さて 検査結果を聞く日
昨夜 夢の中で私はすでに入院していて
だけど麻酔が効かずに手術できない
って悪夢とともに目覚め気分の悪いままA病院へ
3つの検査結果は「積極的に悪性病変を示唆する強い異常集積は指摘できません」
つまり、ほぼ悪性ではない!
なぜ「ほぼ」かといえば子宮筋腫が良性か悪性か100%判断できるのは摘出して病理検査に出さないとわからないらしい![上差し](data:image/png;base64,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)
ほかに辛い症状が出てきていないので 今すぐに手術!ではなくても良いが早く取りたいならすぐ入院の予約入れますよ?
と 聞かれ…迷う
正直「はい!すぐ手術したいです!」とはこの場で言えず 先生と相談した結果 2〜3ヶ月後にサイズを測ってこれ以上大きくなっていたら手術する!となった!
ハズが…3/11 前回A病院へ行ってから1週間
決めた![!](data:image/png;base64,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)
手術する![!!](data:image/png;base64,iVBORw0KGgoAAAANSUhEUgAAAGAAAABgCAMAAADVRocKAAAAY1BMVEUAAAD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/QgD/TwD/ZgD/eQD/iwD/XQD/hgD/VAD/awD/fQD/dAD/YgD/RgD/WQD/ggD/cAD/SwBv8woeAAAAEHRSTlMAEHCw8KBQkGAgwDDQQOCAm9EwQwAAAAFvck5UAc+id5oAAAABc1JHQgCuzhzpAAACyklEQVRo3u2Z23biMAxFG0i4BBp2EkK5pAP//5XzQEuJbSmyWTN9yXneihe2JR+Jt7dJkyZNmjRJUTab5wD5fJa9wkihBU8qslRG0iJnoHyRxkha4mmZwox8v27atm2bOhhtYSSt7qHt/kvtPXwVy0ha5wDdYf/QoQPI13GMqAKg2w/UARRxjPgDAOq9oxpgHcOImgG0bnALMIthRJXAx97TB1DGMKIAjn7wESCGURdo/eDWXWCMkbQBOOnBG2GBE0D227/g/yxw9oPP7gJjjKgt0PjBDbCNYdQ8uPjBFzcPxhi1VgtJtIxh1FLR+8G9WyrGGFHvAAc39gDwHsPIz71cyLIYRlYVuiINUMUxoubApxv8CczjGFG70An2wC6O0U/5zzD2j3N+FkY/5esw+Oqcn4XRi8XFz9FtLKPaitp/z4tYRjdeBy+FVrGMblzOXh1exzJ6ql3c7a3iGfshBLbXwpgPIbS9FkY/hKtzw9fxjJ4J3dDWblMY9VW7/QTfpA5njJFbtIH7OgEsUhijQRUsp4WxWWzBNFsYvUk4PF3AWRpjqhZSDfCYTUwnXv1cwk6qARZGvaj9z0u4TGX0i3p9pOgilZGVc3cmDUCezujdMvW9gS/SGf0efc9R1unM2MRCn0BYGMUfVffQ6v01Rus4d7vdbPM6M2nSv9NiWZZluVy8ykhZWn0nabV6hZG6kPJ54lpmqYz4/e1wprvN0hjV2kHfNU3X36PTGK3RfDTCDYTaRwsjblAO9EPXlmc60wcY/Sk4OtPEVTyj9vq35+bi5vfwFsY+rWjCLVSTMqkIzvwC0z4L83sL5O7k+Oj7Hgtjn48HzLmFMU/4Q3N7C6ObrtujRz3cpC5zhBnxjfVXmp7qoDO0MHqtgO7cns4dBKuAhVHslPsv3yaNsa4QjrUwykE/PVdzyV3Pnx60aHf9tikqgKrYvMT8BRNo0zLbR/rAAAAAAElFTkSuQmCC)
ずっと子宮筋腫のことを気にして万が一の万が一に私の筋腫が肉腫だったらなんて悩んで生活するのはやっぱりヤダ![真顔](data:image/png;base64,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)
手術する!と決意しA病院に4/17に予約を入れていつ手術をするかなど担当の先生と相談することにした!
手術をする!と決めてからは気分が楽になり 同じように子宮筋腫の手術をした方たちのブログを毎日のように読んでいた!(今の時代に感謝)
つづく