A short exchange I had with a good man on Instagram. I had debated if I wanted to share it, I want to respect his privacy but this short conversation broke me.
I have been thinking about it for hours, The weight of it, the sadness and shame of it is heavy to me, I can't bear it even.
He thinks that Americans just want Palestinians dead... These people think that we just wake up and want to kill them, for hate. He dosen't know that Americans are so ignorant and uninformed that they can't even find Palestine on a map, but because our media and politicians lie to us so often that we just want them all dead.
Then he calls me a hero, a good man... When I tell you I had tears in my eyes I mean it, because I did. The bar for morality is so incredibly low for Americans that just me speaking truth equates me to being a hero?
I feel such a shame over me that if I were a braver man I'd slit my own wrist. Are we that bad, are we so low, are we so lost that simply speaking out against genocide, against dead babies means I am a hero?
I am no hero, I'm far from it, all I'm doing is speaking the obvious, just the common sense obvious.
The fact that these people think that I or other Americans want these people dead breaks my heart. I can't even imagine what it is to be these people, to wake up and see the death and destruction around and not know that the people who cause it don't even know you exists.
That Americans will wake up, go to school, go to work, go on dates, go to games, sports, watch movies and live their lives and never once think of them even as our weapons are used to kill them by Israel. These people live and die and ask God why America does this to them daily and 99% of Americans don't even spend a thought on them.
I'm so sorry on behalf of my people, my government. I am so ashamed that you think I'm a hero, it is a great sadness that the bar is that incredibly low, so low that just being human means you are a hero...
God damn I hate what America has become...
