TLDR/ My Whole life is flipped upside down, I'm losing my best friend & hero (my dad), my kid is mad at me for not telling her, and SO wants to cancel Christmas. Ive got no one to talk to so im just gonna put this out there. Read or don't, the choice is yours.  My Dad hasn't always been the best or even a good dad but he has always ben there for me. There were even times when we went round 4 round. But at the end of the day he is still my dad and I'm not ready to say goodbye. In the last few yrs this man has recovered from a stroke, had  several stents put in place, 1 that almost killed him. Things were good for awhile Then came Cancer (Bladder) He did the chemo & all for a while & the tumor went away, cancer free… or so we thought  A few months after that he starts getting sick again another tumor shows up in his lymph node. After about 18 rounds of chemo & all, it's not working. Drs have given him a few months at best, he ain't making it that long. He's got no fight left in him. Now I watch the man who taught me how to throw a football and had my 1st beer with just waste away to nothing. I'm trying to stay strong for my family but I'm so broken inside ya know I can't stop thinking of all the things he won't be there for, all the things we wont get to do again. He's only 67, I just want more time. My kids know granddaddy is sick but they didn't know the end is coming until my dad slipped up. Kids were asking what they (mom & dad) wanted for Xmas. My dad tells them don't waste your money I'm not gonna be here. My oldest knew what he meant & now mad at us cause we didn't tell her. I know she's hurt & I can't fix that. She wanted to build a gaming PC (I posted about that last week) with him this year. Many of you wonderful people offered advice, parts, and such. To those who did reach out, thank you but I gotta decline. It's just not gonna happen. It was something for them (My daughter & dad) to do together but he's gotten too weak to do anything at this point.  My SO wants to just cancel Christmas this year and im at that point where i just don't care. It's just too much for us right now. The little money we have set aside for presents is gonna go to help my mom out. She took a LOA to be by his side until this is over. The last thing I want is her worrying about money and bills. We can do presents & all another time, the kids will eventually understand.  This all feels like a bad dream that I can't wake up from.  Time is borrowed… tell those who matter you love them, cherish the moments you have with them and make memories.

While shooting aircraft this fellow walked by in the riverbed.