Addressing the Community Notes.
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i want to state, again, i am deeply apologetic and regretful for my original disgusting Mitsuri post, where I falsely accused _9_sp to be an AI account, just hours before they finished shutting it down.
i could never have imagined myself to have ever been so toxic towards another human being.
the Mitsuri post turned out to be a goodbye post from the artist. It came across my timeline around 1 AM est. it was 15 hours old.
upon clicking the profile, i saw a mostly empty account with a singular art post and muted comments. I googled and failed to find more art from this user online, leading me to falsely assume the account was botted.
My (TERRIBLE HORRIBLE GOD AWFUL) post went live January 10th.
this occurred at a little after two EST, just a few minutes after the artist's post, in Japanese, of their planned leave from twitter, at 7pm, their local time.
after a small break and feeling some self doubt, i came back to check the post again before bed.
there were four likes, single digit comments. i was horrified to discover two of them telling me i was wrong, that the account was a Mitsuri fan account, and that it was empty because the artist was in the process of deleting their twitter.
immediately, i had the post taken down.
directly afterwards, at 4:39AM, i make a post admitting my mistake.
just about an hour later, the artist account was also gone.
if memory serves, i believe the viral screenshot went live at about 7 AM.
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i never had a chance to "send a mob" to attack the artist.
if i had it my way, everything would have been done and buried the night i posted my retraction. that image would have never ever again seen the light of day.
still, i am deeply remorseful in making such a cruel post.
i believed that my post was aimed a machine, something i felt could not be excused for mistakes, and had no feelings to hurt.
thus, the comments i made were intentionally cruel and baselessly overexaggerated.
it did end up falsely attacking a real artist, and i have always felt that i was at fault here. It was irresponsible of me to post something that had any chance of potentially hurting a real person. Such content does not contribute in any positive manner to the community at large. I was a reckless vile fool for it.
i could have done more research. eventually i did find more archived art under the name "soyeon p 19", as well as a few buried Pinterest pins to similar names or fan pages. my assumption lead me to create a post that ultimately caused massive damage to what should have been an artist's graceful exit, and i am thoroughly ashamed.
my actions were truly despicable. Though the artist had already planned to delete their account, its still undeniable that problematic comments like what i had maliciously cobbled together that night still do carry the ability to devastate a young talents will to create. I have sworn to myself to make sure i police my words, and never enact such harmful behavior again.
please, if you are to come across similar messages directed at you online, they should never be taken to heart. Often, just as you have seen here, they are baseless and inane and woven with the sole intention to hurt, and thus should be discarded.
honestly, with the current narrative, i cannot even bring myself to be mad at the general community's public condemnation of my actions. If anything, i find it somewhat inspiring, if a bit over the top with certain individuals, (i really don't think rape/dox/death threats are ever valid, but i get the intent)
because at the end of the day, my actions were wrong. My post was BAD bad.
i still stand firm in believing that i took the best course of action in deleting my original post and acknowledging my mistake.
at the same time, i'm more than a little miffed at the person who thought reposting my screenshot was the best idea.
i strongly believe that had it not been for the vitriolic screenshot sent at 7AM that morning, i highly doubt things would have escalated as they had.
i admit, the screenshot only exists because i had posted it. In that i am wrong.
However, the individual who reposted my screenshot could have as easily directly addressed my mistake, either through DMS or comments. My initial post was taken down thanks to two of _9_sp's fans calling me out in the comments of my post.
Instead this user chose to block me and make a highly inflammatory post, blaming me for the account's deletion.
its like i buried the bag of shit and someone decides to dig it up and smear it all over the sidewalk.
still, and i cannot emphasize this enough, i believe that my original actions were wrong. I am genuinely sorry for it. I have sworn to never repeat my mistakes here again.
Community Note stuff i want to address:
My post was not what caused the artist to leave.
I never allowed it enough time to gain traction.
it still was a terrible and hurtful thing to do, and i am ashamed of my actions.
i have not suicide baited. i've always have been adamant that i am not killing myself. I am sure that is never the right solution.
i think anyone who tells you to kill yourself does not deserve your respect. My actions and words will reflect that.
I have poked fun at people asking me to kill myself, which i admit might have been in poor taste. This includes the "click bait" posts. I wanted my regret to be known. i admit now that there were probably better ways of doing so. at the time, it felt like the only way of ensuring my message would reach the artist.
The "fun" i was referencing was the entertainment all the attackers were having, attacking me in the comments. I'm sure it felt good. It was also morbidly intriguing for me to watch.
Some of you are far too obsessed; something has to be pulling you back. "it must be fun, it has to be."
i did not think the actions i had done that night were entertaining at all. I never meant to hurt a person. i'm sorry that i did, and i promise to be far more careful and never even try to make any accusations ever again.
my posts are and have always been genuine. I've tried my best to show it, but through the internet i can only do so much.
i do express differently. my writing is genuinely ass, a lot of my character carries better through verbally.
the text box image posts are not a gag. I've done this often in older posts, and it most accurately and truthfully reflects how i think.
I do believe i'm a huge fool and a clown. with the character sheet, i admit i wanted to give people something to similarly draw over and deface. I felt really bad, because draw overs never go well. again, not sure if its the best move, haven't done this before and i don't plan on repeating my mistakes ever again.
the doubled following is probably from my TADC post which went viral at the same time. After all this, i feel obligated to highly recommend against accusing accounts of being bots.
if you did come this far, thank you, and I AM SO SORRY AUHG i brought so much bad energy this is NOT what i mean to be IM SO ASHAMED dont do this EVER i sure won't GOD i feel so bad because they love this character so much and i have a similar love for some of my characters i have a robot son and i feel like an absolute PRICK ASSHOLE for doing what i did AUGH smite me now im so sorry. do not defend me in the comments just throw a tomato i dont want you engaging what i did was wrong.
i am doubling down. their work was NOT AI. I've been clear about this since Jan 10th at 4 AM.
I did pay a month of twitter basic for this. the limited thread word counts were KILLING me. should have done this in the first place i HATE how dissociative and tangled threads can get.
this post is addressing Community Notes. I would like to have ended the conversation, but the community notes are getting egregiously abused here.
i would very much like to have this as my final note.
for similar reasons, I am limiting comments. I never like doing so, but things are heated, this might be ok.
to those who "aint reading allat", This isn't for you, go away, the block button is right there.
i again state that for my actions, i ask for no pity. Intentionally or not, i was hurtful, i did fuck up, and the internet always remembers.
so sorry, and thank you for reading.
zentrie
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She's been apologizing for days. Then she changes her mind and says she doesn't care what she did, as she did in one of her last posts.
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