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Better luck next time, man.
(Edit: some small changes, mostly to make it clear that I don't blame his ex in any way.)
(Edit2: I've been vaguely wanting to reconnect with the LA animation scene now that I'm back on the west coast. Doing it over the death of one of my closest friends during my time down there is about the worst goddamn way possible to do that. Hi, Amid. And hi, everyone who's coming here from Cartoon Brew. I'll see some of you guys at the funeral soon, I guess. Fuck. And I'm starting to cry again just thinking about that.)
I really think it was a mistake, rather than a deliberate act (there are some details of the manner of his death I've left out), but in the state he was in... it's damn hard to tell.
I drew this, then just kinda stared at the net processing this event with some of Ricky's other friends via Facebook. Listened to the cited song, which is about a similar kind of loss... and dug up an e-mail address to thank Dolby for sharing HIS pain, because it helped me with mine.
Then I could sleep.
Thanks.
May he rest in peace.
*sending gentleness to you at this time*
(I was gonna riff off his last strip and say "goddamnit, next time listen to the cat" at the very bottom, but it didn't quite make sense what with Kimbo being pretty much suffocated anyway.)
*hugs*
Edited at 2011-12-08 05:41 pm (UTC)
I just wish I could e-mail this - and Gabe's essay, and the ton of comments on Facebook - to him a week ago. Maybe it'd create a much-desired paradox.
(Which, were we in the world of Ricky's comic, would probably result in something far, far worse happening when Ricky accidentally opened the gate to the apocalypse next year or something.)
Thanks.
thank you
As somebody who has gone through depression (and still does), it really hits close to home.
Re: thank you
Thanks. *hug*
I've heard you talk about him before, he was really important to you, even though you were far apart. :/
My condolences on your loss. *more hugs*
Thanks.
its sad that he's gone but i would like it if you didnt mix his ex up in this, you may cause anger towards her
she is even afraid to go to the funeral if there is one because she is worried people will blame her.
All I really know about that relationship is the obviously biased narrative I get from its mirror in his comic and our email - he always made it sound more like she dumped him to me.
I have nothing but sympathy for her position here. I don't even know her name but I don't blame her for his death, or his depression. This is just me trying to put down what I saw, and dig into some of why it hit me so damn hard.
Edited at 2011-12-09 03:24 am (UTC)
And thank you.
I didn't know Ricky personally--I think I met him once in passing when I went with you to the animation school--but I knew he was your friend and learning of his death was a shock. I replied to your Facebook post but deleted it because ":(" seemed trite and inadequate even if it would have been the most genuine ":(" I ever typed.
Hell, have you seen obit posts on Metafilter? The tradition there is that it you don't have anything to say - or can't find the words - you just comment with ".". Yes, a sole period. And some of those are pretty damn heartfelt "."s.
*hugs*
d'oh