I don't think femboys are hot liz. I think my oldest friend, my true love, my father, and my brother all conspired to steal my miracle child from me. I don't hold you fully responsible. I think there was a miscommunication between us. But like you, none of the others involved have ever dared to be honest be honest about it. You guys all took the choice away from me, which left me a broken human and since you wont be honest I can never heal. I am destined to die because the people that love me most wont admit their fuck up. Along with a life time of abuse by my mom and losing you over sex, I get anxiety about normal porn and just humans in general now. When the one that gods put here just for you specifically ends up ghosting you and never calling it a mistake....it leaves the world feeling dangerous. When you don't understand and you have to watch your dream girl give her love to all those closest to you but leave in silence, it rips your heart out. I think now that you did have twins tho. You were with caleb because it was the next best thing. You're with court so you can be close to Hazel. I suppose it's better than being around your evil sister to get time with Johnny. The only problem is that where does that leave me? Broken without a single human willing to help me. Everyone in my life just lies to me. I can't fix it and you guys wont work with me, so I'll kill myself for you. It's what you want and I've known awhile. It just sucks, because I've known since day one this was all a mistake and I've wrote you daily for four years trying to fix it. The gods had big things planned for us, I swear. In the end I lost everything I love because of the people I loved most and I had no control at any point. If I had I'd have made it clear we all need to be honest, so there is no miscommunication. Ours was the greatest love the universe had ever known