie dokie.” Margo puts the file between her elbows.
Katya sneaks out of the house that very night. Margo called Jill in a panic when she realized the sixteen year old was gone. “Yeah, she’s a runner. She always comes back though.”
And she did, close to three am and she shuffled back into the house through her open window. “Take off your shoes. I don’t want you dragging dirt in the house.” Katya slips off her shoes silently.
“You can’t leave without telling me.” Katya doesn’t say anything and Margo sighs. “I’m not saying you can’t leave at all. You can leave when you want. Midnight or whenever. But I need to know so I don’t worry.”
Katya makes a noise of confirmation but doesn’t say anything else. Margo signs her up for school at the nearest high school.
Margo gets a call from her school asking if she’s feeling better from her sickness.
“She’s feeling much better thank you. She’ll be starting back up Monday morning and she’ll turn in all the assignments she’s missed.” She confronts the girl that afternoon when she’s supposed to be returning from school.
“When you're supposed to be going to school, where do you go?”
No response. “Are you visiting a friend? A boyfriend? A girlfriend?”
“I’m visiting Giovannie.”
“Giovannie is who exactly?”
“My son. He lives an hour away from here. With his foster parents.”
“You have a son.”
“Yes.”
“That wasn’t in your file.”
“I had him at thirteen. Before I was in the system. My parents kicked me out and raised him like a son. I hadn't seen him since he was a baby.”
“And now that you have?”
“He’s big. He smiles like me. My parents…they are better with him then they were with me. They gave him my old room. It’s painted blue and they put little glow in the dark stars on the curtains. They have a swing in the backyard.”
“Sounds nice.”
“It is nice. Why couldn’t I get that? Why did I have to be gone for them to be happy? Why did he get the perfect parents and I got the ones that couldn’t help me. Parents that were afraid of me.”
Margo doesn’t have an answer for that “they aren’t perfect parents.” Margo says eventually “perfect parents wouldn’t abandon their kid. Giovannie got the best version of them because all their worst mistakes were made with you. That will haunt them. He has your smile. Trust me, it haunts them.”
Katya sniffles and Margo Pretends she doesn’t know she’s crying. “You’ll be 18 soon. You can fight to have him back if that’s what you want.”
“He doesn’t even know who I am.”
Margo never does find out what Katya’s mutation was. But when she turns eighteen and visits her child for the first time he already knew who she was. He also already knew who Margo was too. They spoke to each other like old friends seeing each other after a long time. It was odd but still made perfect sense. Margo was just happy that Katya was happy.
“Hello Charles.” Margo greeted The young man after his unprompted visit to her home some time after Katya left her dare. “How are you?”
“I’m good. I actually came with some news.”
“Yes Jill has already told me that you graduated. Did you not get the congratulations letter I sent to your estate?”
“I did, it was quite lovely. Once I learned how to read braille.”
“This makes you officially a what? A doctor?”
“A professor.”
They know the professor isn’t home. Margo ignores Harry’s mothers fortune and smiles in congratulations towards the man.
“That’s splendid news. Just one more step away from that school you wanted.”
“yes, well, friend, That's actually what I came here to speak with you about.”
“Well, do tell.” Margo sits on her sturdy chair prompting the man to do the same. Captain Snuggles rubs against Margo’s legs, purring.
“I’ll still fund Jill’s program but I’ll have to take a step back from the process because I’m starting a school.”
Margo’s heart swells with joy for the man “oh Charles! Praise the lord!” She says excitedly. “You’re finally doing it. I’m so proud of you dear.” Margo was absolutely ecstatic. “You’ve been such a lovely friend. I’ll miss our talks and of course your handsome voice but you’re starting a new chapter in your life dear and I can never hold you back from that.”
Charles and Her talk for a while. He tells her about an fbi woman who approached him at a bar talking about mutants.
“It felt good to be able to talk about it outside of theory. To be able to say mutants are real and they are here.”
He tells him about the man in the ocean, trying to pull an anchor with his mind.
“He’s been through so much pain and he thought he was alone. Imagine if mutants knew they weren’t by themselves in this world. That other extraordinary people where out there too.”
He tells her how thrilled he was to speak to other people like him.
He tells her about a boy who can control sound waves and a girl who can fly. a man that can adapt and one that can shoot fire. He tells her about Hank and how he had hit it off with his sister Raven, which he seemed a bit grossed out about.
“Don’t you want your sister to find love?” Margo taunts.
“I just can’t see her in that way. She’s my sister. She’s forever nine in my head.”
“I’m sure she loves that.“
He tells her about everything she’s missed. In return she does the same.
“Your brother got married?”
“Yep, and my sister got divorced. Again.”
”The mechanic?”
“No, that’s Julianna. I’m talking about Adorah. Poor things got worse taste in men than Dreama.”
“How is Dreama?”
“Prison.”
“As to be expected. And her kid?”
“A cop.”
“Balance.”
Charles and Margaret talk for hours, finishing two bottles of wine by themselves. Charles has more than her.
“It's best we stop here, friend.”
“One more glass.” Charles says “you gotta tell me about that circus act you used to do.” But he was already slurring his words so Margo pulled the bottle away, putting the cork back on the neck.
“I’m calling it a night.” Margo says easily and Charles just laughs loosely.
“You’re no good to drive.” She tells him and he’s so out of it—he simply nods off and allows her to gesture him towards the couch. She gives him a spare pillow and the warmest blanket in her house.
A few years had passed. About half a dozen kids coming in and out of her house. A kid who can grow extra limbs. Another that can heal. A child who can breath under water and another that can wield fire.
She’s had a few kids with nothing strange to them at all. Born from mutant parents but held no visible or biological mutation.
This was the case for little Frankie. Jill had said something about his father having the biological markers for mutation but had no data to back it up. His mother was prevented from custody Indefinitely. A danger to her child and herself. Frankie was in it for the long haul.
“As far as we can tell he’s just a normal boy.” Jill says and Margo shakes her head “no such thing as a normal boy.”
Frankie had an accident that paralyzed him from the waist down. Margo had to get ramps installed in her porch before he was allowed into her custody. She took extra measures to make everything accessible to him.
Frankie was a perfect child. Watching over him felt similarly to watching his older siblings growing up. All put together and all knowing. A Perfect image of what every child should be. But it was just that. An image. As Margo got older she realized her siblings weren’t perfect. They had their flaws and they had there anxieties. And watching Frankie felt like that. Like watching a mirage of a perfect child, cracking and twisting to be perceived as such.
Frankie broke a plate and he panicked and fell off his wheelchair trying to pick up the glass on the ground with bare hands.
“Hey. Hey. Honey, stop.” Margo was walking blindly into glass, trying to stop the young boys from hurting himself.
“I’m sorry. I broke your plate misses Margo.”
“It’s okay to make mistakes.” Frankie sounded like he couldn’t breathe “it’s just a plate. I break them all the time. I’m very clumsy.” She manages to grab his small hands, shaking fully “see?” She shows him her palms, bumpy and calloused and homing a few scars from glass shards. From her right wrist and up her shoulder she has burn marks she’s only half aware of but that’s not what she’s trying to show him. “It’s okay to break stuff. Things break. It’s alright if they do.”
“I’m sorry.” Frankie says anyway his voice much calmer and she feels him touch her calloused hands and trase the scars there.
“You don’t need to apologize.”
Apologizing when no apology is needed was a big problem for Frankie. He seems to think everything is his fault. Which is a horrible burden to put on a six year old boy.
“How was school today?”
“The same as always.” Frankie doesn’t have any friends at school. Margo had hoped that when he interacts with kids his age he’d be more out of his shell but he seems to have closed off entirely.
“Frankie signed up for the scholastic Art fair.” Margo tells Jill when she drops by to see how he’s settling.
“He did? That’s good. Are you going to go?”
“Of course. I’m sure I can compel someone to describe the pieces for me. I’ll use the blind card. Usually works.”
“Sounds fun.”
And it was. Margo showed up a few minutes before they were meant to start to help Frankie go through the only wheelchair accessible entrance in the gym.
Margo walk around, tapping her cane and going towards where she hears the ooohs and aaahs. Her cane taps on a small foot. Unmoving despite her tap. “Excuse me dear can you show me what’s the fuss?”
“Sure thing.” And the small child, a little girl, grabs her hand, dragging her forward, deeper into the crowed. “It’sa volcano. See?” Her voice is excited and she can barely hold on to Margo’s hand as she bounces up on her tip toes.
“No, I can’t see. How does it look like?”
Without missing a beat “big. Real big. As big as me. Made of candy. My brother could eat it real quick but it would take me ages and I’d have a tummy ache. It’s got licorice and hummus bears and skittles. And hohos. My brother loves hohos. I’m glad he’s not here cause the Valcano would be gone . Poof. Just like that.”
“I thought it was meant to be an art piece?”
“It is. It’s very pretty. And very yummy. They have little samples. Didya want one?”
“Of course.” Margo nods quickly eager to taste the art. How very clever. “Okay!” She let’s go of her hand and is gone for maybe fifteen seconds before she’s huffing right beside her like she ran for the sweets “they said I can’t have anymore so you gotta go yourself. Come on.” She drags Margo’s hand and the older lady doesn’t bother using her cane, simply letting the child guide her—hoping she isn’t leading her somewhere strange.
“One marshmallow monster, please.” The girl asks and Margo can hear the smile on her face.
The girl in the booth sighs “you can’t have any more Wanda. You already had thirds and we just started the exhibit. You gotta leave some for other people.”
“But other people aren’t gonna like it as much as me. I appreciate your art.”
“And I appreciate your support but I can’t give you anymore.”
“Can I have three?”
“You can’t give her one. She’s so spoiled.”
“It’s for me and my kid. He’s got a booth towards the bleachers. He loves marshmallows.”
“Okay.”
Margo is walking away from the booth with three little cups holding little marshmallow monsters drizzled in mnms and chocolate.
“Where are we going?” Wanda asks curiously, easily following her.
“To my kids booth.”
“Okie dokie. Can I have a marshmallow monster.”
“After.“ so she lied to the booth lady. Sue her.
When they get close Enough Wanda exclaims “Frankie!” And abandons Margo’s side to—Margo assumes—go to Frankie’s. “Wanda, you’re here!”
“Yeah, silly, I said I would.” Wanda teases “you invited me.”
“He did?” Margo asks suddenly and Wanda speaks easily on top of Frankie’s flustered response “yeah. Last week during recess. Are you miss Wagner?”
“Yes, but you can call me Miss Margo as the lord intended.”
“Your hair looks like my brothers.“
“Who’s your brother?”
“Peter.” Peter is a very common name.
“Very nice. Does he got a last name?”
“Yes. It’s maximoff like mine. We match.”
Oh. This must be Magda’s Daughter. I guess she never successfully taught her children stranger danger. How fitting.
“Oh, I think I’ve met your brother actually. He’s gotta be how old now?”
“Seventeen.”
“And that would make you…seven?” Magda was pregnant a few years back. She hadn’t realized how many years had actually passed. Time blends together when you can’t tell the difference between night and day.
“Only one year older than my Frankie.”
“Mama Margo Stoooop!” Frankie whines, clearly embarrassed by her prodding and it happened so naturally that she barely even realized.
He just called her mama.
“I’m just teasing. Here’s a marshmallow beast for you two.” She places the gooey madness in front of the kids. She can hear them smacking and chewing their mouths.
“It’s yummy right?” Wanda gushes and Frankie giggles, high pitched and soft like an actual kid. It makes Margo smile.
That night, just after she’s tucked him into bed and Kissed his forehead enough to make him squirm in gush she asks him about Wanda. “Is Wanda doing okay at school?”
“Yeah, she’s super smart. A genius.” He says easily and Margo boops his nose “and you like her?” She slips into a teasing smile.
He doesn’t fluster away or squirm. “No. I love her.” He says like it’s the only thing he’s really sure of. The sun is hot, the ocean is wet, Frankie loves Wanda. Simply a concrete fact.
“You Love her, huh?” Margo fiddles with her necklace. “That’s a pretty big deal, hon.”
“Yeah, Wanda’s a pretty big deal.” Frankie says with a giddiness to his voice that he’s heard more and more recently. “Do you think she likes me too, Mama Margo?”
Mama . Margaret does catch it this time, her heart aching as her mind shapes the face of her daughter, Lilly. She imagines her curled up in bed as well smitten over a classmate asking for assurance and receiving it easily. Deja would tease and Margo would reassure. But this isn’t that. Frankie is not Lilly, no matter how similarly they laugh.
“I think she’d be crazy not to. You're the best too.”
“Yeah but…I can’t do stuff like the other boys.”
“Has she ever made you think she cares about that?
“No?”
“Then don’t worry about what other boys can do.”
A year goes by. Frankie loses his last baby tooth. Margo gives him a Mohawk after he insists and Then a week later shaves it off when he admits that he hates it. Frankie’s birthday passes with colorful streamers and baked good that Margo spent the whole day before making and a very badly wrapped present hidden in her closet in the shape of a wheelchair.
“We gotta test out the new ride. Make sure it’s sturdy.” Margo says. She Holds on to the handles and lets him lead her to the park. It was almost too natural to sit down on the bench facing the park, a pair of purple sunglasses draped over her eyes and Frankie sitting beside her with a loaf of freshly baked goods to feed the perky ducks that always swarm them. It’s when she sits down, leaning back fully against the metal bench and listening to the birds chirping in a distance that she realizes in all her excitement to test out Frankie’s wheelchair she had left her cane at home. Propped beside the wooden door.
She waits a few minutes, listening to the squeak of a seesaw go up and down by the wind and the honking of cars in the distance.
She takes a breath, folding her hands over her lap.
“I seem to have forgotten my cane.” She says, trying to keep the unease out of her voice.
“But you need that to help you see mama Margo.” Frankie says instantly, the worry soaking into his words and Margo smiles fondly.
“Yeah, i do. I was so excited about your new wheelchair that l got here purely through muscle memory but…” she hears a screech of car breaks and a distant dog barking at an angry squirrel. She hears a million different noises and sounds that do not help the growing headache in her skull. Right this second she can’t tell left from right.“…I’m all turned around now.”
“I’m sorry, how can I help?” Frankie is genuine and kind.
“We’re gonna play a game.” Margo says after a moment of thinking.
“A game?” Frankie’s voice lifted. Eager for play.
“Yeah, you can guide me where to go and I move us forward.” Margo says “you be my vision-“ she grips his wheelchair handles firmly taking in a breath “and I’ll be your legs. Sound like fun?”
“Yeah!”
“We can call it Vision and Speed.” Margo says and hopes and prays to God that Frankie doesn’t play this game with anyone else. This is crazy dangerous and she’s all but hoping that Frankie doesn’t realize how dependent she is on him at this moment.
They make it home, only two blocks from their house and Margo kisses Frankie on both cheeks. “Such a brave boy.”
“It was fun!” Frankie says and Margo ruffles his hair.
She cooks lasagna that night, extra cheese and they listen to the radio before bed, soft music trickling through the creaky house.
Margo sings her monster song. She speaks a prayer and checks under the bed and in the closet for monsters. All her bases were checked and all the boxes ticked. She pressed one last kiss on Frankie's forehead, already dozing off.
She closes his door softly and just as she’s about to head to bed someone knocks on the door.
Someone is at her door, near nine 9 o'clock at night. She grabs her cane—more as a weapon then as a tool for walking. She peaks the door, lock chain still on and only wide enough to be able to speak out loud and be heard without yelling and waking up Frankie “Who’s there?”
“Misses Wagner? It’s me Jill.”
Margo frowns as she recognizes her voice. She unlocks the chain and opens the door wider. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing is—“ Margo opens the door completely and Jill stops talking, breath catching in her mouth. For a moment Margo thinks she might’ve forgotten to wear a bra or maybe had something on her face she hadn’t known about.
“Clearly something is wrong Jill. You haven’t called me Misses Wagner in nearly ten years.“
“Margaret.” Jill recalls like it was an epiphany, like she was having a come-to-Jesus moment right in front of her and Margo honestly has no idea why.
Margo furrows her brows, dipping her head to the side “Miss Margo.” The blind woman corrects and there’s a long stretch of silence that confuses her deeply. ”is something wrong Jill? It’s quite late.”
Silence followed the question.
“You’re blind.”
“Yes. Glad you remembered. Would you like a gold star?” Margo taps her cane against the door frame sarcastically.
Another long stretch of silence. Margo was getting concerned.
“Jill?”
The woman is quiet. So quiet that Margo only knows she’s still there by her suddenly labored breaths. It goes on for a bit that Margaret can confirm that Jill is definitely having a panic attack. The blind woman has no fathomable idea why but doesn’t really have time to question it. She steps into Jill’s space, placing a hand on her arm and another on her heart. She’s done this many times with the children in her care. A gentle voice and gentle touch. “It’s alright. Take a breath dear.”
Jill makes a awkward noise that Margo disregards and inhales loudly—allowing Jill to match her pace. Inhaling exhaling. Over and over until their breaths mingled.
It’s at this close proximity, Margo calming the suddenly panicked social worker down that she finally realizes that this isn’t Jill. They sound like but their breath smells of peppermint gum and Jill is allergic to mint, she always gets turmeric tea when Margo offers. She also isn’t wearing her signature gloves—in the ten years that she’s known Jill she always wore gloves because of her OCD. Her hands are bare now. They aren’t hers. This in no way is Jill.
Margo inhales with the stranger. Inhale exhales. Over and over.
The stranger said her name like she knew it. Like she knew her. The hand on the strangers chest, held above her heart, presses more firmly. A lose hand falls on top of her hand, holding Margo’s hand gently in place. It was an odd reaction. But it was also familiar. Someone once upon a time ago did the same thing. Followed by bruising kisses and sultry moans. He feels different, but his skin still runs cold, and he smells the same. His heartbeat sings the same tune. Unmistakable and unique.
“Ronnie, dear. It’s been some time.” Margo says with enough confidence that if she has been wrong she would claim insanity and never speak to Jill again.
But the way Jill—Ronnie—squeezes her hand and moves closer to the older woman is done with far too much familiarity to be the mild mannered Jill. “It has.”
“Barely recognized you.” Margo slides her hands up his chest—away from his heartbeat and cups his face gently. She feels him shiver at her touch—falling silent even after all this time. That night was so long ago now but she did always find his shyness endearing. Deja always said Margo liked to be worshiped but it’s not her fault her beloved boasted her with compliments enough to give her a type.
“How-“ Ronnie doesn’t continue his sentence as Margo touches the back of his neck, feeling the hair there, long and curly like it’s up in a ponytail instead of flowing past his back. She feels his jaw, feels his entire face, trying to memorize the grooves and edges. She doesn’t normally go around touching peoples faces, at least not strangers but Ronnie isn’t a stranger. He melts into her touch like butter, just as he did back then. Touch deprived or maybe just lonely—Margo can’t tell the difference.
“You’re different. But you’re the same.” Ronnie doesn’t say anything and Margo just smiles touching his eyebrows with her thumbs. “Still beautiful I imagine.” Maybe it’s the way she said it that snapped him out of the daze Margo had put him in. She had said it with a twinge of sadness. A loss she couldn’t describe. Ronnie wasn’t just a fling. He wasn’t just hers. He was Dejas too and seeing him now after all these years only reminds her that Deja would’ve loved to rake her fingers through Ronnie’s hair too. Deja would’ve realized it was Ronnie sooner—because she was always more intuitive than Margo.
Ronnie also technically fathered her baby. Her dead baby. Margo takes a step back from Ronnie.
“Well, Ronnie slash Jill not that you’re not a sight for blind eyes but why are you here?”
“I came to see you.”
“I don’t do one night stands anymore, dear.”
“That’s not-I didn’t-“ even after all this time Margo can still make him stumble over his words. “I hadn’t realized at the time that you where you.” Ronnie takes a breath “I just mean I hadn’t realized that Margaret Wagner was you.”
“Sorry to disappoint.”
“You could never.” There he goes, inflating Margo’s ego once more. Truly a man who knows a woman’s heart.
“You are the right Margaret Wagner correct? You foster mutant kids? Or did I get the address wrong?”
“Address is correct. But I fear you don’t make the cut, unless you definitely lied about your age.”
“No, I—no. Fuck. I’m screwing this up.” He pauses “I’m not here for me, I have a mutant kid. He needs a place to stay until further notice. Jill said this was a safe place.”
“Does Jill also know you’re stealing her face?”
“What she doesn’t know won’t hurt her.”
Oh the irony. Margo wonders if what Ronnie doesn’t know won’t hurt him. What will telling him about the dead baby do? He’ll have to grieve. Right now. He hasn’t lost anything. If she tells him—then he’s lost a child. Long since dead and with nothing to show for it except pain. Is knowing you could’ve had a child worth the pain it inflicts? Margo doesn’t know the answer.
“It’s good that you’re blind.” Ronnie says unexpectedly.
Margo lifts a brow and Ronnie clears his throat “I just mean—I’m sorry that happened, obviously I just mean—in context it’s good that you can’t see how he looks.”
“Is he ugly?” Margo frowns “you’re completely right, I can handle mentally ill kids and daily world ending diapers but god forbid they’re ugly.”
“Haha funny. I just mean it would be less—jarring if you didn’t know how he looked like.”
“It wasn’t jarring when I saw you.”
“I was in the middle of fucking you so it’s not like you had much time to be shocked—“
“—oh so we’re just gonna casually bring that up? That’s how we’re doing that? Last I checked it was you that had the slow reaction time. Not me.”
“I’m not that person anymore.”
“Obviously not. I’m sure you’ve got plenty of faces to choose from.” Margo huffs and rubs her temple “point is I didn’t care what you looked like then and I wouldn’t care how the child looks like now. Even if I could see.”
”He's special. He…he was staying with me the last couple of weeks but I’m not—he can’t live the life I live. He needs something stable. Jill said he’d be good with you but I—“
“—you wanted to see for yourself.” Margo finishes and she smiles in understanding “and what have you decided, dear? Do I have the stamp of approval to take your child?”
Ronnie makes a noise “he’s not-he isn’t mine. He's just some kid I found. He was traveling with the circus. He needed help.”
“And you helped him. That’s pretty heroic of you.”
“I’m no hero.”
“You don’t have to be a hero to do heroic acts.” Margo sagely responds and rewinds back to the circus “he’s from the circus? Which one?”
“Bavarian Circus. The freak show exhibition was a front for sex trafficking and illegal auctions.”
Margaret took a breath. “I was part of that circus once. It wasn’t like that before. Everything was so different.”
“The circus was sold for half a million dollars about two decades ago. Probably just after the fire that killed half it’s staff.”
The fire. Margo took a step back from Ronnie who was speaking too comfortably about something that ruined her life. “Deja died in that fire.” Margo touches her arm instinctively, the arm with the scarred over burn marks that still burns when she thinks about it too much.
“Oh.” Ronnie sounded distant, voice strained “I’m so sorry Margo. I know you loved her.” Anyone with eyes could see Margo loved Deha just as much as Deha loved Margo. They were the moon and sun shining brightly in the sky right beside each other.
“She was my world. The circus was my family. I’ve made my peace with it.”
“Kurt’s special. I don’t-I don’t know if he’s my world. But I know myself and I know if I spend too much time with him—if he stays with me for too long he’ll mean something to me that I’m not ready to be. I don’t want him gone, I just need to hold him at a distance. But I need to know that he’s safe. That he’s cared for.” Margo’s heart sinks and swells in apathy and she wanders back to her baby. Some things are just meant to happen she supposes. Ronnie caring for a mutant child is just meant to happen. One way or another.
“He’ll be cared for with me.” Margo assures.
“Okay.” He says and grabs Margo’s hand to shake it. She does so with a firm grip even if it seems out of place.
“Okay.” She pulls him by the hand, coming close to the man “don’t be a stranger though. You know where I live. If you want to see him. Just call.”
“Okay.”
“Don’t okay for me to shut up.”
“Okay! I will. I’ll call.” Ronnie says easily.
“You better.”
Two days Later, while Frankie is at school, probably in the middle of his Spanish quiz, Margaret hears a familiar knock at her door.
Three firm knocks, less then a second apart. Jill’s signature exactly. Margo knows it’s her before she smells her Vanilla moisturizer and before she hears her the scratching of her scribbling in her notepad.
“Hello Jill.” Margo says before she fully opens the door, a smile on her face.
“I swear I don’t know how you do it.”
“You caught me! I’ve been faking my blindness for the disability checks. Call the police.”
“I’ll do that right after this.” Jill says dully and her brand of funny was always so straightforward and deadpan that after all these years Margo is still caught off guard by Jill actually cracking jokes. She just doesn’t seem like the type.
“You giving me a kid today?” Margo already knows the answer to that but pretends to ask anyway.
“Yes, I am.” She hands her a stack of papers in braille “he had to go through a lot of paperwork. He didn’t have a birth certificate or legal documents so we can only guesstimate that he’s between sixteen and seventeen years old.”
“Great I’d love to meet him. Is he here with you?”
“My associate Reginald will bring him here in about an hour or so. I just wanted to discuss something with you first.”
“is Reginald your new Charles?”
“In a way.” Jill Blands. “Although I haven’t heard from Charles in quite some time.”
“Nearly eight years.” Margo still remembers the last time he was over, half drunk on her couch and speaking so kindly about a boy he had met. A metal bender. Margo thought that he had met his Deja but—she hadn’t heard from him since then.
“Does Reginald like tea?”
“I think he’s more of a coffee guy.”
“Boring.”
“Yes, well he is my husband.” And Margo is stunned to silence.
Gaping she says “You are full of surprises Jill. I had no idea you where married.”
“It was a small endeavor at the court house. We spent more on the honeymoon then on anything else.”
“Did you have fun?”
“Yes and I fear this conversation has gotten a bit tangled from the original topic. Let’s go back to what I was saying.”
“Of course, go on, Jill.”
“There’s something you don’t know about me.”
“Apparently you’re married for one.”
“yes, but also I’m a mutant.” Jill says simply. Margo blinks and can’t tell if the other lady is cracking another joke.
“You are?”
“Yes and I knew that Charles was a mutant too.”
“Okay…well I suppose that explains your passion for this program. Honestly I’m deeply sorry I never asked.” It’s been years and Margo never even wondered why Jill wanted to help these kids. She had just assumed like any other social worker–that she was a bleeding heart.
“My mutating ability is activated through touch.”
“Explains the gloves then. Although I thought you said that you have OCD.”
“I do. Do you know much bacteria is in doorknobs alone? I’ll have a panic attack just thinking about it honestly. But—that’s got nothing to do with my mutation. I can detect other people with the Xgene.”
Margo connects that dot quickly with the information she already has. She’s always wondered how Jill found these mutant kids. Specifically the ones with no obvious physical mutation. Or the ones who’s mutated ability aren’t activated at all. Stupidly Margo just assumed she tested them but that doesn’t seem very ethical now that Margo thinks about it.
“That’s a wonderful gift and to be able to use that gift to help children that are like you is a blessing.” Margo has always liked Jill, the fact that she was a mutant this whole time only makes that fondness deeper. Jill was an unsung hero this whole time and Margo was none the wiser.
“Miss Margo, I appreciate that. Truly I do. but I’m not done.”
“My apologies. Keep going then.”
Jill takes in a breath almost like she’s nervous which is unlike her “I can identify the persons DNA and ancestry . it’s usually helpful in finding next of kin or anyone related to the mutant child. It usually allows me to see as far as three generations back into the DNA. So parents, grandparents and great grandparents.”
Margo nods, it’s an interesting aspect to her mutation and she can see how that could be incredibly helpful in her line of work. She can tell that Jill is winding up to something so she stays quiet.
“I was wondering if I could use my mutation on you.” Jill asks like it’s being punched out if her—like if she didn’t she might explode.
Margo frowns “will it hurt?”
“No.”
“May I ask why?”
“I’m afraid if I tell you now and I’m wrong it might cause more pain. It’s best if I verify it first and then I can—we can move on from there.”
”I don’t think I have a mutation, Jill.” Margo extends her hands anyway, allowing the other woman to feel relief in her compliance. “But it’ll be interesting if nothing else.”
“Okay.” She can hear Jill take off her gloves and for the first time ever Margaret touches real Jill’s hands. They are warmer than she expected. Calloused.
Margo expects some tingling. Maybe a flash of something but nothing of the sort happens. She has no idea if anything is even happening. She doesn’t know until Jill is yanking her hands away from Margo likes she’s been burned.
“Fuck.”
“What’s wrong?”
There’s a long pause that makes Margo fidgety.
“I’m either going to tell you the worst news of your life or the best.”
and it was.
Margaret thinks she’s dreaming. Maybe she’s died. Maybe the last two decades have been a dream and she’s going to wake up with her sight and with her beloved wrapped around her, their Lilly in between them snuggled like a cat. Or-or maybe she’s being tested again. A punishment for a crime she doesn’t recall committing. The Story of Job, Gods favorite human—tortured and condemned to win a bet with the devil.
Jill is telling her things, important things, things she should know but all she can focus on is “he’s alive?” Margo’s voice is so hoarse and she barely realizes it’s her speaking.
“Yes, Miss Margo. Your child is alive.” and Margo doesn’t remember the next three minutes because she might have broken down crying, disassociating in her mind and delirious. Crying like her father just died. Crying like her beloved had died. Crying like her Lilly had died. Crying like Jessie had died. Crying like her family had died. Crying like her mother had died.
She’s crying because he hadn’t died. She’s crying because he was alive the whole fucking time. She’s crying because he was alive and he was hurting and she wasn’t there. She wasn’t there to help him. She’s crying because instead of being buried in a shallow grave surrounded by family and flowers he was alive and living a life of suffering. Hopeless and afraid. Unloved.
How can her baby be unloved?
How can her baby be alive and not be loved?
She was robbed. So was he. It all feels unfair and despicable.
“H-how is he? Is he hurt? Is he-“ miss Margo can barely speak without hiccuping into sobs.
Jill takes her hand, finally gloved, and she speaks soothingly “he was hospitalized after we found him. He was in tough shape and he still is but he’s much better than before. Unfortunately most of the damage is mental. He has nightmares and episodes where he doesn’t know where he is and he’s easily frightened and squirmy. He doesn’t do well with men. He doesn’t feel safe with them. That’s why-at first-before I realized his relationship to you-I was going to place him with you. Since you don’t have a spouse. Our other families are mostly couples.”
“So me being horribly single is working in my favor.” Margo jokes even though her heart is beating a mile a minute and her face is still swollen with tears.
“Yes. I suppose so. But regardless…he’s your son. He would’ve gone to you as soon as I realized. You’re next of kin.”
Margaret takes a breath “and Frankie? He’s a boy, I hope that’s not a problem—he’s a sweet boy.”
“Don’t worry. Kurt doesn’t mind kids. His triggers are usually towards dominant men or men In general. Little boys don’t count.”
Margaret clutches the papers Jill gives her. Everything they know about her boy is in these papers. Written in braille just for her. Thick and heavy. A burden she will soon gladly carry with him.
“Jill?” Margo hears a car pull up and she knows she’s about to meet someone very important. Her son. “Do you know about the man that found him? His relationship with the boy it’s—“
“—I know. I could tell the moment I touched Kurt. The ancestry is split but it was clear.”
“Does he know?”
“He…might suspect. But he doesn’t know you are the child’s mother. I keep my abilities very private and hadn’t told him of my discovery. I think—I think a parent just knows sometimes. He grew quite attached to the boy very quickly.”
“Okay.” Margo says like that doesn’t complicate things more. Ronnie came to her, in a sense asking for a favor to take in the child. Ronnie views this as a favor—Margo is taking care of his child in his eyes. But in reality Margo has equal attachment to the child. She has equal rights to care for him. Ronnie has no idea that if he decides to ask for Parental Rights over Kurt then it would be hurting Margo as well.
Margo thinks she might break if Ronnie decides to take Kurt back.
The car parks as closely as possible, one of her outdoor cats meowed aggressively at the offending vehicle. Margo faces them, relaxing her face and gripping her cane tightly. she can do this. She can do this. She can do this.
She hears the door open. A few minutes pass—her heart beating against her ribs like church bells. She hears footsteps. Two pairs. Sneakers thumping on the ground. Boots following shortly.
She smells vanilla shampoo. It’s the same as Jill’s. They share the same economically priced shampoo. They live together. They are married. So the one that smells like sulfur and coconut must be him; Kurt.
Margo opens her mouth to speak, to introduce herself but then clamps up and stays silent. Jill comes to the rescue “Kiddo this is Miss Margo. She’s the nice lady you’re going to be staying with but I’ll be making monthly visits to check up on you and make sure you’re settling in okay.” It’s the same thing Jill always says to all the kids going into Margo’s care but the routine speech helps Margo focus in on the situation.
Kurt, her boy, hasn’t spoken. He stood quietly in front of the house without moving a muscle. “Miss Margo is currently fostering another little boy named Frankie who is disabled and uses a wheelchair to get around. He’ll be joining you two soon. Do you have any questions? Any at all?”
The three of them wait for a response and Margo, blind to any emotions that might be crossing his face, just waits with a heavy heart.
“Thank you for allowing me to stay in your beautiful home.“ Kurt says and Margo’s heart skips to the next beat. Kurt has a thick accent. His English was choppy and too proper to be natural but it was soft and warm in a way that reminded her of Deja. The comparison chips away at her.
“Do you have any questions though Kurt?” Reginald prods gently and Kurt seems to pause in his sentence.
“Yes…I-“ Kurt seems to pause saying something in a different language that she can’t understand “-I do not know the norms of America but—um—“ he pauses, letting out a shaky breath “-why are there very large socks on your wall?”
Margo burst out into laughter, uncontrollable and maybe a bit hysterical. She was so worried he would ask something she wouldn’t know how to answer that e very simple question had caught her off guard. She wipes away the tears of joy from her eyes and tries to compose herself. “They're stockings. For Christmas. St. Nicholas leaves little treats inside them during Christmas.”
“St. Nicholas. Is he another boy who lives in your home?” Kurt asks Pointedly and Margo is glad he isn’t nervous to ask questions anymore but the fact that he doesn’t know who Santa clause is, is quite upsetting.
“No, he’s-he’s no one you have to worry about. He visits every year. But only if you’re good.” Margo swears to buy every book on Santa Claus and Christmas and anything mentioning the North Pole. Maybe she shouldn’t encourage a sixteen-year-old to believe in Santa but considering he hadn’t ever had a moment to ever Hope she thinks it’s more than justified.
“Do I get a sock?” He asks, sounding almost excited.
“Yes. I’ll make room next to Mr. Crackers stocking.”
“Is Mr. Crackers—“
“—a very fat black cat. Yes he is, and he likes to eat crackers.”
Jill says her goodbyes—Reginald too.
Margo gestures towards the open door of her house. Her home. Kurt comes inside, hesitant and cautious in his steps.
For the very first time her son is home and for the first time in a long while Margaret makes food for three.
There were no leftovers. Frankie and Kurt never leave leftovers. And when Christmas Day comes and goes her wish for her family Is granted. When she hears Frankie she hears Lilly’s laughter in him and when she hears Kurt she hears Deja's voice in him.
Her family is finally Home.
And then she remembers her future. Harry’s mothers warning rings in her head.
“You save as many as you could. You save Frankie but Kurt is taken.” And horrifyingly, it’s starting to make sense.
Her family will never get forever.
Notes:
The Timeline confuses me too. Don't think too hard about it. I accidentally made Jill a rip-off of Caliban. oopsie. Also, Jill telling Margo something personal about her life because she found out something personal about hers will never not be sweet to me. I love OC x OC friendships.
Also Ronnie/Raven does end up calling. I just wanted to leave that for Kurt's POV later.
Back to our regularly scheduled program next chapter.
Typos will be found. Thank you for reading. :)
Chapter 23: Fractured Mind
Summary:
“Why are you watering her plant if she broke you?” Kurt says and what he means to say is ‘Broke up with you’ but sometimes his phrasing is slightly off and usually its endearing but in this instance Frankie just seems more emotional. “She’ll be sad if she comes back and BillyTom is wilted. Just cause she hurt me doesn’t mean I want to hurt her back.” It’s such a Frankie thing to say that it kinda breaks Pietros heart a little bit.
“BillyTom?” Kurt works around the vowels and Frankie huffs “we couldn’t settle on a name for him. we where stuck on Billy and Tommy so we just mushed the two names together.”
“Very romantic.” Pietro says, maybe a bit too sarcastic because Frankie is blinking back tears again. “I thought it was...” Frankie hiccups and Kurt shoots Pietro a scathing look that makes the speedster grovel to make it up to him.
“How about we get him a new pot later? He’s getting a bit too big for his current one.” Pietro suggests quickly, but he slows down his words so they aren’t on top of each other.
Frankie sniffles and glances at the yellow pot on the window sill. He nods slowly. “Yeah…I think she’d like that.”
()()()()()()()
Pietro and Kurt are finally home. But all is not well.
Notes:
!!! Trigger Warning for self-harm !!!!
Nothing too graphic but it starts at "He looks beat to hell---" and ends right after "--In his frantic state he hadn’t realized the bathroom door had opened."
Kurt Wagner is extra clingy with Pietro this chapter and will probably be so for a while because they *Trauma Bonded* So, yeah.
Also Bobby is younger then Jean (not by much) but he acts like a mean and protective older brother because they *Trauma bonded*.basically erik and charles' vibe right now
----->
Erik: Do whatever you want--fuck these bitches.Charles: actually DONT do that. These bitches are trynna help you.
i love horrible accidental co-parenting. yum.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro Maximoff doesn’t feel twenty years old. He thinks maybe it has something to do with how he ages slower so he hasn’t looked his age in quite some time or maybe it’s because he spent the weeks leading up to his unsuspecting birthday being physically and psychologically tortured. He doesn’t feel twenty. He feels older. He feels like the last month has aged him drastically—catching up to the years where it almost felt like he was frozen in time, forever young.
When he walks down the path of the X-mansion, with the assistance of his trusty Cane; Kurt Wagner, he feels nostalgic, like walking through his childhood bedroom…which has long since been destroyed in the fire his mother set. He’s only been gone a month. He was running these halls, in super speed and now he’s limping through them with a deathly grip on his blue best friend.
Kurt seems to be adjusting better then the speedster. Pietro thinks it might be because Kurt’s childhood was literally him being tortured and abused at the circus. He’s used to being introduced into strikingly different situations. The teleporter could easily jump to the infirmary, Hank advises against using their abilities but he still technically can, but instead, Kurt goes at a snail's pace beside the impatient speedster who seems to get out of breath every few minutes.
His little stunt in the jet bursted more than a few stitches and he’s convinced he fucked his internal organs or something because his body burns . Hank says he has a fever but Pietro doesn’t remember the last time he’s gotten sick so he has no idea if that’s right or not or if he has some deadly viral contamination from the lab. Who the fuck knows? Not Pietro that’s for sure.
Pietro approaches Wanda’s room, the hand-drawn 'No Boys Allowed' sign crooked on the wall. The door is slightly ajar and even though Pietro knows Wanda Maximoff isn’t here he stops his shuffling and he forces them to a stop in front of his sisters room.
Kurt doesn’t ask why. He doesn’t have to explain. Pietro just wants to see her room, to see her things. To see if she packed all of it or if she left things behind. If she left things behind that means she’s expecting to come back. He’s hoping, wishing really, that she comes back soon. He misses her so much it hurts to even look at her fucking door.
He likes to torture himself. He opens her door and it swing inwards. Frankie is inside, his wheelchair is beside her bedroom window, he’s watering the little plant she has in a yellow pot. The plant was a gift from Christina who sleeps across the hall. Wanda had been taking good care of it and it had grown about a foot tall from its original smell sprout.
Pietros chest aches at the idea that Frankie had been taking care of it since Wanda left. He wonders if she asked him to before she left or if he had brought it upon himself to do so.
“Frankie.” Kurt’s face wobbles into something sad and his voice is all watery even with the one word.
Frankie gasps and Pietro has never seen him maneuver his wheelchair around so fast. He’s rolling forward— his face tight and at the same time Kurt pulls away from Pietro and goes to Frankie—dropping to his knees so he’s at eye level with Frankie and pulling him into a tight hug. They both melt into each other and Frankie’s crying big tears and choking back sobs that scratch at Pietro's skull like Velcro. The speedster looks away from the scene, blinking back his own curtain of sadness.
He wishes he could have that moment with Wanda but she isn’t here and he has no idea if she even knows he’s okay. Does she even know that Charles found him?
Does she—honestly Pietro doesn’t know what Wanda knows. His memory is snapping back at him and he’s remembering things in broken fragments.
Wanda used her powers on him. It doesn’t sit right with him. Not only does it not make sense but it also feels jarring for one’s mind to be wiped clean of an entire memory the way he was. How many times did she do that? How many times did she alter his mind? Is it even a conscious thing? Was she aware of what she was doing?
He thinks it has something to do with trauma. Or maybe Wanda’s powers. Or maybe a combination of both. His mind is broken. A puzzle with no image he can discern just the corner pieces glued together in a panic.
“Brother in law.” Frankie speaks to him like he’s on death row—like his next words are about to order an army to death.
“Don’t call me that.” Pietro says instinctively because it’s what he always says and he doesn’t really mean it anymore but it’s tradition.
“I’m sorry!” Pietro doesn’t expect Frankie to burst into literal tears. Kurt shoots Pietro a glare that gathers all the protectiveness a big brother has when their sibling is hurt. Pietro panics, immediately raising both his hands in a placating way towards Frankie “shit. Don’t be sorry, Frankie-man.”
“Wanda left!” Frankie buries his eyes into his elbow and Pietros heart swoops. Frankie isn’t upset at him. He’s just sad cause Wanda is gone. He can relate.
“Yeah, I’m really sorry, kid.” Pietro kneels beside Kurt and in front of Frankie who refuses to look at either of them. Pietros knees hurt and he probably shouldn’t be bending over or moving this much but he can’t just leave Frankie like this. Kurt bumps his shoulders against Pietros-constantly touching even in this space. Like little reminders that they are still here. Alive.
“She didn’t wanna go but she said she had to. I wanted to go with her. I didn’t want her to leave but-but she said I couldn’t come. S-she said where she was going I couldn’t go.” Frankie bit his lip, his fist gripping his thigh painfully and Pietro watched nervously as Kurt takes his hand instead—allowing the younger boy to grip on to his hand until his knuckles are pale and Kurt’s face grimaced but he didn’t pull away. Pietro frowns at the way Kurt allows Frankie to give him his pain. Pietros heart is beating quickly as he realizes Kurt did that without any hesitation and has probably been taking care of Frankie in that way for a while. Kurt lets other people hurt him so they can feel better. He does it with Frankie. He did it with Dolly. He’ll probably do it until he’s hurt too much to take anything else.
“I wanted to go anyway. I didn’t—I didn’t want her to feel sad all alone but-“ Frankie’s lip quivered and he sounded so heartbroken “she said I was being a big idiot and that I wasn’t needed and I should just let her be and I got really—I got really hurt because Wanda never calls me an idiot . Not like that. She never says things like that to me.” Frankie sounds so gutted and if Wanda was here usually Pietro would’ve scolded her. Maybe even made her apologies because everyone knows that Frankie is sensitive when it comes to his intelligence. A slow reader and a slow learner. Charles told Pietro that Frankie has a learning disability. Miss Margo had described it as words floating on a page. Sentences moving around and getting jumbled in his head. Wanda would never poke fun at that so he’s more than a little shocked to hear that she had used it as ammunition.
“She was being so mean a-and cruel and she broke up with me.” Frankie was holding back more tears, face flush and puffy.
Oh.
Pietros let’s out a breath. Surprised and confused not even being close to what he was feeling.
“Oh, Frankie. That’s horrible.” Kurt rubs circles on his back and Pietro shakes his head.
“That doesn’t make any sense.”
Kurt gives him a warning look “Pietro-“
“-no, no way. It doesn’t make sense. Wanda loves Frankie. It’s ridiculous and weird, I know, but it’s true. She would never just break up with him for no reason at all.”
“She really didn’t want me to go with her.” Frankie mumbles and Pietro nods.
“Maybe that’s it then. You where pushing and she thought the only way you wouldn’t follow is if she broke your heart.”
Frankie sniffles and pulls away from Kurt and Pietro, gripping the wheels on his ride. “Well it worked.” He huffs out emotionally and tugs slightly to back up and roll around the bedpost.
“Whatever Wanda said she didn’t mean it Frankie.”
He shakes his head “sounds like she meant it.”
“She’s a Maximoff. She’s very good at pushing people away.”
“Is that a Maximoff thing or a Pietro thing?” Kurt asks not unkindly and Pietro mumbles “Unfortunately I am included in that broad statement.”
“It doesn’t matter why she said it. It still hurt.” Frankie mumbles sadly “she said things that she knew would hurt my feelings and then she left.” Left him . that’s what he means. That’s what Pietro hears and the speedster is convinced it’s all wrong. That there must be something else going on. Wanda had a literal fist fight with Rebecca when she complained Frankie was reading too slow in class. It was very aggressive and very traumatizing.
“Why are you watering her plant if she broke you?” Kurt says and what he means to say is ‘Broke up with you’ but sometimes his phrasing is slightly off and usually its endearing but in this instance Frankie just seems more emotional. “She’ll be sad if she comes back and BillyTom is wilted. Just cause she hurt me doesn’t mean I want to hurt her back.” It’s such a Frankie thing to say that it kinda breaks Pietros heart a little bit.
“BillyTom?” Kurt works around the vowels and Frankie huffs “we couldn’t settle on a name for him. we where stuck on Billy and Tommy so we just mushed the two names together.”
“Very romantic.” Pietro says, maybe a bit too sarcastic because Frankie is blinking back tears again. “I thought it was...” Frankie hiccups and Kurt shoots Pietro a scathing look that makes the speedster grovel to make it up to him.
“How about we get him a new pot later? He’s getting a bit too big for his current one.” Pietro suggests quickly, but he slows down his words so they aren’t on top of each other.
Frankie sniffles and glances at the yellow pot on the window sill. He nods slowly. “Yeah…I think she’d like that.”
Okay. Perfect.
Eventually they do get to the infirmary. Kitty is laying in a proper cushioned bed and eating the juiciest grilled cheese Pietro has ever seen. Pietro superspeeds to her plate and grabs the other half of her lord cheese, shoveling the rest of it into his mouth.
“Asshole!” Kitty says at the same time as Hank shouts out a “Peter! I said no superspeed!”
“It was barely superspeed. I was just-“ his eyes connect with Erik’s and he clamps his mouth shut at the excuse.
He genuinely forgot Erik was here. In the X-Mansion. Casually. For reasons he still doesn’t really know about.
“Hank gave you very specific instructions to not use your abilities until you’re fully healed.” Charles rolls into the room, trailing behind a tall Erik who swapped his flannel for a soft sweater that looks suspiciously like Charles’.
“It’s weird that I’m not already healed. I mean it’s been like a day or whatever. How come my superhealing hasn’t fixed majority of my scrapes?”
“ Scrapes .” Charles scoffs. “Those aren’t scrapes.”
“Whatever, I just mean-“
Charles face scrunches up “- whatever ?”
Hank raises a placating hand at Charles like he was about to go into a whole rant “—Peter you were tortured . By people who specifically prepared to torture you . They used special skills to slow down your healing because they wanted pieces of you that your body wouldn’t let them have. Whatever they did, whatever they gave you to slow you down is still in your system. I couldn’t flush it out of your system. Not without making you overdose and have a seizure like-“
Like who? Pietro glanced at Kurt but he’s avoiding his eyes and Pietro's gut drops. Fuck. Did Kurt have a seizure? Is that why Hank was freaking out before?
“-it’s not an option. Okay? We just need to wait it out and monitor you. You can’t go into superspeed because it’s what it specifically targets. It’s going to make you more sick.”
“I can’t just not use my speed, Hank. That’s like asking me not to blink. It’s impossible.” Pietro hates that he had to explain that to Hank.
He understands to a degree that Hank and Pietro don’t have the same thoughts about their mutations. For years Hank did everything to hide his, to repress it. Even when that was impossible.
Pietro runs. In his core that’s what he does, that’s what he is. He can’t just flip a switch and decide not to anymore.
“It’s his decision.” Erik speaks into the room with a heavy tone. “You can’t stop him from using his gift.”
Charles looks briefly annoyed at the taller man “that’s not what we’re asking him to do.”
“Not like you could actually stop him.” Erik says his eyes connected heatedly with Charles.
“I wouldn’t try to.”
“We both know that’s not true. If it came down to it-–if you could—you’d make him stop.“ Pietro feels like he's interrupting an argument that isn’t even about him. Erik’s words bite and Charles just shakes his head “You know nothing.” The telepath says and something must unfold in their minds because Erik’s posture goes rigid and his eyes dart between the speedster and Charles.
Charles disregards his expressions and ponders over Pietro, his face smoothing into something gentle “Just try to be aware of it, Pietro. I know it’s hard for you to stop but just try to minimize how many times you use it. Can you try?”
“Yeah, I can try.” For Charles he can try. Even if he feels like a caged animal when he sits in one place for too long.
“Do not force yourself.” Erik interferes stubbornly like some weird Comedy Skit Pietro with slapstick humor. The contrasting advice gives him a migraine and he sits down on the long bed, Kurt sits beside him stiffly—his tail falling on the speedster's lap.
Pietro caresses the long flesh like it’s a cat, taking a breath as he tries to calm down. He hears the unfolding argument between Charles and Erik. He sees the stress coil up in Kurt’s back and Pietro watches his blue friends eyes dart between the two men in alertness. Pietro bumps his shoulder against Kurt, staying there, pressed against his side. A reminder.
“Out!” Hank demands pointing a furry finger towards the door. “You’re both being too loud and too annoying. Get out of my med-bay.” He says in a calmer voice.
Hank shushes the two grown men out of the room.
“Do they always argue like that?” Katherine asks into the sterile room.
“I dunno. Erik isn’t really around.”
“Deadbeat dad?” Katherine shakes her head in sympathy and Pietro sighs “no. For crying out loud.” The hoops Katherine jumps through is insane.
“They argue like a married couple.”
“They aren’t married.”
“Yeah, probably not legally.” Katherine mumbles but doesn’t say anything else. She flips through the teen magazine in her lap, looking interested in the modern fashion segments. Pietro looks over at Kurt who hasn’t said or done anything since Hank has ushered Erik and Charles out.
“You okay, baby?” Pietro asks quietly, not wanting Katherine to be her nosey self. “Why is Mister Lehnsherr here?”
“He helped us break out of the facility.” Pietro recalls like maybe that was something that went over his head.
“I know. But why?” Kurt fidgets and Pietro frowns. He doesn't want to beat around the bush “What’s wrong? Tell me what’s bothering you”
“Isn’t he a bad guy?” He asks hesitantly like he might be misremembering something that he might get in trouble for. “Yeah. He is. Kinda. But he’s Charles’ friend. So…not so bad I guess.”
“He hurt people.” Kurt states just as quietly.
“Yeah he did.” Pietro knows that Kurt is anxious, he just doesn’t know why.
“He hurt my dad.” Kurt says eventually and Pietro doesn’t know what to say to that. in all honesty Pietro hasn’t done much reflection on the whole Kurt’s dad being Raven thing. It was something he had admitted to in the cusp of sleep and amidst enemy territory. Pietro didn’t even fully connect the fact that Erik had shot Raven in the capital. Her blood was splattered on the pavement and that’s how they got the DNA for the sentinels. Charles had described the events offhandedly after Pietro asked what had happened after they parted ways.
Erik shot Raven. Erik shot Kurt’s family. It dawns on Pietro that Kurt wasn’t just confused by Erik’s presence, he was scared of the man. And he also realizes in the same breath that Hank hadn’t ushered the men away for his sake but for Kurt’s. Pietro rubs circles into Kurt’s skin “yeah, you're right. He did.”
“How can the professor be friends with someone who hurt his family?”
And it’s such a pointed question Pietro doesn’t know why he feels targeted or even why he feels defensive because he doesn’t owe Erik anything. He barely knows the man. One descent moment in a falling jet doesn’t change that.
“Charles is a forgiving man and Erik and him have a complicated relationship.”
“Would you have forgiven him if he hurt your sister?” Kurt asks tensely.
“No.” Pietro says immediately and without hesitation “but I don’t have the same relationship with Erik as Charles does.”
“Mama Margo says one must only forgive when the other person has shown true change. When they have reflected in their penance.” Kurt says and it’s the first he’s mentioned Miss Margo since they’ve been back from that dark cement room in the facility, huddled together sharing warmth. “But Erik is the same person he was when he tried to kill Raven. He’s the same man that tried to kill the president. He hasn’t changed. Why does he deserve forgiveness?”
“I-I don’t know.” Pietro says softly trying to think of any wise words that could help his conflict but nothing comes to mind. Charles says Pietro is too forgiving. He says he wants to change before Pietro forgives him for his bad behavior on the night of Wanda’s birthday. Is that what Kurt means by penance? Taking accountability? Changing? Earning that forgiveness? He doesn’t know. And he doesn’t know how to fix the part of his brain that tells him that saying “ sorry ” is enough. He doesn’t know what to do.
Katherine rustles her magazine and her voice cuts between the private bubble they perceived themselves to be in. “Maybe Charles forgave him for his own peace of mind. Holding a grudge is what turns people like Charles into people like Erik.”
Pietro thinks Katherine might be the smartest thirteen year old girl he’s ever met. “Would you forgive him? If you were in my shoes?” Kurt’s asks suddenly his accent thicker then usual, his eyebrows wrinkled in tension.
“Yes, and I was.” Katherine says, her voice distant. “I chose to seek revenge, Instead of forgiving the person that wronged my family. I made things worse, I went the wrong path and that’s how I ended up in that damn facility, losing six months of my life.” Katherine doesn’t go into detail, just drops that nugget of information and continues on reading her magazine like she didn’t say exactly what Kurt needed to hear. “Just sayin’.” She flips to the next page, crossing her legs over the other, making herself comfortable.
Pietro doesn’t know Katherine Pryde very well. But her words do not seem to come in judgment. Just a simple opinion quickly thrown out and collected by sad ears. Kurt gets lost in his thoughts and Hank comes back into the room with fresh sheets and a boy with a cast in his arm and half his face covered in scar tissue.
Three more mutant children, injured in different degrees, enter the med-bay and set up in the rows of flatbeds lining the wall.
It’s maybe three hours into mutants shuffling in and out of the room, getting checked out by Dr. Hank MCcoy and Pietro trying to distract the littler ones with badly executed jokes, before Charles rolls back into the infirmary—no Erik trailing behind him.
“How are you feeling?” Charles asks him as he settles beside his chosen bed.
“Shitty. But less shitty than before.” Pietro says truthfully. “I stopped seeing the white dots in my vision.”
Hank shoots him a look “you were seeing white dots?”
“I’m joking. It was a joke.” Pietro replies quickly and Hank glares at him even if it was just a quip.
“And your fever?” Charles places a hand on Pietro's warm forehead like Hank hasn’t been checking his vitals every thirty minutes. Pietro moves away, making a little fuss over Chatles’ fussing.
“The same as before, old man.” He got used to being hot like a furnace and also shivering like a wet dog.
He meets Katherine’s eyes from two beds away and she mouths the words Old Man with a sly grin that makes his mouth tighten into a line.
When did Pietro start calling Charles Old man?
Charles has bags under his eyes, his face pale and skinny. “When’s the last time you slept?” Pietro asks gently, looking at him with worry. Charles just laughs, looking at him disbelievingly “that’s my line, kid. You’re the one that’s been through hell.”
“Charles…”
“You don’t need to worry about me.”
“That’s my line. “ Pietro replies.
“Well—“
Katherine phases through her bed and through Kurts bed so that she’s standing in front of Charles “—he’s great. you’re great. You’ve both have had 8 hours of soundless sleep every night. Cool. Great awesome. no worries.“ she says all in one big breath and hunches over between them “Can we please talk about the fact that there’s like a terrorist casually walking in the school. Like forealsies. I was being super chill about it before but I feel like a chill in the air and that’s never a good sign.”
“The chill in the air is Bobby. One of the newer kids had poked around in Jeans room and he lost his wits for a moment.”
“How is Bobby?” Pietro perks up at the mention of Ice-Boy.
“He's dealing with everything that's happened as best as he can. He hasn’t left Jean alone since Wanda left. It would be kinda sweet if he wasn’t constantly arguing with the poor girl.”
“Still Bobby then.” Pietro mends and Katherine frowns “is Jean his girlfriend?”
“Hell no.” Charles said at the same time that Pietro says “absolutely not.”
They give each other a look.
Katherine makes a face “alright. Got it. One no would have sufficed.”
“How’s Jean?” Pietro asks instead.
“I think she’d like to see you. Might lift her spirits.” Charles says and Pietro nods eagerly and the thought of super speeding to Jean's room crosses his mind and then he back tracks. No. He needs to walk. The old fashion way.
He takes a breath and is about to lift himself from the bed. “Hey, no stop it. Don’t get up.” Charles scolds “I didn’t mean now. You’re hurt Peter. She can make the trip down here.”
“But-“
“-no buts.” Charles takes a shaky breath “she’s on her way down. She says not to force yourself to move.”
“But-“
“-seriously, Peter. You’re hurt. Let her be in your beckon call and not the other way around.” He doesn’t know how to do that.
“Okay…” Charles touches the blanket he’s been getting cozy with and frowns “is this warm enough? I can get you a different quilt.”
“No. I’m good.” Pietro can tell that Charles is going to get him a new one anyway because he can’t help but fuss over Pietro like he’s a little stray pup he found in the trash. It’s a bit annoying and also a bit comforting. He feels almost like his inner child is being healed by Charles’ insistent mothering. His own mother was not a cold mom but she wasn’t nearly as comforting to be around when one was sick. While Pietro himself can’t recall the last time he’s ever needed his mothers warm touch while he was bedridden with a fever he is aware of the handful of times Wanda has grown ill and their mother was around to help her. Pietro has a strong immune system, he rarely gets sick, she never had to worry about him but with Wanda, a light breeze would have kept her in bed for the weekend. She was gentler with her, a gentleness Pietro was never at the receiving end of because he’s never been sick before. No home made soup, or cocoon tuck ins under softer quilts. No fluffing of his pillow or stroking of his hair. He wasn’t babied. not really.
He doesn’t know what to do with Charles’ version of his mothers pruning. He doesn't think he’s worth all that fuss.
“We have more in the closet next to the laundry room. I’ll go get some.”
Pietro sighs and Katherine pipes in “I’m actually pretty cold too. Can I get a new blanket?”
Charles is already rolling away and is probably going to come back with a mountain of blankets at his disposal.
“You sure he isn’t your dad?” Katherine prods with a slick smile and Pietro throws his recently fluffed pillow at her face.
“Shut up. You’re annoying.”
“I didn’t hear a denial.”
“You need to sto—red!” He spots the red braids before he really, truly sees her.
She makes a beeline straight to Pietro, dodging Hank's worried eyes and diving between the speedsters knees in his bed and burying her face into his chest, wrapping small arms around him easily. She doesn’t cry. She doesn’t even really move. She just grips him and presses her ear against his chest, hearing his fast heartbeat. Imperceivable to her own ears. She taps her fingers twice against his spine, a question.
“Yeah, I’m okay.” The speedster says into her hair, his throat catching slightly.
She sits there, holding on to him and pressing an ear against his sternum. Counting his breaths. He knows her mind has probably been loud. That night most likely fucked her up hard in the head. He knows the voices are harder for her to mute, harder for her to quiet them. Pietros mind is quiet. Before when things got to be too much she’d go to Pietro and he’d hold her just like this until the storm in her head cleared and she could think her own thoughts again. She hasn’t had access to his mind in a month. She hasn’t had peace of mind in a month.
“I missed you too.” She doesn’t need to say it for him to know. Hank told him that Jean isn’t speaking to anyone besides Bobby. Which is a weird choice considering their previous relationship being so tense.
“Is this Wanda?” Katherine asks innocently and Pietro knows she means nothing malicious by it, an easy mistake but the mention of his sister only makes Jean stiffen and Pietros face goes equally as rigid. “No, this is Jean.” He says and Katherine Pryde just smiles and nods “right of course, Jean. I should’ve realized.” The thirteen year old says smoothly even though Pietro has mentioned Jean exactly zero times outside of the conversation with Charles just now and Katherine has no idea who Jean is. Pietro had only mentioned that Wanda was his sister.
It’s nice that Katherine tried to make up for her mix up but it's pointless because Jean can read her mind and can tell she’s lying. Pietro wonders briefly how many people see Jean and Pietro together and assume they are brother in sister. He wonders how many people in this very room are seeing their reunion and thinking they are family.
The thought doesn’t make Pietro feel bad per say but the idea that Jean is being perceived as his sister when Wanda isn’t here, not even slightly in the picture makes Pietro feel hollow. It feels almost like he’s betraying his own flesh and blood by feeling brotherly towards someone that isn’t Wanda. But it’s dumb because he didn’t feel that way when Wanda was here. He showered both telepaths with plenty of attention and joyful brotherly time. He would’ve even gone as far as saying they are family but the idea of Wanda not being here to share that affection makes him feel vulnerable and off center in a way he can’t logically explain.
It’s so dumb. He squeezes Jean tightly, feeling guilty for feeling guilty. He’s such a mess. Fuck.
Bobby enters the room not even a minute later.
“Hey icicle!” Kurt does a little wave that has no business being that adorable.
Bobby’s face goes flush and he immediately gets defensive “don’t call me that! That sounds so lame.”
“It’s a cool name.” Pietro defends.
“Better than Ice-boy, I guess.”
The other kids around the room introduce themselves and Bobby begrudgingly greets them with disinterest. “this place is getting too crowded.”
“It’s a school. It’s meant to be crowded.”
“The more the merriest.” Kurt says from his bed.
“Merrier.” Pietro Corrects gently “the phrase is the more the merrier.”
“Isn’t that what I said?” Kurt pouts and Pietro giggles, maybe a bit loopy from the drip IV Hank put on him earlier.
Bobby and Jean stay for a bit longer. Jean stays close to Kurt and Pietro, not fully feeling comfortable with the new children. That leaves Bobby to get the brunt of the kids' curious questions.
Ranging from “what are your powers?” To “can you lick your elbow?” It was all clearly getting on the boys nerves and he has a silent argument with Jean. A grand improvement to him being annoyed with her gif invading his mind.
They leave shortly after, Jean gives Kurt a quick hug and shuffled out of the room behind a thorny Bobby.
“I thought you were exaggerating but they're like each other's shadows.” Pietro says groggily.
“Yeah they are.” charkes says and a sad look crosses his eyes “Reminds me of the twins.” The Whitleys had gotten separated and eventually the one that was left behind, shielded by Bobby’s ice faded away and died without their other half. Pietro doesn’t know the details. A bit scared to ask but knowing whatever demise they met would only get imagined worse in his head.
“Did they suffer?” He asks because it’s the only thing that he can think of. He knows the Whitleys from the facility suffered. They suffered and he can’t ever change that.
“They barely lasted a week before it got bad. They were just tired. Kept talking about how they needed to go inside but that the door was locked. They went to sleep and just never woke up.” Charles fidgets with the necklace around his neck, his voice hoarse and Pietro wonders how many times Charles has seen the end of one of his students.
Pietro remembers the rooms in the mansion covered in children’s last things. Stuck in time, like a museum of the dead. A cemetery that Charles lived in, untouched and abandoned but seen constantly. Pietro wonders if Charles has touched the few things the Whitleys had collected in the few months they’ve been here. Or if they fit in their closed room, untouched. Pietro wouldn’t have the heart to move them. He barely had the heart to do it the first time with children he hardly knew.
But Pietro knew the Whitleys and now they are dead.
“Jean gave them a good memory as they went.” Hank adds in and it levitates the ache in Pietros chest. At least they didn't suffer.
They didn’t say much after that. Hank rewrapped the bandage around Pietro's leg and when the day crawled to an end Pietro laid in the med bag surrounded by other wounded children whose names he couldn’t really memorize while heavily medicated.
His eyelids droop. Heavy and tired but they have been for hours and he’s yet to sleep. He keeps looking at the dark spot in the ceiling. It looks like a butterfly.
As soon as he manages to fall asleep his broken mind takes over.
He’s in the bathroom staring at his scuffed up reflection. His hair goes past his shoulder, this is before he decides to buzz it, the roots a dark gray.
He stares at his face and grimaces at the growing bruise on his face. Any evidence of his Argument with David was shown clearly in his face. There’s a ringing in his ears that bounces between his ears, the result of his head being slammed against the wall, leaving a hole in the hallway that’s later covered up by an old family picture.
He looks beat to hell. He thinks one of his ribs might be broken but he doesn’t know. He’s in a lot of pain. Everything feels just a bit out of his control. He digs his hands into a fresh bruise on his arm. The sting brings him back into focus.
He needs to get out of his head. He needs to—He doesn’t even process the razor in his hand until he’s pressing it against his arm, his flesh slicing as he slides it down. The pain is sudden and makes his eyes grow wide with surprise. He hadn’t known he was going to do that until he did it. He stares at the blood running down his arm and—and he must have gone too deep or knocked a vein or-of something. Because it’s flushing out of him and he runs his arm under water in a panic. His breathing is rapid and he’s kinda freaking out.
Holy shit how can he be this impulsive?
He’s not suicidal . He just wanted to be in control for one second.
In his frantic state he hadn’t realized the bathroom door had opened. “Pie?” Pietro gut dropped when he makes eye contact with his little sister who is staring at the bloody razor and his cut up arm like it’s a murder scene. It might be.
“It was an accident!” Pietro says quickly and his breathing is becoming ragged. “i-I can fix it.”
Her eyes water and Pietro can’t handle her getting emotional. “Please, I’m—don’t freak out. I’m okay. I’m fine.” But it really hurts and he thinks he might be losing too much blood.
“You're hurt.” Wanda is young. Her words are wobbly and her eyes are glued to Pietros' bruised-up face.
“It’s alright. I’m okay I promise.” Pietro says as he wraps a hand towel around his arm hoping to stop the bleeding. It was one of his mom's nice towels. He hopes she’s not too upset about the stain.
“You promise. You’re not hurt?” Wanda frowns her face scrunching up. Pietro nods quickly “Yes, I’m okay. I’m not hurt.” It was a lie and there’s no way she’s buying it.
“Pinky promise.” Her eyes meet his and she extends her little finger. Her eyes shift strangely but Pietro doesn’t have time to process that as he’s hunching over to curl his pinky finger around hers.
“I pinky promise I’m not hurt.”
Wanda shakes her head and there’s no mistaking the shade of red in her eyes “you pinky promise you will never be hurt.“
Pietro blinks and something shifts in the room, or maybe within him. The ringing in his ear is gone. Calm. “I pinky promise I will never be hurt again.”
“And you’ll never try to hurt yourself.”
“Yeah okay.”
“Say it. Say you won’t hurt yourself pie.”
Pietro can’t miss the sudden buzzing spreading around his body. Like his very DNA bubbling and readjusting within himself. “I won’t ever try to hurt myself.”
And he doesn’t even know why he did it to begin with. He feels a lot better. He looks at himself in the mirror and watches with fascination as the bruises around his face fade away. The cuts in his cheek blend into his flesh leaving behind none of the evidence.
Huh.
When he removes the towel around his wrist it reveals unblemished skin.
The towel was covered with blood. Pietro's eyes widen and he looks at Wanda with concern “Are you hurt? Where did this blood come from?” He bends down to inspect his little sister, worry consuming him.
“No it was yours.”
“Mine?” Pietro doesn’t even know why he went to the bathroom.
“You where hurt. But you healed.” Wanda blinks owlishly, confused but looking relieved.
“Yeah…” Pietro tries to grasp at the reasoning but comes up empty “I always do.”
Does he?
Wanda turns her head to the side like a confused pup “you have?”
“Yeah. I heal fast. I always have.” Pietro says more confidently and just as he says it his mind supplies him with dozens of examples of when he’s healed quickly.
“Have you?” Wanda looks unconvinced as she stares at the bloody towel.
“Yeah. Super healing.” Yeah that makes sense.
“Okay.” She says with a slow nod and it felt like a slight shift to the right.
“Okay.” Pietro smiles, tossing the towel in the trash and his eyes land on the bloody razor; confused and startled but he picks it up. His fingers feel tingly and weird when he does so he immediately drops it in the trash, feeling weirdly grossed out.
Pietro wakes up in a sweat his mind racing from the rush of adrenaline. His breath comes out in chimney puffs and he’s looking the med-bay in alarm.
That couldn’t have happened. No. Pietro pushes his sweaty hair out of his face, trying to breath. This is all wrong. This. is. Wrong.
Pietro abruptly stands up from his bed, his bones aching and his stomach clenching painfully. A memory flashes through his head as he’s walking out of the med-bay, leaving behind the mutant kids sleeping soundlessly.
The memory is of a beat up Pietro, bleeding and crumbling on the floor, laying there for hours. His mom patches him up after. Blue bandaids and rubbing alcohol that stings. His mom does. No super healing.
Pietro takes a step down the mansion hall, refusing to slow down as he makes his way.
Another memory resurfaces in his mind. A memory of Pietro pressing an ice-pack on his face and a white cast on his arm. Wanda had drawn a caricature version of him running. She called him Mr.Quick. How could he have forgotten Mr.Quick? He wore that cast for two months. How could he forget that?
Pietro is outside Charles' door panting, catching his breath— when he remembers the bullets currently lodged in his shoulder. He doesn’t remember being shot. But he apparently doesn’t remember much.
He knocks on the professor's door maybe a bit too frantically for how late it is.
He knocks again his face and voice maybe just a bit desperate and scared “Charles, I need you.”
It might’ve been the tone of his voice—how young and scared he sounded probably but Charles opened the door quickly, his face wide and pale, looking equally as panicked as Pietro felt. “Peter? Son, what’s the matter? Are you hurt?” Charles sounds so worried.
“Charles what’s wrong?” Erik’s voice came from inside Charles' bed chambers.
Oh.
Erik was sleeping in Charles' room. Pietro's face paled at the unexpected company and he swallows thickly and takes a step back “um-“ fuck.
What was he thinking? Waking up the professor at this hour. He’s so annoying. What was his plan? Wake up the professor, tell him that Wanda was messing with his head and hope he can fix it?
Is he serious? Why would he even think that would work? He has a nightmare and the first thing he does is go to Charles? Like a child waking up in the middle of the night to tell their parents they threw up. But Charles isn’t his parent.
This is so not Charles' problem. Pietro should deal with his own family stuff and leave Charles out of it.
Pietro suddenly doesn’t feel older at all. He feels young, small, he feels like that scared fifteen year old boy staring at his reflection in the mirror, drowning in doubt. He wants to feel in control of something.
“Peter. What is it?” Charles’ voice cuts through his thoughts.
“It’s nothing. I-I’m sorry for waking you. Go back to sleep.” Pietro can’t help it when his eyes dart to Erik currently with a bed head and wearing a satin pajama set like he definitely raided the professors closet. He looks pampered and kept and Pietro doesn’t know how he feels about it. He feels all over the place and this whole thing was impulsive.
Charles rolled further into the hallways “Peter.” He says firmly his voice calm yet assertive “you wouldn’t risk furthering your injuries coming all the way here, just to tell me nothing. What’s wrong?” He pushes.
Pietro looks into the professor's honest eyes and he for the first time since he’s arrived at the mansion, scared and with his baby sister, he asks—“Can you help me find my mom?”
And without pause and to the surprise of absolutely no one he says “of course.”
Charles closes the door behind him, leaving Erik Lehnsherr in his room and taking the speedster's hand gently.
A path given.
A path chosen.
Charles picks Pietro without hesitation.
“Let’s go to Cerebro.”
And Pietro finally feels like he has some form of control.
The ringing in his ear stops.
Notes:
I’ve been playing with the idea of Wanda’s powers. I was doing a mix of comic book powers and the powers she has in the marvel cinematic universe. I liked the idea that Wanda had been using her powers unknowingly most of her life. She goes into almost a trance like state where she doesn’t even fully remember using them on her brother.
As you read the story you realize how inconsistent Pietros healing is and his patchy memory is not only a response to trauma but also the result of Wanda changing his memories.
In the original version of his memories he doesn’t have super healing but not only does Wanda use her powers to make him believe he has super healing, she makes it so that he’s always had it.
Basically unknowingly rewriting history.*Sigh* The things we do for family.
Like always...you will see typos. Thank you for reading. :))
Chapter 24: The Ones We Miss
Summary:
“—you shouldn’t have enlisted.” Charles says suddenly and it felt like something he was trying to hold back. Like it was bursting out of him all at once in his very clean kitchen.
Pietro looked between the two men—feeling like the odd one out. Like he’s looking into ten years worth of history and taking it out of context. Except how can someone misinterpret what Alex responds with?
“I couldn’t hide away in this school, Charles. I wasn’t just gonna let him go at it alone. He was like my fucking brother.”
“Banshee was forced to serve. You did it voluntarily knowing what it would do to us to lose you.”
“I didn’t die, Charles. I’m right fucking here.”
“You never came back.” Charles snaps and Pietro should not be here for this conversation. This is something that’s clearly been festering for years, an unspoken tension they are now just addressing over hot chocolate that is getting a bit too lukewarm for his taste.
“You said you’d come back and you never did. Not even a call or a letter. Nothing.” Charles seemed to get emotional.
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Four different "I miss you's.", a midnight hot chocolate session, and a healthy amount of daddy issues.
Notes:
I actually have no idea how old Nina was in 'X-Men Apocalypse' but Erik has to relocate and procreate asap. Charles is unfortunately collateral. We get a bit more of Alex's content in this chapter and not enough Erik. Sorry. and a rare Banshee mention.
For my American readers consider this early update a prize for sticking it out with your family during Turkey day.
Also, I'm not a spy or affiliated with any government conspiracies--let's use our imagination nonetheless.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro Maximoff has only been inside cerebro a handful of times and never while Charles is using it. He’s seen Dr. Hank McCoy fiddle with the headpiece and tinker with the boards but never to the extent of any consideration. He doesn’t truly understand how the whole thing worked really. Hank explained it as an amplifier. Charles explains it as a tuner. Both are true.
It’s how Charles locates the mutants to enroll in the school. Pietro doesn’t know how far it really goes but he knows that Camryn, a mutant child currently enrolled in the school, was from Florida. Pietro and Charles had taken a weekend to drive down to the Miami beaches to find the curly haired girl. Pietro told the professor he could’ve easily used his super speed to get her but he was adamant that they drive. Over a thousand miles. Cerebro found a mutant from over a thousand miles away.
Pietro knows Cerebro can go further than that. He knows exactly how powerful it can be. Hank built it so of course it’s impressive.
Pietro knew that he could’ve asked Charles ages ago to find his mother. Before Wanda left. Before Pietro was taken. The moment he realized David was back in the picture he could’ve convinced Charles with little effort to help him find her. He hadn’t though.
At first it was because he didn’t know How to ask. They had just met and Pietro didn’t really know or trust Charles like that and even after he did eventually gain some trust in Charles he hadn’t known how to ask. When he found out that his mom, Magda Maximoff, had been with his stepfather David Strucker he almost told Charles. But then he would’ve had to explain why he waited that long to ask to begin with. And he would have had to explain why the idea of David being around his mom scared him. He would have to tell Charles about David. To some extent Pietro would have to be vulnerable with the man and Pietro is never any good with that.
In the end, Charles didn’t ask any questions. So Pietro felt pretty stupid for postponing his request to the professor because the man hadn’t even hesitated to help him.
He hadn’t asked any questions. He simply knew that Pietro wanted to find his mom and that was a good enough reason for the older man to help him.
Pietro felt sick. He could’ve asked . He could’ve avoided all of this if he had just asked the man.
Charles leads him to the doors of Cerebro, fully incorporated into the building's blueprints. The metal doors opened in an extravagant way that Pietro was used to seeing from this side of the room but this time he’s going inside with the professor. The speedster holds on to the handles of Charles' wheelchair. Not to push the fully competent man but so that Pietro could brace himself as he walks, still incapable of walking by himself with his broken body.
The sphere room is a neutral temperature, the blue lights around the room being a nice addition since the last time he’s seen it.
“Hank was tinkering with the design.” Charles explains and smiles to himself “he’s grown a fondness for blue.”
He can’t really think about the complexities of Hank's relationship with Kurt Wagner. Or how Hank views his own mutation. Or the doctor's feelings towards Raven. Pietro would gladly analyze Hank McCoys choices at a later time where his mind isn’t still reeling from a memory he didn’t recall. He really truly cannot focus on anything besides his sister and his mother.
But blue was a nice choice.
Charles stops in the center and puts on the tangly metal helmet he’s seen Hank working on. It’s less chunkier than the last version of the helmet. Charles fiddles wIt’s the knobs and buttons and Pietro just watches him attentively—not knowing how to help but refusing to leave his side regardless.
“Do you have any idea how far away she might be?”
“No.” Pietro responds uneasily. Charles just nods and continues fiddling with the knobs.
The machine is on. The light flickering every so often and Charles’ eyebrows furrow and he grips his wheelchair arm rest firmly. An hour passes.
Pietros feet hurt from standing for so long but he doesn’t move.
Another hour passes and the professor turns a red knob, the lights flicker. “Peter, perhaps you should get some rest, you don’t need to be here while I look for her.”
“Yes I do.”
“Son, you’re shaking.” And Charles hands touch his arms which had been shivering from his fever that he’s yet to runoff. “You should be resting. I can handle this on my own.”
“I can’t sleep.” Pietro admits quietly. “I just have nightmares.” And Charles looks—Pietro can name the expression that overtakes Charles face.
“I’m sorry. I wish—I wish I can alleviate your pain.” He looks almost heartbroken. Pietro knows it’s because he can’t help him with his nightmares at all. Pietro is probably the only person in the world he can’t help rest because he can’t go inside his head. Pietro Maximoff, has an impenetrable mind but it’s broken. Fractured in ways the professor can’t mend. Maybe if he was Bobby or Jean or Kurt. Maybe if his mind could be reached with his powers he could help him the way Pietro knows he helps the others when they have nightmares.
The way Pietro knows Charles has helped Wanda.
But he can’t. Pietro is the only mind he can’t reach and the only one he wants desperately to help.
“I know. It’s okay. But I need to be here.”
Another hour passes and Pietro is shaking so much he can’t stand anymore. “It’s time to go.”
“But-“
“-Peter. You are not well. I’m not giving up. We can try again tomorrow. You need to rest.”
Charles says like he’s one of the younger students begging to stay up past curfew to watch a movie. It makes pietros head hurt and he doesn’t understand how Charles can be so calm about all of this.
He hasn’t asked him why he wants him to find his mom. He hasn’t demanded to know why he dragged him out of bed in the middle of his alone time with Erik to find his mother who he presumably hasnt seen in months.
“Aren’t you going to ask me any questions?” Pietro says instead, feeling the nerves grab him by the throat.
Charles gives him a look that makes the speedster start to babble. “If I were you I would ask questions. I’d ask so many questions.” Pietro pushes out quickly feeling the nervous edge slip into his voice.
“Anyone else would be asking questions in your shoes. I mean I woke you up in the middle of night. Demanding you to find my mom. You must have questions. You can ask what you wanna ask Charles.” Pietros tries and fails to be nonchalant. He tries to say it like it’s no big deal. Like the idea of telling Charles about his mom, what she did, about David and what he did, about what his sister did too—doesn’t make him literally go into a panic mode.
Charles just looks at Pietro with kind knowing eyes and Pietro can’t stand his silent support. “I learned that if I want to learn things about you I shouldn’t pry. You’ll tell me when you’re ready to tell me.”
“That’s dumb. If you want to know—“
“—Is there anything you wanted to tell me Peter?” Charles looks him in the eye, open to listen, prepared for anything he might want to say and Pietro isn’t prepared for that.
Pietro blinks, once, twice, he looks away and then looks back at the professor. Fuck.
“I don’t-“ Pietro clamps his mouth shut. He sucks. Pietro Django Maximoff is a fucking coward. He makes all this fuss and kicks his feet and then nothing . He can’t even talk to Charles who’s just trying to help him. He can’t even look at him. The mere suggestion of being vulnerable with him makes him go into a spiral.
Why is everything so fucking complicated with Pietro?
“-I don’t know how.” Pietro says instead and Charles isn’t a saint. Pietro knows he isn’t perfect. He’s seen him be not perfect. He’s seen the professor stumble and screw up. Pietro knows Charles isn’t perfect but the professor makes it easy to forget that. Especially when he smiles as kindly as he does at Pietro in that moment, like Pietro isn’t being completely irrational. “It’s alright, son. You can take as long as you need. You tell me when you’re ready.”
Son.
Pietro lets out a shaky breath “what if I’m never ready?”
“That’s okay too.” Charles says easily and Pietro knows Charles isn’t perfect. He’s seen it. Charles doesn’t always say the right thing. But when he does say the exact right thing it feels like he’s a fucking Angel. Pietro doesn’t want to cry.
He swears he didn’t use to be this emotional. He kinda hates how much of a cry baby he’s becoming but he’s been going through it and Charles is so understanding about everything that it makes Pietro want to cry.
“I’m so tired.” Pietro says “but I don’t think I can sleep.”
“I’ve been there.”
“What do you do when it gets like that.”
“I drink myself stupid.” Charles says “but I’m trying not to do that anymore.”
“Right,” Pietro laughs wetly, feeling the burst of laughter pop out of him like fresh water. “Not like I can get drunk anyway. Fast metabolism.”
“That’s probably for the best.” Charles says patting his arms as they begin to walk out of the room. Away from cerebro. “How about a hot chocolate instead?”
And they go to the kitchen and the professor brews them the best cup of hot chocolate He’s ever tasted. Or maybe Pietro truly is that tired that he thinks anything is good.
They sit in comfortable silence. Pietro is about halfway through his beverage, taking small and slow sips—when someone walks through the kitchen door.
“Alex? You’re up late.” Charles questions his old student like he isn’t currently also up late as fuck.
“You’re one to talk.” Alex has half his hair up in a ponytail that makes him look like a surfer boy from a movie or something. Pietro pushes his own hair away from his face, behind his ear in a flustered motion.
“Hey Peter.” Alex Summers does a little finger wave that reminds him so much of Kurt that the speedster is momentarily thrown. “Hi Alex.” He says back and stupidly waves back.
“You guys hiding the liquor?” Alex eyes the matching mugs that Charles and Pietro have. A gift from Kurt.
“No alcohol.” Charles says like it’s a reminder to himself.
“It’s hot chocolate.” Pietro says with a dopey smile.
“Nice! Can you make me some too, prof?” Alex rubs his hands together like he’s getting ready for a treat. .
“You have hands and feet make it yourself.” Charles says blandly, and it’s such a Charles response. Although Charles did make a Pietro's hot chocolate and the speedster didn’t even ask.
“Lame.” Alex says flippantly but pulls out a mug from the cabinet, already knowing where it was, and it’s the Smurf mug Wanda bought Hank as a gift a few months back.
Wanda had been relentless about buying it. She specifically wanted a Smurf mug to give to the man and Pietro never understood the insistence but scoured multiple stores to find the perfect one that she found acceptable. Pietro hasn’t seen Hank use any other mug besides that one. A unspoken rule that no one else is allowed to drink from it.
“That’s Hanks mug.” Pietro says and Alex looks down at the mug with big eyes and a smirk grows on his face that makes Pietro's own face stretch into a loopy smile. Alex is a very beautiful man.
“Oh, yeah. Beast bought it?” Alex sounds like he’s about to tease the fuck out of Hank.
“It was a gift.” Charles says and Pietro hadn’t realized how tense the professor had gotten when Alex grabbed the mug.
“My sister bought it for him. Says it reminds her of him.” Pietro fills the space because clearly Charles wasn’t going to explain.
“Oh.” Alex’ smile fades away slowly but not completely “that’s sweet of her.” He says and glances at Charles before putting the mug back and grabbing a different one. A ceramic brown one that has little cats on it. “This one hers?”
“That’s Miss Margo’s.” Pietro says and feels almost bad when the older man puts the mug back as well and grabs a plastic Valentine themed cup instead. He almost told him that cup belonged to one of the Whitley twins but didn’t want to make him feel worse when he had no intention of guilting him to begin with.
“Gross. Who drinks oat milk?”
“It’s good for the digestive system.” Charles and Pietro say at the same time and the speedsters face and Charles face go a matching red. Fuck. How many times did he hear Charles say that? Enough times to memorize it apparently. Enough to internalize the knee jerking response to the question.
“Alright then.” Alex says placatingly, looking at them oddly and he slowly puts the milk back in the fridge. Taking out 2% and pouring some in the cup.
“How olds your sister?”
“Nine.” Pietro says and then realizes that’s wrong “no, sorry. I mean ten. She’s ten now.” She’s ten . Holy shit she’s getting old so quick.
“My younger brother Scott is ten. Grew six inches during my last deployment. My seven year old sister practically grew a whole foot.”
“How long did you serve?” Pietro asks conversationally but quickly sees the way Charles seems to tense up at the question.
“On and off for the last ten years. I enlisted during Vietnam. Re-enlisted two years later when my sister was born. To help pay for her treatments. Did you serve?”
Pietro laughs. Only because he couldn’t imagine ever willingly joining the military. Drafted or otherwise. “Nah, im pretty anti-war.” And then adds “I think I’d actually shit my pants if someone voluntarily gave me a weapon.” Not that he hasn’t held a gun before. He has. The memory of unarming Bobby Drake's parents when they pulled a gun on him is still pretty fresh in his mind. But he didn’t hold it for very long. His fingers burned and the idea of accidentally hurting someone with a gun makes his stomach turn.
He regrets the part where he says he’s shit his pants. That’s not a very attractive thing to say to a cute boy. He feels a bit better though because Alex laughs at his self deprecating joke. “I was like that in my first deployment.” Alex says into his mug looking a bit older than he actually is.
“Because you were a child.” Charles says stiffly with an edge to his voice. Pietro turns to the man with big eyes, confused and surprised by his tone shift.
“I was grown. I knew what I signed up for-“
“—you shouldn’t have enlisted.” Charles says suddenly and it felt like something he was trying to hold back. Like it was bursting out of him all at once in his very clean kitchen.
Pietro looked between the two men—feeling like the odd one out. Like he’s looking into ten years worth of history and taking it out of context. Except how can someone misinterpret what Alex responds with?
“I couldn’t hide away in this school, Charles. I wasn’t just gonna let him go at it alone. He was like my fucking brother.”
“Banshee was forced to serve. You did it voluntarily knowing what it would do to us to lose you.”
“I didn’t die, Charles. I’m right fucking here.”
“You never came back.” Charles snaps and Pietro should not be here for this conversation. This is something that’s clearly been festering for years, an unspoken tension they are now just addressing over hot chocolate that is getting a bit too lukewarm for his taste.
“You said you’d come back and you never did. Not even a call or a letter. Nothing.” Charles seemed to get emotional.
Shit.
When Pietro looks at Alex Summers he seems to be surprised by Charles' emotional response. “After how we left things…” Alex put his cup on the table slowly approaching the professor like he might lash out. “I thought maybe it would be better if I stayed away. I thought—I was scared that you wouldn’t look at me the same way…after the war. After everything I had to do. The war made me violent. Dangerous. I became everything you said I wasn’t. I hurt people and I couldn’t wash that red off my hands and I knew—-I knew that me coming back here after all that…” Alex let’s put a breath. “I didn’t want to see the disappointment in your face.”
And Pietro, for the first time, wonders if Alex saw something in Charles that was above ‘just his teacher.’
He knew the original x-men class was close. Like a family. They didn’t have each other for very long and Hank doesn’t really talk about it. The snippets he gets from Charles only amplifies that thought. They had been a family. Probably the most stable family Alex had. The most stable family any of them had. A homemade one that burned and toasted at the edges. Cut up into portable slices.
Charles must realize that Pietro is a bit too invested in the drama that’s unfolding and decides to cut his live telenovela short by speaking to Alex telepathically. Alex goes through different stages of emotions and Charles’ face shifts and Pietro feels left out again. A frown grows on his face.
Charles Xavier is communicating with Alex in his favorite way. The only way he can fully express his words and feelings accurately to the other man. Pietro is usually relieved that Charles can’t read his mind but in this instance—seeing how casually and calmly Charles communicates with Alex it makes something curl in Pietros mind that the speedster doesn’t fully understand.
How can he hate the idea of being read like a book but also crave desperately to be understood in the way that Alex is being understood by Charles? Why is he suddenly hearing the little creature in his ear telling him that Charles will never fully know him if he can’t read his mind?
Charles can’t be himself with Pietro because the speedster has a wall in his brain. Pushing him away and so he’ll never fully have the professor's attention at his peak. But Alex doesn’t have a wall. Alex is an open book and Pietro suddenly very desperately wants to be read.
Very abruptly Pietro wants Alex to close the book completely. He wants Alex to push Charles away—to close himself off from the professor. In an almost dramatic misstep, the giddy crush he felt for the older boy turns into bubbling jealousy that makes Pietro's butterflies turn into elephant steps in his gut.
Oh no. Pietros kinda wants to throw up.
Fuck. This is so unfair. Why can’t Pietro just have a crush and not make it complicated? Why does it feel like he’s suddenly competing with the older boy? and why is he losing?
“I missed you.” Charles says and Pietro isn’t jealous. He decides that he is not going to be jealous.
It’s immature,
And he’s not immature.
Alex let’s out a wet laugh and is blinking up at the sky looking far too wrecked by the words for it to mean nothing. “Missed you too professor.”
They hug, a quick—bro-hug type contact that makes pietro think Alex isn’t a fan of physical affection.
Pietro fucking loves physical affection but he’s also touch starved half the time so that might not be an accurate depiction. But Charles loves giving hugs. Or at least he usually gives them away freely.
At least Pietro can receive those hugs. He’ll be better at Alex in that department at least.
No—that’s not what he’s supposed to take away from that. For crying out loud.
The two nod at each other when they pull away. There’s clearly still something Unsaid but the words levitated some of the hurt away. Pietro finishes his chocolate with a dramatic slap of his mug to the table and a big dramatic smile. “You where right that hot chocolate hit the spot. I’m exhausted.” And Pietro isn’t proud about it but he does use his injuries as an excuse to pull the two away from each other.
Actually Pietro feels pretty shitty about it. He knows Charles and Alex haven’t seen each other in a long while. He hates to pull them away from having a nice moment except—-apparently he doesn’t hate it and he’d rather they not.
Like at all.
Pietro is such an asshole.
They are back at the med-bay, Kurt has moved positions since he last saw him, a leg is hitched up and his arm is covering his face while the other is clutching a pillow like it’s a person. Soft snores curl out from the blue boys lips and Pietro can calm down to the sound of his breathing. In out. In out. In out.
“We try finding her again tomorrow?” Pietro turns to charles who has been silent the whole walk back to the beds.
“Yes of course.” Charles says and Pietro sits on his bed and Charles helps him lay back down. Pietro winces as the fabric ruffles awkwardly against one of his wounds.
Pietro lays down fully and closes his eyes.
“Peter?” Charles says quietly, cautious of the children sleeping arounf them. Pietro opens one eye—looking directly at the professor “Charles?” He asks quietly back.
He makes meaningful eye contact and Pietros Can see his face go through a shift in expression. He does it in superspeed without realizing and immediately stops when he realizes he’s analyzing his expressions. “What’s up?” Ever impatient.
“I just wanted to say that I’m happy you came to me for help. And I’m-“ Charles’ words get caught in his throat “-im really happy to have you back home. I missed you so much.”
And the ‘I miss you.” Sounds different now with the context of Alex’ words. Alex didn’t come back home. Pietro did.
“I didn’t really have a choice, did i? Kinda broke me out, remember?” Pietro jokes and Charles gives him an easy smile but shakes his head.
“And the The first time.” Charles starts “when you left. After I read your file. You came back then too. I don’t think I said it then but I was—I was really happy that you came back. Relieved. I messed up big time and I thought you wouldn’t come back. That I had pushed you too far.”
Pietros chest hurts at that confession and the speedster thinks back to that day. Overwhelmed and frustrated and he was so emotional but he knew even back then that he was going to come back. He was going to visit his mom, not stay with her. The thought of leaving the x-mansion forever hadn’t even crossed his mind. Not seriously.
Pietro almost responds with “I could never leave Wanda.” A generic answer that is true but not really what he wants to say.
“I like it here.” Pietro says honestly. “This is my home.” He closes his eyes as he admits it, too intimidated to look at the professor's honest eyes and not wanting it to be a big deal.
Charles doesn’t say anything right away and Pietro squeezes his eyes tighter. “It only started being a home when you and Wanda got here.”
“Wanda and you.” Pietro corrects and can feel his face go warm. He really is letting Charles influence him too much.
“Yeah exactly that.” Pietro can hear the smile on his face and Charles squeezes his arm before pulling away “rest easy, son. I’ll see you in the morning.”
Son .
Pietros face grows sickly warm but he doesn’t hate it.
“Good night Peter.”
“Good night d-“ fuck “-dude.”
The second he knows Charles is gone Pietro opens his eyes wide and stares at that stupid butterfly in the ceiling. What the fuck was he about to say?
He almost called Charles; dad.
And it felt so fucking natural that it actually scares the fuck out of Pietro. He can’t do that. What the hell was he thinking? He can’t call Charles dad. Because he isn’t his dad and also because Pietro can’t call anyone dad. Not again. Not ever again. He swore that he wouldn’t.
How could he fucking forget that. Why is Charles making it so easy to forget why he doesn’t? Fucking shit.
Charles wasn’t saying all that nice stuff because he wants to be Pietro's dad . What the hell was he thinking? Charles was just being Charles. He was being kind. He was clearing the air and trying to say something nice to Pietro, to tell him he has a home here. Not that he has a family.
“You’re such an idiot.” Pietro says outloud to himself.
“Yeah you are, now will you shut up I’m trynna sleep.” Katherine’s blurts out in annoyance from three beds down. Pietro flinches at her sudden voice but settles into bed quickly.
Pietro sighs “I’m going through a crisis.”
“Do it quieter, please.”
At least she said please.
Pietro doesn’t get any decent sleep that night. Or the next day either. but pietro thinks that might be because Charles and Pietros second attempt at finding his mom is unsuccessful yet again.
They try again. Again again again. For days. Hank switches out his stitches and his nightmares only get worse.
Days pass and nights come with heavy pain and fatigue. Pietro starts up on Hanks meal replacements again. Less calorie counts this time because Hank says he can’t just jump right back into it or his body will reject it. This is proven right when Pietro chugs it in one sitting and then hurls it out in the next.
Pietro dreams of the dark room and the cold and Kurt begging him to stay strong for a little longer. To hold on for just a bit more. When he doesn’t dream about the dark room he dreams about the kibble room. The other mutants, picking out their features like clothes they’d like to try on.
On particularly tough days Pietro can’t look himself in the mirror, avoiding looking at reflections in case he sees a glimpse of his broken body. He feels envious of Alex's luscious hair, missing his own fried locks—hating the way his forehead looks ginormous without his hair to cover it.
“You have a preportional forehead.” Kurt reassures when he tells him of his sudden insecurity.
“Proportional.” Pietro corrects easily, rubbing on the back of his head, no longer able to tug on his hair when he’s anxious.
“Is that not what I said?” Kurt pouts, his little fangs popping out. Kurt is so unintentionally cute it makes Pietro want to kiss him right on his little fang. But he wouldn’t do that cause that would be weird. Instead he squeezed Kurt’s hand and kissed the back of it instead. A quick affectionate peck.
“It was close. You said pre- not pro. Proportional not preportional.”
“Oh. Okay.“ he said breathlessly and Pietro smiles brightly at him ”You’re proportional. I would know. I’m not proportional at all.” Kurt says wiggling his three fingers still in pietros grasp and Pietro catches the self deprecating jab too late. Kurt continues to speak before Pietro could refute that statement.
“Our hair will grow.” Our . Because his hair is short too. Growing at a faster pace than pietros which makes zero sense to the speedster and he’s totally not jealous. He’s just upset.
He knows that Kurt is upset about it too. It’s just hair but Kurt had told him that “mama Margo liked to braid my hair. Now it’s not even long enough to brush.” It was something they had bonded over. Doing each others hair. It was how they had showed love. It was how Miss Margo showed affection towards the children. An old profession she often poked her fingers back into when the right hair volunteered to be the victim of the blind woman.
“I had a buzz once. It took ages to grow out again.”
“Why’d you cut it back then?”
David had pulled his hair out on the side of his head and was so obvious and impossible to cover up that Pietro had to shave his head so he didn’t look crazy. “I didn’t want David to be able to use it against me.” It became a liability and so he cut it. Growing it out slowly afterwards and by the time It was as long as it was David had been long gone.
“Peter can I say something?” Kurt says.
“Go for it.”
“If I ever see your stepdad im going to do some bad things to him.” And the non specificity of it makes Pietro laugh.
“You don’t gotta worry about it. I’m pretty sure the bastards dead or somethin’,”
Kurt’s eyes widen and he turns to the speedster who just shrugs “I thought he was in prison?”
“I don’t know anything for sure.”
“But…?”
“I think my mom might have killed him.” It’s the first time hes said it out loud. It feels like a weight off his shoulders.
Kurt looks him in the eye, maybe trying to figure out if Pietro is lying to him. He must see something in pietros face that makes him certain. “Good.”
That surprises Pietro “you’re not gonna say something about murder being bad? Or somethin?”
Kurt nods, fitting himself beside Pietro like he’s a chair and not like he’s the son of a murderer. “Murder is bad.” He agrees simply “but I didn’t kill him.” He says flippantly.
It’s a very pragmatic response and it sounds so much like what miss Margo would’ve said that Pietro just smiles at his blue friend. “You surprise me all the time, you know that?” Pietro pokes his cheek watching as it turns a pretty purple from his compliment.
No matter how many compliments Pietro showers Kurt with, his friend always gets all shy.
“Kurt?” Franki looks past Pietros shoulder to look at his brother, standing near the phone.
“Yeah?” Kurt turns in the couch towards the younger boy.
“It’s for you.” Frankie has the phone to his ear looking skeptical. “It’s miss Jill.”
Kurt’s face goes slack and he stands up from the couch without further delay, he teleports the extra two yards to the phone, even though Hank bellowed at him earlier in the day to stop using his ability while he’s healing.
“Kurt You okay?” Pietro questions from the couch, feeling Kurt’s absence beside him. Suddenly cold.
Kurt just gives him an anxious look and takes the phone from Frankie with a thankful wobbly smile.
Frankie walks away—rolls away— from him, like that’s a normal response to having someone call him. He doesn’t linger. Frankie is gone in a second. Pietro just stares at Kurt's tail as it sways slightly behind him. “Hello?” The teleporter responds, hesitant towards the person behind the phone. Kurt lets out a breath, heavy and deep in his diaphragm. Pietro can't look away as the muscles on his back untense and relax into his clothes like water. He hadn’t even realized his stuff Lirt had been until he wasn’t. “Yeah, i-I’m okay. Just a bit banged up.”
Who is he talking to?
“No I didn’t know that.” Kurt fiddles with the cord attached to the phone anxiously. “I promise. Yes.”
A long pause and Kurt is blinking back tears, that makes Pietro get up from the couch. Who the fuck is he talking to?
He doesn’t interrupt but he does approach the phone cautiously, allowing Kurt to see him as he walks over.
“When can I see you?” Kurt asks quietly, sounding so sad that Pietro fighting back the urge to press the hang up button so he can stop talking to whoever is making him act like this.
“Why not?” Kurt can’t hide the hurt in his voice and Pietro just watched as his face crumbles and turns angry. “you always say that. You never come. Lügner!” He calls them a liar . A strong German word that makes his accent sound thicker when he goes back to English.
“It’s never you. You don’t—why can’t you just—“ Kurt snaps his mouth shut, holding something back. His face drops, dissatisfied and he nods to himself looking a bit tired. “yeah…okay.” Kurt hunches over making himself small. “I just … Ich vermisse dich.” He says quietly.
He misses them.
Kurt hang up the phone and his tail drops to the floor, drained. Something about the way he was speaking to the person on the phone…the way he got almost excited to hear from them, eager and hopeful, reminds Pietro of when he waited by the phone to hear from his mom the whole week leading to Wanda’s birthday. Hoping she’d call.
Kurt lays his forehead flat on the wall, taking care to take deep breaths to calm the energy coming off of him, it looks like he grounded himself and is taking a time out. Pietro leans against the very same wall. Pressing his forehead against the cool expensive tile. He stands in self solitude beside his friend, matching his breaths. After a few minutes Pietro twists his neck, head still pressed against the wall, to look at his friend. “You doing okay, blue?”
Kurt pressed his knuckles against the wall, pushing them forward to the point that his knuckles turned a pale blue. “I thought he’d be more concerned.”
“Your dad?” Pietro guesses, going out on a limb. He must’ve guessed right because Kurt just squeezes his eyes closed like the thought makes him want to cry.
“He doesn’t like me.”
“Impossible.” Pietro can’t imagine anybody hating Kurt.
“He…doesn’t want to be my father. He saved me and then he left me. He…he loves me but he doesn’t like me.“ and Kurt sounds so convinced and so heartbroken.
“That can’t possibly be true.” Pietro knows what it feels like to not be wanted by a supposed father figure. He remembers his moms boyfriends who he clung to and was disregarded like king on clothes. Pietro was a bad kid though. He was a lot to handle. He was loud and obnoxious and he caused trouble. Kurt isn’t like that. Kurt is perfect.
If anyone deserves to be loved by a father it’s Kurt Fucking Wagner. If anyone deserves to be liked, to be known by his family it’s the incredible nightcrawler. It doesn’t sit right with Pietro. It's the most wrong thing he’s ever heard.
Kurt is perfect and he deserves perfect. He doesn’t deserve to feel like he has to hold back words, he shouldn’t have to utter the words ‘I miss you.’ Because he shouldn’t be missing anyone.
“Kurt?”
Kurt makes a noise that sounds like a confirmation that he’s listening. Pietro takes it.
“If I ever see your dad i'm going to do some bad things to him.” Pietro recites Kurt proclamation before, pressing his palm against the fist that Kurt has pressed against the wall.
Kurt just laughs and when he removes his forehead away from the wall there is a circular spot on his head from lack of blood flow and Pietro knows he’s matching.
“I think Hank could be a great replacement dad.” Pietro jokes and that sends Kurt into a fit of cackles that makes Pietro head ring happily.
It’s with matching circles on their foreheads and Bubbles of laughter erupting from their lips that forces them to bend over to catch their breaths that Erik Lehnsherr decides to walk into the living room.
Pietro and Kurt sober up pretty quickly as they spot the intimidating man looming over.
Pietro doesn’t know how long Erik plans to stay at the mansion. He has no clue why Charles keeps him around like one of Miss Margo’s domesticated cats. Charles says he’s decoding-working something out from the facility but everytime he explains it Pietros mind wanders or goes static like dead film.
Erik Lehnsherr is like the boogey man if the boogey man was a middle aged Jewish man going through a lumberjack midlife crisis. He’s grown out a bit of a stubble which Pietro is a bit jealous of because he can barely grow a mustache without looking ridiculous. The older man has also taken to speaking as little as possible to anyone that isn’t Charles.
“May I use the phone?” Erik asks but it sounds more like a demand—on instruction they are very much going to follow.
“Yeahsure.” Pietro blurts out “noproblem!”
Erik winces at his suddenly raised voice and Pietro kicks himself mentally at his shitty volume control.
Kurt doesn’t say anything, he rarely speaks when Erik is around. Probably still a bit iffy about his presence. But apparently he’s a bit iffy about his dad too so that must be confusing for him. To feel loyal towards a man that apparently doesn’t even like him sounds exhausting.
Erik lifts a heavy brow at the two boys who only move to the side so he can use the phone. “I would like some privacy.” He says the word privacy like Charles would and it has Pietro immediately nodding and agreeing.
“You bet.” Pietro says and pulls at Kurt’s arm so they can leave the living room. Kurt gives him a weird look but doesn’t say anything as Pietro rushes out so that he doesn’t annoy Charles—no not Charles. Erik .
Not David. Not Charles. Not anybody. Just Erik. His head got a bit mixed up because he sounded like Charles for half a second but it doesn’t mean he has to react to Erik like how he reacts to Charles. They aren’t the same person. Pietro knows Charles. He knows him very well. Enough to clock him a million times over in a mind-bending loop while being tortured. Pietro knows Charles. He doesn’t know Erik.
Pietro hears the backend of a conversation, a snippet of an uttered “I miss you too.” He supposes even Erik Lehnsherr has someone.
Days turn into weeks. Finding his mother is becoming a harder task than originally anticipated. Even with the help of cerebro.
“I think Wanda might be blocking her from me,”
“She knows how to do that?”
“She was practicing…it was part of her training with Jean. She must’ve finally figured it out.”
“We’ll that’s inconvenient as fuck.” Pietro curses, using his crutches to keep pace with Charles as they walk down the hall, children running past them in a herd.
“Peter. What did I say about the cursing?”
“It’s freedom of expression Charles! If I wanna say Fuck I’ll say Fuck,”
“I’ve had to reprimand two third graders and a fifth grader for cursing.”
“Okay? Okay.” Pietro sigh. “I’ll try not to curse as much.” This fucking sucks. “In front of the kids.”
Charles nods like he doesn’t believe him but continues on like he does “I think I might have another way to find them.”
“Awesome! Let’s do it then, man.”
Charles makes an expression that tell Pietro he’s guilty of something.
Pietro stops walking and gives Charles a side eye “what did you do Charles? What did you do? Whatcha doooooooooo?” Pietro gets real close to his face and the professor swats him away.
“In my defense-“
“Oooh, Whenever you start a sentence with ‘in my defense-‘ I literally—immediately get defensive so can you just say something else.”
“Okay. Sure.” Charles sighs like he’s exasperated with Pietro but he’s smiling something soft “just don’t get too upset.” He says instead which isn’t much better if a way to start a statement.
“Okay? Like, actually, what did you do?”
“I didn’t do anything. Technically my great great great great grandfather did.”
Pietro makes a gesture towards Charles for him to continue his explanation.
“In 1902 my great great great grandfather was a British spy-“
“-that’s the coolest thing ever-“
“-he died-“
“-I assume, yeah-“
“-allegedly In action but he actually just retired and married my great great great grandmother.-“
“-romantic-“
“Peter. Please let me tell the story.”
Pietro makes a zipper motion for his mouth. He throws away the key.
“They had a daughter in secret. He loved her very much but was afraid that one of his enemies would discover her and use her as bait so he put a tracker in her necklace. It was very advance for the time but he always had access to things he shouldn’t. Very high ranking man. The necklace was a family heirloom. Passed down from father to daughter in my family. The bit about the tracker has lost its appeal but it is a beautiful and treasured piece worth thousands.” Charles doesn’t continue and Pietro frowns.
“Okay cool story bro but like-“ he shrugs “how the fuck does that help us?”
Charles gives him a look, “sorry! How the frick does that help us? It’s not like you gave Wanda that necklace.”
Charles stays silent.
“It’s not like you gave Wanda that necklace, right?” Pietro repeats.
Charles stays silent. Pietros eyes widen.
“Charles, did you give Wanda that necklace?”
Charles begins to roll away. No fucking way. “Charles! Thousands of dollars? I did hear that part right? Right?”
“Its barely above market value.”
“I don’t even know what Market value is Charles. I’m horrified. Charles, Wanda lost her school bag while she was wearing it. Why did you think that she could have something like that?”
“I-I didn’t think…I thought she would like it. It suits her.”
“And it had nothing to do with the fact that this supposed necklace that suits her so much has a tracker in it? That’s just a coincidence?”
Charles exasperates “you said you wouldn’t be mad!”
“You chipped my sister! I feel like that’s maybe a little bit crazy? No?”
“I did not do it on purpose.”
“Liar.”
“I hadn’t known about the tracker.”
“Liar.”
“I just thought she’d like it. It suited her.”
“Liar.”
“I wanted her to have it. I wasn’t thinking about—the history behind the necklace. I just wanted Wanda to have it because—“ Passed down from father to daughter.
Oh.
Pietro wipes the accusation off his mouth. Trying to be totally chill about this.
“—it would have just sat in the crypt forever. It deserved to be worn. So I gave it to Wanda.”
“I bet she loved it.” And Pietro has a vague memory of a chain around Wanda’s neck. A necklace. Usually hidden under a shirt or jacket. But he remembers her fiddling with it on her birthday. The pretty red necklace now having deeper significance in pietros memory.
Charles nods assuringly “She has it on her.” She has to. “We can find her that way.”
“Okay.” Pietro rubs his forehead with his fingers trying to fight back the headache. “Okay.” He says again.
“How’d you find out about the tracker.”
“I was doing some research late last night. I had to keep busy.”
“Keep busy? Why?” Pietro is a fountain of questions. Always constantly asking too many questions or not enough. No inbetween.
“Nothing. I just couldn’t sleep.” Nightmares he means.
“Lehnsherr doesn’t…” he was going to ask if Erik helped him with his nightmares. They seem close. Closer than Pietro originally realized. When Charles isn’t helping Pietro find his mom he’s with Erik helping him with his whole top secret confusing shit that Pietro can’t wrap his head around.
Erik has a room in the mansion. Charles cleared out the room second closest to his own. The few times he’s walked passed it, the room looks vacant and untouched. Erik isn’t sleeping there. And Pietros favorite hobby is jumping to conclusions so he assumes Erik is sleeping in Charles' room. Not to be too observant but Pietro knows for a fact the pullout couch in the corner is uncomfortable to sleep on.
Something is there. Maybe. Pietro just knows that they stay in the same room. Maybe even sleep in the same bed. If anyone has seen Charles have nightmares it’s gonna be Erik and despite what people might think Erik doesn’t seem like the type to let someone suffer.
If Erik came across a wounded bird Erik would give him a mercy kill, if Charles came across a wounded bird he’d nurse it back to health.
If Pietro came across a rounded bird he’d hand it off to Charles and join Erik in hunting down whoever wounded it.
Sounds logical to Pietro.
But when Pietro says Erik’s last name Charles makes a face that looks irritated, nothing like the smitten expression he’d been carrying the last week. “Erik is quite preoccupied doing other things.”
Pietro hears Erik’s heartfelt ‘I miss you too’ tickle The back of his skull and his eyes widen “Oh oh, what happened?”
“Nothing you should worry about. Erik won’t be an issue for much longer.”
“Damn, you kickin’ him out? Hardcore. Good for you Charles.” It just makes sense that Erik is in the wrong.
“Don’t be ridiculous. He’s the one that’s leaving. He’s got too much press on him. It’s nearly been a year you know?”
“A year...” Since Erik attacked the White House. Since he became most wanted Man in America once again after his second attempt at a president's life. Nearly a year since Pietros life flipped upside down. Nearly a year since he’s met Charles.
Has it really only been a year?
“…damn your right. Time flies.”
“They tend to do anniversaries around these types of things. They’ll buckle down on news outlets. They’ll re-release old footage of his speech. He’ll be on everybody's radar again. So he needs to leave the states again. Go back to his family.”
Pietro stutters into his next step “his family?” His voice comes out choppy and wired. The speedster was under the impression that the magnetic man didn’t have a family.
It was the one thing the media loved to constantly bring up. A Jewish holocaust survivor. Intent on revenge and destruction for the mutant race against humans. His lack of family was used as a weapon to fuel his rage. It was used as the basis of people’s accusations towards the angry man. An orphan. No family. Alone.
“Erik has a family?” Pietro repeats like it’s the most bizarre thing he’s ever heard.
Charles keeps his voice neutral “he has a partner. A spouse. They are expecting.” He couldn’t hide the disdain in his face. This might explain why Erik didnt want Pietro overheraing his conversation on the phone.
“That was quick. It’s barely been a year.”
“Very quick.” Charles says with deep distaste. Oh, yeah, they definitely had a fight about that.
“Erik’s going to be a dad?” Pietro practically screams and more then a few heads turn their way.
“Peter. There’s no need for shouting,”
“I’m just surprised!” Pietro shouts louder. “I mean could you imagine it? He’s gonna be someone’s dad? Poor kid. Hate to be them.”
“Peter. Enough.” Charles voice became serious, defensive almost and Pietro realized he took the wrong route in this. He thought he was being supportive but only managed to spiral the man further.
“Erik deserves to have family. I will not stop him from trying to carve himself one after all the loss he has had to endure.”
“Sorry.” Pietro says instinctively with wide eyes, feeling lost at Charles' sudden sadness. At Charles sudden support for Erik abandoning him again. He wonders if the professor is used to people abandoning him.
“He’s already lost his family once. He should have a chance with this child. A proper chance.” Charles doesn’t look at Pietro, touching the necklace around his neck, a small coin looped in string.
Erik already had a child. had . Not anymore. Children die all the time. Pietro knows that, he’s seen that first hand. Children die everyday everywhere like it’s nothing. Sometimes it’s nobody’s fault. It just happens. Nobody deserves their child dying. Not even Erik.
“Losing a child the way he did. It puts things into perspective for him. He wants to be there for his new child like he wasn’t for Anya.”
Anya . Pietros heart stops at the name. He reels in his sudden panic back in when he remembers how common the name Anya is. It’s just a coincidence. It’s a very popular Jewish name. Erik is Jewish. His mom is Jewish. They have similar taste in baby names. This is not a world ending thing.
But Anya is dead too. He knows what losing a child does to people. He's seen it in his mom.
“You deserved a chance too, professor. I’m sorry Erik wasn’t the family you got. But you have—“ me . “--all of us. We're your family now.”
Pietro feels a wave of sadness hit him all at once.
He misses Wanda. He misses her so much. The thought of family—even Erik’s possible future family—makes Pietro want to hug his sister, to make sure she’s okay. But she’s nowhere to be found.
“I appreciate you saying that, son.”
Pietro Maximoff misses Wanda Maximoff. Another I Miss You, this time— left unsaid and unheard.
Charles smiles at Pietro, and he feels his approval wash over him like a warm blanket. He finally said the right thing.
Notes:
Like always, Typos will be found.
Also, I do read all the comments. They always make my day and im so genuinely happy that you're all enjoying this fanfic as much as I am enjoying writing it.
Thank you for reading. :))
Chapter 25: Hot Chocalate and Hohos
Summary:
“I don’t think—“
“—just try it. Ten years in that prison probably fucked your tastebuds. Hohos are heavenly. trust.” Pietro chugs the hoho at Erik’s face, it bounces on his cheek and lands on his lap with a crinkle of plastic wrap. Charles poorly hides the laugh that releases from his mouth at the shocked surprise on Erik’s face from the sugary assault.
Erik picks up the packet like it’s a roach and not a sweet snack. He opens the crinkled plastic and Charles and Pietro watch with bated expectations.
The initial bite is hesitant and almost unpleasant but Pietro sees the exact moment Erik realizes hohos are bomb as fuck. He can physically see him restrain himself from taking another rushed bite. He sees the exact moment Charles' face glows at the unexpected moment, his smile stretching on his face like an asshole. “Like it?” Charles is bad at hiding his amusement.
The Magnetic man quickly retreats and makes a face like he was indifferent to the nosh. “It’s alright.” He says while licking his lips of any sugary substance. But he doesn’t take another bite. Too stubborn to admit he kinda fucks with hohos.
---or---
Everybody loses sleep. Erik tries a hoho and Pietro gets a surprise visit.
Notes:
Happy New Years to my American readers!
sorry for the late chapter. My sister got married this past week so I've been pretty busy.
I hope you enjoy the Chapter.Also to anyone that doesn't know Pietro was 19 at the beginning of the fic and is now twenty. It's officially been a year since I've started this fic. Time flys by when you're fighting demons.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Hank says that whatever serum or drug they gave Pietro to fall into his mind in the facility is still in his system. Unlocking or revealing old memories that were previously fuzzy or altered.
Pietro wakes up most nights gasping and thrashing because he’s suddenly remembered David’s hands holding him down, wrapping around his throat, and leaving bruises around his neck. Pietro doesn't remember the bruises. He’s not convinced he ever had them. He’s remembering things differently now.
A patchwork of bruises up his stomach from bad Beatings, a faded memory of a hospital trip and broken bones. He tries to piece it all together. He tries to shake away what’s wrong and what’s been altered in his brain.
He wakes up screaming one day, super speeding out of his bed and running out of the mansion and stopping only when his breathing evens out. He ends up at a gas station an hour away from the mansion in nothing but a band Tshirt and checkered pajama bottoms. Barefoot and without his crutches, suddenly very tired and his head fuzzy.
Shit. He finds a pay phone and begs that anybody but Charles picks up the phone.
“Hello? Xavier's school for gifted youngsters.” Charles answers the phone with a groggy voice and pure instinct.
Pierre curses under his breath, embarrassed that he woke up Charles when the man barely sleeps himself.
“Peter?” Charles recognized his long silence and mumbled curses. “What—where are you calling from?” Peter hears a muffled groan and a smack. Pietro shifts the phone in his ear.
“Peter, are you there?”
“I’m sorry.” Pietro leans his head against the glass payphone door. “I had a bad dream and I started running and I-i don’t know where I am. I think-“ the speedster frantically looks around him trying to catch a sign or a road number. “I’m lost. I didn’t mean to wake you.” A silent I’m sorry rings in Pietros head for being so needy. Hes twenty years old and he doesn’t even know how to get back home. “I can take the bus or—or order a car but I don’t have my wallet on me. My legs all fucked and-“ Pietro remembers the last time he ran barefoot and is grateful not to have glass shards in his foot again but fully notes the ache in the heels of his feet.
“-son, don’t worry. We’ll come get you. Don’t go anywhere.” Pietro doesn’t even question the we and he also doesn’t question how he’ll know where he is. He simply sits next to the phone booth like an adult child and stops himself from going inside the gas station to steal some snacks.
Even though his stomach churns during the one hour it takes for Charles to find him. When Pietro sees Charles yellow mustang he stands up from the ground and spots the man in the passenger seat with searching eyes. When he meets Pietro's eyes-the relief in his face is mutual and Pietro wastes little time climbing into the back seat and wrapping his arms around Charles from behind—more confident in hugging him when he couldn’t see his face. “Thank you.” Pietros voice cracks and is comforted by the fact that Charles looks just as shaken by the whole thing as he was. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry. It’s okay. We can talk about it later if you like.”
“Sure, yeah. Maybe—I just-I’m-I’m so sorry to have woken you up.”
“Peter.” Charles' voice is warm and so understanding and Pietro can’t even comprehend how someone can be that way. Not with him. He doesn’t understand.
“Did either of you want food from the gas station?” Erik’s voice loops into the middle like a detonating bomb. Pietro hadn’t even realized he was driving. Erik parked the car next to disabled parking spot and gave them both questioning looks.
Pietro swallows thickly “yes, Please.” And usually he’d be more embarrassed by the way his voice shook but he isn’t. “Can you get him some hohos?” Charles places a hand on Erik’s elbow and the metal bender barely reacts to the touch. Or he tries very hard not to react. Keeping his face neutral.
“No problem.” Erik shifts to open the door and Pietro spots a purple bruise high on his neck.
The second Erik is out of ear shot Pietro turns to Charles with a breathy laugh “you sly dog.”
Charles' eyes widened “what?”
“You were up with him.”
“Yes.”
“You were up with him.”
“Peter-your implication is not necessary—“
“—I thought you two were fighting.”
“We are. We were .”
“You have a hickey.” Pietro points at his neck and Charles cranes his neck away from Pietro and pulls at his collar and twists the rear view mirror to see. There’s no hickey. The hickey was on Erik but the fact that Charles thought he did was proof enough.
“Made you look. Thanks for verifying that though.” Pietro smirks cockily.
Charles' face goes flush and he lets out a calming breath “you’re a menace.”
“You love me.” Pietro teases.
“I do.” Charles says it like it didn’t make Pietro's head hurt. Oh. Oh, okay.
Pietro-fuck-he’s super cool and chill about the casual admission. “Do you love Erik?” Pietro blurts out because he’s super chill and cool and not trying to distract himself with Charles' relationship drama.
“Peter, for god's sake.” Charles exasperates.
“I didn’t hear a no?”
“Our relationship is complicated.”
“Yeah I know. Lots of history. But do you still love him?” because Pietro doesn’t need to be a scientist to know that Charles did love him. At some point Charles loved Erik enough to create a family with him. To build the X-men. He’s not questioning his past feelings—he’s questioning his current ones.
Anyone can fall out of love.
“I can’t discuss this right now.” Charles' eyes darted frantically towards the gas station where Erik was already waiting in line.
It’s a strange sight to see a wanted terrorist—patiently waiting in line to buy hohos and a Fanta.
“Okay, prof. Just be careful.”
”I am.” Charles says.
“You’re gonna get your feelings hurt.” Pietro points out the obvious.
“I know.” Charles admits.
Erik comes back with a plastic bag of nosh. Pietro greedily waffles down the packet of hohos. He’s two-thirds of the way through before he thinks of offering some to the other two men. “Want some?” Pietro says with a full mouth and extends a sealed hoho packet at the amused man. “I’ll pass this time.” Charles says easily. Charles prefers salty snacks over sweets.
Pietro looks at Erik curiously “wanna try it?” Because in no mixed universe has Erik Lehnsherr ever voluntarily tried a hoho pastry before. This would definitely be his very first.
“I don’t think—“
“—just try it. Ten years in that prison probably fucked your tastebuds. Hohos are heavenly . trust.” Pietro chugs the hoho at Erik’s face, it bounces on his cheek and lands on his lap with a crinkle of plastic wrap. Charles poorly hides the laugh that releases from his mouth at the shocked surprise on Erik’s face from the sugary assault.
Erik picks up the packet like it’s a roach and not a sweet snack. He opens the crinkled plastic and Charles and Pietro watch with bated expectations.
The initial bite is hesitant and almost unpleasant but Pietro sees the exact moment Erik realizes hohos are bomb as fuck. He can physically see him restrain himself from taking another rushed bite. He sees the exact moment Charles' face glows at the unexpected moment, his smile stretching on his face like an asshole. “Like it?” Charles is bad at hiding his amusement.
The Magnetic man quickly retreats and makes a face like he was indifferent to the nosh. “It’s alright.” He says while licking his lips of any sugary substance. But he doesn’t take another bite. Too stubborn to admit he kinda fucks with hohos.
This is the funniest shit Pietro has ever witnessed—A grown-ass man denying he has a sweet tooth is so diabolically funny.
Erik very slowly finish’s the rest of his hoho with a blank expression very clearly pretending he doesn’t absolutely love it. Pietro is overjoyed at the revelation.
Charles hands Pietro his portable cassette player and he flips the music on without another word. Relieved he doesn’t have to force himself to have small talk or sit in silence for the next hour back to the mansion.
The next he darts out of bed in fear is because he thinks David has crawled into bed with him but it was just one of Miss Margo’s cats.
David is not here. He has to keep reminding himself. The speedster grabs the grey fluffy cat and gently rubs his head snuggling into the bed again—trying to calm down. The cat purrs soothingly.
Pietro can’t fall back asleep no matter how much he tries and the following day his already tired body is drained of all energy. He stumbles his way past Wanda’s room, refusing to look at it for fear of getting sad.
A pair of students run down the hallway in slippers and warm pajamas, to fight back the cold that is collecting outside. Signs of a cold winter coming. Pietro watches longingly as they run, his own feet stumbling down the hallways, barely able to take two steps without wincing or limping.
Dr. McCoy says he should be healing normally soon but it all seems to be painfully slow.
When Pietro arrives at Charles's office, his sisters absence still grappling in his mind, not even paying attention to his surroundings, he stumbles into the middle of a chess game between the metal bender and Charles.
Erik Lehnsherr has been scarce during the time he’s been here and has been secluded in Charles bed chambers or away from the student body since his arrival. During Pietro late night escapade is the only time he’s seen Erik even leave the mansion since his arrival.
Right now Erik is leaning back on his chair—the chair Pietro usually sat in when he played chess—Erik looks almost happy. Probably the happiest he’s ever seen him. Erik isn’t even looking at the board, his eyes are glued to the professor as he speaks like whatever Charles is saying is the most interesting thing Erik’s ever heard. Pietro is almost ninety-eight percent sure that it’s not . Xavier is relaxed in his chair, fiddling with a horse piece he took from Erik’s side. The professor loops it around his fingers smoothly and with ease and continues to do it over and over again as he speaks. It’s a stimulating habit that Pietro does when he plays because he can’t sit still for too long and needs to fidget with something. The speedster hadn’t even realized that the professor had picked up that habit of his.
Pietro watches them from the doorway, and he sees Erik’s eyes trail down to Charles's fingers, fiddling with the pointed horse. “Nervous Schatz ?” The German term of endearment catches Pietro off guard.
“No, I’m about to win.” Charles says as his fingers continue to twist around the horse piece. Pietro wonders if he looks just as distracting when he does that.
Erik’s hand reaches for Charles fidgeting one, reaching over the chessboard and halting his movements. Erik’s hands are bigger than Charles's. Covering his hand completely and almost deliberately. Like he’s something he needs to touch. Like he’s desperate for contact in any little way. Erik pulls at the horse piece in Charles’ hand and places it slowly in front of him on the table, his eyes slip from the professor's face down to his exposed neck, his eyes hungry in a way that makes Pietro want to hightail it outta there. What the hell did he just walk into? “You’ve been playing without me.” Erik says with a heaviness to his tone as Charles takes his turn on the board, moving his king. He sounds almost jealous.
“Like you haven’t?” Charles says amusingly and Erik looks—He looks like he wants to say something, maybe something revealing, but then decides against it. Erik plays his turn with a forced crooked smile that looks familiar. But somehow unfamiliar.
He has a partner. A spouse. They are expecting. That’s what Charles told him but Erik is looking at Charles like he has no one waiting for him. Like his telephone “I miss you too.” Was imaginary. Pietro didn’t know what to think. Erik can’t be looking at Charles like that if he has a family to go back to. It will only hurt Charles when he has to leave.
Pietro shuffled into the room, extra noisy, trying to make his presence known. Hoping his interruption will prevent Charles from falling deeper into the hole he seems to have dug for himself.
“Peter.” Charles sits up from his slouching position in his wheelchair and he sees the moment he realizes he’s been caught flirting. His face goes a bit flush, embarrassed and then he clears his throat as he looks a look away from Erik who looks confused by the professor's sudden shift.
“You’re up early.”
“Never slept. Nice game.” Pietro pointedly looks at the horse piece that Erik had placed in front of the professor. The one he was fiddling with. Charles forces a big easygoing smile on his face. “I was just about to win.” He says.
Pietro smiles back, if only to let him off the hook “Oh, yeah? I can tell.”
Erika scoffs “he is not. I’m in the lead.” Defending himself, looking at them both with suspicious eyes.
Pietro Looks at the board and shrugs “Yeah but he’s got your Queen locked. Your offense is good but your defense is garbage.” It doesn’t surprise Pietro that Erik plays in the offense, risking his pawns to win while Charles plays defense, guarding his queen from any attacks.
Chess is a telling game.
Pietro usually plays defense as well. That’s why Charles and him play for hours. Pietro usually takes more risks though. That’s usually why Pietro loses.
“My defense is not garbage .” Erik looks almost offended by the comparison and Pietro almost laughs at how he looks at Charles like he expects him to defend him. “It is quite bad.” Charles confirms with zero remorse and Erik laughs in surprise. Loud and bright. Erik laughs like he’s in a cave. Echoing from his chest and up his throat like a haunting ghost. Almost a scary laugh if it didn’t result in him baring his teeth in a smile like a photogenic child.
“I assume you play then?”
“Not really-“ Pietro begins to lie because he’s impulsive in that way. Charles squeezes his arm, looking up at him with a smile “-nonsense.” Charles gestures at the speedster like he’s a prize horse in a carnival “He’ll have you sweating. Three steps ahead, this one.”
Pietro flushes at the compliment and refuses to look at Erik who is very obviously staring at the boy—not like a prize horse but a fat pig who is about to get butchered at the fair. “Let’s play then,” Erik suggests conveniently like he wasn’t in the middle of a game with Charles. Who he was very much flirting with not even five minutes ago. It is weirdly jarring as well that it's Erik offering and not Charles.
“You guys are in the middle of a game.”
Despite Pietros protest, Charles resets the board and is moving away from his spot in the table. Pietro reluctantly pulls out a chair from the corner and sits on it in front of a looming Erik. Charles shuffled behind his desk and goes to his snack drawer. “Last bag.” Charles says.
“Didn’t you just restock that yesterday?” The speedster hasn’t raided the snack drawer yet.
“I thought I did.” Charles says with a frown and drops the last bag of chips in Pietros lap. Pietro opens the bag of chips without even looking and starts the game off by moving his castle.
Erik watches the interaction with a distant look.
“How long have you played chess, Peter?”
“The professor taught me,” Pietro says easily and Erik just nods, taking his turn.
“He was a quick learner.” Charles compliments and Pietro knows it’s a lie. It took him forever to learn all the rules, but Charles seems to enjoy hyping him up to Erik.
“Quick. Like always.” Erik remarks and Pietro takes his turn again.
They play back and forth and Charles keeps a steady flow of conversation going even if Pietro falls silent. The professor talks about nothing and everything. He talks about Hank. About Jean. He talks about Timothys recycling bin project on the second floor. Random spurts of information flow from the professor's mouth and it’s maybe five whole minutes of this before Pietro realizes the not-British man is word vomiting.
Charles Xavier is Nervous. Pietro doesn't understand why the professor is so anxious but now Pietro sees it. Can feel the tension in his bones as he talks overly optimistically.
“Charles.” Erik interrupts the professor's next spurt of words with a smile that still feels foreign “Do you have any of those snacks for me? Or are they just for the boy?”
“Yes.” Charles says immediately and Pietro snorts which makes Charles straighten his back “I mean…the snacks here are for Peter. But I can go get you some from the kitchen.”
“If you insist.” Erik says with faux enthusiasm which makes Pietro give Charles a confused look.
“I’ll fetch it then.” And Charles is gone within the minute and Pietro is left alone with the terrorist.
“You could’ve been more subtle.” Pietro moves his piece, taking one of Erik’s horses. Erik leans back on his chair with a look that makes Pietro regret even agreeing to play.
“He clearly wants us to get along.” Erik says when he moves his left piece sharply. “He’s been raving about you at every turn.”
“Yeah well…he does do that.” Pietro says, his leg bouncing.
“He cares about you.” Erik says like he’s trying to say something.
“Yeah, well, yeah. I care about him too. Or whatever.” Pietro refuses to look at Erik as he says that—pretending to be focused on the game.
“You know he called me.” Erik tells him in a different tone, intense “the day you all got taken. He put aside his pride, and he called me. I hadn’t ever seen him so…devastated.”
Pietro recalls Charles being shot and paralyzed on the beaches of Cuba and he thinks Erik might be lying. How can that be less devastating than Pietro being taken?
“Why did he call you?” Pietro successfully keeps the accusation out of his voice, he was curious after all “I mean, what was even the point?”
“I had personal experience with Friends of Humanity.“
“Personal experience?” Pietro had no idea what button he was pushing. He couldn’t have possibly
“They killed my daughter.” Erik says like it wasn’t a bomb. Like it didn’t make Pietro's heart drop to his feet. “They called themselves something different before. Nazis are very good at hiding who they really are.”
Right. Pietro swallows the spit that gathered in his throat. His skin feels prickly.
Why would Erik tell him that? Why—Pietro is nobody . Erik doesn’t know him enough to spill family trauma. Pietro forgets where he is for a moment. Feeling hot and embarrassed and completely out of his depth.
He knew that Erik had a family once. He’s already lost his family once. Is what Charles said.
Anya. Pietro couldn’t imagine how Erik felt. He can only gather information of a type of loss like that from his mother Magda. She lost her daughter. Pietros oldest sister. Remembered only by a single burned-off picture in Pietro's wallet and his mother's memories.
“I’m sorry.” Pietro says because he is. Pietro knows that grief does horrible things to people. He knows that his mother essentially has been grieving his entire life. That he was born during her grief, raised in her grief and lived in her grief. It’s all he knows.
Twenty years isn’t enough for her to move on. And another twenty probably won’t be either. Grief has no timeline. “No parent should outlive their child.”
Erik doesn’t say anything to that, moving his piece silently.
“So you came out of hiding because it was Friends of Humanity. No other reason?” Pietro doesn’t like confrontation, he avoids it at all costs but this affects Charles. Erik being here means something to Charles. Erik means enough that Charles wants the metal bender and the Speedster to get along.
“What other reason would there be?” Erik Is just as transparent as Charles.
“Don’t know.” Pietro smirks at the man and Erik gives him a withering glare that does nothing to stamp down smugness from his face. “Maybe cause you care about Charles too?”
Erik’s eyes drop down to Pietros fidgeting hands which had begun to twirl a familiar horse figure around with his fingers. Pietro hadn’t even realized he had started twirling the black chess piece. The metal benders glare softens. “I do care for him. He’s a dear friend.”
“Yeah? A friend you call Schatz. Not many friends call each other darling.”
Erik takes his turn with an irritated huff “you know nothing, child.”
“I’m not a child. I’m twenty.” Pietro having to clarify his age only makes him sound like a child but he couldn’t help it. “I haven’t been a child in a long time.” Pietro thinks he never really got the chance to be. Not really. “I know what it looks like when Charles loves someone.” He’s seen it in the way he spoils the kids, in the way he’s gentle with the smaller kids like they are precious. He’s seen it a million times over in the loop in his head, the look he gives him before Pietro realizes it isn’t him. The torture mind loop made Pietro keenly aware of Charles’ adoring face and he knows it well.
Even if it was fake.
“It’s…complicated.”
He has a partner. A spouse. They are expecting.
“When is it not?”
Erik plays his piece. Blocking Pietros queen. Pietro puts the horse piece down, his fidgeting fingers stilling like a statue.
“Eventually you’re going to leave. Don’t you want him to know how you feel before you go?”
He has a partner. A spouse. They are expecting.
There is no happy ending here. He knows Erik will have to go. Inevitable. He had a family to raise. A future he holds dear and Charles is his past.
Charles comes back in the worst—or maybe best timing—considering Erik hasn’t said anything to that comment.
“I come bearing gifts.” Charles drops a hohos packet on Erik’s lap with a flair that only he can get away with.
Pietro goes into super speed and watches the micro expressions flash through Erik’s face as he recognizes the Pastry. His eyes give him away even when he keeps his face perfectly neutral.
Erik makes a face like he’s annoyed by Charles’ choice in snack but doesn't stop himself from ripping the plastic open to eat the sugary snack. He holds himself back.
Pietro wonders why Erik would deny he liked something he very clearly liked. Why would he hold himself back from fully embracing it?
“Who’s winning?”
“Me.” Erik and Pietro say at the same time.
In the end Erik wins. But Pietro will say with his whole chest that it was a close game and that he almost had him.
“Good game.”
“I was going easy on you.“ Pietro lied, knowing damn well he was trying very hard not to lose.
Erik scoffs and Charles shakes his head. He leaves the office so the two can have their alone time. Pietro finds Kurt reading outside next to Charles' favorite tree, a comic book strip open on the grass with a familiar flair. “You steal those from Bobby?”
Kurt shakes his head, not looking away from the comic. “I borrowed. No stealing.”
“Does he know you borrowed them? Cause last time I asked to borrow his Superman comic he bit my head off.”
“I asked very nicely.”
“Sure. What did you bribe him with?”
“I did not bribe.” Kurt pouts “I simply offered to do his dishes for the week.”
“Sounds like a bribe, babe. And a shitty one at that. That flash issue is lame. Time travel? Paradoxes, it's all too elaborate for my taste.”
“Says the boy that can do all those things.”
“So I’m qualified to give that opinion. Quicksilver is way better than The Flash, anyway.” Pietro makes a superhero pose, putting his hand on his hips and puffing out his chest. Kurt smiles dopely at the speedster “agreed.”
Pietro sits beside the blue boy with a dramatic huff and a very genuine groan. Shit. He really shouldn’t move like that. “Why’d you decided to read outside?” Besides his walks with Hank the blue teleporter sticks to being indoors. Has so ever since the facility. but also probably always has. When you look like Kurt you get used to hiding away from the worlds prying eyes.
“Enjoying the fresh air.” Kurt says distantly and Pietro sees a curling purple on his cheekbones. Pietro trails his eyes over to see what he’s looking at.
“Enjoying the view, you mean.”
Alex Summers is running on the track. Wearing a tank top that’s revealing enough that Pietro feels cold looking at him and a pair of form fitting joggers that has more than a few students sitting outside to watch the older man do his laps. His longish hair is pulled up in a bun and that reveals a tiny tattoo in the back of his neck.
Fuck. He’s hot, even when he’s gross and sweaty.
“I was out here before he started jogging.” Kurt defends himself with a blazing face and hands covering his cheeks in a nervous gesture.
“After you memorized his routine. You sly dog.”
“Stop it.” Kurt whines pulling the hood of his blue hoodie up and yanking the strings so his face is hidden. Pietro laughs his head off “Don’t be embarrassed!” Pietro tries to pull apart the small hole in the hoodie where his head should be but only his nose is peeking out. “You've got great taste.”
“I know that!” Kurt exasperates, his fingers curling around his head in a fetal position which seems dramatic.
“Oh? You do? Who else have you been fawning over?” Pietro teases, easily poking his shoulders and arms to annoy him. Kurts tail swats his hand away and Pietro bubbles out a surprised laugh “it’s alright! I swear, I get it. He’s very handsome.” Pietro hunches over next to the shy boy, leaning close so their face to face “poke your head out babe. I swear I won’t make fun of your little crush.”
“It’s not a crush .” Kurt pokes his head out with a prominent pout “I just—I think he’s pretty to look at.”
“That’s so valid. The muscles and jawline are pretty appealing.”
“His eyes are pretty.” Kurt says softly and Pietros smile dims slightly. Alex Summer has blue eyes. Kurt likes boys with blue eyes.
“Blue is pretty.” Pietro says—only thinking of blue skin and yellow eyes.
“His hairs cool too.” Pietro isn’t even looking at Alex when he says that, leaning his head on Kurt’s shoulder.
“Very cool. Soft.”
“How do you know it’s soft?”
Kurt pauses, Massaging Pietro's scalp “I just have a feeling it is.”
“Hmmm. Sure.” Pietro leans into his touch, allowing himself to relax for the first time in a while. He almost falls asleep.
Pietro barely sleeps. It shows in the bags under his eyes, the way his bones feel like led, too heavy to carry.
He often stays up with Charles, brooding over a cup of hot chocolate in the kitchen island. The speedster no longer feels guilty for occupying his time this late in the night because he’s well aware of the professor's similar issue with sleep. Charles’ heavy bags match Pietros to the shade. Dark against his pale skin. They brew an extra cup of hot chocolate for Hank who seems to hover around the kitchen at the end of the night like a kitchen utensil-themed vigilante. He joins them at the counter in silence, sipping on their midnight concoction like it’s whiskey even though it’s absolutely not, and Charles’ one-month chip can attest to that. Hank's hair sticks out at all ends of his head, his glasses perched on his nose like a mask to blur his identity.
The twenty-seven stitches on Pietro's sternum resemble an autopsy and he's happy to have them gone finally, even if the result is a protruding scar that will prevent him from walking around shirtless and his eyes blur too—reminding him that he did need glasses and the prescription goggles aren’t being worn because he isn’t using his superspeed. Making his vision worse.
He’s counting dow n the days before he can finally use them freely.
Hank hasn’t hassled him over it though but Pietro suspects it’s because he’s been working on his own project. When Hank is not treating the last few still injured mutants, or staring at Alex like he’s begging for money off the street, then the blue man is closed off in his room—working on whatever side thing he’s been doing that’s kept him so busy. Kurt had managed to find a small window when the man leaves his room to force him to take a walk. Mandated therapy is what Kurt called it. He needs to practice walking with his healing injuries in a way that doesn’t require Pietro to be leaning against him for mutual support. In reality, Pietro is aware that the blue teleporter just wants to spend time with Hank who is always willing to take the small path in the backyard near the pond with Kurt even if it takes him away from his work. Pietro thinks the quiet walks do more good for Hank than they do for Kurt but the teleporter always gets extra clingy with Hank after a call from his dad. Raven. Which Pietro was asked by his best friend not to tell a soul about. Which—if anyone is able to keep a secret from the telepaths in the house it’s Pietro Django Maximoff. Although it is becoming increasingly difficult when Charles is so sad, and so very lonely since Erik has left.
Erik Lehnsherr left the mansion without a word to anyone, just a few days before the one-year anniversary of the White House attack. He didn’t say where he was going or if he was expecting to return. Or what the data he collected from the facility had to do with it. As far as Pietro knew Charles is the only person that knows where Erik is. But the sudden abortion of Erik Lehnsherr from the mansion has caused the telepath to reminisce on other occasions where that’s happened. A different time where Erik has abandoned him.
Charles isn’t sleeping well. Pietro knows he drove to an AA meeting the night after Erik left. He came back sober. Hank checked. Pietro didn’t ask him to check but the Doctor put it upon himself to do so.
Pietro felt so relieved that Charles didn’t immediately go out to get absolutely shit-faced the second his mind got dark. He was proud that Charles took the initiative to find a meeting instead. Pietro doesn’t know what exactly goes down in those meetings but he knows Charles goes to them frequently, which is upsetting to think about in the sense that his frequent visits mean he frequently wants to drink.
Charles can’t sleep? He goes to a meeting. Pietro has to get new skin graphs for his arm? He goes to a meeting. Hank tells them he’s thinking of joining a NASA program? He goes to a meeting.
Even when it’s good things. Jean finally speaking sentences again? Charles goes to a meeting. Harley gets early acceptance into Harvard university? Charles goes to a meeting. It brings perspective on how often, or how much Charles would’ve drank if he wasn’t sober. If he wasn’t sober he would’ve celebrated Harleys success with a glass of champagne. It wouldn’t have been a big deal. But it is a big deal because Charles is an alcoholic. And he’s trying hard to stay sober.
Good things happen and he can’t celebrate the way he wants to. Bad things happen and he can’t cope the way he usually would.
So Pietro drinks hot chocolate with him, on the nights that it’s bad.
Today was one of those bad days. They had been trying to find the pairing device that would access the tracker on Wanda’s necklace, but they were unsuccessful. “I have so much junk. I haven’t a clue where to even look for the thing.” Charles revealed to Pietro that he couldn’t even begin to search in the attic because, well, he couldn’t access the attic at all. One cannot simply make a wheelchair-accessible entrance into the attic. Not on a historically ancient building that still creaks when the wind blows too hard.
Pietro had been hesitant to enter the filthy room, cobwebs, and dust invading his vision the moment he pulled the little switch for the light to appear. Pietro had put the old students' things in the attic. The ones from a decade ago. It felt almost disrespectful to crack open the boxes of children’s toys to see if a tracker device was shoved inside them. Pietro had to keep his mind occupied, unable to use his superspeed, per Hank's orders.
Pietro thinks about the Pac-Man machine in his room. He took it upon himself to move it into the living room so the other new mutants can play it. It was collecting dust in Pietro's room, the speedster unable to find motivation to play anymore. It ended up being a good move as the kids lined up to play the new game like it was going to disappear any second. It caused an unprompted PAC MAN competition. To see who could go further into the game before losing their third life to game over.
Pietro excluded himself from the competition so it could be a fair game. Instead, he kept track as the kids played and Kurt sat beside him doodling in his notebook once again with just as much intensity as before.
“Still won’t let me see?” Pietro asks with a pout to his lip and Kurt smiles as he shakes his head “Not yet.”
The same response he always gives to Pietros prodding over the notebook. Pietro respects the boundary even when the teleporter leaves the notebook lying around and Pietro could easily look inside. He doesn't. Pietro just snatches the book away from any of the younger kids when they get curious enough to pick it up and tell them it’s private. That exact scenario happens that day when Kurt goes for his walk with Hank and the living room was stacked with busy bodies.
It was a little kid. Maybe five years old with brown skin and a head full of silver curls that always makes Pietro do a double take. He has a birthmark on his face that looks like a white handprint over his eye that covers most of his face. His nails are long like claws and he tends to accidentally tear things when he gets excited which he is currently. That’s the only reason why Pietro is quick to take the notebook away from him. Maybe too quickly. His superspeed flashes through him like a drug and Pietro blinks and he’s suddenly got the notebook in his hand. Firmly in his grasp.
The little kid, Timothy, had taken Pietro's sudden speedy movements as a threat and was cowering away from him behind the couch.
The room goes silent as the other little kids realize what has happened.
They began to crowd around the little boy. Protectively—Pietro realized. These are the very same kids that lived through the facility, for months. fight or flight soaked into their skin like wet clothes. They are used to sudden attacks. They registered Pietro as an attacker and he doesn’t—he doesn’t know what to do with that. Pietro doesn’t think he’s threatening. He doesn’t think—it doesn’t matter what he thinks because he can see it now. He can see how the kids are crowding around the little boy that he snatched Kurt’s notebook from and they are waiting for him to attack. All the kids. Even Kitty, who knows him personally, stood abruptly from her spot next to the fireplace and balled up her fist like Peter might attack Timothy.
Pietro is thrown. He is so scared by the shift in their view of his character. He wouldn’t hurt any of these kids. He could never even try,
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” Pietro breathed out in a rush, but Timothy just kept crying and the sound hurt Pietro's heart so deeply. He was having so much fun earlier. He was giggling and being loud and playing around and now he’s crying because of Pietro.
“I’m so sorry.” Pietro shakes out again, feeling his breaths come out ragged at the sudden tension.
Kitty was the first to snap out of it, her glare turning soft as she registered the attacker as; just Pietro.
“It’s just Pie.” Kitty reveals, breaking the tension like a knife through cake. Pietro doesn’t know who keeps telling the younger kids to call him Pie but whoever it is should be given a warm hug because it’s probably the least threatening nickname he’s ever had. His sister calls him Pie. For years it was just a family nickname and now it seems like everyone and their buddies call him Pie.
“Pie.” One of the kids mumbles—like they are coming out of a violent trance. Blinking away the fear in their face.
“Oh, it’s Peter,” and someone else states “Yeah it’s Peter. Just Peter.” And then “safe. It’s okay.” The additional tone shift when they go from protectively standing in front of Timothy to bending over and hugging him in comfort, trying to soothe his worries, is enough for Pietro to walk towards them cautiously.
“You need to tell him it’s okay, Peter.” A boy, Zachary says to the speedster in earnest, no longer looking like he’s going to use his sharp canines to bite him.
“It’s okay. Right Pie? You’re not mad.” Angelica sniffles beside the group quietly, her mouth and nose covered in a mask.
“Yeah, I’m not mad.” Pietro expresses slowly, trying not to freak out. “I swear. I’m not mad Timmy. I didn’t mean to scare you. I’m really sorry.” Pietro is on the floor beside Timothy, his leg screaming at him to stop straining it but he ignores it. His back hurts but he refuses to stop comforting the crying child. The kids hugging him pull away to make room for Pietro. “It’s not my book.” He shows him the cover of the notebook and points at the name scrawled on the corner of the spine.
“It’s Kurt’s. You know Kurt right?”
Timothy sniffles, looking at the name hesitantly.
“The Boyfriend.” Kitty says to the kid who just stares at the name and looks like it finally clicked.
“The blue monkey.” Timothy whispers in awe and Pietro ignores Kitty's dig and just nods at Timothy. “he’s nice. Always ties my shoes.” the boy says and Pietro wishes he had seen Kurt do that because now he can’t get the image out of his head of Kurt having a line of six-year-olds waiting to get their little shoes tied. Pietro melts.
“yeah, he’s really nice and he likes to draw in here but he doesn’t like anyone to see it. Not even me.”
Timothy nods like he understands “he must be a really bad drawer.”
“The worst.” Kitty goats. “Wonky stick figures. Very abstract.”
“He’s no Picasso.” Pietro agrees even though he’s never actually seen his drawings and neither has Kitty.
Pietro thinks about Picasso and stick figures when he sifts through decades-old notebooks. He catches little doodles of children’s crushes and quickly closes them before he gets too sad.
He sees an old board game and thinks of the pac man machine. Pietro makes sure the tracker isn’t hidden inside the box. A spider crawls out of the box and he doesn’t touch it again.
The attic felt like a forbidden war zone.
A few boxes later and a few hours pass, Pietro is about to climb down from the attic, to a waiting Charles. He had sat below the stairs with a textbook in his hand on Spy gear. Doing his own research on the device for a better part of the day as Pietro worked tirelessly to find the actual device with his shaking fingers and limping legs. He was still not fully decided but he refused to pull anyone else into their quest. Charles wanted to keep him company while he shuffled around in the attic even if he was unable to help in the actual search.
Pietro fell. It happened purely by accident, tripping over a stray baseball glove but he completely ate shit and fell straight into the corner of a box that was definitely carrying something hard. Pietros swears it’s gotta be fucking rocks cause holy fuck it was hard. Pietro feels the trickle of blood running down his forehead and his vision is a bit blurry from the sudden unexpected fall. He feels a scrape running down the arm he fell in.
“Peter?” Charles shouts frantically from below. “Are you alright? Peter?” The professor sounds terrified, and from Pietros lack of response, he can almost imagine him running up the attic stairs to come get him, to check on him. But he can’t . Charles literally, physically cannot help Pietro from below the attic.
“Hank, help!” And Pietro knows logically he said it telepathically along with saying it out loud but he’s surprised by Hank's immediate response.
“Please, he’s hurt. I can’t-“ Charles can’t help Pietro. Pietro doesn't need help, his head hurts and his hands are shaky—probably because he forgot to eat all day—but he doesn’t need any help. Hank is climbing up the attic stairs swiftly and with ease that he knows Charles is jealous of. Pietro was okay in the end. The cut was surface level and healed–slowly but it healed.
It’s not often that Charles’ disability is a problem. Most of the time it almost seems like the professor forgets he’s disabled at all. Probably because for the last ten years that he was supposed to be adjusting to the life of a man who can’t walk he was instead drugged out of his mind with a fully abled body. Today his wheelchair was holding him back from doing the thing he wanted to do. It held him back from taking care of Pietro who he physically couldn’t get to. It scared Charles. Pietro could hear it in his voice even if the man tried to pretend it wasn’t a big deal afterwards. The professor's hands shook as he touched Pietro's face to look at the cut resting on it.
Charles could not reach Pietro physically or telepathically and he felt utterly useless. “It’s okay, I’m okay.”
Charles nods, he agrees but when he pours the steaming hot milk into the hot cocoa he places the mug on his bare knees. It seemed like he was waiting for the pain to come from the heat. It never did. Charles is paralyzed and can’t feel anything from the waist down.
Charles Xavier places the hot mug on the coaster sitting on the table, with a deep frown and the three of them sit side by side like some bad sitcom.
The three of them sip. Brooding into their beverages and Pietro wonders when he became the type of person to brood with company. “How’s your project going?” Pietro asks Hank because it’s the only thing he can think of to ask.
Hank blinks away the surprise that momentarily spreads through his face at being asked a question at 11:52 pm.
“It’s…good. Very enlightening.” Hank says hesitantly. He’s been very hush-hush about the whole thing. He hasn’t told anyone what he’s been working on, not even Charles. Not that Charles couldn't just find out but Hank has made it a point to push the man out when he feels him snooping in his head. A hard line is drawn. Charles tried once and never tried again after the initial rejection but not because he wasn't curious just because he respects Hank's boundary.
“Is it for your NASA program thing?” Pietro scratches his elbow, just below the small wonky birthmark in his arm and just above the beginning of the skin graph they spent weeks trying to match his actual skin tone. It still looks off-putting and usually Pietro wears long sleeves to hide the ugly thing.
He watches Hanks's eyes dart to the scarred skin like a Doctor to an injury with an expression that makes Pietro want to put on a jacket. Hank looks away when Charles gives him a warning look—clearly noting how uncomfortable he’s made Pietro.
“It’s not for that. It’s a…personal project.”
“Ominous.” Pietro quips out and Hank pushes his glasses up his nose and avoids looking at Pietro again. That wasn’t what Pietro wanted at all.
Hanks been acting weird since they got back from the Jet. Extra protective—yes of course. Understandably so but also he’s been quieter. Pietro would go days without seeing him. It reminded him of when Pietro first showed up with Wanda and he closed himself off in his room for days at a time.
Everything was much quieter back then so the silence was warranted. It was only the five of them. Before Kurt. Before Miss Margo. Before Pietro and Charles became successful in recruiting more students. When it was just Wanda, Jean and Pietro roaming the halls and Charles trailing behind them.
“When Hanks has a problem in his head he tries everything to find a solution. He just won’t quit until it’s done. He’s always been like that.” Charles had told him that long ago when the speedster first asked about Hanks' closed-door policy. Maybe a few weeks into living here.
It was just before Pietro decided to start cooking him meals in return for him making him the meal packets.
Pietro doesn’t pretend to understand Hank's work. He’s not a scientist or a doctor or a genius, no matter what Charles may say. He just knows that when Pietro realized Hank was getting in that mood again he started leaving food outside his door again. But this time the meals are left untouched. Uneaten.
The thank you letter Hank wrote him after the first time he dropped off food burns in his pocket, still folded up in his wallet.
Pietro doesn’t try to make a big deal out of it. Even when Hank looks like he’s been losing weight and the walks he takes with Kurt Wagner are at a slower pace.
Pietro managed to convince the telepath to stop tasting Pietro's meal replacements and to let the doctor try them instead. The speedster just wants the blue man to eat . “He’ll catch on, you know.” Charles told him and Pietro just shrugged “Let him catch on. Doesn’t change the fact. If he doesn’t eat I won’t eat either.”
And Hank has definitely caught on to Pietro's concern. He drinks the meal packet smoothly though, even the ones that taste like shit. Pietros does as well. Pietro knows how it feels to starve but it doesn't mean he's eager to
“I was thinking…” Hank takes a small sip of his hot chocolate, leaning back on his chair “If the tracker device isn’t in the attic it could be anywhere.”
“Thanks for the boost of confidence Hank.” Pietros says at the same time that Charles says “you’re such a negative Nancy.”
Pietro is either starting to sound like the older man or Charles is starting to sound like Pietro. Either scenario makes Pietro's face go warm with embarrassment.
“Why don’t you try to connect the device to Cerebro?”
“That could work if she was close enough—or if we had a vague idea where she might be but if not we’re back to round one.” Charles says frustratingly and the Gamer terminology is making it clear to Pietro who is influencing who.
“You’re not tracking Wanda though. You’re tracking Wanda’s mom.” And Pietro almost corrected Hank by saying she’s my mom too. But that sounded childish and was so not the point.
“Wanda can’t drive. She isn’t dictating where she’s going. You can’t track the places you think she’d go, you need to track the places you think Magda would take her. What she has access to.”
What she has access to is definitely referencing the fact that Magda hasn’t held a steady job in years and has no funds to buy a proper place to stay even if she gets insurance money on the house. Pietro kept imagining them in homeless shelters and he kept thinking about dainty motel inns that made his skin crawl.
Pietro tried to protect Wanda from all the bad stuff. Losing power, not having dinner, or stealing things can all be excused away. Pietro could find a way to make it okay. To hide the fact that they grew up poor while still having a nice house. A nice house that they only had because their godmother gave it to their mother when Pietro was barely two and couldn’t remember the unsteady commune they used to travel with or the odd jobs Magda would do that ended up being scarier than odd.
The house was put under his mom's name. The house was all she had and she set it ablaze without hesitation to protect her family.
He hopes Wanda is safe. He prays, he rarely does it, but at night he closes his eyes and he speaks into the dark, feeling foolish but not foolish enough to stop asking for her safety.
He knows he hasn’t prayed enough, not nearly enough for his prayer to be taken into consideration but he hopes that the man upstairs is feeling generous enough to listen to a casual believer. Even if Pietro does stumble over the recitation and curses a bit too much for it to be considered a holy conversation. More like a casual request. A hopeful suggestion. Although it feels like a desperate plea.
He wants Wanda safe. He wants her home.
“I don’t know where to look.” Pietro felt like he was giving up. Like admitting he had no clue what to do was a grave loss.
They sit in silence, their hot chocolate becoming warm and then becoming cold. Hank was the first to leave—with a clean mug and tired eyes, he shuffled away from the pair.
“I think I’m gonna try to get some shut-eye.” Pietro says—it’s a lie. He doesn’t want it to be. He wants to sleep. But his mind doesn’t let him relax long enough to rest. Pietro can finally sleep in his own room. The soft silk pillows felt cold and soothing against his skin. Everything is soft and comfortable but yet somehow his body refuses to rest.
Charles gives him a long look like he knows he’s lying. “rest well, my boy.” He says because what else was he going to say?
Pietro wants to use his super speed as he forces himself to walk normally with the crutches that he barely needs anymore. He’s going up the elevator. The one hidden between bookshelves that Charles uses instead of the stairs.
It took Pietro nearly four months into living here to realize that was how Charles was getting around the mansion so easily. Pietro had just accepted the fact that the man simply materializes anywhere he wants to be. But he’s normal. He uses an elevator.
Pietro decided to also be normal and use an elevator. Not because he can’t walk up the stairs without wincing and groaning but because he’s lazy.
He can walk up the stairs just fine. He’s barely in any pain.
He’s fine .
“Brother in law?” Frankie's voice splits through the hallway and Pietro nearly falls from the sudden noise.
“Frankie?” Pietro squints down the darkness, once again reminded that he has glasses for a reason. He should start using them.
“Why are you awake?” Pietro looks at the rickety clock on the wall, ticking away by the second. “It’s 2 in the morning.”
“I just wanted to make sure you were here.” Frankie says and it throws Pietro off completely.
“What? What do you mean? Of course I’d be here.” His room is just three doors down.
“I just wanted to make sure. Just in case.” Frankie bites his lip nervously.
“Just in case.” Pietro repeats slowly and his mind runs a bit, trying to catch up to Frankie’s “I’m not going anywhere Frankie. It’s the middle of the night.”
“I just wanted to make sure.” Frankie says again, and he writes in his notebook. The same notebook he’s been writing inside every day. For weeks. Anxious scribbles that nearly match Kurt’s ferocity when it comes to drawing.
“Frankie. What are you writing.”
“I’m just checking you off.”
“What?” The words come out just as confused as he actually is.
“Checking you off my list.” Pietros eyes dart down towards Frankie’s notebooks open and secure in his grip.
“List of what?”
Frankie, unlike Kurt’s cautious drawings, flips the book around to show Pietro his scribbles. His scribbles contain a list of names. Names and dates and times and Pietro realizes it’s everyone in the school.
Frankie keeping tabs.
Making sure everyone is here.
Making sure everyone is checked off his list Incredibly long list. “Frankie, it's past curfew, you should go to sleep.”
Frankie shakes his head. “No, I can’t.” He says.
“You have to go to sleep, man.” Pietro feels like a hypocrite knowing he hasn’t slept properly in weeks.
Frankie tightens his grip on his notebook and looks down the hall to the other rooms filled with students. “I need to make sure, Jean, Bobby, Dereck, Dillon, and Teresa are in their rooms.”
“Frankie…seriously. It’s 2am. You need to sleep. You can do that in the morning.” But it’s the completely wrong thing to say because Frankie looks like he’s going to cry. Pietro realizes he isn’t a fan of Frankie crying. He doesn’t like it when anyone cries but Frankie especially. It’s something almost gut-wrenching when his whole face quivers and clenches like he’s being consumed completely by his overwhelming sadness. Pietro liked it better when he was just an annoying kid who liked his sister. Now he’s a person with like—real emotions and feelings that Pietro isn't professionally licensed to handle.
“I-i can’t sleep if I don’t know everyone is here.” He admits and Pietro takes in a breath letting his heart settle back into his chest. “If I don’t make sure they are here with my own eyes then I won’t know they are safe. How can I sleep without knowing if my friends are safe?”
“Frankie-“
“-you weren’t safe before, how am I supposed to know if you’re safe now? They took you in the middle of the night. 2:45 am. So at 2:45 I check and make sure you’re all still here. I make sure we’re all still safe. I just want everyone to be safe. I want-“ Pietro has his arms around a shaking Frankie before he can even think about it. Swaddling the small child like a baby and watching him heave into a panic.
The poor boy works himself into a panic attack and all Pietro can do is hold him firmly, swaying left to right in his wheelchair, calming his breaths. “We’re safe.” He says it enough times that he thinks he might believe it too. “We’re safe.” He thinks about how scared Frankie must’ve been when the bad men came to the school.
“We’re safe.”
He thinks about how Frankie was literally a sitting duck. Helpless to the gun and the men who took his friends away. Helpless like how he was when he was smaller, in a hospital, and his mother shoving a pillow in his face.
“We’re safe.”
The speedster thinks about the fact that he probably saw Miss Margo die. Just like he saw his father die. Pietro thinks that seeing one parent die is tragic enough.
“We’re safe.”
He thinks about the fact that for a month he didn’t have his mother and he didn’t have his brother. For a month he had no family to mourn with. Only Wanda. Who left.
“We’re safe.”
Pietro feels Frankie’s breath shake in his chest, sounding choked and tired. “What if they come back?”
Pietro combs through Frankie’s short hair, and it prickles his fingers. He had buzzed it short a few days after they came back from the facility in solidarity with his brother who was very touched by the gesture. “Then I’ll stop them.” Pietro says confidently. It’s the only thing he knows for sure. The only reason they managed to get anyone at all was because Pietro was in a trapped coma state with Wanda, who also couldn’t help in defending the school. Hank was gone. Charles was gone. The only adult in the building able to help was a blind woman who gave her life to protect who she could.
But this time—Charles is here. Hank is here. Pietro is here. ”No one will stand a chance.”
Pietro trails behind Frankie as he pokes his head into each room. Pietro watches him check off the names off his list one by one. Frankie becomes more calm as each name is verified.
It’s during Frankie’s check list that Pietro notices that Bobby is sleeping in Jeans room.
Bobby sleeps in the top bunk and Jean sleeps on the other bunk bed also on the top. Like the distance of height is too far away even for them. There’s styrofoam cups attached with string that connect one bunk with the other. A children’s telephone. Pietro wonders what even is the point of Jean can read Bobby’s mind. Jean sleeps underneath a pile of blankets—-clutching onto a stuffed bunny that Pietro is fully aware belongs to Bobby. The cold boy usually pretends he doesn’t have the stuffed animal, hiding it under his bed. Bobby’s mother shipped it over from his house about two weeks into IceBoy staying at the mansion. Hes caught the boy washing it with his laundry, trying to pretend it wasn’t his when Pietro goes to do it for him and sees it underneath his dirty tshirts.
“This been goin’ on for a while?”
“Bobby gets scared when he doesn’t know where Jean is.” Frankie says with no judgment in his voice. The small boy knows how it feels to not be able to rest without knowing his friends are okay. It’s why he needs to check everyone off the list.
“Bobby’s the one that gets scared?”
“Yeah. He has trouble breathing. Like me.” Frankie says.
Panic attacks.
Pietro Maximoff kind of hates how many kids in the mansion get panic attacks. It actually breaks his heart a little.
Frankie checks off the last person on his list and slips the book in his side bag. Pietro does a big brother thing and tucks him into bed even though he insists he doesn’t need to be. “I can always check off the list with you. Keep you company.” Pietro says offhandedly “I don’t sleep anyway.”
Frankie avoids looking at him “Wanda was doing it with me before she left.”
“Oh, yeah? Sounds like her.” Pietro goes to flick the lamp off but Frankie shifts in his spot “can you…” Frankie bites his lip nervously playing with his fingers. “..when you find Wanda…can you tell her I’m not mad anymore. I can—she can come back whenever she wants. I won’t be—I won’t be upset with her. I’m not hurt anymore. I’m grown up now.”
“You’re grown up now?” Pietros voice mumbles out with sadness “you’re not meant to be grown up kiddo. You’re allowed to be upset with her. It doesn’t make you more of a kid if you’re still mad. Or hurt. It’s alright.”
“But I’m not mad she can come back whenever she wants. She doesn’t have to stay away.”
Pietro doesn’t even know how Frankie mixed it in his head so that Wanda being gone is somehow his fault. Nothing could possibly be more wrong. “When I find her I’ll tell her you’re waiting for her. That you miss her. That we all miss her.”
“Okay good.” Frankie says In such an innocent little kid voice that it makes Pietro want to start crying. He doesn’t.
Pietro turns off the light.
“Good night brother-in-law.” Frankie mumbles into the darkness.
“Good night Frankie.”
Eventually Pietro goes to bed. He feels off. Like he’s being watched but he disregards it as his paranoid body betraying him in the dead of night.
He huddles underneath the sheets with a grimace. He crashes into his mind almost immediately. A relentless nightmare of waking up in that machine, to being betrayed once again by a trustworthy Charles. A trustworthy Kurt. A trustworthy Hank. All of them ending the loop with a smack to the head and another round of anguish. He dreams that the last month has been fake. That he was never rescued. That it’s another allusion.
A fake scenario to put Pietro at ease.
He wakes up crying and feels fingers wiping away at his tears blindly. Kurt had crawled into his bed in the middle of the night, curled up against his side like a monkey.--like they are back at the facility again in that dark room, gathering body heat.
“Baby?” Pietro mumbles into his hair, feeling warm and groggy. His nightmare fading back into his mind.
“Hmmm?” Kurt squeezes his waist, stubby fingers soaking into him trying to get closer–impossibly closer. Tangled legs and cheeks pressed against his chest like it’s meant to be there. Completely comfortable and at ease.
“Whenyougethere?” Pietro slurred together, half asleep and only slowly processing the fact that he fell asleep alone and is now molded into Kurt’s body.
“Hmm?imtired.” Kurt is barely responding, and Pietro is so sleepy that he’s about to let it go. Fall back asleep with Kurt like it was always meant to happen.
“Okaybaby, sleep.”
Kurt lets out a soothed sound looking so happy to fall fully asleep and it makes Pietro melt into the mattress, rubbing circles on Kurt’s back. “I love you pie.”
“I love you too blue.”
“you're safe here.” He mumbles, barely heard under the fan running.
Pietro drapes the blanket so it covers Kurt as well. His blue friend purrs like a damn cat and Pietro smiles softly at his cute little noises of contentment.
“Good night.”
Kurt snores.
It’s the best sleep Pietro's had since he got back a month ago.
When he closes his eyes he doesn’t have any nightmares for the first time since the facility. For the first time in a while he falls asleep immediately.
It’s maybe minutes—hours—maybe before he feels the fast hand cupping his mouth—stifling his startled scream.
Pietro jerks in the bed as he stares eyes wide at a boy with white hair and sharp eyes that resemble his own.
“Whaghdafug?”Pietro muffles behind the hand that grips his mouth shut.
“Imma need you to not freak out.” The scarily buff man darts his eyes towards the sleeping Kurt currently cuddled up next to him.
“Whoarfyogh?whahishghoinown?!!!” Pietro bites his palm and he hisses “stop it.” He whisper shouts.
“Stop freaking out. Okay? I’m gonna move my hand but I’m gonna need you not to wake everybody up, alright? You promise?”
Pietro nods slowly, with wide eyes and his heart jumping out of his chest.
The stranger removes his hand and Pietro lets out the loudest—most toe curling scream he’s ever screamed in his life—waking absolutely fucking everybody up.
“Not cool dude.” The boy huffs and superspeeds away. Superspeeds.
What the fuck ?
Notes:
You will find typos. Sorry not sorry.
Chapter 26: The Irregularity
Summary:
“Is Luna a student?” He doesn’t know the names of all the new students yet. He feels a bit bad about it but he’s been preoccupied with recovering from his injuries. But the name—it’s a nice name. A pretty name. He thinks if someone introduced themselves as Luna he'd remember—simply because the name stuck out to him. It’s a good name.
“Every universe is different.” Pete says almost too himself. “But Luna…okay. Okay. Shit. Alright.” He shakes himself—in super speed—he seems jittery and suddenly anxious and this frantic version of his other self seems more like Pietro. More his style. For a second he actually sees the resemblance.
He's almost proud of himself for freaking the other guy out. Winning the imaginary competition he has going in his head. He doesn’t have much time to feel smug though.
“Lunas my kid. Our kid I guess.”
Oh.
--------Pietro meets Pete, for better or for worse.
Notes:
Logan Mention. Loki Mention. Luna Mention. TVA mention. Anya Mention. Kurt Trauma Mention.
Many things are mentioned. you get a mention, you get a mention, we all get a mention!! yay!
Luna has been sitting in my back pocket for a minute. This is just seven thousand words of Pietro being jealous of himself.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Kurt Wagner being directly beside him, sleeping soundlessly, when Pietro unleashes the depths of hell through his vocal cords—is the only logical reason why he went into action so fucking quickly. It's faster than either speedster can think.
Pietro smells sulfur and sees the sudden movements collide in front of him.
Pietro finds it a bit too attractive how quick Kurt Wagner is to fight whoever the intruder is. Quick to protect. Quick to attack. It makes something in Pietros fucked up brain buzz.
The strange intruder fully disgruntled by Pietros clear defiance in following instructions begins to super speed away but not before Kurt, brave and beautiful Kurt, teleports onto the intruder's back and pulls him onto the ground—digging his nails into his shoulders, the same hands that had caressed Pietro's tears away not even hours before. All of this happens in quick succession and in wind-breaking super speed and it is insane to witness from where Pietro laid in bed. Pietro thought the intruder would try to fight back but he barely makes a move to fight Kurt once he sees who tried to stop him.
They fall to the ground with a thud and Kurt hisses and the intruder just sighs as he lays on the ground. “Yeah, I guess this might as well happen.” Like he’s not even gonna bother fighting Kurt. He hasn’t even considered it. In his defense—even though the intruder needs no one to defend him—Kurt is very strong and intimidating when he’s pissed off. It’s hot and debilitating and Pietro has witnessed his remarkable strength in the facility, pushing a full-grown man against the wall like he was a beast. He’s baring his teeth at the man like he might use them as weapons.
What a way to die.
The house erupts into action shortly afterward, not taking much time after Pietro's battle cry for half the damn school to be in the hallway. Stomping their feet and knocking on his door. Alert and panicked.
“What happened?”
“Peter?”
“What’s going on?”
”Is pie okay?“
“Peter, are you alright?”
Different voices jumped into questions—overlapping each other like butchered song lyrics of anxiety and concern.
“This is what I was trying to avoid.” The intruder voices in annoyance. Which—fucking rude—he’s the one that broke into Pietros room In the middle of the night like some creep. Did he expect him to be chill about that? Have a mild reaction?
It’s both impressive and concerning how quickly everyone got up from bed and went into action. It’s kind of touching and kind of sad to think about. These are kids who are ready for the worst at the drop of a hat. Charles is in the room within seconds. Twenty-two seconds to be exact. Hank is opening the door right behind him—adorning a metal bat that he got from seemingly nowhere. No one in the school plays baseball and Pietro knows Hank's sport is football not baseball. So he just has that for what ? To break shit? Hank looks more awake then Charles, like he might’ve been awake before he heard Pietro's scream. Charles looks like he just woke up from a nightmare just to enter another one.
Hank flicks the light on and the professor's anxious eyes search and find Pietro instantly—his tense face relaxing slightly seeing that he was okay. Pietros stomach turns and Charles looks away and at Kurt who is straddling and poking at the intruder with a rough hand and a deadly glare that sends unnecessary goosebumps up Pietro's back.
Pietro needs to get a grip .
“Kurt?” Hank's voice melts into Kurt’s shoulders making them tense up and he curls his mouth like a scared and trapped animal. “You got him, Kurt. You can let go of him now.” Charles says kindly—his voice gentler than Pietro expects for an unexpected home invasion.
Kurt doesn’t let go though. He tightens his grip and he’s shaking like a leaf in the rain. “You’re not real.” The blue boy grinds out and Pietros eyebrows furrow together. Alarmed. “Blue?” Pietro begins to question before Kurt hisses at the intruder who tries to move away from Kurts tight hold.
“You’re not him. You can’t trick me. You’re a fake you can’t-“ the intruder looks up at Kurt with calm eyes, almost somber in his stillness.
“-Kurt.” Hanks voice goes down on octave, soothing a scared animal. “You’ve left the facility.” He reminds him warily. “We aren’t in your mind. This is all real. The man underneath you is real—you’re back home. It’s all over.”
“You can’t trick me!” Kurt spits at Hank like he’s the villain too. Like anyone and everyone in this room could be the imposter. The imposter. Pietros knows that Kurt had gone through a similar torture as him and it’s affected him. But knowing and seeing those effects are very different.
The first few nights Kurt would wake up screaming and would only get worse when Hank would get close. The only thing that would calm the teleporter down was Hank listing medical procedures. Apparently the imposter didn’t know enough about McCoys field to accurately portray him in conversation and it was the only way Kurt would know Hank was Hank. It was probably the only time Hanks' nerdy ramblings saved his neck.
Kurt Wagner doesn’t talk about the moments in the facility where Pietro wasn’t with him. He doesn’t talk about the torture—nothing outside the obvious—the things he can see. Nothing deeper than the scars Pietro can see. Nothing about what happened in his head. But he sees signs of it sometimes in the way he asks questions now. Like he’s verifying that the person he’s talking to is the person they say they are.
Pietro swallows thickly, mind racing unnaturally fast. Trying to figure out how to make this better. “Baby, it’s alright—-you got him.”
“Don’t call me that.” Kurt snaps angrily at Pietro his eyes cold and the speedster sees conflicted yellow Eyes— staring down at the President with a gun in her hand, ready to pull the trigger . Pietro looks at Kurt now, angry and furious and only sees Raven. Nightcrawler is Kurt’s version of Raven's Mystique. A perfect shield. The resemblance is uncanny when the full force of his rage is aimed at Pietro. Like he’s the root of all his problems.
“Okay.” Pietro rushes out quickly trying not to flinch at how Kurt’s eyes look through him, like he wasn’t even there. Like all if this truly was all in his head. Like Pietro wasn’t his best friend but simply an illusion meant to hurt him.
This is fine. This is okay.
“I’m not a fucking baby . I-I know my own mind. This isn’t real. None of you are rea—“ his eyes meet Charles and the telepath must say something to him. Kurt shakes his head, grip tightening around the intruders neck.
“You’re pressing into his external jugular vein.”
Kurt’s eyes go big, darting down to his hands which laid on a neck. “External jugular vein.” He repeats absently like he’s verifying.
“You’re compressing the cervical nerves which can lead to radiating pain, numbness, and weakness down the arm.” Hank keeps his voice nice and even and Kurt is blinking fast like he’s trying to unblur his eyes. He purses his lips.
“I’m—hurting him.” Kurt says slowly like he isn’t sure. Kurt’s shoulders sag and his hands clamp away from the intruder's neck. Eyes losing their Mystique-ness.
“It’s alright, Kurt. Just take a breath. Look at where you are.” Charles begins, his voice gaining a sudden lightness that he usually deserves for Wanda.
Kurt does as he’s told. He inhales and exhales and he smells the lilac air spray that jerks out every few minutes from the wall plug. He feels the soft thrifted rug underneath his bare feet and on his scraped knees. Kurt looks at the disarray of band posters bleeding through the walls. The teleporter hears the buzzing of electricity flowing through the mansion, gathering light into the room. He focuses and unfocuses. Like a camera lense.
“I’m in Pietros room.” Kurt says numbly like he wasn’t completely certain. “Yeah, you are. You’re at school.” Charles says calmly.
“I’m home.” Kurt bubbles out like he might cry—but he makes the pinched face Frankie does when he’s trying not to cry. Like he might explode with emotion if he lets the tears start flowing. The expression is so uncannily similar to the one that Frankie makes—Pietro wonders if he got it from him or if Frankie got it from Kurt.
Pietro wants to hold him safely in his arms, away from the man pinned underneath him like a limp doll.
“Not to be weird but if you don’t stop sitting on my junk this is about to get a whole lot more awkward than it needs to be.”
Kurt, with suppressed tears on his face, jerks down to look at the man speaking “who are you?” his voice between a sob and a hiss.
“Yeah! And why are you in my room?” Pietro demands as well his voice getting high and pitchy.
“it's complicated.” The man says immediately. Kurt then puts his hand around the intruder's throat again with a clear mind.
“Kurt!” Hank chokes out in surprise.
“Oh fun. We’re doing this again?” The man on the ground doesn’t even flinch with Kurt’s fingers wrapped around his throat.
“Who are you?” Kurt voices the question with a thick accent and the intruder on the ground stares at Kurt for a while, stretching the long silence with inquisitive eyes, like he’s trying to figure out a confusing puzzle.
“We will call the police.” Charles warns icily. Breaking the expression on the intruder's face. “Don’t do that.”
“I already called the cops.” Hank adds suddenly. Charles gives him an exasperated look. “Hank…”
“Seriously?” The intruder says disappointedly.
“Oh, I’m sorry? Are you joking? Calling the cops is actually super reasonable in this situation.”
“I agree.” Pietro raises his voice in defense but he’s ignored.
“Me too.” Kurt Wagner adds.
“It took you like thirty seconds to get here. You called them in the thirty seconds it took you to get here?” Charles says in bewilderment.
“Yes, it’s a very short number. Only three digits.”
“Hank. Why would you assume it wasn’t Pietro having a nightmare?”
Pietro crosses his arms defensively. He did not need Charles to mention he has nightmares in front of this complete stranger.
“I saw the intruder from outside. That’s why I grabbed my bat.” Charles looks at Hanks bat with confusion “you play baseball?”
“No.”
“Okay.” Charles sighs he turns back to the scene like he wasn’t just openly scolding Hank “Why are you in our home?” Charles asks the man who just stares at the professor with a weird expression.
“You know why.”
“Do I?” Charles lifts a suspicious eyebrow and Pietro looks between the two in confusion and then looks at Hank who just shrugs. “Who are you exactly?”
“You know who I am.” The intruder says easily.
Pietro looks between the two, confused and annoyed. “You know this guy, Charles?”
Charles and the intruder have the weirdest staring contest he’s ever seen. probably having a conversation in their minds that must’ve convinced Charles because now he’s settling back in his wheelchair with sagging shoulders.
“Yes, I do.” Charles says with surprising calmness. “He’s you.”
“Who?” Pietro frowns.
“You.” Charles doesn’t stop looking at the intruder.
“Me?” Pietro points at himself dumbly.
“Yes.” Charles looks at Pietro with somber eyes.
“But I’m me. He can’t be me because I’m me.” Pietros brain might actually be broken. Is he making this up? Has he lost it?
“Are we sure we’re out of the facility?” Kurt says with distant panic. Pietro is feeling equally as anxious about this scene.
“Yes, he’s you. But he’s not. He’s…different. From the future but not this one.” Charles isn’t making any sense.
“What?” Hank and Pietro say in horror. Kurt looks down at the man he’s sitting on top of, eyes focusing and intense and he must see something that makes his face go flush purple.
“Gotta give it to them in smaller doses, wheels.” The intruder says casually smiling up at Kurt like he’s an old friend. Which makes Pietro want to crawl out of his skin. Kurt isn’t associated with this guy at all. Kurt is Pietro's friend. Not this random guys' friends.
“Don’t call him that.” Pietro snaps. This man is a stranger. He has no right to call anyone by Nicknames. He doesn’t get to look at Kurt like that.
“Peter it’s alright.” Charles raises a placating hand at Pietro like he’s the crazy one in this scenario. No. This is all wrong.
“I’m having Deja vu.” Hank puts a hand on his head, looking distressed.
“Logan said you might come.” Charles drops the information like it didn’t just cut through the room.
Logan.
“He did?” Hanks' tone sounds almost offended.
“He said someone might come. That time is strict and doesn’t like to be altered. That this person will try and mend things so that it can bend.”
“Your Logan is a real talker huh.” The intruder jokes. And he really wasn’t. Logan was the opposite of a talker. He exclusively did not say words If not necessary. It was kinda his whole schtick.
“He wasn’t. But he wanted to warn me. He didn’t say who would come. Just that I would know when they did.”
“Logan is great at being perfectly Vague. Isn’t he?” The intruder joked.
“So you’re Pietro?” Kurt is still sitting on his lap, eyes wide and staring.
“No, I'm Pietro.” Pietro cuts in stubbornLy- his mind racing and his fingers twitching like a bad habit.
“Im Pete, actually. Just Pete.” The intruder says with a grin that makes Pietro want to throw up because that's his grin. Those are his dimples on a creep. What the fuck. Why does this guy have his smile?
“You don’t go by Peter?” Hank asks curiously. asking the completely wrong question.
“Every universe is a little different. I’ve met Pete’s, Peter’s, Pietros, Pedro’s and I even met a Petra once. It’s the same variant, just a little different.” Pete throws out this information like it isn’t breaking Pietro's mind.
Like this isn’t confusing enough.
It is. It really fucking is.
Pietro went to sleep worrying about Frankie and Wanda and his mom and suddenly he’s being introduced to peters and Pedro’s?
“I’m you, just a different franchise.” Pete says calmly and Pietro looks at his sharp jaw peppered with genetically white facial hair and his handsome tan face and his stupidly buff arms and he hears “better” instead of Different .
Pete looks like what Pietro wishes he looks like. Like some cooler, hotter version of him that isn’t nearly as traumatized as him. This fucking sucks. Pietro already hates how he fucking looks he didn’t need this slapping reminder of what he could be. Of what he should be.
“Are you the reason why all the snacks in my office have been dwindling?” Charles asks like he already knows the answer.
“Yeah, that’s my bad. My professor always had snacks stashed away for me too. I figured you wouldn’t miss them.”
“I didn’t. The snacks are for you.” Charles says kindly. This alternate, adult version of Pietro is maybe a decade older then Pietro is now. Yet Charles is looking at him like he's one of his students. Like he’s not a grown-ass man who was very much about to kidnap Pietro. Probably. Most likely.
“They were my hohos.” Pietro cuts in rudely “They're actually for me.” And he points that comment at Charles, making his annoyance known. Charles has the decency to look embarrassed by his slip-up. Like he momentarily forgot that he wasn’t talking to his Pietro.
Pietro didn’t think he’d be that easily forgotten.
Kurt gets up from on top of the speedster. Pulling Pete up by the arm and Pietro doesn’t miss the way Kurt's eyes stick to the older boy's arms. Pietro has to restrain himself from grabbing Kurt and shaking him. Why is everyone obsessed with this guy?
“So you’ve been here a while.” Hank says. “You were here when….Erik was here.” Hank says it like that’s significant.
Pete blinks at Hank like he’s speaking in Morse code “yeah. I was. Couldn’t let the old man spot me. Would give too much away.”
Hanks eye twitches and Pete just raises both his eyebrows at him almost like a dare. “Right…that would be bad because…”
“He needed to go back to Poland. To his wife and daughter. That still needed to happen.”
“Daughter.” Charles says distantly.
Pete Looks away from Hanks questioning eyes and looks at Charles with alarm “Yeah, did he not tell you? I thought-“
“-He did. Yes, he told me. He didn’t know if—if it was a boy or girl. I was just surprised.”Charles says with feeling.
Pietro thinks he looks sad actually but he doesn’t question him. At least not now with all this happening.
“Two Variants in the same timeline always end up fucking something up. Just look at Loki.”
“Who?” Hank rubs his forehead like he’s fighting a headache.
“The Greek god of mischief?” Pietro frowns mentally trying to remember anything from Greek mythology. Rachel, his ex girlfriend, used to always check out books in the library on Greek mythology. Mostly Hades and Zeus but she would read to him sometimes when he was feeling less hyper and still.
“Yep. Except no.” Pete says with a laugh that feels like nails on A chalkboard.
“That makes perfect sense, thank you.” Pietro huffs in annoyance.
“It’s not important. The point is we ain’t supposed to mesh. It can cause like glitches or something. The TVA will have my ass if I f uck up another timeline.” Pete freezes.
“What?” Charles frowns. “What’s wrong?”
“ Fuck .” Pete blurts out.
“ Fuck off!” He exclaims excitedly.
“ Holy shit! Bitch! Asshole !” A wicked smile smears onto his face.
“Um, Why are you freaking out?” Pietro is actually concerned.
“You can curse in this universe?” Pete looks elated.
“Uh..yeah? Can you not curse in yours?”
“We’re usually pg-13. Family friendly trauma only.”
“Bummer.” Pietro clips out.
“We actually prefer if you didn’t curse. Considering, the-you know-children.” Charles tabs in.
“Right. The children.” Pete nods and sits on Pietros bed like it’s his. Pietro nudges him off it with his foot since he’s still laying in it and Pete looks at him with amusement.
“Why are you here Pete?” Kurt asks gently, any aggression he had before is slipped away and replaced with concerned curiosity.
“Well, Kurtis dear, I’m stuck in this timeline unfortunately. I broke the little doo-hicky that makes me jump from different universes. It’s just my luck I ended up stranded in a time period before Stark Tech.” He makes a flippant gesture with his hands.
He talks a lot with his hands. Does Pietro do that? He hopes not. Pete looks ridiculous.
“And so you decide that kidnapping was the best solution.” Pietro swallows the words of outrage that want to bubble out of his throat.
“Don’t be so dramatic I wasn’t going to kidnap you.” Pete has the audacity to roll his eyes and Pietro feels the need to strangle him.
“It seemed like you were.” Kurt says quietly, ringing his hands in front of him anxiously. Pietro wants to hold his hand. He doesn’t.
“Pete it was a bit tone deaf.” Charles says pensively his voice rough “after the abduction—-he just got back. You should’ve thought about how your actions might come across.” It’s the closest to a scolding that Pietro can imagine Charles giving the older speedster.
Pete seems to take the words as if they where a scolding. Like maybe Charles is someone he actually listens to in his universe. “Sorry, that’s my bad. I wasn’t trying to scare you I just needed your help.”
“Needed his help with what?” Hank asks and Pietro notes that he has yet to loosen the grip on his bat, blue skin pale around the knuckles. Pietro is relieved at the fact that he’s not the only one who feels uneasy by the man’s presence.
Pete looks at all the people in the room. Kurt, Hank, Charles, and Pietro. He’s quiet for a moment and he looks at a picture beside Pietros bed. His face looks conflicted before he looks back at Pietro. “I think I should discuss that with Pietro alone.”
“Like hell you do—“ Hank is quick to say and he barely has time to raise his bat threateningly.
“-Pete you can’t just—“ Charles is clearly searching his head and before—Pietro presumes—he could read Pete’s mind the speedster runs off.
“Peter you can’t —“
“—your leg is still recovering—“ Hank begins but Pietro can see Pete running and he’s running after him at super speed before any of the other words really land on him. He follows the white flash of curls ahead of him running down the hallways—weaving through the students who were woken up with the ruckus.
He runs past the ache in his leg and he follows the other speedster until they are right beside each other, running in pairs. Running in unison. He can tell that the speedster had slowed down so Pietro could catch up. He was faster than Pietro. Possibly through proper training or maybe because Pietro was recovering. But it made panic swell in Pietro.
No one has ever been faster than him.
They stop right in front of the lake, the water shaking from the force of both their speed.
Pietros feet burned because he’s running barefoot and Pete’s shoes are smudged with mud.
“What the hell was that about?”
“The less people involved the better. Less ways to fuck up the timeline.”
“That’s stupid. They can help you. Hank isn’t a Stark or whatever but he’s a scientist, he can help you with your machine thing.”
“He’d have to use science that hasn’t been invented yet and I seriously do not want to have to teach my God-Father Science that I barely understand myself.”
“Godfather?”
“Forget I said that.” Pete shakes his head.
“Literally, impossible. I don’t think anyone is gonna forget any of this anytime soon. How is Hank my Godfather?”
“He’s not. He’s mine. We’re from different universes, remember? In your timeline you guys— met like a year ago or something. In my timeline I grew up in the mansion with Charles and Hank. They raised me together. Like brothers.”
Hank and Charles being brothers in another timeline makes sense to Pietro in a way. Hank has been by Charles’ side for over Ten years. That’s more than enough time to be solidified as brothers. At least best friends.
But Charles has never said. He says “dear friend” or “old friend” but never “best friend” never “brother” and Pietro thinks that’s a bit odd now that he’s thinking about it because if anyone has gained that title it’s Hank. Yet….nothing.
“I was under Charles’ care.” Pete says as he pulls a twizzler from his pocket and rips open the plastic packaging.
“That’s weird. So Charles is like your—“
“—dad. Yeah. Charles is my dad.”
Pietros breath is stolen. He stares at Pete like the word ‘dad’ was a fucking slur.
“He’s not. He isn’t my dad he’s just Charles. He-“
“—He isn’t your dad. Relax. I’m trying to explain to you that every timeline is different. In this one Charles is what…your professor? Your coworker? I don’t know—it’s weird but it’s not unusual. I’ve met Peters who dont even have a Charles. It’s all different.”
But that feels wrong too. No Charles? At all? Pietro tries to pretend that it doesn't scare him.
“In your universe he is though? Charles is…your dad? Like…biologically?” Pietro can’t even imagine that. He can imagine Charles having kids. He can picture it in his head perfectly—he sees it all the time when he’s around the students but Pietro being one of those kids is impossible for him to imagine. Or maybe he just refuses to imagine it.
“No. Not biologically. He’s my adopted father. My biological father is-“ Pete snaps his mouth shut and makes a tsk noise. “-im not allowed to say that.”
“Say what? Who your father is? Didn’t you just say that every timeline is different?”
“Most of the time this is pretty accurate. And pretty dangerous information to be throwing around.”
“What the fuck.”
“Do you know who your father is?”
“No? How the fuck, no my mom never told me who my father was.”
Pete’s face shifts “well finding out is a cannon event so I’m not touching that at all.”
“That’s bullshit.”
“Thats just how it is. Certain things have to happen in every universe. Nothing I can do about it.”
“And if it doesn’t? If I never find out?”
“You will.”
“But if I don’t?”
“Well…the TVA used to eradicate timelines that didn’t follow the order of events but now they are under new management. Hazzah.”
“Eradicate? What the ever loving fuck? They just kill off an entire planet?”
“Timeline. Universe slash reality, the whole Shabang would be gone like it didn’t even exist. That’s how they did it for a long while. There are sooooooo many peters in the Void they’ve started a small cult. The only reason I’m not in there is cause I managed to weasel my way into a job. I’m under contract for one more job before I settle back into a secure timeline with my family.” that was a lot to take in.
“One more job? What kind of job?”
“Sniffing out irregularities. Mostly leg work stuff, research and such. This was supposed to be my last jump but—my jumper ran out of juice and I thought I could make it back.”
His last job. Pietro shifts that around in his head and frowns. “Irregularities like what?”
Pete looks at Pietro as if he’s the telepath in his universe. Pietro shifts his leg feeling the urge to repeat himself even though he’s pretty sure the other man has heard him. “Are there any irregularities here?” Pietro Asks instead and Pete just stares at Pietro like he might answer his own question.
Pietro crosses his arms “I’m not helping you with whatever you need help with until you’ve answered my questions.”
Pete crosses his arms as well and Pietro wonders if he looks as intimidating as Pete does when he does that. He probably doesn’t. “It's better if you didn’t know. It’s like—a lot.”
“A lot? Like—are we getting eradicated?” Pietro gestures towards the mansion in distress. “Are we blipping out of existence or something? You said—“
“-no! Woah. Chill out. Dude. You’re like way more angsty in this universe. Fuck. Stop freaking out okay? You’re universe isn’t going to like end or—at least not right now. It’s just that some things are different. It’s nothing catastrophic—usually it would be in any other case but I think you’re the exception.”
You’re .
“Me? I’m the exception? Am I—“ Pietro doesn’t even know how to phrase the question “am I the irregularity?”
It’s so dumb. It’s a stupid question. Especially since the moment he says it he knows it’s true. He's always felt off .
He wouldn’t have used the word irregular but it fits like a damn glove.
Pete Doesn’t even say anything this time. He just stares at Pietro like he’s a ghost. Like he isn’t even a proper person that deserves a proper response.
“How?” Pietro's heart feels like it’s not even in his chest anymore. He feels like maybe he left it behind in his room like a lost toy.
“Trust me. You don’t wanna know.”
“I do want to know.” Pietro says firmly and Pete just shakes his head like he knows better than him. And Pietro hates him. He hates whatever fucked up version of him this is because he thinks he knows better. He thinks the age in his face and the scar on his eyebrow makes him more knowledgeable—more knowing than him.
Maybe that’s true. Maybe he’s seen more shit than Pietro. Maybe this version of him has lived through horrors Pirtro can only dream up in a torture chamber. Maybe. But fuck him anyway.
He doesn’t get to keep this from Pietro. He doesn’t have the right to withhold something that has to do with him. Why does he get to do that?
“I’m not helping you then.” Pietro says like a petulant child and is already preparing to head back to the mansion in a moment of emotional rebellion.
“Wait-“ Pete grabs his arm before he can leave looking panicked. “I need you.”
Pietro lifts an eyebrow at his expecting face.
“There isn’t any point in telling you. You can’t reverse it and the fact that it happened at all and didn’t absolutely destroy this timeline is beyond comprehension. But it’s not something that needs fixing. So there’s no point. It won’t cause any more harm than it already has.”
“Then what’s the point of keeping it from me? If it’s no big fucking deal then just fucking tell me?”
“Pietro Django Maximoff I swear you do not want to know.”
“Pete Django maximoff I swear that I fucking do.”
“That’s not my last name.” Pete exasperates.
“What-fucking-ever! What even is the point of you ominously popping into this universe if not to spill the beans? You won’t tell me shit! You’re just an asshole!”
“I’m supposed to give you this.” Pete suddenly takes off his necklace and throws it at Pietro like the necklace burns him. “Catch.”
It’s only because Pietro goes into super speed that he's able to catch the jewelry with swift fingers.
“What is it?” Pietro looks at the yarn woven into a small canister. Maybe the size of his pinky. The liquid inside an indescribable silver.
“It’s your DNA.”
“Gross.”
Pete rolls his eyes “it’s special. Has extra timey-whammy bullshit that makes other people heal quickly.”
“Why would I need to heal anyone?” Hanks the doctor. Pietro doesn’t heal people. Hank does.
“Trust me. When the time comes you’ll need it to save her.”
“Save who? Come on man stop being so fucking cryptic.” Pietro grips the vial like it might disappear if he lets go of it.
“Our sister.” Pete says eventually.
“Wanda?” Pietro's heart stops. “Does she get hurt?” His mind races and he was already worried but now he’s beyond frantic. “Is she okay?”
“It’ll only be compatible with someone who shares your DNA. Try to give it to anybody else and it won’t work.” Peter looks at him intensely “do you understand?”
“Yeah I understand.” Pietro's mind stirs “Do I at least get to know when I’ll need it.”
“You’ll know when it happens.” Pete says simply. Like a dick.
“But you do need to know it’s the only way. He still needs to mourn. Someone still has to die. You can’t change that. Those versions of events can’t change. You can save one . Not both.”
“He? Who’s he?” And for some reason, Pietro's mind thinks of Charles. He thinks of Charles mourning his sister and someone else—someone else he doesn’t have the face for. Pietro feels a swell of panic. Of sadness.
Pete just shakes his head—like he’s said too much already.
“So that’s it then? You give me this super vague message and fingers cross I use the super healing serum on my sister and you just get to fuck off to neverland?”
“That’s kinda the gig really. I was supposed to give it to you before I realized you where a bit weird but regardless it’s what I’m supposed to do.”
“And you do exactly what you’re told twenty four seven? No matter what?” He’s such a damn bitch. He hates him.
“I used to be like you. Rebellious. Wreckless. I questioned everything too.”
Oh, he’s getting this speech? Seriously?
“And now you’re so mature? Doing exactly what you’re told like a real man? How amazing . How fucking old of you.“ Pietro is so unnaturally angry. At himself. At this version of himself who feels and looks so different then how he is. He sees himself in a way that he doesn’t find completely appealing and it’s making him so resentful and uncomfortable in his presence.
“I have a Wanda too. A Hank. A Kurtis. I have a dad, a father, a mother—“
—Pietro doesn’t catch the fact that he said father and Dad like it’s two separate people because Pete also says—-
“—I have a Luna too. My family is relying on me to get back home. To finish the job and settle down with them. I have to do everything in my power to get back to my family, okay? I don’t get to question the TVA just because you—“
“--Who’s Luna?” Pietro didn’t think the other speedster would stop talking when he said that. He seems to freeze completely, the color from his face washing away in seconds “you—“ Pete narrows his eyes at something Pietro can’t see “-you don’t know Luna? You-“ he looks tense all of the sudden. Like something is truly wrong.
“Is Luna a student?” He doesn’t know the names of all the new students yet. He feels a bit bad about it but he’s been preoccupied with recovering from his injuries. But the name—it’s a nice name. A pretty name. He thinks if someone introduced themselves as Luna he'd remember—simply because the name stuck out to him. It’s a good name.
“Every universe is different.” Pete says almost to himself. “But Luna…okay. Okay. Shit. Alright.” He shakes himself—in super speed—he seems jittery and suddenly anxious and this frantic version of his other self seems more like Pietro. More his style. For a second he actually sees the resemblance.
He's almost proud of himself for freaking the other guy out. Winning the imaginary competition he has going in his head. He doesn’t have much time to feel smug though.
“Lunas my kid. Our kid I guess.”
Oh.
Something in Pietro cracked, splitting open in his head—something he didn’t know could break more. “We have a kid?” He didn’t mean to sound so heartbroken by this. He was surprised by the delicateness of his own voice. Like he’s afraid to speak the question in case he misheard. In case it’s a lie.
Pete looks completely devastated. Like Pietros told him something truly horrible. Pietro feels like he has. Pietro feels like something was taken from him. Something pure and beautiful. Something he didn’t know he wanted until he was told he didn't have it. like he was robbed of something he didn’t know could be stolen. He feels—-he feels .
“Yeah. We do.“ Pete says with sad eyes and he looks at Pietro with sympathy for the first time since he’s met the guy. Like this is the first time he’s actually felt empathy for him.
Before this it was like he was whatever—an irregularity—a lucky one at that. An exception. Pete had no remorse for Pietros life until he realized he had no Luna. He had no child. Pietro doesn’t know how to feel about that.
“I don’t.” Pietro says to the air as if he needed to clarify. The older speedster doesn’t even look like he’s there anymore. He seems distant and wobbly. Like he isn’t even processing much of anything that Pietro is saying.
“That’s—I can’t even imagine.” Pete says this as if fatherhood is everything. Like him being a father is essential to his story. Like Luna is his life. His heart. And Pietro suddenly feels like he has no heart. Like it’s been taken from him. Like he’s been walking around without a heart this whole damn time and he’s only now being made aware of it.
“Is that unusual?” Pietro refuses to say the word irregular because he’s scared. He's scared that him not having a Luna is the reason he’s irregular. That the absence of a heart has made him off .
“I might have missed some cracks in this timeline but nothing should account for the absence of my child.” His child . Like every Luna was his child. Despite the timeline. Despite the universes. Like even if it wasn't his Luna it was still his child. Like it was universal to him.
Luna equals Pete's child.
Pietro doesn’t fully understand that. He wishes he did.
“You said so yourself. Every universe is different. Maybe I don’t have a kid in this universe. It’s-it’s not a big deal. I don’t even want kids.” It feels like a lie. Like dirt in his mouth.
It is a lie.
He remembers telling Wanda not so long ago.
“ Twos good. A boy and a girl. They’ll keep each other company.” He had told her flippantly. As a joke. But now it doesn’t feel like a joke. It feels personal. Like a prophecy. One that will not come to pass.
Pete looks like Pietro just punched him. He looks like he’s about to punch him back—his face contorting into something angry “Don’t you dare fucking say that, you piece of shit.” He says venomously to Pietro and he takes a startled step away from Pete. What the fuck?
“Luna is the best fucking thing to ever happen to us. Don’t you dare say you don’t want her. Not even as a stupid joke. You fucking hear me?” Pete looks like he might actually say ‘fuck it’ and eradicate this universe regardless of Pietro being an exception. Like this whole Luna thing might actually change everything. Pietro wonders if he has that kind of power.
“Pietro!” Pete snaps his fingers aggressively in front of Pietros face and he glares at him. “I don’t get it man! You said every universe is different. You said—you told me that your future wasn’t my future. So why are you acting like this is the end of the fucking world.” Pietro feels like he’s lost. Like he’s the worst version of all the Peter’s.
“Luna Is in every Timeline.” Pete spits out like he has to force it out—like he wasn’t supposed to say that but does. Like he’s breaking a rule that the TVA set. The ones he’s so particular about keeping. “Every single one. In every universe—the ones that we live past Sixteen—we have a kid.”
“Past sixteen? So every Peter is a teen dad? I couldn’t imagine.” It feels like a lie. He does know how it feels to raise a child for the entirety of your teen years. He’s been raising Wanda since he was ten. He thinks maybe thats why hes freaking out a little bit. Did he trade Luna for Wanda? Is that what happened? Why does that make him sick to his stomach?
Pete snaps at him like he’s the stupid one. “How about you shut your stupid mouth.” But Pietro's mind is racing and a thought crosses Pietro's head. A stupid question.
“Fucking hell. Are you saying I’m straight in every single timeline?” Pietro thinks that might be the most horrific thing he’s heard all day. He think that might be the weirdest thing.
The other speedster just stares at him blankly “no.” he says with a voice that gives away exactly how much he hates Pietro and his questions. “I’m saying you’re a dad in every single timeline. Regardless of how that came to be. I don’t understand how this universe is different?”
“I didn’t raise a Luna-“ Pietro says ‘a Luna’ like she’s a material object and not a person. It’s the only way he’s able to think straight. “-but I did raise Wanda.”
Pete’s face makes a weird twitch that Pietro barely catches. “What?”
“Wanda? Your twin?”
“Twin? Negative dude. Wanda is not my Twin. She’s ten. Do I look ten to you?”
Pete looks at Pietro like he’s a bug. “No, you don’t. You look like a perfectly normal twenty one year old.”
“Twenty year old.” Pietro corrects with narrowed eyes.
“Right!” Pete snaps his fingers like it simply slipped his mind. “Twenty.” He repeats to himself. “Your Wanda…is she…alright?”
“I dont know.”
Pete just hums under his breath and then eventually looks towards the sky as if it might have the answers.
“Is she okay in yours?”
“Yeah, shes my best friend.” Pete says with conviction “She keeps me sane…and i havent seen her in a while.” Pietro thinks he might understand that feeling. He feels incomplete without his sister by his side.
Pietro then asks something. Something he wasnt even fully prepared to ask. “And Anya?”
Pete looks surprised by the question “Anya…” like he doesnt know how to process what Pietro is asking.
“She died before i was born. Is she…alive in your universe?”
Petes eyes clear, nodding in understanding “Shes…” his voice goes soft “...alive in some timelines. Happy. She grows old in some. Shes amazing. Exactly how we imagined shed be.”
But not in his. Anya is alive though. Just not in either of their timelines. But shes alive. Theres a version of events where she lives. A version of events where Pietro has an older sister. Its bittersweet.
Pete just stares at him like he might say something else. Something more meaningful. Pietro feels something wet roll down his nose. Blood. He has a nosebleed. He wipes at it with his hand. “Oh…”
“You’re not well.” Pete says with a frown. “You still need time to recover. So I’m stuck here for now.”
“You are?”
“You cant help me if you cant run at your fastest capacity.” Pete says with a frustrated look “Youre stuck with me.” Pete looks at the mansion in the distance. “For now.”
Fan-fucking-tatsic.
“Ill tell the professor then.” Pietro grumbles out. Pete waves his hands in his direction. “Don't bother. Already did.”
Right. That. “How come the professor can read your mind?”
Pete just gives him a questioning look “cause I let him.” As if it's that simple.
Pete runs off, the grass shifting behind him all dramatically. Pietro looks down at the necklace and rubs at the glass canister with a frown before slipping it around his neck.
He walks back to the mansion instead of running. Pietro hears the police sirens in the distance. Horrible response time as per usual. If there was an actual break in Pietro and everyone in the school would be long dead.
The Sirens get closer. Louder.
Pietro thinks for a flashing second that he's not where he's supposed to be. The sirens are at his ears. He hears crying. His mother crying. Cradling his head. His chest hurts. His shoulder hurts. The shoulder where the bullets are lodged into.
Everything feels convoluted and twisted and it only makes his head pound as the sirens get closer.
He needs to get some rest.
Yeah.
Thats what he needs to do.
Notes:
Typos and grammar mistakes will be found.
Sorry for the late chapter. This month has felt like ten.
I very quickly decided future/alternative Pietro had to be given a different name or else I was gonna give myself a headache.
Pete (obviously) hasn't traveled to every timeline he just assumes (from his experience) every Peter has a kid, he's just being a bit dramatic cause he misses his kid.
Random info... Pete took his father's last name so he's Pete Lehsnherr. I dont know if ill bring that up in the fic.
As always thanks for reading. ;)
Chapter 27: Failures and Successes
Summary:
“You’ve made an exceptional difference with these kids Peter. Don’t diminish the impact you’ve had on them. It’s demeaning not only to your efforts but to their progress because of those efforts.” Charles flips one of the essays over, hidden amongst the pile and it’s of a doodle. Probably made by one of the more artistically inclined students because he knows it’s him before he fully sees the whole picture.
It’s him in some sort of superhero costume. Goggles and cassette player on full display. A touch of accuracy to the fantasy of it all. He’s presumably in a running pose, frozen on the page with a goofy smile that makes his own grin appear on his face.
Pietro barely looks at the name on top of the page before the small grin turns into a wide smile. “Bobby drew this?”
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Pietro adjusts terribly to having another speedster in the mansion. Pietro reminisces and vents while Charles and him play a game of chess.
Notes:
Pietro isnt a high school drop out. In chapter one I mention that he quit (was forced to resign) running competitively three months before. Someone In the comment section had brought to my attention that this is why some readers assumed he was a high school dropout. I was super vague on his age and I did make it a point to be super vaugue about his childhood and life before we meet him In 'X-men days of the future past'. Sorry for accidentally misleading you. I did inevitably decide to play on the fact that he's a "high school drop out" but in an angstier way.
Anyway!
Im really happy everyone is enjoying the story so far, its really runaway from me. I have so much more i still wanna get to in this story. originally i wanted to fill in the ten year gap between 'Xmen Days of The Future Past' and X-men Apacolypse' but at the rate I'm going I'm gonna have to do a time skip. I know how I'm doing it--its just getting there is gonna take a while longer. The time wont be as drastic as TEN YEARS but regardless it'll be a time jump.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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It’s been days .
Pietro thinks the hype would’ve died down after the first day of Pete’s splashing arrival but everyone is just too invested in the man. Pete refuses to answer any “spoilers” though so most questions are non-specific.
“Do the Eagles win the championships?“ and he responds with Who are the Eagles?
”Do I get taller?” Probably .
“Is Hello Kitty a mutant?” No, weirdly enough, but Elmo is.
“Is my name Patrick?” Uh, I don’t know. Is it?
“Who’s the president of the United States?” Steve Rogers.
“How many marshmallows can you fit in your mouth?” Forty-seven.
“How fast can you run?” Pretty fast.
“Faster than a train?” Yep .
“Faster than a bullet?” Yes? Depends on the franchise.
“ Do you have a girlfriend?” No .
“Why not?” Cooties .
The questions get sillier and sillier and Pete responds very casually to them as if they are genuine questions and not inquiries done by children. Pete seems good with the kids. Another similarity that Charles seems to latch on to.
Despite himself, Pietro Maximoff makes an effort to track down all the new kids he doesn’t have names for and formally introduces himself to all of them. He tells Charles it’s so they know him properly, but he knows he’s looking for her name deep down.
A Luna.
But she’s not here. It would’ve been too easy for her to be a new student. Too convenient. He still feels the swell of disappointment when none of the stubby children with chipped teeth replied with a “Luna” when he asked for their names. But he’s also relieved that she wasn’t in that mess. she wasn’t in the facility.
Luna isn’t here. She probably never will be. She probably doesn’t even exist.
Pietro decides not to think about it.
The only person who seems not at all interested in playing twenty-one questions with Pete is Hank who decided pretty quickly he wanted zero insight into the future and closed himself inside his room for the foreseeable future. The only time he stumbles out of his room is if Kurt is knocking which isn’t a surprise. Pietro leaves small baked goods on a plate near his door and after the third time it’s left outside his door untouched the speedster begins to give them to Kurt to give to the blue man.
Charles takes Pietros' complaints over the other speedster like he’s a nagging customer in a convenience store. A fake placating smile and soothing words that make Pietro want to grind his teeth. Or shake his shoulders until his brain gets knocked back into place.
Charles likes Pete. Pietro is worried Charles might like Pete better than him.
Pete sometimes sounds vaguely like Charles. Like his accent had molded with his and seemed to surface with certain vowels on specific words. It’s a frivolous thing to be so caught up on. Pete was raised by Charles. His Charles. Of course, he’d pick up a few things from the man. A few things Pietro doesn’t because Pete was raised by a faux British millionaire.
It’s a bit of a “what if” moment.
What if he had Charles instead of David.
It’s a dumb and pointless thought. One that seems to grow bigger in his mind as the days pass.
“He’s got cool white hair and I get grey hair? That’s not fair.” Pietro hates comparing himself to him but ever since Pete’s decided being “scarce” around the Mansion wasn’t an option anymore he’s been popping up everywhere. It’s driving Pietro crazy. He’s been purposely hiding the hohos from him but he seems to know all the good hiding spots. He feels like he’s in constant threat. He tells the professor this at any given point.
It never occurs to Pietro to keep those insecurities away from him. He voices his distaste for the other speedster freely to Charles. Something in Pietros mind must truly be broken because he’s never talked shit this openly about someone else but when it comes to himself —to Pete—an alternative version of himself it’s like he’s given free range to say heinous and petty shit.
“Peter, son, that’s you. You can’t be jealous of yourself.” Charles reasons as he uses his prominent hand to steer his wheelchair.
He can certainly try. “He’s clearly got a better budget. And-“ Pietro looks at the muscles Kurt’s been shamelessly admiring for the last fifteen minutes “-a workout routine. Should I have a workout routine?” He looks at Charles expectantly.
“You look perfectly healthy, kid.” Charles says kindly, patting his arm encouragingly. He could care less about being healthy .
Pete, ever fucking observant, sees them from his spot on the track, he runs over smoothly at super speed and looks between Charles and him. He seems thrilled to see the professor. As if he hadn’t just monopolized the professor's entire day yesterday.
“Hey, old man.” And he smacks his hand against Charles's hand and does the most convoluted handshake he’s ever seen. Charles does it effortlessly, like he’s done it a million times before even if he looks utterly shocked as his hand moves on its own accord. Like muscle memory despite not having the practice or knowledge of ever learning the handshake. Pietro hates that this version of him is a million times cooler than him.
“How’s your health today professor?”
“My health?” Charles questions.
“Any headaches?”
“No? Healthy as a bull.” Charles smiles in amusement.
“Good. Wouldn’t want any canon events to happen so early.” Pete, despite saying otherwise, is very bad at being subtle. Constantly dropping tidbits of random information that always makes Pietro's brain recalibrate. Just this morning he casually mentioned Aliens like that was a genuine threat he needed to worry about.
“Pardon?” Charles' eyebrows lift in concern.
“Don’t worry about it, dad.” And there’s that. Dad .
The first time he heard him call Charles Dad it felt like the world had ended. It’s one thing to know that Pete’s Charles was his dad. And another thing to hear it— to see it. He wasn’t expecting this guy to go around calling every damn Charles he comes across; dad. But he does. Like a crazy asshole.
He does it without any qualms or regard for Pietro's emotional standing in the whole thing.
Charles Xavier isn’t Pietro's dad.
The first time Pete said it casually in conversation he saw the way Charles seemed to freeze up. Floundering slightly at the situation.
Because it is a situation. Pete isn’t that much younger than Charles. Practically the same age in this timeline. Anyone would be confused when a grown man they barely know starts calling them dad.
He probably would be confused if Pietro called him dad. Not that he would do that!
Charles's face seemed to take a different expression when Pete explained the situation a bit better. He looked…sad. Pietro doesn’t know how to take that. “Right, I understand the confusion then.” Charles sec plains away.
But Pete isn’t confused. He’s doing it on purpose . He’s trying to get on Pietro's fucking nerves. On purpose! Pietro has no proof of this but he can’t possibly explain away ‘dad’ as a slip-up. He does it every fucking time.
Pietro feels ridiculous when he tries to explain that to Kurt who only looks a bit confused. “He keeps calling him dad. It’s embarrassing.”
“Because they’re the same age?” Kurt asks innocently while tracing one of the healed scars on his arms with his finger. He’s been doing that a lot. Checking his wounds.
“Because he’s not his dad!” Pietro exasperates.
Kurt just nods like he understands. “You do not like to share.” He doesn’t get it at all. Pietro is suffering .
“I could care less!” Liar. “This universe isn’t his to claim. These are my people. My friends. My family.” The word family dropped from his tongue without his consent and he feels like he just shot himself in the foot.
“I think…” Kurt looks at Pietro without judgment hesitantly. “…I think he misses his family. He keeps trying to talk to Hank but he keeps shutting him down. He seems upset about it.”
Hank . Right. Hank was Pete’s godfather. In his universe they were close. Closer than Pietro and Hank probably. Pete is missing his family. This is only confirmed when Pete says “I’ve missed you.” with soft eyes and the professor looks a bit unbalanced by the confession. He has in fact been there the whole time. But maybe for Pete, he hasn’t been. “Peter-“
“Pete. Just Pete remember?” the older speedster looks almost hurt but not surprised by the slip-up. Charles does that too. He keeps mixing the two up. calling Pete by Pietros name. It makes Pietro feel almost cruelly smug about it. Like Pete isn’t even real to Charles.
It’s a mean thought. Pietro still has it though.
“Oh, right. My apologies.” Charles clears his throat–he adjusts in his seat, looking a bit sheepish. “Well- Pete is it too presumptuous of me to volunteer you for PE duty with the kids?” Pietro is thrown into outer space.
“I thought I was doing PE duty today.” Pietro refuses to let the hurt show in his voice. He probably didn’t let his face have the memo though. Pietro hasn't been able to run around as eagerly as he usually would because of his bum leg and stupidly aching body but he didn’t think Charles would just up and replace him. Every day he gets better. He's almost at his normal speed. Practically back to normal besides the nightmares and the occasional nosebleed.
Pietro's protest goes unanswered.
“No problem. I can do that.” Pete salutes jokingly and does a sideways glance back at the field. “By the way, who's the hot guy?” He points a thumb at Alex Summers who’s swimming in the lake despite how cold it is outside.
“That’s Alex Summers. Do you not have an Alex Summers in your universe?” Charles frowns, his eyebrows raising up to his hairline.
“That’s Alex Summers?” Pete exclaims with a loud voice that makes both Charles and Pietros eyes widen in surprise.
“Sorry.” Pete says sheepishly at their expressions “Alex Summers is kinda, totally, dead in my timeline. Died in the war. I've gone to so many universes and I’ve never actually come across the guy before.” Pete looks at the guy again, not even pretending he wasn’t checking him out “didn’t know he’d be so drop-dead gorgeous.” Finally, he says something that makes sense for once.
Charles looks at Pete like he just said the craziest thing.
“He is criminally hot.” Pietro agrees despite himself totally not wanting to side with Pete. He knows if Kurt was here he’d be just as gobsmacked and would be singing Alex Summers’ praises.
Pietro and Pete are both staring as Alex Summers swims a lap across the lake without even breaking a sweat. His back muscles rippling as he moves fluidly through the water.
“Will the both of you quit ogling?” Charles scolds them and both speedsters turn away from the swimmer and look at Charles with matching pouts.
Charles looks at the two matching expressions and looks almost overwhelmed. “Right, um. Yes. Don’t do that. It’s rude to stare.”
“It’s rude to be that hot.”
“I’m offended daily.” Pietro says, which isn’t even a lie. Kurt still blushes when he sees Alex Summers’ biceps. Pietro looks at Pete’s muscles and thinks maybe he should start on that workout routine everyone seems to be fucking doing.
Charles asks Pietro to play a game of chess with him. It seemed almost out of place to sit down and play a game while everything crazy is happening. Time travelers and estranged family members still plaguing the speedsters mind.
“It’ll help you relax.”
“I’m very relaxed.”
“You are not.”
They sit down and Charles starts the game with a bold move. Pietro shuffles in his seat and digs his fingers into a salty snack—laid out and ready for him by Charles.
“Don’t you wanna play with Pete?”
“Why would I want that?”
“So you have someone new to play with. I’m sure you get bored of just playing me.” Pietro eggs on, not meeting the professor's eyes as he moves his Horsey.
The professor doesn’t make a move right away. “I am perfectly content playing chess with you son.” The extra emphasis on son makes Pietro want to throw his chair against the wall. In a very mature way, of course.
“Yeah, I mean-“ Pietro fidgets, taking in a breath that feels shallow. “It’s fine if you did want to play with him. I get it. He’s probably better at the game than me anyway.” Pietro can imagine Pete playing Chess with his own Charles, years and years of practice. He can imagine it better than he can imagine Pietro himself doing the very same. Foreign yet familiar. Different but the same.
The professor falls silent, he makes his move. “The kids seem to love Pete. so that’s good.” Pietro forces the edge out of his voice. He’s trying not to be annoying. He’s trying not to make his own jealousy the root of every problem in his life.
Charles takes in Pietro's words “The kids love you . Pete is just new and exciting. They were the same way when Alex arrived.”
He does remember the constant flow of questions towards Alex as well, in fact he recalls himself being one of those many voices asking questions. Pietro also despises the fact that despite his miniature crush on Alex he’s also jealous of him too. Fuck. Pietro really didn’t think he was the jealous type but that’s two for two now.
“The kids like me.” Pietro shrugs looking at the chessboard with forced focus. “They adore you.” Charles corrects trying to catch Pietro's eyes but the speedster refuses to even glance away from the chessboard. He wishes Charles would let it go. Just let him wallow in his self-doubt.
Pietro raises an eyebrow, not truly believing the words Charles says so confidently. “I dunno about all that. Maybe I was just new and exciting for them too.” Because that seems to be the pattern too.
For a lot of the mutant kids at least the original ones that Pietro recruited with Charles, he was the first mutant person they’d encountered. He doted on them. Matching their eagerness to bond. with others like him. He was their first point of reference when it came to being a mutant.
Charles takes a while to take his turn and suddenly he’s moving away from the chessboard and to his desk.
“Pausing the game?” Pietro stops the tapping of his foot. He hadn’t realized he had started doing that.
“Just for a moment. I need…to show you something.”
Pietro follows Charles' descent into his desk with his eyes, watching as the older man rifles through folders and papers. Pietro stays silent as he anxiously waits for the man to explain his abrupt distraction.
When Charles comes back to the game he has a stack of papers. He drops them on to Pietros lap unceremoniously. The speedster looks at them suspiciously without touching them.
“I swear Charles if these are files on the students I do not want to reopen that wound-“
“-no.” Charles says quickly, almost embarrassed “God no Peter. They are school papers.”
”School papers.” Pietro is very confused as he focuses on the pile of child-like writing. Class essays. A writing assignment for an English class most likely.
Charles gestures at the pile with a small smile. Fond . “The kids had to write about someone they admire. I gave them no restrictions. I said it could be anyone. Anyone at all. These are twelve papers written about you.” He drops another stack “and that’s seven other papers that mention you. 22 out of 34 papers had the name Peter Maximoff written on it.”
“How many of those papers were from the Twins?”
Charles's face doesn’t change. “That’s besides the point.”
Pietro looked at the papers in confusion regardless. “22 papers? I can’t possibly imagine what they’d write about?”
Charles laughs like it’s a joke—like Pietro was a damn comedian. “They wrote about how much they love you Peter.“ he says it like that was the simplest answer and not something that made Pietros mind turn to goo. He just stares at the piles of papers trying to fathom it all.
“They wrote about how you help them with homework and tell them stories and play with them during recess and sing to them when they have nightmares and make them any snack they want and listen to them when they talk. They talk about how much you mean to them. they talk about how you were their first friend. They idolize you. You’re their hero.”
Pietro feels the ache in his chest sink into his bones. He feels the stinging of stupid and ridiculous tears in his eyes. Fuck .
“I don’t see how they could—I’m no one special.” Pietro can’t possibly be anybody’s hero. He hasn’t done anything particularly heroic. He isn’t a hero. He’s just a guy. ”Compared to a universe jumping time traveler I’m not much.”
“You are to them. You are so special, Peter. How could you not know that?” Charles puts a warm hand on his shoulder, soothing instead of intimidating. Grounding in a way. “You give pieces of yourself to everybody as keepsakes. They always seek you out first. Not Hank. Not Pete. Not me. You .“ He moves the pile around, shuffling the papers in Pietros lap, pointing at a specific one.
“You remember Carlisle? How he struggles to read?” Carlisle is thirteen years old and doesn’t know how to write anything besides his name. Not that he ever wanted to admit that. He’d disrupt class so he wouldn’t have to read out loud and would blatantly vandalize the literature in the school to avoid reading. It’s not that he didn’t want to read, it's simply that he couldn’t.
“He only opened up to you about it and if you hadn’t pushed past his initial abrasiveness we would’ve just assumed he was a troublemaker.” Charles interviewed a teacher last week who specializes in kids with learning disabilities.
“And Bobby—“
“—I don’t care how many times you say it. Bobby does not think I’m cool.”
“He does.” Charles presses “If it wasn’t for your guidance—reintroducing him to his friend, keeping patience with the boy he wouldn’t have reached out to his parents again.”
“Didn’t his parents want to pull him out of the school when we got invaded? He wasn’t safe here. I didn’t keep him safe like I said that I would.” Pietro recalls the angry and emotional phone call from Bobby Drake's parents when he had first gotten back.
“They did try.” Charles nods “They drove all the way here to pick him up and everything but Bobby refused to go. He didn’t want you to think he left Wanda to fend for herself.”
“He said that?“
“He didn’t have to.” He tries to imagine scrawny Bobby Drake going toes down with grown men, armed and trained to capture and kill kids just like him. He tries to imagine him saving all the kids that he could—feeling that weight on his shoulder. Pietro tries to imagine Bobby Drake still deciding to stay after that. Insisting really. For his sake. For Pietros peace of mind. It makes all the reserved fondness he has for the cold boy spike in his chest like a porcupine. “Wanda left. He didn’t have to stay. He…” Pietros mind supplies him with red hair and burdened eyes. Right. Jean. He would stay for Jean too. Of course, he would. The telepathic little girl managed to mean something to Pietro too.
Bobby Drake pre-invasion would have avoided Jean in the hall. Bobby Drake after the invasion is usually within ten feet from Jean at all times.
“You’ve made an exceptional difference with these kids Peter. Don’t diminish the impact you’ve had on them. It’s demeaning not only to your efforts but to their progress because of those efforts.” Charles flips one of the essays over, hidden amongst the pile and it’s of a doodle. Probably made by one of the more artistically inclined students because he knows it’s him before he fully sees the whole picture.
It’s him in some sort of superhero costume. Goggles and cassette player on full display. A touch of accuracy to the fantasy of it all. He’s presumably in a running pose, frozen on the page with a goofy smile that makes his own grin appear on his face.
Pietro barely looks at the name on top of the page before the small grin turns into a wide smile. “Bobby drew this?”
“Yes, definitely one of his tamer pieces.” Charles comments knowingly “He usually has hearts floating around.”
Pietro memorizes the stupid little doodle like it’s made by fucking Picasso. He wants to keep it. Frame it. plaster it on the fridge with magnets like a doting father.
He wants to become this version of himself that Bobby sees. Brave and courageous with a perfectly smug grin and meticulously drawn hair. He wants this to be how everyone sees him. It’s hopeful thinking. Dumb, almost, but if Bobby Drake can imagine Pietro like a damn hero then maybe he can actually become one. “You can keep it.” Charles says—like he can read his mind. But Pietro knows that he can’t. That the professor simply just knows him that well.
He was going to keep it regardless. He’s already adding a picture frame to his mental checklist for the grocery run they have to do later this week.
“Thank you.” Pietro clears his throat—desperately trying to clear away the mist in his eyes and wobble in his voice. “For, um, telling me all of that. It means a lot to know that they care about me as much as I care about them.” Emotional Honesty. Pietro thinks he might be finally getting the hang of it. He’s emotioning the shit out of his honesty right now. Straight up killing it. who needs therapy? He’s awesome at this.
Charles looks at Pietro straight on. “You don’t need to feel threatened by Pete. The kids hang at his every word because he’s you . If he had been another version of Hank or me the kids wouldn’t have been nearly as compelled.”
“But he’s not me. He’s some alternative cooler, far more put-together version of me.” it’s the part nobody seems to understand.
“Trust me, Peter. He isn’t as put together as you think.” Right. Because they talk . Charles can look into Pete’s mind and see all the ugliness he supposedly has and Pete just lets him. It’s another thing that Pietro can’t do.
“He has an Olympic gold medal.” Pietro blurts out suddenly—his mind buzzing with adrenaline. “I took track in high school. I never made it to the Olympics. I was close. I trained for it. For two years. Even after I graduated. All I did after high school was train. Running was my thing . Competing was my thrill . It was my passion. It was the only thing I was good at. The only thing I enjoyed doing. It was what I thought I was going to be known for. But then it was taken away from me. Not just that. It was erased . Censored and buried. forgotten completely. Like I never even existed . Like it was insignificant.” like he was insignificant.
Charles doesn’t say anything. Pietro keeps talking, feeling his lungs shake with each sentence. “I graduated high school. I fucking finished. I had my diploma. But then that was taken away from me too. When they erased my running career they erased all traces of marathons or field days. They made it so it looked like I never even took a P.E. class. They took my diploma back over one credit. A damn P.E. class. Over a fucking P.E. credit that I definitely fucking took. I don’t even think that’s legal. Nothing they did to me was legal. So now I’m a high school dropout? Not an Olympian like Pete. Not only am I not an Olympian, I’m still fucking wanted for crimes I’ve never done. so I’m a high school dropout, and a criminal. Im A fucking stereotype and none of it's even real. I did graduate. I didnt commit the crimes I’m wanted for. everything is out of my hands. Everything in my life, my sister, my mom, my career, my education, my daughter is completely out of my fucking hands. I have no say in a damn thing. And Pete does. Pete has everything I should fucking have and it isn’t fair at all. Nothing in my life has come easy and I just thought that’s what happens when you’re someone like me. But apparently, that’s not true. Apparently, there’s a version of me out there whose life is exactly how I imagined it to be for me. I got all the bad stuff and it wasn’t inevitable. It wasn’t bound to happen. It just did happen. I just got the short straw in this life. I’m just simply that unlucky.” Pietro looks over at Charles who hasn't moved since he’s begun speaking. He hasn’t interrupted or attempted to soothe his panic.
Pietro is in super speed. He’s been talking in superspeed. Charles is frozen in his chair. Looking at a chess piece like he’s deep in thought. He isn’t. He’s simply frozen in time. Like a paused tv. He hasn’t heard a damn thing Pietro has said this whole time. Pietro hadn’t even intentionally gone into superspeed. He just felt like he was going to explode and then he started venting.
Fuck. Pietro can’t even vent correctly. He can’t do anything fucking right. When he pulls himself out of his speed it feels like diving back under water after taking a deep breath of air.
He grounds himself into the chair, forcing himself to be solid and still and slow .
“maybe you should try to see it from his point of view.” Charles continues on to whatever he was saying before Pietro was taken into his speed. It felt almost like a slap to the face.
“You don’t get it.” Pietro feels so drained from the conversation—“all I see is his point of view.” He slows down his words making each vowel and letter slip through his mouth in solid sentences that are easily discernible by human ears. Pietro tries to explain himself in a way that doesn’t make him start rambling again. He doesn’t want to lose himself in the speed of his mind.
“I feel like you aren’t seeing it from my point of view. What if there was a version of you that succeeded at everything you’ve ever failed at. Everything you want but don’t have—-they have it. Wouldn’t you feel some sort of way too if they just showed up and made themselves at home in your life?”
Charles looks Pietro in the eye, his face calm in the face of Pietros struggle. “Pete has a Charles—“
Pietro nearly screams “— Ben Zona —“ he curses in Yiddish. He might actually be running around in circles. Charles extends a placating hand in a ‘calm down’ motion. He places a firm grip on Pietros elbow, steadying him. Keeping him solid with the moment. He feels almost cornered.
“Listen. His Charles can walk . Pete offered me a drink last night to mix with my hot chocolate so I assume his Charles isn’t an alcoholic like me.” Pietro watches as Charles seems to breakdown each point like it’s a tally against him.
“His Charles is married. He has—He has children .” Charles looks so incredibly melancholy. “He has a thriving school and he has Raven by his side.” His eyes drift past Pietro. The speedster is hanging on to his every word.
“His life is the one I wanted for myself as well. His successes are also my failures. It is difficult to think about. But I discovered something…something he didn’t mean to tell me.”
Charles moved his chess piece, a counter attack that leaves his pieces vulnerable for attack. “I’m dead in his universe. I don’t know how it happens. But I know it must’ve been out of the ordinary because—“ Charles takes a breath, calming his nerves. “—it created a divergence in their timeline. My death was the reason his entire universe was eradicated and erased from the flow of time.”
Pietro stares at the professor in absolute horror. He watches as Charles very casually plays his next piece like he didn’t just mention how his unexpected death was the catalyst of an entire universe being destroyed.
It’s not a competition but fuck .
“Yeah, you win. I think your thing is bigger than my thing.” He says with a puff of hysterical laughter. Charles must seem to find the whole thing just as horrifyingly ridiculous as him because he’s gripping the table and throwing his head up in laughter.
“Like, Holy shit man.” Pietro can’t hold in the high-pitched laugh that just unleashed from his lungs. It’s such an inappropriate response but he feels a lot better knowing that Charles is also actively losing his mind with him. Their laughter nearly echoed in the room. “That’s so fucked up.”
“Incredibly.” Charles hollers “he looks at me like I’m a damn ghost.” And he’s laughing like that’s not incredibly painful to hear. Charles is literally keeling over and cackling like they aren’t actively making fun of his horrible fate in an alternative ‘perfect’ universe.
This whole thing became very twisted and fucked up and Pietro should feel bad about being relieved but he isn’t. “At least I’m not dead.” Is what Charles says between wheezing laughter and they’ve practically abandoned the game of chess to compose themselves.
It’s just like—bent over and hysterically laughing that Kitty walks through the wall and stares at them in confusion. “Hello? Are you guys tripping?”
“No.” Charles tries to stop laughing—unsuccessfully and when he makes eye contact with Pietro they both seem unable to hold in their laughter once again.
“I love this for you guys but like someone’s at the door. I think it’s a parent.”
Charles sits up from his chair, trying to level out his myrrh—a smile was still unavoidable on his face. “Right. Of course. Who’s parent?”
Pietro starts to shuffle the children’s essays on his lap, beginning to stand from his chair to clear out from the professor's office.
“I dunno. Said her name was Magda.”
Pietro Maximoff runs out of the room and to his mom before the name Magda is fully out of Katherines mouth.
Notes:
Thank you for reading! As always you will find grammar mistakes and typos ;))
Chapter 28: Pseudo Parent Teacher Conference
Summary:
Pietro visibly sits up straighter—a bit stunned that Charles is on his side again and not trying to placate his mother. He looks at his mother—trying to see what the professor's words have done to her defense.
She seems to straighten her back as well—her face going cold as she shoots her glare at Charles. “I’m his mother. You’re just his teacher. You can pretend to be his father all you like but you have no say in how or when or what I choose to tell my son. I’m his actual parent. Not you.” It’s like she’s quoting a past experience. Yelling at a different teacher who sent him to the principal's office too many times. Magda Maximoff has yelled at more school teachers then Pietro can count but not one of them has ever reacted to those words the way Charles does.
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Magda Maximoff has arrived at the x-mansion to shake things up. The Speedsters clash and Kitty makes some easy money.
Notes:
Blah blah blah. Sorry for the late update. Thank you for reading and commenting. You will find typos and grammar mistakes.
The next chapter should be done sooner than this one.
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Pietro Django Maximoff hasn’t seen his Mai, Magda Maximoff, in a year and some change.
Before this the longest time he’d go without seeing her was a month or two. He hasn’t seen his mothers face. He’d nearly forgotten how she looked like. Which seems a bit dramatic but she must have dyed her hair or lost some weight because she looks indescribably different in some way that Pietro can’t pin point.
He feels a swell of blood flush through his feet as he makes himself solid and still right in front of his mother. Wanting her to see him, fully before he comes any closer. His mother always had a sort of sixth sense as to when he’d be using his powers. She always has. When he was younger he thought it was creepy how she knew exactly when he was going to run or when exactly he was gonna show up in a room. He tried to figure out if he had some sort of tell that told her he was going to use his abilities. Did he lean on his feet too much before he ran? Did he make a face before bolted? Did he make some sort of noise that triggered her mom instincts that told her he was about to go into superspeed?
He remembers his last competitive race. The one that tanked his career and kicked him out of the national team and basically doomed him to anonymity. He met his mothers eyes just before he used his powers to win and she just knew. He could see it in her eyes that she knew he was about to go into super speed.
Pietro never did figure it out.
It wasn’t important.
She’s pulling into a gentle, crooked smile before he’s even gathered in front of her and when he falls back into regular time she’s spreading that smile further without any hesitation. Like she knew he’d come to her the moment he realized she was here.
Here. At the mansion. His home. A place he’s been Calling home subconsciously despite his mother not being here. Am now she is. She’s home. “Peter.” She says his name like she hasn’t said it in ages. Like it’s the first time. Like she’s not sure how to pronounce it anymore. Out of practice completely. Her thick voice forms a familiar swell in his chest. “Mama.” He says breathlessly despite not being particularly fatigued. “Your here.” His voice cracks pathetically.
He feels young. He feels old. He feels too much all at once.
He feels like he’s dreaming. But his dreams aren’t ever this kind. Never this sweet.
Pietro doesn’t know who’s pulling who into the hug but he’s enveloped in one regardless. When was the last time his mother hugged him? He can’t remember. Did she always smell like lavender?
“I’m so sorry mama.” He doesn’t even know what he’s apologizing for. His brain is supplying him with information all at once. Bullet points of things he should speak to his mother about. All of them fall short once he tries to speak. “I’m so glad you’re here.” Pietro hears footsteps and a ruckus coming down from the stairs. He allows his mind to focus-Focus-Focus on one of the many bullet points. “Where’s Wanda?” He looks behind her. Hopeful. Still holding his mother in a hug. arms strong wrapped tightly around her. He’s afraid she’ll pull away before he’s ready. He doesn’t think he’ll ever be ready.
Magda squeezes him hard, rubbing his back like she always does and Pietro can't even melt into it because she hasn’t answered his question.
He pulls away from her, despite not wanting to and het face is contemplative. “She’s not with me.” She says finally.
“Yeah, she is.” Pietros heart sinks “Charles said—he said you came to pick her up. She’s with you.” He tries to convince himself that he misheard. Maybe she misheard his question.
“David has her.” She says after a long and hard pause.
No. That doesn’t make any sense. No. Pietro shakes his head. He can’t tell if he’s doing it at superspeed or not.
“He got out of prison early. He wanted to see Wanda. Forced me to come get her so he could see her.”
“No. That doesn’t make sense.” He actually ends up voicing his inside thought. Damn.
Magda barrels on—wringing her fingers together in a familiar habit. Wanda does that. Where the hell is Wanda? “He got out on good behavior.”
“Who was his warden? Satan? How the fuck did that go?” Pietro snaps sarcastically.
Magda’s eyes turn sharp “cussing is not necessary, Peter.”
“Oh I’m sorry!” Pietro exclaims very dramatically. “I’m just confused how he got his demonic ass out of hell on good behavior? Did he eat the devils ass? Like what gives?”
Magda barely even makes a face at Pietros vulgar analogy which only makes him feel more insane. He doesn’t even look around to see if anybody is around to overhear. “You killed David, didn’t you? So how is it that he’s back and haunting the narrative again?” He feels like he’s missing another piece of the puzzle. Again. Like fucking always. He can never see the whole picture.
An outsider in his own life.
For fucks sake. Can he catch a break that’s longer than a page turn?
Magda’s face pales. “What exactly did Wanda tell you?”
“She didn’t tell me anything.” Pietro says almost defensively. ”I just…remembered.” Pietro tries to think of a way to explain the memory jumping without sounding absolutely batshit crazy. “You were the one that told me. You told me and then…Wanda made me forget. And I did but…now I remember.”
Magda’s face goes slack for just a moment, looking like all the sleepless nights have finally caught up to her.
“How much exactly do you remember?”
Alarm bells ring in Pietros ears. “Is there more that I forgot?”
“Peter? Who is it?” Pietro can hear Kurt before he can see him. His voice settling down his nerves just a bit. He can’t freak out in front of Kurt. He needs to take a damn breath and stay calm. Clear his mind and think logically.
He doesn’t know how to do that.
“We should talk in private.” Magda says stiffly and Pietro just stares at her.
“Is everything okay?” Kurt’s voice breaks through the tension that’s between Pietro and Magda and he doesn’t know whether to feel grateful for it or not.
“This is my mom.” Pietro says suddenly and steps slightly to the side to gesture at his mom, like she’s a prized turkey at the fair.
Kurt’s eyes drift towards Magda and a little smile pops into his face at the introduction. “Your mama.” The way he says mama makes a smile slip through Pietros mouth as well, despite the intense moment he’s having with his mom. Kurt could say anything and he’d probably think it’s the cutest shit ever.
“Yeah, my mom. Magda.” He looks at his mom who’s now displaying a very polite smile, despite the stiffness to her shoulders. “Mom, this is Kurt.” He gestures towards his blue friend like he’s also a prize turkey he won at the fair.
“His best friend.” Kurt tacks on eagerly, like that wasn’t obvious. Which maybe it wasn’t. Magda has never met Kurt and it’s not like the two relatives talk. Kurt’s toothy smile breaks through Magdas polite smile which then turns into a genuine one, her eyes softening.
“Yeah, my best friend.” Pietro mends.
“It’s nice to see you again, Kurt.” His mom says.
“Again?” Pietros mind races.
“I stayed in the Wagner home for a moment before leaving if you don’t recall, Peter.” yeah, no, he definitely forgot that.
Holy shit that feels like ages ago.
Kurt met his mom. Ages ago. Before he even met him. That’s such a weird thing to think about. Pietro glances at the teleporter in question who just gives Magda an observing look.
“I’m sorry to hear about your mothers passing. She was a force.”
Kurt nods—“she was.” His eyes dart behind Magda quickly and then back at Pietro.
“Is the Professor here?” Magda asks suddenly and Pietro takes a step back—feeling absolutely thrown.
With a puff of sulfur Kurt is gone and Pietro is facing his mother once again.
“Charles? Why would you want to see him?” Pietro must be so blatantly obvious or his mother must know him well because she takes his arm and squeezes it gently—a quick and anxious smile appearing on her face “I’m very glad to see you Peter—“
“—are you? I was kidnapped and tortured and you don’t even seem to care.”
Magda looks at Pietro with deep sorrow, she wears the emotion like a trusty jacket, worn and used. “Of course I care.”
“You didn’t call.”
She bites her raw lips, chipped and cracked like she’d been nibbling on them. ”Things were very complicated and I couldn’t reach out. I’m sorry.”
The I’m sorry feels like too little too late.
“Why not? Mom, please, just explain to me what’s going on.” He’ll forgive her. He realizes pretty quickly that there’s very little he won’t forgive from his mother. Maybe Charles was right when he spoke to him in the jet. Maybe he is too easy to forgive others. It’s not something he likes about himself but he isn’t in a position to be unforgiving. He’s no saint.
Magda nods “I will, I just need to talk to Charles first.”
“Why?” Pietro snaps and then quickly retreats when she narrows her eyes at him. “Sorry—“ he says quickly, repeating it when he realizes he said it too quickly for anyone to understand. “Sorry--I didn’t mean to snap at you Mai. I just—I don’t understand why you’re being so secretive.” He gets it. But he also doesn’t. Why does she keep secrets from him? What good does it do now?
“It’s not something I can just say out here in the open Peter.” Magda says evenly and he’s barely recognized the crowed of students huddling on the top of the stairs, intrigued by the abrupt reunion. Pietro smells Kurt before he sees him, puffing back into the room like a smoke bomb.
“Wanda’s not with you.” Kurt says firmly, he probably just checked—triple confirming to see if the younger Maximoff sibling was here but to no avail.
Pietro loves that he did that without him having to ask.
“Why didn’t you bring her with you?” Kurt’s asks—his voice leaning towards confusion instead of concern.
Pietro looks at his mother expectantly, crossing his arms “great question.” He raises a questioning eyebrow.
His mother crosses her arms as well and raises an equally pointed eyebrow towards the speedster. “I don’t appreciate your attitude, young man. I am still your mother—“
Pete decides this is the time to make his grand entrance. “—Questionable.” The older speedster leans against the door frame with a sharp look towards Magda that makes her visibly stiffen. “Who are you?”
Pietro sighs “he’s nobody.” He does NOT want to explain time traveling and alternative universes to his mom when he himself doesn’t understand it either.
Pete makes a face that reminds Pietro that he’s the spitting image of him. Fuck. Magda’s face goes grey.
“You don’t recognize your own son?” Pete smacks his lips like he’s genuinely hurt but his voice says otherwise “how Magda of you.”
Magda looks between Pietro and Pete and her face goes surprisingly blank as she processes what she’s seeing.
“What? You’ve never seen an older alternative version of your son before, Magda?”
Pietro feels Kurt’s tail loop around his ankles, an anxious habit that ends up helping Pietro feel grounded.
Magda just stares at Pete like she’s making a decision on the matter. “You are not my son.” She concludes and Pete makes a face, a quick hurt expression that is gone within microseconds but Pietro sees it Nonetheless. Pete pretends to be unphased by the observation and narrows his eyes in a taunt. “You sure? I know how confused you get.”
Magda looks away from Pete and looks firmly at Pietro. Like she’s adjusting her eyes to the sun and needs a few blinks to truly settle.
“Can you fuck off?” Pietro waves his hands at Pete in a shooing manner like he’s one of Miss Margo’s stray cats that’s wandered into a room it shouldn’t be.
“Whatever.” Pete gives Magda one last insufferable look before speeding off into fucking nowhere. Pietro let’s out a breath through his nose. “I’m afraid to ask.” his mom says distantly.
He turns to his mom, the Middle Aged woman looking far less perplexed then Pietro feels she should be “he’s just stopping by.”
“When does he leave?” Magda asks very pointedly.
“Not soon enough.” Pietro doesn't even get to gloat on the fact that his mom clearly doesn't like Pete. Probably the only person in this fucking school that doesnt like the older speedster. Although she is the only person who he seems to show ill faith towards.
“Magda.” Speak of the devil. Charles seems to materialize just when his presence was asked for.
“Charles.” His mom says gravely.
“We’ve been trying to reach you.” Charles says—he tips his head to the side “but you already knew that didn’t you?”
“Yes, I did.”
“Wanda has been blocking cerebro? Blocking me?” Charles’ voice has a different tone to it.
“Yes.”
“Why?” Kurt and Pietro ask at the same time. Weirdly in sinc in their confusion.
“Because of David.”
“David…” Charles gives Pietro a questioning look and he’s glad he isn’t the only one completely confused. “I’m not following.”
“David is peters stepfather.”
Charles nods—-very slowly—choosing his words carefully. “yes, I know…My condolences.”
“David isn’t dead.” Magda says stiffly.
Kurt’s tail tightens around the speedsters ankles, almost shackling him in place. The blue boy goes rock still beside him.
Charles badly contains his shock—his face widening—and then immediately realizing how inappropriate it would be to openly gape at the woman—he clamps his mouth shut and blinks twice. Adjusting. Eyes darting to Pietro and Kurt before speaking.
“That’s quite unfortunate. I have many questions.”
“So do I!” Pietro adds.
“Would you like to speak in my office?” Charles is already turning his wheelchair.
Magda looks around towards the Nosey children gathered in the hallway before nodding “Yes, That’s probably what's best.”
The abandoned game of chess was still spread out on the professor's side table. Pietro's chair pushed away from the table as a result from his abrupt departure to greet his mother at the door. Magda walks into the office with a tension to her shoulders—her eyes drift to the game of chess with a sharp look before drifting back towards Charles’ desk. She sits across his wood desk on the worn brown leather seats.
“its better if I have this conversation with Charles alone.” She says when Pietro and Kurt sits on the chairs beside her.
“It’s a family matter.” Magda says to Kurt and the blue boy barely even pauses before speaking his mind “whatever you tell Pietro he’ll just end up telling me.”
Magda blinks—startled by the Immediate response. She gives Pietro a look who doesn’t even pretend to be embarrassed. “Word for word most likely.”
Magda then looks at Charles with a question in her eyes. “They are a bit codependent. It’s best not to question it.” He says flippantly like he’s had this conversation before. With who? Hank? Erik? Alex?
Pietro wants to ask but he doesn’t. Staying focused on the current issue. The issue being his mom.
“I think it’s better if Peter isn’t here either.”
“What?” Pietros' voice wavers.
“Please.” Magda says and Pietro looks at Charles who looks like he’s being pushed into a corner he doesn’t like.
“Are you sure you don’t want Peter here—he might understand a bit better than I can.” Charles asks Magda who nods without hesitation.
“It’s a bit sensitive.”
“I can be sensitive!” Pietro scoffs.
“Yes I’m aware.” Magda gives him a sideways glance and Pietro refuses to let her see how much that hurt.
“It might clear up some miscommunications if Peter stays to listen.” Charles says—quick to assist the speedster. Poor guy, he’s actually trying. Like actually.
“I deserve to know what’s going on.” Pietro adds in with a huff.
”I don’t care. I’m the adult here and I told you I don’t want you here. I’m speaking with Charles alone.” Magda says While rubbing her temple—a growing headache that seems to be caused by Pietro. Or maybe a hangover.
Pietro forgot that his mother was like this. She treats him like he’s frozen in time with her—perpetually ten years old forever. Her rules, her way. No if or buts about it. No explanation given. No reasoning granted.
Pietro is used to Hanks constant questions—followed up with answers—reasoning—data’s. Every rule or step is made with a purpose and is explained. Charles and Hank have created a household where you can reasonably ask a question and if an answer is known it will be shared and would have solid reasoning. “Because I said so.” Is not a reasonable answer here. But it is to Magda and it’s a bit jarring to have to adjust back to that mentality.
“Perhaps…” Charles settles between the two—most likely seeing the power dynamic Pietro seems to fall into now that his mom is here. He might be realizing what every other school counselor—every after school teacher waiting in the parking lot—has realized.
“…it’s better if Peter is here so that you don’t have to repeat yourself. He’s been very concerned and I think some answers might alleviate some of his worries.”
Pietro visibly sits up straighter—a bit stunned that Charles is on his side again and not trying to placate his mother. He looks at his mother—trying to see what the professor's words have done to her defense.
She seems to straighten her back as well—her face going cold as she shoots her glare at Charles. “I’m his mother. You’re just his teacher. You can pretend to be his father all you like but you have no say in how or when or what I choose to tell my son. I’m his actual parent. Not you.” It’s like she’s quoting a past experience. Yelling at a different teacher who sent him to the principal's office too many times. Magda Maximoff has yelled at more school teachers then Pietro can count but not one of them has ever reacted to those words the way Charles does.
It was a calculative jab. It looked like a slap to the face by Charles’ expression. Like a bucket of ice cold water dunked on to his head. Just my teacher.
It’s almost funny how wrong she was by that defense though. Charles isn’t just his teacher. He isn’t just anything. In fact he isn’t his teacher at all. I think that’s what makes Pietro realizes how very little his mother knows about him. About what’s going on at the mansion. How very little she’s been paying attention. She doesn’t even know who Charles is to Pietro. Who he is to Wanda.
“I’m not a student here.” Pietro says to the thin air—all the oxygen sucked away and evaporated into Magda’s lungs.
“That’s besides the point. You should leave the adults to speak Peter.” Magda says and Pietro stands up from his chair—Kurt standing with him.
”What-fucking-ever.” Pietro leaves the room with a irritated slam of the door and a anxious Kurt trailing closely behind him.
“Your mom is kinda mean.” Kurt Says uneasily.
“Oh, really? You think?” Pietro snaps irritably and Kurt stops trailing behind him—he stops walking entirely. “What?” Pietro turns around—unknowingly glaring at the boy like he has anything to do with this whole mess with his mom.
“When your mom feels judged or trapped she gets a temper.” Kurt says slowly—his tone gentle.
“Yeah, I already knew that Kurt! Why are you psychoanalysing my mom?” Pietro Rakes his hands through his none existent hair, feeling even more irritated that he couldn’t tug at his strands. Overstimulated and frustrated.
Kurt doesn’t say anything else—just kinda looks at Pietro weirdly which only makes the speedster more stressed. Why is he looking at him like that? What is he seeing? “Spit it out Kurt!” He says with an edge to his voice.
“You and your mom are alike in that way. You’re angry.”
“Yeah, obviously I’m angry Kurt. My mom is a mess. My life is a mess. My entire fucking life feels like a walking nightmare.” His mind isn’t his own. He’s an irregularity. Somehow-someway. Something is wrong with him and he doesn’t know how to change that. How to make it better.
Kurt nods, calm and put together “You’re actively yelling at me. Currently.”
“I’m not yel—“ he realizes the volume of his voice has actually increased immensely about halfway through that sentence. He’s yelling at Kurt. Why the fuck is he yelling at Kurt? Of all people? “-yeah. Okay. Shit. I am.” Pietro closes his eyes—trying to reel in his irritation. Trying to tune it to the right thing. To the right person. Not Kurt. Not him. Not ever.
“I’m sorry.” He says with his eyes closed—almost afraid to open them and see how hurt Kurt must be by his blind and irrational attack. Pietros emotions get the better of him. Constantly. “I shouldn’t have raised my voice at you. I’m really fucking sorry.”
And when he opens his eyes to look at him Kurt meets his eyes immediately. Open and honest. Because he isn’t a coward. Not like Pietro. Pietro who can’t even apologize while looking at him to see the damage he’s caused.
“I forgive you.” Kurt says easily. “not that you needed my forgiveness. I just needed you to see it from your moms perspective. She’s feeling judged. Trapped. She’s lashing out. At the wrong person. Just like you would.”
“Okay.” Pietro let’s out a breath “so what you're saying is I should chill out? Get off her dick? Touch some grass?”
“Not in so many odd terms but yes you should definitely—get some perspective. Get cold and such.” Chill out is what he means and Pietro can’t help the stupid grin on his face.
“Right. That’s my bad, dude. I’ll definitely chill the fuck out now that you told me to chill the fuck out. Can’t believe I didn’t think of that sooner.” Pietro says sarcastically, joking through a smile—bumping his shoulders with Kurt who bumps right back. Easy and calm. Unintentionally. Pietro grabs Kurt’s hand—just cause he could. Because he wanted to.
“it’s all very strange.” Kurt says.
“what is?”
”I can’t see Magda and Charles ever having a child together.”
Pietro burst out into laughter. What a random thing to say. Kurt laughs as well—albeit a bit less loudly. “My mom’s types are usually assholes but good looking out. We should definitely keep those two apart from now on. We don’t want any more bastard kids running around.”
He does feel a bit better now that he’s able to joke about stupid shit.
Kitty walks through the wall-very casually. “Is your lovers spat over?”
“It wasn’t a spat.” Pietro corrects.
“Yes it’s over. He apologized.” Kurt says with a kind smile and Pietro gawked at the boy.
“As he should. He’s usually in the wrong.” Kitty says with zero knowledge of any time Pietros ever been wrong. She just likes siding against Pietro. Like a little shit.
“Did you need anything, gremlin?”
“I have information.”
“What kind of information?”
“Give me ten dollars and I’ll give you the information.”
Pietro rolls his eyes. “I’m not giving you money.” Kurt is already pulling out Pietros wallet from his back pocket.
“No, dude. Stop giving the kids money. They literally have an allowance.” Pietro has witnessed Kurt get not-so-subtly mugged by children too many times.
“But—then i won’t tell you the very suspicious thing I saw Pete doing.” Kitty—the little shit—says, knowing damn well how to push Pietros buttons.
“she brings up solid points.” Kurt says opening up Pietros wallet—because apparently kurt doesn’t have a wallet—apparently he’s been giving away Pietros money—and the teleporter pulls out a crisp twenty dollar bill.
“Do you have change for a twenty.” Kurt asks innocently. Kitty snatches the twenty from his hand with a grin “nope.”
“Okay, shit head, what do you know?”
“The professor said you can’t call me shit head anymore.” Kitty says in a mocking voice.
“The professor can suck my left toe.”
“Gross.” Kurt wrinkles his nose.
“I will take that twenty back before you can even blink.” Pietro retorts.
Kitty sighs, pocketing the money in her bra—knowing Pietro wouldn’t go anywhere near that. “Pete’s in Hanks laboratory snooping through his things.”
“Hank is in a meeting in the city.” Kurt rattles off like he knows his schedule by memory. He probably does.
“And his laboratory is always locked when he isn’t at the mansion how did pete get inside.”Pietro frowns.
Kitty shrugs “he gave me five bucks to unlock the door.”
“Katherine!”
“What? I knew it was suspicious that's why I told you about it.”
“After you swindled twenty bucks from us.” Pietros exclaims.
“I asked for ten. I’m a fair and generous business woman. It’s not my fault you don’t carry smaller bills.”
“If I carried smaller bills you’d just take them from me.” Pietro exasperates.
“It’s not my fault you’re easy to steal from. Kurt is giving away your money like candy. Don’t I deserve to make a livable wage?”
“You don’t pay bills!” Pietro yells.
“So it’s best I save up now. With the way the economy is going I won’t even be able to afford to pay for a good winter jacket so I don’t freeze to death under a bridge.”
“A bridge?” Kurt gasps and looks at Pietro with wide eyes like it’s his fault that Kitty is theoretically dead and homeless under a bridge in her imaginary future.
Kitty nods crossing her arms like she’s made a point “I won’t even be able to afford a tombstone.”
“Because economy?” Kurt’s eyes go big and sad.
“Exactly. Because of the economy.”
“Where is economy? he can’t do that. Pietro did you know Economy was doing that?” Kurt whines and Pietro just glared at Kitty who just keeps adding to the fuel of Kurt’s innocent confusion.
“As a result of the economy. The richer get richer and the poor get more poor.”
“No!” Kurt exclaims like he’s been mortally wounded. “Miss Margo Also didn’t like this economy person. He sounds like bad news. You should stay very far away from him, Kitty.”
“The economy isn’t a person, Kurt. It’s a thing.” Pietro says gently.
“A thing?” Kurt blinks and looks at Kitty for the answer because all Pietro can do is vaguely shrug. Kitty goes into a whole rant about—tariffs and Stocks and for some reasons communists—Pietro is already walking away from the pair.
When he reaches Hank's laboratory the door is wide open—no effort in concealing the break in.
Pete is rummaging through Hanks desk.
“What the hell are you doing?” Pietro narrows his eyes at Pete, already irritated by the adults in his life and not wanting to deal with other shit. “Looking for tools.”
“You’re going through the wrong drawer if your looking for a fucking hammer.”
“I’m not looking for a fucking Hammer.”
“Then what are you looking for?”
“Just fuck off.” Pete hisses.
“You fuck off!” Pietro hisses back. Like a pair of territorial cats.
“I was here first.”
“You can’t call dibs on a room that Isn't yours. Does Hank even know you’re here.”
“If he does that’s probably why he ain’t here. The assholes been avoiding me.”
“Boohoo.”
“Fuck you.”
“Fuck you too.”
“Just go back to Magda and leave me out of it.” Pete types into Hank's computer. Possibly attempting to guess his password.
“What’s your deal with my mom man?”
“I do. I knew everything I needed to know about you and your family before I even stopped in this universe. The TVA is very meticulous.”
“You don’t know shit.”
“I know more shit than you.”
“Oh, yeah? Pray tell? What exactly is this big secret everyone seems so keen on keeping me in the dark about?”
Pete stops typing after the third failed password and lets out a breath through his glared nose. “Its better if you don’t know.”
“You’re just like my mom.” Pietro scoffs.
“I’m nothing like her!” Pete looks rigid as he speaks, like he despises the comparison. Pete lashes out when he feels trapped and judged too.
Damn. They have that in common too.
“You got serious mommy issues.“ Pietro mocks him, feeling almost like a hypocrite when he says it. He thinks he actually might have some mommy issues too.
“Well, my mom, my Magda, abandoned me at the front door of the mansion with a loaded diaper and a letter saying that having me was the worst mistake she ever made. So I don’t really have much love for the woman.”
Ouch.
Pietro let’s that sink in for less then a second before speaking his mind. “My mom isn’t your mom. What your mom did was…shitty but my mom didn’t do any of that. You can’t attach the hatred you feel for your own mother onto mine.”
Pete rolls his eyes at Pietro. “Your mom isn’t a saint either.”
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
“At least my mom never lied. She never pretended to love me. She made it very clear how she felt about me.”
“What does that have to go with my mom? My mom does love me.”
Pete doesn’t respond, instead he continues rummaging through Hank's things like he knows exactly where everything is. He probably does. Hank would have an aneurysm if he knew that anybody was messing with his things. “What are you looking for?”
“Dont worry about it.”
“Maybe i can tell you where it is and then you can stop fucking around with his shit.”
Pete sighs “I think he moved it.”
“Moved what?”
“He probably knew I’d check. Of course he did.”
“Check for what?”
”the serum. I need it.” The serum. He doesn’t need to clarify. Pietro knows this is a bad idea.
“For what?”
“I need to confiscate it.”
“He’ll just make more.”
“I’ll steal the recipe then.”
“He knows it by heart.” He’s made enough of it that he knows everything he needs to know about it. Hank had ten years to memorize exactly what he was putting into his body.
“Why don’t you just like, tell him to not make any more? Instead of stealing.” Pietro—the kleptomaniac—is not the person to talk about restraining yourself from stealing.
“Gee. Wish I’d thought of that. Because it’s sooooo easy to have a one on one conversation with the man who’s been blatantly avoiding me.”
“He’s been ignoring me too. It’s probably nothing personal.” Pietro says more out of comfort for himself then him. The fact that he hasn’t had a proper talk with Hank since before the speedster was kidnapped has been severely fucking with Pietro a bit.
“He doesn’t usually react this way. Whenever I go to different universes he’s usually asking a million questions. Jumping at every theory or thought. He doesn’t ignore me. Ever. I just—I don’t know what I did.” Pete shakes his head “maybe it’s you.” He looks at Pietro suspiciously “did you do something?”
“How the hell did you jump to that conclusion?” Fuck off.
“If he was already pissed off at you then me being added to the equation would only make him more irritated.”
“He’s not pissed off at me.”
“Would you even know if he was?”
“Yes. I’d know if Hank was mad at me. He’d tell me if I did something wrong or stupid. He wouldn’t ignore me.” Pietro says hotly—feeling the awkward realization that he actually doesn’t think that. Maybe Hank is mad at him. Maybe Pietro was so preoccupied with his own shit that he hadn’t realized. Too selfish to even know he did something to be mad over. Pete stops rifling through some files—face going blank.
“Then explain this.” He says places a very thick yellow file. Pietro name is labeled thickly on the tab in white tape.
“That—that doesn’t prove anything. He’s a doctor. He’s my doctor. I did a medical check up with him so of course he would keep records of my medical history.” my very traumatic—very triggering medical history. That Pete just plops on to the table like nothing. It makes Pietros skin crawl.
“I’m sure it was very traumatic.” Pete says—like he knows—but he couldn’t. Or maybe he does? “Do you think it’s more or less traumatic than Kurt’s?”
“Don’t bring him into this.” Pietro snaps immediately.
“It’s just an example. Im in no way trying to belittle or discredit my Kurtis’ experiences.” Pietro has to physically stop himself from making a face at ‘my Kurtis’.
“But are we thinking…his file is thicker or thinner? How much research has Hank pulled for his brother in law in comparison to you.”
Brother in law? Kurt and Hank are in laws in Pete’s universe? Isn’t Hank Pete’s uncle or something? Kurt married into the family? Pietro is a bit sick to his stomach when he comes to the conclusion that Kurt probably married Wanda since in Pete’s universe the maximoffs are twins. so Wanda wouldn’t be all that much younger then Kurt. Well, fuck.
“It's not a competition.” Pietro says forcefully.
Pete drops another file. On the table. Full but drastically smaller than Pietros. “If it is then congratulations. you won.”
Pietro looks at the folder and without a second thought is super speeding to get it away from the other man. Pete grabs Pietros file—while Pietro grabs Kurt—both in super speed.
They both look at each other in surprise.
“You can’t look at this it’s private.” Pietro pulls Kurt’s file into his chest—protective and tight as he glared at the man with righteous fury.
“Right.” Pete says almost amused “there’s isn’t anything in there I don’t already know.” He waves Pietro's file up towards his line of sight “this on the other hand could be a bit more informative on why dear old McCoy is avoiding us.” Pete goes to open the file—
“What are you two doing?” Alexs’ voice cuts through the air like a train wreck waiting to happen. Both speedsters look over at the older boy in alarm. Pietro points an accusatory finger at Pete.
“He’s going through our medical stuff.” Pietros voice comes out far more small and whiny then it should have. Alex must make a note of the sudden change to Pietros tone—maybe a bit more anxious and desperate than usual.
Alex crosses his arms, his arms flexing unintentionally and he settles a look on Pete that would’ve made Pietro crumble. “You are?” Alex looks at Pete with what Pietro would assume is the full force of his big brother aura. Pietro does remember that Alex mentioned having a younger brother. This look must be reserved for him. Now it’s being used against Pete who seems almost stunned and embarrassed by the turn of events.
“I thought you already knew everything about the people of this universe.”
“It’s just—“ Pete looks at Pietro with a fiery glare.
“-look at me when you’re speaking to me. I’m the one that asked the question.” Alex says like he’s a soldier. His voice going deep and commanding.
Its…really hot.
Pete’s face goes rosy pink and Pietro knows he’s realizing the same thing as him.
“Pietro thinks that Hank isn’t upset with him. But he’s been doing extra research on him and he’s been avoiding me completely.” Pete says evenly—his eyes meeting Alex’s’ like a challenge.
“This whole things about beast? Jesus. You shouldn’t take it personally. Hanks always been a bit on the moodier side.”
“That’s what I said.” Pietro says with a huff.
“Yeah, listen to the kid. He probably knows a bit more about Hanks weird moods then we do.”
“I’m not a kid.” Pietro deflates.
Alex barely glances at him. It makes a big bubble swell in his chest. Look at me. Look at me. Look at me.
Pete shakes his head looking visibly frustrated. “Hank is-“
“—depressed. He gets really sad for no reason sometimes. He’s been really stressed and has had to deal with a lot of new changes. He hasn't been ignoring you he’s been ignoring everyone. He hasn’t been his best.”
“He hasn’t been avoiding Kurt. Or Charles.” Pete states.
“Kurt can get passed his locked door so it’s not like he can avoid him even if he wanted to and Charles owes him.”
“Owes him?” Pete mumbles out.
“Charles himself went through a ten year depression with Hank by his side so I’m sure the telepath is eager to return the favor.”
“He did?”
Pietro looks at Pete in confusion. The older speedster always acts like he knows everything—like he knows everyone’s story like the palm of his hand. Most of the time it feels like he does. Like he knows everyone’s deep dark secrets but sometimes he slips up. He gets things wrong.
Like when he called Frank Jarvis or when went Left to go to the professor's office when he’s supposed to go right. Small things. Minor slip ups that make Pietro wonder if he actually does know everything like he claims to.
“So if he seems weird and distant it’s got nothing to do with you. His brain is just an asshole sometimes and he needs to hermit.”
“Okay?” Alex says—waiting for them to nod and agree and mend their mistakes.
The two speedsters kids nod and speak over each other.
“yeah, alright.” And “Okay. Makes sense.”
“You two leave Hank's room and I won’t tell him you two were snooping in his lab while he was gone.”
“How did you know?“ Pietro asks suddenly.
Alex sighs “I lost ten bucks to a conniving little girl.”
Right. Of course. Kitty really is a money monger. She’s definitely going places. Most likely not that cold bridge.
”Oh no.” Pete says suddenly.
Alex and Pietro both turn to look at him.
“What?” Alex looks concerned by the scared look on Pete’s face.
“Charles just spoke to me.”
“Damn, he caught you quick.” Alex snorts. Even his snort is attractive. Pietro needs to get a grip.
“No. He’s asking me to set up the table for dinner.”
“Dinner already?” Pietro is a bit hungry now that he thinks about it.
“What’s wrong? Never done a chore before?” Pietro jabs. He wonders if Pete’s Charles spoiled him enough not to make him work for anything.
“What’s wrong is the person that’s apparently cooking Dinner.”
“Who is it?”
“Let me ask real quick. Just in case I got anything mixed up.” Pete turns to Pietro slowly “Miss Margaret Wagner, previous circus employee, was Kurt's legal adoptive mother correct?”
“Yep.” Pietro confirms.
“Then we’re Absolutely doomed. I love kurt—i love him but he’s given me food poisoning three times.”
“That’s not good.” Alex says with wide eyes.
“Not good? Do you not understand how difficult it is for someone with my metabolism to be affected by food poisoning? Very fucking difficult.”
“Maybe This Kurt’s cooking isn’t that bad.”
Pietro makes a face. “Uh, no. It’s actually atrocious. Whoever assigned him for dinner duty should be put on the electric chair.”
“That’s too merciful.”
“That’s—well…about that…” both speedster stare at Alex in betrayal “he asked if he could make a special dinner for Magda. How was I suppose to know he’s notoriously bad in the kitchen? He’s never had dinner duty.” For a good reason.
Pete sighs. “In the bright side Kurt Wagner will surely kill us before the TVA changes there mind and decides to eradicate this universe.”
Lovely.
Kittys head pops in through the door. Her face doesn’t change when she sees all three boys in Hanks lab. “Kurt wants to know If the fire alarm has an off switch— apparently It’s distracting him from cooking.”
For fucks sake. They really are screwed.
Notes:
My favorite thing to do is to make Pete give everyone random lore drops about his alternative universe. I also like sneaking in random Marvel Easter eggs.
The amount of times I edited and changed this chapter was actually giving me a headache. I don’t love how it turned out but it’s what I got.
Chapter 29: Too Little too late
Summary:
“If you ever need anything…you can always come to me for help. You know how to get through the door.” Hank makes an explosion motion with his hands—imitating the way he puffs into a room with his abilities.
Kurt nods, smiling shyly, “yeah, okay.”
“And please don’t let the kids have too much sugar.”
“No promises.” Kurt grins.
“I’ll be down in a bit.”
Kurt nods eagerly “Okay. I’ll see you downstairs. I love you.” He says it quickly—Hank doesn’t even get a moment to register the I love you before Kurt is gone and a smell of sulfur is left behind. Hank stares at the empty space that once occupied his favorite person.
“I love you too, kid.” He whispers to the open air—feeling something warm and heavy rush through his body, overtaking the numbness he’s been feeling as of late
()()()()
The conversations in between. The good and the bad. Charles tells a long held secret.
Notes:
The Way I RAN to get this chapter done. I’ve been really excited to show you guys Hanks POV.
As always:typos and grammar mistakes.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Hank McCoy is in one of his darker moods. His mind is muddled and gloomy and he hates to bring anyone down into the dark little cave he calls a room. He sees the pile of dishes on the bedside table and the scribbled nonsense in his journal beside his bed, the crumpled-up pieces of paper and tissues littering the floor and blending in with his dirty clothes. The blue beast is falling into his depression and he can't even pinpoint what exactly did it. Everything was fine. And then suddenly he was hit with a wave of heaviness. He's used to being sorrowful. That's a normal day.
But he isn’t used to people being around him when he is this melancholy. He’s no fun when he’s despondent and broody.
And today was a typical day. Full of elated people and plenty of moods to dampen with his demeanor. Peter made breakfast–a not-so-unusual special treat since he tends to cook often and with much ferocity. The evening was perfectly warm and the children were perfectly happy as they enjoyed the nice day’s festivities. Today is a very normal day.
Except it is not. Today is Wanda's Birthday. She turns Ten today.
Hank remembers his own tenth birthday with a gutted feeling. He recalls the empty dining table and the big cake that was never cut. He remembers his mom's sad eyes as no one rang the doorbell to celebrate with him and he remembers his father's absence like a stone on his back. He was ten and all he had was his mother to celebrate and a very extraordinary cake she spent days preparing for guests that never showed. A quiet dull birthday. The same quiet dull birthdays he had grown accustomed to in the ten years he was haunting this house.
“I won't be here tomorrow.” That's what Charles said to Hank yesterday when Beast brought up Peter's anxious planning. The boy had grown quite the reputation in the last several months as the master of food. Miss Margo is criminally bad. Hank Himself is mediocre at best and Charles grew up with personal chefs and later in life had Raven or Hank to cook for him who aren’t much better.
Charles and Margo teach. Hank heals the scrapes—occasionally teaching science and Peter is the one who cooks, sometimes taking over PE when Hank isn’t feeling up to it. He’s heard one of the kids jokingly calling the speedster the lunch lady and Hank was in tears laughing for hours imagining him wearing a hairnet. Peter had been preparing the food for Wanda’s party like it was life or death. He’s gone through four aprons and Hank has had to go through three entire loads in the dishwasher.
Peter Maximoff has been stressing out and has made no effort to hide that fact.
Hank hadn't said anything to Charles about missing the party though. He knew that Wanda's birthday had the misfortune of landing on the day that Charles keeps for himself. It comes around every year. Like clockwork. Even when he was ten years deep into addiction, every year on that day Charles would leave the mansion. He wouldn't tell anyone where he was going but he would wear his finest clothes and he would leave early in the day and when he came back he was always worse for wear and always fell into a pit of darkness for days after. Hank tried to stop him from leaving once. Three years into the ten years of melting into the shadows of the mansion the Professor crawls out of bed and showers and brushes out his longish hair into a ponytail and wears the cleanest clothes he could find at that time. He sprayed on the most expensive bottle of cologne he had and he went to leave the mansion with a big doped-up smile on his face. He had done the same thing the year before. And the year before that. And Hank hadn’t connected the dots as to why the professor felt compelled to leave on that exact day.
But three years into the tradition—at least the three years he'd been present, Hank has no real idea how long Charles had been doing that routine before he came into the picture—Hank tries to stop him at the door.
It was stupid. Almost a bit selfish. The blue man should feel happy that the man is making some effort to cheer himself up, to be alive, but it only feels worse when he gets back and is doubly worse than before. Shitless drunk and on the verge of a mental breakdown.
But that was dead Charles. Charles isn’t a shell of himself anymore. He’s alive. At least a bit more alive than He was back then. Charles also hasn’t been drinking as regularly.
But he has been drinking.
Even if he pretends he hadn’t been. Even if he says he hasn’t been. Hank knows better. Hank knows drunk Charles intimately. He knows his movements, knows his motions like a slowly collapsing car wreck. He knows drunk Charles more than he knows sober Charles.
What a horrible thought.
Hank had received a vile string of cusses strung together by the professor and a swift shove so he could get through the door. Hank has never tried to stop Charles since that day.
Hank heard Charles tell Peter what Hank presumed to be a lie.
He doesn’t say anything. He regrets not saying anything.
“Babydoll, are you good for a chat?” Miss Margo moved fluidly through the hall and into his laboratory, not even hesitating to enter, no knocking, simply making her presence known.
“I’m in the middle of—“ he points at the pair of tweezers and wires coiled together in his laboratory table before realizing she couldn’t see “—sure. Just for a moment though.”
Miss Margo stands just in front of him, leaning on her cane with a small flourish that makes all the attention—his attention—go to her. “Is the professor getting any help? With his little problem?”
“His problem?” Hank watches her eyebrows crease together in concern.
“The drinking? He’s a bit heavy handed.” It was a very polite and largely understated fact.
“I know—yes…he’s dealing with it.” Hank takes his glasses from his face and begins to wipe them down—simply to have something to do with his hands.
“—Hank, sweetheart, Has he started the program?”
Hanks mind goes quiet, feeling just a bit daft. “What program?” Hank relents.
“Hank…” miss Margo’s disapproval lies heavily in her voice. ”Has Charles gone to any meetings? Has he spoken to a sponsor or professional?”
Hank feels almost like an idiot when he doesn’t respond at all. It’s not that he hasn’t brought it up. He has. Or at least he’s tried to. But Charles is doing so much better, he seems genuinely better that Hank fears if he mentions the drinking he might backslide into a dark mood. Hank can’t handle another ten years of Charles backsliding.
Miss Margo shakes her head her locks shaking beneath her. “has he taken any steps at all to manage his addiction?”
“I’m not sure. He’s—he’s not as bad as he was before. Hes…okay.” Hank knows what it looks like when Charles is bad. He knows what to look for. He knows how to handle him. He is better. Far better than he was before.
“Better does not mean okay. Charles is an addict and it doesn’t seem like he’s taking any effort to mend that fact.” Miss Margo shuffles with some papers.
“I know. I’ve spoken to him about it but—“
“—Kurt found an empty bottle in his office.” Miss Margo clips out matter of factly. Hank knows that when it comes to Kurt Miss Margo is fiercely protective. “Kurt was scared to tell me about it. He thought he’d get in trouble. That Charles would get mad.“ Miss Margo’s jaw tightens, like she’s trying to force back the emotion in her voice “my baby shouldn’t be scared to tell me anything Hank. He shouldn’t be scared at all.” She places the papers on Hanks table with confidence “those are some flyers promoting a few AA meetings around town.” Hank wonders how she knows that if she’s unable to read them. He doesn’t ask. He simply stares at them with a lump in his throat.
“I love Charles to death but he needs to get a grip on this thing before someone gets hurt.”
Hank doesn’t know when it became his responsibility to take care of Charles. When did he become his keeper? Was it when he agreed to join his X-men program? Was it when he moved in? Was his role in Charles’ life solidified when he didn’t leave. When the school was dismantled and he stayed by his side? Was it then? How did Charles become his responsibility? He feels almost….guilty for hating it. He feels guilty for not wanting to deal with Charles even for just one moment.
But Miss Margo is right, as she always is. This doesn’t just affect Charles and Hank anymore. It affects all of the students. It affects Kurt.
“By the way, just so you know Peters birthday is a month after Wandas. He hasn’t said anything—i don’t think he wants to make a big fuss about it.”
“Pietro? Not making a fuss? That doesn’t sound like him at all.”
“He’s nineteen. Maybe he just doesn’t think he needs to celebrate anymore.”
Hank pauses. “Nineteen? I thought he was twenty?”
“No, he’s turning twenty.” Miss Margo says confidently.
Hank frowns doing the math in his head. “That doesn’t make sense.”
Miss Margo gives him a look—the eye contact always catches him off guard when she’s supposedly blind. “how so?”
“He was ten when Wanda was born. Wanda is turning ten. I know basic math. his birthday is one month after Wanda. So he turned 11 after Wanda was born. Which means he should be turning 21.”
“Well, Peter told me he was nineteen.”
“What year was he born?” Hank asks and it feels so silly because it’s something he should already know.
“Would be pretty awkward to ask now. don’t you think?” Miss Margo tuts and leaves the room.
Hank decides he’ll look into it at a different time. He also decides he’ll talk to Charles about going to meetings after the party.
He should have done it before. He should have done a lot of things.
But he had no idea the sequence of events that would happen.
Kids run all over the school. Sometimes things break. Sometimes they go missing. Misplaced or borrowed. It’s normal for Hank to have a pair of goggles or two be ’borrowed’ and then returned with a sheepish grin. But he knows it wasn’t any of the kids when he finds his cabinet unlocked. The one holding the serum he knows a bit too intimately.
It was left unlocked. Hank feels a huff of anger rush through him at the thought of any of the kids coming across the unlocked drawer—Taking the serum without realizing how dangerous it was. Not knowing the repercussions. He was angry at Charles for taking it. He was angry at the professor for leaving the drawer unlocked, and easily accessible for the younger kids. And more importantly, Hank is angry at himself for even making the serum in the first place.
It’s a mess. His mind races and settles and he tries to calm his thoughts. Today is Wanda’s birthday. He needs to leave his room. He needs to wish her a happy birthday. Contribute to the event in some way that isn’t falling asleep in his bed or flickering off the lights. But he barely moves. Barely has the energy to crawl out of his stupor. But he does manage it.
“Wanda’s waffles are looking a little pancakey.” Hank says to Peter. It was the first sentence of the day. He had grabbed his empty Smurf mug and Wanda’s present wrapped in soft paper and decided he had to leave his room now. His stomach ached with hunger but all he craved was coffee.
“Unless you have a waffle maker hidden away in your room this is all I’m gonna be able to make.” Peter jokes, cutting strawberry’s and placing a smiley face on the pancake.
Hank shook back the memory of an empty table. A posted note on the fridge wishing him a happy birthday. A singular cupcake in the fridge. A sweet treat for one. Peter piles the pancakes high, like sugary towers. It makes Hanks's mind noisy with ridiculous envy. He wishes…he hopes…he doesn’t know what he wants. It doesn’t matter.
“What happened to the one we had?” Hank recalls purchasing the waffle maker at Peter's insistence. Obsessive in a way only Peter can be.
He had recruited Kurt to insist on the need of such a delicious contraption. Kurt’s begging did more to convince Hank than Peters did and the speedster probably knew that.
that’s why Hanks a bit surprised when the speedster says the waffles maker “Broke.” Peter uses blueberries for the eyes on the pancake's face. Hank is starving.
“How? It was brand new!” Kurt had spent over half an hour debating between the one that made the classic shaped waffles and the one that made them in the shape of a heart. In the end Kurt got what he wanted with a toothy smile and Peter’s freshly baked—heart shaped waffles.
“I dropped it In Superspeed. It’s Crushed to smithereens.” That makes sense but Peter is very particular when it comes to kitchen things. He knows better than to use his super speed with the appliances. But Hank doesn’t question him on it. Not when he’s clearly anxious already.
“You could always run to the store.” Hank says helpfully trying to remember the last time he had waffles. His mouth watering at the mere thought. “I could but-“
“I smell waffles!” Wanda yells as she stomps down the stairs barefooted her voice echoing down the hall like an alarm.
“-she’s got the nose of a hound.” Peters finishes, the fondness in his voice making Hank smile which he hides by snagging a strawberry from Peters bunch and pouring himself some fresh coffee into his mug. Peter had turned on the machine for him and Hank knows it was for him because Peter doesn’t drink coffee—he doesn’t need it. Hank feels noticed in a way that makes his stomach hurt because he doesn’t deserve to be thought about. Not in that way.
Hank stirs a packet of sugar in his beverage feeling the hot drink go down his throat.
He takes a breath. Mentally checking off the list of things he needs to do before retreating to his room again. Get coffee. Wish Wanda a happy birthday. Give Wanda her present.
Easy.
“Happy birthday Wanda.” Hank says almost robotically and hates how he has to force himself to say it at all. He hates how horrible he is when he’s depressed. Hates how he has to make himself a checklist. Remind himself to be happy for Wanda on her birthday. Like it’s a chore. He Despises how that’s the only way he can get out of his room. By making it a chore.
“Happy birthday Wanda!” Peter exclaims excitedly, his joy Sincere and adding a weight to Hank's shoulders. Wanda genuinely seems happy to see Hank. Smiling brightly at the blue man. Like Hank isn’t counting the seconds before it would be appropriate again to go to his room.
Hank knows she’s excited because she hasn’t seen him in a few days. He was trapped behind his room. Closed off to everyone in the mansion.
She jumps onto Hank's back and he has to tell himself not to freak out and just let himself fall.
“It’s my birthday!” Wanda gushes and Hank smiles.
“yep and as the birthday girl we get to do whatever you want no questions asked ALL day.” Peter says overzealously.
“Within reason,” Hank adds quickly, Trying not to be a buzzkill but also not to have another broken cable tv.
When Hank hears the other kids start rising from their sleep Hank gives Wanda her gift. Another thing checked off his list.
Wanda looks up at Hank with big eyes. “Thank you, Hank.” She says taking the gift from his hand but he isn’t sure she’s talking about the present. “It’s okay.” She says—wrapping her arms around his body in a sudden tight hug. Easy and gentle in a way little kids are. “When I’m sad, Pie makes it better.”
Hank isn’t sure if Wanda is referring to sweets or to her brother. His mind is too occupied to even question it. “I’ll come down later.”
“Okay.” She says easily and pulls away from the warm hug.
Later on during his mid-day nap which he seems to be having at longer intervals lately—He feels the soft strokes of a brush tickling his eyebrow and opens his resting eyes slowly. He wonders if maybe one of the cats had snuck their way into his closed room. He is only partially surprised to see Kurt red handed with a brush and a bowl of hair dye in his hand. He doesn't even have the decency to look embarrassed. Only giggling when they make eye contact.
“Kurt.” Hank furrowed his eyebrows, one of them wetter than the other. “What are you doing?”
Kurt smiles, his canines peeking over his mouth “making you pretty.” he says with his thick accent that always makes everything sound extra sweet and Hank weighs his options. “Is it washable?” He asks reluctantly. The young boy nods and Hank flops his head back down on the couch with a sigh.
Alright then. The soft brush strokes of the dye on his eyebrows tickles a bit.
Hank isn't surprised by his lack of backbone when it comes to Kurt. He just looks so excited and happy that Hank doesn't stand a chance at all. He never wants to dampen the boy's spirit. No matter how underwhelmed Hanks mood seems to be. He refuses to let his darkness smother Kurt’s light. The eighteen year old rarely acts like a little kid and he doesn't want to spoil his fun.
“How's the party going?” Hank asks conversationally.
“Pietro made pancakes!” Kurt says excitedly “I had seven. They were very sweet. I put extra maple syrup and-and whip cream. Blueberries and strawberries and chocolate.” Kurt has gotten accustomed to talking fast when he’s excited, a habit that he picked up from Peter and he doubts the speedster has even noticed. Hank always has to work double time to catch up to what their both saying when they get jumpy and hyper. completely in sync in a way only best friends can be.
“I didn’t know Pietro put chocolate in them.” He can only imagine the sugar high the children must all be having.
“Yeah, wonka chocolate.” Kurt bursts out like he might explode if he doesn’t tell Hank. Hank is aware that Wonka chocolate is actually just regular chocolate but for some reason Kurt assumes any chocolate Peter makes is Wonka chocolate. It’s only a little bit confusing.
“Homemade, I presume.” Hank muses and watches as Kurt’s tail zips back and forth behind him like a golden retriever.
“Yeah! Pietro made extra.” Kurt puts the bowl of dye on the table and takes out a fist full of wrapped chocolate from his pocket. “Here you go.”
Kurt adores sweets. Pietro does too. The both of them are like walking talking cavities waiting to happen. Fortunately for Hank he loves sweets too—he takes the wrapped chocolates from Kurt’s fingers.
“Thank you.”
“Mama Margo told me that mr. Xavier won’t be home today.”
“That’s correct. Something important came up.” Hank says with only a bit of guilt.
“Must be very important for him to miss Wanda’s birthday.” Kurt says like that’s a fact—no judgment in his voice. “He took a car.”
“Did he?”
Kurt’s eyes dart around nervously and eventually he asks “how can he drive if he can’t use his legs.”
“Sometimes he can. When he takes a special serum.” Hank doesn’t even consider lying.
“A special serum?”
“It helps him walk.” kurt nods eagerly.
“Why doesn’t he just take that all the time then? Driving is very fun. Pietro taught me.”
“The side effects of the serum aren’t ideal.” Hank says truthfully. “it gives him his legs but it takes away his powers. For a time.”
“Oh.” Kurt’s voice goes quiet his tail dropping to the ground. “And he still takes it? On purpose?”
“Yes. And um—“ Hank hadn’t had this conversation with Kurt. He didn’t think he ever had to. He kind of hoped it would neve come up but seeing that look on his face…it makes Hank want to be honest. “up until recently I had taken the serum as well. It made my fur and blue skin disappear.”
Hank forced himself to look Kurt in the eye as he confessed to it. He saw the moment his words registered for the young boy. The way his round eyes dimmed just slightly —his shoulders hunching together.
“Why?” His voice was so small and he rubs his tail in a methodical way that he’s seen Pietro do before.
“I didn’t want people to look at me and see a beast.” And Hank dates his eyes to dart towards the mirror on his dresser. He looks at his reflection, blue and furry and beastly. he doesn’t know if he feels any better about it. But when he looks at Kurt. Same blue skin, same furry traits, same beastly qualities—-his heart breaks at the thought of him hating it.
“Instead of trying to change how they saw me I changed how I looked.” Kurt looks at his reflection in the mirror as well. Hank sees the boy sizing them both up, reflecting just as Hank did.
“Do you still feel…beastly?” Kurt asks gently. So wise and understanding for a kid who doesn’t need to be.
“Yeah, sometimes.” Hank decided a long time ago that he doesn’t want to lie to Kurt. He knows more than anyone what misunderstanding can do—what kind of hearts it can break. He has no intention of ever breaking Kurt’s heart.
When he told Kurt—months ago now—about how he’d made a paranoid decision in tricking him into taking a paternity test, the young boy had already seemingly figured it out. The conversation was a difficult one to have and one he had no idea was going in the direction it went.
“I know who your father is.” Hank had said like he was telling him of a sin. It actually did feel cruel, to invade his privacy in that way. It felt cruel when he first did it and it felt cruel when he continued to do so.
At the time Hank and Kurt had just begun to get to know each other and the revelation had felt monumental. He had been checking for his own DNA. A silly paranoid thought. But what he found instead was hers. Hank has looked at Ravens DNA before. It’s unique in many ways. So when he saw Kurt’s DNA—how it was structured, how it worked—he knew almost instantly. But he also, confusingly enough, recognized Miss Margo’s DNA as well. The woman had voluntarily gotten good use on the free medical check ups Hank was offering.
It didn’t take much figuring out that the shapeshifter—shapeshifted. It was hard to digest. Hank was a bit ashamed to say that he avoided the younger boy for—two days—before he couldn’t stand it anymore and had to spill his guts to him. He just couldn’t stand looking at his sad little dejected face everytime Hank ignored him.
“Your father is Raven.” Hank says very matter of factly.
Kurt just nods “yes.” He says like that was common knowledge. Like it didn’t take everything in Hank to tell him.
“You knew?” Hanks let’s out a surprised breath.
Kurt stares at Hank, his face open and honest “yes.”
“How? Does she know? How do you know?” Hanks filter seems to disappear completely his eyes trained on Kurt who just smiles.
“She knows.” Kurt plays with his tail.
“And?” Hank grasps at something he can’t grab—completely stunned “Why isn’t she here? Why isn’t she taking care of you?” Hank didn’t even fully understand why he was so upset.
He thinks it would’ve been better if Raven just had no idea. If she was clueless to fathering a child completely—but…if she knew—if she was made aware of it and she just didn’t do anything about it—didn’t care enough—then what the fuck is wrong with her?
Kurt frowns “she doesn’t want to.” He says it like it’s simple. Like it’s a damn choice. It makes Hank so angry at her. He doesn’t want to be angry at Raven. It was the last thing he wanted to do. But if it was between Kurt and Raven he’d always choose Kurt.
“She doesn’t want to?” Hank's eyes widened and he couldn't stop staring at Kurt. How can anyone not want to take care of Kurt. “That can’t possibly be true.” Hank tries to reason. He tries.
The Raven he knew—she’s different now but she couldn’t possibly be that different.
“She’s not interested in being my dad. She said so herself.” Kurt said it like it didn’t break Hank's heart.
“She’s a fucking idiot.” And Hank meant that so wholeheartedly. He was so angry on Kurt’s behalf. So emotional over the idea of Kurt not being loved that he—just for a moment—honest to god—hated Raven. “She’s got no idea what she’s missing out on.”
Kurt and Hank talked for a long time that day. Hank told him about his rocky relationship with his own father. It felt reminiscent and genuine and Hank swore to himself he’d be more honest with the boy. If Kurt had answers Hank would try his best to answer them at the best of his capabilities.
And now today they look at each others reflections in the mirror and for maybe just a moment Hank sees a father and son.
“I don’t think you’re a beast.” Kurt says and Hank looks at his claws and he can’t imagine why he wouldn’t. “Thank you Kurt. That means more to me than you know.”
“I think you look like a giant teddy bear. Fluffy and a good hugger.”
“Thanks,” Hank laughs suddenly and is overwhelmed by the idea of miniature stuffed animal versions of himself at toy stores.
Kurt puts the now empty dye Bowl on the table. “I should head back down now.“
“Sure, but real quick…” Hank scratches his fuzzy chin and gives Kurt a solid look “I’m going to talk to Charles when he gets back, okay? You won’t have to worry about him or anything.” he doesn’t mention what Miss Margo told him. He doesn’t have to.
“Okay.” Kurt bites his lip anxiously.
“If you ever need anything…you can always come to me for help. You know how to get through the door.” Hank makes an explosion motion with his hands—imitating the way he puffs into a room with his abilities.
Kurt nods, smiling shyly, “yeah, okay.”
“And please don’t let the kids have too much sugar.”
“No promises.” Kurt grins.
“I’ll be down in a bit.”
Kurt nods eagerly “Okay. I’ll see you downstairs. I love you.” He says it quickly—Hank doesn’t even get a moment to register the I love you before Kurt is gone and a smell of sulfur is left behind. Hank stares at the empty space that once occupied his favorite person.
“I love you too, kid.” He whispers to the open air—feeling something warm and heavy rush through his body, overtaking the numbness he’s been feeling as of late.
The rest of the day goes by with that warmth in his stomach. Like he’s won something. A trophy or a medal. But better. Kurt.
The day ends with a movie. As perfect as it can get. But the day wasn’t really over.
“You gotta pick up Charles.” Peter wakes Hank with trembling hands.
“What?” Hank repeats in his half-asleep stupor. He doesn’t know what time of day it is or what even is going on. Is it morning already?
“You gotta pick up Charles. He’s at Froggys.” Peter is talking but Hank can’t even really hear him over his tired mind. Rebooting and restarting to comprehend human language.
“What time is it?” Hank hasn’t even opened his eyes yet, and hasn’t even fully processed Peters's words. Or the emotion behind his voice. quiet and small. So completely unlike his usual big and loud words.
“I don’t know. Late. Early?” Peters voice shakes and Hank rubs his eyes trying to fully develop a coherent and conscious thought that isn’t static in his head.
“Did you just say that Charles is at Froggys?” Because he swears he heard him say that. The words fitting in that exact order in his brain.
Froggys the bar. Charles.
“Yeah.” Peter's dull and quiet answer makes Hank's gut drop. Fuck.
Hank stands up abruptly, making the blanket fort collapse slightly but Peter catches it in superspeed, always considerate of the children.
“I’ll go get him. You shouldn’t see him like that.” Hank stifles back a yawn, going through the house on muscle memory alone, the dark room being exactly as it was when he fell asleep.
Hank wonders how long Peter got the call. Did Charles call? Was he sober enough to even give his correct address? Hank is racing through the checklist of things he needs to worry about. The car Charles took. The wheelchair he’ll need. The time the bar closes. Problem after problem. He needs to figure it out.
Hank pats Peter on the shoulder half-heartedly hoping to convey to him that this was alright. That everything was going to be okay. That the blue man had it all under control he didn’t need to worry. But—but Hank suddenly looks at Peter. Really looks at him. His eyes are red and puffy and his nose is flush with emotion.
“Have you been crying?” Hank hears himself ask.
Peter nods and Hank blinks slowly, looking at the speedster's blotchy face, seeing how he was hunching in on himself. Like he was nervous. Hank begs his mind to catch up. To say something useful or reassuring or comforting. Anything at all that might make this better?
Wanda says Peter makes her feel better when she’s sad. Who makes Peter feel better when he’s sad? Hank has no idea.
“did you wanna talk about it?” Hank mentally pats himself on the head. He thinks it’s an okay response. Not his best work but good in a pinch.
Peter shakes his head “Not really.”
“Later?” Hank wishes he had pushed. Maybe just a little. Maybe past the initial no.
“Maybe.” Hank could’ve stayed a bit longer, he could’ve gotten real answers from the speedster. Charles could wait. Peter needed him and he should’ve stayed to comfort him. To figure out the problem.
He could’ve hugged him. He wishes he had. But it all was happening so suddenly and Charles needed to be picked up. Charles. Charles. Charles.
Hank McCoy at that moment decided to prioritize Charles. It’s probably one of the single biggest regrets Hank has of that day. He should’ve stayed. He could’ve called a cab for the man to pick him up. He could’ve done so many things differently.
Hank nods pushing his glasses up his nose “Okay. I’ll be back in a few.”
It took ten minutes to drive to Froggys. An extra ten to coax a blasted Charles into his car.
Charles was belligerent, mumbling “I’m sorry’s.” And “I didn’t mean it’s” like candy snacks that Hank can collect.
“Is Peter okay?” Charles is sitting in the backseat— pressing his forehead against the headrest of the passenger seat. He speaks slowly, slurring his words together to form the sentence clearly. Practicing his vowels and annunciations.
Hank barely looks at Charles. Still fuming from Having to get up to pick him up. Still reeling from everything he has to do. Still worried about Peter. Peter. Peter.
“No.” Hank glares at the steering wheel. “what the fuck did you do Charles?”
“Nothing.” Charles mumbles out hunching into himself and Hank puts the car on park sitting in the parking lot of a dingy bar in the middle of the fucking night with a sad drunk in his backseat. “Why do you keep trying to make this backfire on you?” he moves his glare to the rearview mirror.
“What are you on about?” Charles wobbles out in annoyance—like he has any right to be annoyed with Hank.
The blue scientist loses his composure. A brief moment of insanity as he jerks around in his seat to grab Charles's collar and pulling him forward between the consoles. Charles gasps and stares eyes wide at a furious Hank. “Stop fucking around Charles. I’m sick of this. You’re a lucky bastard.” Charles makes a pained expression like he might disagree and Hank will have none of it.
“You have no idea what you’re throwing away by acting like this. You have a fucking family—whether you want it or not and you’re just pushing them away—-pushing us—pushing me away like we aren’t of any concern. what the hell is this day Charles? Why the hell do you get like this? Why did you have to drink why do you always have to fucking drink?”
“It’s what people do when they celebrate.”
“Celebrate what?” Hank snaps, feeling all his bottled-up wrath, ten years worth of suppressed rage bubble to the surface. “You fucking missed Wanda’s party. You know how crushed she’ll be when she finds out you missed her party just to have one of your own at some shitty bar?”
“I-I know. I didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt.”
“But someone did. Why was Peter crying?”
At the mention of Peter Charles face morphs into something sickening, a series of emotions that Hank can’t possibly categorize without losing his indignation. And he needs to be rageful. He needs to say his piece and he’ll only do it in the heat of anger. “You made Peter fucking cry Charles.”
“I know.” He says somberly.
“You can’t fucking do that Charles. You can’t make that kid cry. Not him. He doesn’t deserve it. He’s—“ Hank knows too much about Peter. He knows exactly just how broken his bones are—he knows just how scared he gets when things get loud. Not just loud but angry. Loud and angry. It’s why Hank didn’t let his irritation out until he was gone. Far away from the mansion. He didn’t let the beast out until the root of the problem was sitting in his back seat.
“—I know.” Charles says quietly, like a broken record.
“Oh, you know?” Hank hisses sarcastically “you keep saying that. ‘I know, I know’ you don’t know shit Charles. Read my fucking mind and I’ll tell you.”
Hank dares him, knowing damn well he couldn’t. Charles has that cursed serum in his veins, making his paralyzed legs function and his abilities dull. If he didn’t then Hank wouldn’t have risked breaking HIPPA. But more importantly, he had sworn to Peter that his medical history would stay between them. Hank wouldn’t allow a loophole like -Charles reading his mind- to break his trust. He knew Charles was incapable of even reading his mind in this state and Hank wouldn’t suggest it otherwise.
He just wanted to make a point. Charles looks at Hank, unblinking, his pupils are so small and he's slow to speak.
“I can’t,” Charles says with much difficulty.
Instead, he lets go of Charles' collar making the older man drop back into his backseat with a huff and Hank smooths out the irritation in his face.
“you don’t deserve that kid.” Hank says venomously.
Charles' face grows pale “I only had today. She was here just for today.”
“Who Charles?” Hank pushed. He never pushes.
“Wendy.” Charles says the name like it’s a saints name. Delicate and small.
Hank forms a straight line with his lips trying to understand but falling short. “Do we know a Wendy?” Because everybody that Charles knows—Hank knows too. Hank can’t even comprehend that Charles had a life before Hank was around.
But he did. Miss Margo had said so herself. She was friends with the man. Back when he was in college. Hank doesn’t know everything.
“You don’t know her. Nobody does. Only me.” Charles is reaching for something in his pocket. Thinking it’s a hidden flask Hank snatches it away in haste. It was his wallet. An older one with frayed edges.
“Give it back Hank.” Charles voice goes cold—any emotions in his voice are gone.
Hank and Charles are at a standstill. Hank lets out a breath of frustration and chugs the wallet back at the professor's chest who catches it in quick haste, frantic to have it back.
“Who is Wendy?” Hank isn’t letting this go. He’s not moving this fucking car until he tells him.
Hank later on regrets the decision. He should’ve been driving back him. They would’ve gotten back just in time to stop those men from taking the children. But Hank had no idea that while he was grilling Charles in a car parked in a dark dirt path that Kurt was being sedated. He didn’t know that Miss Margo was losing blood as he sat parked in the middle of the street. He didn’t know.
He couldn’t have known.
“Charles. Help me understand why you would do this.“
“Wendy was my daughter.” Charles says and Hank isn’t really in his body. Not really. He feels like he might be somewhere else completely. “Daughter.” Hank says so quietly that it’s barely even uttered.
Charles eyes are so far away and glassy as he pulls on something in his wallet. With shaking fingers he shows Hank a picture he’s never seen before. An ultrasound. Arms. Legs. Body. Head. And then almost like a glitch in the picture—a blur that could be mistaken—Hank also saw Ten toes and only six fingers. Three for each hand. Small baby fingers. “She was so small.” Was. She died.
“How old was she when she—“ Hank couldn’t even say the word Died.
“She passed away the day after this picture was taken. Her heart was too big for her body. She never even took a breath on this earth. When her mother told me she was pregnant I was so scared. I was just a kid myself. Still in college. Still getting my life together and I didn’t want any part of it. I denied her.” Charles gazed at the baby picture with such sadness that Hank thought he knew. He thought he understood sadness, he thought he understood Charles level of pain but he didn’t. He was wrong.
“I came to my senses though a bit later in the pregnancy. When they took this picture I thought she was the most beautiful baby in the whole world. I had one day. Only one day where I thought I was gonna be a father. I went out and I got drunk with strangers and I told everyone who would listen that I was gonna be a dad. I was so excited to have this family. I was so proud to have a daughter. The morning after the mother went into labor—premature and—and they both died.”
Hank feels all the air leave his body and come right back to him in a second. “I’m so sorry Charles.”
Charles shakes his head “every year on this exact day I go out and I look at this picture and u pretend she’s still here. I pretend that I’m about to be a father—I get shit faced and I celebrate her. Just once a year I pretend I still have a daughter.”
“Charles that’s—“ unhealthy? Who is he to judge how he grieves? “-does Raven know?”
If Raven knew…how could she do what she did to Kurt. How could she abandon him and then let him stay with Charles of all people. Charles who doesn’t get the chance to raise his own child so he takes care of everybody else’s.
Charles shakes his head “I’ve never said it out loud. Miss Margo—-figured it out. Wanda knows about Wendy but not the details.”
Wanda knows about Wendy. Maybe that was why she kept asking for him. Kept trying to include him in the celebration even if he wasn’t there.
“But you’ve never said it out loud before? You’ve never spoken to someone about it?” Hank can’t stop staring at Charles. A grieving man. More grief than he could have ever realized.
“I can’t. I—“Charles breaks fine into tears again, his entire body shaking and Hank has never moved so quickly in his life. He’s out of the driver seat and club h on to the back seat with Charles. He’s hugging the man like he was gripping his collar just moments before—angry and confused.
“Today was suppose to be a day for Wendy.” Charles says mournfully and he hiccups into Hanks shoulders—truly allowing himself to be held. Hank grips his shoulders—he lets him fall apart.
Time is ticking by.
“But—“ Charles sniffles “—All I could think about was Wanda. I was suppose to be celebrating my daughter and all I could think about was Wanda. I kept trying to drink more—trying to remember Wendy instead but I just kept thinking of Wanda waiting for me at home. I kept mistaking the two and I just—I couldn’t handle it Hank. I felt like I was losing Wendy all over again. Like she never existed. Like she was being replaced.”
“And the worst part—the worst part Hank-“ Charles squeezes his eyes shut like he can’t even bare it. “-I wasn’t even upset about it. Because Wanda is perfect. She’s everything I thought Wendy would grow up to be. And Peter—“ his voice hitches like he’s in pain “they would’ve been around the same age. I look at him and I think about how I feel about him—about how I feel about the two of those kids and sometimes I think I’m a monster. Like I’m dancing on Wendy’s grave.”
“You’re not a monster.”
“I don’t deserve those kids. I don’t deserve any of them. They deserve someone better someone like you.” Charles says it like it’s a fact.
Charles thinks Hank is better than Him. It’s so bizarre and so wrong that he almost laughs. “I’m not any better.” He thinks about the delayed I love you he didn’t say to Kurt. He thinks about all the things he could’ve done or could’ve said differently. “And to be honest I don’t think anyone deserves those kids. But we're the ones that have them so shouldn’t we at least try?”
“Yes, I know. I know.” Charles pulls away from Hank now his eyes puffy and red.
“Wanda loves you. Pietro loves you too—he’ll forgive you for tonight.” Hank squeezes Charles shoulder.
“I don’t want him to forgive me.” Charles says and Hank doesn’t know what to say to that.
He gets back to the driver seat and he drives back to the mansion. A different mansion from before. Different in a way that hurts Hanks heart.
He had no idea that the last conversation he had with Peter would be the last. He hadn’t known that the unheard I love you too, kid would be something that would haunt him. He hadn’t known that some of the kids in that blanket fort wouldn’t be alive when he got back.
He hadn’t known that that night would be one of the worst of his life.
Notes:
Kurt is such a special character to me and I want to give him all the love. I was hoping to show the difference between how Hank communicates with Kurt and how Charles Communicates with Pietro.
Chapter 30: From The Beginning
Summary:
“Why is the rice blue?” Alex Summers asks with wide puzzled eyes.
That’s not the question he needs to be asking.
“Everything is better when it’s blue.” Kurt says easily and Pietro nods. “Yes, obviously but um…is it also meant to be soggy and hard at the same time or was that just a…happy coincidence?”
“Yes. It’s better for you when it’s just slightly undercooked.” Kurt says like he’s quoting Miss Margo’s philosophy on every dish she’s ever made.
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Kurt makes dinner. Pietro gets answers from his mother. His life gets a bit more complicated.
Notes:
I love how i keep saying there's gonna be a time skip and there hasn't been one yet. oopsie. Thank you for the comments! i love reading them all and I'm loving the theories you guys have.
About half-way through I forgot what the TVA called the TemPad so I just kept calling them jumpers. Let's just pretend 'Jumper' is what the Maximoffs call TemPads for funsies. okay. cool.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Kurt Wagner is wearing Pietros favorite frilly apron. The speedster takes a moment to go into superspeed to grab the camera from upstairs and take a few pictures of the blue boy.
He just looks too damn cute.
“Say cheese!” Pietro gushes and Kurt throws a peace sign and shoots him a full teeth smile. “Cheese.”
Pietro snaps a very appropriate amount of pictures. Pete takes out a small rectangular device from his back pocket and also aims it at Kurt. A quick flash of light comes from the device and then Pete quickly puts the device back in his back pocket—without a word or explanation.
“What was that?” Pietros eyes widen.
“Nothing.” Pete says.
Pietro super speeds to grab it from his back pocket—-Pete super speeds away so he can’t reach for it. Damn.
“Did you guys come down to help me?” Kurt chirps happily as literal smoke is consuming the kitchen. Pete opens up all the windows and Pietro opens the doors to let the smoke clear.
“Smells like something’s burning.” Alex says as he trails behind the counter.
“That’s how you know it tastes good.” Kurt says with full confidence. Oh no.
“I fear you’re beyond help, hon.” Pete sighs as he looks grimly at an abused bowl of grits. Looks like Kurt added something…green or purple into it. Could truly be anything.
“Why is the rice blue?” Alex Summers asks with wide puzzled eyes.
That’s not the question he needs to be asking.
“Everything is better when it’s blue.” Kurt says easily and Pietro nods. “Yes, obviously but um…is it also meant to be soggy and hard at the same time or was that just a…happy coincidence?”
“Yes. It’s better for you when it’s just slightly undercooked.” Kurt says like he’s quoting Miss Margo’s philosophy on every dish she’s ever made.
“Oh? Awesome.” Pietro says with a pitch to his voice and he just smiles adoringly at his pretty friend. He can’t really bare to be mean to him, even if it will spare himself from food poisoning.
“I Trust you completely.” Pete says with a hand to his heart— like he’s feeling his heartbeat maybe for the last time in his life.
“I’m sorry, I’m not eating this.” Alex says grimly as he looks at the burnt pieces of vegetables cut up in a bowl full of some off colored liquid. It could be venom or literal piss but if Kurt is looking at him with those big hopeful eyes he will swallow it whole.
Kurt looks at Alex with a pout that would’ve sent Pietro into the stratosphere. “you won’t?”
Alex makes a strategical move to NOT look at Kurt when he says the next half of his sentence. “I already had a Big lunch and I won’t be here for dinner—Hank asked me to pick him up from his meeting.”
Kurt’s tail sways slightly “oh, okay. I understand. I can leave a plate for you and Hank for when you get back.” He says eagerly.
Alex plasters a smile on his face—like a coward and he nods “sure thing bud. Extra big portions for Hank you know how his metabolism is.” Pure evil.
Hot and evil. What a combo.
First he makes the mistake of assigning Kurt dinner duty and now he doesn’t even get to suffer the consequences?
Charles' face is already pale and grey as he rolls into the kitchen. Pietro has no idea if it’s because of Kurt’s cooking or because of something Magda said.
“That’s an interesting development.” Charles looks uneasily towards the group of horrified kids huddled near the dinner table—like they are being held at gun point.
“I’m going to let you guys in on a little secret. If you just don’t breath and just start shoveling the food into your mouth you barely even process the taste.“ Robbie, a green scaled fish boy rescued from the facility, said.
“Oooh good one.” Kitty subtly High-fives the younger boy whose gills shift at the praise.
“Have you tried the chew and Sauce method?” Oliver tacks on like he’s revealing a conspiracy. Oliver can go translucent—almost invisible for short periods of time.
“The what?” Petes voice raises over the chattering kids around them.
“You get the most edible thing, preferably meat, and just chew on it. You don’t gotta ever swallow you just gotta look like you’re constantly eating. You grab a huge plate, small portion of something but preferably with a lot of sauce. Just start playing with it on the table. The messier the plate the more it looks like you’ve been going to town on it.”
“That’s brilliant! Howd you think of that?” Robbie gasps.
“I used to starve myself as punishment for my sins.” Oliver says casually.
“Oh.” Pietros eyes widen at his blatant honesty.
Oliver makes a panicked face at Pietros reaction “Don’t worry I’ve been absolved of all my wrong doings and I no longer think I’m going to hell.”
“Right. Well, that’s great.” Pietro gives a worried glance towards Charles who just shakes his head like he’s already had his own headache over it. Oh, so, that’s like a whole thing. Got it.
The school seriously needs to hire a therapist.
“It was easier with Miss Margo. She was blind. We could make whatever faces we wanted and do whatever with the food but this is like three times worse because he can see us not eating it.” Christina said and at the mention of miss Margo the group diverges into mumbled conversation and Charles rolls his wheelchair over to the speedster. Pietro makes a face. “Am I allowed to ask about what you guys talked about or is it still none of my business?” Pietro asks bitterly and Charles doesn’t even justify his sourness with a response.
“Peter…” Charles starts and then doesn’t seem to know how to continue. Pietro just stares at the man who seems to be at a loss of words “was it that bad?”
Charles eyes shift away from him—something deeply sad in them that tugs at Pietro's chest. The speedster wants to know what was said. He wants to know what his mother told him to make his eyes look like that. To make the professor look so genuinely emotional.
“What did she say to you Professor?” Pietro asks in a hushed voice—not wanting the children to overhear.
“I don’t…” Charles sounds so lost— like it’s an afterthought—like he can barely remember what he’s meant to do. “I had some idea but I didn’t know—not that. I couldn’t see the full picture. Wanda’s dreams where always filtered in a way that…I couldn’t see past certain things. I couldn’t have guessed something like that.”
“Guessed what?”
“Your stepfather.” Charles says evenly and there’s no mistaking it. Pietro can feel it settle in the professors bones. He can hear it in the base of his voice. The anger. Charles is angry. Not drunk in a bar angry—-he’s righteously angry.
“I don’t wanna talk about him.” Pietro says instinctively and he knows that the impulse is because of Wanda. Because of what she pushed into his mind.
“He went to prison. You can’t tell anyone. It’s a secret.”
I can’t tell anyone. I can’t talk about it. That translates to: I can’t talk about him. An avoidance that Pietro had no idea blocked his mind at all. It makes sense after all this time.
It makes sense why it felt physically painful to tell Hank a fraction of what David did. Opening up—going against Wanda’s vague orders—was like pulling fingernails with his teeth.
Pietro is so broken in ways he’s only now becoming aware of. A puzzle piece of trauma and lies that only reveal parts of his story.
Pietro looks away from Charles—his eyes find Kurt whose stirring a pot of food in the stove, his tongue sticking out in conversation. Pietro takes in a deep breath trying to ease his anxiety trying to find comfort in the other boys presence. Trying to fight his compulsion to avoid avoid avoid.
“I think we should.” Charles says evenly—firmly. Like he was expecting Pietro to block his first efforts. Because he knows Pietro. He knows him even more now. Everytime he learns something new about Pietro his keen instinct over the boy adapts and evolves. Like a new round of Pac-Man—getting faster and smarter in each new level. Charles is constantly adapting for Pietro—he doesn’t know why anyone would want to deal with him at all.
“I’m sure you talked plenty with my mom.” Pietro knows that he tried to keep him in the room but as always his mothers word is bond.
“She…had much to say. But it’s your story too.”
“David was an asshole. there’s not much more to say.”
“Peter.” Charles frowns.
“Right sorry. No cursing. He was a jerk. point still stands.”
“I wasn’t scolding you over language pie.” The nickname catches him completely off guard. He’s heard Charles say it before. Plenty of times. It’s a widely known nickname of his apparently. But he wasn’t expecting to hear it now. During this type of conversation.
Pietro looks around and realizes his mother didn’t come down with the professor. “Where's my mom?”
“She wants to speak with you in my office. Privately.”
“And what she says goes.” Pietro scoffs and Charles places a gentle hand on his arm making an effort to level with him “son, you don’t have to do a thing you don’t want to do. But—“ Charles looks intensely at him “-you said you wanted answers and she’s the only one that can give them to you.”
He knows this. He hates it. “I know.”
“Just listen to what she has to say and we can deal with the rest. We can figure it all out together. I promise.”
Another promise.
Okay. “Okay.”
“Kid-“ Charles pauses his eyes a bit glassy—anchoring him to this moment. ”I just wanted to say…”
”…you just wanted to say.…what?”
“That, I, um, I love you is all and I care about you a lot.”
He says it like Pietro might leave. Like he’s afraid this might be the last time he gets the chance to say it. It makes Pietro feel so raw. Like Charles sees him in all his flesh. With all his flaws and all his dramas and just—everything and he’s still giving him this. He still finds Pietro worthy of it at all. It’s terrifying.
Pietros misses a step. “I-“ he falters—just for a second.
“You don’t have to respond. I just wanted you to know. Before you spoke with your mother.” Charles squeezes his arm and then lets him go.
Pietro doesn’t know what to do with that. To be loved without expectation. It rewires something in him that he didn’t know was crossed.
“Okay.” He breathes out with tight shoulders.
He finds his mother sitting in the exact same spot he left her before. She looks more drained if possible. Eyes distant.
“Mai.” He knocks on the door even though he’s already inside.
“Peter. Please sit.”
Magda purses her lips cradling a coffee mug that looks more lukewarm now. “I apologized to Charles. For snapping at him.”
“Awesome, good job.” Pietro says with so much sarcasm he expects his mother to scold him. She doesn’t.
“I’m sorry for pushing you out of the room.” An apology?
Pietro doesn’t respond—even though every part of his body was itching to blurt out I forgive you. He hates fighting with his mom. Hates seeing her upset. He hates that she always feels ten miles away even when she’s right in front of him.
“For you to understand I need to start from the beginning.” Magda says tediously.
“The beginning?” Pietro frowns at the vagueness.
“Lorna died in a fire.” Magda says like that was an appropriate place to start a story—like this wasn’t the first time in years she’s said his dead sisters name to him. “Your biological father—He had a way with words—with moving people. It attracted all sorts of folks. People that didn’t like what he was saying of what he represented. The fire was meant to kill us. To silence him—but it only made him louder—angrier. I was so scared of his anger, of the people it attracted—of what that would mean for…for you…it was easy enough to run away when I knew what would happen if I stayed.”
Pietro stares at his mother—the way her mannerism turn jittery as she speaks. The way she can barely look at Pietro as she says the most words about his father he’s ever heard.
“I thought that I was free of him. Of the chaos he brought. I thought that I could start anew but the people that wanted to hurt your father had eyes everywhere. I traveled with your godmother from camp to camp—I lived under the radar—I kept my head down—laid low and I thought that they wouldn’t find me but they did. David Strucker was perfect on paper. He was beloved and respected by the community and I thought that it meant the bad men wouldn’t be able to touch you or me. I didn’t know he worked for Hydra. I didn’t know that he worked for the people that tried to burn us alive in our sleep—who killed Lorna.” Magda pulls on papers she had placed on Charles' desk.
She flips them over and hands them to Pietro like he isn’t already overwhelmed with the information he’s getting. What. The. Fuck.
“The organiziation he’s apart of experimented on him to trigger his mutation and made him the perfect weapon. He was a Nazi soldier during the early developments of the war.”
He sees David in a grainy picture shaking hands with a man that looks like—-oh he definitely is—Adolf Hitler. He looks exactly the same. Like he hasn’t aged a day. Which is strange considering this picture is dated to when his mom was a kid.
Pietros almost starts laughing hysterically. “a Nazi! Mom, are you serious?”
“Unfortunately.”
“You married a Nazi.” He can feel his ancestors' ashes crawling up his throat like a bad taste in his mouth. “You’re Jewish, Mai.”
“Clearly I wouldn’t have married him if I had known Peter.” Magda exasperates.
“Holy shit—-Wanda’s dad is a Nazi.” Pietro is actually physically ill. This explains so much. Yet nothing at all. “Does she know?”
“I prefer if she didn’t.” Which means fuck no.
“How did you find all this out?”
“I had my suspicions that he was hiding things from me. Sometimes he would say things—things I hadn’t told him or he would lie about things that didnt add up. In the end I didn’t really know anything. Not until I—not until I killed him.”
Pietros heart was racing—she said it. Just like that. She’s confirmed what he already knew but it was all wired and strange and Pietro thought he’d feel different. Better. Freer. Less crazy. He doesn’t.
“I didn’t think I was someone that was capable of murder but I—I just couldn’t sleep with him under our roof. I saw him leave your room one night…I hadn’t known if it was the first time or if what I had thought happened was what was happening but I just remember wanting him gone.”
This was the first time Magda Maximoff has ever outwardly mentioned the things David used to do to Pietro. It was the first time he’s ever heard it from out of his point of view.
Magda put the mug down— her hands shaking slightly without the solid ceramic around her fingers. “He was so strong. I knew that from experience. I couldn’t fight him with my fists so I—I put cyanide in his beer. Told him It was a new brand of alcohol. He drank it all in one sitting. He was dead in minutes.”
Wait—that’s not—- “he was dead for a week and then he strolled into our house again with a hangover and with no memory of what I had done. The second time I killed him was in his sleep. I made sure he drank enough liquor that he wouldn’t be able to fight and I asphyxiated him with a pillow. He was gone for three weeks that time and when he came back he had a headache so profound that he beat me half to death. I tried for the third time in the shower. We didn’t have electricity because of the blow dryer causing a fuse for a month but he was gone for that whole month and I thought he would stay dead for sure that time. He comes back, very much alive—and curses about me not paying for the electric. The fourth time I killed David—-“
“—-holy fucking shit.” Pietros eyes are so wide he thinks he might be a cartoon character. “H-how many times did you try to kill him?”
“I didn’t try, Pietro. I did it. I killed him. Over and over again but the bastard just just kept coming back. He’d be dead for longer periods each time —weeks—months—but never forever. He never stays dead, that’s his gift.”
“How many times Mai?”
“As many times as it took. Every time I killed him—he was gone and it would be just us two and we’d be safe. You know? We had each other and whenever the guilt would eat at me I’d go to a synagogue. I’d pray and I’d pray and when that didn’t work I drank to forget how many times I’ve killed david.”
“So whenever David would go on his long trips or you’d kick him out in a fight—“
“He was dead. I hadn’t figured out who he actually was—who he was to your father until it was already too late. I thought maybe I could run. But I had before and hydra still managed to find me and I saw no way out. I was stuck married to him. I was married to a monster again. I was in an endless cycle, again. I couldn’t believe that I let it happen to me again. i couldn’t believe that I had been so blind—so desperate for safety that I fucking married him. I just—-“ Magda wipes at her face and she’s already puffy and red and Pietro has no way to comfort her. He has no idea what anyone is supposed to say to that.
“—Peter. I tried my best. I know it wasn’t good enough—not even close. I fucked up so many times but I really thought I could keep him dead longer. That last time…he was buried for a year. I had been practicing—trying to make his deaths last longer then just a couple months. I thought maybe if he was cut into pieces—-it would be harder to come back from it but he did and this time he remembers me killing him.”
“He’s been gone for five years. what the hell was he doing for those four years he was back?” Pietro is taking all of this in with gracious speed. It’s all insanely crazy and bonkers and the idea of his mother committing homicide multiple times is still extremely absurd but he’s taking it in. As best as he can.
“I don’t know but I’m sure it had something to do with those men coming to our house last year. They came in at a time that Wanda wouldn’t be there so he thought she wouldn’t be harmed—but he had forgotten about early dismissal for Bus drop offs. He hadn’t expected Wanda to get hurt—or for her abilities to manifest in the way that they did. In the end Wanda is the only person he cares about.” Magda purses her lips “I thought if you and her stayed away—somewhere he couldn’t follow then you two would be safe. I wanted to be with you two so badly. But I couldn’t. He had a way of tracking me. He knew where I was at all times. I knew that if I came here he’d find me.”
“Charles would have protected you. He wouldn’t have let anything happen to you.”
“Charles said the same thing.” Magda says with an almost sad smile “he’s a good man. I can see why Wanda loves him so much.”
“Wanda talked about him?”
Magda grimaces “yes, but David didn’t like that very much.”
Pietros face darkens “you left her with him?” He feels the chill run down his spine “why would you think that would be okay? After everything you know?”
“David wouldn’t hurt Wanda.”
“You don’t know that.”
“David would kill you and me in a instant. But Wanda? She’s his blood. That’s important to him. The only reason she’s alive is because she's his daughter.”
“Is she?” Pietro blurts out—an edge to his voice that catches even him off guard. Pietro had suspected…that maybe his mom hadn’t been so truthful in that front. Wanda doesn’t look like David. Not even a little. But—Pietro never dared question it. Not in front of his mom and especially Not in front of David who was always on the verge.
He’s heard the accusations from David. He’s heard the fights and seen the bruises he’s left behind. Pietro has allowed himself to believe that Wanda is David’s because if she wasn’t—-then that means they stayed in that house, suffering through the clutches of that man, for no reason at all.
“Yes, Wanda is David’s.” Magda says firmly. “I made sure of it.”
What?
“Whats that supposed to mean?”
“It means she’s safe. And We’re safe to an extent.”
“Explain.” Pietro is—-his mind is racing. Jumping to a conclusion—a horrible one that makes him look at his mother…in a way he doesn’t want to look at her.
“His mission was to kill us. I gave him a reason to not want us dead.”
“He wanted us dead every single day, mom.”
“But he never did go through with it.” Magda defends and Pietro never thought he’d hear his mom defend David. David? Fucking David?
“He just almost did, constantly.” Pietro spat out. ”You can’t be this delusional Mai.”
“I’m not. He wouldn’t kill the mother of his child. Even if he hated me—even if it was his mission to do so. David grew up without his mother. He wouldn’t want that for his own child. And Wanda loves you. Her love for you is probably the only reason why he never…”
“Never what mom? Because he did a lot? He did horrible things and you’re acting like it was a blessing he didn’t do more.”
“Peter—-“
“—-David has mommy issues. congratulations on manipulating that somehow—really—truly—impressed—
but why would you even risk that?“
“He has done worse.” Magda says like she’s referencing something he doesn’t understand. “I couldn’t kill him not forever so I needed to give him a reason to not want us dead.” Pietro is coming to the realization —slowly.
The pit in his stomach grows. “I needed him to care about me…if not for being his wife then for being the mother of his child.“
“Mom—“
“—that’s why I had Wanda.”
There it is.
That’s what Pietro was dreading. That’s what was making his hands shake into superspeed and making his lungs hurt like he’s inhaling fire.
“No.” Pietro can’t—he can’t think. he can’t—“Wanda was an accident.”
“No, she wasn’t. I planned to have Wanda.”
“No.” Pietro squeezes his eyes closed—shaking his head.
“It was the only way. She had to be born.”
“As a pawn.” Pietro couldn’t keep the disgust out of his voice. He couldn’t help the anger and the sadness he felt on behalf of Wanda. On behalf of his younger self—-wanting to run away with his mom and being denied because of his mothers pregnancy.
It was so twisted—-he shouldn’t be surprised but he somehow didn’t see this coming. But it was obvious. Magda loves Wanda—but she’s always been distant with her. Honestly she’s been distant with both of them, but even that can be explained now. Wanda was her scapegoat. Her golden ticket to safety.
Pietro can’t use his mothers depression or traumas to excuse her bad decisions.
This talk isn’t levitating anything—it isn’t helping at all. It’s making everything so much worse actually.
“To save us.” Magda amends like it isn’t the fucking same thing. “To save us.” She says again like she’s convincing herself.
Pietro thinks back to how Charles was acting before—seeing red. “is that what you told Charles? That you were saving us?” Pietro stands from his spot—all his energy scattering in his bones like lightning. He glares at his mother like she isn’t his mother at all. He feels so much anger.
“Did you tell Charles that you conceived Wanda as a pawn in your game of chess? Did he get a kick out of your little game—over how clever you are—or did Charles tell you that she had nightmares about it—-about this exact scenario. Did he tell you that he comforts her when she wakes up screaming—that he tells her she has purpose, that she’s wanted, that She's loved. How did Charles react when you told him that wasn’t true?”
”I do love her. Wanda is my world.”
“Then where the fuck is she?!” He screams and he hopes his voice carries. He hopes the entire mansion can hear him. “Where is my sister?! Why isn’t she here?!”
“She didn’t want to come with me.” She says with a shaky voice.
“She’s Ten!” Pietro is shaking so much that the floorboards beneath him are cracking—the wood splintering. “She doesn’t want to come—you take her anyway! She’s a child—a baby—and you left her with a monster!”
Magda watches him blow the fuck up with quick tracking eyes—like she’s looking for something.
Pietro points a finger at his mom, eyes hot and face flush with anger and fear and so much sadness that it feels too overwhelming for his body. “You're supposed to protect her not feed her to the fucking wolves!”
Magda’s eyebrows narrow together. “You look so much like him when you do that.” She blurts out like it was an accident. Pietro goes completely still. His breath pushed out of his lungs and the fire in his gut muffles out.
“Not David.” She corrects but the jab had been made and now Pietro's mind is already winding. Shrinking back like a wound up doll. A puppet whose strings have been cut and is left sagging. “Your father. You look more and more like him everyday but especially when you’re angry. I think that’s why David always got so riled up when you got angry. All he could see was your father.” A chill runs up his spine.
His voice rises high like a ballon inflating with hot air. “Did he want to fuck my father too? Is that what you’re gonna fucking tell me?”
Magda flinches at the vulgarity of his words. “Peter—“ the room feels cold.
“—he had the hots for my dad so he had the hots for me—does that explain away his rapey tendencies? Or was the sexual assault strictly for little boys?!” He can hear his voice going faster—he hopes she can still hear his words. He hopes she can still understand his rage—his anger.
“You said he could find you anywhere you go. So why would you assume he couldn’t do the same for us.”
“He could. But not while you were here.”
“Why not?”
“I don’t know. Something to do with the frequency. But he figured it out eventually.”
“What is that supposed to mean?” Pietro tracks his mothers movement like she’s a criminal. He watches her fidget with the mug, the way she moves her fingers and how her eyes never quite reach Pietros. “What does that mean mom?”
Something clicks into place in his head.
“David works for Friends of Humanity.” He says numbly.
Pietro's heart stops. It must have. He looks at his mother—waiting for her to deny it. She doesn’t. She doesn’t fucking deny it and—and—holy shit—why isn’t Wanda here? She should be here—Pietro can’t think. He just—he needs to—his hands are shaking—phasing through the table at super speed and he’s afraid he’ll break Charles desk.
He needs to—-he needs to—Pietro lets out a breath, which is curling around his mouth. Because the room is cold. He hears a rustle in the closet. It’s cold because Bobby is hiding in that little closet next to the bookshelf probably freaking out.
Okay. Okay. Pietro needs to fucking focus on one problem at a time. “Bobby the gig is up.” He opens the closet door and not only is Bobby in there actively having a panic attack but Jean is crouched down next to him trying to calm him down.
Two children are currently exposed to his awful family drama that somehow now consists of Nazis, torture facilities, and literal murder.
Okay. This is fine. He’s fine. He can deal with this. He just—“Peter I think—“ Pietro interrupts whatever the fuck Magda was going to say “get out, actually.” Pietro says with surprising calmness.
“You’re triggering the fuck out of these kids and I need you to leave before I lose my shit.”
Magda frowns “I didn’t intend—“
“—-leave. You’re so great at it. Go!”
Magda is gone, it’s the three of them now in this cold room. Bobby is actively in a fetal position and having a panic attack—Jean is nonverbal and equally as freaked out and Pietro is clearly having a moment of his own.
“Call for Charles.” Is the first thing he can think of as he crouches down on the ground to face Bobby. Jean doesn’t respond. He looks over at her and sees that her eyes are milky white and her hands—the one touching Bobby’s back— are shaking subtly. Oh. She’s actively sharing the panic attack with Bobby.
It’s weirdly touching in a horrifying way. Okay. But now they're stuck. Pietro doesn’t touch either of them. He remembers how that went last time when Wanda was having a nightmare just before the school got broken into. He does not want to go down memory lane again and see everyone’s worst reruns in life. No thank you.
“I’m getting Charles.” He tells them. Hoping that they hear him.
Pietro runs.
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Wanda Maximoff had been enjoying a good cup of tea early in the morning—watching the sun rise past the ocean line out her open window. She inhaled the warmth of the cup with a peaceful smile.
Peaceful. Wanda’s skin crawls. A chill running up her spine.
“Is there any news?”
The room lit up in a soft fluorescent blue as the AI spoke into her room at her request. Always eager to answer any questions she might have even at 4:30 in the morning. “The north border has no new breeches—the patchwork seal on the hospital has been running smoothly since your last enhancement and the temperature outside is 73 degrees with a 30% chance of rain in midafternoon. Not unusual for this time of year.”
“Nothing else? No important meeting I’m missing or anything at all?”
“There’s nothing in your calendar for today besides your nieces birthday Dinner tonight at 6:45 pm. You can’t forget about the plastic utensils. No metal. Your father will be there.”
“That’s it?”
“Yes, my love. Nothing else.” A pause—Wanda sits in her contemplation for just a moment. “Is there something the matter?” Visions voice—sounds inquisitive—despite not having the programming to make that sort of connection.
“No just…it’s quiet.”
“It is quite early in the day. would you like me to cue some Sokovian music?”
“No. I like quiet. it’s just…It’s been quiet for days. Too quiet. It’s unsettling.” Wanda tries to think of why it’s so unsettling. She loves lazy weekends—she rarely has them despite being retired—a consequence of being the spokesperson and vice president of the Witches and Mages Foundation. She rarely goes a couple days without something happening that she needs to intervene with. “Has President Roger’s left any notifications?”
“No. I’m not sure he knows how to do that to be candor.”
“Right.” Wanda sighs and she tries to settle into her chair that suddenly doesn’t seem as comfortable anymore.
“How about The Guardians?”
“Still in space. Doing what they usually do.”
“Confidential?”
“Unfortunately. I could request clearance from Morgan stark.”
“Don’t bother her. If I don’t need to know I don’t want to know.” Wanda places her tea on the windowsill. “The kids haven’t been around as of late.”
“Billy is visiting his boyfriend in Wakanda. I suspect he’s gonna propose.”
“You suspect?” Wanda smiles knowingly.
“I saw his recent search history and he often visited a site with custom made vibranium wedding rings.“
“I bet he was thrilled you did that.” Wanda can already hear the discussion Billy and Vision will have about invasion of privacy and boundaries.
“And Tommy? Is he still…” Wanda snaps her fingers trying to recall the exact term she’s looking for. She tries to think of the word. She gestures widely with her hands like she’s doctor strange “...with the yarn—what is it, hon?”
“Crochet.” Vision supplies easily and Wanda smacks her lips. “Right. Is he still influencing the crochet?”
“A crochet influencer.”
“That’s what I said.”
“It was not.” Vision cannot laugh in his current form but Wanda feels the house vibrate and knows that he is currently trying to.
“And he is doing well?”
“Yes, he has 2.5 million followers on various social media platforms and has many brands funding his work.”
“Is that good?” Wanda doesn't run her own social media she has a very talented PR team that does all of that for her.
“I would assume so.”
“And neither has any problems?”
“None that have occurred in the Last four days since we’ve seen them last. Billy did lose his keys for thirty minutes yesterday but he found them. They were in his pocket.”
Wanda stares at the sunset for a moment longer. The unsettling feeling in her bones stayed persistent. Her kids are alright. Safe and healthy. She hasn’t missed any world ending news from anyone of importance. She hasn’t missed any meetings or appointments. Everything is fine.
“So everything is fine?” She asks vision—the only person she can really ask in this moment. The only person she knows wouldn’t mislead her.
“As far as I can tell everything is completely normal.”
“Normal.” Magda frowns. No, that's not right. Nothing is ever normal. Not in this house at least.
That’s when she realized why everything feels so peaceful. “Where’s Pete?”
“His location is unknown.” Which isn’t all that surprising. As the fastest man alive who can be anywhere at any point he’s very hard to track down. But today is his daughters birthday.
“Is he on duty?” He wouldn’t work on his daughters birthday.
“He shouldn’t be.” Vision knows exactly how serious Pete takes Lunas moments. Her birthday is a big moment. One he doesn’t take lightly. He should be making her breakfast waffles at this exact moment. But no—his location is unknown. which is odd. Definitely strange but not too alarming. It’s fine. Not unusual, just unexpected.
“You have an incoming call from the Time Variant Association.”
Wanda knew it was too good to be true.
“Answer it.”
A holographic image of a broad looking woman, B-15 in all her glory, appeared from her watch.
“Good afternoon.”
“It’s morning.” Wanda lifts a brow.
“It’s afternoon somewhere.” The woman looks around as if she’s trying to find someone in Wanda’s room. “Is Pete Maximoff with you?”
“I was about to ask the same thing.”
A collective silence.
Both women sigh outwardly—shoulders heavy from carrying the burden of space and time.
“So he’s lost.”
“It would seem so.”
“For how long?” Wanda asks.
“Time is—-“
“—different in the TVA I know. I used to work there, remember? Jesus you guys are like robots.”
“Things have been scrambled back here. We've recently gone under new management—new protocols and rules and such. A more non-genocidal approach to the extinction of the universe.”
“That probably would’ve been nice before you erased my universe and made me reimagine my own pocket dimension to relocate all of the remaining civilization from my original universe.”
“Yes, that…. is unfortunate. But clearly we’ve grown from that and we're just trying to get all our ducks in a row—straightened and such and well—-we were missing a duck.”
“Did you just refer to my brother as a duck?”
“It was a metaphor.”
wanda looked at the ceiling “vision, can you get me a recording of the last fifteen seconds and email it to Kurtis.”
“I’ve already done it.” Vision says. ”I also attached an AI generated gif of your brother as a duckling. It is quite humorous.”
“God, I love you. You so get me.”
“I love you too.” Vision says back sweetly.
“You guys are adorable—really but the issue with your brother is very concerning.”
“What exactly is the issue, B-15? is my brother in danger?” Wanda feels the prickly sensation in the back of her neck. Really she should’ve known better. Her Twin brother is a pain in her ass.
“We can’t tell.”
“Why not?”
“His jumper is currently immobilized. Very likely damaged from the jump. You know how he was about getting his monthly repairs in.”
Pete is a procrastinator until the very end. He’s also a fucking idiot whos lost in some alternative branch of Time. Great. How very on brand.
“Do we know where?” Wanda flicks her wrist and her mug is washed up and propped on her kitchen sink downstairs.
“Yes. We just don’t know when.” Wanda waves her hand up and curls her fingers. She’s no longer wearing her cute little two piece silk pajamas—and instead wearing her long TVA uniform. The leather is tight and uncomfortable—from before she retired and gained fifteen pounds from being happy and not working for these soul crushing people.
“You look breathtaking.” Vision says like he has any breath to steal.
“I know, thank you.” Wanda pulls her hair up in a ponytail. “Can you please set an alarm for 6:00pm. I am NOT missing my nieces dinner.”
“It might take a bit longer than that to find him. The anomaly is very unique so this particular universe was very tricky to pinpoint.”
“Send me the file.” Wanda gestures at the bed and it’s made up within seconds. Fluffed and prepped for when she gets back.
“The alarm has been set.” Vision says.
“We might need more time to sort this out Wanda. Your brother—“
“—-my brother would rather break his own legs than miss Lunas birthday. I’m finding him today. Yes or yes. No excuses. If he isn’t at the table by 6:30pm tonight then he’ll have to answer to Sam Wilson who paid the deposit on the bouncy house.”
“That man does not play about his money.” B-15 says affirmatively—like she’s had to deal with a few Sam Wilson variants in her days. “Is he still single?”
“Divorced. Third times a charm,”
“He might have better luck if he stopped pursuing people from the 1940s.” Vision says like the nosey bitch he is. Anyone that says Wanda is the gossip in the relationship is a damn liar.
“Enough chit chat.” Wanda says. “It’s time to find my brother before he does something stupid.” Wanda allows the flow of power to trickle from her fingertips.
“This does not mean I’m out of retirement.” She reminds them.
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She jumps a bit too far.
The world is ash and smoke. No living creature—human or animal—left in this time. She’s about a couple thousand years into the future of this universe.
That’s a bummer. But inevitable.
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Wanda watches a blue man snap the legs of a variant version of his brother. She winces and glares at her father from a distance. He must be a dick in this universe too.
Wanda better be getting paid for this.
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Wanda sees Kurtis—no not him. A variant of his. Younger. Skinnier. Before Miss Margaret Wagner. Before Raven. Before the x-men. Hes chained to a wall next to the elephants and lions. Seeking warmth amongst their bodies. It was a cold night. Too cold.
Wanda waves her hand and a wool blanket appears near the distracted Nightcrawlers feet. It was a small gesture—-so small compared to everything he’s done for her brother.
And if the small flash of Wanda’s power triggers alarms through Ravens mutant tracking system—helping her locate Kurt in this secluded area in Germany—well….thats none of Wanda’s business.
Just a happy coincidence.
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She jumps again and she’s close. She can feel it.
She’s in a house. Half burned down and she can smell the ash and sizzling of burned flesh. she has no idea what has happened here but she knows she was here. Not her. But a different Wanda. She can feel the familiarity of her power. Less contained. Less strong. Less—just less. Probably a younger version of her.
Police officers and Fire trucks are outside talking to a woman. “Youre saying they ran through your house while you were hosting a party.” Wanda can hear the disbelief in the officers voice.
“Yes. It’s horrible how these things happen.” The woman says and her back is towards Wanda but the telepath doesn’t have to look at her or even read her mind to smell the gasoline on her clothes. These men were not killed by this fire. They were dead before it was set.
“Miss Maximoff do you really think that I’m gonna believe that?”
Oh. Wanda’s eyes find the woman’s brown eyes like a syncing heartbeat.
That’s her mom. She looks different in this universe. More fragile. A little more insane. If Pete was here she hopes he was long gone before Magda got here.
Wanda walks up to the pair very nonchalantly.
“Where did you come from?” The officer jerked away at her sudden appearance. She touches his forehead and flashes her eyes red. “You believe her. This was just a car accident gone wrong.”
His eyes turn murky and he nods stiffly “yeah, it’s a tragedy. Drinking and driving is an epidemic.”
Wanda nods and walks away.
“Who are you?” Her mother but not her mother— asks suspiciously.
“Nobody.” Wanda waves her hand and she’s gone.
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Wanda ends up at the X-men mansion. Familiar and yet different from the one she had grown accustomed to seeing when she visited Pete.
It’s night time and she’s in the second kitchen on the second floor. The one Pete always liked to hide his snacks in. This must be before Hank refurbishes the kitchen cabinets because they are a old brown color that squeak when you open them.
The squeak is what alerted Wanda to the small child—maybe fifteen or sixteen—she’s not very good with guessing children's ages—sneaking into the snack pantry.
Wanda’s hands glow and the girl freezes mid-reach, a bag of Lays in her hand.
“Hi.” The child says, blinking slowly like she’s half asleep. “So—like these are totally mine.” The bag clearly has the name BOBBY written in sharpie on the front.
“I’m not here to stop your snack heist, I'm just looking for my brother Pete.”
“Oh, wow, you just missed him.”
“Do you know when he’ll be back. We have a very important dinner to go to.”
“You were already here.” She says and Wanda turns her head to the side. “Pardon?”
“You got twenty bucks?”
Wanda flicks her fingers and a fifty dollar bill in American cash appeared in her hands. From her Tony Stark insurance fund. “How’s a fifty instead?”
The child snatched the crisp bill from her hand with speed that would impress Pete if he saw it. She inspects it—raising it under the lone fluorescent lightbulb In the kitchen.
“Pete was here two years ago. Dunno how long he was here for—I wasn’t really paying attention.” She says after pocketing the money. Securing it in place like Wanda would snatch it back. “It was awesome though.” She says with a distant smile “for me.” She corrects “he was loose with his money too so I made hella bank. It was not awesome for everybody else though. Very stressful. Not fun.“
“He isn’t here anymore though?”
“Nope.” The child rips open the bag of Lays and pops a chip in her mouth. Wanda has not been finessed for this much money since Kitty Pryde faked being bad at Air hockey only to turn around and obliterate her at Tommy And Billy’s six year old birthday party with no mercy.
Wanda sees the child’s hand fade through the bag and grab a large chip instead of going through the opening on the top. Right. Of course.
Wanda sighs and pulls out another fifty dollar bill from midair—-Kitty's eyes practically grow two sizes and she’s basically salivating and not for the chips anymore. “I should know better then to ask any Kitty Pryde for a favor without compensation.”
Kitty Pryde—honest to god—giggles as she pockets the money.
“You figured out where he was and you brought him back to your home—your universe— with Pietros help. And then you were both gone. It was around summer time? No it was after summer—-barely any classes though. It was around fall. Yeah. Definitely fall.” She licks the salt off her fingers.
“You don’t have an exact date?” Wanda knows kittys holding out. “I’m not giving you more money. That fifty was worth a date at least.”
“You’re literally materializing money out of thin air. I think you can splurge on another fifty.” Kitty then pauses—as if something else has occurred to her. “Um—-actually how about a favor instead.”
“No.”
“I have something you need.” Kitty says with so much confidence that Wanda does actually hesitate. The kitty she knows from her universe isn’t a bad person. Rarely do Kitty Pryde Variants become villains. There was one branch of timeline where she was a mean girl running a Home Owners Association but that wasn’t villainous she was just kind of a bitch.
Point is: Kitty Pryde isn’t a bad person. Not really. Not usually. So Wanda knows she’d never ask for anything that would put anyone in danger.
Wanda weighs her options. She could just keep jumping and hope she ends up exactly where she’s meant to be at the times who's supposed to be and risk missing Lunas birthday. Theoretically she could just jump back at the exact same time she left this morning and would be like she was gone for less then a minute but if that was an option then clearly Pete wouldn’t have been gone for days. He would've just time traveled back to when he first jumped and she wouldn’t have noticed he was gone and none of this would be happening.
So not good. Something is weird here.
This whole damn mission is bonkers and her feet hurt from all this jumping.
“As long as it doesn’t affect the timeline.” Wanda could care less if it did but she knows the TVA despite their change of heart hates when timelines get too off kilter. She doesn’t want to give them a reason to go back to their old ways. She doesn’t want that guilt in her head. Not anymore. Never again. She’s already got enough responsibilities. She doesn’t need another universe to keep a lookout for.
“It won’t.” Kitty says confidently.
“Alright then. What’s the favor?”
“I’ll cash it out later. When you come back.”
“You mean— When I Travel back.”
“It’ll be the first time I meet you so you’ll just have to remind me.” Kitty says easily.
“Did I already grant the favor?” Wanda questions her confident response.
Kitty nods “yes. It all worked out…mostly.”
“why ask for a favor if it’s already been granted?”
“It needs to happen exactly the same. If it doesn’t then I don’t know if that version of me would've asked for a favor and then this version of me that knows everything to come wouldn’t have existed and—“ Kitty Pryde abruptly stops talking and then sighs like she’s sick of her own voice “—paradoxes. Because paradoxes." Kitty pops the last chip in her mouth with a satisfying crunch.
“Right. That makes sense.” It does not.
“Do we have a deal?”
“Yeah okay.”
“I’ll be right back.” Kitty is gone for maybe two minutes—walking through walls like they don’t exist at all.
“Here ya go.” Kitty gives her a jumper. It looks patchy and odd looking but it’s definitely a jumper.
“I already have one of these.” Wanda takes the jumper regardless.
“Yeah but this one’s better. New and improved.” Kitty says.
The jumper has the same VN number that hers does. Weird.
“Alright—thanks.”
Katherine Pryde recalls the date up to the very minute of the hour. Wanda thinks that maybe this favor is a bigger deal then kitty is letting on.
It doesn’t matter, though. Wanda’s about to find out very soon.
Notes:
writing Pete and Wanda felt like i was writing a fanfic within a fanfic. i liked dropping random pointless lore. For all the people that don't like Magda---thats so valid. I wrote her incredibly flawed and broken and writing this chapter and hearing 'her side of the story' made me realize that I had been trying to write her like she was the good parent but she's just...not. The ends, in fact, did not feel like they justified the means.
And yall don't even have the full story yet.
regardless, thank you for reading. as always typos will be found. <3
Chapter 31: Wrong Family Reunion
Summary:
“Right now?” Pietros asks with clear surprise in his voice. “Don’t you think you should let him cool off? Talk to him later today or something?”
Hank frowns and he looks at Pietro fully. “The last time I left things unsaid between Kurt and I—he was kidnapped and tortured for a month. I would rather deal with the uncomfortable conversation now then allow him to think the worst for a second longer.”Oh. Pietro nods.
Of course.
Why wouldn’t Pietro assume that Hank wouldn't want Kurt and him to go to bed on bad terms? Is that what it is to have a healthy and communicative relationship with a father figure? Pushing through uncomfortable conversations so that there isn’t any miscommunication between them?
Oh.
Pietros got this all fucked.
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The aftermath of Magda and Pietro talking and the very long day that just won't end.
Notes:
Sorry it's been almost a month since I updated this fic. i hope this longish chapter makes up for it. :))
Featuring Pete and Scarlet serving chaotic twins.
Featuring oblivious Alex--whos just vibing. I made older/alternative timeline Wanda go by Scarlet so that its less confusing to read--and write lmao.grammar mistakes--spelling errors. Okay, yeah. It's a given.
Thank you for reading.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Pietro interrupts dinner. He’s missed about half of it but no one seems to be too upset that he’s cut it short. The speedster makes eye contact with Charles Xavier and he barely opens his mouth before the Professor is wheeling over to him and pulling him into the hallway near the entrance of the dining room.
“Peter.” Charles' voice is shaky and just barely heard over the blood rushing to Pietros head at a supernatural speed. Pietro points up—hoping that Charles can discern that he wants him to go upstairs. Fuck, his hands are still shaking. “Son, take a breath with me.” The professor goes to place a hand on his arm and then falters—he seems to hesitate before deciding it was best not to touch the speedster at all.
Fuck . Charles has never hesitated to touch Pietro before—not when he needed comforting but clearly what his mother told him has made him feel less certain over that form of affection.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Pietro put his palm against his eye socket, pressing hard until it hurt. Trying to hold onto any sense of control. He needs to fucking focus .
Pietro swallows. “The twins are—“ Pietro clamps his mouth shut. Fuck . Jean and Bobby are not the twins. The twins are dead—-he reminds himself. They are gone. The speedster just has his wires crossed. “—BobbyJean. Upstairs.” Pietro exhales shakily and maybe it’s the way the speedster clearly needs him that Charles decides to overcome whatever controversy he has in his head about touching Pietro. The Professor places both his hands on Pietro's arms, steadying him in place. Making his feet solid and still. His breathing comes back in patches. Charles waits patiently.
“Take your time.” Charles doesnt push him to speak quickly. He just waits as Pietro seems to try and reel in his emotions to form full sentences. Failing miserably to even do that. “Listening—office—panic attack. You—help them.”
“ You’re having a panic attack.” Charles says and he’s not doing what Pietro thought he’d do. He’s not rushing to go help Jean and Bobby. He’s staying put and sitting with Pietro like he’s more important. It makes him sick. It makes him so unreasonably emotional and he just wants him to go .
“Help them .”
“You need my help too.”
“don’t want—help.” Pietro does not snap at him—he doesn’t yell because Charles doesn’t deserve his anger. Not right now. Not when he’s like this.
He just doesn’t want to have a whole debate about this—not when he’s this stupidly emotional. Not when he can barely speak without something embarrassing coming out of his mouth.
“It doesn’t mean you don’t need it.” Charles makes a pained expression “I saw your mother leave the house. She’s outside.“ His voice sounds so far away in Pietros head.
”I’m sorry.” Pietro hiccups, his skin feels like it’s on fire—like he’s back in that damned torture bed in the lab all over again.
“You have nothing to be sorry about.”
“I—I tried to listen like you said but it—it’s so bad dad.” Pietros eyes sting. “it’s so much worse then I thought a-and Wanda’s just with him. And I don't know what to do. I don’t know what I can do. I-I-i just want her here and safe and Bobby and Jean need my help and I can’t help them dad, and everything feels like too much. It’s too much.” The sentences come out fast and stumbled out with a gush of dread.
Charles takes his despair in stride—his face a perfect mixture of compassion and understanding and Pietro doesn't know how he does it. “I know a thing or two about feeling too much.” He places a hand on the side of his face—and Pietro knows what Charles wants to do. He’s seen him pull this trick on the children to ease them out of their own panic attacks—more lately since the lab. He’s trying to use his powers to—not control—but to ease . Even maybe to understand his distress. There’s no malicious intent. Only care and love and Pietro wants him to help him. He wants Charles to be able to do what he can. But Charles can’t read his mind. Pietro is the only person he can’t help. “I got you.” Charles says, because even though he can’t fully grasp everything he will always be on Pietro's side.
“We just need to take things one step at a time. Let’s get your breathing evened out and then I can go help Bobby and Jean and then we can figure out how to get Wanda back here. Safely.”
A plan. A vague—no structured plan that’s more bullet points then anything else but it’s a plan. okay. Okay.
“mom shouldn’t be outside, it’s cold.” And Pietro hates that that’s what he’s focused on—he hates that he’s even concerned about Magda at all. He’s so angry with her. But he doesn’t want her to be cold?
Why can’t he be mad at someone and just want them gone forever? Why can’t he just be petty and bitter and want them dead—the end—end of story—no remorse. Why does he have to care if the woman who's lied to him for years is cold or not?
“She has a jacket.” Charles doesn't make him feel bad for feeling remorseful. He just lets him have his feelings.
“I’m sorry.” Pietro wipes at his face and his hands won’t stop fucking shaking.
“You have nothing to be sorry about.” Charles reassured again, soft in his repetition.
Pietro and Charles feel like they are in a different place completely. Following each other's lead. Being led somewhere out of their depth completely.
“Feel better?” Charles asks after a few minutes of deep inhales and exhales and Pietro nods quickly even though he’d prefer if Charles stays—but he needs to help Jean and Bobby. That’s the whole reason he came downstairs. Pietro needs to stop being selfish. Charles pulls his hands away from Pietros arms which had been rubbing small soothing circles to calm him down.
“Please go help them.” Pietro can feel the house getting colder.
“We’ll talk when I get back down.” The professor says.
“Do we have to? I’m kinda packed full on emotional conversations for the day.”
“No we don’t have to.” Charles says like he wants to say more—like he wants to say a million different things. “But we will at some point.” He compromises and Pietro just nods and watches him go.
“That sounded intense,” Pete pops his little bubble of peace in seconds. “Go away.” Pietro rubs the migraine growing in his head—a side effect of having an emotional breakdown.
“How’d your little chat with your mama go? lots of revelations? y’all besties again?”
“You're a real asshole, you know that? You knew this whole time didn’t you? You knew and you just kept that shit to yourself—knowing Wanda was in danger.” Pietro glares at Pete and he really doesn’t understand why anyone likes him at all.
“It’s not my fault your Wanda’s in danger and it isn’t my job to correct the mistakes of this timeline.” Pete doesn’t sound like he believes what he’s saying. His face is almost revealing in the way his eyes appear almost sad. Like his hands-off approach to the whole thing has burdened him deeply.
It’s all bullshit.
“You act like you care about Charles and Hank and Kurt but you’re just passing time. You pretend you’re some cool hero time-traveling dude but you’re just as flawed as the rest of us.”
“Of course I’m flawed. I’m a variant. Just like you. That’s how I know certain things I can’t change. How much did Magda tell you?”
“Everything.”
“Doubt it. She’s always so awesome at keeping secrets.” Pete makes a face “Atleast… my Magda definitely loved Wanda. She just didn’t love me. I guess I looked a bit too much like our father.”
Our father. It’s the second time today the Mans been mentioned and Pietro can’t help but feel like he’s missing some cosmic joke.
“Charles isn’t my father,” Pietro sighs because Pete is so weird and is constantly dropping information that has no relevance to Pietro at all. His entire family tree gives Pietro a headache.
“Naw, he’s our dad.”
“I literally just said he isn’t my father. Dude are you deaf?”
“—rude, and ableist I’m telling hawk eye you said that.”
“Who the fuck?”
“Nevermind. Just know he’d be super pissed and will not name his kids after you if you keep that shit up.”
“I don’t care?” Again, no relevance to Pietro at all.
“And since we’re throwing around the word deaf maybe you should get your ears fixed too buddy cause you definitely called Charles dad just now.”
“No, you did.” Pietro glares at him—pointing an accusatory ginger at him.
“Yeah, duh. But so did you. Earlier. I heard you. Loud and clear.”
“How long where you just standing there like some creep?”
“I heard crying. I thought it was one of the kids, and I didn’t want them to be alone.” Pete says immediately and it—he says it with no sarcasm at all. it sounded genuine. Like he actually cared about the well being of some theoretical random kid in the hallway. It’s so deceivingly nice.
Pietro is reminded—-like a slap to the face—-that Pete has a Luna. He has a kid. He's a dad . He’s intune to children crying and so when he heard Pietro cry he came to help. Instinctively. He obviously hadn’t realized it was Pietro.
Or maybe he did. Pietro doesn’t know if that’s worse.
“I seriously do not want to deal with you right now. I’ve already had a shit day.”
“A slip of the tongue then.” Pete grins. “Maybe it’s your brain recalibrating what you already feel.”
“You don’t know anything about how I feel.”
“You're right. I don’t. But I’ve seen a lot of different quicksilvers and trust me—you could’ve had it worse. Even if you are an anomaly.”
“What does that even mean ? Anomaly. You keep saying that.”
“It’s complicated…” Pete frowns.
“Can’t be that complicated.”
“When varying branches in the timeline are created due to a Nexus Event they’re given a number and a file and a reasoning for the separation of the main timeline. Usually they are dealt with accordingly. We used to erase them—prune everyone in that branch and so on and so forth. Things have changed recently and they don’t really do that anymore. Regardless The TVA is always notified of any branching in the timeline—-always. Except for this universe. Up until a year ago we had no idea this branch even existed. It doesn’t show up in the map at all. Even now— it’s like it doesn’t even exist—“ Pete gestures at the room around them openly. “But obviously it does. So somehow this branch was being hidden from the TVA. Not sure for how long or why or how. But it’s a problem. Your sisters explosion of power is what triggered the TVAs system—-but it’s not the Nexus event that caused the branch in the timeline. It’s the anomaly that caused the branch.”
“And i'm the anomaly?”
“Yes.” Pete says.
“What did I do that could have possibly been so bad?”
Pete shakes his head and Pietro knows enough now that he isn’t going to get answers from him.
Pietro Maximoff suddenly feels a wave of something. A tightness in his chest—his bones heavy like he’s wet. Something is—strange.
Pete’s eyes widen. “My sisters here.” He blurts out like he’s just won the lottery.
“What?”
Pete is already super speeding away and Pietro follows immediately. He loses him for a moment when he takes a turn to the left when he thought he’d go right. Pietro gives up on chasing another speedster and turns back to the dining room once more—surrounded by busy-bodied children all avoiding eating.
Pietro Django Maximoff doesn't realize anyone else out of the ordinary is in the room at all until one of the little kids, Gunther, suddenly grabs his hand—an anxious habit. Pietro squeezes it almost instinctively and turns his head at the sudden appearance of a woman. Charles is settling Jean's mind and Bobby has warmed up significantly since his brief panic attack. Pietro gives himself a reminder to talk to the two of them later. So they aren’t completely traumatized.
About thirty eyes are suddenly all on the newcomer. Does the professor not have locks? Why is it apparently so easy to walk into this fucking school?
“Who are you?”
“What the hell?”
“Whos that?”
Different voices jump in front of each other all at once, and Pietro meets the woman’s familiar eyes. Her eyes turn almost sad, and Pietro recognizes that look before it’s suddenly washed away. A forced indifference in her voice.
“Hello, I’m looking for my brother Pete. I’ve been told he should be here.” She looks down at the food on the table and her face wrinkles—-Kurt’s food has that effect on people. Everyone had been in the middle of dinner when he’d stumbled down the stairs asking for the professor.
”Kurtis cooked? Never mind, he probably left.”
“Wanda?” Pete’s voice flows from the kitchen, sounding almost relieved. Pete is in front of her before she even blinks and he’s opening his arms wide and she opens her arms as well, and the older speedster pulls her into a bone-crushing bear hug.
Wanda. Pietro's eyes go misty. That’s Wanda? She—she looks so big. Tall. Older. Older than Pete. Which is odd considering she’s meant to be the same age as Pete. Aren’t they twins? But then again, he does remember a brief conversation with Hank just after he got rescued from the facility.
“Your mutation drastically slows down your age progression. So in twenty years you would only look like you aged a fraction of that time.” Hank had told him as he swabbed his mouth for DNA. Something about checking for something blah blah blah. He didn’t really ask too many questions at the time and he never really did get back to him about it.
This was before Pete had made his presence known so Pietro had no idea how right Hank would be. Pietro has no idea how old Pete actually is but if Wanda’s age is anything to go by Pete might be older than Pietro thinks.
Hank would have a million theories right about now if he was here. Which he isn’t. Alex summers has already left to go get the doctor from the city but Pietro just knows Hank is gonna somehow miss all the drama once again. Hank doesn’t even know that his mom is here. Hank has missed a hell of a day.
“Man am I glad to see you.” the other speedster says squeezing his sister tight. Older Wanda smiles and then pinches his ear which makes Pete holler in pain. “Ow ow ow!”
“You little shit! You stressed me out so much.” Older Wanda looks even older as she scolds her brother—like she’s gone her whole life reeling him in from any trouble. Pietro wonders how that must feel like. To have an older sibling. Is this Wanda older than Pete? Or does she just act like she is?
“I’m sorry!” Pete huffs—trying to push her off of him.
“You should be! I’m supposed to be retired!” Retired ?
“It wasn’t my fault.” Pete complains.
“Like hell it wasn’t.” Older Wanda bites back. Something in Pietro stirrs.
“The damn TemPad just exploded on me! Like as soon as I hit the school premises it just started going haywire. I don’t know why!”
Siblings. They act like siblings. Which is a weird thing for Pietro to be hung up on.
“Where’s the Professor?” Gunther asks Pietro—looking up at him with a scared look. Pietro nudges him closer squeezing his hand and he watches about two or three kids begin to hide behind Kurt who looks not at all intimidating with the apron still on. “He’s helping JeanandBobby.” Kitty says like Jean and Bobby are one person—one singular entity. It kind of reminds me of the twins—how the alters always worked together organically that they felt like one person. The comparison makes Pietro sad and guilty just a little bit.
“Wanda?” Frankie’s voice hovers over the confusion in the room. The boy openly stares at the older version of his sister like he wasn’t quite sure it was actually her.
Older Wanda looks over at Frankie with a twinge of confusion before her face shifts into one of dawning realization. “Vision?”
“It’s super weird right? He’s like completely real in this universe.” Pete says with a teasing smile but Wanda shoots him a sharp glare that would have sent chills up anybody’s spine “Vision is real in our universe too.”
Pete winces. “Yeah, you're right. That’s my bad. I just meant—like— human you know?”
“My name is Frankie.” The younger boy pouts, and older Wanda just nods in understanding, “of course, my apologies, Frankie. It’s just that—you look exactly like my vision.”
“Well not exactly—-vision isn’t twelve .” Pete huffs.
“I’m nine.” Frankie corrects sassily, and Pete shrugs.
“You're Wanda?” Frankie questions his eyes, only staying on this older-alternative universe Wanda. It’s so strange to think about. Even in his head.
Wanda looks down at Frankie and smiles softly “Yes, I’m Wanda Maximoff.”
“Wanda?” Magda's voice comes from behind the children–entering the home again without anyone taking notice. Seriously, Charles needs better security. They all turn to face her, and she’s staring with wide eyes at older Wanda.
Older Wanda—Pietro needs to call her something else, or his head will get dizzy— looks away from Frankie and over to Magda, and her smile doesn’t go away at the sight of her like Pete’s does. “Hi, Mama. Wasn’t expecting to see you.”
Magda looks like she’s seeing a ghost. Her eyes trailed down Wanda like she might be a figment of the light or a trick of some kind. “You’re…”
“Older?” Wanda supplies gently.
Magda blinks “...different.” she grimaces–like shes remembering something painful.
“I’m from a different place–different time.”
“You have an accent.” Magda says with the matching accent.
“Yours. You did raise me.” Magda raised Pietro and he doesn't have an accent, so hes not sure how valid that explanation is.
“Pietro doesnt have an accent.” Kurt says for him like hes a damn mind-reader. Bless him. “Neither does Pete.” Kurt tacks on like hes also just realized this.
“Magda didn't raise me, and she barely raised Pietro.” Pete sasses, and Wanda smacks his arm in protest. “Will you shut up?” Older Wanda hisses at her speedster brother.
“Everybody has an accent.” Kitty points out suddenly, like she simply couldn't let the misinformation slide.
“Not me!” Gunther shouts with the most pronounced Western Canadian accent that Pietro has ever heard. “Yes, you do, hon.” He corrects promptly and Pietro squeezes his hand gently. Gunther pouts but doesn't protest.
Older Wanda waves a hand in a gesture. “What he means to say is I was raised in Sokovia.”
“Thats not a real place.” Kitty says confidently–maybe too confidently because then shes looking at Pietro for confirmation. “Right?”
“Definitely not real.” Pietro confirms and lets Gunther open his palm and play with his fingers. Counting each long finger over and over again.
“Not anymore. It was bombed.” Pete says.
“Morbid.” Pietro mumbles.
“Maybe it's not wise to talk about bombings in front of the children,” Magda says sagely and Pietro rolls his eyes. “You literally have no room to talk. You made Jean and Bobby have a panic attack like thirty minutes ago.”
Why is time literally moving so slowly? This is dragging so long.
“She did what?” Kurt's eyes go as big as saucers and his tail almost instively moves further away from magda–who was to the left of him. “How was i meant to know those children where listening in? They shouldnt have been in there. How is the professor just letting kids run amongst his school without knowing where they are? People just walk in and out of here like its public property. Why is there no security here?” Magda rants out.
Points where made. Pietro doesnt really care if shes kinda right on the lack of security, he’d rather jump off a cliff–in a non-suicidal way thank you very much—then let Magda think she was in the right. “None of this would've happened if you weren't keeping secrets from me. LITERALLY all of this could have been avoided if you had just been honest with me from the beginning instead of blowing everything up now.”
“I didn’t want to blow anything up.”
“oh so you just weren’t ever gonna tell me at all?” Pietro can see Kurt slowly inching away from Magda—his eyes tracking the both of them like a game of tennis. Kitty was doing the same thing, her big brain probably trying to connect dots that are laid out for her.
“If I could’ve avoided doing any of this I would have.” Magda says with tears in her eyes that make Pietros anger shrink slightly.
“Can we please go back to the whole Pete’s older—alternative—timeline—sister being here randomly?” Kitty points at older Wanda like she’s a fire hydrant in the desert.
“You can just call me Scarlet if it’s easier.” Yes, it is easier.
“Aaawe pulling out the childhood nicknames? How sweet.” Pete teases.
Scarlet looks over at Kitty with interest. ”i’m not here randomly. It took me a couple tries to find my stupid brother. But I found him thanks to you.”
“How'd you know I was stranded?” Pete asks his sister.
“Life was going a bit too smoothly. Figured something horrible must have happened to you.” Scarlet looks at Kurt’s food at the dinner table and barely holds back a grimace. “Seems I was right to worry.”
“I have extra if you want some.” Kurt says hopefully—misunderstanding Scarlets expression of discomfort for hunger.
“Oh—no thank you Kurtis. I gotta keep my appetite for Lunas birthday dinner.”
Pietros ears perk at that—-Gunther pulls on his thumb with eager nimble fingers, and Pietro lets him, unmoving and unbothered—- and Pete’s face grows big with genuine relief.
“I didn’t miss it?”
“We should be good to make it on time.”
Pete let’s out a shaky breath that feels more like a punch of oxygen “I’m sorry for almost missing it. Does she know that I’m here?”
“did I tell your daughter that you decided to work on her birthday? Despite you promising that you wouldn’t? No, I didn't tell her. You get the honors.”
“I didn’t think I’d be gone this long. Usually you wouldn’t even know I was gone but when my tempad exploded—-i didn’t know how to call for help.”
“Did it happen when you landed in this timeline? The TVA should’ve realized the discrepancy in your TemPad if that’s the case.” Scarlet asks.
“Nah, it happened when I got to the mansion. Before that, it was working fine.”
“How odd.” Wanda pulls out a small device from her pocket. Shiny and slick and definitely futuristic looking. “Mine is working just fine.”
Pietro is trying hard to follow the conversation. Gunther tugs on his wrist—just cause he wants to not because he wants him to move. Pietro let’s the small boy have his fun.
“You said thanks to Kitty ?” Pietro rewinds mentally. Kitty snaps her fingers. “Yeah! Thanks to me? What's that supposed to mean?”
“You told me where to find my brother.”
“I ain’t ever met you a day in my life, lady.” Kitty adjusts a blue beanie on her head. She’s grown accustomed to wearing head scarves and hats to cover up her bald patches that have grown unevenly.
“We meet later.”
“Like in the future later?” Kurt blurts out in horror.
“Literally when else would later be?” Kitty snaps and gives him a ridiculous side eye that makes Pietro glare at her. “Dont be rude, Katherine.”
Kitty shakes her head. “How much later?”
“Hard to say….your hair was longer. A bit taller too.” Wanda looks at Pietro for a moment—a chill runs down his spine— before looking at Kitty Pryde once again.
“Shouldn’t the professor be here for this?” Magda says suddenly, and Pietro honestly keeps forgetting she’s in the room. Honestly, he’s only now just realizing how many people are privy to this conversation. About a dozen children are still around the dining table—some more invested than others in the current events.
“Maybe we should step into his office. Have this discussion in private.” Kurt adds helpfully.
Scarlet raises an eyebrow “what discussion? I’ll be taking my brother and leaving. No need for further fanfare.” And as soon as Scarlet says that her Tempad begins to shake and make a loud screeching noise that makes everyone cover there ears. “Oh no…” Pete groans and just a second later Scarlet's device cracks in half with a puff of smoke, three clunks of metal and screws collapse on the ground.
“Right.” Scarlet sighs. “I knew that would be too easy.” Her wrist watch dings and she sighs again. Double sigh? Damn.
“We’re officially Late for Luna's birthday.”
Pete’s face crumbles slightly. “How are we getting home? What if something happens?”
Kitty picks up the excess pieces of the tempad from the ground with careful fingers. “We can probably fix it.”
“Yeah, maybe if you had Tony Stark or Shuri, but it’s the 19 hundreds . Y’all don’t have any of the tools to fix this thing.” Pete huffs and crosses his arms in frustration. Pietro sees Kurt try very hard not to look at the other speedsters tensed arms.
“It’s the 1970s.” Pietro corrects bitterly “you’re acting like it’s the dark ages.”
“I’m pretty crafty. And Hank works for NASA now. If anybody’s got advance shit it’s the people going into space.” Kitty supplies looking at the pieces quizzically.
“1970s NASA technology is years behind on creating anything useful to help mend that TemPad.” Pete says stiffly.
“Yeah.” Scarlet nods in agreement “it’s a good thing they had years to figure it out.” She says with a smile and she pulls out another Tempad out of thin air—maybe some weird power Pietro doesn’t understand.
“Kitty gave me this when we met. It’s the same Tempad you have in your hands right now—tweaked and upgraded to withhold something. I’m not sure what. It’s dead though. No charge at all.” Scarlet says with a wave of the Tempad.
Kitty grins, “told ya I could do it.” But then she frowns “I just gave you that? Out of the goodness of my heart?” Kitty says like she has no goodness in her heart. One of the little children in the dining table giggles at the disbelief in her voice.
“No. For a favor.”
“A favor?”
“Ooooooh.” A group of kids said at the same time. Kitty points a finger at them—clearly not taking anyone’s dilly dally today. “Zip it.” She hisses.
“What was the favor?” Pietro imagines about a million different very illegal things that Kitty would want to do.
“Not sure. Up to her.” Wanda says and Kittys eyes practically glow. “I didn’t ask for the favor already?”
“You specifically said that it had to be past you that had to ask because then future you wouldn’t be the person she needs to be to help past you.”
“I understood that perfectly.” Kitty says while rubbing her chin in conspiracy.
Did she? Pietro looks over at Kurt, who looks equally as confused as Pietro feels.
“I have a headache.” Gunther whines suddenly and puts his hands up, wanting to be picked up. Pietro picks up Gunther with ease and props him on his hip. The toddler begins touching his patchy hair and giggling. Pietro just lets him and wishes his hair was as long as Pete’s, which parted naturally on his head like waves. He looks over at Kurt, expecting the blue boy to be fawning over Pete still but is met with direct eye contact instead.
“What?” Pietro adjusts Gunther on his hip and the kid lays his head on his shoulder. Pietro smiles at Kurt—-a bit confused by the expression on his face.
Kurt blushes instantly, and he looks away from the speedster, but then can’t seem to keep his eyes away—looking right back at him. “Nothing. You're just really good with him.”
“Yeah? I’m good with kids.”
“I know. It’s really nice.” Kurt says softly and it sounds like he wants to say something else but Kitty starts to pretend to gag. “We get it! You wanna have his babies. Can we please stay focused? An interdimensional witch owes me a favor, and I don’t need to see you two doing gooey eyes at each other while I think my way through a paradox.”
“Whose having whose baby?” Alex Summers walks into the room suddenly.
“Hot damn.” Scarlet says out loud when he sees Summers and does the world's most unsubtle high five with her brother.
Pietro is starting to think that Alex might actua
“I heard something about a paradox?” Hank enters the room and honestly it’s about damn time he’s back in the picture. The scientist looks at scarlet “Who are you?”
“That’s Wanda from an alternative timeline. Also she’s Pete’s sister.” Kurt supplies with great enthusiasm.
“You can call me Scarlet though. Less confusing.” Scarlet extends a hand and Hank in his shock just shakes it and nods.
“Right of course.” And Hank's eyes look over at Pietro and he must see how drained he feels because he looks concerned. It’s the most attention he’s gotten from Hank in a while.
Hanks' concerned eyes drift past Pietro. “And this is Pietro's mother—“
“—Magda Maximoff.” Hanks voice was cold when he says her name. Stiff and clinical. Like he’s reading a hospital chart.
His mother looks suddenly uncomfortable as Hank stares her down like she’s a cockroach. Which is funny considering Hank is very kind to bugs—preferring to capture and release them outside instead of killing them.
Now it feels like Pietro is the one that’s missed a step. Why is Hank looking at his mom like that? He doesn’t even know what she did! He hasn’t been here all day.
“So…do I get two favors? For telling you where to go and for fixing your exit strategy?”
“No.”
“And our exit strategy isn’t very helpful without charge.” Pete adds and gives Hank a confused look when the blue scientist continues to glare at Magda Maximoff. Okay what is happening?
“Whos this?” Charles interrupts as he rolls into the room with Bobby and Jean trailing behind him. They both avoid Pietro's eyes and he tries not to take it personally. Even if it does make the pit in his stomach grow.
Pietro thinks Gunther is falling asleep on his shoulder.
“That’s Wanda.” Jean says without hesitation like it’s not even a real question.
Bobby let’s out a truly exhausted sigh that shakes his entire body. “I’m tapping out.” He says and it’s so damn reasonable after everything that Pietro doesn’t even question when he just starts walking away—leaving whatever chaos is about to unfold to the adults. As he should.
“Yeah…” Jean looks at Scarlet and then looks at Kitty and then shakes her head. “Me too.”
“I’m tired.” Gunther says gently and it’s enough for Pietro to say “I think it’s time we call it a night. Regroup in the morning.”
“This can’t wait.” Pete objects and looks at Scarlet for back up she just shrugs. “I’m pretty beat honestly.” She looks at the professor “Do you have any spare rooms?”
Charles stays silent. Actually he hasn’t said anything since he came down stairs. He just stares at scarlet with so much emotion in his eyes that even she seems to be caught off guard. “Professor?” She steps closer to him her hands glowing slightly and she falters. “Oh..” and she looks at Pietro, her eyes turning sad. “I see. This must be a lot. I can find a motel.” She suggests and Charles finally speaks “No!” He blurts out “you don’t have to go.” Sounds a lot like please don’t go.
“Dads got like a million rooms.” Pete says and Pietro is trying to figure out why Pete feels so comfortable imposing on Charles' hospitality but Scarlet doesn’t. Why does he seem more comfortable here then Scarlet does?
Pete doesn’t have an accent. Scarlet does—because Magda raised her. Pete calls Charles dad—scarlet calls him professor. In hindsight it isn’t a big reveal. It’s obvious once he really thinks of it.
Pete said Magda abandoned him. The Maximoff Twins were separated.…it feels so sickening. Pietro thinks of a different set of twins—split in fragments and gone .
Pete and Scarlet were raised in different households. Scarlet was raised by Magda and Pete was raised by Charles…for some reason. It makes Pietro feel a bit sad and angry for them.
He misses Wanda everyday—-he couldn’t imagine not living in the same household, not growing up together. Missing all those moments. He just couldn’t.
Pietro recalls what Pete said earlier in the hallway.
“Atleast…my Magda definitely loved Wanda. She just didn’t love me.“
And it all comes back to Magda.
Pietro is beat. He’s too tired. “You guys can figure it out. I’m heading to bed.”
“Peter.” Mags astarts and Pietro just shakes his
The speedster put Gunther to bed through muscle memory alone. He likes being put to bed the same way Wanda did at that age. He turns on his small nightlight. Checks under the bed and in the closet for monsters. “No monsters.” Pietro tells him reassuringly—taking his fears very seriously.
“No bad men?” The child asks quietly his eyes droopy. Pietros breath hitches slightly and he’s responding quickly not wanting Gunther to worry even for a second. “no, no bad men.”
Gunther wasn’t from the school originally. He’d been in the Friends of Humanities lab for a few days when Charles busted down the place. He was there for the least amount of time. Kitty had been there for months. Days or months, it doesn’t matter. Any amount of time in that place is a bad thing and Gunther is so young he probably will never really recover. “How about the scary monster song?”
Pietro falters. “The what?”
“So the monsters know they can’t come in.” Gunther says while gripping his stuffed bear, one that used to belong to Frankie. It’s now a public Stuffed Bear that the children claim protects them when they sleep, passed around every night on a strict schedule. Last night Angela had it. The night before Bobby had it. (Although he claims it was technically Jean that had it.)
“How do you know about the scary monster song? Did Frankie tell you about it?” Pietro asks gently, tucking the boy in like a burrito just like he likes it.
“No. The little girl sings it to me.” Gunther says sleepily and Pietro frowns. “Little girl? What little girl? Jean?”
“I dunno…” Gunther is already falling asleep and Pietro lets it go. “Good night.”
Pietro doesn’t even have the energy to superspeed to bed. When he opens the door to his room Kurt is already there like the absolute saint that he is, wearing a matching pajama set that he can guarantee Hank bought for him.
Pietro changes into his most comfortable tank top and striped boxers. His shirt smells like expensive detergent and sulfur. Probably washed with Kurt’s clothes. He doesn’t mind.
“Today was a lot.” Pietro says as he sits on the bed.
“Yeah.” Kurt agrees and grabs his hand tugging him into bed. The nightlight makes his blue skin fluorescent and Pietro can’t help but stare as he lays his head on Pietro's one singular pillow—sharing like its second nature.
“I can’t believe that’s how Wanda’s gonna look like.” Kurt mumbles with a pondering smile.
“Like the spitting image of my mai ?”
“Yeah.” Kurt interlocks their fingers and Pietro is used to the closeness. “I’m sorry she upset you.”
“Me too.” Pietro makes it a point not to look at Kurt’s eyes, instead focusing on the slope of his nose.
“You wanna talk about it?” Kurt whispers into the air.
“I…” Pietro can barely even get the words out “I don’t think I can look at you and say everything that was said.” How can someone look at another person, so loving and kind, and just give them their worst? “That bad?”
“Yeah…it’s really bad Kurt.” And Pietro feels Kurt pull away suddenly and Pietros heart nearly jumps out of his throat. He realises that Kurt i’s reaching over and turning off the nightlight—soaking the room in absolute darkness. He lays back down immediately and grabs at Pietro's hand again like it’s his right to do so. “You can’t look at me now. Go ahead and tell me. I can handle it.”
Pietro feels like his heart is about to burst. Fuck, why is he literally perfect?
“Thats no fair you can still see me in the dark.” Pietro tries for a joke and it doesnt really land.
“I'll close my eyes.” he says.
“Kurt…I really don’t wanna burden you with all this.”
He squeezes his hand “you can never be a burden.” Kurt says immediately and Pietro can’t help it…the words sound so sincere and this day has been long and draining and his eyes start stinging with tears. Kurt’s fingers start wiping at his eyes and he’s whispering “it’s okay, it’s alright, I got you.” Over and over again as Pietro finally lets himself feel it all.
“My mom is so fucked up. She’s lied about so much stuff. I can’t—“ Pietro lets out a whimper that feels stuck in his throat. “—he has my sister. She’s not safe Kurt and I can't lose my sister, I can’t bear it.”
I can't lose Wanda.
“We will find her.” Kurt places a kiss on his forehead that makes Pietro's heart flutter, and he pulls him close, seeking his comfort. “She’ll be home soon. Safe.” Pietro knows that Kurt can’t guarantee that, but he still allows himself to believe him. Kurt leaves soft pecks on his wet eyelids and then another on his cheek where he wipes his tears. The ache in his heart swells into butterflies that flutter everywhere Kurt touches. Gentle and warm. “Everything’s going to be okay.” Kurt says, and Pietro lets his body relax completely, his heart settling in his ribs.
“What if something is already wrong?”
Pietro can't see Kurt but hes very aware that Kurt can see him perfectly fine. He can feel his yellow eyes staring right at him, burning his skin like a wildfire.
“What if there's something wrong with me ?”
Irregularity.
Anomaly.
Variant.
Kurt pulls him closer if possible, and the speedster can feel his tail wrapping securely around Pietro's waist like a snake. “There's nothing wrong with you, Pietro.”
“But what if–”
“--there is nothing wrong with you.” okay.
Pietro promises himself he’s going to tell Kurt everything in the morning.
They fall asleep just like that, with an unspoken promise and pressed tightly against each other, so that they practically fuse.
When he sleeps he dreams of his mother on a perfect day. An accumulation of perfect memories rolled into one.
Two versions of his mother looking at him at ten years old.
“I’d die for you.” Says one of his mothers, her smile so tender as she looks at Pietro.
“I’d kill for you.” Says the other, a knife in her hand—already bloody.
Suddenly the one that is so willing to die is falling to the ground, her shirt growing in blood. The other mother—armed and ready to kill—presses a frantic hand on the wound. Pressing down hard with her shawl, trying to stop the bleeding. “Don’t go, please don’t go.”
“You need to take care of Pietro for me.”
“I can’t—he—“ They both looks at him now, abrupt and sudden.
“Pietro.” One mother says. “Don’t look.”
“Peter.” The other says. “Go away!”
The world shakes and the two are the same. Good and bad. Neither and both.
The dream is strange and off putting and he wakes up with a start. Pietro wakes up and Kurt isn’t beside him. He rubs the sleep from his eyes and looks at the clock on the wall that Hank insisted on putting on everyone’s room. It’s early. Too early. He’s barely slept.
Maybe Kurt is in the kitchen, drinking hot chocolate with the professor. It’s a nice thought and it’s the only thing that pulls him from the bed and out of the room.
He barely makes it to the second floor before he hears Kurt.
“—I hadn’t realized.” Kurt speaks distantly and Pietro doesn’t have to be looking at him to know that he’s embarrassed.
“It was the heat of the moment. I understood.” Hanks voice is what makes Pietro pause. He isn’t really prepared to come face to face with Hank right now.
“Right.” Kurt responds hoarsely and he sounds like he’s gonna cry so Pietros decision making skills are immediately fried and he’s walking into the room at regular speed, pretending to have stumbled into their conversation.
He yawns very theatrically and makes. A show of seeing them from the corner of his eye. “Oh, you two are up early.” Sheesh, this is why he never did theatre in high school.
Kurt stiffens and plasters the fakest smile on his face. The forced smile makes Pietro's gut drop—“everything alright?”
“Yes, everything’s fine.” Kurt’s thick accent makes the rushed vowels sound like a droopy alphabet. Kurt’s tail falls into his lap, and the teleporter pets the edge of it in comfort—shrinking within himself.
Hank looks like he wants to say something to Kurt, his face pale, Pietro thinks for a moment he won’t say anything at all but he does. “Kurt, it’s okay. I’m not—I was just surprised.”
“I-I’m going back to bed.” Kurt blurts out suddenly his face in a grimace and avoids Hank's eyes completely.
“Kurt-“ Hank reaches for Kurt in a placating manner but the teleporter is gone in a puff of sulfur.
Hank drops his hand and finally looks at Pietro—his face pulled. “you should be resting Peter.”
“Ditto. You too.”
“I’ve had enough rest.” Hank says like he’s talking about something else completely.
“What happened with Kurt?”
Hanks sighs “it’s a misunderstanding.”
“Love those.” Pietro quips. “Super fun time.”
“It’s a bit sensitive. You’ve been through a lot today and I don’t really wanna pile on, kid.”
“Is it about me?”
“No.” Hank shakes his head. “I don’t want to talk about all this right now, Pete.”
“Peter.” Pietro corrects with a bad taste in his mouth.
Hank flinches “ Peter . Jesus I’m sorry. That was bad—I meant Peter. My heads all funky right now.”
“Right.” Pietro frowns and grabs the hot chocolate mug Kurt left behind.
“I've been juggling with a few different things. I’m trying to do everything right and I just keep messing it all up.”
“I’m sure whatever happened between you and Kurt, you’ll figure it all out.” Pietro reassures.
Hank nods and he sits up straighter “yeah, you’re right. I’m gonna go talk to him.” He starts to clean the kitchen of any mess.
“Right now?” Pietros asks with clear surprise in his voice. “Don’t you think you should let him cool off? Talk to him later today or something?”
Hank frowns and he looks at Pietro fully. “The last time I left things unsaid between Kurt and I—he was kidnapped and tortured for a month. I would rather deal with the uncomfortable conversation now then allow him to think the worst for a second longer.”
Oh. Pietro nods.
Of course.
Why wouldn’t Pietro assume that Hank wouldn't want Kurt and him to go to bed on bad terms? Is that what it is to have a healthy and communicative relationship with a father figure? Pushing through uncomfortable conversations so that there isn’t any miscommunication between them?
Oh.
Pietros got this all fucked.
“Okay, you should go then. He'll probably be in my room.”
Hank leaves, and Pietro wonders if he should’ve pushed an uncomfortable conversation with him as well. Should he have forced him to have a conversation with him? Should he have forced Hank to tell him why he’s been on the outs with Pietro? Or why Hank has been stilted with him? Or maybe he should've asked why Hank bit his mom's head off earlier. Maybe.
But he doesn’t. He’d rather do these dishes.
“You had Hot chocolate without me?” Alex Summers trails into the kitchen a few moments later holding a packet of special edition marshmallow coco.
“No—not yet.” Pietro smiles and gets an eye full of side boob from Alex’ low cut muscle shirt. Kurt would hate to be missing out.
“Did you pick that up from the trip into town?”
“Yep—apparently Charles has banned all sugar? I was losing my mind.”
“We have sweets—we usually just hide them on the higher shelf. He can’t reach them.”
Alex looks impressed “oooh, that’s playing dirty.”
“You gotta do what you gotta do.” Pietro says.
“Well I guess I’ll hide this up here.” And Alex takes out two packets and reaches up the drawer above the microwave to place the sugary box away. This reveals that not only is Alex wearing a low cut shirt—the shirt is also cropped.
Pietro nearly breaks a mug. The glass shard cuts his palm.
“You good there, kid?” Alex asks as he pulls two new mugs from the cabinet.
“Y-yeah. I’m fine. Just distracted.” Pietros' palm bleeds and then it heals as he looks at it. Scabbing over completely within a second.
“That’s understandable with the day you’ve had.” Alex Summers is probably the only person in this building that knows close to nothing about the situation that was Pietro's day . “i'm a bit lost. That Scarlet girl isn’t your sister is she? I thought your sister was younger.”
“No, scarlet is Pete’s sister.”
“And Pete’s your cousin?”
Oh, wow. Alex really has no idea what's been going on. “Has Charles not filled you in?” Pete’s been here for a while. How has Charles or Hank not explained to him who he is?
“I just kinda assumed—y’all do look alike.” Alex pours non expired milk into the mugs. “I don’t really ask too many questions. In the military It made me a good soldier but here—I’m just outta my depth.”
“It’s complicated. Even I'm still confused.”
“Pete and Scarlet are good people?” Alex asks with a lifted brow, placing Pietros mug of hot coco in front of him.
“I guess. They aren’t hurting anybody—not actively at least.”
“That’s all I need to know then. The less I know the better.” Alex takes a sip of his drink.
“How do you do that?” Pietro says in almost awe “just—not care? How are you just fine with not knowing?”
Alex pauses for a moment and he touches his dog tags for a moment. “Well—-if I ever need to know something people usually just tend to tell me. I’ve spoken to the professor on multiple occasions and he’s never once mentioned the situation with Pete. He has mentioned you and Wanda every single time he’s gotten the chance. That tells me enough. I don’t need any more information.”
“Charles talks about Wanda and me?”
“Yeah, constantly .“ Alex laughs—sounding genuinely amused. “We’d be watching the game and he’d go ‘you know Pietro used to play football’.”
“I barely played one game. I was a substitute mascot .” Pietro says with flushed cheeks. “My sport was track.”
”Yeah I know. My kid brother used to watch your matches on tv.” Alex says and he scratches his five o'clock shadow with trimmed nails. “Honestly it made me a bit jealous.”
“Jealous?” Pietro thinks he might be dreaming. In what world is Alex, god in disguise, Summers jealous of Pietro? Definitely not this world. Definitely not this timeline.
“I come back from deployment and all my brother wants to talk about is how cool and fast quicksilver is and then I see Charles for the first time in literal years and he’s raving about how his kid knows twelve languages and can cook five star meals in his sleep and what are the odds it’s the same person? I thought I was getting punked. No way this super star guy exist—“ Alex sighs, like he’s been really holding all that in. “—and then I met you and I realized you deserved every bit of that praise.”
Pietro doesn’t know why the unwarranted compliment hits him.
“I mean any guy that threatens to throw Erik Lehnsherr out of a falling plane is golden in my book.”
Pietros groans “That wasn't–I wasn't actually going to do that.”
Alex laughs and claps Pietro's shoulder firmly like he's in on a joke. “We’ve all wanted to. It’s okay.”
“I dunno what all the fuss has been about but I guarantee you’ve been handling it all way better then I would have. ”
Alex has no idea what Pietro's life has been like in the last year alone. He doesn’t know him at all but somehow he’s concluded that Pietro is doing good. From the perspective of an unbiased observer he’s a super star guy.
“Thanks—I feel like I’m losing my mind everyday.”
“Aren’t we all?” Alex and Pietro clink their mugs together and Alex isn’t much of a talker so Pietro just starts talking about Wanda. Nothing of too much importance. Talking about her makes him feel better. Alex listens, adding a few annotations here and there when it’s needed. Pietro is mid-rant about a last-minute science fair project that Wanda hussled him into doing one year for school when his mug shatters from the speed in which his hands had moved. “Shit–you okay?” Alex asks in alarm.
“Sorry—if I'm too amped up, I start vibrating through stuff.”
“A contained tornado.” Alex says out loud and Pietro's face goes hot.
“What?”
“That’s how Hank described it. A Contained Tornado.” Alex smirks, and Pietro would like everyone to just stop perceiving him starting now.
A contained tornado.
Leaving destruction in his path. Pietro kind of hates how accurate that is.
Notes:
im just gonna slip those "dad'"s in there very casually. very cool.
Hank is single-handedly beating up the miscommunication trope when it comes to kurt---not when it comes to pietro though. poor guy stays misunderstanding and being miserable about it. Kitty is incredibly ADHD coded in this chapter.
You get abandonment issues. You get abandonment issues. WE ALL GET ABANDONMENT ISSUES. yay.
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