I’ve searched the web to find other pedophiles.. or maybe young girls that are attracted to older men.

I find so much hate.. There are no rights for pedophiles.. People seem to think the constitution doesn’t apply to us.

I see people confusing pedophiles for rapists.

I am a pedophile. I would will never hurt anyone.. I search for a young girl that would appreciate and enjoy my affection. I seek to satisfy my own urges while satisfying another’s. The same reverberating extacy/mutual/intimate/loving relationship gay and strait people seek.

There are strait people rapists.. why can’t I pretend all strait people are rapists? or perhaps all gay people are rapists because there are gay rapists… Why do strait people get to run ramp-it with hate & prejudice directed towards pedophiles and not the other way around?

The same reason whites did it to blacks in early america. The same reason men did it to women in early civilization. The same reason straits did it to gays in the 90s. Prejudice and majority rule.

pedophiles don’t have a chance to speak out, they are arrested for their taste regardless of whether they are productive members of society or not. Young girls that like older men don’t have a chance, they are squelched , humiliated, brainwashed, and afraid to express their true feelings because of the majority.

I don’t have any attraction for adult women. I don’t find them beautiful. I do find them aesthetic though. I find girls 6-12 to be beautiful. I live in a world of people that like to rape, use, and hurt the people they think are beautiful, and I suppose they figure I am the same way. I am not. Or maybe they are just grossed out, hateful, and violent.

The strange thing is.. I find strait adults gross. When they kiss, etc.. I tolerate them. Why should I tolerate them if they don’t tolerate my tastes?

They say such mean things.. why should I be so nice to them in return?

They throw you in jail to live out your life in a box and wish mean things on you because of your taste..

How can I not act the same way in return?
I don’t.. but I should.. unlike most people though I’m intelligent. I know that they are simply foolish, hateful, violent, and uncivilized. To equal the playing field I will fight for my rights.. and live my life in the shadows of their foolishness and ignorance.

You will never catch me, and when you are smart enough to catch me, you will then understand me and we will welcome each other in mutuality and understanding.

I was in an apple store today looking at ipods.. The place was so crowded I could hardly move around. There stood a young Indian woman.. athletic. Very shapely. Her jealous looking bf seemed to orbit her as she seemed to posed in front of an invisible stage. I suppose people find such insecure driven relationships flattering. I think it’s desperate, one sided, and self indulgent, but to each his own…
Anyway, I noticed a girl following me. she look 9 or 10. I suppose I just looked like an attractive guy to her. I am attractive I’m lucky, but I’m not a prick about it. She followed by my side every time I’d go to check out a new phone to play with. I wonder what she was doing? was she hovering close to me to look at me? Did she have some sort of attraction for me? I was flattered all the same. I was checking out all the women. But I was flattered most by my young new friend.. if only I could return the favor..
If only I could tell her ‘hi’ or tell her that she has pretty eyes. I’ve seen better yes, but she was beautiful to me all the same.

Oh well.. I ignored her… unfortunately. I was afraid.. society has made me so…

I stay single, unwilling to date women my own age. I’ve tried it many times before.. It’s not good for me. My experiences with women are sad.. I appear to be a man lacking in sex drive and zeal. The truth is, I find girlfriends more to be my friends then lovers.. Although I feel love for them and even lust, my preference is more cordial.

I yearn to look eye to eye and feel the warm soft embrace of a very young girl child whom I would never hurt. And any sexual actions initiated by her would meet the most responsive, primal, and cautious response. Maybe someday in a more sensitive, open minded world.