22時に寝て今現在
また過去ブログ読んでいる
2016.2017.2018
わりかしハッピーなブログ書いてる
2019
思い悩んでる
2020
鬱
期待したり 試したりしてる時期って1番つらいんだよな
この頃のわたし
育児は楽しかったから、毎日自然の多い2キロ先の公園に行きながら、
子供とガッツリ遊べる時間は長くないんだろうな。
保育園入るまでの3年間大変だけど
なんて尊い時間なんだ、、
って思ってたから
(今も思うけど)
それが自分の価値観で
大切にするべきものだと思ってたから
夫婦間での価値観のズレが
辛かったんだな
時間は戻ってこないんだぞ!!
が口癖だった、、![💸](data:image/png;base64,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)
私の手相には
ファミリーリングがあるんだ![!!](data:image/svg+xml,<svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="96" height="96"><rect fill-opacity="0"/></svg>)
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唯一の自慢![🤣](data:image/png;base64,iVBORw0KGgoAAAANSUhEUgAAAEgAAABICAMAAABiM0N1AAAAvVBMVEVHcEz/y0xkqt1kqt3/y0z/y0z/y0z/y0z/y0z/y0xkqt3/y0y2vJH/y0z/y0ydtqhkqt3/y0xkqt1kqt1kqt1kqt1kqt1lRxv/y0xkqt1vTx71xErFmjqQbCnZqkCfeS2yo43su0biskNrqtP///+CYCSogTCyiTRyVCaOd1bi3dR4XjjnxmPPoj28kTfJwH9lY1PFuqqFr7z19PFmfobs6OOwtZ2hjWvZ0cZlUzN+fmt3rs9knMKCakaomH+0sCqFAAAAF3RSTlMA33spgElgIJ/vTc/+j7/9va/vn9+Pz1Lta7YAAAPpSURBVHjapZjXeuIwEEYhFNMCIWFX414xvaWX3X3/x1pLLmMzUkyScwucSP8U53PjE7RuezyEjOa43dUa36DTawKh2et8zaJd90FB/1q7/DBT+JTpZcfSelBLT2u0Br9uZvrtzVVL4Wn3oZ7DZKYX3EmPMwQZlsHckiXUK9zSQ3Xlx9mxhAA429EHGpSmNkgJDC5yuGaiS/ld9ShSNufcM08097qKAfVQYuExYaSrmV3gcbjH8NEjpUXyIYiL7QAOn4quinqBAot7bEiYXCLSlG245BczhfLxAtEQENpCCwA/Nhh7rBW1QYUtDuS7THAMlfWvuZjJEtwFy9moWolUXha1kVmWcQCSLsDB7YASlxXYFnCwv+mwTUGJXWgcKBiFioRATaYxrKr+rHwHTYiua0W2CWX2jL2VVOEBroWoXyfay7bK2316wT8jE6BPopb1tUWGj7OJVm/H4/Et/biDtZcT2LZDtorgNfKYYA4JvUTUhC/hMMG/KBcxHwCapGZ1mEZ6sQchwgg1+f6obax1hCKxY7p0Xik0IC9KeMmbDBLajTE5vOXafLAC6egJVhFnxUohjc830Q6HAggBywPiLFmGI9Ku/kX+oVLkp0Ev18LzxHJ2kFAWOXNWwpE83wSnSHBiOYuqyIxZGYt6MGiMiIqC7HuGa+B8SQr/knkemFy0M1LNwlzIA3KxYIJnucgq9oUvfKbC8/chF21QtC+JDPHzXf4Lq9ZzqpQFRWKMfV5ivBj1LJ+inA0RNfNv2mYxA47Csy48HisBCcN8RAIH4HligkEPZNrE85Q1Li6kMQ4tf2KFYhB3pH8KD/YQ4oqhxTWyDfkG5r+ozoXE49HW7eJim+h6aoqrm556XlkFka1WrNqtnvLIArI3sO6cdREQRtTE5f+sZ7wDEks8D38ZvVmveByZYS4Kt+cxs5XCg0PQKR6QB73gHlIcg+GcyjxYsz4+su91ZITX4ngKD+7Z7JGtZVEjW9wqbHmKkDXxxJDWTDDNo8bL7fNrbdYR8irqRROaCo2I+0Ov8M4wZtKHpGQiakFvq1f5I4nnaUU9NqS1z9HIP4aP5Fpedi16sb7WKLg5F4X8/4TStU4bJiGAdF4RnXDcvGLNn1FDAxo2kAEVfRTRnDAb6hEXQ650yvs/z/NeVpiMzCP2R43oyAjUgwFh1rK6qTECwMr/QGSb6PmByLCAeL6TUWwC5lOlRT2h6jSxDyn9boMyI6KJNWeUuWVCxhD7R96RuG/9vW2UJS5aoN9uyLk7Ex0gxXd2i4S945y/9iFITYfvvIiilbsd/OjVWOvuVmhmVz9/WdcaDAYtxevDYc3rw/9x8rWZSkmNEwAAAABJRU5ErkJggg==)
それは手相占いしてもらって
最近知ったのだけど
私の家族に対する
圧がすげえ
のは、そういう事だったのかと思った。ちなみに 実家家族にも家族への圧がすげえって思われてると思う
同じような、
家族への「圧がすげえ系」の人と結婚したら幸せになれそうだ![💒](data:image/png;base64,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)
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