frequently whether i’m flagging as a man or a woman in posts depends on the content of the bit. in all possible universes my meat is small and weak though

the haters have entombed me in a mystical cocoon. their plan is for my flesh and spirit to transform entirely into a beautiful new creature, never before beheld by man. perfect for their cringe compilation

breastmilk is for closers

serenely remembering the moment when isabel fall published “helicopter story” aka “i sexually identify as an attack helicopter”, which instantiated harassment from her clouty new-wave scifi friends that radiated outwards into transmisogynist scifi normies and became so severe she wound up in inpatient. people took up the cause of the story in the name of “free artistic expression” and “speaking difficult truths”, which was not incorrect but which was kind of missing the forest for the trees in that specific situation: the age-old game of “kill the baby trans girl out of professional jealousy, farm clout off of doing it”. the roles could have been completely reversed - the transmisogynist acquaintances could have been writing edgy outsider lit and could have been encouraging mass harassment against her for being a tenderqueer sellout (i swear to god i have seen this shit too). effect would have been the same.

when trans women in FSF talk about this shit, they usually talk about it from the angles of “censorious tenderqueers tried to kill someone over a story” or, in the most sympathetic voice i’ve seen out of someone in journalism, “public pressure functionally forced this exciting trans writer back into the closet”. but they generally miss the degree to which it was intimate, personal transmisogynist violence, which bled into and intersected with the logics of mob justice, of “community safety” (remember, part of the substance of the accusations was that she was a stealth nazi, which frankly knowing a little about both the accusers and IF herself I can say confidently was not just vacuous but knowingly vacuous, them lying through their teeth), and again, professional jealousy.

i have seen people who crowed the loudest about what got done to IF do it to other people. it’s the easiest thing in the world, and it happens all the time, and you can do it whenever you want - try and have some weird tranny rival or inconvenient tranny ex-friend killed - and it engenders no moral stain, no whispers, no reputation. i think they don’t even have a conception that they’re hypocrites. why would they? nothing that happens to anyone like that is real. human life is cheap if it’s in the wrong body. everything they hold is stolen, everything they are is negotiable, for everything they do someone else surely deserves the credit. why not you? don’t you deserve it more?