It’s hard to imagine how in an instance, I made a decision that has nothing to do with who I am, rather a desire for money and it will continue to define me for the remainder of my lifetime. It’s amazing how different I feel my story has been than some. My story is not terrifying. It is beautiful and full of people with goodness in their hearts. I’ve actually been protected and respected by my two employers post porn and I am forever grateful for their acceptance. I have made it to this point, through feelings of hopelessness and regret, to find strength and reason to move forward. Here I will spend my time sharing my real experiences with you and how they have hindered my ability to thrive outside of porn. I honestly do not feel like it’s something you cannot overcome, if you want to badly enough. However still only three years out of the industry and I am just beginning my endeavors of integrating back into society! I’m doing a deep cleanse of my mind, body and spirit by practicing abstinence, focusing on positive self talk and capturing visuals and ideas of the world that truly make me happy! I’ll post my fears and thoughts on roughly a weekly basis. Stay tuned for a beautiful ride inside the mind of someone I’m sure you assumed didn’t have a brain. I hope I can inspire a few women not to give up and share the experience in my own words. Let’s all pray my lifelong outcome is a positive one! When you realize that failure is a natural part of the journey, especially when you’re growing and learning new skills, you will not be scared of the experience.