I'm usually nervous to send questions, especially when they're not anonymous. but I have to spit all these words in one message.
...And then SHIT! I mean friend! YOU and your beautiful team filled me with love for the first 8 minutes, tore me apart, tore me to pieces, put me in a blender and then put me back together with a hug.
I mean shit! Uzi with the guilt of having hurt the only people in her life who did ANYTHING good for her, N in the middle, "either I hurt her or she kills us" the hug he gave her with the sincerest relief that she was okay, because he couldn't bear to lose her.
SHIT V reflecting her old self who looks her in the eyes and apologizes for her mistake. The empathy between V and Uzi (they are my favorite ship, in general I like the idea of the three together but having Uzi in the middle, personally for me V and N are like brothers) and then V breaking up because she is alone in the world and N is practically the only thing it has... God, I don't have enough words to express how many things I felt with that chapter, as a lover of animation and someone who wants to work in the medium I tell you with all my heart that I admired you and I love the way you (again) finished me off! Please take care of yourself and keep doing what you love, because even if it is in the most superficial way possible, I will support you ♡
:,))) Thank you so much for these kind words. They mean so much to me. Everyone's does. I'm a writer at heart and I wanted to do all i could to show the love and tribulations the main Murder Drone trio face. I love showing the humanity in characters, whether it be through pain or love. I hope to keep making stories that make people happy.
One thing that's stayed with me on my time as a writer on the internet is a tumblr post that said, "in order to show the beauty of a character, you need to break them" . As brutal as that sounds, I believe showing a character's pain helps show how they love.
i love all the Enuzi content shown on the fan episode and genuinely me and my two other friends liked it! it's really on spot! you cooked an ten course meal, promoting you to certified chef
Consider that an appetizer >:3c nyehehehe
Anonymous asked:
I love how you and your buddies Voice the characters
Your Voice of V is so Charming
Ghost Voice is soo Adorable
Tomota almost sounded like N to me
Thank you so much Anon!! All of us did our very best to do these characters justice! And above all, have fun. It makes me so happy to see people enjoyed our performance. Especially Ghost's since she's looking into becoming a VA. What a debut :,) I'm so proud of her. I can't wait to see what the future brings her.
oh and here's my part of the soundtrack
MD: INTERMISSION [SC5 Thumbnails and N Dancing GIF]
Anonymous asked:
Hey there!! I hope you're getting good rest!! I just read the first script of Intermission and I gotta say- it's not bad at all!! It's so sweet and I love how comforting N is in it. The script has come so far though and you should be so so proud of yourself!!
From the User Manual Anon
Okay maybe I should rephrase that initial post AKSJSJS
Admittedly, for context, I can be a bit hard on myself, so I defaulted to language that was liiiiittle intense. I shouldn’t say the first script is BAD but rather it’s incredibly rough. Which once again, is okay! Cuz improvement was made (after many…MANY drafts HAHA
And actually I was so busy standing on my silly soapbox that I forgot to mention I detail I wanted to-
When I finally gave Ghost my script to beta read and give me feedback on, her biggest note was that I made Uzi too emotionally intelligent. While she is a smart girl, she’s still a little emotionally constipated. I had to dumb her down a bit in that regard. Make her less self aware. Ghost said the way Uzi spoke sounded like she went to therapy which felt weird. I think something that was difficult was trying to write characters who don’t know how to properly convey emotions in a healthy way.
I went to therapy, so when I try to talk about how a character feels I tend to accidentally make them too self aware. Not a bad problem to have, but in this case I needed to reel that back a lot.
Murder Drones: Intermission (First Script vs. Final) The first script is rough. I'm not saying that as an excuse, to put myself down, or to look for consolation. I'm saying this as a matter of fact. After surfing A03 on New Years Eve at 3 AM I decided I wanted to get back into fanfic writing. However, I realized that storyboarding a Murder Drones short would be even better!
This was originally going to be 3 minutes long I kid you not. I opened my notes app, sleep deprived as all hell, and threw so much crap at the wall for the sake of making my brain vomit out as much as it could. I made sure to not edit any of this either. This is the untouched original script from 6 months ago, dents, fissures, and all
Why am I saying all this? Because I know I have a lot of baby writers who follow me. I want to make a point to say that making something rough is the first step to making something even remotely good. I cannot stress this enough. So many of you only ever see the finished product of a project in all its polished glory. I really want you to know that making imperfect things is okay. You can't grow unless you start off super rough. Even the final product isn't perfect!! And that's okay!! It's! okay! to! not! be! perfect!!
I'm emphasizing this so much because I wish more people told me this when I was first starting out as a writer. Being bad at something isn't the evil so many people say it is.
Let yourself be bad at the thing you want to get better at!! It's okay!!
I even had to make changes to the final script in the boards- the final animatic doesn't follow it to a T. Please let yourself grow and change. It's okay I promise you. I'm still learning too, and I hope this can offer you some comfort wherever you are in your writing journey.
Edit: I was too hard on myself in this post and an anon pointed that out 💀 God I’m my own worst critic. I changed the language a bit to not be so intense.
Im about to upload the MD intermission script- if you see a buncha reblogs just ignore them. I need to upload then clean up the post
actually wait I think I have a better idea on how to do this nvm
Im about to upload the MD intermission script- if you see a buncha reblogs just ignore them. I need to upload then clean up the post
Anonymous asked:
I love how you actually gave V some screen time and character lore. It’s nice actually seeing how V feels and seeing her warm up to uzi. Overall the fan episode was amazing and I can’t wait to see people’s reactions- especially if Liam or GLITCH sees it
I really hope Glitch and Liam see it. That would be very nice 😭
This may be obvious by now, but V and Uzi are my favorite pairing in the show. They’re messy in so many ways and I found that so intriguing. I’ll go more into depth about my process on writing V in another post.
I’ll admit that a lot of my fascination with these two is the result of me kind of just sitting in my head thinking about them. The show doesn’t provide us with a lot of V and Uzi time, which I can understand given the fact that they’re on a considerably tight budget. They have to be economical with how they choose to spend screen time. With that said though, I did want more of them so badly. Badly enough that I decided “Screw it, if I want something I’ll do it myself.”
Did I dedicate 6 months of my life towards this project just for the sake of seeing V and Uzi interact? Yes. Yes I did.
Am I delusional? Of course I am. I’m a writer.
I saw something sparkling that wasn’t being uncovered so I decided to grab a shovel and dig it up myself. I adore pairings of two hurt people finding solace in one another when life has screwed them both royally.
plannin on animating over storyboard?
Is md intermission gonna be a whole fan-made show?
Oh definitely not :,) I am very happy people enjoyed Intermission, however to make an entire show it would require for me to hire an entire team. While I understand there are people out there willing to do the work for free, I’m not comfortable with not compensating people for their work.
Secondly I’d like to focus on my own projects as well. I have work I’ve been doing to create my own stories. I don’t post much about them, but they are concepts I have in the backburner.
Intermission was meant to serve as a challenge to me. See how far I can go! Push my limits! Really test myself to better understand where I am as a creator right now and what steps I need to take to become even better.
The possibility of me creating another episode is incredibly slim, especially with how exhausted I am. I made a splash with Intermission, and for now I’m content with that.
As for animating, that also just comes back to budget :,) People are free to animate the episode, but I just can’t do it myself unfortunately.
md-intermission-archive Follow Intermission Scene 3 ThumbnailsScene 3 went through a good amount of shot and writing changes during its development!Like initially rather than N pulling V to the side, it was V who pulled N to the side. I made that change since V doesn't feel like someone who'd try to keep her disdain on the downlow. On top of that the shot choices created a jumpcut so I decided to scrap the idea.#Murder Drones: Intermission#Murder Drones
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md-intermission-archive Follow "Murder Drones: Intermission": A Story of UnderstandingUzi Doorman: Understanding LonelinessI feel like during the development of this episode, Uzi was the hardest character for me to wrap my head around. To my understanding, she’s feisty, angsty, and plays up this persona of being apathetic. A sort of lone wolf thing.She’s snappy towards her classmates who ostracize her, snappy towards adults in her life, and overall gives a middle finger to anyone who isn’t on Team Uzi. It’s a very “me vs. the world” type of thing. That, to me, just felt like the callous shell of someone who’s painfully fragile and has been hurt so often.I will admit, I may be projecting slightly, but I honestly read her as like… a neurodivergent kid who didn’t know how to navigate social circles, so she just became incredibly bitter. Her father didn’t help her situation at all because he also treated her like a freak, literally calling her a disappointment in his business ads. Then on top of all that she had no mother figure to look up to. All of this accumulates into a habit of isolation. “No one will love me, so fuck it. I’m on my own”. She acts like she’s fine on her own, when in reality she’s so starved for genuine connection. With that in mind, in Intermission I wanted to peel back those layers a little bit. I wanted to explore self-isolation and that hunger for love. Some people clocked this I think: the way Uzi’s attitude is toned down in Intermission. I didn’t want to play up her angsty teen act as much (and I capped her at one “bite me”) because then I’d risk falling into the trap of making her into a caricature of herself. The way I framed her in my head is “if she wants connection, then she’d be happier around people who she sees as her friends. If she’s also fragile though, she’ll make an immediate 180 at the slightest hint of meanspiritedness”. This was the guideline I gave myself when it came to bouncing her off of V and N. N melts her icy demeanor. He’s very gentle and encouraging with her. One example being how N kneeled down to her eye level when speaking to her when she was putting up her walls again. As someone who’s constantly ostracized, she needs a gentle touch in order to relax.I made sure to keep that in mind, that while she was being treated gently, she should show more signs of happiness. Comfort. Part of that comfort is also reflected in being mischievous/playful. As for the 180 she makes if shown any sort of cruelty, that’s reflected in acts of self-isolation. This is something I’ve observed from myself and people in my life. If someone is already deathly afraid of rejection, they won’t reach out for help and their immediate instinct will be to isolate. In the beginning of the EP when Uzi’s having her Solver flare up her immediate thought is “I’m going to put up a firewall (repress) and just not even mention this to anybody”. Then when N offers to help, she still shows signs of being uncomfortable because she’s not used to it. It isn’t until V’s comment calling her a lost cause irks her that she decides “screw it let’s give it a shot”. She hates being underestimated, so this reaction made sense to me. Meanwhile the climax of the episode is where I wanted the most overt display of her fears to be presented.As I said earlier, Uzi’s sensitive to rejection. She attacked the only people in her life who care about her, and the worst part was it wasn’t even her fault. Uzi is a person who really wants a sense of control over her life for the sake of security, so that loss of control and the idea of “oh my god they hate me now” was the final straw for her. So, she isolated. She ran off (or in this case, flew off), she barricaded herself, and she cried.During the scene when Uzi's found, I had a bit of an issue figuring out where to go from there with her. I had two options: I could once again lean into her badass persona and have her fight back, or I could have her fold. I decided the latter. To her, she just lost the only people who cared about her, she's a monster to worker drone society, her father doesn't care about her.What's the point. She's doomed to be alone.If V didn't have her revelation, Uzi would've let herself die. While I understand that's an upsetting choice to make in the narrative, given Uzi's circumstances it felt like the appropriate reaction. Which is why the events following were so important.While Uzi's at her lowest point she's shown pinch of kindness.While it’s true V’s initial intention was to off Uzi, her showing compassion and sympathy was what helped calm Uzi down. Rather than making her put up walls like V usually does, V was able to break through them a tad. That interaction, N pouncing at her with a hug, and the final scene was meant to cement in Uzi’s head that she finally wasn’t alone (even if V still struggled to not be prickly with her). The three are still incredibly messy, but there’s that sense of trust that Uzi now has people in her life that actually care about her despite her messiness. The mischievous attitude even comes out when she says, “you found a nanospark of warmth in your heart to care about me”. She now feels more comfortable with V to an extent, and she finally has a support system.I think…the reason why I love Uzi so much is that she’s sadly reflects the experience of what it's like not being able to fit into society's mold of acceptable. Even if she might not be neurodivergent, the bullying and isolation she experiences is very familiar. I wanted to do her justice as much as I could with that all in mind and with the resources I had. I wanted to give her one happy ending to a day when every other feels like utter hell.The angsty teen may be badass, but her heart is still fragile.#Murder Drones#Murder Drones: Intermission#Character analysis#character study#Uzi Doorman#Long Post