本音
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人が羨ましいと思っては
自分が情けないと思ったりする…
どうして私にはできないんだろぅ
あんなに怪我するまで…
昔は何故、、やってしまったんだろぅ
私は、若い頃に
競技スキーをやっておりました。![ショボーン](data:image/webp;base64,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)
![ショボーン](https://stat100.ameba.jp/blog/ucs/img/char/char3/017.png)
今…膝が痛くて
普通に歩くことも 日々しんどかったりして
『この先、杖を使わずに一生あるかるのかな』
なんて…いつも考えたり![悲しい](data:image/webp;base64,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)
![悲しい](https://stat100.ameba.jp/blog/ucs/img/char/char4/596.png)
ゴルフをしてた頃は
カートに乗って移動すれば
ラウンドしても
そんなに苦痛ではなかったけれど
ムキになって練習すると
やっぱり、左膝は痛かったなぁ💦なんて
グチグチ書いたけど
要するに
周りの人が、羨ましいなぁって
思うことが いっぱい![ショボーン](data:image/webp;base64,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)
![ショボーン](https://stat100.ameba.jp/blog/ucs/img/char/char3/017.png)
家族が居て
毎日意地悪されるわけでもなく
みんな楽しそうに生きてる…
私、あと何年生きれるのかな
さっきは、強がって
モチベーション下げたくない
なんて書けたけど
結局は
豚子さんも、マウント子さんも
私が病むのを
楽しんでるんだと思うと
凄くしんどくて
仕事行きたくなくて
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